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Title: Memoirs and resolutions of Adam Graeme of Mossgray

Author: Mrs. Oliphant

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                        MEMOIRS AND RESOLUTIONS

                                  OF

                              ADAM GRAEME

                             OF MOSSGRAY.

          INCLUDING SOME CHRONICLES OF THE BOROUGH OF FENDIE

                           BY THE AUTHOR OF
           “PASSAGES IN THE LIFE OF MRS MARGARET MAITLAND,”
              “LILLIESLEAF,” “THE DAYS OF MY LIFE,” ETC.

                       “So he bore without abuse
             The grand old name of gentleman.”--TENNYSON.

                            [Illustration]

                                LONDON:

                    HURST AND BLACKETT, PUBLISHERS,
                     SUCCESSORS TO HENRY COLBURN,
                     13, GREAT MARLBOROUGH STREET.
                                 1859.


                    JOHN CHILDS AND SON, PRINTERS.




BOOK I.

THE HISTORY OF ADAM GRAEME.

     .... To some kind of men
    Their graces serve them but as enemies.
     .... Your virtues, gentle Master,
    Are sanctified and holy traitors to you.
              AS YOU LIKE IT.




ADAM GRAEME OF MOSSGRAY.




CHAPTER I.

    Our birth is but a sleep and a forgetting,
      The soul that rises with us, our Life’s star,
    Hath had elsewhere its setting,
      And cometh from afar;
          Not in entire forgetfulness,
          And not in utter nakedness,
          But trailing clouds of glory do we come
          From God, who is our home.--WORDSWORTH.


The first thing which I can record concerning myself is, that I was
born.

That I was born! I who now sit in this remote and solitary study, of
whose mysteries my good neighbours speak reverently with doubt and
wonder, encompassed with things immortal!--the everlasting elements
without, the stream, the hills, the fruitful earth, which has been and
shall be until the end of time; within with things of life, instinct and
inherent, fated perchance to live longer than this present world, the
books of men--the Book of God--that out of darkness and sleep and
unconsciousness, I was born!

These are wonderful words. This life, to which neither time nor eternity
can bring diminution--this everlasting living soul, _began_. My mind
loses itself in these depths. Strangely significant and solemn are the
commonest phrases of our humanity; the words which veil the constant
marvels of our miraculous life!

But this of “he was born” is greater in my eyes, than that other of “he
died.” Say you, He died? say rather, He has changed his garments, has
put off a fading robe, which by and by--perchance a time as short in
Heaven’s account as are these fleeting days to us--he shall put on
again, to wear for ever. But in yonder anxious house, in yonder dim
room, with life’s plaintive music rising on his unconscious ear, in
wailing and tears, its natural utterance, this wonderful soul began. Be
solemn in your rejoicing, ye new mothers, ye glad attendant friends; for
this that hath come into the world shall abide for ever, this new
existence is beyond the breath or touch of death, a thing immortal, a
presence which shall outlive the world.

I was born sadly, in gloom which none broke by the voice of
thanksgiving, for the two greatest things of human life met in my
birth-hour. I entered the world, a fit entrance for my long, clouded
course; and solemnly, in pain and grief, my mother went forth to the
other country. My young, fair, gentle mother, of whom I think now as of
some beautiful dream that crossed me in my youth.

My father was a hard man, who loved the world; but I used to hear long
ago that this moved him. Most deeply all my life has it moved me, who
never knew the girl who was my mother. She has been a vision hovering
about me all my days; saintly and mother-like when I was young, but now,
in her pale beauty resembling more a dead child of the old man who is
her son.

I dwell upon this perhaps too often, when I am sad--and I am truly sad
too often, for I am alone; but it is surely well and blessed to preserve
in the safe keeping of death this holy fragrance of youth. The years
that have mossed her grave, and made the blood thin and chill in my old
veins, have brought no change to her--she is young for ever.

My father was a Graeme of Mossgray. In our own Southland district we are
chief of the name; but he did not esteem the traditional honour that
belonged to the title--it was mere idle breath to him. The principal
part of his life was spent in a distant city. He laboured without
ceasing, for I know not what reason. I fancy there had been some
ambition in him to accumulate one of those fairy fortunes, which very
prosaic and ordinary men do achieve sometimes, though what end he
proposed to himself in attaining this, I cannot tell, for he himself was
becoming old, and I was nothing to him; even as the heir of his name he
bestowed no regard on me; for the name itself was indifferent. He would
have thrown it into the scale with any piece of merchandise, and known
himself nothing the poorer.

But a spell was upon this fortune of his, so constantly pursued. His
prosperity never passed a certain limit. It was as though some malicious
spirit had the guiding of his fate in this respect, in vengeance of
better blessings unused and slighted. He always began with success and
good fortune; the delusive promise lasted long enough to lure him deeper
and deeper into the snare, and then the tide began to swell and turn,
and on its rising waves his hopes went bitterly out into the blank and
cheerless sea. It was a sad fate, and had his objects been worthier, a
fate to be deeply sympathised with; but the man was a hard man (I
scarcely knew him, though he was my father); and was susceptible to no
grief but this. That discipline, wise as it must be, most hard as it is
always, which strikes us through our dearest things, could not touch him
except in those outward matters of wealth and mercantile credit, which
to him were all in all; and on these accordingly the stroke fell.

So heavily it came at last, that in his wilful selfishness he resolved
to sell Mossgray. There was no one living to plead for me, a child then,
scarcely daring to lift up my eyes in his presence, and for my right to
this inheritance, descended from many upright fathers to whom its very
name and local place were dearer than fortune. But death stepped in
again to save for me a home--a home which has been to me a blessed
inheritance, a solace in the midst of some evils--from other some a
refuge and a shelter.

I was a solitary child, allowed in this lonely house of Mossgray to grow
up, neglected and uncared for, as I best could. My childish memories are
rich in dreams and spiritual presences, and overshadowed universally by
that vague sadness, which, dumb as it is, and quiet, is so pitiful in
children. I remember how the leaves were wont to fall from the old elms
and alders by the waterside, with their eerie and plaintive sound. I
remember the low sweeping cadence of the water--the disconsolate autumn
breeze--and then comes upon me again the blank childish heaviness--the
cloud of childish melancholy, that knew not how it was made sad, nor
why.

Mossgray had been a peelhouse--one of those fortified places which the
exigencies of Border warfare, predatory and otherwise, made so necessary
in our district. A high, square tower occupies the centre, with narrow
windows, and arrow slits piercing its massy wall, which has been of old
strong in all needful capabilities of defence, and could yet be a
notable hold, if our peaceful Cumberland neighbours took up their
warlike trade again.

About the tower cling irregular offshoots, added by many Lairds of
Mossgray since peace became paramount on the Border; in which, it is
impossible to deny, my good ancestors have studied convenience more than
elegance. Yet the group of buildings high and low, angled and rounded,
with the dark and rugged tower rising in the midst, have a charm upon
them, greater, as I think, than the fascination of regular beauty.
Patches of moss and yellow lichen are on the walls and roof--the grey,
thick walls, and sombre slated roof, which look themselves like some
natural growth of the earth, firmly rooted in kindly soil. Our doors are
many now, and broad and easy of access--for the successive Graemes, who
have increased the accommodations of Mossgray, have added entrance to
entrance, with a prodigality by no means pleasant when those searching
winds are abroad; but we still preserve the harsh and lowering portal,
and the heavy iron door, which of old frowned upon unwelcome southern
visitors in sullen defiance.

I confess that I have a pleasure in looking upon these--it pleases me to
trace historic changes in the aspect of my patrimonial house; that this
belongs of natural right to the rugged and sturdy times of Border
warfare--that from that gloomy turret with its spiral stair, the golden
shield of Scotland was gloomily taken down by one who had fought in her
cause, when Mary crossed the Firth on her last fatal journey to trust
the false courtesies of England. That in this dark chamber, a godly Lady
Mossgray sheltered the persecuted hinds and shepherds, whose faith has
added them to the ranks of our truest chivalry in Scotland. That this
enlarged and decorated hall in the basement of the tower bears witness
to the peace of the third William’s reign. That these gradually
accumulating walls carry on the chronicle through the less eventful
times of modern history--that here we have been dwelling, through all
vicissitudes prosperous and adverse, in our own land and among our own
people for five hundred certain years. There remembrances I acknowledge
are dear to me. I lose my own individuality when I leave Mossgray.

And in a vague mist of dreamy romance and childish reverie, these
histories hung incumbent on my mind when my dim days began. They lived
with me, a host of mingled times and shapes, more real, as I fancy yet,
than the common every-day things I saw around. The chill of
cold-heartedness, the absence of truth, strike with a strange, blank,
unexpressed pain, upon the heart of a child--and from these I turned to
dwell, where warriors and Border maidens had dwelt before me, among the
true knights and fair ladies of a yearning fancy, whose indefinite
pageants and minstrelsies had yet more truth of nature in them than the
hollow external forms of the life that men called real.--

    “Blank misgivings of a creature
     Moving about in worlds not realized,”

oppressed me on all sides then--but I had no misgivings as to the
beautiful olden times--they were past, and they were true!

At our feet in this Mossgray runs a water, of some importance as we
flatter ourselves. Flowing downward placid and calm from the hills, it
has attained a considerable breadth and volume before it passes our old
walls. And, by what chance I know not, our stream has been kept in its
native pride of woodland and green banks safe from encroachments of
cultivation. We have glades whose grassy undulations and noble solitary
trees might match with any park in England, and we have thickly-wooded
deans, closing in arched foliage over our river, with fretting rocks and
waterfalls peculiarly our own. Scattered cot-houses to whom this water
is a dear companion--quaint and dewy villages lying under the trees,
with glimmerings of softened light about them, from the sky above and
the stream below. Mills picturesque in their mossy homeliness throwing
the drowsy stir of rural labour across the placid water--these are our
friends and neighbours at Mossgray.

Nor do we lack, in our quiet country, inhabitants more distinguished. If
I pursue my walk southward for a mile, I come upon a brave stone bridge,
spanning with its stately arches the pleasant river; and across the
bridge appear the many-coloured roofs of the town of Fendie in their
varieties of thatch and slate, and homely red tiles, congregated happily
together for mutual friendship and traffic. A very tranquil rural town,
along whose streets the sunbeam slants drowsily in summer, with scarce a
passing figure to break its brightness; but withal a busy borough, alive
with many interests, and esteeming itself in innocent vanity and
self-complacence, very far in advance of the simple “country” over
which it sways its little sceptre, in all the arts and luxuries of life.

Withal, our water carries ships, and where it pours itself into the
Firth, has wealthy fisheries upon its margin, and beholds long ranks of
guileful nets, in which its receding waters help the fishermen to snare
the glistening grilse and lordly salmon, born by the hundred in its
silent caves. Our vessels are of no great burden, and boast but homely
names--“Williams” and “Janets,” “Johns” and “Marys”--for our ship-owners
name their cherished boats after their still more cherished children;
but all of them proudly bear the emblazoned name of Fendie. To all of
them the Waterfoot is a delicious haven, fragrant with the breath of
home.

The grey walls of Mossgray have at all times been home to me--although a
quiet and sad one often, to the man no less than to the solitary child
they sheltered long ago. I remember well the pensive childish musings of
that time; the dreamy gladness with which I wandered on those bright
summer mornings by the pleasant water, my sole friend and playmate then,
as it is my best companion now; and that unspeakable loneliness and
desolation which came to me on the drooping wing of the plaintive autumn
breeze. It is all indefinite and vague now as it was then. The little
moralist of ten twelvemonths beginning to think how swiftly those waves
of his young life glided by--the meditative, pensive boy looking on
while his compeers in years pursued their sports, with his bashful wish
to join them, and his sorrowful dreamy thoughts about their unthinking
mirth. I recall these as a succession of dim pictures--the history of a
beginning life, forlorn as only childhood can be.




CHAPTER II.

    Shades of the prison-house begin to close
      Upon the growing boy;
    But he beholds the light and whence it flows--
      He sees it in his joy.


I do not quite agree with Wordsworth.

I grant you that there is much in the earlier childhood, indefinite
always and vague as twilight dreams, which proclaims the spiritual and
infinite to be nearer to these unconscious dawning souls than it is to
us. There is the instinct of wonder, which in its eager whys and
wherefores strikes out intuitions of strange wisdom sometimes,
concerning those common mysteries about us, with which, in the
invulnerable might of their simplicity, philosophers dare not meddle--

    “The obstinate questionings
     Of sense and outward things;”

the “visionary gleam” which this new inmate of the world throws about
unawares from its own strangely luminous soul. I grant you all these in
early childhood, but for your boy!

Your healthful boy is given to no manner of musing. He has begun to come
in contact with the materialisms of the world, and battles with them
lustily, with right good will and daring joyousness. It does not occur
to him to tell you of the beauty of this water, but you shall find him
eloquent on the subject of his anglings or swimmings--his feats upon it
in boats--his miraculous slides--his inevitable fallings in. The
delicate spiritual presence within him has forgotten how, a while ago,
it seemed well nigh to touch, in dreamy awe and reverence, those other
spiritual presences with which its teeming fancy had peopled the
indefinite air everywhere. The warm blood is bounding in his veins in
all its first exuberant impulse of life and motion. To construct--to
destroy--to fight--to labour--to bend all these material obstructions
under the absolute dominion of his strong young human will. To pour
forth in boisterous glee, by shout and whoop, by leap and wrestle, by
all that is joyous, and wild, and loud enough, the overflowing energy of
his youthful powers. Your true boy does not pause in his manifold
undertakings to consider natural joys and sunshine. If you would
understand his enjoyment of these, you must see him breast the current
as he swims across the river, and swing high up on perilous branches in
the wood. His hands are full--let them talk or muse who will--his
vocation is other than this.

The boy’s hero is the material man--the one single unapproachable Crusoe
whom Genius has created for him--the many sailor-men of ruder flesh and
blood, militant upon the sea--the hunter of unknown forests--the
adventurous traveller of dangerous countries--there are the glorious
ideals of the boy. He thirsts to throw the lasso with the fiery
sportsman of Mexico, he burns with vain longing to have been one of the
olden crew who were shipwrecked with the Byron of the sea. He clenches
his hands and sets his teeth in burning indignation, when he reads how
the gentle Cook fell in yon southern island far away, and knows by the
valiant blood rising hot to his heart, that had he been there it had
chanced otherwise. And if he returns to olden times, it is to fight by
the side of Wallace, to row the forlorn boat of the Bruce, to do battle
on the muirs for the Covenant, to guide Prince Charles through mountain
pass and cavern. When he dreams, it is of the world without--the
stirring, fighting, opposing world, which is to be quelled, and put
down, and tamed into obedience to the young conqueror’s will. The sun
sheds grateful light upon him, and the moon looks down from her broad
skies in vain. If he could fight for her, she might enlist his youthful
chivalry, as the Queen of old times, the hapless Mary, like her in lofty
beauty, as in disastrous wading through stormy clouds, might have done:
but to dream of her--to think of her serene pale smile--alas, no! he has
other work in hand.

