Title: Vignettes in Verse
Author: Matilda Betham
Release date: February 1, 2004 [eBook #11194]
Most recently updated: October 28, 2024
Language: English
Credits: Produced by Jonathan Ingram, David Garcia and the Online Distributed
Proofreading Team.
As far as the seventy-fourth page, these Poems have been printed about two years; during which many things happened likely to prevent their ever appearing. The time, however, is now come, and I have to-day found the remainder, up to where the lines end with
"Its unpolluted birthright."
On reading the whole over, they struck me with much surprise, as they appear in a singular manner prophetic. I wrote them with a general, and somewhat undefined view; and they now take the aspect of speaking on what has since happened to myself—a long seclusion, during which I was bereft of the common means of study, having given rise to one that has turned out far more important than I at first imagined, and which I have continued since, to the exclusion of every other pursuit.
Stonkam, May 10th, 1818.
If writing Journals were my task, From cottagers to kings— A little book I'd only ask, And fill it full of wings!
Each pair should represent a day: On some the sun should rise, While others bent their mournful way Through cold and cloudy skies.
And here I would the light'ning bring With threatening, forked glare; And there the hallowed rainbow fling Across the troubled air.
Some faint and wearily should glide Their broken flight along— While some high in the air should ride Dilated, bold, and strong.
Some agitated and adrift, Against their will should rove; Some, steering forward, sure and swift, Should scarcely seem to move—
While others, happiest of their kind! Should in the ether soar, As if no care would ever find, No sorrow reach them more;
When soon an arrow from below Should wound them in their flight, And many a crimson drop should flow Before they fell in sight.
The rapid and abrupt descent, The stain'd and ruffled plume, Would seem as if they were not meant Their ardour to resume.
But soon their beauty and their force Sweet hours of rest renew; Full soon their light, their varied course Careering they pursue.
Alternately to rise and fall, Or float along the day— And this is Fortune—This is all I would vouchsafe to say!
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Lucy, I think not of thy beauty, I praise not each peculiar grace; To see thee in the path of duty, And with that happy, smiling face, Conveys more pleasure to thy friend, Than any outward charm could lend.
I see thy graceful babes caress thee, I mark thy wise, maternal care, And sadly do the words impress me, The magic words—that thou art fair. I wonder that a tongue is found To utter the unfeeling sound!
For, art thou not above such praises? And is this all that they can see? Poor is the joy such flattery raises, And, oh! how much unworthy thee! Unworthy one whose heart can feel The voice of truth, the warmth of zeal!
O Lucy, thou art snatch'd from folly, Become too tender to be vain, The world, it makes me melancholy, The world would lure thee back again! And it would cost me many sighs, To see it win so bright a prize!
Though passing apprehensions move me, I know thou hast a noble heart; But, Lucy, I so truly love thee, So much admire thee as thou art, That, but the shadow of a fear, Wakes in my breast a pang sincere. |
This twilight gloom. This lone retreat—
For here unheard the moments fly—
And for this dear, this precious hour,
How oft I wonder at my lot! |
"Come, Edmund, now the sun goes down, Thy many wanderings tell! Say, after all thine eyes have seen, If home appears so well!"
"So well! alas! ye do not know How absence can endear! In every hill, in every tree, A thousand charms appear.
"The verdure of these English fields Seems in my heart to glow— There, as this shaded river winds, I feel its waters flow.
"For, though I ventured forth so bold, So long, so far did roam, Affection, like a wayward child, Still wept and murmur'd, home!
"I persevered, yet still I strained The pleader to my breast; I hush'd her cries, but as I chid More fondly still carest.
"And when I met with foreign dames Of grace and beauty rare— I fancied one dear village girl Like them: but oh! how fair!
"My early playmate! oft I humm'd The lays she lisping sung! And sigh'd when looking on the arm, Where she at parting hung.
"Then, joy! within my native vale To find my Ellen free! To fancy others pleas'd her not, Because she thought on me!
"So closely round a glowing heart Did never flowers entwine! Oh! ne'er was mortal spirit lull'd With visions sweet as mine!" |
Hope has her emblem, so has Love, But I have vainly sought For one, that might entirely prove The picture of my thought.
If violets, when fresh with dew, Could amaranthine be, Their soothing, deep, and glowing hue Would justly speak for me.
Or to some plant with tendrils fine, With blossoms sweet and gay, This office I would now assign; But flowers will all decay!
A bird would suit my purpose more, With filial heart endued; But, ere their little life is o'er, Birds lose their gratitude!
