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Title: Death, the Knight, and the Lady: A Ghost Story

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DEATH THE KNIGHT AND THE LADY




_BY THE SAME AUTHOR_

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  DEATH THE KNIGHT
  AND THE LADY

  A GHOST STORY

  BY

  H. DE VERE STACPOOLE

  [Illustration]

  JOHN LANE
  THE BODLEY HEAD
  LONDON & NEW YORK

  MDCCCXCVII




CONTENTS


                                               PAGE

        BALLAD OF THE ARRAS                     vii

        PROLOGUE                                  1

  CHAP.

      I. I DESCRIBE MYSELF                       11

     II. JAMES WILDER                            16

    III. A SOUND WHICH REMINDS ME OF MY PAST     27

     IV. INSTRUCTIONS PERFORMED                  35

      V. WE SAY GOOD-BYE                         38

     VI. --AND I START                           42

    VII. NORTH                                   44

   VIII. THE DIMLY-PAINTED FACE                  50

     IX. GERALDINE                               57

      X. WE MEET                                 72

     XI. THE LITTLE BLACK BOOK                   78

    XII. THE MORNING                             89

   XIII. "YOU WERE NOT DRESSED LIKE THIS"       102

    XIV. THE BALLADE OF THE FALCON              109

     XV. MY LETTER                              112

    XVI. THE BLACK HORSE AND THE WHITE          121

   XVII. THE OLD OAK CHEST                      126

  XVIII. THE TRUMPETER                          144

    XIX. THE TRUMPETER                          147

     XX. THE RUBY WINE                          151

    XXI. "AND THEY LAID HIM TO HIS REST"        160

   XXII. THE END                                162




BALLAD OF THE ARRAS


  Lo! where are now these armoured hosts
  Mailed for the tourney _câp-a-pie_,
  These dames and damozelles whose ghosts
  Make of the past this pagentry?

  O sanguine book of History!
  Romance with perfume cloaks thy must,
  But he who shakes the page may see
  --Dust.

  Stiff hangs the arras in the gloom;
  I turn my head awhile to gaze:
  Here lordly stallions fret and fume,
  Here streams o'er briar and brake the chase.

  Here sounds a horn, here turns a face,
  How filled with fires of life and lust!
  Wind shakes the arras and betrays
  --Dust.

  Ephemeral hand inditing this
  Great hound that lolls against my knee,
  Lips pursed in thought as if to kiss
  Regret--full soon the time must be.

  When one shall search, but find not ye,
  For that dim moth whose labours rust
  All forms in time or tapestry
  --Dust.

  Forth offspring to the perch and then
  Clap wings--or fall, if find you must
  This saddest fate of books or men
  --Dust.




DEATH THE KNIGHT AND THE LADY




PROLOGUE


I had almost forgotten James Wilder's existence, when, one night in
June, I received an urgent message asking me to call upon him without
delay.

An hour later I was sitting in his library, and in the arm-chair
opposite mine was sunk what seemed the spectre of my friend. During the
ten months that had elapsed since our last meeting he had passed from
middle life to premature old age.

"I am glad you have come," he said, "I am in need of a friend, but do
not speak to me yet, that is, for a moment, I wish to think."

His eyes fell from me to the carpet, he seemed watching something, and
his thin lips were curled in a ghostly smile.

The room was hot and oppressive, flowers were heaped everywhere in
profusion, and the large wood fire burning in the grate mixed its faint
aromatic smell with the perfume of the roses and tube-roses lolling in
their porcelain bowls.

I sat watching the burning logs and thinking. I had known Wilder for
some years, I had been his intimate friend, but how much did I know
really about him? Not much. I had dined with him, talked with him,
exchanged opinions; I knew that he was wealthy, that he owned a house
somewhere in the country, to which he never invited friends, and of
which I had heard rumours needless to set down here. That he was an
opium eater I knew, and that was the extent of my knowledge of the man.

Of the being who existed behind that careworn, weary face, I knew
absolutely nothing, but I had always guessed it to be occupied with
some secret trouble, pressed upon by some sin or sorrow of which it
dared not speak; also, by some freak of imagination, I had always
coupled this imaginary sorrow of Wilder's with that house in the
country of which I had received so many mysterious hints.

Suddenly I started from my reverie. Wilder was speaking.

"Ah, my dear ----, I have been trying to brace myself for the effort,
but I cannot, I cannot; what I have to ask of you, you will do without
question if you are my friend, but to speak of it all, to go over that
terrible ground, oh! impossible, impossible, impossible."

His voice died away into a whisper, and he struck with his thin hand on
the arm of his chair, as if beating time to some dreary tune heard by
him alone.

"What I ask of you is this, to start as soon as possible for my place
in Yorkshire, and to see carried out after the fashion I desire, the
obsequies of a man--I mean, a woman--who is lying there dead."

Again his voice sank to a whisper, his eyes turned from mine evasively,
and he covered them with one of his thin white hands.

A man--I mean a woman--what _did_ he mean?

"Will you do this?"

"Yes, I will do as you ask; it seems strange, no matter, I will do it."

"You take a load from me. Ah, my dear ----, if you could only guess
what I have suffered, the terrors, the tortures, the _nameless_ misery.
I ought to be at the grave side when this terrible burial--Oh, how my
head wanders, I have scarcely the power of thought, but say it once
again, you will do what I ask, promise me that again."

"Yes, yes, I promise, set your mind at rest--I will do what you
require."

"You will start, then, at once?"

"To-morrow."

"Yes, to-morrow early, to-morrow early; and now as to what you are to
do. Listen, at Ashworth, near my place, there lives a man who works in
granite, you will get him to cut a memorial tablet. These words are
to be upon it, they are written on this piece of paper, take it; the
body is to be buried in the vault of the little church in the park;
remember it is to be interred dressed exactly as I have ordered it to
be dressed, this is my chief reason for asking you to attend the last
ceremonies. I dare not leave this matter to the hands of servants, and
I--may not go myself, I am broken down with ill-health and sorrow, and
the journey would kill me, though, indeed, I am dying fast enough."

His eyes were wandering again, as if following some imaginary spectre
about the room. I looked at the piece of paper, on it was written--

  "SIR GERALD WILDER, Knt.
  _Rest in Peace_."

Sir Gerald Wilder! why, a moment ago he said "a woman." What mystery
was in this? And then, "Rest in Peace," it sounded like a command.

"The coffin is ordered," broke out Wilder, suddenly seeming to return
to this world from the world of his imagination. "The coffin is made,
promise me again, you will go."

"I will go."

The next morning I started for Ashworth, in Yorkshire, to fulfil my
strange mission. I had asked no more of Wilder, content to act without
question, which is the first office of friendship. I started early, and
arrived at Ashworth shortly after three o'clock. A carriage was waiting
to take me to the Gables. The weather was exquisite, and the moors
over which the white road led us stretched on either side, far as the
eye could reach, like a rolling sea under the blue summer sky and hot
June sun. The rocking motion sent me to sleep. When I woke the wheels
were crashing on gravel, and the carriage was passing swiftly through a
long, dark avenue.

This was, then, the Gables, this great old-fashioned gloomy house, with
a broad portico supported on fluted granite pillars, facing the broad
park dotted with clumps of trees, so broad and so far-reaching that the
deer in the furthermost parts were reduced to moving specks.

The door was opened by an ill-looking servant-maid, whose sour and
crabbed face struck an unpleasant note against the old-fashioned and
romantic surroundings.

The great hall, oak-panelled, and lit by stained glass windows, hid
amongst its other treasures an echo, whose dreamy voice repeated my
footsteps with a sound like the pattering of a ghost. I stood for a
moment, my heart absorbing the silence of this place, so far removed
from the spirit of to-day. The air held something, I know not what, it
seemed like an odour left from the perfumed robes of Romance.

I heard a sound behind me, and turning, I saw an old servant man with
silvery white hair. He showed me to my room, and I kept him whilst I
explained fully my business.

He listened respectfully, but like a person who had ceased to take any
interest in life. When I had finished, I asked him to take me to the
room where the dead person lay.

He led the way down a corridor, opened a door, and stood aside whilst
I entered. I found myself in a bedroom hung with rose-coloured silk;
the window was open, and through it came the warm evening breeze and
the far-off cawing of rooks.

On the bed I saw a form, but I could scarcely believe that what I saw
was real. Stretched upon the snow-white coverlet lay the body of a
cavalier, full-dressed in amber satin doublet and long buff-coloured
riding-boots, his hair long, curling, and black as night, surrounded a
face pale as marble and beautiful as a woman's. His white right hand,
peeping from its lace ruffle, grasped the hilt of a sword, his left
hand grasped a silver trumpet. Attached to the trumpet a crimson silk
cord streaked the coverlet like a thin and tortuous stream of blood.
He seemed to have stepped from the pages of romance, and to have laid
himself down here to rest. I trembled as I looked, feared to stir lest
he should wake, yet I well knew him to be dead. I might have fancied
myself in a dream but for the far-off clamour of the rooks coming
through the evening sky outside and the sound of my own heart beating.

Was it a man? was it a woman? the face might have done for either, yet
it was the most beautiful face I had ever beheld, the most romantic,
the most pathetic. Then recollection woke up, and I shuddered. This,
then, was Sir Gerald Wilder. This form, more beautiful than a picture,
was the sorrow of James Wilder, the thing that had driven him to opium,
the thing that had broken his heart and crowned him with premature old
age. How? Why? I dared scarcely think.

I stole from the room. In the passage I found the old man-servant
waiting for me; he shut the door softly, and I followed him back to my
own room. There I took his arm and looked in his face.

"What is the meaning of this?"

"I dursn't tell you, sir; oh, sir, my heart be gone with the sorrow
of it all, but if you wish, I will bring the book that he was always
a-writing in for these months past."

"Yes, get the book, please, at once: no thank you, nothing to eat yet,
I wish to see the book first."

He went, and returned with a large, old-fashioned common-place book,
the leaves of which were covered with writing. It was a woman's hand.

I took it down stairs, and went with it into the garden.

There, on a seat in the middle of an old Dutch garden, very prim, very
silent, where the sunlight fell upon the faces of the amber and purple
pansies, and the great white carnations shook their ruffles to the wind
with a dreamy and seventeenth century air, I sat and read this story,
written by the hand of a dead cavalier who craves, through me, your
sympathy for his deathless sorrow.




THE BOOK




CHAPTER I

I DESCRIBE MYSELF


I cannot tell you my story unless I tell you who I am and what I am.
Oh, it is not for pleasure that I am writing all this down, but just
because I--must.

My name is Beatrice Sinclair, and I am the last representative of an
old and ruined family. There were Sinclairs in the time of King Charles
who were great people at Court--you must accept the statement, for I
cannot write much about this family of mine, the very thought of it
fills me with a kind of horror. What would all those men with long
flowing hair, those women with patches on their faces,--what would they
say if they could see me, the last of their race, and could know what
I have been?

Perhaps you guess what I mean, perhaps you are sneering at me; you can
do so if you please, for I am so very ill that I care for nothing now,
and they say I am dying. I know now, oh, I know well why an animal
crawls away and hides itself to die: though I am only twenty-three I
know more about death than those Egyptians who have been shut up in
pyramids alone with him for a thousand years.

From the window where I am sitting now, wrapped up in shawls, I can see
the garden; the frost has gone, and I can see a yellow crocus that has
pushed its head up through the dark, stiff mould. If it knew what I
know of life, it would draw that head back.

You must think me a very gloomy person, and indeed just now I am, for
I am thinking of a part of my history of which I shall not speak, but
only hint.

Some time, no matter how long ago, I was living at the Bath Hotel. I
had plenty of clothes and money, and I thought I was in love. Well,
one day I found myself deserted, I found a letter on the breakfast
table enclosing a blue strip of paper--a cheque for two hundred pounds.
I did not scream and tear my hair as a girl I know said she did when
she was deserted, I believe I laughed.

I went to the theatre that night alone, and everybody stared at me. I
was beautiful then, I am nearly as beautiful now, but it was only on
that night that I first fully recognised how beautiful I was, I could
see it in the faces of the men who looked at me, and in the manner of
the women,--how women hate one another! and yet some women have been
very good to me.

Well, when I got home I found supper waiting for me, and after supper I
looked at myself again in the long pier glass opposite the fireplace;
then a strange feeling came over me that I had never felt before, I
felt a thirst to be admired, I say thirst, for it was so, it was really
in the back of my throat that this feeling came, but it was in my head
as well; it was not the admiration of ordinary people that I wanted; I
craved to see some being as lovely as myself turn its head to gaze at
me.

Oh! my beautiful face, how I loved you, oh! the nights I have woken up
shivering to think of the dissecting rooms where they take the bodies
of the people who have no friends.

At the end of six months my two hundred pounds were nearly gone. I
lived innocently, I lived in a kind of dream. Men filled me with a kind
of horror, when they looked at me in the streets I shuddered; I shudder
still, and I wonder why God ever made such a blind and cruel thing as
man.

I moved into furnished rooms: all this is misty now in my mind. If I
had died then I might never have gone to heaven, but I would never have
seen hell. I got typhoid fever; my rings lay on the dressing table,
hoops of sapphires and emeralds; each fortnight a ring went to pay for
my rooms and the doctor, who seemed never able to cure me.

I cannot tell you much after this, I can only say that I struggled, mad
with pride and mad with hatred. I starved, but why should I pain you,
and make more sad a story that is already sad enough?




CHAPTER II

JAMES WILDER


It is about six months ago. I was in a very bad way. I was walking
along the south side of Russell Square one day--the 17th of September I
remember now--and thinking to myself how I should pay my landlady the
three weeks' rent owing to her.

Deeply as I was trying to think I could not help noticing a man coming
towards me, striding along with his hat tilted back from his forehead,
his head in the air, and looking just like a person walking in his
sleep. I made way to let him pass, then suddenly I felt him grasp me by
the arm and I heard him say "Ah!"

I knew at once--how shall I put it--that he only wanted to speak to me,
that he had mistaken me for someone he knew, and as I looked in his
face I did not feel a bit afraid, although his face was strange enough,
goodness knows.

"What is your name?" he asked.

"Jane Seymour," I replied, for it was my name, at least the name I went
under.

"Ah!" he said, and his hand fell from my arm. I never saw a person look
so disappointed as he looked just then; I heard him muttering something
like "always the same, disappointment, death," then he turned to go,
and I broke into tears.

I was hungry and I had no money; he had seemed almost friendly, and now
he was going--I could scarcely speak, I leaned up against the railings,
I remember trying to hide a hole in my glove, for I had determined on
telling him my real name.

"Well?" he said, "Well?"

"My name is Beatrice Sinclair," I answered; "that is my real name."

Then I stopped crying, for I was absolutely frightened, _such_ a
change came over this strange man; two large tears ran down his face,
he clasped his hands together with the fingers across the backs of each
hand, and I thought for one moment that he was a lunatic, then somehow
I _knew_ that he was not.

"Beatrice Sinclair," he muttered to me in a low voice, as if afraid of
someone else hearing him, "Beatrice Sinclair, oh, Beatrice! the time
I have been searching for you, the three weary years, the nights of
terror; but it is over now, thank God! thank God."

I felt very strange as he said all this. I knew well that this man was
not in love with me; I had no relations, so he could not be a relation,
and yet I knew in a horribly certain kind of manner that he knew me,
that he had been searching for me, and--had found me.