I remember I was fishing or appearing to fish one bright morning, in a
link of our water, which was a kind of hermitage to me,--I might be
twelve years old then--when my father suddenly approached me, leading in
his hand a boy of my own years--a boy so differently endowed, so
superior to myself as I felt at once in my shy consciousness.

My father visited Mossgray seldom: at this time we had received no
intimation of his coming, and the timid constraint and awkward
diffidence, which were always upon me in his presence, were heightened
into exceeding pain by this sudden appearance.

“Adam,” said my father, “this is your cousin Charles. He is to stay with
you in future at Mossgray.”

My father’s own name was Charles; he looked with favour on his namesake,
as he watched our greeting. I so shy and rustic, and Charlie Graeme so
bold and manly--I felt how disadvantageous was the comparison.

But when my father left us, and we became acquainted, as we did soon,
for my cousin was as frank as I was shy, then the glorious new life of
genuine boyhood which burst upon Mossgray and upon me! How I lavished
upon Charlie the unsunned treasures of my solitary child’s heart; how I
awoke out of my dreamy loneliness, to find myself enriched beyond all
wealth in his companionship. How I discovered a new charm and attraction
in my own beloved water and noble woods, from the wild shout of mirth
with which Charlie plunged into riotous enjoyment of them. How the old
walls and doorways that had been disturbed by few sounds louder than my
pensive stealings out and in, resounded now with the ringing speed of
boyish footsteps, and the blythe din of boyish laughter. It is pleasant
to look back upon that time, when from a childish hermit I became a boy!

There was for me after that era no more solitary watching of the sports
of others. The “haill water” ere long knew Charlie Graeme as the
adventurous leader of every troop of juvenile mischief-makers, and I was
by no means a slow or backward pupil. The complete revolution in my life
which this produced gave these vigorous enjoyments a still greater zest
to me, albeit I sometimes felt the pleasure of compassionate benevolence
towards these strong fellows, my seniors in years, whose unthinking
mirth of mood was so much younger than mine. I liked the sports for
their sake, and they gave me some casual place in their regard for sake
of the games in which I shared--we were different so far--but the
lingerings of my recluse spirit did by no means operate
disadvantageously upon my physical activities. I had emerged into a new
existence. I had entered the second stage of life.

Charlie was the son of my father’s only brother. I had never seen, and
scarcely ever heard of, my uncle; but at his death, which took place a
short time before his son’s arrival at Mossgray, Charlie, with the very
slender inheritance that remained to him, had been committed to my
father’s care, as his only near relative and guardian. To keep us
together at Mossgray was the cheapest and easiest way of getting rid of
us, and accordingly we were despatched together to the academy of
Fendie.

A somewhat famous school in our district, which in its day has sent
forth men into the world--men of stature and nobleness, some few, albeit
it has filled up its quota with perhaps a greater than usual commodity
of packmen; but a school of high standing and character withal, to which
the neighbouring gentry, and the smaller fry of “genteel families” in
Fendie, could send their sons without derogation. We made the usual
progress, as I fancy, in those routine affairs which were called our
studies. We learnt lessons with as much painstaking industry as we could
summon up in the morning, and forgot them with the most praiseworthy
ease at night. We were conscientious enough to play truant seldom--we
had no more than our average of accidents. Charlie only twice fell into
the water, and only once broke his arm. My nautical mischances had all
some connection with the mill-lead at the Dean, my favourite nook. On
the whole we got through admirably. Never boys on the Border were
blyther than we.

Young Fendie of the mount was at an English boarding-school. Our sturdy
home academy was not good enough for the young laird of that ilk. What
storms of ridicule we poured upon him--he knapped English, he had a holy
horror of torn breeks, he never climbed a tree in his life; and,
crowning shame of all, it was whispered among us in the utmost scorn and
derision, that his dainty cambric handkerchief was perfumed like a
lady’s! We looked at the indefinite looking things in our own
miscellaneous pockets, and echoed it with a storm of laughter. “He has
scent on his napkin!” It was the very climax of derision: we could go no
further.

Hew Murray, of Murrayshaugh, was our warmest friend. We met sometimes,
when out-of-door amusements were impracticable, in the vaulted room in
Mossgray Tower, where lay in state various remnants of ancestral mail,
and which we called the armoury--to compare notes as to the changes
which must have happened in the fortunes of Scotland, had we three
chanced to fight at Falkirk with Wallace, or with James at Flodden. But
whereas Hew Murray and I were chivalrously engrossed with considerations
of what we could have done for Scotland, it always happened, as I
recollect, that Charlie rose in glorious anticipation of knighthoods and
earldoms and broad lands to be won by his sword and by his bow.
Innocent chevaliers errant were we, not without a weakness for
beautiful disconsolate princesses, and imprisoned ladies to be set free
by our valour and fidelity, but the dazzling chances of war had greater
fascination for Charlie. _Our_ hero contented himself with freeing the
lady, and reducing the castle--_his_, took possession of the conquered
stronghold and reigned in the stead of his enemy.

But our friends were not all of our own degree. A mile or two on the
other side of Fendie lay a pretty house, which made up in its snug and
comfortable proportions for its entire want of all the antiquities which
clustered in hoary grace about Mossgray. Pertaining to it was a small
farm, which sufficed to give its proprietor the much-esteemed
territorial designation. The name of the place was Greenshaw, its
owner’s Johnstone. People said that he had driven a homely enough trade
in former days; but never man on the northern side of Skiddaw had seen
any vestige of the pack on the broad shoulders of Mr Johnstone of
Greenshaw. Besides, we do rather hold the “wanderer’s” trade in good
repute in our country, so the rumour did the comfortable man no harm.

His son Walter was one of our sworn brethren. Walter Johnstone surpassed
us all in daring; but the greatest heat of boyish excitement could
scarcely bring any additional glow to his cheek, or throw the slightest
tremor into his hand. Walter could calculate his time to a moment; he
was never late, he was never hurried. Prompt and bold, cool and acute,
he was the regulator and time-keeper of our obstreperous band.

Then there was Edward Maxwell, the widow’s son at the Watch-brae. He was
the detrimental of our joyous parties. He always became weary at
unseasonable times; he continually shirked his share of the work, and
evaded the perilous parts of our excursions; but he had good looks in
his favour, and a winning, ingratiating, caressing manner, which
overcame our reproaches. It always happened, too, that Maxwell’s
weakness brought him prominently forward among us. Speculations as to
what he would do next, when he would fail in a fatigue, how he would
glide out of a danger, with what new expedients he would excuse himself,
kept our conversation full of him, and he felt the distinction, such as
it was.

Other companions we had, greater and smaller as it chanced, for we were
perfectly republican. Many kindly ties I have from that school-time
with men of all classes, in all places and quarters of the earth:
Australian settlers in the bush, merchants in London and Liverpool,
distinguished men of literature, poor subalterns in India, humble
shopkeepers in Fendie, small farmer-lairds in my own county; these
pleasant threads of old connection are spun out far and near. I like
it--there is a kindly universality of brotherhood in this, that seems to
me as much better, as it is wider and further reaching than any mere
friendships of one especial class, isolated, and standing upon the bare
platform of their position.




CHAPTER III.

    The youth who daily further from the East
    Must travel, still is Nature’s priest,
        And by the vision splendid
        Is on his way attended.


Yes! it is in youth, properly so called, that the true age of poetry is.

The priesthood of nature, the mood that can hold communion with her in
her every place and time--these come only when the boy’s material age is
past, and the childish dreams come back, mightier now and clearer, to
clothe with their rare grace the expanding, growing soul. Is it well
that this radiance should by and by fade into the light of common day?
let us be content--the old man is of kin to the youth--perchance if the
harsher meridian time did not intervene, it would scarcely be so.

But now the vision splendid travels with him everywhere. There is a
glory about the hills and on the sky; there is music, all the more dear
that it is inarticulate, in every running stream; there is, highest of
all, a wonderful light of truth, and love, and nobleness, over all human
things. Motives grand and sublime, labour generous and great, worthy of
the marvellous position held by this mortal race. The whole universe
vibrates to his ear, with heroic marches and noble chimes of music, to
which his soul thrills, and his step keeps time. True indeed there are
falsehood and selfishness and change here, or whence these tales of
sorrow, and this generous indignation that swells within him, against
the wrong which is to be conquered; but these are not near him. In his
own especial atmosphere there is perfect truth open at all points to the
eye of day. His ideal covers and veils all meaner faults in the objects
of his chivalrous affection; and he pities men who are smarting under
neglect or inconsistency, or worldliness of friends, as those pity who
feel their own blessedness made all the greater by the contrast.

Before I had reached this stage, my father had been for some time dead.
Mr Murray of Murrayshaugh, the father of our friend Hew, a surly old
gentleman of very ancient family, and very meagre estate, was my
guardian; and we boys, having fairly concluded our academy course, began
to form plans for our future life, not without much magniloquence of
speech. Maxwell wavered long between the two grave professions of
medicine and the Church. The latter was at first decidedly the
favourite, for Johnstone, with malicious glee, drew so exquisite a
picture of an adoring congregation, and ministering angels, in the form
of ladies, old and young, that the gentle Edward was overpowered with
modest delight. But the Widow Maxwell in her cottage, on the Watch-brae,
had no manner of influence in the Church, while she had the shadow of a
promise from some patron of her husband’s to procure for Edward a
situation like his father’s, that of an assistant army surgeon. So
Maxwell’s fate was determined. He was immediately to commence his
studies as a medical student.

Johnstone at once and promptly decided for the law, in some one of its
occult branches, I scarcely recollect which; but he had not the gift of
utterance, and therefore was disqualified from entering the highest and
most showy class of the profession.

Charlie’s destination was less easily fixed. He was eager to grow
rich--he aspired to be famous--he liked all the good things of this
world so well, that he was undecided which to grasp at. He thought of
India, and his eyes sparkled; but some indefinite feeling, which was not
home-love, made him determine to remain in Scotland. I used to wonder at
this; for Charlie, with his frank fascination of manners, and his
adventurous spirit, was the very man to travel--the very man, as I
fancied in honest boyish admiration, to succeed brilliantly wherever he
went; but he resolved to remain at home. Then he thought of
business--of becoming a great merchant--for youthful calculators have a
happy knack of leaping over all the initiatory steps--but for that the
capital was wanting. He had nothing--I not very much, and while I would
joyfully have shared my utmost farthing with Charlie, that gruff old
Murrayshaugh growled forth his veto--“There’s enough tint with
merchandise for one generation of ye!” so we relinquished that.

But the gift that Johnstone wanted, Charlie had in perfection. He was a
natural orator; and the momentous decision was made at last. Charlie
decided upon being a great lawyer--the most brilliant pleader in
Scotland--perhaps Lord Advocate eventually--certainly a Member of
Parliament--Member for Edinburgh! Charlie rose from his low carved chair
by the fire as that crowning glory burst upon him--the grandeur of it
was overpowering--Member for Edinburgh!

Murrayshaugh was an impoverished and poor estate. Its possessor had been
“wild” in his youth, and now resented and avenged upon his children the
poverty himself had made. Lucy Murray grew up in forlorn and lonely
seclusion, acquainted from her youth with many cares. Hew was designed
for a civil appointment in India, where his father ordained his industry
should redeem the fortunes of the family. The harsh old man was a
despot--there was no appeal against his arbitrary will.

But Murrayshaugh withal was a gentleman and a scholar; as anxious that
his son should be fully and carefully fitted for the position he was to
occupy as determined that in this way, and no other, should Hew’s life
be spent. So Hew also was to join our little band of students in
Edinburgh, and to have the advantage of two or three sessions’ training
there, before he departed to his far-away labour. I could not part with
them--Charlie and Hew especially were my sworn brethren; and after a
long siege Murrayshaugh yielded to my very reasonable wish of
accompanying them, and gave to Charlie and myself the necessary funds,
commenting bitterly,--

“Your father, Adam, gave me no charge of furnishing two lads for the
college. An it be your silly pleasure to spend your means on your
cousin, the way is to deny yourself, my man--not to think you are a pink
of generosity when it costs you nothing. But take it--take it--I wish ye
much gratitude. If ye get but the common share, ye will be well
repaid.”

“Never mind my father, Adam,” said Lucy, as I emerged indignantly from
the dreary library of Murrayshaugh into the luxuriant garden, with its
mossy terraces sloping to the river-side. “Simon says true, his bark is
worse than his bite--and I think, though he would not say it, that he is
sad about you all going away, and only looks angry because he thinks
shame.”

“Are we to go, Adam?” said Charlie, eagerly. He had come to Murrayshaugh
with me, and had waited on the terrace with Hew and Lucy while I bearded
the lion within.

“Yes,” said I, with some heat--for there is nothing that one resents so
warmly in one’s first youth as any prophecy of ingratitude on the part
of those whom we delight to honour. “Yes, we’re to go. I would like to
know why old people continually think young ones fools.”

I was nearly eighteen--I drew myself up.

“Perhaps because they are often, Adam,” suggested Lucy gently.

I could not be angry at Lucy Murray. I was too full of boyish chivalry,
having reëntered the age of imagination, to be anything but gentle and
deferential to a girl.

“How you do speak,” exclaimed my cousin, “you think us fools, do you,
Lucy?--very well--you’ll see that by and by.”

“When you read the honourable Member for Edinburgh’s great speech,” said
Hew, with his frank and pleasant laugh, “about--what will it be about,
Charlie?”

“And I would like to know,” continued Charlie, angrily, “what we have
done that we should be thought so very foolish. We have only been at
home all our lives, no doubt--people get so much more culture in
Yorkshire!”

Lucy turned away.

“Never heed him, Lucy,” said Hew, “he shows the cloven foot. It’s all
about poor Dick Fendie. Why, man, Charlie, to be jealous of him!”

Charlie was past eighteen. He had some time since thrown his
handkerchief on Lucy Murray, and regularly engrossed her society; by no
means to her own satisfaction at first, but she had become accustomed to
it. He had wounded her feelings now. He saw it himself, and was
maliciously pleased. I saw it as she wandered along the terrace towards
the water-side, and could almost have thrown him over the wall in spite
of our brotherhood.

“What is the matter?” said I. “Quarrel with Hew or me as you like,
Charlie, but what has Lucy done?”

