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Title: The Immortal Moment: The Story of Kitty Tailleur

Author: May Sinclair

Illustrator: Coles Phillips

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THE IMMORTAL MOMENT




Books by

MAY SINCLAIR

  The Helpmate
  The Divine Fire
  Two Sides of a Question
  Mr. and Mrs. Nevill Tyson
  Etc., etc.




[Illustration: "Kitty's face ... pleaded with the other face in the
glass."]




THE IMMORTAL MOMENT

The Story of Kitty Tailleur

_By_

MAY SINCLAIR

ILLUSTRATED AND DECORATED BY

C. COLES PHILLIPS.

  NEW YORK
  DOUBLEDAY PAGE & CO.
  1908




COPYRIGHT, 1908 BY

MAY SINCLAIR

PUBLISHED, OCTOBER, 1908

  ALL RIGHTS RESERVED, INCLUDING THAT OF TRANSLATION
  INTO FOREIGN LANGUAGES, INCLUDING
  THE SCANDINAVIAN




PUBLISHERS' NOTE

  THIS STORY APPEARS IN ENGLAND
  UNDER THE TITLE "KITTY TAILLEUR"




ILLUSTRATIONS


  "Kitty's face ... pleaded with the other face
  in the glass"                                      FRONTISPIECE

  "She stood there, strangely still ... before the
  pitiless stare that went up to her appealing face"           10

  "'You won't be tied to me a minute longer than
  you like'"                                                  208

  "'I want to make you loathe me ... never see me
  again'"                                                     268




[Illustration: THE IMMORTAL MOMENT]




THE IMMORTAL MOMENT

CHAPTER I


They came into the hotel dining-room like young persons making their
first entry into life. They carried themselves with an air of subdued
audacity, of innocent inquiry. When the great doors opened to them they
stood still on the threshold, charmed, expectant. There was the magic of
quest, of pure, unspoiled adventure in their very efforts to catch the
head-waiter's eye. It was as if they called from its fantastic
dwelling-place the attendant spirit of delight.

You could never have guessed how old they were. He, at thirty-five, had
preserved, by some miracle, his alert and slender adolescence. In his
brown, clean-shaven face, keen with pleasure, you saw the clear,
serious eyes and the adorable smile of seventeen. She, at thirty, had
kept the wide eyes and tender mouth of childhood. Her face had a child's
immortal, spiritual appeal.

They were charming with each other. You might have taken them for bride
and bridegroom, his absorption in her was so unimpaired. But their names
in the visitors' book stood as Mr. Robert Lucy and Miss Jane Lucy. They
were brother and sister. You gathered it from something absurdly alike
in their faces, something profound and racial and enduring.

For they combined it all, the youth, the abandonment, the innocence,
with an indomitable distinction.

They made their way with easy, unembarrassed movements, and seated
themselves at a table by an open window. They bent their brows together
over the menu. The head-waiter (who had flown at last to their high
summons) made them his peculiar care, and they turned to him with the
helplessness of children. He told them what things they would like,
what things (he seemed to say) would be good for them. And when he went
away with their order they looked at each other and laughed, softly and
instantaneously.

They had done the right thing. They both said it at the same moment,
smiling triumphantly into each other's face. Southbourne was exquisite
in young June, at the dawn of its season. And the Cliff Hotel promised
what they wanted, a gay seclusion, a refined publicity.

If you were grossly rich, you went to the big Hôtel Métropole, opposite.
If you were a person of fastidious tastes and an attenuated income, you
felt the superior charm of the Cliff Hotel. The little house, the joy of
its proprietor, was hidden in the privacy of its own beautiful grounds,
having its back to the high road and its face to the open sea. They had
taken stock of it that morning, with its clean walls, white as the
Cliff it stood on; its bay windows, its long, green-roofed veranda,
looking south; its sharp, slated roofs and gables, all sheltered by the
folding Downs.

They did not know which of them had first suggested Southbourne.
Probably they had both thought of it at the same moment, as they were
thinking now. But it was she who had voted for the Cliff Hotel, in
preference to lodgings. She thought that in an hotel there would be more
scope, more chance of things happening.

Jane was always on the look-out for things happening. He saw her now,
with her happy eyes, and her little, tilted nose, sniffing the air,
scanning the horizon.

He knew Jane and her adventures well. They were purely, pathetically
vicarious. Jane was the thrall of her own sympathy. So was he. At a hint
she was off, and he after her, on wild paths of inference, on perilous
oceans of conjecture. Only he moved more slowly, and he knew the end of
it. He had seen, before now, her joyous leap to land, on shores of
manifest disaster. He protested against that jumping to conclusions. He,
for his part, took conclusions in his stride.

But Jane was always listening for a call from some foreign country of
the soul. She was always entering surreptitiously into other people's
feelings. They never caught her at it, never suspected her soft-footed,
innocent intrusions.

She was wondering now whether they would have to make friends with any
of the visitors. She hoped not, because that would spoil it, the
adventure. People had a way of telling her their secrets, and Jane
preferred not to be told. All she wanted was an inkling, a clue; the
slenderer the better.

The guests as yet assembled were not conspicuously interesting.

There was a clergyman dining gloomily at a table by himself. There was a
gray group of middle-aged ladies next to him. There was Colonel Hankin
and his wife. They had arrived with the Lucys in the hotel 'bus, and
their names were entered above Robert's in the visitors' book. They
marked him with manifest approval as one of themselves, and they looked
all pink perfection and silver white propriety. There was the old lady
who did nothing but knit. She had arrived in a fly, knitting. She was
knitting now, between the courses. When she caught sight of the Lucys
she smiled at them over her knitting. They had found her, before dinner,
with her feet entangled in a skein of worsted. Jane had shown tenderness
in disentangling her.

It was almost as if they had made friends already.

Jane's eyes roamed and lighted on a fat, wine-faced man. Lucy saw them.
He teased her, challenged her. She didn't think, did she, she could do
anything with him?

No. Jane thought not. He wasn't interesting. There was nothing that you
could take hold of, except that he seemed to be very fond of wine, poor
old thing. But then, you had to be fond of something, and perhaps it was
his only weakness. What did Robert think?

Robert did not hear her. He was bending forward, looking beyond her,
across the room toward the great doors. They had swung open again, with
a flash of their glass panels, to give passage to a lady.

She came slowly, with the irresistible motion of creatures that divide
and trouble the medium in which they move. The white, painted wainscot
behind her showed her small, eager head, its waving rolls and crowning
heights of hair, black as her gown. She had a sweet face, curiously
foreshortened by a low forehead and the briefest of chins. It was white
with the same whiteness as her neck, her shoulders, her arms--a
whiteness pure and profound. This face she kept thrust a little forward,
while her eyes looked round, steadily, deliberately, for the place where
she desired to be. She carried on her arm a long tippet of brown fur. It
slipped, and her effort to recover it brought her to a standstill.

The large, white room, half empty at this season, gave her up bodily to
what seemed to Lucy the intolerable impudence of the public gaze.

She was followed by an older lady who had the air of making her way with
difficulty and vexation through an unpleasantly crowded space. This lady
was somewhat oddly attired in a white dress cut high with a Puritan
intention, but otherwise indiscreetly youthful. She kept close to the
tail of her companion's gown, and tracked its charming evolutions with
an irritated eye. Her whole aspect was evidently a protest against the
publicity she was compelled to share.

[Illustration: "She stood there, strangely still ... before the pitiless
stare that went up to her appealing face."]

Lucy was not interested in her. He was watching the lady in black who
was now standing in the middle of the room. Her elbow touched the
shoulder of a young man on her left. The fur tippet slipped again and
lay at the young man's feet. He picked it up, and as he handed it to her
he stared into her face, and sleeked his little moustache above a
furtive, objectionable smile. His companion (Jane's uninteresting man),
roused from communion with the spirit of Veuve Cliquot, fixed on the
lady a pair of blood-shot eyes in a brutal, wine-dark face.

She stood there, strangely still, it seemed to Lucy, before the pitiless
stare that went up, right and left, to her appealing face. She was
looking, it seemed to him, for her refuge.

She moved forward. The Colonel, pinker than ever in his perfection,
lowered his eyes as she approached. She paused again in her progress
beside the clergyman on her right. He looked severely at her, as much as
to say, "Madam, if you drop that thing in _my_ neighbourhood, I shall
not attempt to pick it up."

An obsequious waiter pointed out a table next to the middle-aged
ladies. She shook her head at the middle-aged ladies. She turned in her
course, and her eyes met Lucy's. He said something to his sister. Jane
rose and changed her seat, thus clearing the way to a table that stood
beside theirs, empty, secluded in the bay of the window.

The lady in black came swiftly, as if to the place of her desire. The
glance that expressed her gratitude went from Lucy to Jane and from Jane
to Lucy, and rested on him for a moment.

As the four grouped themselves at their respective tables, the lady in
white, seated with her back to the window, commanded a front and side
view of Jane. The lady in black sat facing Lucy.

She put her elbows on the table and turned her face (her profile was
remarkably pretty) to her companion.

"Well," said she, "don't you want to sit here?"

"Oh," said the older woman, "what does it matter where we sit?"

She spoke in a small, crowing voice, the voice, Lucy said to himself, of
a rather terrible person. She shivered.

"Poor lamb, does it feel a draught down its little back?"

The lady rose and put her fur tippet on the shivering shoulders. They
shrank from her, and she drew it closer and fastened it with caressing
and cajoling fingers. There was about her something impetuous and
perverse, a wilful, ungovernable tenderness. Her hands had the swiftness
of things moved by sweet, disastrous impulses.

The white person (she was quite terrible) undid the fastening and shook
her shoulders free of the fur. It slid to the floor for the third time.

Lucy rose from his place, picked up the fur and restored it to its
owner.

The quite terrible person flushed with vexation.

"You see," said the lady, "the trouble you've given that nice man."

"Oh don't! he'll hear you."

"If he does, he won't mind," said the lady.

He did hear her. It was difficult not to hear, not to look at her, not
to be interested in every movement that she made. Her charm, however,
was powerless over her companion.

Their voices, to Lucy's relief, sank low. Then suddenly the companion
spoke.

"Of course," said she, "if you _want_ all the men to look at you----"

Lucy looked no more. He heard the lady draw in her breath with a soft,
sharp sound, and he felt his blood running scarlet to the roots of his
hair.

"I believe" (the older lady spoke almost vindictively) "you like it."

The head-waiter, opportune in all his approaches, brought coffee at that
moment. Lucy turned his chair slightly, so that he presented his back
to the speaker, and to the lady in black his side-face, shaded by his
hand, conspicuously penitential.

Jane tried to set everybody at their ease by talking in a clear, cool
voice about the beautiful decorations, the perfect management of the
hotel. The two drank their coffee hastily and left the table. In the
doorway Lucy drew the head-waiter aside.

"Who," said he, "is that lady in the window?"

"The lady in the window, sir? Miss Keating, sir."

"I mean--the other lady."

The head-waiter looked reproachfully at Lucy and apologetically at Jane.

"The lady in black, sir? You want to know her name?"

"Yes."

"Her _name_, sir, is Mrs. Tailleur."

His manner intimated respectfully that Lucy would not like Mrs.
Tailleur, and that, if he did, she would not be good for him.

The brother and sister went out into the hotel garden. They strolled up
and down the cool, green lawns that overhung the beach.

Lucy smoked and was silent.

"Jane," he said presently, "could _you_ see what she did?"

"I was just going," said Jane, "to ask you that."

"Upon my soul, I can't see it," said he.

"Nor I," said Jane.

"Could you see what _I_ did?"

"What you did?"

"Yes, I. _Did_ I look at her?"

"Well, yes; certainly you looked at her."

"And you think she minded?"

"No; I don't think she minded very much."

"Come, she couldn't have liked it, could she?"

"I don't know. I don't think she noticed it. You see" (Jane was off on
the adventure) "she's in mourning for her husband. He has been dead
about two years. He wasn't very kind to her, and she doesn't know
whether to be glad or sorry he's dead. She's unhappy and afraid."

"I say, how do you know all that?"

"I know," said Jane, "because I see it in her face; and in her clothes.
I always see things."

He laughed at that.




CHAPTER II


They talked a long time as they paced the green lawns, linked arm in
arm, keeping their own path fastidiously.

Miss Keating, Mrs. Tailleur's companion, watched them from her seat on
the veranda.

She had made her escape from the great, lighted lounge behind her where
the men were sitting. She had found a corner out of sight of its wide
windows. She knew that Kitty Tailleur was in there somewhere. She could
hear her talking to the men. At the other end of the veranda the old
lady sat with her knitting. From time to time she looked up over her
needles and glanced curiously at Miss Keating.

On the lawn below, Colonel Hankin walked with his wife. They kept the
same line as the Lucys, so that, in rhythmic instants, the couples made
one group. There was an affinity, a harmony in their movements as they
approached each other. They were all obviously nice people, people who
belonged by right to the same group, who might approach each other
without any impropriety.

Miss Keating wondered how long it would be before Kitty Tailleur would
approach Mr. Lucy. That afternoon, on her arrival, she had approached
the Colonel, and the Colonel had got up and gone away. Kitty had then
laughed. Miss Keating suspected her of a similar social intention with
regard to the younger man. She knew his name. She had looked it up in
the visitors' book. (She was always looking up people's names.) She had
made with determination for the table next to him. Miss Keating, in the
dawn of their acquaintance, had prayed that Mrs. Tailleur might not
elect to sit next anybody who was not nice. Latterly she had found
herself hoping that their place might not be in view of anybody who was.

For three months they had been living in hotels, in horrifying
publicity. Miss Keating dreaded most the hour they had just passed
through. There was something terrible to her in their entry, in their
passage down the great, white, palm-shaded, exotic room, their threading
of the ways between the tables, with all the men turning round to stare
at Kitty Tailleur. It was all very well for Kitty to pretend that she
saved her by thus diverting and holding fast the public eye. Miss
Keating felt that the tail of it flicked her unpleasantly as she
followed in that troubled, luminous wake.

It had not been quite so unbearable in Brighton, at Easter, when the big
hotels were crowded, and Mrs. Tailleur was not so indomitably
conspicuous. Or else Miss Keating had not been so painfully alive to
her. But Southbourne was half empty in early June, and the Cliff Hotel,
small as it was, had room for the perfect exhibition of Mrs. Tailleur.
It gave her wide, polished spaces and clean, brilliant backgrounds,
yards of parquetry for the gliding of her feet, and monstrous mirrors
for reflecting her face at unexpected angles. These distances fined her
grace still finer, and lent her a certain pathos, the charm of figures
vanishing and remote.

Not that you could think of Kitty Tailleur as in the least remote or
vanishing. She seemed to be always approaching, to hover imminently and
dangerously near.

Mr. Lucy looked fairly unapproachable. His niceness, Miss Keating
imagined, would keep him linked arm in arm with his sister, maintaining,
unconsciously, inoffensively, his distance and distinction. He would
manage better than the Colonel. He would not have to get up and go away.
So Miss Keating thought.

From the lounge behind the veranda, Kitty's voice came to her again.
Kitty was excited and her voice went winged. It flew upward, touched a
perilous height and shook there. It hung, on its delicate, feminine
wings, dominating the male voices that contended, brutally, below. Now
and then it found its lyric mate, a high, adolescent voice that followed
it with frenzy, that broke, pitifully, in sharp, abominable laughter,
like a cry of pain.

Miss Keating shut her eyes to keep out her vision of Kitty's face with
the look it wore when her voice went high.

She was roused by the waiter bringing coffee. Kitty Tailleur had come
out on to the veranda. She was pouring out Grace Keating's coffee, and
talking to her in another voice, the one that she kept for children and
for animals, and for all diminutive and helpless things. She was saying
that Miss Keating (whom she called Bunny) was a dear little white
rabbit, and she wanted to stroke her.

"You see, you are so very small," said Kitty, as she dropped sugar into
Miss Keating's cup. She had ordered cigarettes and a liqueur for
herself.

Miss Keating said nothing. She drank her coffee with a distasteful
movement of her lips.

Kitty Tailleur stretched herself at full length on a garden chair. She
watched her companion with eyes secretly, profoundly intent under
lowered lids.

"Do you mind my smoking?" she said presently.

"No," said Miss Keating.

"Do you mind my drinking Kümmel?"

"No."

"Do you mind my showing seven inches of stocking?"

"No."

"What do you mind, then?"

"I mind your making yourself so very conspicuous."

"I don't make myself conspicuous. I was born so."

"You make me conspicuous. Goodness knows what all these people take us
for!"

"Holy Innocent! As long as you sit tight and do your hair like that,
nobody could take you for anything but a dear little bunny with its ears
laid back. But if you get palpitations in your little nose, and turn up
your little white tail at people, and scuttle away when they look at
you, you can't blame them if they wonder what's the matter with you."

"With _me_?"

"Yes; it's you who give the show away." Kitty smiled into her liqueur
glass. "It doesn't seem to strike you that your behaviour compromises
me."

Miss Keating's mouth twitched. Her narrow, rather prominent front teeth
lifted an instant, and then closed sharply on her lower lip. Her throat
trembled as if she were swallowing some bitter thing that had been on
the tip of her tongue.

"If you think that," she said, and her voice crowed no longer, "wouldn't
it be better for us not to be together?"

Kitty shook her meditative head. "Poor Bunny," said she, "why can't you
be honest? Why don't you say plump out that you're sick and tired of
me? _I_ should be. I couldn't stand another woman lugging me about as I
lug you."

"It isn't _that_. Only--everywhere we go--there's always some horrible
man."

"Everywhere you go, dear lamb, there always will be."

"Yes; but one doesn't have anything to do with them."

"I don't have anything to do with them."

"You talk to them."

"Of course I do," said Kitty. "Why not?"

"You don't know them."

"H'm! If you never talk to people you don't know, pray how do you get to
know them?"

Kitty sat up and began playing with the matches till she held a bunch of
them blazing in her hand. She was blowing out the flame as the Hankins
came up the steps of the veranda. They had a smile for the old lady in
her corner, and for Miss Keating a look of wonder and curiosity and
pity; but they turned from Mrs. Tailleur with guarded eyes.

"What do you bet," said Kitty, "that I don't make that long man there
come and talk to me?"

"If you do----"

"I'll do it before you count ten. One, two, three, four. I shall ask him
for a light----"

"Sh-sh! He's coming."

Kitty slid her feet to the floor and covered them with her skirt. Then
she looked down, fascinated, apparently, by the shining tips of her
shoes. You could have drawn a straight line from her feet to the feet of
the man coming up the lawn.

"Five, six, seven." Kitty lit her last match. "T-t-t! The jamfounded
thing's gone out."

The long man's sister came up the steps of the veranda. The long man
followed her slowly, with deliberate pauses in his stride.

"Eight, nine," said Kitty, under her breath. She waited.

The man's eyes had been upon her; but in the approach he lowered them,
and as he passed her he turned away his head.

"It's no use," said Miss Keating; "you can't have it both ways."

Kitty was silent. Suddenly she laughed.

"Bunny," said she, "would you like to marry the long man?"

Miss Keating's mouth closed tightly, with an effort, covering her teeth.

Kitty leaned forward. "Perhaps you can if you want to. Long men
sometimes go crazy about little women. And you'd have such dear little
long babies--little babies with long faces. Why not? You're just the
right size for him. He could make a memorandum of you and put you in his
pocket; or you could hang on his arm like a dear little umbrella. It
would be all right. You may take it from me that man is entirely moral.
He wouldn't think of going out without his umbrella. And he'd be so nice
when the little umbrellas came. Dear Bunny, face massage would do
wonders for you. Why ever not? He's heaps nicer than that man at the
Hydro, and you'd have married him, you know you would, if I hadn't told
you he was a commercial traveller. Never mind, ducky; I dare say he
wasn't."

Kitty curled herself up tight on the long chair and smiled dreamily at
Miss Keating.

"Do you remember the way you used to talk at Matlock, just after I found
you there? You _were_ such a rum little thing. You said it would be very
much better if we hadn't any bodies, so that people could fall in love
in a prettier way, and only be married spiritually. You said God ought
to have arranged things on that footing. You looked so miserable when
you said it. By the way, I wouldn't go about saying that sort of thing
to people. That's how I spotted you. I know men think it's one of the
symptoms."

"Symptoms of what?"

"Of that state of mind. When a woman comes to me and talks about being
spiritual, I always know she isn't--at the moment. You asked me,
Bunny--the second time I met you--if I believed in spiritual love, and
all that. I didn't, and I don't. When you're gone on a man all you want
is to get him, and keep him to yourself. I dare say it feels jolly
spiritual--especially, when you're not sure of the man--but it isn't. If
you're gone on him enough to give him up when you've got him, there
might be some spirituality in _that_. I shall believe in it when I see
it done."

"Seriously," she continued, "if you'd been married, Bunny, you wouldn't
have had half such a beastly time. You're one of those leaning, clinging
little women who require a strong, safe man to support them. You ought
to be married."

Miss Keating smiled a little sad, spiritual smile, and said that was the
last thing she wanted.

"Well," said Kitty, "I didn't say it was the first."

Kitty's smile was neither sad nor spiritual. She uncurled herself, got
up, and stood over her companion, stroking her sleek, thin hair.

Miss Keating purred under the caress. She held up her hand to Kitty who
took it and gave it a squeeze before she let it go.

"Poor Bunny. Nice Bunny," she said (as if Miss Keating were an animal).
She stretched out her arms, turned, and disappeared through the lounge
into the billiard-room.




CHAPTER III


It could not be denied that Kitty had a charm. Miss Keating was not
denying it, even now, when she was saying to herself that Kitty had a
way of attracting very disagreeable attention.

At first she had supposed that this was an effect of Kitty's charm,
disagreeable to Kitty. Then, even in the beginning, she had seen that
there was something deliberate and perpetual in Kitty's challenge of the
public eye. The public eye, so far from pursuing Kitty, was itself
pursued, tracked down and captured. Kitty couldn't let it go. Publicity
was what Kitty coveted.

She had then supposed that Kitty was used to it; that she was, in some
mysterious way, a personage. There would be temptations, she had
imagined, for any one who had a charm that lived thus in the public eye.

And Kitty had her good points, too. There was nobody so easy to live
with as Kitty in her private capacity, if she could be said to have one.
She never wanted to be amused, or read to, or sat up with late at night,
like the opulent invalids Miss Keating had been with hitherto. Miss
Keating owed everything she had to Kitty, her health (she was
constitutionally anæmic), her magnificent salary, the luxurious gaiety
in which they lived and moved (moved, perhaps, rather more than lived).
The very combs in her hair were Kitty's. So were the gowns she wore on
occasions of splendour and display. It struck her as odd that they were
all public, these occasions, things they paid to go to.

It had dawned on her by this time, coldly, disagreeably, that Kitty
Tailleur was nobody, nobody, that is to say, in particular. A person of
no account in the places where they had stayed. In their three months'
wanderings they had never been invited to any private house. Miss
Keating could not account for that air of ill-defined celebrity that
hung round Kitty like a scent, and marked her trail.

Not that any social slur seemed to attach to Kitty. The acquaintances
she had made in her brief and curious fashion were all, or nearly all,
socially immaculate. The friends (they were all men) who came to her of
their own intimate accord, belonged, some of them, to an aristocracy
higher than that represented by Mr. Lucy or the Colonel. And they had
been by no means impervious to Kitty's charm.

From the sounds that came from the billiard-room she gathered that
Kitty's charm appealed also to her audience in there. Leaning her body
forward so as to listen, Miss Keating became aware that Lucy had
returned to the lounge, and was strolling about in it, as if he were
looking for somebody. He strolled into the veranda.

The garden was dark now, but a little light fell on the veranda from the
open windows of the lounge. Lucy looked at Mrs. Tailleur's empty chair.
He was about to sit in it when he saw that he was alone with Mrs.
Tailleur's companion. He rose again for flight. Miss Keating rose also
with the same intention.

Lucy protested. "Please don't let me disturb you. I am not going to sit
here."

"But I am driving you in."

"Not at all. I only thought you might object to my smoking."

"But I don't object."

"You don't, really?"

"If I stay," said she, "will that prove it?"

"Please do," said Lucy.

Miss Keating pushed her chair as far as possible from his. She seated
herself with a fugitive, sidelong movement; as much as to say she left
him to the sanctuary he sought. He would please to observe the
perfection of her withdrawal. The table with the match-stand on it stood
between them.

Lucy approached the match-stand tentatively. Miss Keating, averted and
effaced, was yet aware of him.

"I'm afraid there are no matches," said she. "Mrs. Tailleur has used
them all." So effaced and so averted was Miss Keating that there was
nothing left of her but a sweet, attenuated, disembodied voice. It was
as if spirit spoke to spirit with the consecrated doors between.

Lucy smiled. He paused at Mrs. Tailleur's chair.

"Is your friend coming back again?" he asked.

"I don't think so."

It might have been an effect of her remoteness, but Miss Keating's tone
conveyed to him ever so slight a repudiation of Mrs. Tailleur.

He seated himself; and as he did so he searched his coat pockets. There
were no matches there. He knew he would find some in the lounge. Perhaps
he might find Mrs. Tailleur also. He would get up and look.

Miss Keating (still disembodied) rose and withdrew herself completely,
and Lucy thought better of his intention. He lay back and closed his
eyes.

A light tap on the table roused him. It was Miss Keating laying down a
match-box. He saw her hand poised yet in the delicacy of its
imperceptible approach.

He stared, stupefied with embarrassment. He stuttered with it.
"Really--I--I--I wish you hadn't." He did not take up the match-box all
at once, lest he should seem prompt in accepting this rather
extraordinary service.

Mrs. Tailleur's companion slid back into her seat and sat there smiling
to herself and to the incommunicative night.

"I hope," she said presently, "you are not refraining from smoking
because of me."

She was very sweet and soft and gentle. But she had not struck him as
gentle or soft or sweet when he had seen her with Mrs. Tailleur, and he
was not prepared to take that view of her now.

"Thank you," he said. He could not think of anything else to say. He lit
his cigarette, and smoked in an innocent abstraction.

A clock indoors struck ten. Miss Keating accounted for her continuance.
"It is the only quiet place in the hotel," said she.

He assented, wondering if this were meant for a conversational opening.

"And the night air is so very sweet and pure."

"I'm afraid you find this smoke of mine anything but----"

"If you are so serious about it," said she, "I shall be afraid either to
stay out or to go in."

If there were any opening there he missed it. He had turned at the sound
of a skirt trailing, and he saw that Mrs. Tailleur had come back into
the lounge. He was thoughtful for a moment. Then he got up quietly and
went in.

He did not speak to her or look at her. He sat very still in a corner of
the room where he could see her reflection in a big mirror. It did not
occur to him that Mrs. Tailleur could see his, too.

Outside in the veranda, Miss Keating sat shuddering in the night air.




CHAPTER IV


Lucy's mind was like his body. Superficial people called it narrow,
because the sheer length of it diverted their attention from its
breadth. Visionary, yet eager for the sound impact of the visible, it
was never more alert than when it, so to speak, sat still, absorbed in
its impressions. It was the sport of young and rapid impulses, which it
seemed to obey sluggishly, while, all the time, it moved with immense,
slow strides to incredibly far conclusions. Having reached a conclusion
it was apt to stay there. The very length of its stride made turning
awkward for it.

He had reached a conclusion now, on his third night in Southbourne. He
must do something, he did not yet know what, for the protection of Mrs.
Tailleur.