A hansom cab was passing, he hailed it and we both got in, then I heard
him giving directions to the driver, "No.--Berkeley Square," he said,
"and drive quick."

"You look pale and sick," that was the only thing he said during our
drive. But the way in which he said it was very queer. He did not seem
in the least to care whether I was pale or sick, and yet he had seemed
so glad to find me, "Can he be mad after all?" thought I.

The cab stopped at a large house in Berkeley Square, and we got out; he
gave the driver half-a-sovereign, and without waiting for the change
went up the steps, and opened the door with a latch-key; "Come on," he
said, beckoning to me, and I followed.

We entered a great hall with a floor of polished oak; I saw jars of
flowers standing here and there, and idols half hidden by palms and
long feathery grasses.

He opened a door and motioned me to enter a room, and I went in,
feeling horrible in my shabby clothes amongst all this splendour.

It was a library. He told me to sit down, and I sat in a great
easy-chair, looking about me whilst he went to a window, and stood for
nearly a minute looking out, jingling money in his pocket, but not
speaking a word.

--Oh, this writing makes my head ache so, and this cough, cough, cough,
that tears me from morning till night!--

Well, he stood at the window without speaking, and I kept trying to
hide my boots under my skirt; but I looked about me, and noticed
everything in the room at the same time.

The books were all set in narrow bookcases, and between the bookcases
there were spaces occupied by pictures, and I never had seen such
strange pictures before. They were just like pictures of ghosts,
beautiful faces nearly all of them, but they seemed like faces made out
of mist, if you understand me. Over the mantelpiece stood a portrait of
an old man with grey hair, and on the gold frame of this picture was
written in black letters the name, "Swedenborg."

At last my companion turned from the window, wheeled a chair close to
me, and sat down.

"Now," he said, "I want you to tell me all you know about your family.
I want to make perfectly sure that you _are_ the person for whom I have
been seeking. Tell me unreservedly, it will be to your advantage."

He had taken his gloves off now, and I saw that his hands, very white
and delicate-looking, were absolutely covered with the most exquisite
rings.

"Mine is a very old family," I said. "We lived once in a castle in the
North of England, Castle Sinclair."

"Yes, yes."

"My father was an officer. He was very extravagant. He died in India. I
was sent to school in England, then I became a governess--then--then--"

"You need not tell me the rest," he said, "I know it. Yes, you are
indeed Beatrice Sinclair." He looked at me in a gloomy manner. Then
"You have spoken frankly," he said, "and I shall do the same. My name
is James Wilder."

He paused, and looked at me hard, but I said nothing.

"Ah!" he continued, "you know nothing of the past, then? Perhaps it
is better so, but I must tell you some of it, so that you may do what
I require you to do. Listen. In the reign of King Charles the First a
terrible tragedy happened. A member of the Wilder family did a fearful
wrong upon a member of the Sinclair family. No family feud took place,
because Gerald Wilder, who had committed this wrong, expiated it by
suicide, but a blind, reasonless, unintentional feud has been going on
between the two houses ever since. The house of Sinclair has warred
with our family in a strange and fearful manner. All the eldest sons of
our house have been slain before the age of twenty by--a Sinclair. My
eldest brother was slain by your father's brother."

"My father's brother?"

"Yes, they were out shooting together. My brother was shot dead by
your uncle. It was an accident; no one was to blame, but fate. Now the
fortunes of the two families have been altering during all these years.
The house of Wilder is at its zenith. Speaking in a worldly sense, I
am worth at least fifty thousand a year, at _least_, and the house of
Sinclair?--you are its last representative, how much are you worth?"

"Less than nothing."

"Let us be friends then, let us be friends," said Wilder, in a voice
full of supplication. How strange it sounded to hear a man like this,
wealthy and great, asking for _my_ friendship. "Let us be friends,--the
two last representatives of these great houses must forgive each other.
Love can heal this awful wound, and the house of Wilder shall not be
extinct. Oh, God is great and good, he will sanction this love even
though you are what you are."

He was walking up and down the room as he spoke. "Does he want me to
love _him_?" I thought.

Then he stopped.

"You have no money?"

"None."

He went to a desk and drew out a cheque-book, scribbled for a moment,
tore off a cheque, and brought it to me.

I looked at it: it was a cheque on the British Linen Company's Bank for
five hundred pounds. I felt just as if I were drunk, the books in the
cases seemed to dance.

"This can't be for me," I remember saying; "or do you want me to do
some dreadful thing, that you offer me all this money----"

I stopped, for he was smiling at me such a melancholy, kind smile,
it told me at once that I had nothing to fear from him. He called me
"child," and took my hand and kissed it--I felt so ashamed of my glove,
but he did not seem to notice the holes in it, nor how old it was.

"Yes," he said, "the money is for you; you must buy yourself beautiful
clothes and some jewellery. I am going to send you to the north of
England, to do what has to be done. You must start on the day after
to-morrow; have no fear, I wish you to do nothing sinful or wrong, but
rather the best work mortal ever did; you shall be provided for. I
will set aside a fund for you under trustees; it is an act of piety,
not charity, for in saving the last of the Sinclairs from want I am
doing an act which may expiate the sin our house committed. Beatrice
Sinclair, you shall never want again, never be cold or hungry."

I was crying like a child. When I could cry no more he began speaking
again.

"You must stay in this house until you start, that is, if you please.
My carriage shall take you to all the shops you require to visit; by
the way, spend _all_ that money on clothes. I will give you a note
to the jewellers with whom I deal in Bond Street, and you can supply
yourself with all the jewellery you require; don't think about the
expense. You are beautiful by nature, but I wish you to be as beautiful
as art can make you. Then, again, you will require dressing-bags and
portmanteaux, and such things. I will give you a note to the best firm
in London. I need not speak to you on matters of taste; you are a
lady--I only say this, spare no expense. Is that cheque sufficient?"

"More than sufficient." I felt dazed and strange. Did he intend to
marry me? Why was he sending me to the north of England? But it was
delightful, I could not describe my feelings.

"Now you must have some food," he said, getting up and moving to the
door as he spoke. "Come with me to the dining-room."




CHAPTER III

A SOUND WHICH REMINDS ME OF MY PAST


The table was laid for luncheon in the dining-room, and as I took my
seat at a place he pointed out, he went to a speaking tube and whistled
down it. Then I heard him ordering the carriage to be ready in an hour.
"Will that suit you?" he asked, looking at me.

"Yes," I replied. I was laughing now. Oh, life had turned so in a
moment from awfulness to loveliness. I never pinched myself to feel
if I were in a dream or not. I have read about that in stories, and
I think it's stupid, besides, I did not want to wake up if it was a
dream. I did not want to talk either, I was too happy.

I thought of the dinner I had yesterday. I could not remember what it
was, then I remembered I had not dined yesterday at all; I had lent
my last shilling to Jessie, who lives in the room below mine; she had
sworn to pay me back in the evening if she was lucky, and then she came
back drunk at twelve o'clock, swearing like a soldier, poor Jessie----

Wilder ate very little and spoke scarcely at all, I think the
only thing he said in the way of conversation was "I never have
servants in the room when I am eating;" and I said to myself, "Thank
goodness." Just imagine how I would have felt if one of those dreadful
men-servants had been gliding about the room,--my wristbands all
frayed, my hands not very clean, for those cheap gloves dye one's
hands, and my collar crumpled.

Wilder wanted to open me some champagne, but I said no. I thought he
looked pleased. He had a decanter before him, and he poured himself out
a glass from it.

"I don't ask you to take this," he said in an apologetic sort of
manner; "because it would--well a glass of it would kill you, it's
opium, I am used to it--all the worry I have had----" His head sunk on
his breast, and I felt sorry for him, though he was so rich and lived
in such a beautiful house. After a moment he looked up--we had finished
eating.

"Gerald," he said, "I want you to be happy; poor soul, you have
suffered too, but perhaps it is for the best."

"Why do you call me Gerald?" I asked, staring at him. A dreamy look had
come over his strange face, perhaps it was the opium.

"Did I call you Gerald?" he said, "well, you will know why soon, I want
you to be happy."

He rose from the table. "Come," he said, "I will show you to your room."

I followed him into the hall, then up a great broad staircase carpeted
with soft fleecy carpet; on the first landing he opened a door.

"This is your room," he said, "you will find everything you require;
when you are ready come downstairs and you will find the carriage
waiting."

He shut the door on me, and I found myself alone.

It was a small, but beautifully furnished bedroom. A fire was burning
in the grate; on the bed lay a great sealskin cloak, perfectly new.
It was evidently intended for me, I tried it on before the glass,
it reached to my feet, hiding all my shabby clothes. Then I took it
off and laid it on the bed again. I looked at the floor beside the
fireplace. There, in a row, stood a number of ladies' boots and shoes,
different sizes; a wardrobe stood open, I looked in, dresses of dark
silk and satin, bonnets, hats; on the dressing-table great ivory hair
brushes, gloves, handkerchiefs, scent bottles of cut glass, a curling
tongs and spirit lamp which was lit, a little strip of paper on which
was written, "Help yourself to whatever you require."

I could have cried again, but somehow I didn't. I looked all round, and
then I remember lifting up my arms to stretch myself, why I did so I
don't know.

Then, as I began undressing, I laughed, I spoke to the things in the
room just like a child, I asked questions of the little silver clock on
the mantelpiece--oh, those hideous old boots I had worn so long, they
seemed to make faces at me as I took them off. I flung them in a corner.

In an alcove stood a great bath; I turned the tap, shaped like a
dragon's head, and the water roared and foamed into the bath through
the dragon's mouth; I smelt the water, I tasted it, it was sea water;
in a minute the bath was full.

The luxury of it! the warm briny water that let one's limbs float loose
like seaweed. I pretended to drown myself for fun, then I turned over
on my face, floating, and seized the dragon's head in both hands.

Then, as I lay floating, I listened to the far away sound I knew so
well--the distant roar of carts and cabs in the streets.

I sprang out of the bath in a fury. I had never thought of it before
like this, now I saw all the wretchedness that I had gone through, saw
it all a million times more clearly than I had ever done when I was in
it. Oh, the vile world, I could have eaten it, eaten it.

Then I caught a glimpse of my naked figure in the long glass. I was
beautiful as ever, my limbs were white as snow. I whirled round, and
my long black hair flew out in a mist, scattering drops of water
everywhere.

Yes, I was even more beautiful than before, my troubles had given
my face more expression; my teeth were perfect--Jessie's teeth were
broken--_Jessie_. I would be revenged yet. I leaned on my side before
the great glass, gazing at myself as gloomily as a thunder-cloud. I
would be revenged on this world. Why had God created such a place, and
the clergymen whining about heaven, and the doctors who took a poor
girl's rings, and--I smelt a subtle perfume, and turning, I saw a great
bunch of violets standing in a little bowl in the corner.

I don't know why, but they made me feel choky, and I remember taking
them to me and kissing them, and putting them back.

Then I dried myself in a huge towel, and dressed. I laughed at the
curling tongs, and blew the little lamp out--my hair did not want
curling tongs. I laughed to think of the frights of women going about
with their noses in the air, who had to curl their heads.

One of the bonnets in the wardrobe fitted me perfectly. I could have
chosen a hat, but I preferred this bonnet. I put on the sealskin cloak.
Then, taking the bunch of violets with the stalks all dripping, I put
it in my breast.

Wilder was standing in the hall as I came down the great staircase. He
smiled at the violets as if he were pleased. "You look very well," he
said, passing, as he spoke, into the library, where I followed him.
"Now, here are three letters I have written--one to the jewellers, this
one to the portmanteau people, and this to Coutts' bank. Drive first
to Coutts', give them this letter and my cheque on the British Linen
Company. They will open an account with you, small as the sum is,
because they know me very well; they will give you a cheque book, and
you can give cheques to your milliners and people--poor Beatrice, I
want you to be happy." I felt horrible for a moment as he said this. It
was said in such a supplicatory tone, as if he wanted to propitiate me,
as if I were some evil thing he feared, and he had said it before just
in the same voice, "Poor Beatrice, I want you to be happy."

How this story is lengthening out. I thought I could have told it all
in three or four pages, and now look, thirty pages--and yet I want
to make it as long as possible. Can you guess what I say to the old
doctor who comes to see me every day? I ask him, does he know how long
I will live? and he shakes his head and says something about "the hands
of Providence." No, I answer, not the hands of Providence, but these
hands--when they have finished writing what they have to write I shall
die. I know it.




CHAPTER IV

INSTRUCTIONS PERFORMED


Then Wilder opened the hall door and I saw a splendid carriage and pair
drawn up, the horses champing and flinging white foam about from their
mouths. Wilder came down the steps and helped me in, the tall footman
shut the door, and I heard Wilder's voice saying to the coachman,
"Coutts'."

Gracious! all the things I thought of as the carriage drove into Oxford
Street. It was an open landau, and I wondered that everyone did not
stop to stare at me. How strange all the people that were walking
seemed, just like mean things that had no business with life; how sweet
the violets smelt in my bosom.

How nice Wilder was, not a bit good looking, but so different from the
men I had mostly known. He was a gentleman, one could tell that just
by his easy and languid voice; and what a hold I had upon him. And this
journey to the north, I had a presentiment that it was to be strange,
but how could I have told how strange, how beautiful it was to be?

Then the carriage stopped at Coutts', and the tall footman opened the
door and touched his hat as I got out. I gave them Wilder's letter and
my cheque, and they gave me in return a cheque book.

The next place we stopped at was the Bond Street jewellers. These are
the rings I bought, see, they are on my fingers now. I never cared for
diamonds. I love colour. My rings are mostly half hoops of sapphires,
emeralds, and rubies; they would be vulgar only they are so glorious,
and then my hands are so beautiful that you scarcely notice the rings:
that was what Geraldine said. Good God! these tears will choke me: if
I could only cry, but I can't, it all comes at the back of my throat,
like a dull, heavy pain.

Then we drove to the other shop in Bond Street, where they sell
travelling bags. I chose the most expensive I could find, a hundred
and ten pounds I think it was. All the bottles had heavy gold tops,
and I ordered my initials to be put on them. I ordered portmanteaux as
well, and the man said everything would be ready next day by six in the
evening, initials and all.

It was dark when we got to Redfern's, but that did not matter, for I
had no colours to choose; funny, wasn't it, everything I got was either
white or black or grey--mourning or half-mourning. I don't know that it
was so funny after all, for this kind of dress suits me. I only spent
two hundred pounds on dresses; some were to be made and sent after me
when I knew the address I was going to, the others were to be sent next
morning to Berkeley Square. I could have died laughing at the civility
of these people at Redfern's, they thought I was some great lady--and
so I was.

It was eight o'clock before I got back to Berkeley Square that evening.




CHAPTER V

WE SAY GOOD-BYE


All the next day I spent in the house, most of the time in the room
with Wilder. How that man depressed me. A great fire was lit in the
library, and he sat over it with his hands on his knees and his eyes
fixed on the burning coals; the decanter of opium was standing on the
mantelpiece, a wine glass beside it, and every now and then he would
pour himself out a thimbleful and sip it.