Charlie twisted the graceful curl by the side of his cap, and swung
round on his heel to follow Lucy without answering me. He was very
handsome, and had a frank manliness in every look and gesture which
disarmed one’s reproofs. At present, too, the conscious smile of power
was on his face--he felt himself so sure of immediate forgiveness--so
perfectly able to restore the smiles of Lucy Murray.

Hew and I stood watching him, as he went along the terrace after her.
Our eyes met--we exclaimed in chorus, “He does not mean
anything--Charlie would not hurt any one’s feelings for the world.”

“It was Lucy’s own fault, talking so much of Dick Fendie,” said Hew.
“Mamma’s good boy has come home, Adam--have you seen him yet? And Lucy
would defend him; but I suppose it’s all over now. By the by, Adam, how
does it come about that you and I never quarrel with Lucy?”

“You and I--why, is she not your sister, Hew? and almost mine,
too--Charlie you know--Charlie is different.”

Hew became thoughtful for a moment, and ended with a laugh. “Ay, that’s
because Mrs Mense at Mossgray says they were made for each other. But I
say, Adam, do Lilie Johnstone and you battle at each other like these
two?”

I blushed a tremulous blush--it was desecration to name this sacred name
so lightly. The two things were altogether different--how or wherefore I
did not stay to analyse--but my reverent boyish adoration, and Charlie’s
bold demands upon the constant patience and sole regard of Lucy Murray,
had no resemblance to each other. I shrank back--I would have had Lilias
Johnstone distinguished by the reverent respect of all men, and to hear
her name thus profanely conjoined with mine!

“Are you nearly ready, Hew?” I asked hastily, “and when are we to
start?”

The starting time was decided on that night, and shortly after we set
out, the whole rejoicing band of us, upon a bracing frosty morning, late
in October, on the top of the coach for Edinburgh. Maxwell managed to
get up a few tears for his mother’s especial benefit. I had nearly
joined him myself, I recollect, when I saw her pale anxious face lifted
up so tenderly to the high perch where we were crowded together. Never
human face had worn that look for me, and my heart warmed the more to
the son of this sad mother, even while I almost envied him.

All the rest of us were motherless; but even the gruff “Good-bye, boys,”
of Murrayshaugh had some feeling in it this morning; and Lucy Murray’s
eyes were too heavy to be raised to us, as she stood by her father’s
side. Then there was a small white hand waving a handkerchief from
within the high holly hedge of Greenshaw as we passed. It perhaps was
not all for her brother. I appropriated, with trembling, some share of
the farewell.

In a very short time we had settled down to our respective studies. It
is comparatively unusual in Scotland to give youths the benefit of
college education except for some special profession; so that, put the
learned faculties aside, and you leave but a small residuum to represent
what forms the larger proportion of students in England. It is perhaps
for this reason that we are more practical than our neighbours; that
those niceties of profound classical learning which form the glory on
the head of English universities--those painful researches into the
nature of the Greek verb, and folio disputations on contested words, do
scarcely exist among us. But that by the way. We were very frank, very
unsophisticated, very innocent, we Fendie lads; and even, as I fancy,
very little less so when we left than when we entered Edinburgh. It has
its abundant temptations, no doubt, as all other towns have, but, so far
as I myself saw, we came through them with tolerable safety. Faults of
mind, and temper, and spirit, we had many, but I think we, in a great
degree, escaped that round of petty vices, the assumed manliness of
which leads so many foolish lads astray.




CHAPTER IV.

    I walk as ere I walked forlorn
      When all our path was fresh with dew
      And all the bugle breezes blew
    Reveillée to the breaking morn.--IN MEMORIAM.


I am looking out from the deep window of my study, through the sharp air
of a frosty, clear November night. There are lights gleaming in some
cottage windows, so far down under the bare trees by the water-side,
that you would think them glow-worms on the grass; and silvery mists are
floating about the sky, and yonder lie some great distant mountain
clouds, with stars embayed in creeks and inlets at their feet, like
lights of anchored ships.

The face of the beautiful night before me brings back another time. I
fancy I am leaning again over the grey wall, which bounds the sloping
road on yonder Calton, looking down with rapt and dreamy eyes upon that
wonderful scene below. Hew Murray’s arm is in mine; we have the
visionary reverence of youth upon us, and when we speak, we speak low,
and with few words. Yonder noble hill with its proud crest, and its
visible darkness--yonder faint towers, far below, of storied
Holyrood--that grand rugged line from the dim valley of the palace to
the bluff front of the castle, with its graceful hovering crown of St
Giles lying so fitly upon the stately head of our royal city--the
gleaming lights, halfway between the dim sky and the dimmer earth--the
confused hum ascending up in softened dreamy murmurs. So near the life
and din of a great city; so near the wonderful gloom and silence of the
everlasting hills. There is a jarring sound below. I start and open my
eyes--and I am looking forth upon the placid water of Fendie, the low
cottage lights below, and the steady stars above--an old man and alone!

After our third session together at college, Hew Murray went to his
distant destination. Murrayshaugh himself came to Edinburgh to
superintend his son’s outfit, and to my very great grief, and the regret
of the whole band of us, slightly mingled with envy, Hew set sail in a
Leith smack--we had no steamers in those days--for London, from whence
he was to proceed to Portsmouth, where his ship lay.

Hew was not of the cosmopolitan class; he was one of those--happily
still existing, and I hope increasing in these days--whom the very name
of home and country stirred like a trumpet. After the greatest motive of
all--and I fear that in our youthful time _that_ had but little
comparative weight with us, as it had little place in the teachings of
those who had the guiding of our unformed minds--the honour of his name
and of his native land roused the warm spirit of my dear friend, Hew, as
no other causes could. “For poor auld Scotland’s sake”--in some degree
we all shared the intense and loving loyalty which took this as its
centre, but it was a ruling principle with Hew Murray; and he felt his
banishment most painfully, though he submitted to the necessity like a
man--for Hew had not any very brilliant hopes.

“There is little chance that I will be able to return till I am old,
Adam,” he said to me, sadly, as we lingered on our favourite walk for
the last time, looking down on the Old Town through the balmy dim spring
night; “and if I should come home as rich as old Major Wardlaw of the
Elms, what then? One would scarcely like to look forward to such an end
of one’s labours. His gouty chair, and his hot unwholesome room, and his
solitude, and his grumbling, and his spiceries, and his inflammable
temper. Man, Adam! to think that I must leave home, and part with Lucy
and with all of you, and toil through my whole life where I shall never
hear a Scotch tongue, for such an end as that!”

“You will hear many Scotch tongues in Bombay, Hew,” said I, “and then
you are sure to marry somebody’s daughter, and come home immediately.”

Hew’s frank happy laugh rang into the dim air pleasantly; its sound
always cheered me, but the remembrance that I might not hear it again
for years fell upon me in blank pain. We made a great many hysterical
attempts after that to be merry, but failed so woefully in every case,
that we turned at last in silence round the brow of the hill, and looked
out upon the sea: the noble Firth spreading its silvery lengths far away
in the distance, with its dark islands and steady lights, and the broad
line of its princely highway leading forth into the foreign world!

The cold, strange, alien world where home was not, nor friends. Hew
Murray’s hand grasped my arm for a moment with a convulsive pressure,
and there were tears under our eyelids,--tears which we were not ashamed
to shed under cover of the gentle night.

The next day I watched a white sail gliding smoothly over the peaceful
Firth, until I lost it on the horizon far away--and my dearest friend
was gone.

For Charlie Graeme, brother-like as we were, was less closely joined to
me than Hew. It is a vulgar notion that the warmest friendship requires
a contrast of minds. Charlie and I had very distinct individualizations.
Hew resembled me closely--I had almost said, that in matters of the mind
and heart Hew Murray and I had all things common. In things physical
there was the same connection between my cousin and myself; but heartily
as I liked Charlie, there were many points on which I certainly knew
that we could by no possibility agree; there were many matters of
feeling and thought which I shrank from bringing under his keen
glance--that glance which pierced through my bashful sentimentalities
with so little pity.

Maxwell got on delicately with those medical studies of his. He was a
great favourite everywhere, his weakness, as usual, bringing him in for
much more than his average share of consideration. Charlie and Walter
toiled manfully at the dry initiatory necessities of their profession.
They were “clever lads” of good parts and promise, both, and both too
well endowed with stout common sense and the natural self-interest and
ambition, to be, except in rare outbursts, loiterers or idlers. For my
desultory self, I dabbled in all scientific crafts; was a metaphysician
for one fit, and a chemist for another, and an antiquarian for a third;
I dipped into Charlie’s dreary quartos, and lingered at the threshold of
the dissecting-room with Edward, and for my own hand got through heaps
of reading, systematic and unsystematic, not always drawn from the
venerable shelves of the college library. It formed a pile of strange
rubbish altogether, built up as it was with the crude philosophies
peculiar to my years.

But sauntering along the Calton Hill now, alone, to dream over the Old
Town, in its antique grace and beauty, made me sick at heart. Hew Murray
was one of those rare friends whom one does not need to be continually
talking to. A stranger who observed our few words might have taken us
for very indifferent companions, but this was above all, the sign of
our closest brotherhood. When Charlie was with us, we were talkative
enough, for then a foreign element was introduced, but we were too much
one when we were alone to have any such constraint upon us. And when
from these silent walks we emerged into the bustle and light of the
street below, and throwing off the charm, began to be as loud as our
neighbours, we felt, both of us, that the chain of our regard was drawn
closer by these communings. Never friend in this world did I appropriate
and feel mine so entirely as Hew, and the dim hill-side where my silence
was unshared, where there was none to dream beside me as I dreamt, or to
feel as I felt, became painful to my solitary eyes. I did not return to
Edinburgh after Hew went away. It had lost its charm for me. I remained
alone at Mossgray.

I was then a man. I had nearly reached my majority, and having perhaps
exaggerated notions of what became my place and position in respect to
the tenants and cottages around me, I began to bestir myself to
ascertain how I could do some work in this brief district, allotted to
me by Providence. I have always been inclined to the contemplative, but
I am not idle, and with all the proud hopes and ambitions of youth to
buoy me up, I laboured and deliberated “for the good of the people,”
with much enjoyment of the philanthropy.

Lucy Murray had grown into a young woman; graceful and grave, with lines
of thought upon her forehead, printed perhaps too deeply for one so
young. That slender ring upon her finger was Charlie’s gift, and
contains in its small enclosure one of those circlets of his sunny hair,
which cling so lovingly about his temples and become them so well; for
their engagement is a grave matter now, acknowledged and known. And yet
I fancy them scarcely like each other yet, for Lucy has dwelt long with
her own thoughts silently, and in solitude, and Charlie, with his whole
soul, has embarked on the busy sea of life; but the contrast gives them
singular grace when they are together, and Lucy is more than ever a
sister to me.

The bright face at Greenshaw, which, with all its happy changes, has
been the angel of my boyish dreams for years, is brighter now in the
grace of early womanhood than ever before. I fancy her the inmate of
some pure and holy atmosphere, the star of some loftier sky. I forget
when I am near Greenshaw that there is sin in the world--I become
heterodox in my very faith--for evil has no share in Lilias.

The name echoes in my ear with a ring of silvery music. The beautiful
and pure of all ages shed their glory about her, and claim my devouter
homage. The Rachel of yonder plains of Syria, the Mary, blessed among
women, the Una, the Desdemona of our own land. Their shadow is upon her
in all places; the very neighbours, common-place as they are, speak low,
I fancy, when they speak of “Lillie,” and I forgive them the familiarity
for the sake of the gracious name; for the stately flower in its royal
purity symbolizes my ideal well, and my garden at Mossgray grows white
with snowy lilies, and I wander among them dreamily, in a mist of
indefinite hopes, and fancied future gladnesses, too bright to tell.

The beautiful time! when every foundation stood fast, and all that was,
was true and constant, and of kin to the pure heavens.

Yet Lilias was only the daughter of Mr Johnstone of Greenshaw, who had
little honour or standing beyond the bounds of Fendie. Murrayshaugh
would have growled the utmost thunder of his anathema upon Lucy, had he
known that in her sisterly kindness she had accompanied me to the
comfortable plebeian parlour where shone my star, and electrified good
Mr Johnstone into hopes of future friendships with those adjacent landed
families, who had not hitherto condescended to notice him. But Lilias
was shy of Lucy, and seemed, to my chagrin, indifferent to her visit; so
I had to console myself with a transitory belief that Lilias felt
proudly the injustice of those artificial barriers of society, and was
sensible of wrong done to her native dignity by the false rule which
made the Laird’s daughter of Murrayshaugh a greater person than she, and
by Lucy’s quiet smile and gentle word of consolation. “By and by,
Adam--we will be better friends, by and by.”

Yes--there was no landed family of them all which could boast a line so
long and so unbroken as that of Mossgray. The encumbrances on the estate
had gradually melted away during my frugal minority. I was able to
maintain appropriately the position I had inherited. Only this one
external matter of rank did Lilias want, and I had it, to lay it at her
feet--the name itself acquired new honour and dignity, when my heart
beat to anticipate the advent of a new lady of Mossgray, who should
eclipse all who went before.

I greatly affected Mr Johnstone’s company then. He was a shrewd man, if
not a refined one; and albeit he did not possess that fearful command of
words which strikes one with utter panic when one comes to the beginning
of a speech of his fellow-craftsman the “Wanderer” of Wordsworth, he yet
could manage to keep up a conversation tolerably well, by help of an
occasional monosyllable from the other interlocutor--we became great
friends. He gave me counsel about the management of my lands; he told me
that Matthew Irving of Friarsford, whose tack was nearly out, had been
holding his farm for some years past nearly rent free, so greatly had
the land increased in value, since his father got the lease. He talked
to me of foreign wars and home politics--I listened in happy
unconsciousness, feeling only that I was conciliating the goodwill of
the father of Lilias, and advancing slowly to my aim.

Mr Johnstone was too shrewd a man not to perceive by and by what brought
me so often, bashful and absorbed, into that corner of his parlour. The
good man evidently believed at first that I sought the benefit and
enlightenment of his conversation; but through a flood of random
answers, and unhappy lack of comprehension on my part, of arguments
which I never heard, his eyes were opened. He was by no means
displeased, I fancied. I was “Mossgray” already, my income was good, my
prospects better. I was altogether eligible for a son-in-law.

And by and by, I thought I discovered that the Fendie young ladies, who
bore Lilias company sometimes, looked at her with wicked secret laughs
and whisperings when I entered the room. Could Lilias _guess_ herself?
Alas, I could not tell! I was too self-conscious to be at ease with her,
and she had always been shy to me.