Her face was an appeal to the chivalry that sat quiet in Lucy's heart,
nursing young dreams of opportunity.

Lucy's chivalry had been formed by three weeks of courtship and three
years of wedded incompatibility. The incompatibility had hardly dawned
on him when his wife died. Three years were too short a space for Lucy's
mind to turn in; and so he always thought of her tenderly as dear little
Amy. She had given him two daughters and paid for the younger with her
life.

Five years of fatherhood finished his training in the school of
chivalry. He had been profoundly moved by little Amy's sacrifice to the
powers of life, and he was further touched by the heartrending spectacle
of Jane. Jane doing all she knew for him; Jane, so engaging in her
innocence, hiding her small, childlike charm under dark airs of assumed
maternity; Jane, whose skirts fluttered wide to all the winds of dream;
Jane with an apron on and two little girls tied to the strings of it;
Jane, adorable in disaster, striving to be discreet and comfortable and
competent.

He had a passionate pity for all creatures troubled and unfortunate. And
Mrs. Tailleur's face called aloud to him for pity. For Lucy Mrs.
Tailleur's face wore, like a veil, the shadow of the incredible past and
of the future; it was reminiscent and prophetic of terrible and tragic
things. Across the great spaces of the public rooms his gaze answered
her call. Then Mrs. Tailleur's face would become dumb. Like all hurt
things, she was manifestly shy of observation and pursuit.

Pursuit and observation, perpetual, implacable, were what she had to
bear. The women had driven her from the drawing-room; the men made the
smoke-room impossible. A cold, wet mist came with the evenings. It lay
over the sea and drenched the lawns of the hotel garden. Mrs. Tailleur
had no refuge but the lounge.

To-night the wine-faced man and his companion had tracked her there.
Mrs. Tailleur had removed herself from the corner where they had hemmed
her in. She had found an unoccupied sofa near the writing-table. The
pursuer was seized instantly with a desire to write letters. Mrs.
Tailleur went out and shivered on the veranda. His eyes followed her. In
passing she had turned her back on the screened hearth-place where Lucy
and his sister sat alone.

"Did you see that?" said Lucy.

"I did indeed," said Jane.

"It's awful that a woman should be exposed to that sort of thing. What
can her people be thinking of?"

"Her people?"

"Yes; to let her go about alone."

"I go about alone," said Jane pensively.

"Yes, but she's so good looking."

"Am _I_ not?"

"You're all right, Jenny; but you never looked like that. There's
something about her----"

"Is that what makes those men horrid to her?"

"Yes, I suppose so. The brutes!" He paused irritably. "It mustn't happen
again."

"What's the poor lady to do?" said Jane.

"She can't do anything. _We_ must."

"We?"

"I must. You must. Go out to her, Janey, and be nice to her."

"No, you go and say I sent you."

He strode out on to the veranda. Mrs. Tailleur sat with her hands in her
lap, motionless, and, to his senses, unaware.

"Mrs. Tailleur."

She started and looked up at him.

"My sister asked me to tell you that there's a seat for you in there, if
you don't mind sitting with us."

"But won't you mind me?"

"Not--not," said Lucy (he positively stammered), "not if you don't mind
us."

Mrs. Tailleur looked at him again, wide eyed, with the strange and
pitiful candour of distrust. Then she smiled incomprehensibly.

Her eyelids dropped as she slid past him to the seat beside Jane. He
noticed that she had the sudden, furtive ways of the wild thing aware of
the hunter.

"May I really?" said Mrs. Tailleur.

"Oh, _please_," said Jane.

As she spoke the man at the writing-table looked up and stared. Not at
Mrs. Tailleur this time, but at Jane. He stared with a wonder so
spontaneous, so supreme, that it purged him of offence.

He stared again (with less innocence) at Lucy as the young man gave way,
reverently, to the sweep of Mrs. Tailleur's gown. Lucy's face intimated
to him that he had made a bad mistake. The wretch admitted, by a violent
flush, that it was possible. Then his eyes turned again to Mrs.
Tailleur. It was as much as to say he had only been relying on the
incorruptible evidence of his senses.

Mrs. Tailleur sat down and breathed hard.

"How sweet of you!" Her voice rang with the labour of her breast.

Lucy smiled as he caught the word. He would have condemned the stress of
it, but that Mrs. Tailleur's voice pleaded forgiveness for any word she
chose to utter. "Even," he said to himself, "if you could forget her
face."

He couldn't forget it. As he sat there trying to read, it came between
him and his book. It tormented him to find its meaning. Kitty's face was
a thing both delicate and crude. When she was gay it showed a blurred
edge, a fineness in peril. When she was sad it wore the fixed look of
artificial maturity. It was like a young bud opened by inquisitive
fingers and forced to be a flower. Some day, the day before it withered,
the bruised veins would glow again, and a hectic spot betray, like a
bruise, the violation of its bloom. At the moment, repose gave back its
beauty to Kitty's face. Lucy noticed that the large black pupils of her
eyes were ringed with a dark blue iris, spotted with black. There was no
colour about her at all except that blue, and the delicate red of her
mouth. In her black gown she was a revelation of pure form. Colour would
have obscured her, made her ineffectual.

He sat silent, hardly daring to look at her. So keen was his sense of
her that he could almost have heard the beating of her breast against
her gown. Once she sighed, and Lucy stirred. Once she stirred slightly,
and Lucy, unconsciously responsive, sighed. Then Kitty's glance lit on
him. He turned a page of his book ostentatiously, and Kitty's glance
slunk home again. She closed her eyes and opened them to find Lucy's
eyes looking at her over the top of his book. Poor Lucy was so perturbed
at being detected in that particular atrocity that he rose, drew his
chair to the hearth, and arranged himself in an attitude that made
these things impossible.

He was presently aware of Jane launching herself on a gentle tide of
conversation, and of Mrs. Tailleur trembling pathetically on the brink
of it.

"Do you like Southbourne?" he heard Jane saying.

Then suddenly Mrs. Tailleur plunged in.

"No," said she; "I hate it. I hate any place I have to be alone in, if
it's only for five minutes."

Lucy felt that it was Jane who drew back now, in sheer distress. He
tried to think of something to say, and gave it up, stultified by his
compassion.

The silence was broken by Jane.

"Robert," said she, "have you written to the children?"

Mrs. Tailleur's face became suddenly sombre and intent.

"No; I haven't. I clean forgot it."

He went off to write his letter. When he came back Mrs. Tailleur had
risen and was saying good night to Jane.

He followed her to the portière and drew it back for her to pass. As she
turned to thank him she glanced up at the hand that held the portière.
It trembled violently. Her eyes, a moment ago dark under her bent
forehead, darted a sudden light sidelong.

She paused, interrogative, expectant. Lucy bowed.

As Mrs. Tailleur passed out she looked back over her shoulder, smiling
again her incomprehensible smile.

The portière dropped behind her.




CHAPTER V


Five days passed. The Lucys had now been a week at Southbourne. They
knew it well by that time, for bad weather kept them from going very far
beyond it. Jane had found, too, that they had to know some of the
visitors. The little Cliff Hotel brought its guests together with a
geniality unknown to its superb rival, the Métropole. Under its roof, in
bad weather, persons not otherwise incompatible became acquainted with
extraordinary rapidity. People had begun already to select each other.
Even Mr. Soutar, the clergyman, had emerged from his lonely gloom, and
dined by preference at the same table with the middle-aged ladies--the
table farthest from the bay window. The Hankins, out of pure kindness,
had taken pity on the old lady, Mrs. Jurd. They had made advances to
the Lucys, perceiving an agreeable social affinity, and had afterward
drawn back. For the Lucys were using the opportunity of the weather for
cultivating Mrs. Tailleur.

It was not easy, they told themselves, to get to know her. She did not
talk much. But as Jane pointed out to Robert, little things came out,
things that proved that she was all right. Her father was a country
parson, very strait-laced, they gathered; and she had little sisters,
years younger than herself. When she talked at all it was in a pretty,
innocent way, like a child's, and all her little legends were, you could
see, transparently consistent. They had, like a child's, a quite funny
reiterance and simplicity. But, like a child, she was easily put off by
any sort of interruption. When she thought she had let herself go too
far, she would take fright and avoid them for the rest of the day, and
they had to begin all over again with her next time.

The thing, Lucy said, would be for Jane to get her some day all alone.
But Jane said, No; Mrs. Tailleur was ten times more afraid of her than
of him. Besides, they had only another week, and they didn't want, did
they, to see _too_ much of Mrs. Tailleur? At that Lucy got very red, and
promised his sister to take her out somewhere by themselves the next
fine day.

That was on Wednesday evening, when it was raining hard.

The weather lifted with the dawn. The heavy smell of the wet earth was
pierced by the fine air of heaven and the sea.

Jane Lucy leaned out of her bedroom window and looked eastward beyond
the hotel garden to the Cliff. The sea was full of light. Light rolled
on the low waves and broke on their tops like foam. It hung quivering on
the white face of the Cliff. It was like a thin spray thrown from the
heaving light of the sea.

At breakfast Jane reminded Robert of his promise to take her for a sail
on the first fine day. They turned their backs on the hotel and went
seaward. On their way to the boats they passed Mrs. Tailleur sitting on
the beach in the sun.

Neither of them enjoyed that expedition. It was the first of all the
things they had done together that had failed. Jane wondered why. If
they were not enjoying themselves on a day like that, when, she argued,
would they enjoy themselves? The day remained as perfect as it had
begun. There was nothing wrong, Robert admitted, with the day. They
sailed in the sun's path and landed in a divine and solitary cove.
Robert was obliged to agree that there was nothing wrong with the cove,
and nothing, no nothing in the least wrong with the lunch. There might,
yes, of course there might, be something very wrong with him.

Whatever it was, it disappeared as they sighted Southbourne. Robert,
mounting with uneasy haste the steps that led from the beach to the
hotel garden, was unusually gay.

They were late for dinner, and the table next theirs was empty. Outside,
on the great green lawn in front of the windows, he could see Mrs.
Tailleur walking up and down, alone.

He dined with the abstraction of a man pursued by the hour of an
appointment. He established Jane in the lounge, with all the magazines
he could lay his hands on, and went out by the veranda on to the lawn
where Mrs. Tailleur was still walking up and down.

The Colonel and his wife were in the veranda. They made a low sound of
pity as they saw him go.

Mrs. Tailleur seemed more than ever alone. The green space was bare
around her as if cleared by the sweep of her gown. She moved quietly,
with a long and even undulation, a yielding of her whole body to the
rhythm of her feet. She had reached the far end of the lawn as Lucy
neared her, and he looked for her to turn and face him.

She did not turn.

The lawn at this end was bounded by a gravel walk. The walk was fenced
by a low stone wall built on the edge of the Cliff. Mrs. Tailleur paused
there and seated herself sideways on the wall. Her face was turned from
Lucy, and he judged her unaware of his approach. In his eyes she gained
a new enchantment from the vast and simple spaces of her background, a
sea of dull purple, a sky of violet, divinely clear. Her face had the
intense, unsubstantial pallor, the magic and stillness of flowers that
stand in the blue dusk before night.

She turned at the sound of the man's footsteps on the gravel. She smiled
quietly, as if she knew of his coming, and was waiting for it there. He
greeted her. A few words of no moment passed between them, and there was
a silence. He stood by the low wall with his face set seaward, as if all
his sight were fixed on the trail of smoke that marked the far-off
passage of a steamer. Mrs. Tailleur's face was fixed on his. He was
aware of it.

Standing beside her, he was aware, too, of something about her alien to
sea and sky; something secret, impenetrable, that held her, as it were,
apart, shut in by her own strange and solitary charm.

And she sat there in the deep quiet of a woman intent upon her hour. He
had no ear for the call of her silence, for the voice of the instincts
prisoned in blood and brain.

Presently she rose, shrugging her shoulders and gathering her furs about
her.

"I want to walk," she said; "will you come?"

She led the way to the corner where the low wall was joined by a high
one, dividing the hotel garden from the open down. There was a gate
here; it led to a flight of wooden steps that went zig-zag to the beach
below. At the first turn in the flight a narrow path was cut on the
Cliff side. To the right it rose inland, following the slope of the
down. To the left it ran level under the low wall, then climbed higher
yet to the brow of the headland. There it ended in a square recess, a
small white chamber cut from the chalk and open to the sea and sky. From
the floor of the recess the Cliff dropped sheer to the beach two hundred
feet below.

Mrs. Tailleur took the path to the left. Lucy followed her.

The path was stopped by the bend of the great Cliff, the recess roofed
by its bulging forehead. There was a wooden seat set well back under
this cover. Two persons who found themselves alone there might count on
security from interruption.

Mrs. Tailleur and Lucy were alone.

Lucy looked at the Cliff wall in front of them.

"We must go back," said he.

"Oh no," said she; "don't let's go back."

"But if you want to walk----"

"I don't," said she; "do you?"

He didn't, and they seated themselves. In the charm of this intimate
seclusion Lucy became more than ever dumb. Mrs. Tailleur waited a few
minutes in apparent meditation.

All Lucy said was "May I smoke?"

"You may." She meditated again.

"I was wondering," said she, "whether you were ever going to say
anything."

"I didn't know," said Lucy simply, "whether I might. I thought you were
thinking."

"So I was. I was thinking of what you were going to say next. I never
met anybody who said less and took so long a time to say it in."

"Well," said Lucy, "I was thinking too."

"I know you were. You needn't be so afraid of me unless you like."

"I am not," said he stiffly, "in the least afraid of you. I'm
desperately afraid of saying the wrong thing."

"To me? Or everybody?"

"Not everybody."

"To me, then. Do you think I might be difficult?"

"Difficult?"

"To get on with?"

"Not in the least. Possibly, if I may say so, a little difficult to
know."

She smiled. "I don't usually strike people in that light."

"Well, I think I'm afraid of boring you."

"You couldn't if you tried from now to midnight."

"How do you know what I mightn't do?"

"That's it. I don't know. I never _should_ know. It's only the people
I'm sure of that bore me. Don't they you?"

He laughed uneasily.

"The people," she went on, "who are sure of _me_; who think I'm so easy
to know. They don't know me, and they don't know that I know them. And
they're the only people I've ever, ever met. I can tell what they're
going to say before they've said it. It's always the same thing.
It's--if you like--the inevitable thing. If you can't have anything but
the same thing, at least you like it put a little differently. You'd
think, among them all, they might find it easy to put it a little
differently sometimes; but they never do; and it's the brutal monotony
of it that I cannot stand."

"I suppose," said Lucy, "people _are_ monotonous."

"They don't know," said she, evidently ignoring his statement as
inadequate, "they don't know how sick I am of it--how insufferably it
bores me."

"Ah! there you see--that's what _I'm_ afraid of."

"What?"

"Of saying the wrong thing--the--the same thing."

"That's it. You'd say it differently, and it wouldn't be the same thing
at all. And what's more, I should never know whether you were going to
say it or not."

"There's one thing I'd like to say to you if I knew how--if I knew how
you'd take it. You see, though I think I know you----" he hesitated.

"You don't really? You don't know who I am? Or where I come from? Or
where I'm going to? I don't know myself."

"I know," said Lucy, "as much as I've any right to. But unluckily the
thing I want to know----"

"Is what you haven't any right to?"

"I'm afraid I haven't. The thing I want to know is simply whether I can
help you in any way."

She smiled. "Ah," said she, "you _have_ said it."

"Haven't I said it differently?"

"I'm not sure. You looked different when you said it; that's something."

"I know I've no right to say it at all. What I mean is that if I could
do anything for you without boring you, without forcing myself on your
acquaintance, I'd be most awfully glad. You know you needn't recognise
me afterward unless you like. Have I put it differently now?"

"Yes; I don't think I've ever heard it put quite that way before."

There was a long pause in which Lucy vainly sought for illumination.

"No," said Mrs. Tailleur, as if to herself; "I should never know what
you were going to say or do next."

"Wouldn't you?"

"No; I didn't know just now whether you were going to speak to me or
not. When I said I wanted to walk I didn't know whether you'd come with
me or not."

"I came."

"You came; but when I go----"

"You're not going?"

"Yes; to-morrow, perhaps, or the next day. When I go I shall give you my
address and ask you to come and see me; but I shan't know whether you'll
come."

"Of course I'll come."

"There's no 'of course' about you; that's the charm of it. I shan't know
until you're actually there."

"I shall be there all right."

"What? You'll come?"

"Yes; and I'll bring my sister."

"Your sister?" She drew back slightly. "Turn round, please--this
way--and let me look at you."

He turned, laughing. Her eyes searched his face.

"Yes; you meant that. Why do you want to bring your sister?"

"Because I want you to know her."

"Are you sure--quite--quite sure--you want her to know me?"

"Quite--quite sure. If you don't mind--if she won't bore you."

"Oh, she won't bore me."

"You're not afraid of that monotony?"

She turned and looked long at him. "You are very like your sister," she
said.

"Am I? How? In what way?"

"In the way we've been talking about. I suppose you know how remarkable
you are?"

"No; I really don't think I do."

"Then," said Mrs. Tailleur, "you are all the more remarkable."

"Don't you think," she added, "we had better go back?"

They went back. As they mounted the steps to the garden door they saw
Miss Keating approaching it from the inside. She moved along the low
wall that overlooked the path by which they had just come. There was no
crunching of pebbles under her feet. She trod, inaudibly, the soft edge
of the lawn.

Lucy held the door open for Miss Keating when Mrs. Tailleur had passed
through; but Miss Keating had turned suddenly. She made the pebbles on
the walk scream with the vehemence of her retreat.

"Dear me," said Lucy, "it must be rather painful to be as shy as that."

"Mustn't it?" said Mrs. Tailleur.




CHAPTER VI


The next day it rained, fitfully at first, at the will of a cold wind
that dragged clouds out of heaven. A gleam of sunshine in the afternoon,
then wild rain driven slantwise by the gusts; and now, at five o'clock,
no wind at all, but a straight, soaking downpour.

The guests at the Cliff Hotel were all indoors. Colonel Hankin and his
wife were reading in a corner of the lounge. Mr. Soutar, the clergyman,
was dozing over a newspaper by an imaginary fire. The other men drifted
continually from the bar to the billiard-room and back again.

Mrs. Tailleur and Lucy were sitting in the veranda, with rugs round
them, watching the rain, and watched by Colonel and Mrs. Hankin.

Jane had gone into the drawing-room to write letters. There was nobody
there but the old lady who sat in the bay of the window, everlastingly
knitting, and Miss Keating isolated on a sofa near the door.

Everybody in the hotel was happy and occupied, except Miss Keating. Her
eyes followed the labour of Miss Lucy's pen, watching for the stroke
that should end it. She had made up her mind that she must speak to her.

Miss Keating was subject to a passion which circumstances were
perpetually frustrating. She desired to be interesting, profoundly,
personally interesting to people. She disliked publicity partly because
it reduced her to mournful insignificance and silence. The few moments
in her life which counted were those private ones when she found
attention surrendered wholly to her service. She hungered for the
unworn, unwearied sympathy of strangers. Her fancy had followed and
fastened on the Lucys, perceiving this exquisitely virgin quality in
them. And now she was suffering from an oppression of the nerves that
urged her to a supreme outpouring.

Miss Lucy seemed absorbed in her correspondence. She felt that Miss
Keating's eyes were upon her, and as she wrote she planned a dexterous
retreat. It would, she knew, be difficult, owing to Miss Keating's
complete occupation of the sofa by the door.

She had made that lady's acquaintance in the morning, having found her
sitting sad and solitary in the lounge. She had then felt that it would
be unkind not to say something to her, and she had spent the greater
part of the morning saying it. Miss Keating had tracked the thin thread
of conversation carefully, as if in search of an unapparent opportunity.
Jane, aware of the watchfulness of her method, had taken fright and left
her. She had had an awful feeling that Miss Keating was about to bestow
a confidence on her; somebody else's confidence, which Miss Keating had
broken badly, she suspected.

Jane had finished her letters. She was addressing the envelopes. Now she
was stamping them. Now she was crossing the room. Miss Keating lowered
her eyes as the moment came which was to bring her into communion with
the Lucys.

Jane had made her way very quietly to the door, and thought to pass
through it unobserved, when Miss Keating seemed to leap up from her sofa
as from an ambush.

"Miss Lucy," she said, and Jane turned at the penetrating sibilants of
her name.

Miss Keating thrust toward her a face of tragic and imminent appeal. A
nervous vibration passed through her and communicated itself to Jane.

"What is it?" Jane paused in the doorway.

"May I speak to you a moment?"

"Certainly."

But Miss Keating did not speak. She stood there, clasping and
unclasping her hands. It struck Jane that she was trying to conceal an
eagerness of which she was more than half ashamed.

"What is it?" she said again.

Miss Keating sighed. "Will you sit down? Here--I think." She glanced
significantly at the old lady who was betraying unmistakable interest in
the scene. There was no place where they could sit beyond her range of
vision. But the sofa was on the far side of it, and Miss Keating's back
protested against observation.

She bent forward, her thin arms stretched out to Jane, her hands locked,
as if she still held tight the confidence she offered.

"Miss Lucy," she said, "you were so kind to me this morning, so kind and
helpful."

"I didn't know it."

"No, you didn't know it." Miss Keating looked down, and she smiled as if
at some pleasant secret of her own. "I think when we are really helping
each other we don't know it. You couldn't realise what it meant to me,
your just coming up and speaking to me that way."

"I'm very glad," said Jane; and thought she meant it.

Miss Keating smiled again. "I wonder," she said, "if I might ask you to
help me again?"

"If I can."

"You look as if you could. I'm in a great difficulty, and I would like
you--if you would--to give me your advice."

"That," said Jane, "is a very dangerous thing to give."

"It wouldn't be in this case. If I might only tell you. There's no one
in the hotel whom I can speak to."

"Surely," said Jane, "there is Mrs. Tailleur, your friend."

"My friend? Yes, she is my friend; that's why I can't say anything to
her. She _is_ the difficulty."

"Indeed," said Jane coldly. Nothing in Miss Keating appealed to the
spirit of adventurous sympathy.

"I have received so much kindness from her. She _is_ kind."

"Evidently," said Jane.

"That makes my position so very delicate--so very disagreeable."

"I should think it would."

Miss Keating felt the antipathy in Miss Lucy's tone. "You _do_ think it
strange of me to come to you when I don't know you?"

"No, no; people are always coming to me. Perhaps because they don't know
me."

"Ah, you see, you make them come."

"Indeed I don't. I try to stop them."

"Are you trying to stop me?"

"Yes; I think I am."

"Don't stop me, please."

"But surely it would be better to consult your own people."

Miss Keating paused. Miss Lucy had suggested the obvious course, which
she had avoided for reasons which were not obvious even to herself.

"My own people?" she murmured pensively. "They are not here."

It was not her fault if Miss Lucy jumped to the conclusion that they
were dead.

"I wonder," she said, "if you see my difficulty?"

"I see it plainly enough. Mrs. Tailleur has been very kind to you, and
you want to leave her. Why?"

"I'm not sure that I ought to stay."

"You must be the best judge of your obligations."

"There are," said Miss Keating, "other things; I don't know that I'm a
good judge of _them_. You see, I was brought up very carefully."

"Were you?"

"Yes. I'm not sure that it's wise to be as careful as all that--to keep
young girls in ignorance of things they--things they must, sooner or
later----" she paused staring as if at an abyss.

"What things?" asked Jane bluntly.

"I don't know what things. I don't _know_ anything. I'm afraid. I'm so
innocent, Miss Lucy, that I'm like a child in the dark. I think I want
some one to hold my hand and tell me there's nothing there."

"Perhaps there isn't."

"Yes, but it's so dark that I can't see whether there is or isn't. I'm
just like a little child. Except that it imagines things and I don't."

"Don't you? Are you sure you don't let your imagination run away with
you sometimes?"

"Not," said Miss Keating, "not on this subject. Even when I'm brought
into contact"--her shoulder-blades obeyed the suggestion of her brain,
and shuddered. "I don't know whether it's good or bad to refuse to face
things. I can't help it. All that side of life is so intensely
disagreeable to me."

"It's not agreeable to me," said Jane. "And what _has_ it got to do with
Mrs. Tailleur?"

Miss Keating smiled queerly. "I don't know. I wish I did."

"If you mean you think she isn't nice, I can tell you I'm sure you're
mistaken."

"It's not what _I_ think. It's what other people think."

"What people?"

"The people here."

Little Jane lifted her head superbly.

"_We_ think the people here have behaved abominably to Mrs. Tailleur."

She lifted her voice too. She didn't care who heard her. She rose,
making herself look as tall as possible.

"And if you're her friend," said she, "you ought to think so too."

She walked out of the room, still superbly. Miss Keating was left to a
painful meditation on misplaced confidence.




CHAPTER VII


She had had no intention of betraying Kitty. Kitty, she imagined, had
sufficiently betrayed herself. And if she hadn't, as long as Kitty chose
to behave like a dubious person, she could hardly be surprised if
persons by no means dubious refused to be compromised. She, Miss
Keating, was in no way responsible for Kitty Tailleur. Neither was she
responsible for what other people thought of her. That was all, in
effect, that she had intimated to Miss Lucy.

She did not say what she herself precisely thought, nor when she had
first felt that uncomfortable sensation of exposure, that little shiver
of cold and shame that seized her when in Kitty Tailleur's society. She
had no means of measuring the lengths to which Kitty had gone and might
yet go. She was simply possessed, driven and lashed by her vision of
Kitty as she had seen her yesterday; Kitty standing at the end of the
garden, on the watch for Mr. Lucy; Kitty returning, triumphant, with the
young man at her heels.

She had seen Kitty with other men before, but there was something in
this particular combination that she could not bear to think of. All the
same, she had lain awake half the night thinking of it. She had Kitty
Tailleur and Mr. Lucy on her nerves.

She had desired a pretext for approaching Miss Lucy, and poor Kitty was
a pretext made to her hand. Nothing could be more appealing than the
spectacle of helpless innocence struggling with a problem as terrible as
Kitty. Miss Keating knew all the time that as far as she was concerned
there was no problem. If she disliked being with Kitty she had nothing
to do but to pack up and go. Kitty had said in the beginning that if she
didn't like her she must go.

That course was obvious but unattractive. And the most obvious and most
unattractive thing about it was that it would not have brought her any
further with the Lucys. It would, in fact, have removed her altogether
from their view.

But she had done for herself now with the Lucys. She should have kept
her nerves to herself, rasped, as they were to a treacherous tenuity.
And as the state of her nerves was owing to Kitty, she held Kitty
responsible for the crisis. She writhed as she thought of it. She
writhed as she thought of Mr. Lucy. She writhed as she thought of Kitty;
and writhing, she rubbed her own venom into her hurt.

Of course she would have to leave Kitty now.

But, if she did, the alternatives were grim. She would have either to go
back to her own people, or to look after somebody's children, or an
invalid. Her own people were not interested in Miss Keating. Children
and invalids demanded imperatively that she should be interested in
them. And Miss Keating, unfortunately, was not interested in anybody
but herself.

So interested was she that she had forgotten the old lady who sat
knitting in the window, who, distracted by Miss Lucy's outburst, had let
her ball roll on to the floor. It rolled away across the room to Miss
Keating's feet, and there was a great tangle in the wool. Miss Keating
picked up the ball and brought it to the old lady, winding and
disentangling it as she went.

"Thank you; my wool is a nuisance to everybody," said the old lady. And
she began to talk about her knitting. All the year round she knitted
comforters for the deep-sea fishermen, gray and red and blue. When she
was tired of one colour she went to another. It would be red's turn
next.