That was a pleasant sight to have to sit and watch, but I didn't much
care. I sat in an armchair looking at my rings and the tips of my
beautiful new shoes; it was so delightful to have all these things
again; and sometimes I would look at Wilder's rounded back and his
shiny old coat, thinking how funny it was that he had given me all
these things.

Sometimes I spoke to him and he always answered, speaking in a dreamy
sort of voice. I found out that he was a spiritualist, and all the
pictures about the room were "spirit faces,"--that is what he called
them, all except the picture with "Swedenborg" written on it.

Then, after dinner, at about nine o'clock, he said that he must take
leave of me. He took me by the hand, and the whole time he was speaking
he held it, wringing it now and then till I could almost have cried out
with pain. This is what he said as well as I can remember--

"I must take leave of you now. I want you to start early in the morning
for Yorkshire; you will go to my country house at Ashworth,"--a long
pause, and I saw the drops of sweat stand out on his forehead. "'The
Gables,' that is the name of my house. You will change at Leeds and get
on a branch line; it's only an hour's journey from Leeds."

He spoke with difficulty, and caught at his breath.

"I have telegraphed for the carriage to meet you at the station."

Another pause, then speaking like a maniac, he seized both my hands.

"I am putting in your grasp the only thing I love, I am stealing a
march on Fate, boldly and desperately I commit this act, if the end is
mutual love all will be right. I shall pray without ceasing till we
meet again, good-bye, good-bye."

He was devouring my hands with kisses; then he rushed from the room.
I was almost sure now that he was mad, those spirit faces and that
opium--oh, there could scarcely be a doubt. The thought pleased me
somehow, it made me less afraid of something--something, I don't
exactly know what, a kind of horror had been haunting me all day, a
foreboding of strange and terrible things to come. We old families have
these powers of second sight, at least the north country families have.
"We old families," perhaps you are laughing at those words from _my_
mouth; well--laugh.

I went up to my bedroom, and there I found the dressing bag and the
portmanteaux all standing open and waiting to be packed. I felt just
like a robber as I put my silks and satins, bonnets and hats, boots and
shoes, in their proper places. Then I undressed and sprang into bed. I
was almost tired already of my new life, my old dreams came back to me,
would I meet someone nice to-morrow? Then I thought of Wilder and his
spirit faces, and his round back, and his opium decanter, and I laughed
till the bed shook.

And yet I liked him, this Wilder, with his strange, weary-looking face,
and his cheques and carriages and horses.

I fell asleep.




CHAPTER VI

--AND I START


I was wakened next morning by a knock at the door and a voice telling
me that it was eight o'clock. As I jumped out of bed the very first
thought that struck me was, "Shall I meet someone to-day?" It was what
I was thinking when I fell asleep.

I was dressed in an hour. All my portmanteaux were packed, they only
wanted strapping; and I said to myself, "The butler can do that." I was
not going to spoil my hands strapping them. Then I came down stairs to
the breakfast room where the butler was waiting, a grave looking man of
whom I had caught a glimpse last night.

When I had finished he said the carriage was in waiting, and I asked
him to have my things brought down; he said that was done already. And
behold, when I reached the hall door, a carriage stood there, closed,
with a basket arrangement on the top, and all my portmanteaux piled
upon it. My travelling bag was inside. The footman shut the door with a
snap, touched his hat again, jumped on the box, and we drove off.

I began to think whether I was a fool or not to leave Wilder. I had
such a hold upon him, and now I was going I didn't know where. His
country house, "The Gables," that sounded very fine, but for all
that, I felt nervous at going off like this, away up to the north of
England--to do what?

But it was too late to turn back now, for the carriage was entering St
Pancras station.




CHAPTER VII

NORTH!


The footman got all my luggage together, and bought me a first-class
ticket, and whilst he was getting me the ticket I went into the
refreshment room and bought half a dozen packets of cigarettes and a
little box of matches; smoking soothes my nerves.

Then I walked to the B platform, if I remember right, where the
Leeds express was standing, the footman following with my dressing
bag. Gracious! how civil the guard was: he made me get into a saloon
carriage, and called me "my lady," and told me I could have a luncheon
basket or tea if I liked, he would telegraph on to Normanton about
it. I began wondering, was it my face or the footman that made him so
civil, perhaps it was both--heigh-ho.

I write a fearful hand. I was never intended for an author. I'm so lazy
and so weak just now, that it's almost too much trouble to dip the pen
in the ink pot; however, on I must go.

There was a great fat man and a great fat woman in the saloon carriage,
immensely rich, I suppose--cotton spinners or something of that sort.
How these idiots stared at me out of the corners of their eyes; they
had heard the old guard calling me "my lady." They would have licked my
boots, those people would. I spoke to them, asked them did they object
to smoking, and they said "no," both together, so I lit a cigarette.
That made them certain I was a duchess. They got out at Normanton, and
the guard brought me a luncheon basket, and a little tea tray, teapot
and all, which he said I could take on in the carriage to Leeds; so
I had luncheon, and then I had tea, and then I smoked cigarettes and
dreamed, whilst the train whirled away north, north, north. Oh this
north, why did I ever come here?

It was late in the day when we reached Leeds, the air was chill; it
was like finding oneself in a new world. Women were standing about the
platform with their heads covered with shawls; they had clogs on their
feet, and one could hear them go click, clack. I gave the old guard
a sovereign. I felt sorry to part with him, he seemed the last thing
connecting me with the south. I felt like a lost dog. I had never felt
so all that horrible time in London: that is strange, is not it? Now,
when I was rich and bowed down to, I felt like a lost dog.

I had to wait two hours for the branch train, and as it left Leeds I
looked out of the window. It was a vile place, all manufactories, long
chimneys, furnaces, smoke.

Then, after a bit, I saw the country, all hills and twilight, dark
stone walls, desolate-looking fields, and then--a shiver ran through
me--I had seen this country before. Where? Never in this life. It was
the first time I had ever been north.

We stopped at little tiny stations, and I felt tired as death when at
last we drew up at a station with "Ashworth" on the lamps.

I put my head out of the window, and I saw a tall footman standing on
the platform amongst a lot of porters, and country women with their
heads covered with shawls. I beckoned to him, and he came at a run.

"Are you Mr Wilder's footman?"

"Yes, ma'am."

"Oh, just see to my luggage, please," I said, getting out. I followed
him to the road beside the station where a carriage was waiting, a
closed carriage and pair, just like the one that had driven me to the
station in London.

We passed four desolate-looking crossroads. The moon, which had risen,
was lighting all the scenery round about, and I pulled down the
left-hand window to get a glimpse of the view and a breath of the keen,
pure air.

On a hill opposite I saw the ruins of a castle cut sharp against the
sky. I had seen that castle before. Was I positive? _Positive._ Look!
I said to myself. Look at that white zig-zag pathway down the hill,
look at the hill itself. Then, as I looked, an indescribable feeling
came over me, a delightful, far-away sort of feeling. It seemed dawn,
bright, clear, and cold. I thought I could catch the sound of a distant
horn, I thought I could feel the claws of a falcon on my wrist. I
seemed riding on a horse, not as a woman rides, but as a man. I felt
unutterably happy. It was the happiness of love. You understand me, I
was perfectly well awake, but this feeling, how can I describe it, so
dim, sweet, and far-away.

Then the carriage stopped. It seems that I had put my finger through
the little ivory ring of the check-string, and had pulled it without
knowing. The footman came to the window, and touched his hat.

"Can you tell me the name of that castle?" I asked. "That castle on the
hill."

"Castle Sinclair, ma'am."

"Oh! drive on, please." I think I said "Drive on, please," but I cannot
be sure; at all events we drove on. I was not terrified, I was dazed.

Then, through the rumbling of the carriage wheels I thought I could
again catch the sound of the distant horn. I tried--how I tried--to
catch the feeling of early dawn, to feel again the tiny claws of the
falcon upon my wrist.

What hunting morning was that, so dim and far away? To where was I
riding? With whom was I in love? And I was a man then, so it seemed to
me.




CHAPTER VIII

THE DIMLY-PAINTED FACE


At last we stopped at a lodge. I heard someone cry "Gate," a creaking
noise, and then we bowled smoothly up a long avenue thick-set with
trees.

We stopped before a huge portico. Oh, that portico set with pillars. I
almost sobbed. Was it to here that I had been riding with the falcon on
my wrist? Look at the dull grey stone, the fluted pillars, the great
oak door. Then the oaken door opened wide, a rush of lamplight filled
the portico, and I saw an old butler with white hair waiting for me. As
I entered the great hall set round with armour and galleries, the old
butler bowed before me--he looked scared.

I did not notice him. How could I notice anything? An ordinary woman
might have shrieked aloud, but I--I neither shrieked nor swooned.

I remember trying to take my gloves off, then I gave up the attempt,
and followed a maid-servant up the broad staircase I knew so well,
along the passage I knew so well, into a bedroom that had once been
mine. I suppose you will think I am telling lies. Well, you can think
so if you like, but people don't tell lies just for fun when they have
a churchyard cough like mine, spitting blood every now and then, and
knowing that every spot of blood is a seal on their death-warrant.

I took off my bonnet and travelling cloak, looked at myself in the
cheval glass, and then came down stairs.

Supper was laid for me in the dining-room; _this_ room I did not know,
not a bit. Perhaps, after all, thought I, the whole thing is a mistake,
a fancy. If I had been here before I ought to recognise the dining-room
of all rooms. Then a thought struck me, and I asked the maid servant
who was waiting--

"Has this room always formed part of the house; I mean, has it always
been used as a dining-room?"

"Oh no, ma'am, it was built by Mr Arthur."

"Added on to the house?"

"Yes, ma'am."

That sounded queer, didn't it?

"How long ago was it built?"

"About sixty years I believe, ma'am."

Sixty years, oh, I was riding with that falcon on my wrist ages before
that. Do you know that the fact of my _not_ recognising this room
impressed me more than the fact of my having recognised all the other
things?

After supper I was sitting at the table thinking, when I heard someone
softly entering the room behind me. I turned and saw the butler with
white hair; he held a book in his hand.

"Please, ma'am, Mr Wilder asked me to give you this."

"Mr Wilder?"

"Yes, ma'am, he wrote from London."

"Thanks."

I took the book; it was bound in red morocco, and on the cover was
written in gold letters the word "Pictures." Pictures, a book of
pictures, just as if I were a little girl wanting amusement! Then I
opened it and saw that it was only a catalogue of pictures.

Here were the dining-room pictures.

"Gerard Dow, Portrait of himself. Poussin, Nymphs bathing, &c., &c."

Here was the gallery.

"Wilder, Wilder," nothing but Wilders.

"Sir Geoffry Wilder, justice of appeal, in his robes." Stay. Here was
something round which a red pencil mark had been drawn, "Portrait of
Gerald Wilder and Beatrice Sinclair, No. 112."

Beatrice Sinclair--that was _I_. I felt trembling with excitement,
all the strangeness of the last three days had got into a focus. This
picture of which the name was drawn round with red was what Wilder had
sent me down to see. I was going to see my own portrait, of that I felt
certain. But stay, there was something more to be read.

"Gerald Wilder slew Beatrice Sinclair in a fit of passion. Why, it was
never discovered. They were engaged to be married. He destroyed himself
with the poisoned wine which he had given to her, drinking it from the
same cup."

This was written in Wilder's scraggy hand-writing.

"Ha!" thought I, "so Gerald Wilder slew me in some past life; well,
I don't bear him any grudge, he must have been a horribly wicked man
though, for all that. Now, I'll ring for the butler to show me this
picture."

I rang, and the old fellow came.

"Get a lamp, please. I wish to look at the picture gallery."

"The picture gallery, ma'am."

"Yes."

"It's very dark, ma'am, at this hour. Hadn't you better wait till
morning?"

"No, I wish to go now."

"Very well, ma'am."

He shuffled out, and returned in a minute or so with a lamp. Then I
followed him.

As he opened the oak door of the picture gallery the lamp light rushed
in before us, and I saw two long walls covered with the stern faces of
the dead and gone Wilders; dim and faint they all looked in the faint
light, just like ghosts. We walked down the centre of the gallery. I
was looking for my face amongst all these strangers, but I could not
find it.

I touched the old man on the arm, "Which is the picture of Beatrice
Sinclair?" He made no reply, but the lamp in his hand shook with a
noise like the chattering of teeth. Then he walked to a picture set in
a black ebony frame.

"This is it," he said, "see."

I noticed that he did not say ma'am, but I did not notice it much, I
was so engaged with the face of this Beatrice.

At first I felt pleased, then disappointed. She was very pretty, but
not in the _least_ like _me_. Then, as I looked, I could scarcely
believe my eyes. A dimly-painted face began to grow out of the
background--a man's face, with long flowing hair; his eyes were turned
towards Beatrice, they seemed also turned towards me. It was myself.
This man's portrait was _my_ portrait, the face larger and more
masculine, but the same.

Then the old butler dropped the lamp, and it smashed to pieces on the
floor. I thought I could hear him weeping in the darkness, but I am not
sure. I felt I was in the room with a ghost, and I remember catching
the old man's arm, and his leading me towards the light glimmering in
from the hall.




CHAPTER IX

GERALDINE


"Well, suppose I was once a man, suppose I was Gerald Wilder," I said
to myself as I went into the library and music room, where a fire was
lit, "Oh, bosh--and yet----"

I shut the library door and looked round. Thousands of books, a grand
piano standing open, cigar boxes, cigarette boxes, easy chairs, turkey
carpet. I lit a cigarette, and turned to the piano. I play well, but I
am always too weak to play now. Here was Schuman, Chopin, everything in
a classical way.

I like Chopin.

As I played I sometimes stopped to think and knock the ashes from my
cigarette. The wind had risen and was blowing in gusts--oh that wind
of autumn, how melancholy it sounds.

As I was playing I caught the sounds of horses' feet, then the crash
of wheels upon gravel. It stopped, a carriage had drawn up at the hall
door, "Could it be Wilder?"

I listened. Someone was let in. I heard the sound of voices, then
everything was still. I rose from the piano and went to the door. I
opened the door softly about an inch, and peeped through the crack. I
saw a girl, but, as her back was towards me, I could not see her face.
She was unwinding herself from a huge cloak of furs. The sallow-faced
housemaid was standing waiting--I suppose for the cloak. Then I closed
the door as softly as I had opened it, and sat down in one of the
armchairs by the fire. I felt excited, why, I could not tell.

I was staring into the fire point blank, just as an owl stares at the
sun, but I did not see the fire, I could only see the long slit-like
picture, the strip of shining oak floor, the figure of the girl with
her head thrown back, and her body, with its snake-like movement,
winding free of the cloak.

Who was she? this girl. She had come in that carriage. She had been let
in out of the autumn night. I had seen her taking off her cloak. I knew
nothing more about her, so why--why did my heart become all of a sudden
so fussy and fluttering like a bird disturbed in its nest, why--ah, it
seemed to me that with her had been let in the far-off sound of that
ghostly horn, with her had been let in the unseen falcon whose claws
were now again resting upon my wrist--moving, moving, as the body they
supported balanced itself uneasily, tightening now as the balance was
nearly lost, loosening now as it was regained.

I sat listening. Not a sound. These great oak doors were so thick that
a person might walk about in the hall and not be heard in the library.
The clock on the mantel gave the little hiccup it always makes at
five minutes to the hour; I looked up at the dial, it pointed to five
minutes to nine.