And matters remained in this uncertain state for a considerable time. I
became of age. Murrayshaugh gruffly resigned, as he had gruffly
undertaken, the guardianship of myself and my possessions. His house
grew more and more desolate as I fancied, and Lucy paler and more
thoughtful every day. She was quite alone, and we used to walk together
sometimes on the old terrace in silent sympathy, thinking of Hew. He had
reached his destination safely, and entered with cheerfulness (as he
told us) into the duties of his office; but the loss of him cast a sad
shadow over the house of his fathers. Perhaps it might be only
that--perhaps there was something more; but a sadder decay seemed to be
gathering over it every time I visited Murrayshaugh.




CHAPTER V.

    I leaned my back unto an aik,
      I thought it was a trusty tree;
    But first it bowed, and syne it brake,
      And sae did my true love to me.--OLD SONG.


Our three students, Charlie, Walter, and Edward, at length completed
their studies, and entered upon the duties of their respective
professions. Charlie got his first brief from an old friend of the
family, and there actually was a report of his speech on the case, by no
means an important one, but greatly interesting and very momentous to
us, in one of the Edinburgh papers. It was something about a quarry, I
think, though what about it, I cannot very well remember. I hurried up
to Murrayshaugh with the paper. It was a bright day of early summer, and
Charlie himself was to be with us in a week; a visit to which we had
long looked forward, and of which Lucy and I had more than once spoken.

I found Lucy in her own little parlour, at the low window which opened
to the terrace. The willows were sweeping their long branches over the
sighing water, and in spite of the May sunshine over all, and the
universal joy without, there was a look of sadness here. I involuntarily
restrained my quick step as I reached the window, and Lucy looked up
from her habitual work with her usual kindly and gentle smile.

“Look here, Lucy! I have brought you news,” said I, “news worth seeing.
Come, don’t read them in a dull room this May-day. Come out into the
sunshine and read them here.”

Lucy rose eagerly.

“What is it? is it about Hew, Adam, or--” She paused; a wavering
painful colour came upon her cheek, and her fingers played nervously
with the work she had laid down.

“Lucy, you do not think I could bring you anything but good news to-day.
Come out and read Charlie’s first speech. His pleadings on his first
brief, you know--you heard all about that.”

I fancied I saw a slight shiver of her frame. She had not heard it! but
in a moment after Lucy stept out upon the terrace and took the paper and
read. I thought her figure seemed taller and more distinct against the
shadowy background of willows, as she stood there before me with the
paper in her hand. There was something in it of firm pride and endurance
which struck me as new--some greater emotion than I had ever known.

“Did Charlie send you this, Adam?” she asked, as she gave it back to me.

“Yes, Lucy,” said I humbly, feeling myself guilty of giving her great
pain when I had expected to bring her pleasure; “it came last night.”

There was a slight, almost imperceptible shiver again, and a wandering
of the fingers towards each other, as though they would fain be clasped
together in the instinctive gesture of grief.

“Wait for me a moment, Adam,” said Lucy; “I have something to say to
you.”

I waited upon the terrace while she went in. What could this portend? I
believed, and so did all the countryside, that their marriage was
delayed only until Charlie had a prospect of success in his profession.
He had told me so himself; it was an understood thing; yet Lucy had not
been told of his first brief.

She joined me almost immediately, having only gone in, as it appeared,
to throw the light plaid she usually wore, over her shoulders and head,
and I waited in anxious silence for her first words.

We had reached the water-side, and paused there together, the long
willow-boughs sweeping over us sadly, before she spoke,--

“Adam,” she said then, “have you had any conversation with my father
lately? Has he ever spoken to you about--about his own affairs?”

“No, Lucy,” said I.

“Adam, I may speak to you,” said Lucy. “There is some new calamity
hanging over us. I have seen my father receive letters of late--letters
that I could perceive were from lawyers--which have brought to his face
that white look of despair which you never saw. I mentioned Walter
Johnstone’s name to him once--when you told us he had gone into
partnership with some one in Edinburgh--because he was Hew’s companion,
and--and yours--and my father broke out into a curse upon him,
immediately adding, however,--‘Not him--why should I swear at a
packman’s son? but my own miserable fortune, that am doomed to be
tortured to death by these hired hounds of lawyers!’ I dared ask nothing
then, but I have been ready to catch at every word since; and my father
has vaguely intimated to me some intention that we should go to
France--at least,” said Lucy, hastily, with an indignant blush burning
on her face, and a painful heaving of her breast, “that he would
go--and, of course, I will not leave him.”

“But the cause, Lucy?” said I. “He can have no cause.”

“Alas, Adam, I cannot tell!” said Lucy, sadly, “for he never
has taken me into his confidence; but I think it must be some
responsibility--some--Adam, I do not need to hesitate--you know well
that we have always been poor.”

I did not know how to answer her; I leaned upon the old mossy wall by
Lucy’s side, eager to speak of herself--of Charlie, and yet afraid.

“Is there anything that I can do!” I said. “You can trust me, Lucy; is
there anything that I can do?”

“No, no, Adam! I do not mean that; no one must interfere with my father
or his purposes, you know; but I only desired to tell you that you might
understand as much as I do of why we went, if we do go away, and--I only
wished to tell you, Adam.”

Lucy turned her head away; one or two tears, so large that one could see
by what bitter force they had been restrained, fell softly on the moss
of the wall, but she thought I did not see them.

“Lucy, Lucy, this must not be!” said I; “tell me what I can do; I will
venture anything rather than that this should come upon us! If Hew were
only here--if you would but plead for me, Lucy, that your father may
remember that what I have is yours--yours with my whole heart.”

I saw her shake and tremble in the strong effort to restrain herself,
but it would not do. She pressed her hand across her eyes, and again the
tears fell singly upon the moss--a few large bitter tears, as if they
had been gathered long--an essence of intense pain too powerful to spend
itself in much weeping--deliberate drops wrung from her very heart.

“I thank you, Adam,” she said at last, “and yet I do not need to say, I
thank you--you know that--but this cannot be; you must do nothing; none
of us can do anything except submit. It was only a selfish desire to
pain you, I am afraid, which made me tell you this; for it will indeed
be very hard to leave Murrayshaugh!”

I could say nothing in return. Alas! there are harder trials than even
bidding farewell to one’s home. All was not well in this beautiful
world; there were other things among us than those I had dreamed of, and
my heart sickened as I tried to reassure myself.

By and by, Lucy turned along a quiet sheltered way, close by the
water-side, and I went with her--perhaps I should have left her there,
but I followed in spite of myself. We began to speak of Hew.

“Do you think we shall ever meet all together again, Adam?” said Lucy.

“Surely--I hope so,” said I, hastily. “We are all young, Lucy; we may be
changed externally perhaps, but that will be all.”

“If we are ever together again, we shall be changed in every way, Adam.”

“Nay, nay, Lucy,” said I, “I cannot let you take up that gloomy notion.
Why should we change? We know each other far too well to alter our old
likings. We will be the same, Lucy, when we are grey-headed.”

“Will _you_, Adam?--will all of us?--or are we indeed what we think we
are?--are we not clothing ourselves and others with some ideal of our
own, which hides the natural spirit from us?”

“Lucy!”

“Suppose one had done that,” said Lucy, hurriedly, turning her head
away, and speaking more, as I thought, to herself than to me. “Suppose
one had clothed another in an ideal so beautiful, so noble, that one
almost trembled at one’s own wondrous gladness beholding it; and suppose
that suddenly a blast came, and rent the glorious tissue here and there,
and revealed a hidden thing of clay below; and one came to know that
this noble spirit had never _been_ at all, save in the fancy that
created it. I dreamt of such a thing the other night; and dreams come
true sometimes. Adam, we all change--not one, but all of us.”

I could not speak then, nor did I try to answer her. What could I say?
it was the first check put upon my joyous confidence in all whom I
called friends.

“Has your father told Hew, Lucy, that he thinks of leaving
Murrayshaugh?” I inquired at last, eager to change the subject.

“I think not. I hope it is only _possible_, Adam; I know nothing more
than that; my father does not trust me; but we must know soon.”

I left Murrayshaugh sadly that day. When I had nearly reached Mossgray,
I met Lilias with some of her companions, driving her father’s little
four-wheeled equipage. They paused a moment to receive my eager bashful
salutations, and then drove on. The sunshine of that young face
dispersed the cloud of doubt and unhappiness that hung about me; for
anything false, anything sad, could not come near Lilias--

    “I trow that countenance cannot lie
     Whose thoughts are legible in the eie,”

I said to myself joyously as I went on. I repented me of my suspicions
of Charlie. Lucy must be mistaken. His conduct could be explained. The
bright mist fell again over the world, and I forgot my fears and
anxieties; they all fled before the smile of Lilias.

I did not see Lucy Murray again before Charlie himself arrived. He
reached Mossgray on the afternoon of another brilliant May-day. He was
very full of his prospects, and considerably elated with the successful
beginning. He even told me the particulars of this first case, I
recollect, in natural excitement and exultation, and very humdrum as
they were, they interested me too, for his sake.

He had been nearly an hour in the house. Mrs Mense, the housekeeper, was
preparing a magnificent dinner in honour of Mr Charlie, the great
advocate; and there he sat, lounging half out of the open window,
talking himself out of breath. I am nervous when I have any cause of
anxiety. I began to change my position, to walk about the room, to take
up and throw down everything within my reach. Charlie made no sign--he
lounged and talked and laughed; he discussed the things which he _would_
do, and which I _should_. I could bear it no longer.

“Charlie,” said I, “you intend to go to Murrayshaugh I suppose before
dinner. You should set out at once, and make haste, for Mrs Mense will
not forgive you if you spoil her trout to-day.”

“Trout!” said Charlie, “are we to have trout to-day? Mrs Mense is a
sensible woman, Adam. I would not endanger Fendie trout for the world.”

“You are illogical, Charlie,” said I, “you forget that the governing
clause in my sentence concerned Murrayshaugh, and not the fish.”

“Pooh--Murrayshaugh’s a bore,” said Charlie, hastily. “Do you angle yet,
Adam, yourself? you lucky fellow, who have nothing to do, and can choose
your own solacements!”

“But, Charlie,” said I, anxiously; “of course you intend to go some time
this evening. I will undertake to make your peace with Nancy. There now,
away with you, like a good fellow.”

“It’s ill talking between a fou man and a fasting,” said Charlie, with a
forced laugh. “Come, Adam, let’s have dinner first--you forget my
journey.”

He went off to his own room immediately, and I could say no more. I
trembled for him. I feared to see the glorious tissue rent, as Lucy
Murray said, and some other alien spirit appear below, which was not my
friend and brother--which was not the true and generous Charlie Graeme.

We dined alone, and there was a certain constraint upon our
conversation. Charlie, it is true, still spoke much, but he seemed, as I
fancied, to speak against time. How he lingered at table--how he spun
out his stories, and deliberated over every little change, and laboured
to fasten arguments upon me, as though endeavouring to shut my eyes to
the progress of those slowly darkening hours. I bore it as long as I
could, and I bore it in intense pain--I had never known so great a
trial.

“Charlie,” said I at last, “how we waste our time here. Come, I will
walk up with you to Murrayshaugh.”

Charlie muttered something between his teeth. I only heard
“Murrayshaugh,” but there was a syllable before which I blushed to guess
at. “Ah, don’t weary me out,” he said aloud. “You don’t think I am made
of cast-iron like your Herculean rustics. It’s too late now, Adam.”

I turned round and looked at him earnestly. He started to his feet with
the quick anger of one who knows himself in the wrong.

“Well, what do you mean, Adam?”

“What do I mean, Charlie? It is I who should ask that question. _You_
mean something by this--what is it?”

“By what?--come, come, Adam, this won’t do. Don’t assume the head of the
family, I beg. I can manage my own affairs without any interference from
you.”

I thought of Lucy Murray standing alone upon yon mossy terrace, without
one in the world who could know, or could lighten her grief, aware that
he was here, and looking for his coming in vain, and in the warmth of my
youthful feelings I was overcome.

“Charlie,” said I, “you will grieve Lucy sadly if you do not go till
to-morrow. Lucy is alone.”

“Well, I will save her the infliction,” said Charlie, with affected
boldness. “It is well I had arranged it so before. I return to Edinburgh
to-morrow.”

“Do you want to break her heart?” I exclaimed.

“I am not answerable to any one for what I intend to do,” said Charlie,
sullenly.

“Yes, Charlie,” said I, “you _are_ answerable--to one higher than we--to
Hew had he been here--even to me. What is this, Charlie? You do not mean
it--it is some passing quarrel which a few words will set right.”

“So!” said Charlie, with a sneer, “Miss Lucy has been complaining to
you!”

My mood changed in a moment; from the utmost sorrow it became the most
passionate anger. I had been labouring to prevent this inevitable
rupture--now I was only eager that it should be completed.

“No,” I exclaimed, “you have never known Lucy Murray. I, who have been
with you so long, only begin to know you now. You--you will never know
Lucy--it is well you feel yourself unworthy of her--it is fit indeed
that her true heart should not be wasted upon you.”

My own heart ached as I turned away from him. I had lost my friend. I
began to grope in a world of shadows where truth was not; and not even
the smile of Lilias could have woven again those fair ideal garments
about Charlie Graeme.

We were mutually silent and sullen after that. Charlie was the first to
speak.

“Adam,” he said, “I don’t want to quarrel with you, but I will answer to
no man for my conduct; my motives and purposes are my own--and there has
been quite enough of this. Walter Johnstone came out with me from
Edinburgh to-day. Will you go over with me to Greenshaw to see him?”

I shrank from him--that he, unveiled and disenchanted as he was, should
breathe the air which Lilias made holy--that her smile should fall upon
_him_! I could hardly restrain myself, but for my old affection’s sake,
and for Lucy’s sake, I did.

“I will follow you,” I answered, “at present I cannot go.”

He left the room, and, in a few minutes, the house, and I saw him go
down the water whistling a merry tune, and pausing now and then to look
round upon those peaceful home scenes, which his presence now desecrated
to me. Murrayshaugh was in the opposite direction. I hurried along
towards it under the trees, with an instinctive desire to see Lucy, and,
unseen myself, to carry at least one sympathetic heart to her vicinity.
It was a superstition of its kind. I had no thought of that--it was an
instinct with me.

And there she certainly was upon the terrace, with her soft light plaid
about her head, and her figure gliding strangely through shadows of the
trees, and of the quaint, fantastic gables of the house, which the light
of a young moon threw faintly on the ground at her feet. I saw her
threading the maze of these, as she moved like a spirit upon the mossy
garden path, and I began to fancy in the bitterness of my heart that it
was thus with us all; that those shadowy unreal forms of ours were but
wandering blindly through a shadowy world of pains and sorrows, which if
it were not all false, was yet involved in a miserable twilight, where
one knew not what was false and what was true.