Miss Keating felt as if she were being drawn to the old lady by that
thin thread of wool. And the old lady kept looking at her all the time.

"Your face is familiar to me," she said. (Oddly enough, the old lady's
face was familiar to Miss Keating.) "I have met you somewhere; I cannot
think where."

"I wonder," said Miss Keating, "if it was at Wenden, my father's
parish?"

The old lady's look was sharper. "Your father is the vicar of Wenden?"

"Yes."

"I thought so."

"Do you know him?" The ball slipped from Miss Keating's nervous fingers
and the wool was tangled worse than ever.

"No, no; but I could tell that you were----" she hesitated. "It was at
Ilkley that I met you. It's coming back to me. You were not then with
Mrs. Tailleur, I think? You were with an invalid lady?"

"Yes; I was until I broke down."

"May I ask if you knew Mrs. Tailleur before you came to her?"

"No. I knew nothing of her. I know nothing now."

"Oh," said the old lady. It was as if she had said: that settles it.

The wool was disentangled. It was winding them nearer and nearer.

"Have you been with her long?"

"Not more than three months."

There were only five inches of wool between them now. "Do you mind
telling me where you picked her up?"

Miss Keating remembered with compunction that it was Kitty who had
picked _her_ up. Picked her up, as it were, in her arms, and carried her
away from the dreadful northern Hydropathic where she had dropped,
forlorn and exhausted, in the trail of her opulent invalid.

"It was at Matlock, afterward. Why?"

"Because, my dear--you must forgive me, but I could not help hearing
what that young lady said. She was so very--so very unrestrained."

"Very ill-bred, I should say."

"Well, I should not have said that. You couldn't mistake the Lucys for
anything but gentlepeople. Evidently I was meant to hear. I've no doubt
she thinks us all very unkind."

"Unkind? Why?"

"Because we have--have not exactly taken to Mrs. Tailleur; if you'll
forgive my saying so."

Miss Keating's smile forgave her. "People do not always take to her. She
is more a favourite, I think, with men." She gave the ball into the old
lady's hands.

The old lady coughed slightly. "Thank you, my dear. I dare say _you_
have thought it strange. We are such a friendly little community here;
and if Mrs. Tailleur had been at all possible----"

"I believe," said Miss Keating, "she is very well connected. Lord
Matcham is a most intimate friend of hers."

"That doesn't speak very well for Lord Matcham, I'm afraid."

"I wish," said Miss Keating, "you would be frank with me."

"I should like to be, my dear."

"Then, please--if there's anything you think I should be told--tell me."

"I think you ought to be told that we all are wondering a little at your
being seen with Mrs. Tailleur. You are too nice, if I may say so, and
she is--well, not the sort of person you should be going about with."

Miss Keating's mouth opened slightly.

"Do you know anything about her?"

"I know less than you do. I'm only going by what Colonel Hankin says."

"Colonel Hankin?"

"Mrs. Hankin, I should say; of course I couldn't speak about Mrs.
Tailleur to _him_."

"Has he ever met her?"

"Met her? In society? My dear!--he has never met her anywhere."

"Then would he--would he really know?"

"It isn't only the Colonel. All the men in the hotel say the same thing.
You can see how they stare at her."

"Oh, those men!"

"You may depend upon it, they know more than we do."

"How can they? How--how do they tell?"

"I suppose they see something."

Miss Keating saw it, too. She shuddered involuntarily. Her knees shook
under her. She sat down.

"I'm sure I don't know what it is," said the old lady.

"Nor I," said Miss Keating faintly.

"They say you've only got to look at her----"

A dull flush spread over Miss Keating's face. She was breathing hard.
Her mouth opened to speak; a thick sigh came through it, but no words.

"I've looked," said the old lady, "and I can't see anything about her
different from other people. She dresses so quietly; but I'm told they
often do. They're very careful that we shouldn't know them."

"They? Oh, you don't mean that Mrs. Tailleur--is----"

"I'm only going by what I'm told. Mind you, I get it all from Mrs.
Hankin."

Miss Keating, who had been leaning forward, sat suddenly bolt upright.
Her whole body was shaking now. Her voice was low but violent.

"Oh--oh--I knew it--I knew. I always felt there was something about
her."

"I'm sure, my dear, you didn't _know_."

"I didn't. I didn't think it was that; I only thought she wasn't nice. I
thought she was fast, or she'd been divorced, or something--something
terrible of that sort."

She still sat bolt upright, gazing open-eyed, open-mouthed at the
terror. She was filled with a fierce excitement, a sort of exultation.
Then doubt came to her.

"But surely--surely the hotel people would know?"

"Hotel people never know anything that isn't their interest to know. If
there were any complaint, or if any of the guests were to leave on
account of her, Mrs. Tailleur would have to go."

"And has there been any complaint?"

"I believe Mr. Soutar--the clergyman--has spoken to the manager."

"And the manager?"

"Well, you see, Mr. Soutar is always complaining. He complained about
the food, and about his bedroom. He has the cheapest bedroom in the
hotel."

Miss Keating was thinking hard. Her idea was that Kitty Tailleur should
go, and that she should remain.

"Don't you think if Colonel Hankin spoke to the manager----"

"He wouldn't. He's much too kind. Besides, the manager can't do anything
as long as she behaves herself. And now that the Lucys have taken her
up----. And then, there's you. Your being with her is her great
protection. As she very well knew when she engaged you."

"I was engaged for _that_?"

"There can be very little doubt of it."

"Oh! then nobody thinks that I knew it? That I'm like her?"

"Nobody _could_ think that of you."

"What am I to do? I'm so helpless, and I've no one to advise me. And
it's not as if we really knew anything."

"My dear, I think you should leave her."

"Of course I shall leave her. I can't stay another day. But I don't know
how I ought to do it."

"Would you like to consult Colonel Hankin?"

"Oh no; I don't think I could bear to speak about it to him."

"Well--and perhaps he would not like to be brought into it, either."

"Then what reason can I give her?"

"Of course you cannot tell her what you've heard."

Miss Keating was silent.

"Or if you do, you must please not give me as your informant."

"I will not do that."

"Nor--please--Colonel and Mrs. Hankin. We none of us want to be mixed up
with any unpleasant business."

"You may trust me," said Miss Keating. "I am very discreet."

She rose. The old lady held her with detaining eyes.

"What shall you do when you have left her?"

"I suppose I shall have to look for another place."

"You are not going home, then?"

Miss Keating's half-smile hinted at renunciation. "I have too many
younger sisters."

"Well, let me see. I shall be going back to Surbiton the day after
to-morrow. How would it be if you were to come with me?"

"Oh, Mrs.--Mrs.----" The smile wavered, but it held its place.

"Mrs. Jurd. If we suited each other you might stay with me, at any rate
for a week or two. I've been a long time looking out for a companion."

Miss Keating's smile was now strained with hesitation. Mrs. Jurd was not
an invalid, and she was interested in Miss Keating. These were points in
her favour. On the other hand, nobody who could do better would choose
to live with Mrs. Jurd and wind wool and talk about the deep-sea
fishermen.

"I am living," said Mrs. Jurd, "with my nephew at Surbiton. I have to
keep his house for him."

"Then do you think you would really need any one?"

"Indeed I do. My nephew isn't a companion for me. He's in the city all
day and out most evenings, or he brings his friends in and they get
smoking."

Miss Keating's smile was now released from its terrible constraint. A
slight tremor, born of that deliverance, passed over her face, and left
it rosy. But having committed herself to the policy of hesitation she
had a certain delicacy in departing from it now.

"Are you quite sure you would care to have _me_?"

"My dear, I am quite sure that I don't care to have any one who is not a
lady; and I am quite sure that I am talking to a lady. It is very seldom
in these days that one can be sure."

Miss Keating made a little bow and blushed.

After a great deal of conversation it was settled that she should
exchange the Cliff Hotel for the Métropole that night, and that she
should stay there until she left Southbourne for Surbiton, with Mrs.
Jurd.

When Colonel and Mrs. Hankin looked in to report upon the weather, this
scheme was submitted to them as to supreme judges in a question of
propriety.

Mrs. Tailleur was not mentioned. Her name stood for things that decorous
persons do not mention, except under certain sanctions and the plea of
privilege. The Colonel might mention them to his wife, and his wife
might mention them to Mrs. Jurd, who might pass them on with
unimpeachable propriety to Miss Keating. But these ladies were unable to
discuss Mrs. Tailleur in the presence of the Colonel. Still, as none of
them could do without her, she was permitted to appear in a purified
form, veiled in obscure references, or diminished to an innocent
abstraction.

Miss Keating, Mrs. Jurd said, was not at all satisfied with her--er--her
present situation.

The Colonel lowered his eyes for one iniquitous instant while Mrs.
Tailleur, disguised as Miss Keating's present situation, laughed through
the veil and trailed before him her unabashed enormity.

He managed to express, with becoming gravity, his approval of the
scheme. He only wondered whether it might not be better for Miss Keating
to stay where she was until the morning, that her step might not seem so
precipitate, so marked.

Miss Keating replied that she thought she had been sufficiently
compromised already.

"I don't think," said the Colonel, "that I should put it that way."

He felt that by putting it that way Miss Keating had brought them a
little too near what he called the verge, the verge they were all so
dexterously avoiding. He would have been glad if he could have been kept
out of this somewhat perilous debate, but, since the women had dragged
him into it, it was his business to see that it was confined within the
limits of comparative safety. Goodness knew where they would be landed
if the women lost their heads.

He looked gravely at Miss Keating.

That look unnerved her, and she took a staggering step that brought her
within measurable distance of the verge.

The Colonel might put it any way he liked, she said. There must not be a
moment's doubt as to her attitude.

Now it was not her attitude that the Colonel was thinking of, but his
own. It had been an attitude of dignity, of judicial benevolence, of
incorruptible reserve. Any sort of unpleasantness was agony to a man who
had the habit of perfection. It was dawning on him that unless he
exercised considerable caution he would find himself mixed up in an
uncommonly disagreeable affair. He might even be held responsible for
it, since the dubiousness of the topic need never have emerged if he had
not unveiled it to his wife. So that, when Miss Keating, in her
unsteadiness, declared that there must not be a moment's doubt as to her
attitude, the Colonel himself was seized with a slight vertigo. He
suggested that people (luckily he got no nearer it than that)--people
were, after all, entitled to the benefit of any doubt there might be.

Then, when the danger was sheer in front of them, he drew back. Miss
Keating, he said, had nobody but herself to please. He had no more light
to throw on the--er--the situation. Really, he said to himself, they
couldn't have hit on a more serviceable word.

He considered that he had now led the discussion to its close, on lines
of irreproachable symbolism. Nobody had overstepped the verge. Mrs.
Tailleur had not once been mentioned. She might have disappeared behind
the shelter provided by the merciful, silent decencies. Colonel Hankin
had shown his unwillingness to pursue her into the dim and undesirable
regions whence she came.

Then suddenly Miss Keating cried out her name.

She had felt herself abandoned, left there, all alone on the verge, and
before any of them knew where they were she was over it. Happily, she
was unaware of the violence with which she went. She seemed to herself
to move, downward indeed, but with a sure and slow propulsion. She
believed herself challenged to the demonstration by the Colonel's
attitude. The high distinction of it, that was remotely akin to Mr.
Lucy's, somehow obscured and degraded her. She conceived a dislike to
this well-behaved and honourable gentleman, and to his visible
perfections, the clean, silver whiteness and the pinkness of him.

His case was clear to her. He was a man, and he had looked at Kitty
Tailleur, and his sympathies, like Mr. Lucy's, had suffered an
abominable perversion. His judgment, like Mr. Lucy's, had surrendered to
the horrible charm. She said to herself bitterly, that she could not
compete with _that_.

She trembled as she faced the Colonel. "Very well, then," said she, "as
there is no one to help me I must protect myself. I shall not sleep
another night under the same roof as Mrs. Tailleur."

The three winced as if the name had been a blow struck at them. The
Colonel's silver eyebrows rose bristling. Mrs. Hankin got up and went
out of the room. Mrs. Jurd bent her head over her knitting. None of
them looked at Miss Keating; not even the Colonel, as he spoke.

"If you feel like that about it," said he, "there is nothing more to be
said."

He rose and followed his wife.

Upstairs, when their bedroom door had closed on them, he reproved her
very seriously for her indiscretion.

"You asked me," said he, "what I thought of Mrs. Tailleur, and I told
you; but I never said you were to go and hand it on. What on earth have
you been saying to those women?"

"I didn't say anything to Miss Keating."

"No, but you must have done to Mrs. What's-her-name?"

"Not very much. I don't like talking about unpleasant subjects, as you
know."

"Well, somebody's been talking about them. I shouldn't wonder, after
this, if poor Mrs. Tailleur's room were wanted to-morrow."

"Oh, do you think they'll turn her out?"

She was a kind woman and she could not bear to think it would come to
that.

The Colonel was silent. He was sitting on the bed, watching his wife as
she undid the fastenings of her gown. At that moment a certain brief and
sudden sin of his youth rose up before him. It looked at him pitifully,
reproachfully, with the eyes of Mrs. Tailleur.

"I wish," said Mrs. Hankin, "we hadn't said anything at all."

"So do I," said the Colonel. But for the life of him he couldn't help
saying something more. "If she goes," he said, "I rather think that
young fellow will go, too."

"And the sister?"

"Oh, the sister, I imagine, will remain."




CHAPTER VIII


Kitty was dressed. She was calling out to her companion, "Bunny, hurry
up, you'll be late." No answer came from the adjoining room. She tapped
at the door and there was no answer. She tried to open the door. It was
locked on the inside. "Bunny," she cried, "are you there?" She laid her
ear to the panel. There was the sound of a box being dragged across the
floor.

"You _are_ there, are you? Why don't you answer? I can't hear you. Why
can't you open the door?"

Miss Keating unlocked the door. She held it ajar and spoke through the
aperture.

"Be good enough," she said, "to leave me alone."

"All right; but you'll be awfully late for dinner."

"I am not coming down to dinner."

Miss Keating shut the door, but she did not lock it.

Kitty gave a cry of distress.

"Bunny, what _is_ the matter? Let me in--do let me in."

"You can come in if you like."

Kitty opened the door. But instead of going in, she stood fixed upon the
threshold, struck dumb by what she saw.

The room was in disorder. Clothes littered the bed. More clothes were
heaped on the floor around an open trunk. Miss Keating was kneeling on
the floor seizing on things and thrusting them into the trunk. Their
strangled, tortured forms witnessed to the violence of her mood.

"What _are_ you doing?"

"You can see what I'm doing. I am packing my things."

"Why?"

"Because I am going away."

"Have you had bad news? Is--is anybody dead?"

"I wouldn't ask any questions if I were you."

"I must ask some. You know, people _don't_ walk off like this without
giving any reason."

"I am surprised at your asking for my reason."

"Sur--prised," said Kitty softly. "Are you going because of me?"

Miss Keating did not answer.

"I see. So you don't like me any more?"

"We won't put it that way."

Kitty came and stood beside Miss Keating and looked down at her.

"Bunny, have I been a brute to you?"

"No."

"Have I ever been a brute to any one? Have you ever known me do an
unkind thing, or say an unkind word to any one?"

"N--no."

"Then why do you listen when people say unkind things about me?"

Miss Keating stooped very low over the trunk. Her attitude no doubt
accounted for the redness of her face which Kitty noticed. "I think I
know what they've been saying. Did you or did you not listen?"

"Listen?"

"Yes. I don't mean behind doors and things. But you let them talk to
you?"

"You cannot stop people talking."

"Can't you? I'd have stopped them pretty soon if they'd talked to me
about you. What did they say?"

"You've said just now you knew."

"Very well. Who said it?"

"You've no reason to assume that anybody has said anything."

"Was it Mr. Lucy, or his sister?"

Miss Keating became agitated.

"I have never discussed you with Mr. Lucy. Or his sister." There was a
little click in Miss Keating's throat where the lie stuck.

"I know you haven't. They wouldn't let you."

Kitty smiled. Miss Keating saw the smile. She trembled. Tears started to
her eyes. She rose and began sorting the pile of clothing on the bed.

Something in her action inspired Kitty with an intolerable passion of
wonder and of pity. She came to her and laid her hand on her hair,
lightly and with a certain fear.

Miss Keating had once purred under Kitty's caresses. Now she jerked back
suddenly and beat off the timid hand.

"I wish you wouldn't touch me."

"Why not?"

"Because it makes me loathe you."

Kitty sat down on the bed. She had wrapped her hand in her
pocket-handkerchief as if it had been hurt.

"Poor Bunny," she said; "are you feeling as bad as all that? You must
want dreadfully to marry that long man. But you needn't loathe me. I'm
not going to make him marry _me_."

"Can you not think of anything but that?"

"I can _think_ of all sorts of things. At present I'm thinking of that.
It does seem such an awful pity that you haven't married. A dear little,
sweet little, good little thing like you--for you _are_ good, Bunny.
It's a shame that you should have to live in rage and fury, and be very
miserable, and--and rather cruel, just because of that."

"If every word you said of me was true, I'd rather be myself than you,
Mrs. Tailleur."

"That, Miss Keating, is purely a matter of taste. Unhappiness is all
that's the matter with you. You'd be quite a kind woman if it wasn't for
that. You see, I do understand you, Bunny. So it isn't very wise of you
to leave me. Think what an awful time you'll have if you go and live
with somebody who doesn't understand and won't make allowances. And
you're not strong. You never will be as long as you're miserable. You'll
go and live with ill old ladies and get into that state you were in at
Matlock. And there won't be anybody to look after you. And, Bunny,
you'll never marry--never; and it'll be simply awful. You'll go getting
older and older and nervier and nervier, till you're _so_ nervy that
even the old ladies won't have you any more. Bad as I am, you'd better
stop with me."

"Stop with you? How can I stop with you?"

"Well, you haven't told me yet why you can't."

"I can't tell you. I--I've written you a letter. It's there on the
dressing-table."

Kitty went to the dressing-table.

"I am returning you my salary for the quarter I have been with you."

Kitty took up the letter.

"I'd rather you did not read it until after I am gone."

"That's not fair, Bunny."

"Please--I've written what I had to say because I wished to avoid a
scene."

"There won't be any scene. I'm not going to read your beastly letter."

She opened the envelope and removed the notes and laid them on the
dressing-table. Then she tore up the letter and the envelope together
and tossed them into the grate.

"And I'm not going to take those notes."

"Nor am I."

"You'll have to." She found her companion's purse and tucked the notes
inside it. Miss Keating turned on her. "Mrs. Tailleur, you shall not
thrust your money on me. I will not take it."

"You little fool, you've got to."

Miss Keating closed her eyes. It was a way she had. "I can't. And you
must please take back the things you've given me. They are all there; in
that heap on the bed."

Kitty turned and looked at them. They were all there; everything she had
ever given to her, the dresses, the combs, the little trinkets. She took
some of these and stared at them as she held them in her hand.

"Won't you keep anything?"

"I won't keep a thing."

"Not even the little chain I gave you? Oh, Bunny, you liked your little
chain."

Miss Keating took the chain from her and laid it with the rest.

"Please leave me to pack."

"Presently. Bunny--look at me--straight. Why are you doing this?"

"I wish to be spared the unpleasantness of speaking."

"But you've got to speak. Out with it. What have I done?"

"You know better than I do what your life has been."

"My life? I should think I did. Rather."

Kitty crossed the room to the bell.

"What time does your train go?"

"My----? I--must leave this at seven-thirty."

Kitty rang the bell. A housemaid appeared.

"I want a fly at seven-thirty. Please see that Miss Keating's luggage is
downstairs by then. Her room will not be wanted."

Miss Keating's face was livid.

"You wish," said she, "the hotel people to think that it is you who have
given _me_ notice?"

"You poor thing. I only wanted the fly to go down to my account."

"You expect me to believe that?"

"I don't expect anything of you--now. I suppose it's Colonel Hankin who
has been talking about my life? It wasn't Mr. Lucy, though you'd like to
make me think so."

"There's no need for anybody to talk. Do you suppose I don't know what
you are? You can't hide what's in you. You're--you're full of it. And
you've no shame about it. You can stand there, knowing that I know, and
ask me what you've done. How do I know what you've done? I don't want to
know it. It's bad enough to know what you are. And to know that I've
been living with it for three months. You got hold of me, an innocent
woman, and used me as a cover for your evil life. That's all you wanted
me for."

"Whatever I've done, I've done nothing to deserve that."

"You think not? Have you any idea what you've done--to me?"

"No; I haven't. What have I done?"

"I'm going to tell you. You've never ceased casting it up to me that I'm
not married, that I haven't your attractions--I thank heaven I have
not--I am not the sort of woman you take me for. I never have wanted to
be married, but if--if ever I had, I shouldn't want it now. You've
spoilt all that for me. I shall never see a man without thinking of
_you_. I shall hate every man I meet because of you."

"Well, hate them, hate them. It's better than loving them. Let me strap
that box. You'll tear your poor heart out."

Miss Keating wrenched the strap from Kitty's hands.

"Ah, how you hate me! Hate the men, dear, that can't do you any harm;
but don't hate the other women. At my worst I never did that."

Miss Keating shrugged her shoulders, for she was putting on her coat.
Kitty looked at her and sighed.

"Bunny," said she, "I want to make it quite clear to you why you're
going. You think it's because you know something horrible about me. But
it isn't. You don't know anything about me. You've only been listening
to some of the people in the hotel. They don't know anything about me
either. They've never met me in their lives before. But they've been
thinking things and saying things, and you've swallowed it all because
you wanted to. You're so desperately keen on making out there's
something bad about me. Of course, you might have made it out; you might
have proved all sorts of things against me. But you haven't. That's my
whole point. You haven't proved a thing, have you? If you were my
husband, and wanted to get rid of me, you'd have to trump up some
evidence, wouldn't you?"

"There is no need to trump up evidence. I'm acting on my instinct and
belief."

"Oh, I know you believe it all right."

"I can't help what I believe."

"No, you can't help it. You can't help what you want. And you wouldn't
have wanted it if you hadn't been so furiously unhappy. I was furiously
unhappy myself once. That's why I understand you."

"It is five-and-twenty minutes past seven, Mrs. Tailleur."

"And in five minutes you'll go. And you won't hear a word in my defence?
You won't? Why, if I'd murdered somebody and they were going to hang me,
they'd let me defend myself before they did it. All I was going to say
was--supposing everything you said was true, I think _you_ might have
made allowances for me. You can't? I was harder driven than you."

"No two cases could well be more different."

"Once they were the same. Only it was worse for me. All your temptations
are bottled up inside you. Mine rushed at me from inside and outside
too. I've had all the things you had. I had a strait-laced parson for my
father--so had you. I was poked away in a hole in the country--so were
you. I had little sisters--so had you. My mother sent me away from home
for fear I should harm them." Her voice shook. "I wouldn't have harmed
them for the world. I was sent to live with an old lady--so were you. I
was shut up with her all day, till I got ill and couldn't sleep at
night. I never saw a soul but one or two other old ladies. They were
quite fond of me--I made them. I should have died of it if it hadn't
been for that. Then--do listen, Bunny--something happened, and I broke
loose, and got away. You never had a chance to get away, so you don't
know what it feels like. Perhaps, I think, when it came to the point,
you'd have been afraid, or something. I wasn't. And I was young. I'm
young still. You can't judge me. Anyhow, I know what you've been
through. That's what made me sorry for you. Can't you be a little sorry
for me?"

Miss Keating said nothing. She was putting on her hat, and her mouth at
the moment was closed tight over a long hat-pin. She drew it out slowly
between her shut lips. Meeting Kitty's eyes she blinked.

"You needn't be sorry," said Kitty. "I've had things that you haven't."

Miss Keating turned to the looking-glass and put on her veil. Her back
was toward Kitty. The two women's faces were in the glass, the young and
the middle-aged, each searching for the other. Kitty's face was tearful
and piteous; it pleaded with the other face in the glass, a face furtive
with hate, that hung between two lifted arms behind a veil.

Miss Keating's hands struggled with her veil.

"I mayn't tie it for you?" said Kitty.

"No, thank you."

There was a knock at the door, and Miss Keating started.

"It's the men for your boxes. Come into my room and say good bye."

"I prefer to say good bye here, if it's all the same to you. Good bye."

"You won't even shake hands with me? Well, if you won't--why should
you?"

"I am holding out my hand. If you won't take it----"

"No, no. I don't want to take it."

Kitty was crying.

"I must let those men in," said Miss Keating. "You are not going to make
a scene?"

"I? Oh Lord, no. You needn't mind me. I'll go."

She went into her own room and flung herself, face downward, on to her
pillow, and slid by the bedside, kneeling, to the floor.




CHAPTER IX


At eight o'clock Mrs. Tailleur was not to be found in her room, or in
any other part of the hotel. By nine Lucy was out on the Cliff-side
looking for her. He was not able to account for the instinct that told
him she would be there.

The rain had ceased earlier in the evening. Now it was falling again in
torrents. He could see that the path was pitted with small, sharp
footprints. They turned and returned, obliterating each other.

At the end of the path, in the white chamber under the brow of the
Cliff, he made out first a queer, irregular, trailing black mass, then
the peak of a hood against the wall, and the long train of a woman's
gown upon the floor, and then, between the loops of the hood, the edge
of Mrs. Tailleur's white face, dim, but discernible. She sat sideways,
leaning against the wall, in the slack, childlike attitude of exhausted
misery.

He came close. She did not stir at the sound of his feet trampling the
slush. Her eyes were shut, her mouth open; she breathed, like a child,
the half-suffocated breath that comes after long crying. He stood
looking at her, tongue-tied with pity. Every now and then her throat
shook like a child's with guileless hiccoughing sobs.

He stooped over her and called her name.

"Mrs. Tailleur."

She turned from him and sank sidelong into the corner, hiding her face.
The long wings of her cloak parted and hung back from her cowering body.
Her thin garments, beaten smooth by the rain, clung like one tissue to
the long slope above her knees. Lucy laid his hand gently on her gown.
She was drenched to the skin. It struck through, cold and shuddering, to
his touch. She pushed his hand away and sat up.

"I think," she said, "you'd better go away."

"Do you want me to go?"

"I don't want you to see me like this. I'm--I'm not pretty to look at."

"That doesn't matter in the very least. Besides, I can hardly see you in
this light."

He drew her cloak about her and fastened it. He could feel, from the
nearness of her flushed mouth, the heat and the taste of grief. She
flung her head back to the wall away from him. Her hood slipped, and he
put his arm behind her shoulders and raised it, and drew it gently
forward to shelter her head from the rough wall. His hand was wet with
the rain from her loose hair.

"How long have you been walking about in the rain before you came here?"

She tried to speak, and with the effort her sobs broke out in violence.
It struck him again, and with another pang of pity, how like a child she
was in the completeness of her abandonment! He sat down beside her,
leaning forward, his face hidden in his hands. He felt that to hide his
own face was somehow to screen her.

Her sobbing went on, and her hand, stretched toward him unawares,
clutched at the top of the wooden seat.

"Would you like me to go away and come back again?" he said presently.

"No!" she cried. And at her own cry a terrible convulsion shook her. He
could feel her whole body strain and stiffen with the effort to control
it. Then she was calm.

"I beg your pardon," she said. "I told you, didn't I, that you'd better
go away?"

"Do you suppose that I'm going to leave you here? Just when I've found
you?"