Then a knock came to the door. I started and turned round. It was only
the old butler. I felt just as if a bucket of lukewarm water had been
emptied on me,--deep disappointment, why I felt so I can't tell. He
wanted to know if I required anything more to eat--supper.

No, I required nothing to eat.

He stood shuffling at the door as if he wanted to say something, his
dismal old face looked more troubled than ever. I thought for a moment
he was going to cry. Then suddenly he shut the door and came across the
room. He stood before me, twiddling a book that lay on a little table.
He looked at the carpet, then at the fire, then at me, then he spoke--

"I have been in the service of the family forty and nine years, ma'am."

"Have you?" I answered, I didn't know what else to say.

"Forty and nine years come next October. Oh, ma'am, I've seen strange
things in those years, and--the world's a strange place."

"It is."

"Ma'am, Miss Geraldine knows you are here, and she will come in to see
you presently."

"Miss Geraldine--was--was that the young lady--I mean, was it she who
arrived in the carriage just now?"

"It was, ma'am, and that's why I want to tell you. Mr James told me to
tell you; it's only beknownst to Mr James and I--God help me--God help
us all--Miss Geraldine--is a boy."

"A boy," I said, half rising out of my chair; "what do you
say--how--how can a girl be a boy?"

"Hush, ma'am, for the love of God don't speak above your breath.
People may be listening, and no one knows it, _not even Miss Geraldine
herself_."

I was sitting now with my mouth hanging open like a trap; I must have
looked the picture of a fool.

"Not even herself, God bless her sweet face, not even herself, and
that's not the worst, ma'am,--she _is_ a girl, though she's been born a
boy."

The old fellow had suddenly collapsed into the easy chair opposite to
me; he had taken his face between his scraggy old hands, his head was
bent between his knees, the light of the lamp fell on the shiny black
back of his coat. I shall never forget him as he sat there, speaking
between his legs as if to someone under the chair.

"She's Beatrice Sinclair, that's who she is, and they must be blind who
don't see it. Beatrice Sinclair, Beatrice Sinclair, she, the one that
was killed long and ages ago by Sir Gerald. Beatrice Sinclair, whose
picture is in the gallery, and that's who she is, that's who she is."

He was rocking about and droning this out like a dirge. I can tell you
I felt shivering and fascinated. Then all at once he sat up and seemed
to remember himself. I saw tears on his poor old face. He seemed trying
to rise out of the arm chair.

"Sit down, don't get up," I said. "Tell me, for I must know, tell me
exactly what you know, tell me all about it, and how it is that Miss
Geraldine is--what she is."

"It was done to avoid the evil chance, ma'am."

"What do you mean?"

"You must know, ma'am, that the two houses of Sinclair and Wilder----"

"Yes, I think I know what you are going to say; you mean that the
Sinclairs have always killed the eldest sons of the Wilders,--it's a
kind of fate. Mr James Wilder told me all about it."

"Yes, mam, that's it. Well, when this child was born Mrs Wilder only
survived the birth some two hours, and Mr James, almost mad with grief
at her death, seemed like a thing gone silly; then, after some weeks,
he quieted down, and all the love he had for his wife seemed to settle
on this his only child. It was a boy, and that, mam, was the trouble;
if it had been a girl! but no, it was a boy, and the eldest and only
boy, and doomed, that was Mr James' word, I've heard him speaking it to
himself as he has stood looking out of the window at the park, the one
word, 'doomed--doomed.' He took me into his confidence, he said to me
once, 'The Sinclairs ride through my dreams, their ghosts are round
me, but they shall not have my child.' He would have gone mad, I do
believe he would, only that he thought of a plan. He took me into his
confidence, and between us we did it. The child's name was changed from
Gerald to Geraldine, and the child was brought up as a girl. No one in
the house knew; all the servants were dismissed but me, 'We are safe
now,' said Mr James. Ma'am, do you know that from the lodge gates this
park is surrounded by a stone wall, sixteen miles long and six feet
high? it cost a mine of money, but it was built. Do you know that Miss
Geraldine has never been beyond that wall? There are sixty and more
miles of drives all through the park, and there the horses that draw
her carriage can go at a gallop and go all day without crossing the
same ground twice over. There are lakes, and fountains, and imitation
rivers, and that's the world she's only known. It cost two hundred
thousand pounds a-doing, but it was done. Well, ma'am, things went
like a marriage bell till Miss Geraldine was past fourteen; then one
day Mr James came out of the picture gallery with his face like a
ghost, and he caught me by the arm so that I thought I'd have screeched
with the pain of it, and he says, 'James, James, the Sinclairs have
got us.' Those were his very words, and with that he led me into the
gallery, right to the ebony frame with Mr Gerald's picture and the
picture of Beatrice Sinclair, and there, sure enough, was the likeness.
Miss Geraldine had grown the living image of Miss Beatrice Sinclair;
we hadn't noticed the likeness before, but it was there, sure and
sorrowful.

"After that Mr James fell away, like. He took to the opium, and took to
it awful. He followed Miss Geraldine like a dog. He had it in his head
that _he_ was doomed to kill her, till, it was three years ago now,
ma'am, Mr James, who had taken to spiritualism, got a message saying
that the last of the Sinclairs was alive and doomed to kill the last of
the Wilders, that the only chance was to bring them together and leave
them to fate.

"Then Mr James began to search for this--this last of the Sinclairs. He
searched the world, that he did; his agents went to all foreign parts,
to India and everywhere, till a few days ago, and I got telegram after
telegram from him to prepare the house, that he had found the person
he wanted. Oh, I was glad, that I was, when I saw you, ma'am, I nearly
fell on the ground."

"You think I am like Mr Gerald?"

The old fellow made no answer for a moment, then he got up off his
chair to go.

"Ma'am, you'll excuse my sitting in your presence, you'll excuse my
talking so free, but I am old, and I have grown to love that child as
if it was my own, it's that sweet and that innocent, and, saving your
presence, ma'am, doesn't know what a man is, or a woman is neither.
I've heard talk of angels, but there never was an angel more innocent,
no, nor more sweet; and to think of harm coming to it, it that is so
unharmful. It wrings my heart, the thought of it do; many's the night,
ma'am, I've woke in a sweat thinking I've heard the trumpeter, but it's
been only ringing in my ears----"

"The trumpeter, what do you mean?" I asked.

"The ghost, ma'am, Sir--Sir Gerald's ghost, it comes through the
passages at midnight blowing a trumpet always before the eldest son is
killed. Oh, ma'am, it's a fearful sound and a fearful sight."

"When was it heard last?"

"Twenty-three years ago, ma'am, the night before Mr Reginald was killed
by Mr Wilfred Sinclair."

Twenty-three years, that was exactly my age.

"It has not been heard since, not even at Mrs Wilder's death?"

"No, ma'am, that trumpet never sounds for the death of women, not for
no one, only the eldest son who is about to die."

"Did anyone hear or see this trumpeter the last time he came?"

"I did, ma'am, see him, and hear him both."

"Tell me about it. Did you see his face?"

"No, ma'am." Somehow I knew the old fellow was telling a lie, and that
he _had_ seen the trumpeter's face, but I said nothing.

"No, ma'am, not distinctly so to say. I was a young servant then, an
under-butler, and in the night, when I was sound asleep, I suddenly
woke and sat up to listen. The house was as still as death, and there
was nothing to hear, yet I sat listening and listening and straining my
ears, waiting to hear something that I knew would come. Oh, ma'am, I
needn't have strained my ears, for suddenly the most _awful_ blast of
a trumpet shook the house, I sickened, and thought I'd have died, for
though I knew nothing of the ghost, or the history of the house, I knew
that the sound of that trumpet was not right; it stopped for a moment
after the first blast, and then it came again, louder and louder. I
rushed out of my room into the dark passage, then, ma'am, I ran down
the passage and down the servants' staircase until I found the first
floor. I ran down the corridor till I came to the great staircase
overlooking the hall, and there I saw him. There was no light, but I
saw him, for there was light all round him. He was crossing the great
hall when I caught a glimpse of him. His long black hair was tossed
back, and he had to his mouth a great, glittering, silvern trumpet, and
I could see his cheeks puffed out as he blew. He was dressed like the
portrait of Sir Gerald."

"You think it was Sir Gerald's ghost?"

"Yes, ma'am, he has been recognised over and over again."

"Did anyone else hear him?"

"No, ma'am, only me. I told the master about it next day. No one had
heard it but me. Then the message came to say Mr Reginald was dead."

I sat silent for a moment, listening to the wind as it sighed outside,
then I said--

"Do you expect to hear the trumpeter again?"

"No, ma'am, not since you've come."

"How is that?"

The old fellow hung his head.

"Come now," I said; "tell me this. Don't you think you see the ghost
in the flesh? I am exactly twenty-three, and it is twenty-three years
since the trumpeter has been. Do you not think that my coming is the
return of the trumpeter--without the trumpet?"

I shall never forget the old man's face as I said this; it absolutely
became glorified with--what--I don't know, perhaps hope.

"Oh, ma'am," said he, "I did see the trumpeter's face, despite the lie
I told you; it was your face, line for line. But you will never hurt
the child, that I know, for the good God has sent you into the flesh,
and it's as much as if He had said the trumpet shall never be heard
again, which is saying the eldest son will never be killed again by the
Sinclairs."

Then the old fellow left the room and shut the door.

And I sat brooding over the fire, half-pleased, half-frightened,
half-dazed. The old butler's manner all through his conversation had
been just like James Wilder's in London. They both seemed to consider
me as something to be feared and propitiated.

And this Geraldine, this extraordinary being whose fate seemed wound
up in mine, why should they fear any hurt to this Geraldine from me? I
could not hurt a fly, much less this creature whom I had begun to like
instinctively already.

Did anyone ever hear of such a thing as to bring up a boy as a girl?
Only that weird looking James Wilder, with his round back and his opium
decanter, could have thought of such a thing; she--he--she, what shall
I call him or her? She was going to pay me a visit to-night; when would
she come? What was she doing now? at supper perhaps, what was she
having for supper?

A tap at the door.

The handle turned, and the door opened.




CHAPTER X

WE MEET


And this was Geraldine Wilder, or Gerald--Geraldine Wilder, if you
please.

This half ghostly being, with brown rippling hair and a face like the
face of a wild rose. And the dress of wonderful black lace that seemed
draped round the slight figure by the fingers of the wind, and the milk
white neck, rising like the stem of some graceful flower to support the
small brown head, and the _elegance_ of the whole apparition. I love to
think of it even still. But it was Beatrice Sinclair. Oh, yes, beyond
any manner of doubt, it was Beatrice Sinclair, and as we gazed at each
other for one short second the claws of the falcon _tore_ at my wrist.

Then this vision of the past came across the room and held up its
face to be kissed. And it was like two dead lovers kissing through
a veil--so it seemed to me. And yet I could have laughed as she sat
down in the great arm chair opposite mine, to see the subtle turn of
the body with which she arranged the train of her dress, the graceful
manner of sitting down, and then to remember that "Miss Geraldine was
a boy;" and then the glimpse of immaculate white petticoat! it seemed
like a witticism one could not laugh at because one was in church.

I laugh now as I think of it, at least I smile, for I haven't strength
to get up a real laugh, and then somehow I cry, perhaps because I am so
weak.

Geraldine sat down, and then we began to talk. I talked at random, for
I was so busy examining and admiring her I couldn't think of other
things. The little division at the end of the nose seemed somehow the
most delightful thing I had ever seen, except maybe the arched instep
of the tiny foot that peeped like a brown mouse from beneath the skirt.

What a lout I felt beside her. I felt awkward, and stupid, and just as
a mole might feel if it were made to sit in the sun. I began to stutter
and stammer, and might have made a dreadful fool of myself, only that
the recollection shot up in my mind, "she's a boy"; as long as I kept
that in mind I was all right, but the instant I began to think of her
as a girl, my stupidity returned.

We talked, mercy, what modest and innocent talk, the whole college of
Cardinals and the old Pope himself might have listened and been the
better for it, but they would not have been much the wiser.

"Gerald--I mean Geraldine--how old are you?"

"I am sixteen years."

"You have never been away from home, you have never seen a city?"

"What is a city?"

"Oh, it's a place, a horrible place where it's all smoke, and houses,
and noise."

Geraldine shook her head. She could not imagine what such a place as
this could be like.

"Are there many more people in the world from where you come?" asked
Geraldine after a pause, resting her chin on her hand and gazing at me
with a deep, far-away look, as if she recognised me dimly but was not
quite sure.

"Oh, yes; but has your father never told you about the world and the
people in it?"

"No," said Geraldine, with a shake of the head; "he told me it was a
bad place, and I must never go there, that was all."

"Have you never wished to go there?"

"No, never, till--till now."

"Why now?"

"I would like to go there if it is the place you come from."

Geraldine was gazing at me now intensely--I know no other word--with
eyes that seemed appealing to me to say something; never had I been
gazed at so before.

I could only falter out, "Why?"

"Because," said Geraldine, "I think I know where you come from, I
think I have seen you there, but it was in a dream, and we were not
dressed as we are, but I am not sure. _Who_ are you?"

I have never heard anything so soft and yet so full of a kind of fire
as those words.

"Has not your father told you, Geraldine?"

"No--he said a lady was coming to see me, but that was all."

"I am Beatrice Sinclair, Geraldine."

"But that is only a name."

A thought shot like a horrible zig-zag firework through my brain; it
was, "Geraldine, I was once your murderer."

Then bang from tragedy to comedy. I began to laugh, for no earthly
reason, and Geraldine caught the laugh as it flew on her beautiful
lips, and we both laughed at each other like two children--at nothing.
Then we talked for an hour about--nothing.

As Geraldine vanished that night to her own rooms I called her back,
and she came back from the dark corridor like a beautiful ghost.

I only wanted to kiss her again, but she seemed to think that a
perfectly good reason for my calling her back.

Then I went to bed and cried like a fool; then I got out of bed and
hunted round the room in the dark, guess what for--a match-box, guess
what to find--my cigarette box. I really think I must once have been a
man.




CHAPTER XI

THE LITTLE BLACK BOOK


I found it, and having lit the candle by my bedside I got back into
bed and began to smoke. The fumes of the tobacco, the utter silence
of the house broken only by the occasional sighing of the wind in the
trees outside, the exquisite room in which I was lying with its painted
ceiling and rose petal coloured hangings, the image of Geraldine, all
combined to produce in my mind a sort of delicious intoxication.

I saw now vaguely the wonderful dream that was beginning to unfold
around me, the fairy tale of which I was to be the hero. I saw
once more the face that had come back from the dark corridor to be
kissed--ah me!

My hands rested upon a little black covered book, I had found it upon
the mantelpiece, and had taken it into bed with me, thinking to put my
cigarette ashes upon it. Instead of that I had shaken them off, without
thinking, upon the floor.

I opened it. The first thing I saw was the picture of a skull drawn in
faded ink upon the yellow title-page. Then, under the skull, written in
what, even in those old days, must have been a boy's scrawl, this--

"The blacke worke of deathe herein sette downe is bye y^e hande of
Geoffry Lely hys page."

Whose page? I knew well.