The old decaying house, with its marks of gradual downfal and lingering
sorrowful pride, and the one faint light in the window of the library
where sat its aged possessor struggling with a young man’s strength of
haughty resistance against the slow ruin that was gliding upon him like
a thundercloud. The low cadence of those rustling willows, wooing the
answering murmur of the water--the silence of the waning evening, made
sadder and more spirit-like by the wan young moon, which gave to its
dimness a spectral light and shadow--and Lucy Murray in her early
youth, with not one heart that could or dared stand by her in her need,
wandering among those shades, with the dark sky above, in the dim world,
alone! I hurried away again. I could not look upon her.




CHAPTER VI.

              Alas!
    I do confess I thought all hearts were true,
    As I did see the whole bright world--how fair!
    For linked in happy fancies were the twain--
    This beautiful--that pure--
    And like the mountains of this noble land
    Did Love and Faith and Honour stedfastly
    Lift their high heads to the bright sun that crowned them,
    As I thought, in my sight.
    I do confess me--if it was a sin,
    Behold these tears--for bitterly awaking,
    I found I had but dreamed.


The parlour of Greenshaw was exceedingly bright when I entered it that
night--brighter in reality, for they were rejoicing over Walter’s
return--and brighter still in contrast with the scene I had left.

“Here he is at last,” cried Walter Johnstone, starting up to shake hands
with me as I entered. “Why, have you been seeing ghosts, Adam? One would
think that we were the rustics and he the townsman, Charlie.”

“You were always a contemplative man, Mossgray,” said Edward Maxwell,
greeting me warmly; “but take care--if you do not tremble for the
consequences of a prescription from me, I do, I can tell you.”

Edward’s manner was more manly than usual. In my yearning for something
to make up for the fatal loss I had sustained, I caught at this eagerly.
Perhaps I had neglected him hitherto. I resolved to do so no longer.

I tried to seat myself so as to shut out Charlie from the light of that
countenance, which made me forget even _his_ unworthiness. I grudged him
the slightest word from Lilias--I fancied how the pure soul within her
would withdraw itself in lofty indignation, did she know him as I did.

“Mossgray,” said Walter, “have you any message for your friend Hew
Murray? Maxwell is going to follow his example, do you know.”

“How?” I asked.

“Oh, that famous appointment we have heard so much of has come at last,”
said Edward. “The ---- regiment are to have the benefit of my learned
services, and they are lying at some heathenish place not far from Hew’s
head-quarters. The name I have learned to write after a day’s
practice--but the pronunciation--come now, Walter, be merciful--don’t
make me desperate by forcing these dislocated syllables over my lips--at
least not in Miss Johnstone’s presence.”

“Oh, never mind Miss Johnstone--Lilie is not such an epicure in sounds,”
said Walter. “Come along, Mixy. After all, man, I believe you don’t know
the true secret so well as I do. A professed lady’s man should never be
ladylike himself. What do you say, Mossgray? Do you hear me, Charlie--am
I not right?”

Mixy was our familiar contraction of Edward’s respectable surname--we
were rather proud of our ingenuity in manufacturing a diminutive which
suited name and profession alike so well; and he took it with wonderful
good humour. To-night however he seemed displeased a little. I did not
wonder; for who could endure to be exposed to ridicule in the presence
of Lilias?

“You’re right in the abstract, Wat,” answered Charlie, with perfect
coolness: “but wrong in this particular instance. To think of giving
counsel to Mixy in such matters--why, Mixy’s irresistible!”

Edward coloured and laughed.

“There now, Charlie, that will do. Don’t believe them, I beg, Miss
Johnstone; it’s mere malice, I assure you.”

“Take care, Lilie,” said Walter, “he wants to put you off your guard.
Ask Mossgray, if you don’t believe me.”

I coloured more deeply than Edward--this was carrying the joke too
far--that Lilias, in her unapproachable purity and loftiness, should be
so addressed was a kind of sacrilege. I started in jealous eagerness to
save her name from the careless _badinage_ which was profanity to me.

“All this has nothing to do with Hew Murray,” I said hastily, and I felt
my cheek burn as I turned away from Charlie. “Are you to be in Bombay,
Edward?--are you to be near Hew?”

“Yes, Bombay is my first destination,” said Edward. “I shall seek him
out of course--and I suppose I must go in a month or two, so you may
prepare your remembrances, Adam.”

“And will you be long away, Mr Maxwell?” said Lilias, softly.

I bent forward at the sound of her voice. I always did--but this night,
for the first time, I felt myself grow hot and angry when I saw Edward’s
head also inclined towards the speaker, and his face brighten to answer
her.

“Many years, I fear, Miss Johnstone--many sad years--if I ever do see
Fendie again.”

I thought the low fall of his voice was affectation. Then I repented
me--I was exquisitely uncomfortable; doing them all injustice except
herself and Charlie--my pure and beautiful star whom no imperfection
could cast a shadow on, and the untrue, detected man whom I had called
my friend. To these, in their extremes of honour and humiliation, I
could not fail to do perfect justice.

“Come, don’t be sentimental,” said Johnstone. “You’ll come home,
Mixy--not the least fear of you--and build a thing with pagodas, and a
verandah, and call it by an outlandish name, and end your history like a
fairy tale. Hew, poor fellow--I am afraid _his_ chance of seeing Fendie
again is worse than yours.”

“How is that?” I exclaimed. “Has anything happened, Walter? Have you
heard of anything adverse to the Murrays?”

“The poor old man has ruined himself,” said Walter. “I am afraid he must
lose everything--but to be sure that is not a thing to be discussed so
publicly.”

I turned round and looked Charlie Graeme in the face. He lifted his
coward eyes to me for a moment in quick self-consciousness, but they
fell before mine. This then was the pitiful reason--I turned indignantly
away. I could scarcely bear to look at him again.

We all rose to leave Greenshaw together. Walter accompanied us to
Fendie. I put my arm through his hurriedly, and kept him behind, while
Charlie and Edward went on before us. I was eager to question him about
Murrayshaugh, and eager to escape from the society of my cousin.

“If it is no breach of confidence, Walter,” I said, “I would be glad if
you could tell me, what this is that seems to threaten Murrayshaugh?”

“It is no breach of confidence now,” said Johnstone, “for I fear it must
very soon be public enough. Murrayshaugh undertook a heavy
responsibility long ago for some old friend, Adam; and many years since
this friend died, and the whole burden of the debt fell upon Mr Murray,
so that only the unusual forbearance of the creditor kept him from being
ruined. But now the original creditor, who knew the circumstances, is
also dead, and his heir will have no mercy, so that the old man I fear
must give up everything. I am afraid, Adam, they will think of me very
unfavourably--but that my partner happened, before I joined him, to be
their creditor’s agent, is of course no fault of mine. It annoys me
though, often; I wish you would just mention that when you write to
Hew--not that any sensible person would blame me of course--but only
there’s an uncomfortable feeling.”

“Hew will understand,” said I, “but of course I will do what you ask me,
Walter; and Murrayshaugh will lose all--did you say all?--and can
nothing be done to help him?”

“Nothing but paying the money,” said the man of business by my side,
“and it’s a very heavy sum, what with costs and interest, and other such
devourers of impoverished means--and besides, Murrayshaugh is too proud
to receive a favour, Adam, even from you. He would rather lose
everything, you know. I confess, harsh and repulsive as he has always
been, there will be something wanting in the countryside if that proud
old man does not decay peacefully here, like any other ruined tower--but
he would take assistance as an insult--you know he would.”

I did know it, and went on sadly, thinking of the desolate household,
and scarcely remembering my companion’s presence.

“And by the by, Mossgray,” said Walter abruptly, “you might mention
that--about my partner being this man’s agent--to Miss Murray; not that
she will care of course--but just--one does not like to be unjustly
blamed.”

“Lucy does not know,” said I, “but I will tell her, Walter, since you
wish it. Poor Lucy!--I mean,” I added, as I saw his keen eye shoot from
me to Charlie, who walked before us, with an intelligent glance, “I mean
it will be so great a trial to her to leave Murrayshaugh.”

Johnstone did not speak. I felt that this was not known to me only, and
I remembered bitterly then, that on _her_ the scorn would lie, the
stigma of being slighted and deserted; and that scarcely either man or
woman would think the worse of him--him, the faithless coward who had
thus failed in need.

I scarcely recollect how Charlie and I managed our brief intercourse
after that, but it was a very great relief to me when he departed next
day. For the first time since we knew each other, Charlie went into
Fendie to take his departure alone, with no one to bid him farewell. I
believe he felt in some degree the emphasis of the broken custom. I
almost believe he would have been glad then to undo what he had
done--but the die was cast--it was too late.

A few days after, I went to Murrayshaugh, anxious, if I could manage it
indirectly, to see Lucy, and yet afraid to meet her. It was a chill day
for summer, with a clouded sky and a loud boisterous breeze tossing the
long willow boughs into a sort of fantastic unearthly mirth, which moved
me, much as the unseemly merry-making of a mourner might have done. Lucy
was sitting in a favourite corner of hers, at the end of the terrace,
reading--at least she had a book in her hand. As I approached the stile,
and little bridge, over the Murrayshaugh burn, under cover of the
eldritch willow branches, she perceived me, and observing that I
hesitated to enter, beckoned me to her. I obeyed at once.

I do not think she was paler that day than she had always been, but
there was a grave composure about her face which made her seem so.
Whatever struggle there had been it was over--and I remember a
consciousness of something clear and chill about her, such as one feels
in the air after a storm--an atmosphere in which everything stands out
in bold relief, disclosing all its points and angles against the
distinct far-distant sky. Yet Lucy was no less benign--no less gentle
than she had always been.

“I wanted to see you, Adam,” she said. “I will write to Hew to-day--have
you anything to say to him?”

“No,” said I, stammering and hesitating, for I felt painfully the great
event, the era in our lives which had become known to me since I saw her
last. “No, Lucy--except what Hew does not need to be told, I hope--that
I constantly think of him as of my most dear friend, and that scarcely
anything in the world would delight me so much as to see him again.”

“I will tell him,” said Lucy; “one likes to hear such things sometimes,
Adam, even when one is in no doubt of them--and I will tell him any
other pleasant thing you know, to make amends for the sad news I must
send him--for I am afraid that is certain now, Adam, which I said before
was only possible--we must leave Murrayshaugh.”

“Is there no way of averting this calamity?” I exclaimed.

“You know my father, Adam,” said Lucy, “he does not trust me as he might
do; but I have almost been acting as a spy these few days, and there is
no hope I see; for one of the few trials that can really shake his iron
nature is this of leaving home, and if there was any hope of averting
it, he would try all means before he yielded.”

“Lucy,” said I, “help me to present my petition to your father--beg him
to remember how greatly I am indebted to you all, and entreat him to
consider me thus far as his son. If what I have will do, why should he
not take it, Lucy? I am a young man--I am ashamed of my own indolence--I
will go and seek my fortune like Hew, and will be far happier so than as
I am. Lucy--”

“Hush, Adam,” said Lucy, stopping me, as I eagerly pleaded with her,
“you must not think of this. I cannot suffer you to say another word,
and you know my father with his harsh pride would not be indebted even
to his own son for such assistance. No, no, he will bear his own burden
alone, and so must I--that it is not easy or light is a lesser
matter--we must bear our own lot; but, Adam, I am glad you have said
this--I am glad,” said Lucy slowly, a gush of sudden tears coming to her
eyes, which seemed to flow back again, and did not fall. “I am glad you
would have _done_ it, Adam. I will mind it when I am heavy again, and
sinking--and I will tell Hew.”

“But, Lucy, listen to me,” I exclaimed. “May I not speak to
Murrayshaugh? may I not ask your father?”

“Not unless you wish to make him desperate, Adam. Nay, do not look
impatient. To satisfy you, I will mention it to him myself, and even
urge it if I can. I know what the issue will be, but I will do you this
justice, Adam--are you content?”

I was compelled to be so. I hardly could have dared myself, under any
circumstances, to offer pecuniary assistance to Murrayshaugh.

We parted very soon. Lucy did not make the slightest allusion to
Charlie--there was not even a hint or inference which I could fancy
pointed to him. She was very composed--so much so, as to make it evident
to me, who knew her well, that there had indeed been some grievous
troubling of those quiet waters, before so dead a stillness fell upon
them--but no one who knew her or observed her less could have seen any
trace of a crisis past, or a great struggle completed, in the grave
composure of her manner. Whatever memorials of the storm there might be
within, there were none without.

I thought when I left her of an ascending road leading westward from
Fendie, which, when you look along its line at night, seems to go off so
abrupt and chill into the clear cold sky beyond, that its solitary
wayfarers mysteriously disappear there, into the luminous blank of
heaven, and you watch them with a feeling of desolate loneliness, as
they glide in silence away. I thought of Lucy on that road alone--since
then, whenever I recall her memory, I have fancied I saw her slight
figure there, travelling away steadily into the cold horizon, unwavering
and alone.




CHAPTER VII.

    He speired at her mother, he speired at her father,
      He speired at a’ her kin,
    But he speiredna the bonnie lass hersel,
      Nor did her favour win.--KATHERINE JANFARIE.


Walter Johnstone remained nearly a month at Fendie. During this time he
made two or three visits to Edinburgh, but as a new beginner, he was not
yet very much cumbered with business. He was the brother of Lilias--I
became interested in all his pursuits, and indulgent of all his foibles.
We were seldom separate; for if I was abroad with Walter almost all the
day, I sat in my especial corner in the Greenshaw parlour all the
evening, and that privilege was cheaply purchased by any fatigue or
inconvenience. I fancied I began to make some silent gradual progress. I
fancied Lilias was scarcely so shy as she used to be in my presence, and
I myself began to be a little more rational in my adoration. To the
devout homage of the age of chivalry, I endeavoured to add a little of
that more ordinary and slighter thing, which is called “paying
attention.” I adopted as much of it as the shyness of my deeper feeling
would permit, and almost envied, while I was offended by, the fluent
ease of Maxwell, who like myself was a frequent visitor at Greenshaw,
but who, unlike me, could be quite at ease with Lilias, and ventured to
treat her like any ordinary girl. Ordinary girl! what do I say? there
was no such being in existence to me. Unapproachable, above all others,
was my own queen and lady, but the light of her presence shed a
reflection upon _them_. I owed them all a reverence for her sake.