"Miss Keating's left me. Did you know?"

"Yes, I heard. Is it--is it a great trouble to you?"

"Yes." She shook again.

"Surely," he began, and hesitated, and grew bold. "Surely it needn't be?
She wasn't, was she, such a particularly amiable person?"

"She couldn't help it. She was so unhappy."

His voice softened. "You were very fond of her?"

"Yes. How did you know she'd gone?"

It was too dark in there for him to see the fear in her eyes as she
turned them to him.

"Oh," he said, "we heard she'd left. I suppose she had to go."

"Yes," said Mrs. Tailleur, "she had to go."

"Well, I shouldn't distress myself any more about it. Tell me, have you
been walking about in the rain ever since she left?"

"I--I think so."

"And my little sister was looking for you everywhere. She wanted you to
dine with us. We thought you would, perhaps, as you were free."

"That was very good of you."

"We couldn't find you anywhere in the hotel. Then I came out here."

"What made you come?"

"I came to look for you."

"To look for me?"

"Yes. You don't mind, do you?"

"How did you know I should be here?"

"I didn't. It was the last place I tried. Do you know it's past nine
o'clock? You must come in now."

"I--can't."

"Oh yes," he said, "you can. You're coming back with me."

He talked as he would to a frightened child, to one of his own children.

"I'm afraid to go back."

"Why?"

"Because of Bunny. She told me people were saying dreadful things about
me. That's why she left. She couldn't bear it."

Lucy ground his teeth. "_She_ couldn't bear it? That shows what she was,
doesn't it? But you--you don't mind what people say?"

"No," she said, "I don't mind."

"Well----"

"Yes!" she cried passionately. "I do mind. I've always minded. It's just
the one thing I can't get over."

"It's the one thing," said Lucy, "we have to learn to get over. When
you've lived to be as old as I am, you'll see how very little it matters
what people say of us. Especially when we know what other people think."

"Other people?"

"Friends," he said, "the people who really care."

"Ah, if we only could know what they think. That's the most horrible
thing of all--what they think."

"Is that why you don't want to go back?"

Lucy's voice was unsteady and very low.

"Yes," she whispered.

There was a brief silence.

"But if you go back with _me_," he said, "it will be all right, won't
it?"

The look in her eyes almost reached him through the darkness, it was so
intense.

"No," she said out loud, "it won't. It will be all wrong."

"I don't agree with you. Anyhow, I'm going to take you back. Come."

"No," she said, "not yet. Mayn't we stay here a little longer?"

"No, we mayn't. You've got your death of cold as it is."

"I'm not cold, now. I'm warm. Feel my hands."

She held them out to him. He did not touch them. But he put his arm
round her and raised her to her feet. And they went back together along
the narrow Cliff-path. It was dangerous in the perishing light. He took
her hands in his now, and led her sidelong. When her feet slipped in the
slimy chalk, he held her up with his arm.

At the little gate she turned to him.

"I was kind to Bunny," she said, "I was really."

"I am sure," he said gently, "you are kind to everybody."

"That's something, isn't it?"

"I'm not sure that it isn't everything."

They went up the side of the garden, along the shrubbery, by a path that
led to the main entrance of the hotel. A great ring of white light lay
on the wet ground before the porch, thrown from the electric lamps
within.

Mrs. Tailleur stepped back into the darkness by the shrubbery. "Look
here," she said, "I'm going in by myself. You are going round another
way. You have not seen me. You don't know where I am. You don't know
anything about me."

"I know," said Lucy, "you are coming in with me."

She drew farther back. "I'm not thinking of myself," she said, "I'm
thinking of you."

She was no longer like a child. Her voice had suddenly grown older.

"Are you?" he said. "Then you'll do what I ask you." He held her with
his arm and drew her, resisting and unresisting, close to him.

"Ah," she cried, "what are you going to do with me?"

"I am going," he said, "to take you to my sister."

And he went with her, up the steps and into the lighted vestibule, past
the hall-porter and the clerk in his bureau and the manager's wife in
hers, straight into the lounge, before the Colonel and his wife, and he
led her to Jane where she sat in her place beside the hearth.

"It isn't half such a bad night as it looks," said he in a clear voice.
"Is it, Mrs. Tailleur?"




CHAPTER X


Five minutes later Lucy was talking to Colonel and Mrs. Hankin, with
genial unconcern. They never knew that he knew what they had been
saying, or how their tongues had scourged Mrs. Tailleur out into the
lash of the rain. They never knew that the young man who conversed with
them so amiably was longing to take the Colonel by his pink throat and
throttle him, nor that it was only a higher chivalry that held him from
this disastrous deed. The Colonel merely felt himself in the presence of
an incomparable innocence; but whether it was Lucy who was innocent, or
Mrs. Tailleur, or the two of them together, he really could not say.

Upstairs, in Mrs. Tailleur's bedroom, Jane Lucy was talking to Mrs.
Tailleur. They were sitting by the hearth while Kitty, clothed in warm
garments, shook out her drenched hair before the fire. She had just told
Jane how Miss Keating had left her, and she had become tearful again
over the telling.

"Need you mind so much? Is she worth it?" said Jane, very much as Robert
had said.

"I don't mind her leaving. I can get over that. But you don't know the
awful things she said."

"No, I don't; but I dare say she didn't mean half of them."

"Didn't she though! I'll show you."

Kitty got up and opened the door into the other room. It was as Miss
Keating had left it.

"Look there," she said, "what she's done."

Jane looked. "I'm not surprised. You did everything for her, so I
suppose she expected you to pack and send her things after her."

"It isn't that. Don't you see? It's--it's the things I gave her. She
flung them back in my face. She wouldn't take one of them. See, that's
the white frock she was wearing, and the fur-lined coal (she'll be so
cold without it), and look, that's the little chain I gave her on her
birthday. She wouldn't even keep the chain."

"Well, I dare say she would feel rather bad about it after she's behaved
in this way."

"It isn't that. It's because they were mine--because I wore them." Kitty
began to sob.

"No, no, dear Mrs. Tailleur----"

"Yes, yes. She--she thought they'd c--c--contaminate her."

Kitty's sobs broke into the shrill laugh of hysteria. Jane led her to
the couch and sat beside her. Kitty leaned forward, staring at the
floor. Now and then she pressed her handkerchief to her mouth, stifling.
Suddenly she looked up into Jane's face.

"Would _you_ mind wearing a frock I'd worn?"

"Of course I wouldn't."

Kitty's handkerchief dropped on to her lap, a soaked ball, an
insufficient dam.

"Oh," she cried, "the beast!--the little, little beast!"

She looked again at Jane, but with a glance half cowed, half candid;
like a child that has proved, indubitably, its predestined naughtiness.

"I didn't mean to use that word."

"I want to use it myself," said Jane. "It's not a bit too much."

"I didn't mean it."

She added softly, reminiscently. "She was such a little thing."

"Much too little for you to care about."

"That's why I cared. I know it was. She was just like a little, lonely
child; and she clung to me at first."

"She certainly seems to have clung."

"That's why it's so awful to think that she couldn't bear it--couldn't
bear to live with me."

"We wondered how you could bear to live with her."

"Did you?"

"Yes. Why did you have her?"

"You see, I had to have some one; and she was nice."

"I don't think she was nice at all."

"Oh yes," said Kitty, solemnly, "you could see _that_."

"I suppose you mean she was a lady?"

"Ye--es." Kitty was not by any means certain that that was what she did
mean. It was so difficult to find words for what she meant.

"That," said Jane, "is the least you can be."

"Anyhow, she _was_."

"Well, if you take a charitable view of her. Her people are probably
nicer than she is. Perhaps that's why she doesn't live with them."

"Her father," said Kitty, "is the vicar of Wenden. I suppose that's all
right."

"Probably; but _we_ don't care what peoples' fathers are like, provided
they're nice themselves."

"Do you think I'm nice?"

Jane laughed. "Yes, as it happens, I do."

"Ah, _you_--_you_----"

"We both do," said Jane boldly.

"You're the first nice woman I've known who hasn't been horrid to me.
And he----" Kitty had been playing with a button of her dressing-gown.
Her fingers now began tearing, passionately, convulsively, at the
button. "He is the first nice man who--who hasn't been what men are."

"You don't mean that," said Jane calmly. She was holding Mrs. Tailleur's
hand in hers and caressing it, soothing its pathetic violence.

"I do. I do. That's why I like you so."

"I'm glad you like us."

"I'd give anything to know what you really think of me."

"May I say what I think?"

"Yes."

"I think you're too good to be so unhappy."

"That's a new view of me. Most people think I'm too unhappy to be very
good."

"You _are_ good; but if you'd been happier you'd have known that other
people are what you call good, too."

"That's what I said to Bunny. _She_ was unhappy."

"Never mind her. If you'd been happier you'd have known, for instance,
that my brother isn't an exception. There are a great many men like him.
All the men I've known have been more or less like Robert."

"They would be, dear; all the men _you've_ known. But, you see,
something happened. Nothing ever happened to you."

"No. Nothing very much has happened to me. Nothing very much ever will."

"You never wanted things to happen, did you?"

"I don't know. Perhaps I'm interested most in the things that happen to
other people."

"You dear! If I'd been like you----"

"I wish," said Jane, "you'd known Robert sooner."

Mrs. Tailleur's lips parted, but no voice came through them.

"Then," said Jane, "whatever happened never would have happened,
probably."

"I wonder. What do you suppose happened?"

"I don't know. I've no business to know."

"What do you think? Tell me--tell me!"

"I think you've been very badly handled."

"Yes. You may think so."

"When you were young--too young to understand it."

"Ah, I was never too young to understand. That's the difference between
you and me."

"That makes it all the worse, then."

"All the worse! So that's what you think? How does it make you feel to
me?"

"It makes me feel that I want to take you away, and warm you and wrap
you round, so that nothing could ever touch you and hurt you any more."

"That's how it makes you feel?"

"That's how it makes us both feel."

"_He_ takes it that way, too?"

"Of course he does. Any nice man would."

"If _I_ were nice----"

"You _are_ nice."

"You don't know, my child; you don't know."

"Do you suppose Robert doesn't know?"

Mrs. Tailleur rose suddenly and turned away.

"I was nice once," she said, "and at times I can be now."




CHAPTER XI


Colonel Hankin was mistaken. Mrs. Tailleur's room was not wanted the
next day. The point had been fiercely disputed in those obscure quarters
of the hotel inhabited by the management. The manager's wife was for
turning Mrs. Tailleur out on the bare suspicion of her impropriety. The
idea in the head of the manager's wife was that there should be no
suspicion as to the reputation of the Cliff Hotel. The manager, on his
side, contended that the Cliff Hotel must not acquire a reputation for
suspicion; that any lady whom Miss Lucy had made visibly her friend was
herself in the position so desirable for the Cliff Hotel; that, in any
case, unless Mrs. Tailleur's conduct became such as to justify an
extreme step, the scandal of the ejection would be more damaging to the
Cliff Hotel than her present transparently innocent and peaceful
occupation of the best room in it. He wished to know how a scandal was
to be avoided when the place was swarming with old women. And, after
all, what had they got against Mrs. Tailleur except that she was better
looking by a long chalk, and better turned-out, than any of 'em? Of
course, he couldn't undertake to say--offhand--whether she was or wasn't
any better than she should be. But, in the absence of complaints, he
didn't consider the question a profitable one for a manager to go into
in the slack season.

All the manager's intelligence was concentrated in the small commercial
eye which winked, absurdly, in the solitude of his solemn and enormous
face. You must take people as you found them, said he, and for his part
he had always found Mrs. Tailleur----

But how the manager had found Mrs. Tailleur was never known to his wife,
for at this point she walked out of the private sitting-room and shut
herself into her bureau. Her opinion, more private even than that
sitting-room, consecrated to intimate dispute, was that where women were
concerned the manager was a perfect fool.

The window of the bureau looked out on to the vestibule and the big
staircase. And full in sight of the window Mrs. Tailleur was sitting on
a seat set under the stair. She had her hat on and carried a sunshade in
her hand, for the day was fine and warm. She was waiting for somebody.
And as she waited she amused herself by smiling at the little
four-year-old son of the management who played in the vestibule, it
being the slack season. He was running up and down the flagged floor,
dragging a little cart after him. And as he ran he never took his eyes
off the pretty lady. They said, every time, with the charming vanity of
childhood, "Look at me!" And Kitty looked at him, every time, and made,
every time, the right sort of smile that says to a little boy, "I see
you." Just then nobody was there to see Kitty but the manager's wife,
who stood at the window of the bureau and saw it all. And as the little
boy was not looking in the least where he was going, his feet were
presently snared in the rug where the pretty lady sat, and he would have
tumbled on his little nose if Kitty had not caught him.

He was going to cry, but Kitty stopped him just in time by lifting him
on to her lap and giving him her watch to look at. A marvellous watch
that was gold and blue and bordered with a ring of little sparkling
stones.

At that moment Robert Lucy came down the stairs. He came very quietly
and leaned over the banister behind Kitty's back and watched her, while
he listened shamelessly to the conversation. The pretty lady looked
prettier than ever.

"My daddy gave my mummy her watch on her birthday," said the little boy.
"Who gave you your watch?"

"It wasn't your daddy, dear."

"Of course it wasn't my daddy."

"Of course not."

"What is your name?"

"My name is Mrs. Tailleur."

"Mrs. Ty-loor. My name is Stanley. That gentleman's name is Mr. Lucy. I
like him."

Lucy came down and seated himself beside her. She made him a sign with
her mouth, as much as to say she was under a charm and he wasn't to
break it.

"Do you like him, Mrs. Tyloor?"

"Well--what do you think?"

"I think you like him very much."

Mrs. Tailleur laughed softly.

"What makes you laugh?"

"You. You're so funny."

"_You're_ funny. Your eyelashes curl up when you laugh, and your eyes
curl, too. And your mouth!" he crowed with the joy of it. "Such a funny
mouth."

The mouth hid itself in the child's soft neck among his hair. The woman
in the bureau saw that, and her face became curiously contracted.

"I remember the day you came. My daddy said you was very pretty."

"And what did your mummy say?"

Kitty had caught sight of the fierce face in the window, and a little
daring devil had entered into her.

"Mummy said she couldn't tell if she wasn't allowed to look."

"And why," said Lucy, "wasn't she allowed to look?"

"Daddy said she wasn't to."

"Of course he did," said Lucy. "It's very rude to look at people."

"Daddy looked. I saw him."

The door of the bureau opened and the manager's wife came out. She had a
slight flush on her face and her mouth was tighter than ever.

Mrs. Tailleur saw her coming and slipped the child from her lap. The
manager's wife put out her hand to take him, but he turned from her and
clung to the pretty lady.

The woman seized him by the arm and tore him from her, and dragged him
toward the apartments of the management. The child screamed as he went.

"Women like that," said Lucy, "shouldn't be allowed to have children."

Mrs. Tailleur turned to him though she had not heard him.

"What have I done? What harm could I do the little thing?"

"What have you done?" It was hard for him to follow the workings of her
mind. "You don't mean to say you minded that?"

"Yes, I minded. I minded awfully."

"That dreadful woman?"

"Do you think she really was dreadful?"

"Quite terrible."

"I don't know. I suppose," she said, "they're all like that. Yet they
can't all be dreadful."

Lucy laughed. He couldn't see her point. "I don't understand who 'they'
are."

"The women who are--the women who've got children."

She stooped down and picked up something from the floor. It was the
little man out of the cart that the child had been playing with, that
lay there, smashed, at her feet. The manager's wife had stepped on it.
Kitty set the little man upon the seat and smiled at him sadly. And Lucy
smiled at her out of a great and sudden tenderness.

He thought he saw it now.

"I think," said he, "you must allow for a little maternal jealousy."

"Jealousy? I can understand jealousy."

"So can I," said Lucy.

"And you think that was jealousy?"

"Well, you know, that little boy was making barefaced love to you."

She laughed. "I suppose," she said, "you _would_ feel like that about
it."

She got up and they went out, past the hotel front and down the lawn, in
sight of the veranda, where at this hour everybody was there to see
them. Lucy meant everybody to see. He had chosen that place, and that
hour, also, which wore, appropriately, the innocence of morning. He knew
her pitiful belief that he was defying public opinion in being seen with
her; but from her ultimate consent, from her continuous trust in him,
and from the heartrending way she clung to him, he gathered that she
knew him, she knew that defiance, from him, would be a vindication of
her.

He did not yet know how dear she had become to him. Only, as he looked
at her moving close beside him, so beautiful and so defenceless, he
thanked God that he had kept his manhood clean, so that nothing that he
did for her could hurt her.

And so, holding himself very upright, and with his head in the air, he
went slowly past the veranda and the Hankins, and, turning to Mrs.
Tailleur, gave them the full spectacle of his gladness and his pride in
her.

"How good you are to me," she said. "I know why you did that."

"Do you?"

He smiled, guarding his secret, holding it back a little while longer.

"Where are we going to?"

"Anywhere you choose to take me."

He took her through the gate that led them to the freedom of the Cliff.

"Do you see that?" He pointed to the path which was now baked hard and
white by the sun.

"What is it?"

"Your little footprints, and my great hoofmarks beside them. I believe
nobody comes this way but you and me."

"You see, it leads nowhere," said she.

"Doesn't it?" said he.

The little room in the Cliff-side was whiter than ever, burning white,
it was, where the sun faced it. But the east side of it was in shadow,
and they sat there, under the great forehead of the Cliff.

They were both silent. Lucy was thinking of how he had found her there,
and of the fear and trouble of last night. He vowed that if he could
help it there should be no more fear and no more trouble for her. In
their silence, voices thin and sweet with distance, came to them from
below, where children played on the beach among the rocks that, washed
by water-springs from the Cliff's forehead to its foot, lay heaped where
they had fallen. She listened and laughed.

She was happy now. He watched her as she stretched her adorable feet to
the sun. A little wind came from the sea and played with her, taking
from her a slight scent of violets for its salt. Every nerve in his body
was aware of her nearness.

Only last night he had seen her crouching just there, in the darkness,
convulsed, her face wet with rain and tears. It was good that the place
they had chosen should be changed and cleansed for them by sunlight and
wind from the sea and the sweet voices of children.

She did not break the silence. She only looked at him once with eyes
whose pupils, black and dilated, narrowed the blue ring of the iris.

Then he spoke. "I was going to say something to you last night, but I
didn't. There was something I wanted to know first, something I wasn't
quite sure about."

She turned her face from him. The light struck it, and it quivered and
grew white.

"Well, do you know now?"

"Yes," he said, "I know now."

But her lips scarcely moved as she answered him. "Of course you know."

She faced him with her sad white courage.

"Everybody knows. I'd rather you knew. I--I meant you to."

"Oh please"--he protested. "I wonder if I may say what it is?"

"It's something about me?"

"Yes. It's something about you. If I may say it."

"You may say anything you please. You know that."

"Well, I wanted very much to know whether--whether you were fond of
children."

"Oh----" She drew a long breath, as if released from torture. Then she
laughed the indescribable half-sobbing laugh of a child tormented and
suddenly set free.

"Whether I were fond of children. Do you honestly mean it? Was that what
you weren't sure of?"

"Well, of course, in a way I knew--but I couldn't tell, you know, till
I'd seen you with one."

"Well, and so you can tell now?"

"Yes. I can tell now."

"And if I am fond of children, what difference does that make?"

"It makes all the difference. You see, I've got two little girls----"

"Two little girls." She repeated it after him smiling, as if she played
with the vision of them.

"You see--they've no mother. My wife----"

"I know," she said softly.

"How did you know?"

"I can't tell you."

"My wife died five years ago when my youngest little girl was born."

"And I thought," she said, "you were so young."

"I'm thirty-five."

"Still I was right. You're young. Very young."

"Oh, well, don't you know, they say a woman's as young as she looks, and
a man's as young as he feels. I _feel_ all right."

"You dear." Her mouth and eyes said it without a sound.

"Are you quite sure that's all you want to know?"

"I had to know it."

"It was so important?"

"Yes. Because of _them_."

"And now you know all about me?"

"Yes. Now I know all about you."

"Don't you want to know something about--about Mr. Tailleur?"

Lucy's face hardened. "No, I don't think I want to know anything about
him."

He had made up his mind that Mr. Tailleur had been a brute to her.

"He _is_ dead."

"Well, yes. I supposed he would be."

"He died four years ago. I was married very young."

"I supposed that too."

"You don't feel that he's important?"

"Not in the very least."

She laughed.

"When I said that I knew all about you, I only meant that I knew--I'd
the sense to see--what you were. You mustn't think that I take anything
for granted."

"Ah, Mr. Lucy, dear, I'm afraid you're taking everything for granted."

"On my soul I'm not. I'm not that sort. There's one thing about you I
don't know yet, and I'm afraid to ask, and it's the only thing I really
want to know. It's the only thing that matters."

"Then ask me, ask me straight, whatever it is, and let's get it over.
Can't you trust me to tell you the truth?"

"I trust you--to tell me the truth. I want to know where I am--where we
are."

"Is it for me to say?"

"It's for you to say whether you think you can ever care for me."

"Can't you see that I care for you?"

"No, I'd give anything to see."

"Ah, it's so like you not to. And I thought I'd shown you--everything."

"You haven't shown me yet whether you care enough to--to----"

He checked himself, while his love for her drew its first breath, as if
it had been born but that instant, in an agony of desire and fear.

"To do what?" she said. "Why won't you tell me?"

"I'm afraid," he said simply.

"Afraid of _me_! Why should you be?"

"Because, if you really cared for me, I think you'd know what I want."

"It's because I care so much that I don't know. Unless you tell me."

She put her small fingers lightly on the sleeve of his coat; they slid
till they found his hands that hung clenched before him.

At her touch he trembled.

"Don't you know," she said, "that there's nothing I wouldn't do for you?
Tell me what you want me to do."

He spoke so low that she strained to hear him.

"To marry me--to be my wife."

Her hand still lay on his, but she herself seemed to draw back and
pause.

"Your wife?" she said at last. "My dear, you've only known me ten days."

"It makes no difference."

He took her hand in his and kissed it, bowing his head.

She twisted herself away from him, and drew back her face from his. They
rose.

"Ah," she said, "you're cold. You don't know how. Let me look at you.
It's not me you want. You want a mother for your children."

"Not I. I want you--you--for myself."

She moved toward him with a low cry, and he took her in his arms and
stood still by her without a word. And to his joy, she whom he held
(gently, lest he should hurt her) laid her face to his face, and held
him with a grip tighter than his own, as if she feared that he would
loose himself and leave her. Her eyes closed as he kissed her forehead,
and opened as her mouth found his.

Then she drew herself slowly from him.

"You love me then?" she said.

"Yes, Kitty, I love you."




CHAPTER XII


The awkward thing was telling Jane about it. Jane had been his dead
wife's friend before he married her, and she had known her better then
than she knew Kitty. Yet he remembered, acutely, how he had gone to her
eight years ago, and told her that he was going to marry Amy, and how
she had kissed him and said nothing, and how, when he asked her if she
had any objection, she had said "No, none. But isn't it a little
sudden?"

He wondered how Jane would look when he told her he was going to marry
Kitty. That was bound to strike her as very sudden indeed.

It was wonderful to him that this thing should have happened to him. He
was aware that it was a new thing. Nothing in his previous experience
had prepared him for it. He had been very young eight years ago, and a
gayer, lighter-hearted chivalry had gone to his courtship of poor Amy.
Poor Amy, though he would not own it, had been a rather ineffectual
woman, with a prodigious opinion of her small self and a fretting
passion for dominion. She had had a crowd of friends and relations whom
she had allowed to come between them. Poor Amy had never understood him.
There were heights and depths in him to which she had made no appeal.

But Kitty--she had brought something out of him that had been hidden and
unknown to him before. Something that answered to the fear with which
she had drawn back from him and to the tremendous and tragic passion
with which she had given herself to him at the last. Poor little Amy had
never held him so. She had never loved him like that in all her poor
little life. And so his very tenderness for Kitty had terror in it, lest
he should fail her, lest he should in any way justify her prescience of
disaster.

Somebody was coming along the Cliff-path, somebody with a telegram for
Mrs. Tailleur. She rose, moving away from Lucy as she opened it.

"There is no answer," she said. And she came to him again and sat beside
him, very still, with hands spread over the telegram that lay open in
her lap.

"Has anything happened?"

She shook her head. He took the hand that she held out to him by way of
reassurance and possession.

"Then why do you look like that?"

She smiled.

"Kitty--that was an unconvincing smile."

"Was it? I'm sorry to say there's a tiresome man coming to see me."

"Say you can't see him. Send him a wire."

"I must. He's coming on business. I don't _want_ to see him."

"Can't I see him for you, if you feel like that?"

"No, dear. He must see me."

"When is he due?"

"At seven-thirty."

"Oh--only in the evening. How long do you think he'll stay?"

Kitty hardened her face. "Not a minute longer than I can help."

"An hour? Two hours?"

"I shall have to give him dinner. He's--he's that sort of man."

"Two hours, probably. I think I'll take Janey for a stroll while he's
here. You see, I've got to tell her, and I shall tell her then."

She put her hands on his shoulders. "And what will--Janey--say?"

"She'll say she's glad I'm going to be happy."

He became thoughtful. "And there are the children," he said. "I've got
to tell them, too."

She was silent. She did not ask him as he had half expected, "What will
_they_ say?"

"I think," he said, "I'd better send for them and let them stay here a
bit. Could you stand another week of Southbourne? You said you hated
it."

"Yes. I hated it. I shouldn't have stayed if it hadn't been for you."

"Do you mind staying a little longer now?"

"I don't mind staying anywhere where you are."

"Well--just a little longer."

She saw the workings of his mind. The people here had been saying awful
things about her. If he took her away they would continue to say them.
He couldn't stop them. He couldn't for instance, go up to Colonel Hankin
before leaving, and tell him that he lied, and that Mrs. Tailleur,
though appearances might be against her, was as innocent a lady as Mrs.
Hankin. He couldn't even announce his engagement to her by way of
accounting for their simultaneous departure. They were not accountable
to these people. But, if they stayed on as if nothing had happened, he
could demonstrate to everybody's satisfaction that he had no other
intention with regard to Mrs. Tailleur than to make her his wife and a
mother to his children. That was why he was sending for them. Evidently
the idea he had--poor lamb--was that he could shelter her innocence with
theirs.

And so she told him that she adored Southbourne now and didn't care how
long they stopped there.

Lucy's idea had really gone more or less on those lines, though they
remained rather more obscure to him than they were to Kitty.

His scheme was so far successful that there were people in the Cliff
Hotel who knew about his engagement before Jane did.

It was clear to the management, at any rate, that some consecrating seal
had been set to the very interesting relations of Mrs. Tailleur and Mr.
Lucy. The manager was more inclined than ever to take a favourable view
of Mrs. Tailleur. To begin with, Mrs. Tailleur had ordered a private
sitting-room. Then Mr. Lucy presented himself at the bureau with Mrs.
Tailleur and inquired whether he could have a room for his two little
girls and their nurse. The manager's wife looked dubious. The best
rooms, she said, were taken. And Mrs. Tailleur said, looking at Mr.
Lucy, "How about poor Bunny's room? The one leading out of mine?"

A fine flush appeared on Mr. Lucy's face as he said he would have that
room.