Then, on the next leaf, in the same handwriting, but smaller and more
cramped, I read the following. It was written in the old English style,
and the queer spelling of the words I cannot imitate, as I write only
from remembrance.

"Before daylight of that dark and bloody day a week agone now, by
lantern light we left the court-yard and rode down the avenue, Sir
Gerald on his black horse Badminton, I on the bay mare Pimpernel. In
the black dark of the avenue nothing could I see, but followed, led by
the sound of Badminton's hoofs, the clink of Sir Gerald's scabbard, and
the tinkling bells of the little hawke that sat hooded and drowsing
upon his wrist.

"Had I followed a common man I might have asked of him what place hath
a hawke on the wrist of a man with a sword by his side and pistols
at his holster, but Sir Gerald I have followed my life long without
question, and without question would have ridden behind him to death.

"In the road beyond the darkness of the trees we paused, each at five
paces from the other; the clouds in the easternmost part of the sky
were all cracked where the day was breaking through; a dour and dark
morning was it, and no sound to hear but a plover crying weep, weep,
and the little tinkle ever and anon of the hawke's bells.

"I watched the wind toss Sir Gerald's black hair and lift the plume of
his hat, and let it fall, and lift it again, and let it fall, light as
if 'twere the fingers of a woman at play with it. He was resting in his
saddle as if a-thinking, then touching Badminton with the spur, he led
the way from the road on to the moor, the two horses' hoofs striking as
one.

"We passed the shoulder of the hill and down to the Gimmer side, and
there by the river we stopped again and Sir Gerald sat and seemed
a-listening to the mutter of the water and the wuther of the wind in
the reeds; but he was in sore trouble, that I knew by the way his head
was bent and by the sighs that broke from him ever and anon.

"And where his trouble lay I knew, for I had but to look the way his
head was turned, and see Castle Sinclair, all towers and turrets, set
up against the morning which was breaking quickly out from under the
clouds.

"As we sat I heard a horn sounding beyond the river bank and the yelp
of a hound blown on the wind thin and sharp, and in the distance,
crossing the ford of the Gimmer, I saw three horsemen; they were
Sinclairs, that I knew,--General James Sinclair rode first, I could
tell him by the great size of himself and his horse, and of the other
two I knew one to be Rupert and the other George, but which was which
no eye of mortal could tell in the dim light that was then.

"They passed the ford and rode away, a huntsman following close on,
seeming to move in the midst of a waving furze bush, which was the
hounds in full pack, and the last of them we heard was the toot of the
horn sounding over the hillside.

"Then Sir Gerald touched Badminton again with spur, and we rode along
the river bank to the ford, still warm from the crossing of the
Sinclairs; and the ford behind us, we set our horses' heads straight
for Castle Sinclair.

"The morning was up now, and we could hear the cocks a-crowing from the
barnes lying to the thither side of the castle. In the courtyard we
drew bridle, and Sir Gerald dismounted and threw his reins to me.

"At the open door above the stone steps stood Mistress Beatrice
Sinclair herself; she held in her hand a silver stirrup cup. Without
doubt she had lingered at the door from seeing the huntsmen off to
their hunt, held mayhap by the fineness of the morning.

"I saw Sir Gerald advance to her, his plumed hat in hand, and they
passed into the great hall so that I could not see them more, and
there I sat to wait with no sound to save me from the stillness but
the cawing of the rooks in the elm tops below, and the grinding of
Badminton's teeth as they chawed on the bit.

"The clock in the turret struck six, and I sat a-thinking of Mistress
Beatrice Sinclair, holding her beautiful face up to the eye of my
mind, and putting beside it for contrast the dark face of Sir Gerald.
Then the clock struck seven and Badminton he struck with his hind hoof
on the yard pavement and neighed as if calling after his master.

"Then five minutes might have gone. I saw Sir Gerald's figure at the
door, his face white as the ashes of wood, and he stumbling like a
man far gone in drunkness. But drunkness it was none and that I knew,
but some calamity dire and fell, and I put Badminton up to the steps
in a trice, for I read the look in Sir Gerald's black eye which meant
'flight.'

"As he rose into the saddle a window shot open above, and a woman's
voice cried, 'Stop them, stop them, my lady is dead, he has killed
her!' Then, reeling in my saddle with the horror of the thing, I put
the bridle rein to Sir Gerald's hands. He heard and saw nothing, that
I knew by his eyes and his face, so, leaving Pimpernel to care for
herself, I sprang on Badminton behind Sir Gerald, and taking the reins
with my hands stretched out, I put spurs deep into his sides.

"The wind rushed in my ears and the cries of the woman grew faint;
down hill we tore, I heard the splashing of the Gimmer water round
Badminton's legs and the hoofs of him rattling on the pebbles of the
ford. Then I heard behind me the clashing of the alarum bell of the
castle.

"Something in Sir Gerald's right hand, hanging loose, took my eye, and
I sickened at the sight, for it was the body of the little brown hawk
crushed to death.

"I looked back, Castle Sinclair stood out against the blood red of the
sky. Up suddenly against us rose a great man on a black horse. It was
General James Sinclair spurring for the castle; he threw his horse on
his haunches. Badminton he reared, and Sir Gerald fell forward before
me on his neck, his dark hair all mixed with the mane. Then I drew
rein, I called to Sir Gerald, but no answer made he; his lips were
blue, dead he was as the little hawk crushed in his hand, dead as
Mistress Beatrice Sinclair, poisoned with the selfsame poison he always
carried in his ring; dead as I Geoffry Lely shall be, and that soon,
from the sorrow that has fallen on me since that dark and bloody day."

There the writing stopped. I only quote from memory, but it is a good
memory, for that strange bit of writing burnt itself deeply into my
heart. It occupied six pages. The seventh was covered by Wilder's
handwriting. It was the beginning of a horrible list, the list of the
eldest sons of the Wilders. Each name stood there bracketed with the
name of a Sinclair. I knew what that meant. This was the way:--

  _Beatrice Sinclair--Gerald Wilder._
  _John Wilder--Rupert Sinclair._
  _Adam Wilder--James Sinclair-Sinclair._
  _Athelstan Wilder--Arthur Reginald Sinclair_,

and so on.

That list horrified me, I could not go on with it. At the foot of all
these names so strangely coupled together James Wilder had written a
sort of prayer.

"Oh, God! how long! how much longer shall this blood red hand be held
over us? I have but one little child, I implore your mercy for it. Have
pity upon me and it, _we_ have done no wrong."

That made my eyes swim so that I could scarcely see. I shut the little
black book; it looked like a witch, and I determined to burn it. The
fire was still red in the grate, so I got up and put it on the live
coals. It burned quite cheerfully. I watched it as I lay in bed, and I
muttered to myself, "Let the past die like that." I watched the cover
all curling up, and little jets of blue flame spouting from the leather
binding. Oh, if it were only as easy to burn the past as it is to burn
a book! Then nothing was left but sullen-looking grey ashes, with
little red points running over them.

Then I blew out my candle, and the room was in darkness. The wind
sighed outside in the tree tops. I saw all kinds of pictures painted
on the darkness, faces, and one angelic face, the last before I went to
sleep--Geraldine's.




CHAPTER XII

THE MORNING


A week ago I had been living in ---- Crescent, living in a room with an
old faded carpet on the floor, with one picture on the walls,--and such
a picture, I can see it still, it was a German oleograph representing
the Day of Judgment, and so badly done that the long trumpets seemed
sticking in the sides of the angels' cheeks, not out of their mouths,
and some of the devils, I remember, had their tails growing from the
middle of their backs. The looking-glass made one look horrible, and
the handles were off the chest of drawers, so one had to pull the
drawers out with a crooked hairpin.

I minded the picture more than anything. Some girls would have grumbled
at the chest of drawers, and never thought of the picture, but I have
always loved beautiful things, so I suppose that is the reason why I
grumbled so much at the picture and so little at the other thing.

You may think, then, how delightful it was next morning when I woke and
saw the light filtering in through the rose-coloured blinds. I sat up
in the bed and saw the glimmer of the great ivory hair brushes on the
dressing-table. I saw my rings lying in a heap--I would never have had
those rings only for Geraldine, I would never have been here, only for
Geraldine, I might have been in the Thames, floating with dead cats
and dogs by this, only for Geraldine. Then I fell back on the pillows,
smothered with a strange kind of horror; it was strange, because it had
no reason for being. It passed away slowly like a mist dissolving, and
I lay looking up at the blue ceiling, with rosy clouds painted on it,
and little Cupids peeping at each other from behind them. I pulled up
the blinds of my window to look out; then I opened the sash.

It was an autumn morning, warm and dark, the wind of the night before
had blown half dead leaves about the garden on which my window looked;
it had rained in the night, and the air was full of the smell of
dampness and decay, and a faint perfume like the bitter perfume of
chrysanthemums; there was just enough wind to make the trees move
their leaves about, and make a noise as if they were sighing. I love
this autumn weather; I don't know why, perhaps it's just because I
don't know why that I love it. That seems rubbish, but I am too lazy
to scratch it out. It is just like autumn now as I sit writing this,
though it is early spring, and the trees are all covered with little
green buds, making ready for another autumn that I shall never see.

Then I dressed. I put on three dresses, one after another, and they all
seemed not good enough; but I had no more fit for morning wear, so I
left on the third.

Then I came down to breakfast, and I found only one place laid. I could
have broken my plate over the old butler's head, but I didn't, and I
can't for the life of me tell why I could have done it, or why I didn't
do it. Breakfast proceeded in solemn silence.

"Would I have ham?"

No, I would not have ham! where was Geraldine?

Miss Geraldine breakfasted an hour ago alone in her wing of the house;
Miss Geraldine sent her compliments, and wanted to know if I would
visit her in her own rooms after I had finished breakfast.

He might take Miss Geraldine my compliments, and say that I would have
much pleasure in doing so. He had better go at once. No, I required no
more coffee.

He went.

Her compliments, indeed, and her wing of the house, I wonder why
she didn't send her card. Yes, I would visit her just as often as I
pleased--yet I would not if my visits didn't please. No, in that case I
would drown myself in the moat, but there was no moat; well, in the big
bath upstairs. And the way the old butler said, "Miss Geraldine" quite
calmly, though he knows Miss Geraldine is a boy; and she is a boy,
and she ought to be smacked for being such a prig. But why smack her
when it's not her fault? No, it's James Wilder and the old butler that
require smacking, and still--and still, these two old fools between
them have produced, or helped to produce, this weird child, just as she
is; and in all God's earth she is the most beautiful thing, and the
most strange. She is like a thing made of mist, yet she is real; she is
a ghost, yet one can touch her. What is she--what is he--who am I--I
don't know--I don't want to know. Ha! I felt just then the claws of the
little falcon pinching my wrist.

That was the jumbling kind of stuff that ran through my head as I
breakfasted; then, when I had finished, instead of going at once to
find Geraldine's wing of the house, I hung about the room looking at
the pictures, putting off my visit just as a person puts off a bite at
a peach. At last I came.

I seemed to know the way by instinct; there was no placard with "To
Geraldine" on it, but I found Geraldine for all that. I crossed the
hall and passed the picture gallery scarcely looking at the door. Then
I lifted a heavy corded silk curtain, and found myself in a corridor.
Upon my word, I thought I was in the Arabian Nights. Each side of the
corridor was panelled, and on the cream white panels were painted
flowers,--it was a regular flower-garden of painting. The roof was
white, with coloured windows, each made in the shape of a fan. These
stained glass fans were the prettiest things in the way of windows I
had ever seen--so I thought. The corridor ended in a heavy curtain like
the one at the other end; two doors stood on each side of the curtain.
I chose the right hand door, for I guessed it belonged to the room she
was in. I was right. I knocked. A voice cried, "Come in," and in I came.

Oh, this Geraldine! I must have seen her all askew last night, for now
she seemed eight times lovelier than she was then. Who had taught
this being the art of putting on dress? Surely not James Wilder or the
old butler. This dress she wore was made from a fabric intended to
represent the skin of some tropical lizard, scales of golden satin on a
body-ground of dull emerald-coloured silk. She rose from her chair like
a snake from a blanket. James Wilder, when he rose from a chair, always
reminded me of a flail in a fit. Yet she was his son.

We said "Good morning," but we did not kiss. Something seemed to have
come between us; we seemed instinctively to hold aloof from each
other. The Geraldine who came up to me last night to be kissed, just
as a tame fawn might have done, was not exactly the Geraldine of this
morning. And yet I liked this something that had come between us.
Kisses are just like apples; if you can get as many as you want they
grow tasteless, and the more you pay for them the sweeter they seem,
and they are never so sweet as when you steal them. I never heard of a
farmer robbing his own orchard, have you?

Then this fine lady sank back into the chair from which she had
arisen--it was not sitting down, it was sinking down--and with a
ghostly smile resumed her work. And guess the work--tapestry. Tapestry;
and she had done yards of it, when she ought to have been playing at
marbles and learning to swear.

As for me, I sat down plump on a chair close by, crossed my legs, and
nursed my knee with my hands. I felt inclined to whistle. Remember,
I was thinking of her now as a boy in petticoats, and as long as I
thought of her as that I was in my right senses, that is, my everyday
senses. I felt perverse, just as I always feel, and would have liked to
tease--only I wouldn't have dared--this half-absurd, wholly delightful
production of old James Wilder. But when I thought of her as a girl
I felt--I felt the dim remembrance of a past life, and an infinite
sadness.

I looked round at the room; it looked like the inside of a shell.
Fairies seemed to have furnished it. I never saw such exquisite things
before. There were cabinets inlaid with copper on ebony, and Venice
glass that seemed coloured with tints of the sea. A wood fire was
burning on the tiled hearth, and a great bowl of violets stood on a
table supported by carved dragons with jewels for eyes. The smell of
the violets made me feel faint every now and then, but the faintness
went away when I remembered this Geraldine was a boy. "Remember that,"
I kept repeating to myself. And in the middle of the room sat Geraldine.

The long French windows were open, and the garden, all damp and
sad-coloured, lay outside. Great chrysanthemums, potted out, were
nodding under the marble-coloured sky, and they all seemed nodding at
Geraldine. When a hitch came in the thread Geraldine's under lip would
pout out. I felt now and then as if I were acting in a play, and the
chrysanthemums' faces were the faces of the audience. Perhaps they
were. Anyhow, I had learnt my part very badly, so it seemed to me.

The tapestry was a great blessing; one could speak or not as one
pleased, and I generally preferred--not. I fell to wondering does
_she_ remember anything of that hunting morning so long ago: does she
remember the poison, has she forgiven the poisoner, and has God?

Then I began to talk to her again and she answered in a low measured
voice that sounded to me like a bell from the far past, yet in spite of
the ghostly kind of sadness with which her voice filled me, some of her
answers made me laugh.

She didn't know how to read; that came out in the course of our scrappy
conversation.

"But, _Geraldine_, why--you've never read your _Bible_, then?"

One might have thought from my tone that I was a shocked Sunday-school
superintendent, and it really did seem shocking to me that a person
should never have read the Bible.

"What is my Bible?" asked Geraldine, staring at me, half-frightened at
my astonishment.

"Oh, it's a book. I'll tell you about it some other time, but--but you
can't know Geography. Do you know where Japan is, Geraldine, or India?"

Geraldine's head shook. She looked dazed.

"Do you know where England is?"