No emblem of the love I feel Appears within my view; Less ardent, or less pure the zeal, Less tender, or less true!
All I can do is to avow, My services are thine; And that my spirit still shall bow, Before my Valentine. |
I look'd into her eyes, And saw something divine, For there, like summer lightning, Swift coruscations shine.
Still flashing, and still changing, Attemper'd soft and bright, Through each expression ranging, From pity to delight.
From high or zealous feeling, From arch, excursive grace, From all with which a lovely mind Endows the human face.
Perhaps a new and careless eye May not those beauties see, And wonder to behold the power Belinda has with me.
The spell which holds this captive soul She never would possess, Were not her varying features rul'd By sparkling playfulness,
But when with aimless, trackless skill Is twin'd a mazy chain, In the warm foldings of a heart, Perforce it must remain.
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Come, Magdalen, and bind my hair, And put me on my sad array; I to my father's house repair, And hear his final doom to-day.
But wrap me in that cypress veil; At first his eye I would not brave, 'Till he shall bid the mourner hail, And knows I come from Edwin's grave.
I, late his boast, his heir, his pride, Must like a guilty vassal kneel; I, who was gallant Edwin's bride, Must to my widow'd state appeal!
Closely within my heart must keep His praise for whom that heart is riv'n, And let each fond resentment sleep, For I must die or be forgiven.
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Manuel, I do not shed a tear, Our parting to delay! I dare not listen to my fear! I dare not bid thee stay!
The heart may shrink, the spirit fail, But Spaniards must be free; And pride and duty shall prevail O'er all my love for thee!
Then go! and round that gallant head, Like banners in the air, Shall float full many a daring hope, And many a tender prayer!
Should freedom perish—at thy death, 'T'were folly to repine— And I should every feeling lose, Except the wish for mine!
But if the destiny of Spain, Be once again to rise, Oh! grant me heaven, to read the tale, In Manuel's joyful eyes!
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I am unskill'd in speech: my tongue is slow The graceful courtesies of life to pay; To deck kind meanings up in trim array, Keeping the mind's soft tone: words such as flow From Complaisance, when she alone inspires! And Caution, with a care that never tires, Marshals each tribe of thoughts in such a way That all are ready for their needful task, The moment the occasion comes to ask, All prompt to hear, to answer and obey; When mine, undisciplin'd, their cause betray, By coward falterings, or rebellious zeal!— And Art, though subtle, though sublime thy sway, I doubt if thou canst rule us, when we feel!
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And didst thou think that worldly art
But how could I so foolish be, |
Go forth, my voice, through the wild air, In the lone stillness of the night, Beneath the cold moon's pale blue light; Seek Eugenia, and declare, As warmth and promise lurk below A waste of lifeless, drifted snow;
So, while my lips inertly move, While many heavy fetters bind, And press upon my languid mind, Oh! tell her not to doubt my love! Affection still her hold shall keep, Although her weary servants sleep.
Friendship to me is like a flower, Yielding a balm for human woe, I less than ever could forego; More prized, more needed every hour! Perchance it dies for want of care, But as it withers, I despair!
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'Tis said, that jealous of a name We all would praise confine, And choke the leading path to fame In our peculiar line.
But vainly should detraction preach If once I made it known, The art of pleasing thou would'st teach Acknowledg'd for thy own.
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Yes! I can suffer, sink with pain,
Yes! I can faint, and I can fear,
Oft, panic-struck, I sink, dismay'd, |
Talent and beauty, and the heart's warm glow, |
Behold the semblance of thy flower! I could not fill its leaves with dew, Shew its tints varying with the hour, Its motion as the zephyrs blew.
And beauty too were more complete, Appearing on the native stem, In midst of buds and blossoms sweet, And catching graces, charms from them.
Or blooming under eyes like thine, Whose fond, soft gaze, whose tender tear, Must also, losing power divine, Awake no answering sweetness here.
For much of loveliness must sleep, E'en when inspir'd and led by truth; The faithful pencil aims to keep Mildness and innocence and youth.
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An Hour was before me, no creature more bright,
I had hold, and securely I thought, of its wing,
Oh! while she is with me, some means may be found
When this can be compass'd, I'll build me a bower,
A place of repose, when the spirit is faint,
In this sacred retreat I my cares would confide,
How fondly I nourish'd these hopes, but in vain! |
Hopes all glowing, Wishes rare, Blessings mixed with many a Prayer, Flowers as yet beyond compare, Though flourishing in northern air.