Maxwell was preparing to go away, he said. I wished him in India with
all my heart, and wondered audibly why he delayed so long. Not that I
was what is vulgarly called jealous; but while I did feel envious of any
sharer in my sunshine, I grudged that it should fall on one to whom it
was merely common light. I was angry because he did “pay attention” to
Lilias, and I thought meanly of him because, admitted as he was to her
society, he could be content with “paying attention.” Altogether his
presence irritated me. I heartily wished him away.

Walter Johnstone was a pleasant companion--even forgetting, had that
been possible, whose brother he was: we became great friends. He was too
acute not to perceive how matters stood, and I fancied he had no desire
to discourage me. We were out together on the last day of his stay at
Greenshaw: he had become very confidential, he told me his circumstances
with his partner, his anticipated income, his intention of taking a
house in York Place; and finally, the last and greatest of all, his
prospect of getting a mistress to the house. I listened with the
greatest interest, and congratulated with the utmost warmth--it was
impossible for any brother to have been more sympathetic than I--and
then, with sudden boldness, I poured out into his ear my own great
secret. When the first barrier was removed, the flood poured forth too
strongly for any diffidence to check it. I spoke very fervently, as I
felt. I fancy it must have been with some sort of natural eloquence too,
for Walter’s hand trembled when he grasped mine, and promised me his
help.

Before I recollected myself, while we were still in a kind of cloud of
excited earnestness, I found myself in Mr Johnstone’s presence; and
then, as there is no boldness like the nervous boldness of your shy man
when he reaches the needful heat, I made speedy conquest of him. Then I
was ushered into the well-known parlour, with its forenoon look of
quietness and new arrangement, to wait for Lilias.

The slow sunbeams stealing through the blinds, the chairs standing
formally in their places, the closed piano, the books replaced in their
shelves, the work-table withdrawn in its corner; how vividly I remember
all these homely usual things, and how solemn they made my waiting. She
came at last--and then I remember in a mist how the full tide of my
eloquence poured forth again, and how I was successful. Yes, successful!
I left Greenshaw triumphantly, the proud possessor of the plighted troth
of Lilias.

I returned home in happy unconsciousness of how or where I went. On the
way I met Maxwell, I recollect, and was too much elevated above all
ordinary things to do more than speak the briefest words of recognition
to him, overflowing though I was with the universal benevolence of a
light heart; and yet, withal, I remember how some faint ghost of
consciousness haunted me that I was not happy enough--that Lilias’s
consent was sadly mechanical, that it lacked--but no! I was not so
profane as that; I could see nothing lacking in Lilias.

I was not to see her again that night--she was engaged at some Fendie
party--and so I wandered the evening out by the water-side, flying from
less ethereal society. I had half an idea of going to tell Lucy, but,
like a miser, I chose to exult over my secret treasure a little longer
before I shared the joy of it with any one.

And I remember well what wondrous dreams glided before my eyes, in
bright processions, peopling yonder far-away glades and noble trees with
groups of fairy figures, more beautiful than ever dreamer saw before. I
saw her pass over the threshold of Mossgray with her bridal grace upon
her. I saw her dwell there in her gracious, growing womanhood, drawing
all pleasant things towards her as flowers turn to the sun; and though
my heart did indeed beat high with proud gladness, when I remembered
that it was _my_ name she shed so sweet a lustre on, and that it was _I_
who stood beside her in all the shifting groups of my fancy--even that
stood aside, as selfish rejoicings must always do, in presence of the
supreme joy I had in herself. That she was--that in our dim world there
shone this one especial star, as true, as pure, as gracious as the
heavens--whose constant outcoming must be beneficence and love; whose
constant meed--too poor a one for her lofty deservings--must be
blessings and honour. I could not fathom the depths of my own
happiness--I could but float upon its sunny stream.

The next morning rose brightly in all the brilliant joy of June, and as
early as I could venture, I set out for Greenshaw. The slight morning
traffic of those quiet Fendie streets--the cottage wives, upon its
outskirts, going about their cheerful household labour--the domestic
sounds that came pleasantly from the wayside houses--I remember them
with the sunshine of my own joy over all, giving harmony and finest
keeping to the homely picture. At last I approached the well-known holly
hedge. A woman stood at the gate looking down the lane; the
parlour-blinds were closed; there was a look of excitement about the
house, as if something unusual had happened. I hurried on, noticing
_that_ in my haste, but too pleasantly expectant to think of it.

The woman at the door was Mr Johnstone’s factotum--a sensible, matronly
person, who exercised the more laborious duties of housekeeper, for
which Lilias was too inexperienced and young.

“Good morning, Margaret,” I said, as I came up and was about to pass in.

Margaret stretched out her hand to stop me.

“Oh, Mossgray!”

There was evident distress and trouble on her face. A slight tremor of
alarm came over me.

“Has anything happened?” I said. “What is the matter, Margaret?”

“Ower muckle--ower muckle,” said the housekeeper of Greenshaw, lifting
her apron to her eyes; “oh, for onysake dinna gang in!--and yet he maun
ken--there’s nae use trying to keep it frae him.”

The last part of the sentence was spoken under her breath; I became very
much agitated.

“What is it, Margaret? Is Lilias ill? What has happened?”

“I’ll tell ye, Mossgray,” said Margaret, quickly, the arm which she had
extended to bar my entrance falling to her side. “It wad be dearly
telling her, she had been ill this day. She’ll live yet to ken, that the
sorest fever that ever chained a mortal to a sick bed wad hae been a
blessed tether o’ her wilful feet this woefu’ morning. Dinna think o’
her, Maister Adam. I ken it’s hard, but ye maun try; dinna think o’
her--she’s no wurdy o’t.”

I clutched the woman’s arm, angry and eager. I could not speak.

“Weel then, she’s gane--she’s away--her that was the light o’ our
e’en--that we couldna see ill in--that I’ve heard ye even to the very
angels, Mossgray. She’s gane--fled out from her father’s house with yon
young haverel o’ a doctor, that has neither wealth to keep, nor wit to
fend for her. Oh, guid forgie me, Mr Adam! what have I dune?”

My face alarmed her, I fancy. I pressed blindly in--Walter Johnstone
stood before me. I was close upon him before I was aware of his
presence; I looked in his face.

He turned from me with a burst of emotion, which seemed to wake me from
some terrible nightmared sleep.

“Mossgray, I did not know it--I had no suspicion of this. Believe me,
Adam, believe me, that I am blameless! She has deceived us all!”

I felt a hoarse contradiction struggling from my dry lips--still I could
not hear _her_ blamed. Then I turned away; I could hold no further
parley with any one; I hurried into the sheltering solitude of my own
lonely house.

The bright world without mocked and scorned me--the passers-by looked
wonderingly at my stricken face. I could not linger by the water-side
now, in the first shock of my vanished and ruined dreams. I fled into
this solitary room, within the silent walls of which so many slow years
have passed since then, and threw myself into my chair, and pressed my
throbbing head between my hands. It was only then that I realized what
had come upon me.

I am an old man now, and these passionate struggles of youth have faded
in the far distance, veiled in the gentler mists of memory. Yet I do
remember them--I do remember me of minute and trifling things--the open
book lying there upon this floor--the solitary lily drooping in its
vase--the snowy leaf that had fallen upon the window-ledge below; and
how the pale and fierce light of my calamity fixed the image of them for
ever on the tablets of my heart. I remember--it is not such seasons that
men can forget.

I had lost her for ever--alas! that was not all--she had never been. The
conviction forced itself upon me till I grew well nigh mad. I dashed my
clenched hands into the air; I could not restrain the wild fit of
passion, the irrational frenzy that possessed me. I was alone! the
things which I had worshipped and made my idols were things of
air--mists of my early morning, melting away before the stern and sober
light--and I was left here desolate, forlorn, and solitary, and there
was nothing true under the sun.

It is a bitter and a sorrowful thing to mourn for the dead--to lament
over those who have gone away out of this shadowy land into the brighter
country, where they yet are, and shall be, all the more sure in their
wonderful existence that we see them not. But to mourn for those who
have never been--to behold stars fall from your horizon, the glory of
whose shining was but a phantasm of your brain, a creation of your own
soul; to awake suddenly from your contemplation of some noble and
beautiful spirit, the fairest that ever gladdened mortal vision, and to
find that it _is_ not, and _was_ not, and that the place, which in your
dream was illuminated by its glorious presence, is filled by a shadowy
thing of unknown nature, which you never saw before--this is the
bitterest of griefs. If there is sorrow more hard than this, I bow my
head to it in fear and reverence; but this is my woe, and prince of
woes.

Drifting from false anchorage, surrounded by spectral ships and ghostly
receding shores, hopelessly driven over the treacherous sea; with no
light but an indefinite twilight, sickening the faint heart with visions
of shadowy haven and harbour, and false security. A world of mists--a
universe of uncertain, unknown existences, which are not as you have
dreamed, and among whom you must go forth alone, no longer devoutly to
believe and warmly to love, but to grope darkling in the brightest
noonday, to walk warily, shutting up the yearning heart within you, in
jealous fear. It is hard to make this second beginning--hard to fight
and struggle blindly against this sad necessity--yet the poor heart
yields at last; either to put on the self-wounding mail of doubt and
suspicion, or to live in dim and mournful patience, a hermit all its
days.




CHAPTER VIII.

    Oh! wherefore should I busk my heid?
      Oh! wherefore should I kame my hair?
    When my true love has me forsook,
      And says he’ll never loe me mair.
    Oh, Mart’mas wind! when wilt thou blaw
      And shake the dead leaves aff the tree?
    Oh, gentle death! when wilt thou come
      And take a life that wearies me?--OLD BALLAD.


I took little note of how months or weeks went after that era. I lost
that summer time. It has fallen entirely from the reckoning of my life,
leaving only some vestiges of what looks now like incipient madness
behind; for I was entirely alone; shut out as much from that ordinary
communication with the world, which painfully and beneficially compels
the suppression of one’s agony, as I was from all human sympathy, all
kindness, all compassion. I had lost all; my dreams of a brighter
home--my friends--all were gone. Hew Murray far away in India, and his
sad sister Lucy alone in Murrayshaugh--to no others in the wide world
could I look for any of those gentle offices which belong to friendship;
and the one was thousands of miles away--the other was no less solitary,
no less stricken than I.

I did not see her during the whole of that summer. Had there been no
cloud overshadowing her own lot, I believe I might have sought the balm
of Lucy’s pity, and perhaps been in some degree comforted; but as it was
I never sought to see her--I saw no one--I shut myself up through those
scorching summer days--I remember yet how their unpitying sunshine
sickened me to the very soul--in this solitary room. I wandered
ghost-like on the water-side at night; I neglected everything that I had
formerly attended to. I held no communication even with the servants of
my lonely household, which I could possibly avoid. It was little wonder
that they should think me crazed; the belief shot in upon my own brain
sometimes like an arrow--almost the consciousness that I was mad.

I might have been--how soon I know not--but that I was mercifully
snatched from the edge of the precipice.

The summer was over, the autumn days were darkening and growing chill,
and the wan water of Fendie carried showers of faded leaves upon its
bosom, and grew husky and dark with frequent floods. The transition from
the fierce summer sunlight soothed me. These six terrible months had
done on me the work of years. I was young--almost a lad still--but I had
always been older than my years, and pain brings with it unenviable
maturity. In my solitude I felt untimely age come upon me; I carried in
my youth’s frame a man’s worn-out heart.

My housekeeper, Nancy Mense, suffered no one to come near me but
herself; and her own services were rendered in silence, with something
of that compassionating awe, which we hear is paid to the victims of
mental malady in the East. I had never observed this until the day of
which I am about to speak.

It was a dim, cloudy October day, overcast with showers, and I was
subdued and softened; the drooping, disconsolate sky and damp air seemed
to hush the fiery pains within me. Mrs Mense entered my apartment, and,
without speaking, laid a letter upon the table. I noticed a painful
solicitude in her face, as she looked at me before she left the room; I
took up the letter--it was from Lucy Murray.

“We shall be far away before you receive this, Adam. I write, because
hereafter you might think I did you wrong in sending you no farewell. Of
our own affairs I can tell you little, even if _now_ you cared to hear
of them. I can guess that my father gives up almost all he has; all the
land, everything but a bare pittance that will merely maintain us--and
the house. He has not parted with Murrayshaugh itself. He vows he never
will--but utterly reduced in means as we must be, we must leave it
now--perhaps--perhaps sometime, if good days ever come, to return home
again.

“I dare not tell you where we are going; indeed, I do not even know. You
know my father’s harsh and haughty pride; he says no one shall see our
poverty who has ever heard our name before. He might have lingered
longer, I believe, had I not told him of your generous offer; he took
it, as I fancied he would, with hard and bitter anger as a humiliation.
Yet thank you again, Adam, for thus cheering me, when the world indeed
was black enough around us.

“For yourself, what can I say, Adam Graeme? that you are not alone; but
alas! that is small consolation. Who can tell the appointed place which
this trial has in the lives of each of us, the appointed purpose for
which it has been sent? Adam, let us not look upon those wrecks of the
vain dreams we fancied true; all is not untrue, though these are; all is
not dark because these lights have failed. The feverish flashing of
these meteors is gone for ever; but there remains the sober, stedfast,
healthful light of day, the sunshine of heaven over all.

“Adam, let us awake; let us think no longer of those who have done us
wrong, but of Him who took so grievous wrong upon Himself for our
deliverance. It is not meet that the lives for which he paid so
wonderful a price should go down ignobly to the grave; do I need to say
more to you? do I need to do more than bid you arise, Adam, for His
sake, and do the devoir of a man, whether He send sunshine or gloom, a
dark day or a bright.

“I have only one word to say more; be careful, Adam: look well to your
words and deeds, lest the tempter take advantage of them to bring more
sin among us. I cannot venture to speak more plainly, but as you would
have others--others whom both of us have held very dear--preserved from
a deadly snare and sin, look heedfully to yourself, and let this wild
grief engross you no more.

“Write to Hew; and remember us all if we never meet again. Farewell,
Adam, and farewell.

“LUCY MURRAY.”

       *       *       *       *       *

I was roused by Lucy’s letter, roused in some degree to remember my
manhood, and to think how I wasted it; but one struggle does not
overcome a grief like this. So I fell into a bitterly selfish mood,
contrasting her lot with mine--her cold womanlike submission with my
self-torture--and while I thought of the conclusion of her letter, with
a certain degree of idle languid wonder, I hugged my calamity closer to
my heart. No one had fallen from so bright a heaven into so blank an
earth as I; no one had ever equalled my misfortune, and who but myself
could comprehend my grief.

The wailing breeze suited me; I opened the window and leaned out,
resting my brow upon my hands. Heavy raindrops fell from the eaves upon
my unsheltered head--I did not heed them.