Oh, yes, she knew where England was,--this house, this garden, all away
beyond there, was England--all over there.

How proudly she waved the white hand. It was patriotism pure and
simple. She was proud of her park, not because it was her park, but
because it was her native land. Her--his--I cannot say "his," I must
always say "her;" besides, it doesn't matter now. It will never matter
again, nothing will ever matter again. What gibberish I am writing;
how those trees nod and nod their heads as if they were nodding at the
little graveyard "away over there," just as the chrysanthemums were
nodding that morning at Geraldine.

She didn't know her Bible and she didn't know her Geography, and she
didn't know "nothing." What a lot of ignorance was stowed away in that
small head; but she knew something of natural history. The tapestry
work had stopped, and we were walking in the little garden where the
chrysanthemums were. I pointed to a snail on the path.

"What is that, Geraldine?"

"That," said Geraldine, "is a snail."

How proud she seemed of her knowledge, and how tenderly she lifted the
snail on to a leaf. The clock in the clock-turret was striking noon.

"Can you read the clock, Geraldine?"

"Oh, yes, and my watch."

A watch the size of my thumb-nail was produced. How learned she was,
really a kind of professor!

We walked down an alley of cypress trees without speaking, then we
stopped, for the sound of a gong came roaring from the house.

It was the luncheon gong, so said Geraldine, and I suddenly woke up
from a reverie to remember that I was not in the seventeenth but the
nineteenth century.




CHAPTER XIII

"YOU WERE NOT DRESSED LIKE THIS"


The old clergyman who lives at Ashworth has just been. He comes twice
a week and eats a biscuit and drinks a glass of wine, and tells me we
should all think on the future life, or the life to come. He asked me
what I was writing, and I said--nothing.

Well--that day I had luncheon all alone. Where that other strange being
had luncheon, or whether she had luncheon at all, I don't know; I had
luncheon alone, and I had chops for luncheon.

What did James Wilder mean by sending me here to be driven mad? What
was driving me mad? Why, Geraldine was. I had sprung at one bound into
the most fabulous world of love. I could have eaten that snail she
lifted on to the leaf, just because she touched it.

The old butler was meandering round the room with a dish of vegetables
in his hand.

"James," I said.

"Ma'am."

"I have fallen in love with your Miss Geraldine."

"May God be thanked, ma'am."

"James," in a coaxing voice, "I want to go out for a drive with him--I
mean with her--with Miss Geraldine. Do you understand?"

"Yes, ma'am, and so shall I tell the horses to be put in?"

"Why, yes, after luncheon, that is, if Miss Geraldine likes; do you
think she would like?"

"Ma'am," in a voice like the voice of a ghost, "Miss Geraldine has been
a-speaking of you to me; she comes to me, ma'am, to tell any little
trouble that may happen like as she was a boy, which she is, may God
in Heaven bless her; and she came to me last night after you'd a-gone
to bed, and she said, 'James, who is Beatrice Sinclair?' Lord, ma'am,
you might ha knocked me down with your finger. 'Why,' I says, Miss
Geraldine, 'she's the lady just come.' Then she says 'James,' and she
held down her head and all her little face grew red, 'Will she ever go
away again?' 'Why, Miss Geraldine?' said I. 'Because if she does,' said
she, 'I shall die; I've been waiting for her and thinking of her for
years, and if she leaves me now I shall die:' those were her words."

A bucket of vitriol emptied into a furnace those words were to me.

"The horses," I cried, rising from the table, "ring for the horses;
go and tell Miss Geraldine to dress, for I am going to take her
for a drive. Go." I stamped my foot, I was speaking like a man. I
was suddenly intoxicated. I felt hat, boots and belt upon me; the
falcon was on my wrist. I clapped my hand on my left hip and was
astonished to find--no sword. That, somehow, brought me to, and I sat
down at the table again feeling shrunk--shrunk? do you understand
that word?--shrunk like an apple that has been all winter in the
cellar--shrunk like a warrior who wakes to find himself a woman. "She
hung down her head and all her little face grew red," how exactly those
words brought her image before me. This little milksop. I was sitting
at the table; the old butler had gone to order the carriage; the light
of the autumn day came greyly through the great double windows, a spray
of withered wistaria was tapping at one of the panes like the hand of a
ghost. Before me, on the opposite wall, hung a convex Venetian mirror,
one of those strange mirrors that are made so perfectly and so truly
that they reflect everything just as it is, even the atmosphere, so
that a room reflected by them seems like a real room. I was staring
at my own reflection in the mirror, and wondering over again at my
own likeness to the portrait of Gerald Wilder--when--the door in the
mirror opened, a figure the size of my thumb entered the mirror room,
a figure lithe and more gorgeously clad than any caterpillar. I knew
quite well that it was only Geraldine who had opened the door behind
me, and was therefore reflected in the mirror. I knew that quite well,
yet I watched the mirror without moving: the little figure seemed to
hold me in a spell. It came up softly behind the woman seated at the
table--the woman with the face so like Gerald Wilder; it paused as if
undecided. I watched.

Geraldine evidently was utterly ignorant of the mirror and its picture.
Geraldine the observed imagined herself unobserved: then, like a little
thief, she bent her lips to kiss the woman's hair without the woman
knowing. I threw my head back and caught the kiss upon my lips, I threw
my arms back and caught her round the neck; never was a thief so caught
in his own trap.

Then I turned round, and let her go, and confronted her, all at the
same time. And there she stood, "with her head hung down and all her
little face grown red."

Love has never been described properly: all that about roses and altars
is nonsense. Love is like being in a beautiful and mysterious room,
and you push a curtain aside and you find a more mysterious and more
beautiful room, and you see another curtain. How that comparison would
shock the people who write poetry. Imagine comparing love to a suite of
rooms.

I shall never forget that drive; the horses were those Russian horses
that go as if they were mad; the air was all filled with the smell of
autumn, and the earth seemed as silent as the leaden-coloured sky. The
park lay all dull-coloured and damp, the great trees were standing with
their leaves hanging down.

Miles and miles of park we passed through; there were sober and
sad-coloured hills in the distance that seemed to watch us with a
mournful air. The country had for me the aspect of fate as it lay
around us, silent as a dream, the trees dropped their withered leaves,
the clouds passed by, the wind blew, and clouds and wind and trees
all said to me in their own language, the past, the past, the past.
Once Geraldine said, "When I saw you before, so long ago, you were not
dressed as you are now."

No, Geraldine, I said to myself, when you saw me before, so long ago, I
was dressed as a man. But I did not answer her in words.




CHAPTER XIV

THE BALLADE OF THE FALCON


To the deep window of the library, where I am sitting now wrapped in
shawls and scribbling this, I came that day after our drive to sit and
think, and stare out of the double windows at the dusky garden, and
wait for tea. I had taken an old book from one of the library shelves.
It was "The whole art of Falconry," dedicated to his Majesty, King
Charles the First, by his liege servant--I forget whom.

When I was tired with looking out of the window I turned over the
leaves of the book; they smelt of age. Between the cover and the last
leaf was a manuscript, the ink faded, the paper mildewed. I spelt it
out in the dusk.

It was a ballad written in a curious, old-fashioned hand. It was about
a little falcon which a lady had given to her lover; he killed her in a
fit of passion, and he killed the little falcon, or "the little hawke,"
as the ballad sometimes called it, and then he killed himself. As I
read it grew sadder and sadder, it seemed to moan to me like a living
thing, and my eyes became blind with tears so that I could scarcely
read it in the twilight. It was all about the little falcon, but I knew
that the pity was meant for the cavalier. Perhaps the writer dared not
express it openly, for was not the cavalier an assassin and a suicide?

This is the last verse, as well as I remember--

  "With the little falcon prest
  To his cold and lifeless breast,
  They laid him to his rest.
  And the ballade humbly prays
  The tribute of your sighs
  For the hawke's blinde little eyes,
  --And the cavalier who lies
  By the four cross ways."

Ah! the dead hand that wrote that long ago betrayed itself in the two
last lines,

  "And the cavalier who lies
  By the four cross ways."

I laid it down and cried as if my heart would break. I was crying, not
for the cavalier but for "the little hawke."




CHAPTER XV

MY LETTER


That night I went up to my room early. I took pens, ink, and paper
with me--why I took them I had no notion--I took them. I lit all
the wax lights on the mantel, and the wax lights that stood on the
dressing-table. Then I stood before the dressing-table mirror looking
at myself. I can see the reflection of my face still, a pale face with
dark sombre eyes, and lips that curled in a sneer. That was how Gerald
Wilder looked when he was in a rage. I could see now Gerald Wilder, the
assassin and the suicide. I was Gerald Wilder.

Geraldine and I were inextricably entangled--she in the body of a
boy, I in the body of a woman. Was this my punishment for that murder
and that suicide committed long, long ago, this blind maze of the
flesh into which I had been led? I could do one of two things. Leave
Geraldine to-morrow morning, never to see her again, or--stay. If I
left her she would break her heart, and die. I would break my heart,
and die. Then perhaps we might meet, and be happy for ever. Surely, if
all those stars were suns, and if there were worlds round them like our
world, God might give us some little place, some tiny garden out of all
His splendour. He was rich, and owned the whole of space, and He would
give something to two ghosts who had left the world for the love of
each other. That was what would happen if we left each other--we would
grow sick and die, but we would meet on the other side. If we remained
together, I knew that something would happen to separate us for ever,
how I knew this I cannot tell, perhaps it was by instinct.

I turned from the mirror to the table, where I had placed the writing
things. Now I knew why I had brought them up: it seems to me that we
often think when we don't know we are thinking.

I sat down, and took one of the thick sheets of paper stamped in red
with

  "THE GABLES,
  "ASHWORTH, YORKS,"

and I wrote. This is what I wrote--

 "DEAR JAMES,--I know now why you have sent me down here. I have seen
 your Geraldine, and I love her, but I must leave her. It will kill
 us both, but I have chosen to die. _Can_ you not see that I am your
 kith and kin, that I am Gerald Wilder? You have no claim on Geraldine,
 for she is a Sinclair, she is the dead Beatrice returned as a Wilder.
 I think I see it all now, if one may see anything in such awful
 darkness. I know, without knowing exactly _how_ I know it, that if we
 part we shall dream of each other till we die, and that then we shall
 meet never to be separated, but if we remain together some fearful
 thing will happen and divide us, so that we may never meet again.

 If I loved your son all would be right, but it is not Gerald I love,
 but Geraldine--Beatrice.

 I am leaving here early to-morrow morning, going, I don't know where.
 I shall write to you.

                                    Signed,

                                                       GERALD WILDER."

Then I directed an envelope--

  JAMES WILDER, ESQ.,
  NO. -- BERKELEY SQUARE,
  LONDON.

I put the letter in. I gummed it. Then I began to search for a stamp.
I felt that I must stamp it to add a kind of security to my purpose,
though the post did not leave until noon on the morrow. What a search I
had for that stamp. I rummaged all my dress pockets; at last I found my
purse,--there were two stamps in it.

I stamped the letter carefully. I held it in my hands as I sat
over the fire. Then, without any apparent reason, I tore the letter
slowly up into four pieces, then into eight. Then I placed the pieces
carefully on the burning coals in the grate. I watched the stamp
burning and thought it was a pity to see it burn, for it was worth a
penny. I saw the d e r letters of Wilder stand out white on a bit of
the burnt envelope.

Then I took the poker and poked at the bits of paper ash.

I was thinking.

All my life long I have loved everything beautiful: colours have a
strange fascination for me, you could make me sad quicker with a colour
than a story or a poem; scents and sounds have the same effect, the
smell of violets suddenly transports me to somewhere, I don't know
where, I only know it is elsewhere. I have heard things in music that
no one has ever heard, notes that come up again and again as the
harmony moves to the end of its story, sombre notes full of fate.
I have seen people listening to music and their faces had no more
expression than jugs; I have heard women talking of the opera, utterly
unconscious of the story the music they were listening to was telling
them.

I was sitting by the fire thinking; the bits of burnt paper had flown
up the chimney in a hurry, perhaps the devil had called them. I was
thinking in pictures, and I felt unutterably happy and relieved now
that I had written my letter to James Wilder--and burnt it.

I saw my room in ---- Crescent. The creature that had inhabited that
room was not _I_. I saw the room so distinctly that I saw on a shelf
an old tattered book--Dumas' "Three Musketeers." I used to read it
sometimes at nights, and I used to wonder how it was possible that
the Duke of Buckingham could have loved Anne of Austria in the insane
manner in which he did; now I saw at a glance that such love was quite
possible, and no fable. He loved her because she was unattainable, she
was a Queen; he could never have loved an ordinary woman like that. A
soap bubble is the most beautiful thing in the world because it is so
unattainable, you cannot put it in your pocket.

Then Geraldine suddenly appeared before my mind. Not only Geraldine,
but the thousand and one things that made her up. I have told you
before that colour and scent and sound seem to act as food and drink
to me. This Geraldine had all these in their fullest perfection, like
some strange tropical fruit that no one could imagine till they had
seen. At no point was she imperfect; she was an utter little dunce, but
that was her last and crowning fascination: she could not spell A B ab,
and the problem of what twice thirteen was would have filled her small
brown head with distraction. She could not tell you where Asia was, nor
whether Japan was the capital of China; but neither could one of those
delightful things we read of in the old stories, things that come out
of a fountain and turn into a shower of spray when spoken to.

I was going to stay, then. What on earth made me dream of leaving
_Geraldine_? Did that idea really occur to me? To leave here and get
into a _railway train_ and go back to a place called London--to turn
back out of the seventeenth century into the horrible nineteenth
century, with its railroads and smoke, and telegraphs, just because a
hideous old woman called Reason had told me to do so or it would be
wrong.

I took another sheet of paper and wrote.

 DEAR JAMES,--I know now the reason why you sent me here. I have fallen
 in love with your mysterious Gerald. Leave us together and have no
 fear, lovers never hurt each other, except, perhaps, with kisses. I
 shall write to you every other day.--

                                   Yours affectionately,

                                                     BEATRICE SINCLAIR.


This letter I gummed up in an envelope. I had no trouble to find a
stamp for it; my purse lay on the table and in it the other stamp. Then
I put the letter on the mantel, and went to bed.