Farewells twined with tender Fears, Golden day-dreams, gemm'd with tears, Affections nurtur'd many years, Before this perfect bloom appears.
Thoughts of fondness and of pride, Love-vanities we need not hide; Heart-blossoms, in its crimson dyed, For you, are here together tied.
And yet they all appear too poor, Though goodness can ensure no more; Though monarchs, whom the world adore, Would purchase such with all their store.
And while this charmed gift we send, We know where'er your footsteps bend, The looks and tones that win the friend, That kindness, nature, truth, attend,
Are yours, and must be with you still, Angelic guards, go where they will, To ward off much surrounding ill, And happiest destinies fulfil.
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Believing love was all a bubble, And wooing but a needless trouble, Damon grew fond of posied rings, And many such romantic things; But whether it were Fortune's spite, That study wound his brain too tight, Or that his fancy play'd him tricks, He could not on the lady fix. He look'd around, And often found, A damsel passing fair; "She's good enough," he then would cry, And rub his hands, and wink his eye, "I'll be enamour'd there!"
He thus resolved; but had not power To hold the humour "half an hour"— And critics, vers'd in Cupid's laws, Pretended they had found a clause, In an old volume on the shelf;— Which said, if arrows chanc'd to fly, When no bright nymph was passing by, And lighted on a vacant breast; The swain, Narcissus-like possest, Strait doated on himself!
If so, his anxious friends declar'd
Poor Damon bit his nails and sigh'd,
Half piqued to see him thus intrude, And question in a way so rude; Half tickled at the strange address, Cupid said gravely, "We confess There may be reason in your plea; But still we very much admire Your entering in such strange attire! We cannot such omissions see, And countenance—It should appear, You know not we are sovereign here! The soldiers of our chosen band Approach not till we give command. We every look and action sway, And they with prompt delight obey. For height, and size, and such like things, We care far less than other kings; But station, learning, no pretence, Can make us with our power dispense. The warrior must not here look big, The lawyer doffs his forked wig, The portly merchant rich and free, Forgets his pride and bends the knee; The doctor gives his terrors scope, And, like a patient, whines for hope; In short the wise have childish fits, And fools and madmen find their wits. "Then go—this silly pride subdue, And thou shall be our servant too! Acquire the courtly way of speech, Not, 'do you hear?' but, 'I beseech.' And let a suitor's voice and air, Thy grievances and zeal declare, We never scorn a humble prayer!"
Expecting then a heart submiss, He held him forth his hand to kiss; For petrified the while he spoke, With troubled wonder in his look Poor Damon stood; aghast, suspended, But gain'd his senses as he ended; Abruptly turning on his toe, "I thank you, Master Cupid, no! I am a freeman and a brave, And will not stoop to be a slave. Your rules will never do for me, I'd rather learn the rule of three— "And since I find it is the plan, To make me an automaton, I'll case my heart in triple mail, And fence it so completely round, That all this vaunted skill shall fail, Those blunted arrows back rebound; For know, usurper! from this hour, I scorn thy laws, abjure thy power! From this dear moment I despise The whole artillery of eyes; Reason alone shall be my guide, And Reason's voice shall win my bride. Some bonny lass shall say I can Love you as well as any man; I will the self-same troth accord, Most gladly take her at her word; And we may just as happy prove Without the fooleries of love. She must not ask so much attention, As many ladies I could mention; But when I do not want to sway, I'll always let her have her way; And study to oblige her too, When I have nothing else to do; And am not tired, or wish to rest, Or like some other plan the best, For, more than this would be a task, None but thy votaries would ask. She must have riches, beauty, grace, And modest sweetness in her face." Just then he saw a scornful sneer Upon Dan Cupid's face appear; While courtiers whispered with a grin, "Poor fellow, he'll be taken in! The finest birds are always shy, The rarest at a distance fly, And Reason cannot soar so high." "Aye, you may laugh, to prove her mind At once exalted and refined, I'll watch her skill in music's art; By ear and fingers judge the heart, And then it will not be believ'd I can be easily deceiv'd. I only grieve that in my prime I've wasted so much precious time, For long ere this I might have married, Had I not so unwisely tarried, And vex'd my brains in looking round For that which never could be found."