He then announced that he would wire for the little girls to come at
once, and that they would arrive at four o'clock to-morrow. It was
further arranged that they were to have their meals in Mrs. Tailleur's
private sitting-room. And please, there was to be lots of jam for tea,
Mrs. Tailleur said. The manager's wife looked humble before her lord as
she booked that order.

That was at twelve o'clock of the tenth day.

Seven hours later Mrs. Tailleur was alone in her private sitting-room,
preparing with some agitation for the appointment that she had.




CHAPTER XIII


Her tense, flushed mind recorded automatically, and with acute
vividness, every detail of the room; the pattern of the gray French
wall-paper, with the watered stripe, and of the hot, velvet upholstery,
buff on a crimson ground; the architecture of the stained walnut
sideboard and overmantel, with their ridiculous pediments and little
shelves and bevelled mirrors; the tapestry curtains, the palms in
shining turquoise blue pots, and the engraved picture of Grace Darling
over the sideboard.

It was absolutely necessary that she should have this place to see him
in, without Robert seeing him. Beyond that immediate purpose she
discerned its use as a play-room for Robert's children.

To-morrow, at four o clock, she would be waiting there for them. They
had settled that, she and Robert. She was to have everything ready, and
the table laid for tea. To-morrow they would all be sitting there, round
the table. To-morrow she would see Robert's children, and hold them in
her arms.

Her heart gave a sudden leap, as if something had quickened in it. Her
brain glowed. Her pulses throbbed with the race of the glad blood in her
veins. Her whole being moved, trembling and yearning, toward an
incredible joy. Till that moment she had hardly realised Robert's
children. A strange unquietness, not yet recognised as fear, had kept
her from asking him many questions about them. Even now, their forms
were like the forms of children seen in the twilight of dreams, the
dreams of women who have never had children; forms that hover and
torture and pursue; that hide their faces, half seen; that will not come
to the call, nor be held by the hand, nor gathered to the heart.

That she should really see them, and hear their voices, and hold them in
her arms, to-morrow, seemed to her a thing impossible, beyond
credibility or dream. Then she said to herself that it all depended on
what happened between to-morrow and to-day.

It was not long past seven and she had still a good twenty minutes
before her. She spent it in pacing up and down the room, and looking at
the clock every time she turned and confronted it. At the half-hour she
arranged herself on the sofa, with a book, in an attitude of
carelessness as to the event. As a material appearance the attitude was
perfect.

She rose as the servant announced "Mr. Wilfrid Marston." She stood as
she had risen, waiting for her visitor to advance. Her eyes were fixed
on her book which she laid down, deliberately marking the page, and yet
she was aware of his little pause at the door as it closed behind him,
and of his little smile that took her in. She had no need to look at
him.

He was a man of middle size, who held himself so well that he appeared
taller and slenderer than he was. You saw that he had been fair and
florid and slender enough in his youth, and that all his good points had
worn somewhat to hardness. His face was hard and of a fast-hardening,
reddish-sallow colour, showing a light network of veins about the
cheekbones. Hard, wiry wrinkles were about the outer corners of his
eyes. He kept his small reddish-gold moustache close clipped, so that it
made his mouth look extraordinarily straight and hard. People who didn't
know him were apt to mistake him for a soldier. (He was in the War
Office, rather high up.) He had several manners, his official manner to
persons calling at the War Office; his social manner, inimitably devout
to women whom he respected; and his natural manner, known only in its
perfection to women whom he did not respect. And under both of these
he conveyed a curious and disagreeable impression of stern sensuality,
as if the animal in him had worn to hardness, too.

"Kitty, my dear girl!" His voice, unlike the rest of him, could be thick
and soft and fluid. He put his arm round her, and she offered him her
mouth, curled forward, obedient but unsmiling. Her hand, surrendered to
his, lay limp in the hard clasp of it. He raised it as if weighing the
powerless, subservient thing.

"Kitty," he said, "you're still getting thin. My last orders were, if
you remember, that you were to put on another stone before I saw you
again."

He bared her wrist, pressing it slightly, to show how its round curves
were sunken.

"Do you call that putting on another stone?"

She drew back her arm.

"What have you been doing to yourself?" he said.

"Nothing. There hasn't been anything to do. It's not very amusing
being left all by yourself for weeks and weeks, you know."

"All by yourself?"

"Yes. Bunny doesn't count."

"No, she certainly doesn't. Poor Kitten, you must have been very badly
bored."

He looked round the room.

"Do they do you well at this place?"

"It isn't _very_ comfortable. I think you'd be better off at the
Métropole."

"What possessed you to stay at the place if you're not comfortable?"

"Well, you see, I didn't expect you for another week."

"What's that got to do with it?"

"I mean it did well enough for Bunny and me."

"Where is that woman?"

"She's gone. She left yesterday."

"Why?"

"Well, you know, Wilfrid, Bunny was very respectable."

He laughed. "It's just as well she went, then, before I came, isn't it?
I say, what have you done to your eyes? They used to be black, now
they're blue. Bright blue."

There was a look in them he did not understand.

"I think," she said, "you would be much more comfortable at the
Métropole."

"Oh no; I'll try this place for one night." She veiled her eyes.

"We can move on if I can't stand it. When are we going to dine?"

"At eight. It's twenty to, now. You'd like it up here, wouldn't you?"

"Rather. I say, where's my room?"

She flushed and turned from him with an unaccountable emotion.

"I--I don't know."

"Didn't you order one for me?"

"No; I don't think I did."

"I suppose I can get one, can't I?"

"I suppose so. But don't you think you'd better go over to the
Métropole? You see, this is a very small hotel."

He looked at her sharply.

"I don't care how small it is."

He summoned a waiter and inquired irascibly for his room.

Kitty was relieved when the room was got for him, because he went to it
instantly, and that gave her time. She said to herself that it would be
all right if she could be alone for a minute or two and could think. She
thought continuously through the act of dressing, and in the moment of
waiting till he appeared again. He would be hungry, and his first
thought would be for his dinner.

It was. But his second thought was for Kitty, who refused to eat.

"What's the matter with you?"

"Nothing. I've got a headache."

Again he looked sharply at her.

"A headache, have you? It'll be better if you eat something."

But Kitty shook her head.

"What's the good of my sending you to Matlock and those places if you
come back in this state? You know, if you once get really thin, Kitty,
you're done for."

"Am I?" Her mouth trembled, not grossly, but with a small, fine quiver
of the upper lip. The man had trained her well. She knew better than to
cry before him.

The slender sign of emotion touched him, since it was not disfiguring.

"How long have you been starving yourself?" he asked more gently.

"I've not been starving myself. I've got a headache."

He poured out some wine for her.

"You must either eat _or_ drink."

"I don't want any."

"Nonsense."

"I--I can't. I feel sick."

He raised his eyebrows.

"Need you mention it?"

"I wouldn't if you hadn't teased me so."

"I beg your pardon."

She began playing with some salted almonds.

"My _dear_ girl, I wouldn't eat those things if I were you."

"I'm not eating them." She pushed the dish from her. "I'm afraid," said
she, "it isn't a very nice dinner."

He was looking at the _entrée_ with interest and a slight suspicion.

"What is this?"

"Curried chicken."

"Oh." He helped himself fastidiously to curried chicken, tasted it with
delicate deliberation, and left it on his plate.

"You are wise," said he. "There is a certain crude, unsatisfying
simplicity about this repast."

"Didn't I tell you?"

"You did."

"You see now why I said you'd better go to the Métropole?"

"I do indeed."

An admirable joint of mutton, cheese, coffee and a liqueur effaced the
painful impression made by the _entrée_. By nine o'clock Marston
declared himself inured to the hardships of the Cliff Hotel.

"How long can you stay?" she asked. The question had been burning in her
for two hours.

"Well, over the week end, I think."

Her heart, that had fluttered like a bird, sank, as a bird sinks in
terror with wings tight shut.

"Have you got to go up to town to-morrow?"

"I have, worse luck. How do the trains go from this godforsaken place?"

"About every two hours. What sort of train do you want? An early one?"

"Rather. Got to be at Whitehall by twelve."

"Will the nine-fifteen do?"

"Yes; that's all right."

The wings of her heart loosened. It rose light, as if air, not blood,
flowed from its chambers.

The Lucys were never by any chance down before nine. Robert would not
meet him.

He sat down in the chair opposite her, with his eyes fixed on her as she
leaned back in the corner of the sofa. He settled himself in comfort,
crossing his legs and thrusting out one foot, defined under a delicate
silk sock, in an attitude that was almost contemptuous of Kitty's
presence.

Kitty's face was innocent of any perception of these shades. He drew the
long breath of ease and smiled at her again, a smile that intimated how
thoroughly he approved of her personal appearance.

"Ye--es," he said, "you're different, but I think you're almost as
pretty as you were."

"Am I?" she said. "What did you expect?"

"I didn't expect anything. I never do. It's my scheme for avoiding
disappointment. Is your head better?"

"No; it's aching abominably."

"Sorry. But it's rather hard lines for me, isn't it? I wish you _could_
have chosen some other time to be ill in."

"What does it matter whether I'm ill or not, if I'm not pretty?"

He smiled again.

"I don't mean, child, that you're ever not pretty."

"Thank you. I know exactly how pretty I am."

"Do you? How pretty do you think you are now?"

"Not half as pretty as Dora Nicholson. You know exactly how pretty she
is."

"I do. And I know exactly how pretty she'll be in five years' time.
That's the worst of those thin women with little, delicate, pink faces.
You know the precise minute when a girl like Dora'll go off. You know
the pinkness will begin to run when she's once past thirty. You can see
the crows' feet coming, and you know exactly how far they'll have got by
the time she's thirty-five. You know that when she's forty there'll be
two little lines like thumb-nail marks beside her ears, just here, and
you know that when she's forty-five the dear little lobes will begin to
shrivel up, and that when she's fifty the corners of her mouth will
collapse."

"And then?"

"Then, if you're a wise man you don't know any more."

"Poor little Dora. You _are_ a brute, Wilfrid."

"I'm not a brute. I was going to say that the best of you, dear, is that
I don't know how you'll look at fifty. I don't know how you'll look
to-morrow--to-night. You're never the same for ten minutes together.
When you get one of those abominable headaches you look perhaps as old
as you are. You're twenty-seven, aren't you?"

"Yes."

"Well, I dare say you'll look twenty-seven when you are fifty. There's
something awfully nice about that sort of prettiness. It leaves things
delightfully vague. I can't _see_ you fifty."

"Perhaps I never shall be."

"Perhaps not. That's just it. You leave it open to me to think so. I
don't seriously contemplate your ever being forty. In fact your being
thirty is one of those melancholy and disastrous events that need not
actually occur. It's very tactful of you, Kitty."

"All the same, I'm not as pretty as Dora Nicholson."

"Dora Nicholson!"

"You can't say she isn't awfully pretty."

"I don't say it." His voice rose to an excited falsetto. "She _is_
awfully pretty--extravagantly, preposterously pretty. And she'll have to
pay for it."

"Oh--we all have to pay for it."

"Sooner _or_ later."

"Poor Dora----"

"Poor Dora. Perhaps we have been rather brutal to her. She's good for
another five years."

"Only five years? And what will she do then?"

"Oh, she'll be all right. She'll rouge a bit, and powder a bit, and
dress like anything. You needn't be unhappy about Dora. I can tell you
Dora isn't going to be unhappy about you. Unhappiness would be extremely
unbecoming to her, and she knows it. It isn't particularly becoming to
any woman. You would be less damaged by it than most perhaps."

"You've never seen me unhappy."

"I hope to God I never shall."

"You needn't be afraid, Wilfrid, you never will."

"I wish," she said presently, "I wish you liked Dora Nicholson."

"I do like her."

"I wish you liked her as much as me."

"That's very noble of you, Kitty. But may I ask, why?"

"Because it would make things simpler."

"Simpler? I should have said myself that that was just where
complications might occur. Supposing I liked Dolly better than you, what
then?"

"Oh, that would make it simpler still."

"It certainly would be simpler than the other situation you suggest."

"It would for both of us."

"But why this sudden yearning for simplicity? And why Dora Nicholson?"

"There isn't any why. Anybody else would do, provided you liked them
better than me. It's only a question of time, you know. You're bound to
tire of me sooner or later."

"Later, Kitty, later. Barring jealousy. If you're going in for that, I
may as well tell you at once that I shall tire of it very soon."

"You think that's what's the matter with me?"

"Well, something's the matter with you. I suppose it's that. I should
drop it, Kitty. It really isn't worth while. It only makes you thin,
and--and I can't be bored with it, d'you see?"

"I don't want--to be bored--with it--either." She spoke very slowly. "If
you wanted to leave me for Dora Nicholson, I should be a fool to try and
keep you, shouldn't I?"

"Well--you're not a fool."

"You're not a fool either, Wilfrid."

"If I am I take some pains to conceal it."

"If a woman wanted to leave you for another man, would you try and keep
her?"

He looked at her attentively. "It depends on the woman, and on some
other things besides. For instance, if I were married to her, I might
make a considerable effort, not to keep _her_, but--to keep up
appearances."

"And if--you were not married to her?"

"There again it would depend on the woman. I might take it that she'd
left me already."

"Yes, but if you knew she wasn't that sort--if you knew she'd always
been straight with you?"

"Well, then perhaps I might take the trouble to find out whether there
really was another man. Or I might have reason to suppose she was only
trying it on. In which case I should say to her 'My dear Kitty, you're a
very clever woman and it's a brilliant idea you've got. But it's been
tried before and it won't work. You can't draw me that way.'"

"But, Wilfrid--if there _was_ another man?"

"Well, it's possible that I might not consider it worth while to dispute
his claim. That would depend altogether on the woman."

"If you cared for her?"

"If I cared enough for her I might be able to convince her that it would
at any rate be prudent, from a worldly point of view, to stick to me.
But _that_ would depend, wouldn't it, on the amount of the other
fellow's income?"

"And if all that didn't matter in the very least to her, if she didn't
care a rap about anybody's income, if she cared for the other fellow
more than she'd ever cared for you, if she didn't care for your caring,
if she cared for nothing except _his_ caring, and nothing you could do
could move her--what would you do then?"

He paused to light another cigarette before he answered her. "I should
probably tell her, first of all, that for all I cared she might go to
the devil, I mean to the other fellow, and stay there as long as he
wanted her."

"Well"--she said placably.

"That's what I should say first. Afterward, when we were both a little
calmer--if I cared for her, Kitty--I should ask her to think a moment
before she did anything rash, to be quite sure that she would really be
happier with the other fellow. And I should point out to her very
clearly that, in any case, if she once went, it would not be open to her
to come back."

"But you wouldn't try and keep her?"

"I couldn't keep her, my dear child, by trying."

"No--you couldn't keep her. Not for yourself. But, if you could keep her
from the other man, would you?"

"I dare say I should do my best."

"Would you do your worst? No, Wilfrid, you've been very good to me--I
don't believe you'd do your worst."

"What do you mean," he said sharply.

"You wouldn't tell him what she was, what she had been--if he didn't
know it. Would you?"

He was silent.

"Would you?" she cried.

"No, Kitty, I wouldn't do that. I'm not a cad."

He pondered.

"But my dear girl, do you suppose for a moment that he doesn't know?"

"He doesn't know a thing."

"Then what in heaven's name are you talking about?"

"I'm trying to tell you. It isn't what you think. I--I'm going to be
married."

Marston took his cigarette out of his mouth, and stared at it. There was
no expression in his face beyond that concentrated, attentive stare.

"Good Lord. Why," he said, "couldn't you tell me that before I came
down?"

"I was going to. I was going to write to you and ask you not to come."

"_Good_ God."

He said it softly, and with calm incredulity rather than amazement.

"Who is it, Kitty? Do I know him?"

"No."

"Do you know him yourself?"

She smiled. "Yes I know him."

"Well--but how long?"

"Ten days."

"You met him here? In this hotel?"

"Yes."

"That's why you were so anxious for me to go to the Métropole, was it?"

"Yes."

"Look here. I don't want to be unkind, but it doesn't do to blink facts.
Are you quite sure he means to marry you?"

"Why shouldn't he?"

"Well, these marriages do happen, but--I don't want to be unkind
again--but you know they are, to say the least of it, a little unusual."

"Yes."

"You've seen some of them?"

"Yes."

"And you know, you know as well as I do, the sort of man who--who----"

"Who marries the sort of woman I am? Yes, I know him, perfectly well.
He's horrible."

"There are exceptions, but he's generally pretty bad. You think he's
horrible. You'll be miserable when you find yourself tied to him for
life. You see, however awful he was, you wouldn't be exactly in a
position to get rid of him."

"Wilfrid," her voice was very low and tender, "he isn't like that. He's
good----"

"Good, is he?" He laughed.

"Oh, don't laugh. He _is_ good."

"Well, I don't say he isn't--only----" he smiled.

"You forget," she said. "He doesn't know."

"Are you quite sure he doesn't know?"

"Quite--quite sure."

"And you are not going to enlighten him?"

She drew back before his penetrating gaze. "I can't. I couldn't bear him
to know."

"How do you propose to prevent his knowing? Do you think you're clever
enough to keep him in the dark for ever?"

"Why not? He hasn't seen things in the broad daylight, under his very
nose. There were plenty of things to see."

"You mean he's stupid?"

"I mean I haven't been clever, if that's what you think. Once I did
nearly tell him."

"Supposing somebody else tells him?"

"If they do it'll only be their word against mine. And he'd take my word
against anybody's."

"Poor devil!"

He seemed to meditate, dispassionately, on the poor devil's case, and
hers.

"You little fool. It isn't a question of people's words. How are you
going to get rid of the facts?"

"He needn't know them."

"You forget. I'm one of them. How are you going to get rid of me?"

"Oh, Wilfrid--you're not going to tell him? You said you wouldn't."

"Of course I said I wouldn't--I'd even be glad to get rid of myself to
oblige you, Kitty, but I can't. Here I am. How are you going to account
for me?"

"I've thought of that. He needn't see you. It'll be all right, Wilfrid,
if you'll go away."

"No doubt. But I haven't gone away."

He emphasised his point by rising and taking up a commanding position on
the hearthrug.

Some one knocked at the door, and she started violently.

It was only a servant, bringing a note for her.

She read it and handed it to Marston, looking piteously at him as he
stood his ground.

"Mr. Lucy can come up," she said. "We have finished all we had to say."

"I think there are one or two points," he replied, "still unsettled."

She turned to the servant.

"Will you tell Mr. Lucy I'm engaged for the present. I will see him
later."

"No, my dear Mrs. Tailleur, not on my account. There's no reason why you
shouldn't see Mr. Lucy now. No reason at all."

She stood tortured with indecision.

"Mrs. Tailleur will see Mr. Lucy now."

"I will see him in ten minutes."

"Very good, ma'am."

The servant withdrew.

Marston shrugged his shoulders.

"There you are. Here we both are. Here we are all three in the same
hotel. An uncomfortably small hotel. How are you--or rather, how is
he--going to get over that?"

"It would be all right if you'd only go. I've told him you were a man
coming on business."

"My dear Kitty, that was quite unworthy of you."

"Well, what could I do? It's not as if I was in the habit of telling
lies."

"I won't criticise it if it was a first attempt. But in telling a lie,
my child, it's as well to select one that bears some resemblance to the
truth. Do I look like a man who comes on business?"

"You will go before he comes, won't you?"

"No, I don't think I will."

"You have nothing," she said, "to gain by staying."

"I suppose you think you have everything to gain by my going?"

"Oh, Wilfrid, give me my chance."

"I'm giving you your chance, you little fool. I wouldn't produce that
pocket-handkerchief if I were you. It's quite the most damaging thing
about you."

She gave a hysterical laugh, and put the pocket-handkerchief away.

"You are utterly unfit," he commented, "to manage your own affairs."

They sat silent, while the clock ticked out the last minutes of her
torture.

"You'd better make up your mind what you're going to do when he
arrives," he said finally.

"I don't know," said Kitty, "what I'm going to do."

"I'll tell you, then. You are going to introduce me as you would any
ordinary man of your acquaintance."

"By your own name?"

"By my own name, of course."

They waited. Lucy's stride was heard along the corridor. She looked up
at her tormentor.

"Is my nose red, Wilfrid?"

"No," he said, smiling grimly, "my dear Mrs. Tailleur," he added as Lucy
entered.




CHAPTER XIV


She came to meet him, keeping her back to Marston, her face thrust a
little forward in the way it had, looking for the protection of Robert's
kind eyes. Only when she had his hand in hers she turned.

"May I introduce Mr. Wilfrid Marston?"

The two men bowed, glancing at each other with eyes urbanely innocent of
curiosity.

"I'm sorry to have had to keep you waiting," said Kitty.

"So am I," said Marston. "Our business took rather longer than we
thought."

"Business generally does," said Lucy.

"It need not have taken quite so long if I could have persuaded Mrs.
Tailleur to think a little of her own advantage."

"I have," said Kitty, "an admirable adviser in Mr. Marston."

"You are always kind. Even if you don't always act on my advice."

"Sometimes you think you know your own affairs best."

"And sometimes," said Lucy, "it's just possible you do."

"Sometimes. I've been telling Mrs. Tailleur that she's incapable of
managing her own affairs when it's a question of her own advantage. If
you know anything of Mrs. Tailleur, you will agree with me there."

"I certainly agree with you, if Mrs. Tailleur will forgive my saying so.
I hope I've not come too soon."

"Oh, no. Mr. Marston has missed the last train up."

"And Mrs. Tailleur has been kind enough to ask me to stop the night."

"If you don't prefer the Métropole. Mr. Lucy is not going. Don't--it's
all right, Robert."

"Are you sure?"

"Quite sure. Our business is finished."

"All except one or two details which we may perhaps arrange later," said
Marston, who preserved a perfect suavity.

"How much later?" said Kitty. "_I'm_ not going to arrange anything more
to-night."

"To-morrow night."

"There won't be any to-morrow night--if you're going up to town."

"Well, then, perhaps if Mr. Lucy will excuse us, you will give me a
moment now. It seems a pity not to put things straight while you're
about it."

"You can't put things straight at eleven o'clock at night. My poor
head's all muddled and aching abominably."

"To-morrow morning, then."

"There will be no time to-morrow morning. Robert, has Jane gone to bed?"

"No, she's sitting up. She wants to speak to you."

"Will you bring her to me, please?"

He rose. When he had left the room she turned on Marston in a fury.

"Wilfrid, you're a beast, a perfect beast."

"A man of business, my dear Kitty, very often is. He's paid, you know,
for doing beastly things."

"They come easy to you."

"Is that all the thanks I get for playing up to you? I gave you every
point, too."

She raged dumbly.

"I can't congratulate you on your skill in the game. You'd have given
yourself away ten times over--if I hadn't stopped you."

"What are you waiting for now, then?"

"I have not said good night to your friend Mr. Lucy, nor to you."

"You can say good night to me now, and good bye. I shall not see you
again."

"Pardon me, you will see me to-morrow morning."

"No. Never again. I've done with you."

"My dear girl, you are absurd. Mr. Lucy is not going to marry you
to-morrow morning, is he?"

"Well?"

"And until he marries you, you haven't exactly done with me."

"I see. You want to remind me that the clothes on my back belong to
you."

He flushed painfully.

"I don't want to remind you of anything that may be unpleasant to you.
I'm only suggesting that in the circumstances--until you marry him--you
can hardly refuse to see me."

"Why should I see you? It'll make no difference."

"To me, none. To you it may possibly make a considerable difference.
There are some points you have evidently not thought of, which it would
be well for us to talk over before you think of marrying."

She capitulated.

"If I see you to-morrow, will you go now?"

"I will go, my dear Kitty, the precise moment I see fit. If I were you I
should wipe that expression from my face before Mr. Lucy comes in. He
might not like it. The pocket-handkerchief might be used with advantage
now--just there."

In obedience to his indication she passed her hand over the flushed
tear-stain. At that moment Lucy entered with his sister.

Jane, less guarded than her brother, looked candidly, steadily at
Marston, whose face instantly composed itself to reverence and devotion
before her young half-spiritual presence.

Kitty's voice was scarcely audible as she murmured the ritual of
introduction.

Lucy was aware of her emotion.

"I think," said he, "as Mrs. Tailleur has owned to a bad headache, Mr.
Marston and I had better say good night."

Marston said it. There was nothing else left for him to say. And as he
went through the door that Lucy opened for him, he cursed him in his
heart.

"Jane," said Kitty.

But Jane was looking at the door through which Marston and Robert had
just gone.

"Robert did that very neatly," said she. "You wanted to get rid of him,
didn't you, Kitty?"

"I've been trying to get rid of Wilfrid Marston for the last three
weeks."

She had such wisdom, mothered by fierce necessity, as comes to the
foolish at their call. She was standing over little Jane as she spoke,
looking down into her pure, uplifted eyes.

"You've been crying," she said.

"Yes." Jane's eyes were very bright, new-washed with tears.

"I know why. It's because of me."

"Yes; but it's all right now, Kitty."

She did not tell her that ten minutes ago she, too, had been out on the
Cliff-side and had had a battle with herself there, and had won it. For
little Jane there couldn't be a harder thing in the world than to give
Robert up. Of course she had to do it, so there could be no virtue in
that. The hard thing was to do it gracefully, beautifully.

"What are you going to say to me, Janey? He told you?"

"Yes; he told me."

"Oh, don't look at me like that, dear. Say if you hate it for him."

"I don't hate it. Only, oh, Kitty, dear, do you really love him?"

"Yes; I love him."

"But--you've only known him ten days. I don't think I could love a man
I'd only known ten days."

"It makes no difference."

"That's what Robert said."

"Yes; he said it to me. Ah, I know what you mean. You think it's all
very well for him, because men are different. It's me you can't
understand; you think I must be horrid."

"Oh no, no. It's only--I think _I'm_ different, that's all."

"_Is_ that all, Janey?"

"Yes."

"And will you love me a little if I love him a great deal? Or do you
hate me for loving him?"

"Kitty--you needn't be afraid. The more you love him the more I shall
love you."

"Did--did his wife love him? Oh, ought I to have asked you that?"

Jane shook her head.

"I'm not sure that I ought to tell you."

"She didn't, then?"

"Oh yes, she did, poor little thing. She loved him all she could."

"And it wasn't enough?"

"No, I don't think it was, quite. There was something wanting. But I
don't think Robert ever knew it."

"He knows it now," said Kitty. Her voice lifted with the pride of
passion.




CHAPTER XV


Marston cancelled that appointment at Whitehall. Somebody else's
business would have to wait another day, that was all. He was wont to
settle affairs as they arose, methodically, punctually, in the order of
their importance. At the moment his own affair and Kitty's was of
supreme importance. Until it was settled he could not attend to anybody
else.

He was determined not to let her go. He meant to have her. He did not
yet know precisely how he was to achieve this end, but as a first step
to it he engaged a room indefinitely at the Métropole. There was nothing
like being on the spot. He would consider himself defeated when Lucy had
actually married her. Meanwhile, he was uplifted by his supreme distrust
of the event.

His rival had made a very favourable impression on him, with the
curious effect of heightening Kitty's value in his eyes. Other causes
contributed, her passion for Lucy, and the subtle purification it had
wrought in her (a charm to which Marston was by no means unsusceptible),
the very fact that his own dominion was uncertain and his possession
incomplete.