CHAPTER XVI

THE BLACK HORSE AND THE WHITE


I had such a strange dream. I dreamt that I was in man's clothes, and
that I was astride of a coal black horse: how I knew that the horse
was black I scarcely can tell, for the night around me was dark as
death, Geraldine was on the pommel before me, grasping me round the
loins with her arms; her head was on my breast, the horse was galloping
mad, mad he seemed; behind me galloped a man on a white horse, a man
in the dress of a cavalier. I turned my head now and then to look at
him. He was myself, and he was dead. He swayed and he reeled in the
saddle. His spurs were plunged and stuck in the white horse's sides,
and great flakes of bloody foam fell from them through the darkness
like red flowers; we tore through archways that seemed to roar at us,
down white roads, and through tiny hamlets with lights that winked
at us, and then we were in the darkness again, on a moor. A ghastly
moon broke through the clouds overhead. I looked back, he was still
following, swaying and reeling, now falling flat back on the back of
his horse, so that his long black hair mixed with the horse's tail,
now falling straight forward, his hair all thrown and mixing with the
horse's mane. I saw the nostrils of the white horse blown out thin as
paper, its staring, straining eyes. Then the darkness fell again and
I found Geraldine gone; and the moon broke through again, and I saw
that the white horse had overtaken me and passed me, and was far ahead,
and the cavalier, reeling and swaying in the saddle, held Geraldine in
his arms, and they were both dead. Then my horse faltered and stumbled
and fell. And I woke. All around me was in black darkness. I felt the
pillows to make sure I was in bed, then I felt for a match-box on the
little table by the bed-side, and I struck a light. The clock on the
mantelpiece pointed to quarter past five. I rose and lit a candle, and
put on a wrapper. I felt frightened. I wanted to go to Geraldine to see
if she were all right. You never love a person so much as just when you
wake from a dream of them, at least I quote from my own experience. I
opened my bedroom door, the passage was utterly dark, and the house
seemed strangely still. I came along the passage like a ghost--only I
had a candle in my hand, and you never hear of ghosts carrying candles.
I reached the top of the great hall stairs, and I saw the hall below,
with the men in armour standing round the oak-panelled walls and the
grey dawn glimmering down at them through the stained glass windows. I
came down the stairs, crossed the hall. My feet were bare, but I did
not feel the cold of the parquet. I pushed the curtain aside that led
to the corridor with its flower-pictured walls and fan-shaped windows.
The heavy curtain at the end concealed a bedroom, that I knew. I blew
out the candle and raised the curtain. A door half open; I pushed it
and entered. On a bed, white as snow, lay a little figure curled up
under the sheets. The window-blinds had not been drawn and the grey,
still light fell on a small face. Never seemed anything so fast asleep
as this form. As I stood watching it, it seemed to me that I could
still hear the galloping of the dream horses, I felt like a thief.
Geraldine was safe then; she knew nothing of that furious ride through
the night, heard none of the galloping of those horses.

As I turned from taking a last look at the sleeping face I felt awed,
not exactly awed, but frightened. Do you know that perfect and absolute
purity frightens one to look at, as if it were a ghost? You may laugh,
but it does, though it is more rarely seen than any ghost. I have only
seen it once, and that was when I saw this child asleep with the dawn
on her face.

When I had found my room again I drew up the window-blind and
opened the window. The trees in the garden stood all dripping with
dew in the grey light that came from the slate-coloured sky, and the
chrysanthemums looked like the ghosts of chrysanthemums. Not a breath
of wind. I looked up at the sky. Two crows were flying lazily in the
distance, their black wings winking dreamily as they flew. Not a sound.




CHAPTER XVII

THE OLD OAK CHEST


I woke at nine o'clock. Someone had knocked at my door. It was only the
maid-servant with hot water.

I had gone to sleep at six o'clock with the vision of that strange grey
dawn in my head, and now at nine--I can never account for my motives,
I seem built up of perversities--at nine o'clock I woke, and my first
sensation was one of irritation. I was irritated with myself, and I was
irritated with the thoughts of the old butler. I was irritated with the
window-blind which I had drawn down all crooked. I was in a sulk with
Geraldine.

I looked at my face in the looking-glass. I was a fright. My eyes were
red. I dressed, and I actually did not care what dress I put on. It
did not matter; all my dresses were hideous, every woman's dress was
hideous, except Geraldine's, she alone knew how to dress.

Really never before had I been in such a vile and senseless humour. It
seemed to take in the whole world. I passed in review all the men I had
ever known. They were all about equally detestable; they seemed all so
like one another, more or less hair on their faces, that was all, and
yet women fall in love with these creatures; but then, what were women?
I passed in review all the women I had ever known, and all the women
I had ever heard of--they all had to stand for inspection beside the
strange figure of Geraldine. Oh, what fools they looked, what dummies,
what empty-headed apes, tricked out in borrowed feathers, full of
spiteful tricks, and tricks to draw the attention of those other apes,
the ones with beards.

I thought of the school-girls at the boarding-school,--those virgins
so full of suppressed vice, their finnikin manners, their whispers,
and their sniggers. I never thought that I too had been one of those
vicious virgins.

I pricked myself with a pin, and that brought me back from my thoughts.
Then I went down to breakfast. One place as usual. Old James the butler
seemed grown ten years younger since that night so long ago when he let
me in first, that night so long ago, the night before last. He darted
about so quick that he upset a plate of muffins on the floor. Then
bang! my bad humour changed suddenly to good.

What did this little wretch mean by breakfasting alone at unearthly
hours? Did she have strange people out of the garden to breakfast with
her? people with feet like roots, and faces like flowers. I had seen
this Geraldine looking at the chrysanthemums with an expression of face
as if she knew more about them than a mortal ought to know. Last night
a great moth flew in from the garden, and rested quite familiarly on
her hair, just above her ear. She treated the snails just as if they
were kinsfolk. I felt sure that to her breakfast-table guests came who
would have flown, or run, or crawled, from _my_ presence.

Then, like a sombre note of music, came the recollection of my dream.
I heard the mad galloping of the horses, and my good humour turned to
sadness. You must think me a very changeable person, but that is just
what I am. I am jotting down all my feelings as they came, so you can
see that it takes very little to move me from sorrow to laughter.

I have written seventy-three pages! almost a little book. To think that
I should ever have written a book, no matter how small!

Well, when breakfast was over I sat for awhile making up my mind that
Geraldine might come to me before I came to her; then I got up and did
exactly what I had determined not to do. I came down the toy-house
corridor. I knocked at the right hand door; no answer. I pushed the
door open and peeped in; no one. I knocked at the bedroom door; no
answer, but I did not go in, I felt somehow afraid. Then I turned to
the left hand door. I opened it. It was a strangely pretty room, but
it did not contain Geraldine. It looked like an oratory; the roof was
arched, and at the far end the daylight through a stained glass window
shone glimmering down on the polished oak floor. A silver lamp swung
from the ceiling, and an oak table, plain and rather severe looking,
stood in the centre. This was where she probably dined, if she ever
dined, and breakfasted all alone.

What a life this strange being must have led, just like a nun, and many
a morning she must have sat here all alone whilst _I_ was--where?

Do you know that all the sermons ever preached would have had less
effect upon me than the sight of this room? I suddenly saw the
beastliness of the world we all live in, just as plainly as if it had
been some vile reptile crawling from under that oak table; but we never
see sights like that for long, just half a second or so, and then we
forget. I looked for a moment, then I turned away. Where had she gone
to? was she hiding? could she be in the garden?

No, she was not in the garden; the chrysanthemums all looked as if they
knew but would not tell. Oh, those chrysanthemums, how they haunt my
dreams, actually haunt me; they are all dead and forgotten, but their
faces seem to haunt me. Geraldine made them human when she walked
amongst them, she touched their faces as if they were faces of brothers
and sisters. I saw her smile at one once, and once I saw her actually
frown at one of them, and now they come and haunt me as if to say,
"What have you done to Geraldine?"

Then I began to feel uneasy. Where could this strange child be? had any
accident befallen her? I remembered my dream, and hurried back to the
house. Old James, the butler, was crossing the hall, a tray of glasses
in his hands. I asked him had he seen the child, did he know where she
was hiding?

He answered that she had gone out for a drive; she went at eight.

I could have boxed the old fellow's ears.

Was she in the habit of going out for drives so early in the day?

Oh, yes, several times a week the horses were ordered early. That
exasperated me. So it was a habit not to be broken through on my
account. Just because it was her habit, she had gone out and left me
all alone, knowing very well that I would be hunting for her. Then
I remembered the absurd fright I had been in about my dream, and I
remembered the strange and passionate parting of the night before, and
now this cold creature had gone out for a drive; no wonder she was so
fond of snails.

Where was the use of loving a creature like this? it would build a
house for itself of your dreams and sighs and groans, and then crawl
off with its house on its back. All my waking irritation returned.
I told the old butler to bring me my luncheon to my room when
luncheon-time came, for I felt ill--so I did--and would not come down
again that day.

Then I went upstairs to my bedroom utterly determined to give Geraldine
a lesson that she would never forget. She might wait for me, but I
would not come, not I.

Up in my bedroom I fell into one of those stupid fits in which we--at
least I do--take a tremendous amount of interest in nothing. I looked
at my rings and at my hair brushes. I looked at myself in the glass.
I stood with my head against the pane, looking out at the garden. The
weather had not altered, still moist and warm and autumny; all these
three days seemed carven out of the same kind of weather so that they
might last for ever as one piece, all the same, beautiful, sorrowful,
and dark. "For ever" I say, for I am sure I shall see them even when
I am dead: perhaps they will be for me the only solatium through
eternity, given me to look at, like some gloomy but beautiful jewel to
a sick and sorry child.

After a while I grew tired of taking an interest in nothing. I fell
to wondering what Geraldine would do or say if I killed myself or was
killed. She would go out for a drive very likely. Then I thought what a
fool I had been to prison myself up in my bedroom and give out to the
old butler that I was ill. I smoked a cigarette as I thought, and then
I determined on an expedition: I would go for a prowl.

At the end of the corridor on which my bedroom opened there was a door.
Yesterday morning I had opened this door to see what was behind, and
had seen a staircase, a spiral staircase, that had somehow an elfish
look. I told you before, I think, that on my first arrival at this
house everything except the dining-room seemed familiar. Well, that
feeling had utterly vanished, yet _still_ everything remained familiar.
I don't exactly know how to explain my meaning fully, unless I can make
you understand that the ghostly part of the familiar feeling was gone.

Well, the little staircase cropped up in my mind just as I finished my
cigarette, and I determined on exploring it. I looked out of my room to
see that no one was about, then I came along the corridor, softly. I
opened the door, and there was the little spiral staircase all covered
with dust. I shut the door behind me, and I can tell you it required
some courage to shut that door and remain alone in the dark with that
ugly little staircase. Then up the staircase I went, feeling my way by
the cold little bannister rail, till suddenly my head came bump against
something. I put my hand up and felt a trap door. I pushed it, and it
fell back. What a strange room I entered, perfectly square, and lit by
one dusty window. The walls were hung with arras, and the only piece of
furniture was a large black oak chest, carved all over with foliage and
figures. It stood opposite the window.

Somehow this room had a strangely forlorn and melancholy appearance, it
had also a vague and musty smell. The arras looked ghostly. Perhaps it
was the perfect silence, but it appeared to me that here a horse and
there a stag seemed ready to jump from the canvas.

I sat down on the oak chest, and began to observe the tapestry more
attentively. Beginning at the window, my eye ran along it. Here was
a hunting scene--a meet evidently--ever so many horsemen surrounding
a man on a white horse, he seemed the chief; he was dressed as a
cavalier, his hair was black and flowing. Beyond, in the distance, lay
a castle, a castle on a green hill, with a white pathway running down
it. I knew that castle was meant to represent Castle Sinclair. A little
further on another scene. The same cavalier, riding, and by his side a
lady on a brown horse; how proudly the horses stepped. A little further
on another scene, love this time, and the same man and the same woman;
they were kissing.

Then I knew by a kind of intuition that this tapestry was meant to
represent the connection of the houses of Wilder and Sinclair, worked,
probably, through long generations by the pious hands of Wilder women.

Suddenly I got up and looked at the tapestry just behind me. Yes,
the same man and the same woman--she on a couch, he on the floor,
perhaps dead, a broken glass beside him. Was that the poison running
on the tapestry-wrought floor?--perhaps. The next scene was a funeral
procession; black nodding plumes and bowed heads.

I looked no more; that tapestry gave me the shivers.

I turned to the oak chest and raised the lid; an odour of rosemary
filled the air. I peeped in. Down at the bottom lay some clothes,
carefully folded, on the clothes a sword, and on the sword a great
cavalier's hat with a magnificent black feather; I took out the hat and
sword, and laid them on the floor, then I took out a most exquisite
amber satin doublet, and the other parts of a man's dress. Down at the
bottom still there lay a pair of long buff-coloured boots, with silver
spurs, and a great glittering silver trumpet, to which was attached a
long crimson silk cord.

I would have clapped my hands, only my arms were so full; here was
everything I wanted. That little Puritan with the pale face would
whimper no more for jingling spurs and a sword on her lover. Oh! the
good sword! I drew it from its sheath, and looked at its broad, strong
blade, all damascened near the hilt, then I popped it back in its
sheath, and kicked off my shoe. I wanted to see if the boots would
fit; I tried one on, it fitted to perfection. This cavalier, whoever
he was, must have had an amazingly small foot. Perhaps he was Gerald
Wilder. Nothing more likely, for this room seemed dedicated to him, and
these things were possibly his relics; any way, they were mine for the
present, and I promised myself a fine masquerade.

_What_ would Geraldine say when she saw me?

I took out the trumpet; it looked like a battle-trumpet; there was a
dint upon it as if from a blow. It was solid silver, and was marked
near the mouthpiece with a little tiger and a P surmounted by a tiny
star. It was evidently intended to be slung round the back by the
silken cord, so I slung it round my back, and taking all the other
things, I left the room, laden like an old clothes man. I had fearful
work shutting the trap door with all the things in my arms, but I
managed it at last, and got safely back to my bedroom without having
been seen.

On the dressing-table stood a silver tray with some luncheon and a
decanter of sherry; so the old butler had been. I shut the door and
locked it, then I placed all my booty on the bed, and sat down to eat
what the old fellow had brought me.

As I ate I thought how fortunate it was that there were so few
servants. The only ones I had seen indoors were the butler and the
sour-faced maid. There must have been a cook, and a very good one,
hidden down stairs somewhere, but she, or he, was never visible. How,
thought I, do these two manage to keep this great house in order? they
are always working like galley slaves, I suppose, and Wilder pays them
like princes; anyhow I am very glad, two are quite enough, almost two
too many.

Then I rose and placed the luncheon things on the floor out of my way,
and then I took all the hairpins out of my hair and let it fall as it
always wants to fall, right round my shoulders in black, curling locks.
Then I undressed. I laughed as I put on the man's things, but my heart
was fluttering fearfully lest they shouldn't fit. I shall never forget
the perfume of rosemary from the amber satin doublet as I drew it on.
Then the boots, how the spurs jingled; but I would not look at myself
in the glass yet, I was not perfect, for the sword still lay on the
bed, and the trumpet. I buckled the sword-belt and swung the trumpet
behind me, then with one hand on the hilt of my sword and one hand
on my hip I whirled round on my heel to face my image in the cheval
glass. I can never tell you, nor could you ever imagine, the deep, the
_furious_ pride that filled me as I gazed at the glorious-looking man
who faced me in the mirror. Can you imagine an eagle condemned into
being a sparrow; can you imagine the feelings of that eagle should
it find itself once more an eagle royal and splendid? So great, so
overmastering was this feeling, that I utterly forgot Geraldine and the
whole world that held her.

I was myself again, yet I was completely changed. All my waywardness
and woman's pettinesses seemed vanished and drowned. As I looked at
the cavalier with black flowing hair, I smiled, and he smiled. How
gloomy and stern was that smile. What a graceful, and strange, and
poetic-looking man he was; one could imagine him riding through a
battle with his face unmoved, one could imagine him terrible in love.

And he was _I_.

Then I turned and threw myself into an arm-chair. Geraldine had just
entered my mind, and the stern cavalier, who would have laughed in
the face of a battle, became like a child. Do men turn weak like this
before the image of their love? I veritably believe they do.