"And would'st thou wish," the monarch cried, "To set our gentle laws aside? Thou hast no friend in Common Sense, In such affairs she thinks it wisest, To stand aside without pretence, And sanction laws which thou despisest. But try the plan, it merits praise, Success may crown its winning ways! The lady must be blind indeed, With whom such offers of neglect, And cool, habitual disrespect Would not succeed. But come no longer here to flout us, Since, truly, thou canst do without us; For dignity is lost in sport, An outlaw for contempt of court; We banish thee with all thy pride Until thy heart be rarified."
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When recollection brings to mind, The kindred ties I've left behind, The converse gentle and refin'd, I grieve!
Deep the regret, the pain extreme, And yet I fondly love the dream, And find the sad, delightful theme Relieve.
It bids all present forms decay, All present feelings fade away; Impeding distance, long delay Are o'er!
Fancy, so active in the gloom, Till some one enters in the room, Can all the images of home Restore.
Alas! when weeks, and months are past, Shall I that home behold at last, Which even the dark clouds overcast Endear?
Lest one of all the cares that dart Like arrows round each thoughtful heart, May pierce ere then some vital part I fear!
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O generous Ali! while thy fate inspires
Pride of thy race! before my mental eyes,
Oh! yet within the tent I see thee lie,
Ambition! while thy zeal the good inflame, |
While others, from the Greek and Roman page,
Is there a callous mind, that does not feel
Some wily chieftain, building up a name,
Though such a chief a deathless wreath may crown,
And ye, compeers, who in the classic page, |
O ancient warrior! as we hail thee, And behold thy cordial smile, We hope that greetings ne'er may fail thee, Such as those of Britain's isle.
They are, although so seeming rude, Given only where we think them due; Most courteous, e'en when they intrude, Too vehement, but always true!
Applauses which no art can fashion, Which speak the feelings and no more; Which give respect the glow of passion, When worth and valour we adore;
Blest is the hero in receiving! And pride may scoff at, or despise, What if but once sincere believing, Is grateful to the good and wise.
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In the first dawn of youth I much admire |
Knowing the nature of thy grief,
Never but once a child had won
If thus a stranger thinks, who knew |
[Footnote 1:
As many hopes hang on his noble head
As blossoms on a bough in May; and sweet ones!
Beaumont and Fletcher.]
Fear has to do with sacred things,
Mute, blooming, one all-wondering stands, The elder kisses oft her hands, Bends o'er with fainting, fond caress, And languishes in strong distress. Clings to her shoulder, were it meet, Seems wishing to embrace her feet; Like one impatient to implore, Who dreads the time is nearly o'er, To ask or to receive a boon, Which must be known and granted soon. A boon with life itself entwin'd, One that her lips refus'd to name, However oft the impulse came. Such was the picture—but her mind Forgetting self—could not arise, To look in those unconscious eyes! The zeal that prompted, were she free To serve her friend on bended knee, Shrunk from the orphan's gaze, just hurl'd, Lonely and poor upon the world— Unknowing yet her loss, endeared, By its excess, and therefore fear'd!
Thus has it ever seem'd to me, |
Lovely as are the wide and sudden calms
Welcome, oh! welcome, that most healing hope,
Thus sang I, when fallacious hopes were rais'd
The letter, dearest, blotted with thy tears,
As of this world, this visible, wide world,
All that we hear is coarse and limited,
Two thousand years the sanctuary's veil Has now been rent asunder, shewing all That, to the patient and unsandall'd foot, Egress and regress freely are allowed Through that most glorious temple, where abstract, And long a stranger to the vulgar eye, Thought held her silent rule, and mission'd forth Her sealed and unquestion'd messengers. Yet those who follow nature when the track Is finer than a hair—those who can cleave The subtile and combined elements That form a drop of water—those can shrink From the more holy alchemy enjoin'd, Call'd for by that disgust the heart conceives At the usurping empire of pretence; At all those useless and disgraceful chains, Which tie us down, and imp with aptest wings, Falsehood and selfishness, who ought to creep In their own reptile slime, and dart away When eyes perceiv'd their presence. Oh! could those Adventure in too perilous a path, If without other guide than the bright stars, The love of what is lofty and divine, Or the desire of gaining for mankind, Now fettered and held down to poison'd food, Its unpolluted birth-right —they dared on, Plunging at once into untravelled realms, And bringing, as the harvest of their toil, Arms which will make each potent talisman, Each charm, and spell, and dire enchantment sink In endless infamy—without a hope To trick their bloated, and their wither'd limbs, In any Proteus vestment of disguise, Again to awe and ruinate the world.
Oh! my dear brother, little did I think |