Up till now he had been unaware of the grip she had on him. He had never
allowed for the possibility of permanence in his relations with her sex.
The idea of marriage was peculiarly unsupportable to him. Even in his
youth he had had no love affairs, avowed and sanctioned. Though Marston
professed the utmost devotion to women like Miss Lucy, the women whom
his mother and his sisters knew, he had noticed a little sadly that he
soon wearied of their society, that he had no power of sustained
communion with the good. The unfallen were for him the unapproachable.
Therefore he had gravitated by taste and temperament to the women of
the underworld. There his incurable fastidiousness drove him to the
pursuit of a possible perfection, distinction within the limits, the
inherent frailties of the type.

In Kitty Tailleur he had found even more than he was looking for. Kitty
had certain graces, reminiscent of the upper world; a heritage from
presumably irreproachable parents, that marked her from the women of her
class. She had, moreover, a way of her own, different from the charm of
the unfallen, different, too, from the coarse lures of the underworld.
Kitty was never rank, never insipid. She had a few light brains in her
body, and knew how to use them, woman-like, for the heightening of her
charm.

There were other good points about Kitty. Marston disliked parting with
his money, and he had found Kitty, so far, inexpensive, as women went.

For these reasons, so many and so plausible that they disguised the true
kind and degree of his subjection, he had before now returned to Kitty
more than once after he thought that he had tired of her.

Only three weeks ago, on her return from Matlock, he judged that he had
come to the end of his passion for her; and here he was again at the
very beginning of it. Instead of perishing it had thrived on absence. He
found himself on the verge of a new and unforeseen adventure, with
impulse sharpened by antagonism and frustration. Yet his only chance, he
knew, was not to be impulsive, but cool rather, calculating and
cautious. The fight he was in for would have to be fought with brains;
his against hers.

He sent a note to her early in the morning asking her to see him at
nine. At nine she saw him.

"I thought," she said, "you were going up to town early."

"I'm not going up to town at all, as it happens, to-day."

"Isn't it rather a pity to neglect your business?"

"My business, dear Kitty, is not any business of yours."

"I'm only trying to make you see that it isn't worth your while stopping
out of town because of me."

He was a little disconcerted at her divination of his motives, her
awareness of her own power.

"Well, you see, though the affairs of Whitehall are not your affairs,
your affairs, unfortunately, are mine; and, since I have to attend to
them, I prefer to do it at once and get it over. I had some talk with
Lucy last night."

She turned on him. "Ah, you _have_ given me away."

"Did you ever know me give any one away?"

She did not answer all at once.

He was shocked at her suspicion; at the things she believed it possible
for a man to do. In the upper world, in a set that discussed its women
freely, he had never used his knowledge of a woman to harm her. He had
carried the same scruple into that other world where Kitty lived, where
he himself was most at home, where an amused, contemptuous tolerance
played the part of chivalry. The women there trusted him; they found him
courteous in his very contempt. He had connived at their small deceits,
the preposterous hypocrisies wherewith they protected themselves. He
accepted urbanely their pitiful imitations of the lost innocence. Kitty,
moving reckless and high in her sad circle, had been scornful of her
sisters' methods. Her soul was as much above them as her body, in its
unique, incongruous beauty, was above their rouge and coloured raiment.
It was this superiority of hers that had brought her to her present
pass; caused her to be mistaken for an honest woman. In her contempt
for the underworld's deceptions she had achieved the supreme deceit.

Her deceit--that was his point.

"Then," she said presently, "what _did_ you say to him?"

"I said nothing, my dear child, in your disparagement. On the contrary,
I congratulated him on his engagement. As I'm supposed to be acting as
your agent, or solicitor, or whatever it is I am acting as, I imagine I
did right. Is that so?"

"Yes; if that's all you said."

"It is not quite all. I sustained my character by giving him a hint, the
merest hint, that in the event of your marriage your worldly position
would be slightly altered. We must prepare him, you know, for the sudden
collapse of your income."

He rose and went to the mantelpiece, and lingered there over the
lighting of a cigarette.

"You hadn't thought of that?" he said as he seated himself again.

"No; I hadn't thought of it."

"Well, he didn't appear to have thought of it either."

"What did he say, when you told him that?"

"He said it didn't matter in the very least."

"I knew he would."

"He said, in fact, that nothing mattered."

"What did you say then?"

"Nothing. What could I say?"

She looked at him, trying to see deep into his design, trusting him no
further than she saw.

"Look here, Kitty, I think you're making a mistake, even from your own
point of view. You ought to tell him."

"I--can't."

"You must. He's such an awfully decent chap, you can't let him in for
marrying you without telling him." That was his point and he meant to
stick to it. "It's what you might call playing it low down on a
guileless and confiding man. Isn't it?"

"Yes, but I can't tell him."

"It's the straight thing, Kitty."

"I know. But it means giving him up."

"Not at all. He'll respect you all the more for it. He won't go back on
you."

"He wouldn't if he'd only himself to think of."

"He isn't bound to tell his people. That's another thing."

"It isn't his people--it's--it's his children."

Marston became suddenly attentive. "His children? He's got children, has
he?"

"Yes, two; two little girls."

That strengthened his point.

"Then, my dear girl, you can't--in common decency--not tell him. Hang it
all, you've got to give the man a chance."

"A chance to escape? You talk as if I'd set a trap for him."

"My dear child, you haven't sense enough to set a trap. But, since there
are spring-guns in his neighbourhood, I repeat that you ought to inform
him of the fact. I dare say he wouldn't funk a spring-gun on his own
account, but he may not want his children to be hurt."

"I know. He'd be afraid I should contaminate them. I wouldn't, Wilfrid,
I wouldn't. I wouldn't hurt them for the world."

"I'm sure you wouldn't. But he might think you would. The fathers of
little girls sometimes have strange prejudices. You see it's all very
well as long as you can keep him in his beautiful innocence. But, if he
finds out that you've deceived him, he--well, he might resent it."

He never turned his eyes from that livid, vulnerable spot, striking at
it with the sword-thrust of his point.

"A man can forgive many things in a woman, but not that."

"I must risk it. He mayn't find out for years and years. If I tell him I
shall lose him now."

"Not necessarily. Not if he cares for you as much as I should say he
does."

"It doesn't matter how much he cares. He'd never marry me."

"No. He might make another and more sensible arrangement."

"And then?" She faced him with it.

"Then you'll be satisfied. You'll have had your fling."

"And--when--I've--had it?" she said slowly.

"Then, I suppose, I shall have to take you back."

"I see. That's where you think you'll come in."

"I wasn't thinking, at the moment, of myself. The suggestion was thrown
out entirely on your behalf, and I may say his. I'm simply telling you
what--knowing you as I do--I consider the wiser course, for both of
you."

"You don't know. And you don't know him. He wouldn't do it. He isn't
that sort."

She paused, brooding over it.

"Besides, I couldn't bear it. I can't go back to that."

"And how many years do you think you'll stand being proper and
respectable, which is what you'll have to be as long as you're Mrs.
Robert Lucy? It's a stiffish job, my child, for you to tackle. Just
think of the practical difficulties. I've accounted for the sudden, very
singular collapse of your income, but there are all sorts of things that
you won't be able to account for. The disappearance, for instance, of
the entire circle of your acquaintance."

She smiled. "It would be _much_ more awkward if it didn't disappear."

"True. Still, a female friend or two is an indispensable part of a
married woman's outfit. The Lucys mayn't mind, but their friends may
regard the omission as peculiar. Then--you have charming manners, I
know--but your speech is apt, at times, to be a little, what shall I
say? Unfettered. The other day, when you were annoyed with me, you
called me a beast."

"That's nothing. I might have called you something much worse."

"You might. Happily, you did not. I've no objection to the word; it can
be used as a delicate endearment, but in your mouth it loses any tender
grace it might have had."

"I'm sorry, Wilfrid."

"Don't apologise. _I_ didn't mind. But if you call Lucy a beast he won't
like it."

"I couldn't. Besides, I shall be very careful."

"You will have to be extremely careful. The Lucys live in Hampstead, I
believe, and Hampstead enjoys the reputation of being the most
respectable suburb of London. You've no idea of the sort of people
you'll have to meet there. You'll terrify them, and they, my poor
Kitten, will exterminate you. You don't know what respectability is
like."

"I don't care. I can stand anything."

"You think you can. I _know_ that you won't be able to stand it for a
fortnight. You'll find that the air of Hampstead doesn't agree with you.
And wherever you go it'll be the same thing. You had very much better
stick to me."

"To you?"

"You'll be safer and happier. If you'll stay with me----"

"I never have--stayed--with you."

"No, but I'd like you to."

He was not going to make love to her. He was far too clever for that. He
knew that with a woman like Kitty, in Kitty's state of mind, he had
nothing to gain by making love. Neither did he propose to pit his will
against hers. That course had answered well enough in the time of his
possession of her. Passion, which was great in her, greater than her
will, made his will powerless over her. His plan was to match the forces
of her brain with superior, with overwhelming forces.

He continued coldly. "I'm not satisfied with the present arrangement any
more than you are. If you'll stay with me you shall live where you
choose; only don't choose Park Lane, for I can't afford it. I'll give
you any mortal thing I _can_ afford."

"You think you can give me what Robert Lucy's giving me?"

"I can give you a home, Kitty, as long as you'll live in it. I can give
you the advantages of marriage without its drawbacks. You won't be tied
to me a minute longer than you like. Whereas you can't leave Lucy
without a scandal."

"You think that a safe arrangement, do you? I can leave you when I want
to."

"You can leave me any day. So the chances are that you won't want to."

"And when you're tired of me?"

[Illustration: "'You won't be tied to me a minute longer than you
like.'"]

"That's it. I shan't be tired of you. I've a different feeling for you
from any I've ever had for any other woman, for the simple reason that
you're a different woman every time I see you. That's the secret of
your fascination. Didn't you know it?"

She shook her head, but she was not attending to him.

"If you don't know it there's no harm in telling you that I'm very fond
of you."

"What earthly use is it, Wilfrid, being fond of me, as long as I'm not
fond of you?"

Ah, that was a mistake. He was on perilous ground. She was strong there.
She matched his bloodless, unblushing candour with her throbbing,
passionate sincerity.

"That's all the better," he said. "It wouldn't pay you, Kitty, to be
fond of me. If I thought you were fond of me to-day it would leave me
with nothing to look forward to to-morrow. If you were as fond of me as
you are of Lucy, it would bore me horribly. What's more, it would bore
you. It would tire you out, and you'd bolt in a week's time. As, I can
tell you, you'll bolt from him."

"You think I shall do that. He doesn't. That's why I'm fond of him."

"I wouldn't be too fond of him. It never pays. Either you'll tire of him
in a week, or, if you go on being fond of him you'll end by being afraid
of him. You need never be afraid of me."

"I _am_ afraid of you."

"Not you. I understand you, Kitty, and he doesn't."

"You mean you know the worst of me?"

"Precisely. What's more, I should condone what you call the worst of
you, and he wouldn't."

"I know you would. That's why I'm afraid of you. You only know the worst
of me, and he--he knows, he understands, the rest. There's something in
me that you've never seen; you couldn't see it; you wouldn't believe in
it; you'd kill it if I stayed with you. It's no use talking, for I
won't."

"Why not?" he asked as if nothing she had said had been of any moment.

"I've told you why not. But I don't expect you to understand it."

"If there's anything in it I shall understand it in the end. I'm not a
fool."

"No, you're not a fool. I'll say that for you."

"Unless it's folly to be as fond of you as I am."

"Oh, no, that's not folly. You'll be fond of me just as long as I'm nice
to look at; as long as it doesn't bore you to talk to me; as long as I
don't give you any trouble."

"Good God! Why, look at the trouble you're giving me now."

"Yes, the trouble I'm giving you now, when I'm young and pretty and you
can't have me. But when you _have_ had me; when I'm tired out and ill
and--and thin; will you be fool enough to be fond of me then?"

"You have been ill, you were ill last night, and--I've got over it."

"You never came near me when I was ill at Matlock. You call that giving
me what Robert Lucy gives me? Robert has seen me when I've been as ugly
as sin, when my eyes have been bunged up with crying. And it made no
difference. He'll love me when I'm thin and ill and old. When I'm dead
he'll love me."

He faced her passion as it flamed up before him, faced it with his cold,
meditative smile.

"That's just what makes it such a beastly shame."

"My not giving him up? How _can_ I give him up?"

"I see your point. You think you're exchanging a temporary affection for
a permanent one. You admit that I shall love you as long as you're nice
to look at. Very well. You'll be nice to look at for some considerable
time. I shall therefore love you for some considerable time. Robert Lucy
will love you just as long as he believes in you. How long will that
be?"

She did not answer.

"You don't know. Have you calculated the probable effect of gradual
enlightenment on our friend's mind?"

"I've calculated nothing."

"No. You are not a calculating woman. I just ask you to consider this
point. I am not, as you know, in the least surprised at any of your
charming little aberrations. But our friend Lucy has not had many
surprises in his life. He'll come to you with an infinite capacity for
astonishment. It's quite uncertain how he'll take--er--anything in the
nature of a surprise. And, if you ask me, I should say he'd take it
hard. Are you going to risk that?"

He was returning to his point even when he feigned to have lost sight of
it. Tortured and panting she evaded it with pitiful subterfuges. He
urged her back, pressing her tender breast against the prick of it.

"I'm going to risk everything," she said.

"Risk it, risk it, then. Tie yourself for life to a man you don't know;
who doesn't really know you, though you think he does; who on your own
showing wouldn't marry you if he did know. You see what a whopping big
risk it is, for he's bound to know in the end."

She sickened and wearied. "He is not bound to know. Why is he?"

"Because, my dear girl, you're bound to give yourself away some day.
I know you. I know the perverse little devil that is in you. When
you realise what you've let yourself in for you'll break loose,
suddenly--like that." He threw out his arms as if he burst bonds
asunder. "You can't help yourself. You simply can't live the life.
You may yearn for it, but you can't live it."

"I don't want to be respectable. It isn't that."

"What is it then?"

"Can't you see?"

He looked at her closely, as if he saw it for the first time.

"Are you so awfully gone on him?"

"Yes," she said. "You _won't_ tell him? It'll kill me if he knows."

"You think it will, but it won't."

"I shall kill myself, then."

"Oh no, you won't. You only think you will. It's Lucy I'm sorry for."

"And it's me you're hard on. You were always hard. You say you condone
things, but you condone nothing, and you're not good yourself."

"No, I'm not good myself. But there is conduct and conduct. I can
condone everything but the fraud you're practising on this innocent
man." He rose. "It's--well--you see, it's such a beastly shame."

It was to be a battle of brains, and she had foiled him with the
indomitable stupidity of her passion. But his point--the one point that
he stuck to--was a sword point for her passion.

"You won't tell him? You won't? It would be a blackguardly thing to do."

"If Lucy was a friend of mine I'm afraid the blackguardly thing would
be to hold my tongue."

"You'd tell him then?" she said. "You wouldn't think of me?"

She came to him. She laid her arms upon his shoulders. Her hands touched
him with dispassionate, deliberate, ineffectual caresses, a pitiful
return to a discarded manner, an outrageous imitation of the old
professional cajoleries. It was so poor a thing that it had no power to
move him. What moved him was the look in her eyes, the look which his
brain told him was the desperate, incredulous appeal of her unhappy
soul.

"I don't know, Kitty," he said. "Thank heaven, he's not a friend of
mine."




CHAPTER XVI


It was not from Marston, then, that she had to fear betrayal. Neither
was she any more afraid of the rumours of the Cliff Hotel. She was aware
that her engagement to Robert Lucy, unannounced but accepted for the
simple fact it was, had raised her above censure and suspicion.

It had come just in time to occupy Mrs. Jurd and Miss Keating on their
way to Surbiton.

When Kitty thought of Grace Keating she said to herself, "How will Bunny
feel now?" But her mortal exultation was checked by her pity for poor
Bunny, who would have been so happy if she had been married.

Then there were the Hankins. She reflected sanely that they couldn't be
dangerous, for they knew nothing. Still she did feel a little uneasy
when she thought of the Hankins.

She was thinking of them now as she and Robert sat on the Cliff, making
the most of their last hour together before the arrival of the little
girls.

"Robert," she said, "the Hankins are probably sitting down there under
the Cliff. Supposing they see us?"

"They can't, we're over their heads."

"But if they do what do you suppose they'll think?"

"If they think at all, they'll have an inkling of the truth. But it
isn't their business. The children will be here soon," he added.

She looked at him intently. Was he trying, she wondered, to reassure her
that the presence of his children would protect her? Or was he merely
preoccupied with the thought of their arrival?

"You don't mind," he said presently, "not coming to the station?"

He had said that already twice before. Why ask, she said, when he knew
perfectly well she didn't mind?

Of course she didn't mind. She knew his idea, that they were not to be
confronted with her suddenly. He meant to let her dawn on them
beautifully, with the tenderest gradations. He would approach them with
an incomparable cunning. He would tell them that they were going to see
a very pretty lady. And when they were thoroughly inured to the idea of
her, he would announce that the pretty lady was coming to stay with
them, and that she would never go away.

She looked at her watch.

"We've got another half-hour before they come."

"Kitty, I believe you're afraid of them?"

"Yes, Robert, I'm afraid."

"What? Of two small children?"

"What are they like? I haven't asked you that."

"Well, Janet's a queer, uncanny little person, rather long for her age
and very thin----"

"Like you?"

"Like me. At first you think she's all legs. Then you see a little white
face with enormous eyes that look at you as if she was wondering what
you are."

He smiled. His mind had gone off, away from her, to the contemplation of
his little daughter.

"I think she is clever, but one never knows. We have to handle her very
carefully. Barbara's all right. You can pitch her about like anything."

"What is Barbara like?"

"Barbara? She's round and fat and going to be pretty, like----"

"Like her mother?"

"No, like Janey, if Janey was fat. They're both a little difficult to
manage. If you reprove Barbara, she bursts out laughing in your face. If
you even hint to Janet that you disapprove of her, she goes away
somewhere and weeps."

"Poor little thing. I'm afraid," said Kitty sadly, "they're not so very
small."

"Well, Janet, I believe, is seven, and Barbara is five."

"Barbara is five. And, oh dear me, Janet is seven."

"Is that such a very formidable age?"

She laughed uneasily. "Yes. That's the age when they begin to take
notice, isn't it?"

"Oh, no, they do that when they're babies. Even Barbara's grown out of
that. I say, Kitty, what a lot you know."

"Don't, Robert." She looked at him imploringly and put her hand in his.

"I won't, if you'll only tell me what I'm not to do."

"You're not to tease me about the things you think I don't know. I used
to nurse my little sisters, when I wasn't very big myself. I can't nurse
Janet, or Barbara, can I?"

"Why not?"

"They wouldn't let me. They're too old. It won't be the same thing at
all."

"Well," said Robert, and paused, hiding from her the thing that was in
his mind.

"Oh, Robert, I do wish, I do wish they were really small."

"I'm sorry, Kitty. But perhaps----"

He could not hide anything from Kitty.

"No, Robert," she said, "I'm afraid there won't be any perhaps. That's
one of the things I meant to tell you. But I'm not bothering about that.
I meant--if they were little--little things, I shouldn't be so
dreadfully afraid of them."

"Why? What do you think they'll do to you, Kitty?"

"I--don't--know."

"You needn't be alarmed. I believe they're very well-behaved. Jane has
brought them up quite nicely."

"What is Jane going to do?"

"Ah--that's what I wanted to ask you about."

"You needn't ask me. You want her to stay and look after them just the
same?"

"No, not just the same. I want her to stay and she won't. She says it
wouldn't be fair to you."

"But--if she only would, that would make it all so easy. You see, I
could look after you, and she could look after them."

"You don't want to be bored with them?"

"You know that isn't what I mean. I don't want them to suffer."

"Why _should_ they suffer?" There was some irritation in his tone.

"Because I don't think, Robert, I'm really fit to bring up children."

"I think you are. And I don't mean anybody else to bring them up. If
you're my wife, Kitty, you're their mother."

"And they're to be mine as well as yours?"

"As much yours as you can make them, dear."

"Oh, how you trust me. That's what makes me so afraid. And--do you
think they'll really love me?"

"Trust _them_--for that."

"You asked me if I could care for you, Robert; you never asked me if I
could care for them. You trusted me for that!"

"I could have forgiven you if you couldn't care for _me_."

"But you couldn't forgive me if I didn't care for them? Is that it?"

"No; I simply couldn't understand any woman not caring for them. I think
you _will_ like the little things, when you've seen them."

"I'll promise you one thing. I won't be jealous of them."

"Jealous? Why on earth should you be?"

"Some women are. I was afraid I might be that sort."

"Why?"

"Because--oh, because I care for you so awfully. But that's just it.
That's why I can't be jealous of them. They're yours, you see. I can't
separate them from you."

"Well, well, let's wait until you've seen them."

"Don't you believe me, Robert? Women _do_ love their children before
they've seen them. I don't need to see them. I _have_ seen them. I saw
them all last night."

She looked away from him, brooding, as if she still saw them.

"There's only one person I could be jealous of, and I'm not jealous of
her any more."

"Poor little Jane."

"It wasn't Jane. It was their mother. I mean it was your wife."

He turned and looked at her. There was amazement in his kind, simple
face.

"I suppose you think that's fiendish of me?"

He did not reply.

"But--Robert--I'm not jealous of her any more. I don't care if she was
your wife."

"Kitty, my dear child----"

"I don't care if she had ten children and _I_ never had one. It's got
nothing to do with it. She had you for--two years, wasn't it?"

"Two years, Kitty."

"Poor thing; and I shall have you all my life."

"Yes. And so, if you don't mind, dear, I'd rather you didn't talk about
that again."

"I'm sorry. I won't ever again."

She sat silent for a moment in a sort of penitential shame. Then she
burst out--

"I'm not jealous. But, Robert, if you were to leave me for another woman
it would kill me. I daren't say that to any other man if I cared for
him. It would just make him go and do it. But I believe somehow you'd
think twice before you killed me."

He only smiled at this, and spoke gently.

"Yes, Kitty, you're right. I believe I _would_ think twice about it."

He said to himself that this fierceness, her passionate perversity, all
that was most unintelligible in her, was just Kitty's way--the way of a
woman recklessly, adorably in love. It stirred in him the very depths of
tenderness. When she was married (they must marry very soon) she would
be happy; she would understand him; she would settle down.

He looked at his watch. "I'm afraid I must be going."

She glanced at the hands of the watch over his shoulder. "You needn't,"
she said. "It isn't really time."

"Well--five minutes."

The five minutes went. "Time's up," he said.

"Oh, no, Robert--not yet."

"Kitty--don't you want to see them?"

"I don't want you to go."

"I'm coming back."

"Yes, but it won't be the same thing. It never will be the same thing as
now."

"Poor Kitty--I say, I _must_ go and meet them."

"Very well." She stood up. "Kiss me," she said.

She took his kiss as if it were the last that would be given her.

They went together to the hotel. Jane had started five minutes ago for
the station.

"It's all right," he said. "I'll catch her up."

She followed to the gates and looked down the white road where Jane had
gone.

"Let me come with you--just a little way--to the first lamp-post on the
station road."

"Well, to the first lamp-post."

At the lamp-post she let him go.

She stood looking after him till he swung round the turn of the road,
out of her sight. Then she went back, slowly, sad-eyed, and with a great
terror in her heart.




CHAPTER XVII


It was not the thing she had confessed to him, fear of his little unseen
children, it was terror, unconfessed, uncomprehended, as it were
foreknowledge of the very soul of destiny clothed for her in their
tender flesh and blood.

Up till now she had been careless of her destiny. She had been so
joyous, so defiant in her sinning. By that charm of hers, younger than
youth, indestructibly childlike, she had carried it through with the
audacity of chartered innocence. She had propitiated, ignored, eluded
the more feminine amenities of fate. Of course, she had had her bad
moments. She had been sorry, sometimes, and she had been sick; but on
the whole her powers had been splendidly recuperative. She had shown
none of those naked tender spots that provoke destiny to strike. And
with it all she had preserved, perhaps too scrupulously, the rules laid
down for such as she. She had kept her own place. She had never
attempted to invade the sanctuaries set apart for other women.

It was Robert who had tempted her to that transgression. He had opened
the door of the sanctuary for her and shut it behind her and put his
back against it. He had made her believe that if she stayed in there,
with him, it would be all right. She might have known what would happen.
It was for such a moment, of infatuation made perfect, that destiny was
waiting.

Kitty had no very luminous idea of its intentions. But she bore in her
blood forebodings, older and obscurer than the flashes of the brain; and
her heart had swift immortal instincts, forerunners of the mortal hours.
The powers of pain, infallibly wise, implacably just, would choose their
moment well, striking at her through the hands of the children she had
never borne.

If Robert found out what she was before he married her, he would have
to give her up because of them. She knew better than he did the hold she
had over him. She had tried to keep him in ignorance of her power, so
great was her terror of what it might do to him, and to her through him.
Yet, with all her sad science, she remained uncertain of his ultimate
behaviour. That was the charm and the danger of him. For fear of some
undiscovered, uncalculated quality in him she had held herself back; she
had been careful how she touched him, how she looked at him, lest her
hands or her eyes should betray her; lest in his heart he should call
her by her name, and fling her from him because of them. Whereas, but
for them, she judged that whatever she was he would not give her up. She
was not quite sure (you couldn't say _what_ a man like Robert would or
wouldn't do), but she felt that if she could have had him to herself, if
there had been only he and she, facing the world, then, for sheer
chivalry, he simply couldn't have left her. Even now, once he was
married to her it would be all right; he couldn't give her up or leave
her; the worst he could do would be to separate her from them.

There was really no reason then why she should be frightened. He was
going to marry her very soon. She knew that, by her science, though he
had not said so. She would be all right. She would be very careful. It
wasn't as if she didn't want to be nice and to do all the proper things.

And so Kitty cast off care.

Only, as she waited in the room prepared for the children, she looked at
herself in the glass, once, to make sure that there was nothing in her
face that could betray her. No; Nature had spared her as yet and her
youth was good to her. Her face looked back at her, triumphantly
reticent, innocent of memory, holding her charm, a secret beyond the
secrets of corruption, as her perfect body held the mystery and the
prophecy of her power. Besides, her face was different now from what it
had been. Wilfrid had intimated to her that it was different. It was the
face that Robert loved; it had the look that told him that she loved
him, a look it never wore for any other man. Even now as she thought of
him it lightened and grew rosy. She saw it herself and wondered and took
hope. "That's how I look when I'm happy, is it? I'm always happy when
I'm with him, so," she reasoned, "he will always see me like that; and
it will be all right."

Anyhow, there would be no unhappiness about his pretty lady when he came
back with them.

She smiled softly as she went about the room, putting the touches of
perfection to the festival. There were roses everywhere; on the table,
on the mantelpiece; the room was sweet with the smell of them; there was
a rose on each child's plate. The tremulous movements of her hands
betrayed the immensity and the desperation of her passion to please.
The very waiter was touched by her, and smiled secretly in sympathy as
he saw her laying her pretty lures. When he had gone she arranged the
table all over again and did it better. Then she stood looking at it,
hovering round it, thinking. She would sit here, and the children there,
Janet between her and Robert, Barbara between her and Jane.

"Poor little things," she said, "poor little things." She yearned to
them even in her fear of them, and when she thought of them sitting
there her lips moved in unspoken, pitiful endearments.

The light from the south-west streamed into the little room and made it
golden. Everything in it shimmered and shone. The window, flung wide
open to the veranda, framed the green lawn and the shining, shimmering
sea. A wind, small and soft, stirred the thin curtains to and fro,
fanning the warm air. The sunlight and heat oppressed her. She shut her
eyes and put her hands over them to cool them with darkness. It was a
trick she had when she was troubled.