"Geraldine," I thought, "she went out; ah, yes, this morning. I shall
go to her when it is dusk. Will she smile, or will she frown, and my
white rose will she wear it?" Then I found myself wondering what rose.
I could not remember actually that I had given her a rose, yet a vague
impression filled my mind that I had. Somewhere long ago I had given
her a rose, and my fate seemed to depend on whether she would wear this
rose, now, this evening.

Oh, I tell you, on that afternoon, ay, and ever since I put on the
dress of the cavalier, I was not and am not--what I was. That dress
seemed to seal a compact, and I was, and am still, partly drunk with
the remembrance of a dim and shadowy past.

I sat in the arm-chair thinking; time must have flown as it never flew
before.

I would go to her with the dusk and behold it was dusk!

And the wind had risen with the dusk and was sighing amidst the garden
trees like a ghost.




CHAPTER XVIII

THE TRUMPETER


I rose from the arm-chair, and I stood, I remember, sucking in my
underlip and staring at the floor. Then I turned to the wardrobe, and
took out my great sealskin cloak. I threw it round me and it reached to
my feet. I wished to conceal my clothes, why, I did not exactly know,
but it seemed to me that they ought to be hidden from everyone but
Geraldine.

Then I opened the bedroom door softly and peeped into the passage. No
one--not a sound. I stole down the corridor to the head of the great
staircase, and peeped over into the hall, the lamps were not yet lit.
Then I came down the staircase so softly that you might have thought me
a shadow only for the faint, silvery jingle of the spurs. I entered
the corridor, and the heavy silk curtain fell behind me. Then I found
myself standing at the right hand door with my hand pressed to my
heart. No actor about to enter before his audience could have felt
the nervousness I felt. My heart seemed gone mad. Then I dropped my
sealskin cloak and my nervousness fell with it. I tossed my hair back,
felt the hilt of my sword, and without knocking, I turned the door
handle and entered.

The figure of a girl stood at the open window; she was gazing out at
the dusk-stricken garden. Then she turned and saw me. I heard her
breath caught back, and I saw in her hand a white rose.

Did I cross the room? I must have crossed it, but I have no
recollection of doing so. I knew nothing of the world or the things in
the world, save a face that was trying to hide itself on my shoulder,
and a voice that was whispering "You have come." Yes, one other thing I
knew. A beetle passed by out somewhere in the garden, and the dreamy
and mournful boom of his wings mixed sadly with my intoxication,
seeming like a voice from long ages ago.

Oh, that meeting in the grey autumn dusk, that voice repeating over and
over again the words "You have come." When shall I hear those words
again? Never. There is no perhaps for me, I know in some strange way
that I shall hear those words again--never. And the fault is mine.




CHAPTER XIX

THE TRUMPETER


The fault is mine, for I knew, and Geraldine knew nothing.

I knew the past. I knew of my sin. I knew, by some instinct, that God
had brought the past to me. As a means of redeeming my crime He had
imposed renunciation upon me as a penance, and I had chosen instead of
renunciation this deathly masquerade. I would not be debased, I would
not be humbled. God help me--I am humble enough now. All that is what I
see now; just then I saw nothing and cared for nothing but Geraldine.

We kissed only once, just like two frightened children, then we both
passed into the garden. Geraldine's arm I had drawn round my waist. We
wandered, locked together, through the dusk of the garden. We found
the dark yew tree walk by instinct; there was a seat and we sat down.
We could scarcely see each other, we were utterly dumb, confounded with
love.

We heard the wind pass by: we heard the dew fall, and the crying of the
night-bird--a hooting sound.

The rest of that evening I only remember in silhouettes, just as a
drunkard remembers his drunkenness. I remember the parting. I remember
it well, for I saw it reflected in a long mirror. Across the room where
we had been sitting, I can see the picture still--a cavalier standing
by a girl.

Then I found myself in my bedroom all alone, the clock on the mantel
striking twelve. The window-sash was open: the clouds had all broken
up, and the moon was shining on the trees. I leaned on the sill, my
head supported on my right hand, my left hand on the hilt of my sword.
I listened. The wind was sighing amongst the trees, and on the wind
I heard something far away and strange. A confused noise, it seemed
like the noise of a battle in the distance. I tossed back my hair,
and my left hand worked at the hilt of my sword. Yes, it must be a
battle, a great battle in the distance. I caught the cry, "Sinclair,
Sinclair," and then a cry like the distant sound of a thousand voices,
"For the King." I heard the far-off tramp of horses, the vague cries,
the clash of steel. Then the imperious call of a trumpet, the call of
a battle-trumpet. I sprung to my feet from my stooping attitude. I
swung the trumpet from behind me, and seizing it, placed the silver
mouthpiece to my lips; then I blew. I blew till the rafters rang and
the ceiling shook. I paused, then again I blew. I was drunk, and mad,
mad--with the madness of battle. I left the room. The soul of the
trumpet seemed to have possessed me, the mad sound of the trumpet
beaten back from the walls drove me onwards. Through the corridor,
down the great staircase, across the hall, then back up the staircase,
along the corridor to my room I passed, the whole house ringing to the
sound of the silver trumpet.

Then I found myself lying on my bedroom floor, sick, faint, and covered
with a cold perspiration. The trumpet lay beside me. Away upstairs
I thought I heard frightened cries, and the banging of a door, then
silence. I crawled to the bed. I could scarcely drag my body on to
it, my exhaustion was so great. Then I fell into a deep and dreamless
sleep.




CHAPTER XX

THE RUBY WINE


Oh, the dismal dawn that woke me, it came through the window that I
had left wide open. I sat up in bed. I was still dressed. My spurs had
torn the coverlet, the trumpet and its blood-red silken cord lay upon
the floor. The wind blew in, shaking the curtains mournfully. I saw it
all at a glance. I remembered everything--the trumpeter had returned.
Oh, it was awful, that moment of cringing terror. It seemed as if fate
had been crawling at me slowly during the last three days. It seemed as
if last night she had made a fearful bound, and now, like a tiger, was
crouching for the final spring.

I had done it with my own lips, I had blown the death-trumpet for
Geraldine. And now that voice came back that I heard at first, saying,
"Remember, Geraldine is a boy." Ah, yes, I remembered it now, now that
I had heralded to Geraldine the fate to which all the eldest boys of
the Wilder family were doomed.

I threw myself face down on the pillows, weeping as if my heart would
break; but of what use were tears? I had elected to play the part of
a man, tears were out of place. I stopped weeping and dried my eyes.
_What_ was to be done? how could I save this child?

"Only one way," said a voice in my head, "leave her--you alone can kill
her, so leave her."

I would,--I would leave her. I determined on that and rose from the
bed; but, oh God help me, I determined to go first to her to say
good-bye. Was it wrong? ask it of yourself. How--how could I leave this
child, whose life was dearer to me than my own, how could I leave her
without saying good-bye? Do you know what it means to leave a person
you love, to leave for ever without saying good-bye? Could a mother
leave her infant never to see it again without first kissing its tiny
hands, its lips, its eyes? I could have torn my heart out with my own
hands, but I could not have left Geraldine without saying good-bye.

I came to the great pier-glass and I saw myself--the cavalier. I leaned
my head against it and against his, and I gazed out of the window at
the dull grey sky; still another day of the damp, dark, sorrowful
weather. The clock on the mantel pointed to the hour--quarter to six.

"I shall kiss her once and say good-bye and leave her for ever," I
murmured to myself, but the words seemed to have little meaning. "I
shall go to her now," I said, standing upright and addressing my own
reflection in the glass, "for the sooner it is over the better."

I left the room. The passage was dark, but I felt my way with my hand.
Down the stairs I came, across the hall, down the little corridor. I
lifted the curtain and knocked. "Come in," said a voice.

She was not asleep, then. I opened the door. Geraldine was sitting
by the open window, dressed; she had not been to bed. The bed lay
white--Oh, God, if these tears would only choke me and not fill my
throat with this dull, heavy pain--white and uncrumpled. She stretched
out her arms to me feebly and as if against her will. And now I had
kissed her three times, and was kneeling by her side, I--who had
determined to kiss her once and leave her--and her head was upon my
shoulder, and she was telling me how she could not go to bed for
thinking of me, and how she loved me, loved me as no one had ever been
loved before. Oh the innocence and divine sweetness of this love, of
this voice, and the terror and anguish of the thought, "You are doomed
to kill her, doomed, doomed."

How could I leave her? She had actually put her arm round my neck. I
laid my head behind hers, so that I might not see the dawn, and might
forget the world. My lips kept murmuring, "It is fate." As if in answer
to the muttering of my lips there came a sound, the turret clock was
striking six, six melancholy strokes; they brought back to my mind the
words of the little black book.

"Geraldine," I cried, holding my face on her knees, "it was this hour,
long, long ago, when I killed you; tell me to go, tell me to leave you,
it will happen again, for Death is here, oh! _listen_ to the wind." I
ceased, and the wind sobbed and sighed in the garden, but no word came
from Geraldine, only a tear that fell and burned my hand. "Geraldine,"
I whispered, "I have betrayed you, turn me away for your own sake."

Then I felt two soft hands seize my hair on either side of my head, and
lift my face. I heard a voice whisper, "You are mine, and I will hold
you so."

"Ah! then," I cried, "let the past be gone for ever; now, now with this
kiss--and this--and this--let us defy Death." But even as our lips
clung together, the wind moaned drearily in the trees. I heard Death, I
felt him, he was in the garden, his gray misty face was at the window.
We clung to each other like people drowning; we seemed to know that
the eternal parting was so near; speechless, with lips paralysed, but
still pressed together, we seemed listening for help, but no help came,
nor sound--only the sound of the wind mourning in the trees.

Then drearily a little bird began to sing somewhere in the garden. Its
song pierced my wretched heart and drove me to madness, to passion.
I stood up, and, as my arms were round her, I lifted her in my arms.
For one moment I held that delightful burthen, so warm and supple and
perfumed, then growing dizzy, I laid her on the bed and leaned beside
her. She started and drew back from something she saw in my gaze. Her
lips grew pale.

"Geraldine," I muttered, "what is the matter, _Geraldine_?"

The pale lips moved, and a terror shot through me. She was going to
faint; no, she was not going to faint, she seemed recovered now, but
how weak she seemed.

"Wait," I whispered to her, "wait till I come back."

I left the room and hurried across the hall to the dining-room. Here,
on the sideboard was a lock-up case containing brandy and liqueurs, but
it was locked, of course; here was a decanter labelled "Roussillon."
That would do.

I took a wine-glass and the decanter, and returned.

Geraldine, when she saw the decanter, shook her head, just as children
shake their heads at the medicine bottle. But I was firm, and poured
out a glass of the ruby wine. I put my hand behind her head and told
her she must drink, drink it right off. She did as she was bid, and
made a face; she said it was, bitter, and I said "Nonsense." Then her
eyes became sleepy, and she lay with them fixed on mine; then her
eyelids began to droop with sleep. Oh, how jealous I felt of sleep.
And now I could not see her eyes at all. She was breathing deeply, and
her lips now and then gave a little twitch. I sat holding her hand
and stroking it. I sat for twenty minutes watching her. How light
her breathing had suddenly become, and now suddenly she caught her
breath and smiled as if she beheld some one in her dreams. I heard the
galloping of a horse from the avenue, but I did not heed.

I waited for the next breath, but it never came. The smile had parted
her lips, but she did not breathe; the eyelids lifted a tiny bit, but
the eyes did not seem to see.

I said "Geraldine." No answer.

What was that furious ringing of bells, and that thundering as at a
door? I heard it, but never heeded.

"Geraldine, Geraldine," I whispered. "Geraldine, wake, I am waiting for
you." No answer, but the sound of the wind wailing in the trees.

She never moved, the smile on her face never changed. I sobbed. I
turned round. Wilder was entering the room, he had just arrived. When
he saw me dressed as I was he threw up his hands. He did not look at
the form on the bed; he looked at the decanter, he smelt the glass,
and he gave a little senile, dreary kind of laugh. He pointed to it and
made a motion as if drinking. I knew what he meant,--it was one of his
opium decanters mislabled Roussillon.

Then he sat down by the form on the bed, with his hands on his knees
and his head bowed, and I heard him murmuring the words "My child."

The turret clock struck seven; with the last stroke I heard the shrill
neigh of a horse, and the sound of a hoof striking sharply on granite.

It was as if to say: the play is ended, the curtain has fallen, never,
never to rise again.




CHAPTER XXI

"AND THEY LAID HIM TO HIS REST"


I remember next being in my own bedroom. I was taking off the
cavalier's dress, and I felt like a traveller who had returned from
some far and beautiful land. I never wept, nor even sighed. And I
remember the rest of that strange and ghostly day, the silence of
the house, and the room beyond the pretty corridor that held a thing
stranger than anything on earth or in the sea. It rained slightly
towards dusk. I was looking out of a window on to the garden, later--it
may have been midnight for aught I know, I came down the painted
corridor, and entered the bedroom. A lamp was burning, and on the bed
lay something small and straight, covered with a sheet. I drew away the
sheet, and saw the face I had known so well; just the same it looked,
only smaller and more helpless, and the smile had faded away into a
vague, beseeching look.

Then I remember days that passed, and one day when Wilder said to me,
"You will not come?" "Where?" I asked. "To the graveyard."

I was in the library when he spoke. I shook my head.

He left the room; and a little later I heard heavy footsteps, and the
tolling of a bell in the distance. I counted, one, two, three--sixteen,
then the bell ceased.




CHAPTER XXII

THE END

  "--And the ballade humbly prays,
    The tribute of your sighs,
  For the hawke's blinde little eyes,
    --And the cavalier who lies
  By the four cross ways."


The little falcon came back last night. It has been weeks away, but it
came back last night, and I feel it even now pinching at my wrist. It
seems to say, "Hurry, you have nearly finished." It seems anxious for
me to go with it. Where? I do not know.

I can scarcely write. I am half-blind with what? God only knows. Not
tears, for I have no tears left. A darkness has stolen over my brain.
In writing this story I have drawn the past up to me like an unwilling
ghost: I have kissed it on the forehead, mouth, and eyes, and now that
my story is finished it has slipped back into the darkness, and I am
left alone.

They have buried Geraldine. Not in the little church in the park, where
all the Wilders are buried; she has a grave of her own outside the
church, and on the marble headstone is the name "Beatrice Sinclair."

But I shall be buried in the church, and I know that my tablet will
bear the inscription, "Sir Gerald Wilder, Kt." so that even our dust
may not meet,--what matter?

I am not afraid to die; in fact, if I could be glad about anything,
I should now be glad. Death seems to me such a little withered,
contemptible figure, for ever jealous of Love--yet sometimes death
seems to me like a white marble portico, seen down an alley of cypress
trees, under a sky all dark with autumn.




  Beneath the ocean spray
  Strange things lie hid away;
  And in the gloom
  Of many a tomb
  Lie stranger things than they.
  But in the world, I wis,
  Nought is more strange than this--
  The love of Death for May.
  Nothing more strange above
  The skies where eagles rove;
  Nothing below the winter snow
  Or flowers that spring winds move;
  Nought in eternity
  Or time, unless it be
  The love of Death for Love.


TURNBULL AND SPEARS, PRINTERS, EDINBURGH.




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