The sound of voices below arrested my attention; I remember wondering
that they did. No later than the day before they would have made me
shrink into myself jealously, in fear of contact with the speakers; now
I only remained still and listened.

“My good woman, I want to see Mr Graeme,” said a strange voice; “I
assure you I will take no denial from _you_, so it is needless to keep
me here on the damp soil--my feet are quite wet enough already.”

“Your feet are nae concern o’ mine,” said Mrs Mense, with some
ill-humour in her tone; “nae doubt ye can change them when ye gang hame,
like other folk. But my maister’s no heeding about seeing strangers; and
sae I tell ye--no meaning ony disrespect--once for a’.”

“But your master does not choose to let you answer for him, I presume,”
said the stranger. “You can surely ask him at least.”

“And wha has as guid a right to answer for him, puir lad!” said Mrs
Mense, her voice sinking to an under-tone, “as me, that have fended for
him a’ his days? I tell ye there’s nae need for asking, Sir; I ken weel
enough he’ll no see onybody.”

“This is insufferable!” said the applicant for admission. “Here, my good
girl, do _you_ go and tell your master that I want particularly to speak
with him--I, Doctor Pulvers of Edinburgh.”

“Eh, I daurna for my life!” exclaimed the shriller voice of Janet, Mrs
Mense’s niece; “I wadna face Mossgray for--”

“Haud your peace, ye silly tawpie!” cried Mrs Mense. “Do ye mean to say
_that’s_ like a gentleman, speiring at the fuil of a gilpie, and me
here?”

“Don’t be afraid, my girl,” said the stranger. “What is it that alarms
you for Mossgray?”

“If you say anither word o’ your havers, I’ll fell ye, Jen!” exclaimed
my housekeeper, in a voice shrill with passion. Then I heard a slight
noise, as if the girl had made her escape.

“Well, Ma’am,” said the stranger, “I hope you’ll condescend to inform me
what special reason you have that I should not see your master.”

Mrs Mense seemed to falter.

“I’ve nae special reason, Sir; only if Mossgray doesna heed about seeing
strangers, it’s nae business o’ mine or yours either.”

“But why does he object to see strangers?” persisted the pertinacious
visitor.

“I didna say he objected; I only said he wasna heeding; and it’s no my
place to be aye asking the whys and the wherefores. Maybe you never were
no weel, or had a sair heart yoursel? and if a gentleman like the laird
canna be fashed wi’ a’ the gangrel bodies that come about the town,
naebody has ony business wi’ that.”

“But I am no gangrel body,” said the stranger. “Come now, you have kept
me out long enough; if the young man is unwell, that is only another
reason why I should see him--I’m a physician.”

“I didna say he was no weel.”

“Then in the name of wonder, what did you say?” exclaimed the stranger.
“I shall have serious suspicions, I assure you, my good woman, if you
answer me so. Why was the girl afraid to speak to her master? and what
do you mean?”

The heavy drops from the eaves had fallen one by one on my head--my hair
was wet with them--my brow damp with more painful dew. I rang my bell
hurriedly.

“Ye can bide till I come down,” I heard Mrs Mense say, as she shut the
door, “and I’ll ask the laird, since ye will hae’t; but ye’ll stay where
ye are till I come back again.”

In a minute or two after she appeared at the door of my study; her ruddy
face was paled by emotion, and her eyes turned upon me with a painful
solicitous look that smote me to the heart.

“What is the matter?” I asked as calmly as I could, “and why do you not
bring that man up to me at once, Nancy, instead of keeping him so long
at the door?”

Again she looked at me--a conscious, terrified look, which I trembled to
interpret.

“Oh, Mossgray! for the Lord’s sake tak tent o’ yoursel! you’re an
innocent lad--ye aye were an innocent lad--ye kenna what ill may be
brewing. I saw ane that saw Mr Charlie in the toun yestreen--oh, Mr
Adam, dinna look sae fearsome!--and if ye canna meet this man--if ye’ve
ony fear--just say the word, and I’ll send him away.”

I felt large drops of moisture burst upon my brow; I shuddered through
my whole frame; I felt an irresistible inclination to flee away, and
escape from all these miseries for ever. I had indeed awakened from my
frenzy of grief--and such an awakening!

“Why should I fear to see him?” I asked, the words refusing to come
plainly from my stammering tongue. “What is this? Do you think--do you
think I am mad?”

She did not answer; but with tears streaming from her eyes she continued
to fix that painful, terrified, conscious look upon my face.

I felt my nostril dilate--I felt some bitter scorching tears flood my
eyes. Then I became suddenly calm.

“God help me!” I exclaimed in my agony, and my prayer was heard.

I grew calm in a sudden consciousness of restored strength. I thought
steadily of Lucy and her warning; of this humble woman here, whose
honest heart sorrowed and laboured for me. I was roused--I put my wrongs
forth, out of my heart, and committed myself to God.

“Now,” I said, “let him come up.”

My kind housekeeper withdrew, wiping the tears from her cheeks. I saw
she had acquired some sort of trembling confidence from my bearing; then
I did what I could to make my appearance less conspicuously negligent,
and then with a nervous concentrated quietness, I waited for my visitor.

He looked me very steadily in the face, with a singular emphatic look. I
did not think at the time what was the meaning of this, or it might have
raised a ferment in my veins, and made me appear as they wished me. As
it was, I saluted him calmly, gliding at once into my usual manner, and
feeling with a consciousness of unspeakable relief, that I was myself
again.

“I have been residing in the neighbourhood for a week or two, Mr
Graeme,” said my visitor, after introducing himself as Doctor Pulvers of
Edinburgh, “and hearing that you were in delicate health, I took the
liberty of volunteering a call; that is to say--for I am taking too much
credit to myself--some of your friends begged me to do so, expressing
themselves very anxious about you.”

“My cousin, Mr Charles Graeme, I presume?” said I. “My friends are not
so many that I should have any difficulty in discovering them.”

Doctor Pulvers looked confused. “No, no. Mr Charles, whom I have the
pleasure of knowing, is no doubt much attached to you, Mr Graeme; but,
to tell the truth, the principal person was a lady--and a very young and
charming one, I assure you. Mrs Edward Maxwell.”

It was a lie, I knew, and I contained myself--the person who bore that
name was not my Lilias; but I would not have inflicted on Charlie such a
pang as shot through my heart, while these words were deliberately
pronounced in my ear, for all the evil he had done, and for all he
designed to do. This was the application of the touch-stone; my simple
unsuspicious wits were miraculously sharpened as I thought--I saw that
this was the test.

“Mrs Maxwell is very kind,” I said, and I did not falter.

Then he began to inquire into my symptoms.

“This is quite useless,” I said. “I cannot suppose, Doctor Pulvers, that
you can have been in the neighbourhood as you say, without hearing from
some benevolent friend the history and origin of any sufferings I may
have been enduring. Such as they are, they belong to myself alone, and
admit of no probing; but I am glad that I can authorize you to satisfy
the sudden anxiety of my friends, by an assurance of my rapidly
progressing recovery. I beg you will carry my thanks to all; but
symptoms I have none to tell you, unless it were of one or two swellings
of indignation which I have been sensible of lately--and that I presume
is a tolerably healthful emotion, and one which you are not accustomed
to class as a symptom of disease.”

Doctor Pulvers looked annoyed and discomfited, and I became sorry for
him; however he changed the subject with admirable art, and had plunged
me into a long discursive conversation before I was well aware. He was
an intelligent, agreeable man, and I had shut myself out from all
society so long, that I forgave him the object of his visit, and would
have almost forgotten it, had he not with most delicate tact and
_finesse_, when he fancied me completely off my guard, suddenly
introduced that name again, which made my whole frame thrill as with a
wound, and brought the moisture in cold showers to my brow. He repeated
this again and again, but each time I conquered.

At last he rose to leave me.

“Mr Graeme,” he said, offering me his hand, and looking again in my
face, but this time with a less singular steadiness of gaze than before,
“I assure you I am most happy that I have found you so much better than
your friends imagined. I congratulate you heartily on your evident sound
health and good constitution; but, if you will permit me to advise, do
not try it so severely as you have done, and come yourself, and let all
interested in you see how perfectly competent you are on this, and all
other matters, to judge for yourself.”

His tone was grave and significant--I believed the man. He was glad that
his mission had failed; he was glad that I was not added to the list of
his miserable patients. I had strength enough left to part with him in
firm calmness--nay, I went further; I accompanied him to the door, and
saw him leave Mossgray.

And then--those bitter, scorching, desperate tears of manhood that
burned upon my cheek--those convulsive sobs that shook me with their
fierce strength--this fearful loneliness, which left me a prey to all
the fiery fancies within, and all the secret foes without--“God help
me!” I had need.

A sudden fancy took me, as I wrestled fiercely with this fierce
affliction. I left the house, and hurried along that side of the grounds
of Mossgray which immediately skirts the road--where there was a wall of
four or five feet high, lined by old trees, which hung their high
foliage over, shadowing the highway below. They were nearly bare then,
but under the sombre covert of a group of firs, and taking advantage of
the stump of an old ash tree, I ventured to look over. Doctor Pulvers
was proceeding at a dignified slow pace along the road, while some one
approached hurriedly in the other direction--I looked again; it was
Charlie. They must meet immediately beneath the spot where I stood--I
drew back among the firs and waited.

“Well, Doctor?”

“You have fortunately been quite misinformed, Mr Charles,” said the
constrained voice of the physician. “Your cousin has as perfect
possession of his faculties as either you or I. I am glad to be able to
inform you of his perfect health. He is not either very robust or very
happy, I dare say, and has the good sense and courage not to veil the
latter, with false pride or levity, as I have seen many young men do,
but his constitution is sound, and his mind elastic. I have not the
slightest fear of him.”

There was a dead pause; for a moment or two after, Charlie said not a
word. Then he exclaimed, somewhat loudly,--

“Well, of course I am very happy to hear it. The more fool he, to give
these gossips the chance of speaking of him so; but Adam was always a
sentimental fellow. Of course it is a great satisfaction to me to find
it all groundless.”

They passed on. I heard no more of their conversation, nor wished to
hear; and I was too thoroughly worn out to be moved by my former
passions, either of sorrow or anger. So I took rest--not very quiet nor
peaceful, but still more natural and refreshing than I had known for
many nights and days.




CHAPTER IX.

    There is no light in earth or heaven
      But the cold light of stars,
    And the first watch of night is given
      To the red planet Mars--
    Is it the gentle star of love?
      The star of love and dreams?
    Ah, no! from that blue tent above
      A hero’s armour gleams.--LONGFELLOW.


I was roused. I began to understand the necessity of that ruling one’s
own spirit which is greater than taking a city. I began to see that my
self-martyrdom, with all the indulgence of its pain, was but, in its
kind, a selfish pleasure after all, and that the duty before me was not
any shutting out of the common mercies of the world, or lingering act of
self-torment, but a firm and manly subduing of my sorrow. It is a trial
even to make this discovery. It is a hard test of patience, when the
soul quivering with its own suffering yearns to plunge into some great
matter--to endure, to do, to sacrifice--and feels within its aching
veins the spirit of a Xavier, eagerly flying to the painfullest labour,
and refusing the solace of usual comfort--to have the blank of a steady
endurance offered to it instead; to be compelled to yoke its turbulent
might of grief again to the common toils of every day; to put on the
usual smile, to draw the usual outer garment of ease and seeming
peacefulness over the wild pulses of a wounded heart. I say you shall
find more scope for desperate bravery in this than on any louder field
of battle; for true it is, and of saddest verity, that there be many men
to whom taking a city is a small and light matter, in comparison with
the firm ruling of this precious stronghold and violent garrison within;
many men who, like the proud Syrian of old, would willingly dare the
fiery process of some sudden miracle, but with hearts full of bitter
disappointment and pride, would turn from the placid Hebrew waters in
which the blessing lay.

I was bound to the stake. I was compelled to rule myself with the iron
hand of a despot; to return to all my ordinary occupations; to come and
go as I had been wont; to listen and to speak of things and persons
whose names sent my blood flooding back upon my heart, in the shivering
heats and chills of agony, with an assumption of calm ease and
indifference the while terrible to bear. And I did all this, that my
only relative might be prevented from dooming me to the prison-house of
madness--might be preserved from the sin of unrighteously making himself
master of the lands of one by whom he had been regarded as a dearly
cherished brother. My lands! I would have given them gladly for the joy
of believing that Charlie had not meditated a cruelty like this; but for
the sake of my good name, and for his own miserable sake, that his sin
should at least go no further than intention, I constrained myself to
bear this hard and painful discipline of ordinary life. I could not go
away as I longed to do, and in strange lands and among new faces
endeavour to forget myself, and the loneliness which was my fate. I was
bound first to vindicate myself to our little world, and remove all
occasion of evil speaking; for my liberty and my means were both
concerned. Had Charlie established his case, I must have lost all.

Edward Maxwell had not gone to India. After _her_ fate was united to
his, her father made some exertions to establish them at home. They were
shortly going to Glasgow I heard, but as far as I could I shut my ears
to their name; and though many mentioned them before me with cruel
smiles, there were some who knew more truly the nature of my feelings,
and tried to hush the rest. But it is hard to do what I laboured to
accomplish. To convince one’s self that the being held highest and most
loveworthy through all one’s lifetime has altogether vanished from this
earth, though there still remains the external form in which the
imagination shrouded so fair and beautiful a spirit. I knew indeed that
the Lilias of my fancy had never been, but I could not mourn for her as
for one dead.

No, the dead are sure. Our most jealous fears cannot think of
change--our utmost misery of grief cannot suppose end of existence to
them. I fancy the very death makes them more peculiarly our own; but far
other and far bitterer is such a calamity as mine.

I was shortly to prove both.

The Murrays were gone, no one knew whither; a single servant remained in
the house, but she could give me no information as to the retreat of her
master. I felt that I did wrong to ask her, and when I wrote to Hew, I
did not repeat the question.

In the beginning of the year, Hew answered my letter. I remember
noticing with sudden fear that the address was not written in his hand;
but the long letter within reässured me, and I did not observe, in my
eagerness to read it, another brief note which dropped from the
enclosure upon the table.

There was a tone of subdued and unexpressed sympathy in the letter which
touched me deeply. No one in this world, not even Lucy, could enter into
my feelings as Hew could, and what he said was the inferred sorrow of
closest friendship; the sympathy which does not speak of your grief, but
which enters into your heart, and stands at your own stand-point, and
thinks as you think--as you think, but more gently--as you will think
when your grief is further away, and in the hushed and quiet land of
memory it has become dim and calm.