She sat by the window and waited in the strange, throbbing darkness of
hot eyes closed in daylight, a darkness smitten by the sun and shot with
a fiery fume.

They were coming now. She heard feet on the gravel outside, round the
corner; she heard Robert's voice and Janey's; and then little shuffling
footsteps at the door, and two voices shrill and sweet.

Robert came in first and the children with him. They stood all three on
the threshold, looking at her. Robert was smiling, but the little girls
(they were very little) were grave. His eyes drew her and she came
toward them as she was used to come to the things of her desire, swift
and shy, with a trailing, troubling movement; the way that he had seen
her come, swayed by the rhythm of impulse.

The children stood stock still as she stooped to them. Her fear of them
made her supremely gentle. Little Barbara put up her round rose face
with its soft mouth thrust forward in a premature kiss. Janet gave her a
tiny hand and gazed at her with brooding, irresponsive eyes. Her little
mouth never moved as Kitty's mouth touched it.

But little Barbara held out her spade and bucket for Kitty to see.
"Look, look," said little Barbara, "Daddy gave them me to build castles
in the sand." Barbara spoke so fast that she panted, and laughed in a
divine superfluity of joy.

Robert stood looking down from his tremendous height at Barbara,
tenderly as one who contemplates a thing at once heartrending and
absurd. Then his eyes turned to Kitty, smiling quietly as if they said,
"Didn't I tell you to wait until you'd seen them?" Kitty's heart
contracted with a sharp, abominable pang.

Then Janey took the little girls to the room upstairs where their nurse
was. Barbara looked back at Kitty as she went, but Kitty's eyes
followed Janet.

"Robert," she said, "will she always look at me like that? Shall I never
know what she is thinking?"

"None of us know what Janet's thinking."

He paused.

"I told you we had to be very careful of her."

"Is she delicate?"

"No. Physically, she's far stronger than Barbara. She's what you call
morally delicate."

She flushed. "What do you mean, Robert?"

"Well--not able to bear things. For instance, we'd a small child staying
with us once. It turned out that she wasn't a nice child at all. We
didn't know it, though. But Janet had a perfect horror of her. It's as
if she had a sort of intuition. She was so unhappy about it that we had
to send the child away."

His forehead was drawn into a frown of worry and perplexity.

"I don't see how she's to grow up. It makes me feel so awfully
responsible. The world isn't an entirely pretty place, you know, and it
seems such a cruel shame to bring a child like that into it. Doesn't
it?"

"Yes."

"Somehow I think you'll understand her, Kitty."

"Yes, Robert, I understand."

She came to him. She laid her hand on the sleeve of his coat, and stood
by him. Her eyes were shining through some dew that was not tears.

"What is it, Kitty?"

"Will you marry me soon?" she said. "Very soon?" she whispered. "I--I
can't wait." She hid her face against his arm.

He thought it was the motherhood in her that was moved, that pleaded,
impatient for its hour.

"Why should we wait? Do you suppose I want to?"

"Hush!" she said. "They're coming."

They came a little solemnly, as beseemed a festival. Janet, in her long
white pinafore, looked more than ever the spiritual thing she was. Her
long brown hair hung down her cheeks, straight and smooth as a parted
veil, sharpening her small face, that flickered as a flame flickers in
troubled air. Beside her little Barbara bloomed and glowed, with cheeks
full-blown, and cropped head flowering into curls that stood on end in
brown tufts, and tawny feathers, and little crests of gold. They took
their places, pensively, at the table.

They had beautiful manners, Robert's children; little exquisite, gentle
ways of approaching and of handling things. They held themselves very
erect, with a secure, diminutive distinction. Kitty's heart sank deeper
as she looked at them. Even Barbara, who was so very young, carried her
small perfections intact through all the spontaneities of her behaviour.

All through tea-time little Barbara, pursued by her dream, talked
incessantly of castles in the sand. And when she was tired of talking
she began to sing.

"Darling," said Jane, "we don't sing at tea-time."

"_I_ do," said little Barbara, and laughed.

Jane laughed too, hysterically.

Then the spirit of little Barbara entered into Jane, and made her
ungovernably gay. It passed into Kitty, and ran riot in her blood and
nerves. Whenever Barbara laughed Kitty laughed, and when Kitty laughed
Robert laughed too. Even Janet gave a little shriek now and then. The
children thought it was all because they had had strawberries and cream
for tea, and were going down to the sea to build castles in the sand.

All afternoon, till dinner-time, Kitty laboured on the sands, building
castles as if she had never done anything else in her life. The Hankins
watched her from their seat on the rocks in the angle of the Cliff.

"We were mistaken. She must be all right. How pretty she is, too, poor
thing," said Mrs. Hankin to her husband.

"How pretty she is, how absolutely lovable and good," said Robert to
himself as he watched her, while Barbara, a tired little labourer, lay
stretched in her lap. She was sitting on a rock under the Cliff, with
the great brow of it for a canopy. Her eyes were lowered, and hidden by
their deep lids. She was smiling at the child who leaned back in her
arms, crushing a soft cheek against her breast.

He threw himself down beside her. He had just finished a prodigious
fortress, with earthworks and trenches extending to the sea.

"Kitty, Kitty," he said, "you're only a child yourself, like Janey.
She's perfectly happy building castles in the sand--so are you. You're a
perfect baby."

"We're all babies, Robert, building castles in the sand. And you're the
biggest baby of the lot."

"I don't care. I've built the biggest castle."

"Look at Janet," said Kitty. "She'll be grown up before any of us."

The child sat on a rock with Jane. But, from the distance that she kept,
she looked at her father and Kitty from time to time. All afternoon
Janet had clung to Jane. But when bed-time came Robert took her aside
and whispered something to her. Going home she walked by Kitty, and put
her hand in hers.

"Daddy said I'm to be very kind to you."

"Did he? That's very kind of daddy."

"Daddy's always kind to people. Especially when they've not been very
happy. Really and truly I'm going to be kind. But you won't mind if I
don't love you _very_ soon, will you?"

"Of course I won't. Only don't leave it too late, darling."

"Well, I don't know," said Janet thoughtfully; "we've lots of time."

"Have we?"

"Heaps and heaps. You see, I love Auntie Janey, and it might hurt her
feelings."

"I see."

"But I'm going to give you something," said Janet presently.

"I don't want you to give me anything that belongs to Auntie Janey."

"No," said Janet; "I shall give you something of my own."

"Oh! And you can't tell me what it's going to be?"

"I must think about it." The little girl became lost in thought.
"Barbara likes kissing people. I don't."

"So I see. It won't be kisses, then?"

"No; it won't be kisses. It will," she reiterated, "be something of my
own."

She dropped Kitty's hand.

"You won't mind if I go to Auntie Janey now?"

Kitty told Janey about it afterward, as they sat alone in the lounge
before dinner.

"You mustn't mind, Kitty dear," said Jane. "It only means that she's a
faithful little soul. She'll be just as faithful to you some day."

"Some day."

"Don't sigh like that, Kitty."

"She's like Robert, isn't she?"

"Very like Robert."

She brooded.

"Janey," she said, "let me have him to myself this evening."

All evening she had him to herself, out on the Cliff, in the place where
nobody came but they.

"Well," he said, "what do you think of them?"

"I think they're adorable."

"Funny little beggars, aren't they? How did you get on with Janet?"

She told him.

"That's Janet's little way. To give you something of her own." He smiled
in tender satisfaction, repeating the child's phrase.

"It's all right, Kitty. She's only holding herself in. You're in for a
big thing."

She surveyed it.

"I know, Robert. I know."

"You're tired? Have the children been too much for you?"

She shook her head.

"You're not to make yourself a slave to them, you know."

She looked at him.

"Was I all right, Robert?"

"You were perfect."

"You said I was only a child myself."

"So you are. That's why I like you."

She shook her head again.

"It's all very well," she said, "but that isn't what you want,
dear--another child."

"How do you know what I want?"

"You want somebody much nicer than I am."

He was silent, looking at her as he had looked at Barbara, enjoying her
absurdity, letting her play, like the child she was, with her
preposterous idea.

"Oh, Robert, you do _really_ think I'm nice?" She came nearer to him,
crying out like a child in pain. He put his arm round her, and comforted
her as best he could.

"You child, do you suppose I'd marry you if I didn't think you nice?"

"You might. You mightn't care."

"As it happens, I do care, very much. Anyhow, I wouldn't ask you to be a
mother to my children if I didn't think you nice. That's the test."

"Yes, Robert," she repeated, "that's the test."

They rose and went back to the hotel. From the lawn they could see the
open window of the children's room. They looked up.

"Would you like to see them, Kitty?"

"Yes."

He took her up to them. They were asleep. Little Barbara lay curled up
in the big bed, right in the middle of it where her dreams had tossed
her. Janet, in the cot beside her, lay very straight and still.

Robert signed to Kitty to come near, and they stood together and looked
first at the children and then into each other's faces. Kitty was very
quiet.

"Do you like them?" he whispered.

Her lips quivered, but she made no sign.

He stooped over each bed, smoothing the long hair from Janet's forehead,
folding back the blanket that weighed on Barbara's little body. When he
turned, Kitty had gone. She had slipped into her own room.

She waited till she heard Robert go away. The children were alone in
there. The nurse, she knew, was in Jane's room across the passage. Jane
was probably telling her that her master was to be married very soon.

She looked out. The door of Jane's room was shut; so was the door of the
children's room through which Robert had gone out. The other, the door
of communication, she had left ajar. She went softly back through it and
stood again by the children's beds. Janet was still sound asleep. Her
fine limbs were still stretched straight and quiet under the blanket.
Her hair was as Robert's hand had left it.

Kitty was afraid of disturbing Janet's sleep. She was afraid of Janet.

She stooped over little Barbara, and turned back the bedclothes from the
bed. She laid herself down, half her length, upon it by Barbara's side,
and folded her in arms that scarcely touched her at first, so light they
lay on her. Then some perverse and passionate impulse seized her to wake
the child. She did it gently, tenderly, holding back her passion,
troubling the depths of sleep with fine, feather-like touches, with
kisses soft as sleep.

The child stirred under the caressing arms. She lay in her divine
beauty, half asleep, half awake, opening her eyes, and shutting them on
the secret of her dream. Then Kitty's troubling hand turned her from her
flight down the ways of sleep. She lay on her back, her eyes glimmered
in the lifting of their lids; they opened under Kitty's eyes that
watched them, luminous, large and clear. Her mouth curled under Kitty's
mouth, in drowsy kisses plucked from the annihilated dream. She drew up
her rosy knees and held out her arms to Kitty's arms and smiled, half
awake and half asleep.

Kitty rose, lifting the child with her from the bed. She held her close,
pressing the tender body close to her own body with quivering hands,
stroking the adorable little face with her own face, closing her eyes
under the touch of it as she closed them when Robert's face touched
hers. She was aware that she had brought some passionate, earthly
quality of her love for Robert into her love for Robert's child.

She said to herself, "I'm terrible; there's something wrong with me.
This isn't the way to love a child."

She laid the little thing down again, freed her neck from the drowsy,
detaining arms, and covered the small body up out of her sight.
Barbara, thus abandoned, cried, and the cry cut through her heart.

She went into her own room, and threw herself on her bed and writhed
there, torn by many pangs. The pang of the heart and the pang of the
half-born spirit, struggling with the body that held it back from birth;
and through it all the pang of the motherhood she had thwarted and
disowned. Out of the very soil of corruption it pierced, sharp and pure,
infinitely painful. It was almost indiscernible from the fierce
exultation of her heart that had found fulfilment, and from the passion
of her body that yet waited for its own.

She undressed herself, and crept into her bed and lay there, tortured,
visited by many memories. She gazed with terrified, pitiful eyes into a
darkness that was peopled for her with all the faces she had known in
the short seasons of her sinning; men, and the women who had been her
friends and her companions; and the strangers who had passed her by, or
who had lingered and looked on. The faces of Robert and his children
hung somewhere on the outskirts of her vision, but she could not fix
them or hold them; they were trampled out, obliterated by that
phantasmal procession of her shames. Some faces, more terrible than all,
detached themselves and crowded round her, the faces of those who had
pursued her, and of those whom her own light feet pursued; from the
first who had found her and left her, to the last whom she herself had
held captive and let go. They stood about her bed; they stretched out
their hands and touched her; their faces peered into hers; faces that
she had forgotten. She thrust them from her into the darkness and they
came again. Each bore the same likeness to his fellow; each had the same
looks, the same gestures that defied her to forget. She fell asleep; and
the dreams, the treacherous, perpetually remembering, delivered her into
their hands.

She waked at dawn, with memory quickened by her dreams. She heard voices
now, all the voices that had accused her. Her mother's voice spoke
first, and it was very sad. It said, "I am sending you away, Kitty,
because of the children." Then her father's voice, very stern, "No, I
will not have you back. You must stay where you are for your little
sisters' sake." And her mother's voice again--afterward--sad and stern,
too, this time, "As you made your bed, Kitty, you must lie. We can't
take you back."

And there was a third voice. It said very softly, "You can't have it
both ways." It cried out aloud in a fury, "I've always known it. You
can't hide it. You're full of it." And yet another voice, deep and hard,
"You can't _not_ tell him. It's a shame Kitty; it's an awful shame."

She could not sleep again for listening to them.




CHAPTER XVIII


It was morning. She dragged herself up and tried to dress. But her hands
shook and her head ached violently. She stretched herself half-dressed
upon her bed and lay there helpless, surrendered to the bodily pain that
delivered her mercifully from the anguish of her mind.

She saw no one, not even Jane Lucy.

Outside, in the passage, and in the inner room she heard the footsteps
of the children and their little shrill voices; each sound accentuated
the stabbing pulse of pain. It was impossible to darken the room, and
the insufferable sunlight poured in unchecked through the thin yellow
blinds and plagued her brain, till the nerves of vision throbbed, beat
for beat, with the nerves of torment. At noon she had only one sensation
of brilliant surging pain.

She dozed and her headache lifted. When she woke her body was weak as if
it had had a fever, but her mind closed on reality with the impact of a
force delayed.

There was a thing not yet quite real to her, a thing that seemed to
belong to the region of bodily pain, to be born there as a bad dream
might be born; a thing that had been there last night among other
things, that, as she stared at it, became more prominent, more poignant
than they. And yet, though its air was so beckoning and so familiar, it
was not among the number of things accomplished and irrevocable. It was
simply the thing she had to do.

It possessed her now; and under its dominion she was uplifted, carried
along. Her mind moved toward it with a reckless rocking speed, the
perilous certainty of the insane.

At five o'clock she rang the bell and asked the servant to bring her
some tea. She swallowed a little with a jerk of her throat, and put the
cup down, shuddering. It brought her a sickening memory of yesterday.

At five o'clock she got up and dressed herself and sent a message to
Robert Lucy to see her downstairs in her sitting-room, alone. As she
stood at her glass she said to herself, "How shocking I look. But he
won't mind."

At six he was with her.

She drew her hand away from his as if his touch had hurt her. Her smile
was the still, bloodless smile that comes with pain. She drew her chair
back out of the sunlight, in the recess by the fireplace. He stood
beside her then, looking at her with eyes that loved her the more for
the sad hurt to her beauty. His manner recalled the shy, adolescent
uncertainty of his first approaches.

"Don't you think," he said, "you ought to have stayed in bed?"

She shook her head and struggled to find her voice. It came
convulsively.

"No. I'm better. I'm all right now."

"It was being out in that beastly hot sun yesterday--with those
youngsters. You're not used to it."

She laughed. "No. I'm not used to it. Robert--you haven't told them,
have you?"

"What?"

"About you--and me?"

"No. Not yet." He smiled. "I say, I shall have to tell them very soon,
shan't I?"

"You needn't."

He made some inarticulate sound that questioned her.

"I've changed my mind. I can't marry you."

He had to bend his head to catch her low, indistinct murmur; but he
caught it.

He drew back from her, and leaned against the chimneypiece and looked at
her more intently than before.

"Do you mean," he said quietly, "because of _them_?"

"Yes."

He looked down.

"Poor Kitty," he said. "You think I'm asking too much of you?"

She did not answer.

"You're afraid?"

"I told you I was afraid."

"Yes. But I thought it was all right. I thought you liked them."

She was silent. Tears rose to her eyes and hung on their unsteady
lashes.

"They like you."

She bowed her head and the tears fell.

"Is that what has upset you?"

"Yes."

"I see. You've been thinking it over and you find you can't stand it. I
don't wonder. You've let those little monkeys tire you out. You've
nearly got a sunstroke and you feel as if you'd rather die than go
through another day like yesterday? Well, you shan't. There'll never be
another day like yesterday."

"No. Never," she said; and her sobs choked her.

"Why should there be? They'll have a governess. You don't suppose I
meant you to have them on your hands all the time?"

She went on crying softly. He sat on the arm of her chair and put his
arm round her and dried her eyes.

"Don't be unhappy about it, Kitty. I understand. You're not marrying
them, dear; you're marrying me."

She broke loose from him.

"I can't marry you," she cried. "I can't give you what you want."

"Do you mean that you can't care for me? Is that what you're trying to
tell me all the time?"

He moved and she cowered back into her chair.

"I--I _can't_ tell you."

He had turned from her. He was leaning his arms along the mantelshelf;
he had bowed his head on them.

They remained for some minutes so; she cowering back; he with his face
hidden from her.

"Do you mind telling me," he said presently, "if there's anybody else
that you----"

"That I care for? No, Robert, there's no one."

"Are you quite sure? Quite honest. Think."

"Do you mean Wilfrid Marston?"

"Yes."

"I certainly do not care for _him_."

He raised his head at that; but he did not look at her.

"Thank God!" he said.

"Do you think as badly of him as all that?"

"Don't ask me what I think of him."

"Would you think badly of me if I'd married him?"

"I--I couldn't have stood it, Kitty."

"I am not going to marry him."

"You haven't said yet that you don't care for me?"

"No. I haven't."

He turned and stooped over her, compelling her to look at him.

"Say it then," he said.

She drew back her face from his and put up her hands between them. He
rose and stood before her and looked down at her. The blue of her eyes
had narrowed, the pupils stared at him, black and feverish. Her mouth,
which had been tight-shut, was open slightly. A thin flush blurred its
edges. Her breath came through, short and sharp.

"You're ill," he said. "You must go back to bed."

"No," she said. "I've got to tell you something."

"If you do I shan't believe it."

"What won't you believe?"

"That you don't care for me. I can't believe it."

"You'd better, Robert."

"I don't. There's something wrong. You must tell me what it is."

"There's nothing wrong but that. I--I made a mistake."

"You only thought you liked me? Or is it worse than that?"

"It's worse, far worse."

"I see. You tried to like me, and you couldn't?"

She was silent.

"Poor child. I've been a selfish brute. I might have known you couldn't.
You've hardly known me ten days. But if I wait, Kitty--if I give you
time to think?"

"If you give me ten years it would do no good."

"I see," he said; "I see."

He gripped the edge of the mantelpiece with both his hands; his tense
arms trembled from the shoulders to the wrists; his hold relaxed. He
straightened himself and hid his shaking hands in his coat pockets.
There were tears at the edges of his eyelids, the small, difficult tears
that cut their way through the flesh that abhors them.

She saw them.

"Ah, Robert--do you care for me like that?"

"You know how I care for you."

He stopped as he swung away from her, remembering that he had failed in
courtesy.

"Thank you," he said, simply, "for telling me the truth."

He reached the door, and she rose and came after him. He shook his head
as a sign to her not to follow him. She saw that he was going from her
because he was tortured and dumb with suffering and with shame.

Then she knew what she must do. She called to him, she entreated.

"Robert--don't go. Come back--come back. I can't bear it."

He came back at that cry.

"I haven't told you the truth. I lied."

"When?" he said sternly.

"Just now. When I told you that I didn't care for you."

"Well?"

"Sit down--here, on the sofa. I'll try and tell you."

He sat down beside her, but not near. She leaned forward with her
elbows on her knees, and her head propped on her clenched hands. She did
not look at him as she spoke.

"I said I didn't care, because I thought that was the easiest way out of
it. Easiest for you. So much easier than knowing the truth."

He smiled grimly.

"Well, you see how easy it's been."

"Yes." She paused. "The truth isn't going to be easy either."

"Let's have it, all the same, Kitty."

"You're going to have it." She paused again, breathing hard. "Have you
never wondered why the people here avoided me? You know they thought
things."

"As if it mattered what they thought."

"They were right. There _was_ something."

She heard him draw a deep breath. He, too, leaned forward now, in the
same attitude as she, as if he were the participator of her confession,
and the accomplice of her shame. His face was level with hers, but his
eyes looked straight past her, untainted and clear.

"What if there was?" he said. "It makes no difference."

She turned her sad face to his.

"Don't you know, Robert? Don't you know?"

He frowned impatiently.

"No, I don't. I don't want to."

"You'd rather think I didn't care for you?"

His face set again in its tortured, dumb look.

"You shan't think that of me."

She leaned back again out of his sight, and he presented to her his
shoulder, thrust forward, and his profile, immovable, dogged, and
apparently unheeding.

"It's because I cared for you that I couldn't tell you the truth. I
tried and couldn't. It was so difficult, and you _wouldn't_ understand.
Then Wilfrid Marston said I must--I had to tell you."

He threw himself back and turned on her.

"What had Marston to do with it?"

Her voice and her eyes dropped.

"You see, he knew."

"I see."

He waited.

"I couldn't tell you."

His silence conveyed to her that he listened since she desired it, that
he left it to her to tell him as much or as little as she would, and
that thus he trusted her.

"I was afraid," she said.

"What? Afraid of _me_, Kitty?"

"I thought it would make you not care for me."

"I don't think anything you can tell me will make any difference."

"You said yourself it would. You said you wouldn't marry me if I wasn't
nice."

He looked up impatient and surprised.

"But we've been through all that," he said.

"No, we haven't. When I said I wasn't nice I meant there were things
I----"

"Well?"

"I--I wasn't married to Charley Tailleur."

He took it in silence; and through the silence she let it sink in.

"Where is the fellow?" he asked presently.

"He's dead. I told you _that_."

"I'd forgotten."

There was another silence.

"Did you care for him very much, Kitty?"

"I don't know. Yes. No, I don't know. It wasn't the same thing."

"Never mind. It's very good of you to tell me."

"I didn't mean to."

"What made you tell me?"

"Seeing the children. I thought I could go on deceiving you; but when I
saw them I knew I couldn't."

"I see." His voice softened. "You told me because of them. I'm glad you
told me." He paused on that.

"Well," he said, "we must make the best of it."

"That makes no difference?"

"No. Not now."

She sighed.

"How long ago was it?" he asked.

"Five years. Charley Tailleur was the first."

"What?"

"The first. There were others; ever so many others. I'm--that sort."

"I don't believe you."

"You've got to believe me. You can't marry me, and you've got to see
why."

She also paused. Her silences were terrible to him.

"I thought you did see once. It didn't seem possible that you couldn't.
Do you remember the first time I met you?"

He remembered.

"I thought you saw then. And afterward--don't you remember how you
followed me out of the room--another night?"

"Yes."

"I thought you understood, and were too shy to say so. But you didn't.
_Then_--do you remember how I waited for you at the end of the
garden?--and how we sat out on the Cliff? I was trying then--the way I
always try. I thought I'd make you--and you--you wouldn't see it. You
only wanted to help me. You were so innocent and dear. That's what made
me love you."

"Oh," he groaned. "Don't."

But she went on. "And do you remember how you found me--that night--out
on the Cliff?"

She drew back her voice softly.

"I was sure then that you knew, and that when you asked me to come back
with you----"

"Look here, Kitty, I've had enough of it."

"You haven't, for you're fond of me still. You are, aren't you?"

"Oh, my God! how do I know?"

"_I_ know. It's because you haven't taken it in. What do you think of
this? You've known me ten days, and ten days before that I was with
Wilfrid Marston."

[Illustration: "'I want to make you loathe me ... never see me again.'"]

He had taken it in at last. She had made it real to him, clothed it in
flesh and blood.

"If you don't believe me," she said, "ask him. That's what he came to
see me for. He wanted me to go back to him. In fact, I wasn't supposed
to have left him."

He put his hand to his forehead as if he were trying to steady his mind
to face the thing that stunned it.

"And you're telling me all this because----" he said dully.

"Because I want to make you loathe me, so that you can go away and be
glad that you'll never see me again. And if it hurts you too much to
think of me as I am, to think that you cared for me, just say to
yourself that I cared for _you_, and that I couldn't have done it if I'd
been quite bad."

She cried out, "It would have been better for me if I had been. I
shouldn't _feel_ then. It wouldn't hurt me to see little children. I
should have got over that long ago; and I shouldn't have cared for you
or them. I shouldn't have been able to. We get like that. And then--I
needn't have let you care for me. That was the worst thing I ever did.
But I was so happy--so happy."

He could not look at her; he covered his face with his hands, and she
knew that he cared still.

Then she came and knelt down beside him and whispered. He got up and
broke away from her and she followed him.

"You can't marry me _now_," she said.

And he answered, "No."




CHAPTER XIX


He did not leave her. They sat still, separated by the length of the
little room, staring, not at each other, but at some point in the
distance, as if each brain had flung and fixed there the same
unspeakable symbol of its horror.

Her face was sharp with pain, was strangely purified, spiritualised by
the immortal moment that uplifted her. His face, grown old in a moment,
had lost its look of glad and incorruptible innocence.

Not that he was yet in full possession of reality. His mind was sunk in
the stupor that follows after torture. It kept its hold by one sense
only, the vague discerning of profound responsibility, and of something
profounder still, some tie binding him to Kitty, immaterial,
indestructible, born of their communion in pain.

It kept him by its intangible compulsion, sitting there in the same
small room, divided from her, but still there, still wearing that
strange air of participation, of complicity.

And all the time he kept saying to himself, "What next?"

There was a knock at the door.

"It's Jane," he said. "I'll tell her not to come in." His voice sounded
hoarse and unlike his own.

"Oh, mayn't I see her?"

He looked up with his clouded eyes. "Do you want to?"

"Yes."

He considered. He hesitated.

"Do you mind?"

"Mind?" he repeated. As if, after what they had gone through, there
could ever be anything to mind. It seemed to him that things would
always henceforth be insubstantial, and events utterly unimportant. He
tried with an immense effort to grasp this event of Jane's appearance
and of Kitty's attitude to Jane.

"I thought," he said, "perhaps she would bother you."

The knock came again.

"Robert," she said, "I don't want her to know--what I told you."

"Of course not," he said. "Come in."

Jane came in and closed the door behind her. She had a letter folded
tightly in her hand. She stood there a moment, looking from one to the
other. It was Kitty who spoke.

"Come in, Janey," she said. "I want you."

Jane came forward and stood between them. She looked at Robert who
hardened his face, and at Kitty who was trembling.

"Has anything happened?" she said.

And Kitty answered, "No. Nothing will happen now. I've just told him
that it can't."

"You've given him up?"

"Yes. I've--given--him up."

She drew in her breath on the "Yes," so that it sounded like a sob. The
other words came slowly from her, one by one, as if she repeated them by
rote, without knowing what they meant.

Jane turned to her brother. "And you've let her do it?"

He was silent, still saying to himself, "What next?"

"Of course he's let me. He knows it was the only thing I could do."

"Kitty--what made you do it?"

Kitty closed her eyes. Robert saw her and gave a low inarticulate sound
of misery. Jane heard it and understood.

"Kitty," she said, "have you made him believe you don't care for him?"

She sat down on the couch beside her and covered her hands with her own.

"It isn't true, Robert," she said. "She doesn't know what she's doing.
Kitty, tell him it isn't true."

The trembling hands broke loose from her. Kitty sobbed once and was
still. At the sound Robert turned on Jane.

"Leave her alone," he said, "she doesn't want to be bothered about it
now."

Kitty's hand moved back along the couch to Jane. "No," she said, "don't
make her leave me. I'm going away soon."

He started to that answer to his question, "What next?"

"Tell me what made you do it?" said Jane again.

"Whatever it was," he said, "she's doing perfectly right."

"I know what she's doing. And I know why she's doing it. Can't you see
why?"

Robert, who had stood still looking at her helplessly, turned away at
the direct appeal and walked up and down, up and down, the room. He was
still saying to himself, "And if she goes, what next?"

"She doesn't mean it, Robert. It's these wretched people who have driven
her to it with the abominable things they've said and thought. You
_can't_ let her give you up. Don't you see that it'll look as if you
didn't believe in her? And he does believe in you, Kitty dear. He
doesn't care what anybody says."

Kitty spoke. "Leave it alone, Janey. You don't know what you're talking
about. You don't even know what it is they say."

"I do," said Jane. She rose and went to her brother and thrust the
letter she held into his hand. "Look there, that came just now."

He glanced at the letter, lit a match and set fire to it and dropped the
ashes into the grate.

"Look at him, Kitty, look at him," she cried triumphantly.

"What was in that letter?"

"Nothing that matters."

"Who wrote it?"

"Nobody who matters in the very least."

"Was it Mr. Marston? Tell me."

"No."

"He wouldn't," said Kitty thoughtfully. "It's women who write letters.
It must have been Grace Keating. She hates me."

"I know she hates you. Do you see now why Kitty's giving you up?"

"She has told me herself, Janey. She may have more reasons than you
know."

"She has none, none that I don't know. They're all there in that letter
which you've burnt. Can't you see why it was written?"

"Does it matter why?"

"Yes, it does matter. It was written to make you give Kitty up. There's
no reason why I should spare the woman who wrote it. She hates
Kitty--because she wanted you for herself. Kitty knows that she's
slandered her. She did it before she went, to her face, and Kitty
forgave her. And now the poor child thinks that she'll let you go, and
just creep away quietly and hide herself--from _that_. And you'll let
her do it? You believe her when she says she doesn't care for you? If
that isn't caring--Why it's _because_ she cares for you, and cares for
your honour more than she does for her own, poor darling----"

"I know, Janey. And she knows I know."

"Then where's your precious honour if you don't stand up for her? She's
got nobody but you, and if you don't defend her from that sort of
thing----"

She stood before him, flaming, and Kitty rose and put herself between
them.

"He can't defend me, Janey. It's the truth."




CHAPTER XX


She had left them to each other. It was eight o'clock. She had crept
back again to the bed that was her refuge, where she had lain for the
last hour, weeping to exhaustion. She had raised herself at the touch of
a hand on her hot forehead. Jane was standing beside her.

"Kitty," she said, "will you see Robert for a moment? He's waiting for
you downstairs, in your room."

Kitty dropped back again on her pillow with her arm over her face,
warding off Jane's gaze.

"No," she said, "I can't see him. I can't go through that again."

"But, Kitty, there's something he wants to say to you."

"There's nothing he can say. Nothing--nothing. Tell him I'm going away."

"You mustn't go without seeing him."

"I must. It's the only way."

"For you--yes. How about him?"

Kitty sighed. She stirred irresolutely on her pillow.

"No, no," she said. "I've done it once. I can't do it all over again."

"I suppose," said Jane, "it _is_ easier--not to see him."

At that Kitty clenched her hands.

"Easier?" she cried. "I'd give my soul to see him for one minute--one
minute, Janey."

She turned, stifling her sobs on her pillow. They ceased, and the
passion that was in her had its way then. She lay on her face,
convulsed, biting into the pillow; gripping the sheets, tearing at them
and wringing them in her hands. Her whole body writhed, shaken and
tormented.

"Oh, go away!" she cried. "Go away. Don't look at me!"

But Jane did not go. She stood there by the bedside.

She had come to the end of her adventure. It was as if she had been
brought there blindfold, carried past the border into the terrible,
alien, unpenetrated lands. Her genius for exploration had never taken
her within reasonable distance of them. She had turned back when the
frontier was in sight, refusing all knowledge of the things that lay
beyond. And here she was, in the very thick of it, at the heart of the
unexplored, with her poor terrified eyes uncovered, her face held close
to the thing she feared. And yet she had passed through the initiation
without terror; she had held her hand in the strange fire and it had not
hurt her. She felt only a great penetrating, comprehending,
incorruptible pity for her sister who writhed there, consumed and
tortured in the flame.

She knelt by the bedside and stretched out her arm and covered her, and
Kitty lay still.

"You haven't gone?" she said.

"No, Kitty."

Kitty moved; she sat up and put her hands to her loosened hair.

"I'll see him now," she said.

Kitty slid her feet to the floor. She stood up, steadying herself by the
bedside.

Jane looked at her, and her heart was wrung with compassion.

"No," she said, "wait till you're better. I'll tell him."

But Kitty was before her at the door, leaning against it.

"I shall never be better," she said. Her smile was ghastly. She turned
to Jane on the open threshold. "He hasn't got the children with him, has
he? I don't want to see them."

"You won't see them."

"Can't he come to me?"

She peered down the passage and drew back, and Jane knew that she was
afraid of being seen.

"There's nobody about," she said, "they're all in the dining-room."

Still Kitty hesitated.

"Will you come with me?" she said.

Then Jane took her hand and led her to the room where Robert was, and
left her with him.

He stood by the hearth, waiting for her. His head was bowed, but his
eyes, as she entered, lifted and fixed themselves on her. There had gone
from him that air of radiant and unconquerable youth, of innocence,
expectant and alert. Instead of it he too wore the mark of experience,
of initiation that had meant torture.

"I hope," he said, "you are rested."

"Oh yes."

She stood there, weak and drooping, leaning her weight on one slender
hand, spread palm downward on the table.

He drew out a chair for her, and removed his own to the other side of
the table, keeping that barrier between them. In his whole manner there
was a terrible constraint.

"You've eaten nothing," he said.

Neither had he, she gathered, nor Jane. The trouble she had brought on
them was jarring, dislocating, like the shock of bereavement. They had
behaved as if in the presence of the beloved dead.

And yet, though he held himself apart, she knew that he had not sent for
her to cast her off; that he was yet bound to her by the mysterious,
infrangible tie; that he seemed to himself, in some way, her partner and
accomplice.

Their silence was a link that bound them, and she broke it.

"Well," she said, "you have something to say to me?"

"Yes"--his hands, spread out on the table between them, trembled--"I
have, only it seems so little----"

"Does it? Well, of course, there isn't much to be said."

"Not much. There aren't any words. Only, I don't want you to think that
I don't realise what you've done. It was magnificent."

He answered her look of stupefied inquiry.

"Your courage, Kitty, in telling me the truth."

"Oh, _that_. Don't let's talk about it."

"I am not going to talk about it. But I want you to understand that what
you told me has made no difference in my--in my feeling for you."

"It must."

"It hasn't. And it never will. And I want to know what we're going to do
next."

"Next?" she repeated.

"Yes, next. _Now._"

"I'm going away. There's nothing else left for me to do."

"And I, Kitty? Do you think I'm going to let you go, without----"

She stopped him.

"You can't help yourself."

"What? You think I'm brute enough to take everything you've given me,
and to--to let you go like this?"

His hands moved as if they would have taken hers and held them. Then he
drew back.

"There's one thing I can't do for you, Kitty. I can't marry you, because
it wouldn't be fair to my children."

"I know, Robert, I know."

"I know you know. I told you nothing would ever make any difference. If
it weren't for them I'd ask you to marry me to-morrow. I'm only giving
you up as you're giving me up, because of them. But if I can't marry
you, I want you to let me make things a little less hard for you."

"How?"

"Well, for one thing, I don't believe you've anything to live on."

"What makes you think that?"

"Marston told me that if you married you forfeited your income. I
suppose that meant that you had nothing of your own."

"It did."

"You've nothing?"

"My father would give me fifty pounds a year if I kept straight. But he
can't afford it. It means that my little sisters go without dresses."

"And you've no home, Kitty?"

She shook her head.

"They can't have me at home, you see."

He sighed.

"If I looked after you, Kitty, do you think you would keep straight? If
I made a home for you, somewhere, where you won't be too unhappy?"

"You mean you'd take care of me?"

"Yes. As far as I can."

Her face flushed deeply.

"No," she said. "No. I mustn't let you do that."

"Why not? It's nothing, Kitty. It's the least that I can do. And you'd
be very lonely."

"I would. I would be miserable--in between."

"Between?"

"When you weren't there."

"Kitty, dear child, I can't be there."

She shrank back, the flush died out of her face and left it white.

"I see. You didn't mean that I was to live with you?"

"Poor child--no."

"I--I didn't understand."

"No," he said gently, "no."

"You see how hopeless I am?"

"I see what my responsibility would be if I left you to yourself."

"And--_what_ do you want to do?"

"I want to provide for you and your future."

"Dear Robert, you can't possibly provide--for either."

"I can. I've got a little house in the country, if you'll take it, and I
can spare enough out of my income."

She smiled.

"You can't afford it."

"If I could afford to marry, I could afford that."

"I see. It's a beautiful scheme, Robert. And in the little house where
I'm to live, you will come sometimes, and see me?"

"I think it would be better not."

"And what am I to do, if--if things are too hard for me? And if you are
the only one----?"

"_Then_ you're to send for me."

"I see. I've only to send for you and you'll come?"

"Of course I'll come."

"When I can't bear it any longer, am I to send for you?"

"You're to send for me when you're in any trouble, or any difficulty--or
any danger."

"And the way out of the trouble--and the difficulty--and the danger?"

"Between us we shall find the way."

"No, Robert. Between us we shall lose it. And we shall never, never find
it again."

"You can't trust me, Kitty?"

"I can't trust myself. I know how your scheme would work. I let you do
this thing; I go away and live in the dear little house you'll give me;
and I let you keep me there, and give me all my clothes and things. And
you think that's the way to stop me thinking about you and caring for
you? I shall be there, eating my heart out. What else can I do, when
everything I put on or have about me reminds me of you, every minute of
the day? I'm to look to you for everything, but never to see you until I
can bear it no longer. How long do you think I shall bear it? A woman
made like me? You know perfectly well what the trouble and the
difficulty and the danger is. I shall be in it all the time. And some
day I shall send for you and you'll come. Oh yes, you'll come; for
you'll be in it, too. It won't be a bit easier for you than it is for
me."

She paused.

"You'll come. And you know what the end of that will be."

"You think no other end is possible between a man and a woman?"

"If I do, it's men who have made me think it."

"Have _I_, Kitty?"

"No, not you. I don't say your plan wouldn't work with some other woman.
I say it's impossible between you--and me."

"Because you won't believe that I might behave differently from some
other men?"

"You _are_ different. And I mean to keep you so."

She rose.

"There's only one way," she said. "We must never see each other again.
We mustn't even _think_. I shall go away, and you're not to come after
me."

"When?"

"To-morrow. Perhaps to-night."

"And where, Kitty?"

"I don't know."

"You shan't go," he said. "I'll go. You must stay here until we can
think of something."

She closed her eyes and drew a hard sigh, as if exhausted with the
discussion.

"Robert, dear, would you mind not talking any more to me? I'm very
tired."

"If I leave you will you go to bed and rest?"

"I think so. You can say good night."

He rose and came toward her.

"No--don't say it!" she cried. "Don't speak to me!"

She drew back and put her hands behind her as a sign that he was not to
touch her.

He stood for a moment looking at her. And as he looked at her he was
afraid, even as she was. He said to himself that in that moment she was
wise and had done well. For his heart hardly knew its pity from its
passion, and its passion from its fear.

And she, seeing that she stood between him and the door, turned aside
and made his way clear for him.

And so he left her.




CHAPTER XXI


She stared at her own face in the glass without seeing it. Her brain was
filled with the loud, hurried ticking of the clock. It sounded somehow
as if it were out of gear. She felt herself swaying slightly as she
stood.

She was not going to faint bodily. It seemed to her rather that the
immaterial bonds, the unseen, subtle, intimate connections were letting
go their hold. Her soul was the heart of the danger. It was there that
the travelling powers of dissolution, accelerated, multiplying, had
begun their work and would end it. Its moments were not measured by the
ticking of the clock.

She had remained standing as Lucy had left her, with her back to the
door he had gone out by. She was thus unaware that a servant of the
hotel had come in, that he had delivered some message and was waiting
for her answer.

She started as the man spoke to her again. With a great effort her brain
grasped and repeated what he had said.

"Mr. Marston."

No; she was certainly not going to faint. There was no receding of
sensation. It was resurgence and invasion, violence shaking the very
doors of life. She heard the light, tremulous tread of the little pulses
of her body, scattered by the ringing hammer strokes of her heart and
brain. She heard the clock ticking out of gear, like the small,
irritable pulse of time.

She steadied her voice to answer.

"Very well. Show him in."

Marston's face, as he approached her, was harder and stiffer than ever;
his bearing more uncompromisingly upright and correct. He greeted her
with that peculiar deference that he showed to women whose acquaintance
he had yet to make. Decency required that he should start on a fresh
and completely purified footing with the future Mrs. Robert Lucy.

"It's charming of you," he said, "to let me come in."

"I wanted to see you, Wilfrid."

Something in her tone made him glance at her with a look that restored
her, for a moment, to her former place.

"That is still more charming," he replied.

"I've done what you told me. I've given him up."

A heavy flush spread over his face and relaxed the hard tension of the
muscles.

"I thought you'd do it."

"Well, I have done it." She paused.

"That's all I had to say to you."

Her voice struck at him like a blow. But he bore it well, smiling his
hard, reticent smile.

"I knew you'd do it," he repeated; "but I didn't think you'd do it quite
so soon. Why did you?"

"You know why."

"I didn't mean to put pressure on you, Kitty. It was _your_ problem.
Still, I'm glad you've seen it in the right light."

"You think you made me see it?"

"I should hope you'd see it for yourself. It was obvious."

"What was obvious?"

"The unsuitability of the entire arrangement. Was it likely you'd stick
to it when you saw what you were in for?"

"You think I tired of him?"

"I think you saw possibilities of fatigue; and, like a wise child, you
chucked it. It's as well you did it before instead of after. I say, how
did Lucy take it?"

She did not answer. His smile flickered and died under the oppression of
her silence.

"Have you done with him altogether? He didn't suggest--er--any
compromise?"

"He did not."

"He wouldn't. Compromise is foreign to his nature."

He sat leaning forward, contemplating, with apparent satisfaction, his
own strong-grained, immaculate hands. From time to time he tapped the
floor with a nervous movement of his foot.

"Then," he said presently, "if that's so, there's no reason, is there,
why you shouldn't come back to me?"

"I can't come back to you. I told you so yesterday."

"Since yesterday the situation has altered considerably; or rather, it
remains precisely where it was before."

"No, Wilfrid; things can never be as they were before."

"Why not?--if I choose to ignore this episode, this little aberration on
your part. You must be equally anxious to forget it. In which case we
may consider our relations uninterrupted."

"Do you think I gave Robert Lucy up to go back to you?"

"My dear Kitty, if I'm willing to take you back after you gave _me_ up
for him, I think my attitude almost constitutes a claim."

"A claim?"

"Well, let's say it entitles me to a hearing. You don't seem to realise,
in the least, my extreme forbearance. I never reproached you. I never
interfered between you and Lucy. You can't say I didn't play the game."

"I'm not saying it. I know you didn't betray me."

"Betray you? My dear child, I helped you. I never dreamed of standing in
your way as long as there was a chance of your marrying. Now that there
is none----"

"That has nothing to do with it. I told you that I wouldn't go back to
you in any case."

"Come, I don't propose to throw you over for any other woman. Surely it
would be more decent to come back to me than to go off with some other
man, heaven knows whom, which is what you must do--eventually?"

"It's what I won't do. I'm not going back to _that_. Don't you see
that's why I won't go back to you?"

Her apathy had become exhaustion. The flat, powerless voice, dying of
its own utterance, gave him a sense of things past and done with, sunk
into the ultimate oblivion. No voice of her energy and defiance could
have touched him so. Her indifference troubled him like passion; in its
completeness, its finality, it stirred him to decision, to acceptance of
its terms. She was ready to fall from his grasp by her own dead weight.
There was only one way in which he could hold her.

"Kitty," he said, "is that really why you won't come back?"

"Yes; that's why. Anything--anything but that."

"I see. You're tired of it? And you want to give it up? Well, I'm not
sure that I don't want you to."

"Then why," she moaned, "why won't you let me go?"

"Simply because I can't. I've tried it, Kitty. I can't."

He came and sat close to her. He leaned his face to hers and spoke
thickly and low.

"You can't give it up, dear. You're bound to go back."

"No--no--no. Don't talk about it."

"I won't. I won't ask you to go back; but I can't do without you."

"Oh yes, you can. There are other women."

"I loathe them all. I wouldn't do for one of them what I'll do for you."

"What will you do for me?"

"I'll marry you, Kitty."

She laughed in her tired fashion. "You want to make an honest woman of
me, do you?"

"No. I think I'm endeavouring to make myself an honest man. If you give
Lucy up for me I don't want you to lose by the transaction. You were to
have been married; but for me perhaps, you would have been. Very well,
I'll marry you."

"And that," said she, "will make it all right?"

"Well, won't it?"

"No, it won't. How could it?"

"You know how. It will help you to keep straight. That's what you want,
isn't it?"

"Oh yes, that's what I _want_. And you think I'll keep straight by
marrying you?"

"I won't swear to it. But I know it's ten to one that you'll go to the
devil if you don't marry me. And you say you don't want to do that."

"I don't want--to marry you."

He shrugged his shoulders. "Perhaps not; but even marrying me might be
better than the other alternative."

"It wouldn't," she cried. "It would be worse. If I married you I
couldn't get away from you. I couldn't get away from _it_. You'd keep me
in it. It's what you like me for--what you're marrying me for. You
haven't married, all these years, because you can't stand living with a
decent woman. And you think, if I marry you, it will make it all right.
All right!"

She rose and defied him. "Why, I'd rather be your mistress. Then I could
get away from you. I shall get away now."

She turned violently, and he leaped up and caught her in his arms. She
struggled, beating upon his breast, and crying with a sad, inarticulate
cry. She would have sunk to the floor if he had not kept his hold of
her.

He raised her, and she stood still, breathing hard, while he still
grasped her tightly by the wrists.

"Let me go," she said faintly.

"Where are you going to?"

"I don't know."

"You've no money. If you're not going back what are you going to do?"

"I don't know."

Her eyelids dropped, and he saw mendacity in her eyes' furtive fleeing
under cover. He held her tighter. His arm shook her, not brutally, but
with a nervous movement that he was powerless to control.

"You lie," he said. "You've been lying to me all the time. You _are_
going back. You're going to that fellow Lucy."

"No. I'm going--somewhere--where I shan't see him."

"Where?"

"I don't know."

"Abroad?"

"I think so."

"By yourself?"

Her eyelids quivered, and she panted. "Yes."

There was a knock at the door.

"Let me go," she said again.

He let her go.

"You're going to live--by yourself--respectably--abroad?"

She was silent.

"And how long do you think that will last?"

"I don't know."

Jane Lucy's voice called her from the door. He swore under his breath.

"Let her come in. I want her."

He laid his hand upon the door.

"What are you going to do?" he reiterated.

"Oh, let her come to me."

"You haven't answered my question."

"Let me see her first. Leave me alone with her. Janey! Janey!" she
called.

"Very well," he said.

He opened the door and bowed to Jane Lucy as she entered.

"I shall come back," he said, "for my answer."




CHAPTER XXII


"Did Robert send you?" she asked, when she was alone with Jane.

"Yes."

"It's no good. I can't do what he wants."

"What are you going to do, dear?"

"I don't know. I don't care. The terrible thing is that I've had to hurt
him. I must go away somewhere."

"I'll come with you and see you through."

Kitty shook her head.

"Don't think about it now," said Jane.

"No; I can't think. I'm too tired, and my head's hot. But if I go away
you'll understand why I did it?"

"Kitty"--Jane whispered it--"you won't go back?"

"No. I won't go back. You won't have to think that of me."

She had not looked at Jane as they talked. Now she turned to her with
eyes of anguish and appeal.

"Janey--think. I've been wicked for years and years. I've only been good
for one moment. One moment--when I gave Robert up. Do you think it'll
count?"

"I think that, in the sight of God, such moments last forever."

"And that's what you'll think of me by?"

She lifted up her face, haggard and white, flame-spotted where her tears
had scorched it. Jane kissed it.

"Do you mind kissing me?"

"My dear, my dear," said Jane, and she drew her closer.

There was a sound of footsteps in the passage. Kitty drew back and
listened.

"Where's Robert?"

"Upstairs with the children."

"They'll be asleep by this time, won't they?"

"Fast asleep."

The footsteps came again, approaching the door. They paused outside it a
moment and turned back.

"Do you hear that?" said Kitty. "It's Wilfrid Marston walking up and
down. He wants to get hold of me. I think he's mad about me. He asked me
to marry him just now, and I wouldn't. He thinks I didn't mean it, and
he's coming back for his answer. But I'll tell you what I'm going to do.
I shall go out quietly by the window and slip away, and he won't find
me. I want you to be here when he comes, and tell him that he can't see
me. Would you mind doing that?"

"No."

"You'll stay here all the time, and you won't let him go out and look
for me?"

"Yes."

Kitty listened again for the footsteps.

"He's still there," she whispered.

"And you'll go to bed, Kitty?"

"Yes; of course I will."

She went out through the window on to the veranda, and so on into the
garden.

It was cool out there and unutterably peaceful, with a tender, lucid
twilight on the bare grass of the lawn; on the sea beyond it, and on the
white gravel path by the low wall between. She saw it, the world that
had held her and Robert, that, holding them, had taken on the ten days'
splendour of their passion. It stood, divinely still in the perishing
violet light, a world withdrawn and unsubstantial, yet piercingly,
intolerably near.

Indoors Jane waited. It was not yet the half-hour. She waited till the
clock struck and Marston came for his answer.

He looked round the room, and his face, under its deference, betrayed
his sharp annoyance at finding himself alone with Miss Lucy.

"Pardon me," he said, "I thought that Mrs. Tailleur was here."

"Mrs. Tailleur asked me to tell you that she cannot see you. She has
gone to her room."

"To her room?"

He stared at her, and his face loosened in a sudden incredulity and
dismay.

"Did she tell you she was going there?"

"Yes. She was very tired."

"But--she was here not half an hour ago. She couldn't have gone without
my seeing her."

"She went out," said Jane faintly, "by the window."

"She couldn't get to her room without going through the hall. I've been
there all the time on the seat by the stairs."

They looked at each other. The seat by the stairs commanded all ways in
and out, the entrance of the passage, and the door of the sitting-room,
and the portière of the lounge.

"What do you think?" he said.

"I think that she has not gone far. But if she goes, it is you who will
have driven her away."

"Forgive me if I remind you that it is not I who have given her up."

"It was you," said Jane quietly, "who helped to ruin her."

His raised eyebrows expressed an urbane surprise at the curious
frankness of her charge. And with a delicate gesture of his hand he
repudiated it and waved it away.

"My dear lady, you are alarmed and you are angry, consequently you are
unjust. Whatever poor Kitty may have done I am not responsible."

"You are responsible. It's you, and men like you, who have dragged her
down. You took advantage of her weakness, of her very helplessness.
You've made her so that she can't believe in a man's goodness and trust
herself to it."

He smiled, still with that untroubled urbanity, on the small flaming
thing as she arraigned him.

"And you consider me responsible for that?" he said.

Their eyes met. "My brother is here," said she. "Would you like to see
him?"

"It might be as well, perhaps. If you can find him."

She left him, and he waited five minutes, ten minutes, twenty.

She returned alone. All her defiance had gone from her, and the face
that she turned to him was white with fear.

"She is not here," she said. "She went out--by that window--and she has
not come in. We've searched the hotel, and we can't find her."

"And you have _not_ found your brother?"

"He has gone out to look for her."

She sat down by the table, turning her face away and screening it from
him with her hand.

Marston gave one look at her. He stepped out, and crossed the lawn to
the bottom of the garden. The gate at the end of the path there swung
open violently, and he found himself face to face with Robert Lucy.
"What have you done with Mrs. Tailleur?" he said.

Lucy's head was sunk upon his breast. He did not look at him nor answer.
The two men walked back in silence up the lawn.

"You don't know where she is?" said Marston presently.

"No. I thought I did. But--she is not there."

He paused, steadying his voice to speak again.

"If I don't find her, I shall go up to town by the midnight train. Can
you give me her address there?"

"You think she has gone up to town?" Marston spoke calmly. He was
appeased by Lucy's agitation and his manifest ignorance as to Kitty's
movements.

"There's nothing else she could do. I've got to find her. Will you be
good enough to give me her address?"

"My dear Mr. Lucy, there's really no reason why I should. If Mrs.
Tailleur has not gone up to town, her address won't help you. If she
has gone, your discreetest course by far, if I may say so----"

"Is what?" said Lucy sternly.

"Why, my dear fellow, of course--to let her go."

Lucy raised his head. "I do not intend," he said, "to let her go."

"Nor I," said Marston.

"Then we've neither of us any time to lose. I won't answer for what she
may do, in the state she's in."

Marston swung slightly round, so that he faced Lucy with his
imperturbable stare.

"If you'd known Mrs. Tailleur as long as I have you'd have no sort of
doubt as to what she'll do."

Lucy did not appear to have heard him, so sunk was he in his own
thoughts.

"What was that?" said Marston suddenly.

They listened. The gate of the Cliff path creaked on its hinges and fell
back with a sharp click of the latch. Lucy turned and saw a small
woman's figure entering the garden from the Cliff. He strode on toward
the house, unwilling to be observed and overtaken by any guests of the
hotel.

Marston followed him slowly, pondering at each step of the way.

He heard footsteps, quick stumbling footsteps, and a sound like a
hoarse, half-suffocating breath behind him. Then a woman's voice, that
sank, stumbling, like the footsteps, as it spoke.

"Mr. Lucy," it said, "is it you?"

Marston went on.

Lucy was in the room with his sister. He was sitting with his back to
the open window as Marston came in by it.

The voice outside was nearer; it whispered, "Where is Mr. Lucy?"

"Somebody's looking for you, Lucy," said Marston.

And the three turned round.

Mrs. Hankin stood in the window, holding on to the frame of it and
trembling. Her face, her perfect face, was gray, like the face of an
old woman. It was drawn and disfigured with some terrible emotion.

Lucy went to her. She clung to his arm, and held him on the threshold.

"Mrs. Tailleur," she said, "Mrs. Tailleur. We found her--down there.
She's killed. She--she fell from the Cliff."

The three stood still as she spoke to them.

Then Jane rushed forward to her brother with a cry, and Mrs. Hankin
stretched out her arms and barred the way.

There were small spots of blood on her hands and on her dress where she
had knelt.

"Go back, child," she said. "They're carrying her in."

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