“Cheerly, Adam,” wrote Hew Murray, “we are becoming men; and if there
are harder processes involved in that than in the old disciplines we
used to share together, we must nevertheless bear the heavier means for
the sake of the greater end. Manlike and masterful as our fathers were,
when the old steel breast-plates at Murrayshaugh and Mossgray covered
brave hearts beating high to the natural warfare which they carried over
the Border. They too must have had foes, less tangible than the rough
barons and yeomen of Cumberland, those fighting men of other
generations; and I begin to think, Adam, that the natural element of us
all is war--active contention, strife of one kind or another--and that
we depart from our most healthful state when we lay down our weapons,
and endeavour to halt in the inevitable contest. No longer for
imprisoned princesses--though there is right good meaning and simple
wisdom in these stories of our youth--nor yet any longer for _los_ and
fame, but because there is true life and health in the warfare, and
because--

“Adam, we have had much and intimate intercourse, but scarcely ever have
we spoken together of Him who is the centre of this world’s history, the
wonderful Presence that pervades all the changes of its many ages past
and to come. But, Adam, because He bids, because He leads, because He
himself for the strife and for the victory’s sake was clothed as one of
us. It is a wonderful history, that, of this long struggle ascending up
to the very source of time, of the good and the evil, the righteousness
of heaven, and the sin of earth; and now to mark the individual ways by
which we solitary units, thus far down in the stream of the world’s
existence, are wakened by so many different obstacles, each in his own
separate course, to carry on the warfare. To turn from our idolatry of
the false beautiful here, to lawful worship of the true sublime yonder;
to take up arms for the Lord’s sake and do valiant service against His
enemy and ours, that ancient Titan, Sin. The true work of a man, the
great war worthy this humanity, which He shares who saved it.

“I think it is a gracious and blessed thing, Adam, that this natural
propensity to strife within us should have so noble an outgate. Do you
ever think how we used to dream long ago of delivering Scotland? and
there are foes greater than the old Edward scheming against her purity
and freedom now. Ah, Adam! you are happy, you are at home, and can do
your devoir for our own land and people, while I, a stranger and a
sojourner here, can only strive to maintain the ancient honour of our
name, and commend our faith to minds which know not how to receive the
one religion--the one Lord. I think I am not the kind of stuff which the
mission-man should be made of, for continually I yearn for home.

“You do not tell me if you saw Lucy before she left Murrayshaugh; and I
want to ask you a delicate question, Adam, which I should not put to any
one whom I trusted less entirely--Charlie Graeme--what of him? Lucy does
not speak of him as she once did; her last letter indeed intimates
vaguely, that from the change in her own feelings towards him she has
seen it necessary to break the engagement between them. Do you know
anything of this? Whether Lucy is sinned against or sinning, I cannot
tell--from her letter I should fancy the latter; though certainly she is
the last person in the world whom I could think of as likely to change.”

       *       *       *       *       *

Poor Lucy!--in her solitary bravery, her woman’s pride, she was stouter
of heart than I.

My spirit rose to the encouraging words of Hew. I too had been thinking
more of late of the true end and aim of life; that momentous matter
which always stands out in the twilight of grief, sometimes indeed
arrayed in fantastic lights and shadows, but sometimes distinct and
clear as it has been revealed. I had begun to discover how much my
wayward soul was out of tune with the infinite mind disclosed to us in
revelation, and the harmonious universe around. The warfare was begun
within me. Hew Murray’s letter was such as I needed; it stirred me to
better things, it made me ashamed of my indolent brooding, my cumbering
of the ground.

As I laid it down, I remarked the note which had fallen from its
enclosure, and took it up with some curiosity. The handwriting was
strange to me, and the first words made me start in the utmost alarm and
terror--the remainder smote me down into the blank of utter grief.

       *       *       *       *       *

“Sir,

“Finding the enclosed letter addressed to you among Mr Murray’s papers,
and having heard him speak of you often as a much-valued friend, I think
it my duty to inform you of a most unhappy occurrence which, if it has
not already resulted in death, must have placed him in the utmost
danger, and made his ultimate fate almost certain. A short time ago, Mr
Murray was despatched on a political mission to the Rajah of ----, whom,
it was thought, his firm and energetic character would especially
qualify him for dealing with. The Rajah is an artful, wily, dangerous
man, and Mr Murray knew before setting out that the mission was of a
perilous nature. But our unfortunate friend has not been able to reach
the place of his destination. Two or three days ago one of his native
servants returned here, worn out with fatigue and want. He states that
his master has been made prisoner by one of the predatory parties that
infest that district, and that when he himself contrived to make his
escape, Mr Murray, who had made a very desperate resistance, was
entirely overpowered by his captors, who were stripping him of
everything he possessed, including costly presents intended for the
Rajah. He was severely wounded, and Doolut (the servant) believes that
these fierce native bandits would not encumber their retreat with a
prisoner so helpless. At the same time, there is a possibility that his
life might be preserved (though, I fear, the chances are all against it)
in expectation of a ransom. Every effort has been, and will be made, to
discover if he still exists, and the place of his imprisonment; though I
can give you very little hope of a favourable result. This most unhappy
event has occasioned much regret in all circles here, Mr Murray having
been, for so young a man, very greatly respected; and I can again assure
you that every exertion will be made to discover his fate with
certainty.

“I have the honour to be,

“Sir,

“Your most obedient servant,

“R. CHURCHILL.”

       *       *       *       *       *

The letter dropped from my hands; I was stunned. I had thought of
death--in my thankless folly I had almost wooed it for myself--but never
had it occurred to me in connection with my young, strong, life-like
friends; and Hew--Hew, the dearest, truest, most noble of them all! I
groaned aloud in the bitterness of my soul; I had held lightly this
terrible hopeless might of death, and now I fell prostrate under its
power.

Then I started in a frenzy of hope, to write to the stranger who had
sent to me this sad intelligence. I do not know what I said to him; but
I remember how I begged and prayed, with involuntary unconscious tears,
urging my entreaty aloud in the intensity of my emotion, that nothing
should be left undone; that every means that could be used, should be
put into immediate operation--that my unknown correspondent would employ
agents for me to prosecute the search for Hew. When I had finished, I
thought it cold and indifferent--it would not do--I could not be content
to depute to mercenary hands such an undertaking as this. I resolved to
go myself to India, to seek for my dearest friend.

But in the mean time there was much to be done. I could not leave home
without making many arrangements, and losing precious time. So I sent
off my letter, and began immediately to prepare for my journey.




CHAPTER X.

    No hope--no hope! let calm lips say, No hope,
    To whom hope never was; but as for me,
    This possible is life--
    And if you say it is impossible,
    Yet up, up to your highest cliffs of ice
    I go to light my watchfire--so perchance,
    As he may see it from afar. No hope!
    There never is but hope where there is love.--OLD PLAY.


Land! our voyage is just ending, and softly before us in the dawn of the
morning rise the shores of India; the mighty, impotent, fabulous, golden
East.

But I was in no mood to indulge in the pleasant excitement and curiosity
of a stranger. My anxiety, like other torments, became intolerable as it
approached its end, and in feverish haste I hurried to seek the Mr
Churchill who had written to me of Hew.

He was a civilian, with something of that stiff, well-drilled military
look, which such officials acquire from their contact, I suppose, with
their warlike brethren. He was a middle-aged man of indefinite years,
endowed largely with the grave politeness of tone and manner which
belongs to your sober, retired major or captain; perfectly urbane, and
not without its considerable mixture of kindliness, but presenting to a
stranger an unimpressible blank of courteous gravity, which to your shy
man is, in most cases, an invincible barrier. I was very much
agitated--I told Mr Churchill my name. He looked politely puzzled and at
a loss. “He was not aware--” I interrupted him with a statement of my
errand, and an anxious inquiry for Hew.

The polite, grave man was melted; the muscles of his face moved. “Ah,
poor Murray!” he said, in a tone which told me there was no more to
hope.

And so it was. Every exertion had been made to ascertain the fate of my
unfortunate friend, and it was now certain, Mr Churchill said, that all
hope or chance that he survived was at an end. Nothing had been left
undone, for in Bombay Hew had many friends; but there could be no doubt
that he had fallen by the hands of these assassins, and now lay in some
unknown desert grave. It was now certain, there could be no doubt. I
eagerly asked if this was all; if they had no positive information of
Hew’s death.

Mr Churchill did not comprehend the extreme agitation of my grief. He
thought me excited in my intense anxiety, and became again as blankly
polite as before. They had no positive information; but the want of it,
to those who knew India, was quite enough, he said, and all further
search was hopeless.

I was not sufficiently indifferent to be content with this. I left him
to seek Hew’s servant, and to make another desperate effort to discover
his fate. The man Doolut was a Parsee, and professed attachment to his
master too extravagantly to satisfy me, but I took him into my service
and immediately began my search.

How long I remained engaged in it, and the travels and perils, and vain
hopes, and blank disappointments, which I passed through while pursuing
it, I cannot record. I become faint again, as I recall that time, when
day by day the deferred hope sickened my very soul within me--I failed;
most sadly and utterly failed; yet though the shadows of some thirty
years have darkened over Hew Murray’s fate, and increased its mystery, I
cannot think of it yet without a flicker of hope, a throbbing sickness
of desire, that has well-nigh power to send me forth on the vain quest
again. Living or dead, in earth or in heaven, Hew Murray, no man has
ever filled your place in your old companion’s heart; and though I have
had darkness enough in my own life to make me think an early deliverance
from these earthly cares a blessing, yet would I give almost all that
remains to me to know that you yet lived and breathed upon this lower
world--to hope that I might look upon your face and hear the voice of
your brotherhood again!

For years after that I wandered about the face of the earth, in all
lands and countries, a solitary man; snatching here and there the solace
of congenial companionship for a brief space, but only passing forth
again to be forgotten. Murrayshaugh and Lucy I never could discover
though I have lingered on the outskirts of many a little French and
German town, vainly endeavouring to find some trace of them. Once only
have I had any communication with the family, and that was immediately
after Hew’s mysterious disappearance, when a few hurried blotted
incoherent words came to me from Lucy, bidding me pity her in her
misery; she had no one in the wide world, she said, to tell it to but
me--and then in her generous gentleness, as if the words of her
complaint had burst from her unawares, she essayed to comfort me, and
spoke of consolation and hope. Hope and consolation! yes, so wonderful
is the fabric of this humanity, that there is no sky too dark for those
stars; and our sorrows lie softly on us when they have grown old with
us, and become a part of our lives.

With Charlie Graeme I had no more intercourse. He took guilt to himself
and never attempted to renew our former intimacy--but the sin that he
had clogged his course withal, found him out ere it was far spent. He
married the daughter of a Glasgow merchant reputed to be rich, whose
great pretensions collapsed immediately after Charlie became connected
with his family. This wife had the expensive tastes of her class, I have
heard, but it happens singularly that all unsuccessful men have wives
with extravagant tastes, so I give little credence to that rumour:
however it happened, or whatever were the procuring causes, it is
certain that Charlie Graeme, with all his gifts, was in a very short
time a shipwrecked man. He died young, in poverty, and debt, and
discomfort--his helpless wife did not long survive him, and they left
one child--a boy--on the world’s hands and mine.

This child I left, during his infancy, under the care of a servant of
his mother’s, and some ten years ago I had him sent to a school in
Aberdeenshire, a private place of respectable standing conducted by a
pragmatical Aberdeenish man, called Monikie, who was with us at college.
The boy’s name is Halbert, our most famous family name. He must have
nearly arrived at man’s estate, but I have never seen him.

I am drawing near the end of my course. I earnestly desire to have my
mind preserved from the resentment and pain of being again brought into
immediate contact with those who have so deeply injured me, or with
their representatives. For this reason I have never seen Halbert
Graeme, and am firmly resolved not to see him. The lad shall have full
justice; I will refuse him no needful help in any profession he may
choose; but though he is the last representative of our ancient name, he
shall not be the heir of Mossgray. I have given Monikie all freedom in
providing for him, in a way becoming his father’s son--but he is not
mine. I do this with no feeling of revenge towards the dead, but I
cannot adopt or cherish the son of Charlie Graeme.

And Lilias--I have heard that she too has one child--a girl called by
her own name--but these also I cannot dare ever to look upon. Edward
Maxwell is dead; he has lived the life of a weakling, and his widow
remains in England where he died. I have learned now, in my old age, to
think of the Lilias of my imagination as of one who died in the early
fragrance of youth, and almost to dream that her gentle, shadowy
presence hovers near me, in the twilight of summer nights, when the
stately flowers which bear her name shine like gleams of moonlight in
the dim borders of my garden. I can bear the neighbourhood of these
lilies now; their pensive beauty soothes me; but though the softening
shadows of memory and years have enshrined this lily of my youth, in
that radiance of tender melancholy with which we surround those who have
gone down early to peaceful graves, I yet cannot and dare not enter the
presence of that Lilias who has made me a solitary, joyless man. Let me
be kept from them and from their children. I cannot endure the pain
which their very names inflict upon me--I must always avoid and shun
them. I wish them well--all health, and peace, and happiness be with
them, and a brighter lot than mine; but let me be left with my dreams;
the sole remaining companions, which are with me in my old age, and were
with me in my youth.

Walter Johnstone is the only surviving member of our joyous boyish
party. He is struggling still in the Maelstrom of care and business,
maintaining his place well, as I hear, among his compeers, and training,
as he can, a large family of sons and daughters. He still retains
Greenshaw, but never visits it; for Walter’s wife and children are
fashionables in their degree, and think it expedient, as my good friend
Mrs Oswald tells me, to leave the gentle enchantment of distance and
ignorance about the very minute property from which their father
acquires the landed designation to which we attach a considerable share
of importance in Scotland.

Greenshaw is let to strangers--I hear it is greatly altered; but I avoid
it in my limited walks, the last association of deadly pain it has
having obliterated in my mind all the former ones of youthful joy and
sunshine. It is not in my way indeed, for the water and I travel
together--I seldom leave the green line of its banks; I pursue its
windings up and down with constant interest and pleasure. We never weary
of each other; those ripples which I have heard all my life have an
articulate tongue to me--they are connected with all the gladness I have
dreamt, with all the grief I have undergone; and there are creeks and
sunny promontories there which recall the shining thread of youthful
visions till I can almost think I am weaving them again--

    “My eyes are filled with childish tears,
      My heart is idly stirred,
     For the same sound is in my ears
      As in those days I heard.”

This spell of local association has always been strong upon me. As I
pass along the banks of my ancient and well-beloved companion, the wan
water, the changes of my life rise up before me, each with its separate
scene and dwelling-place--these dells and pensive glens--these broad
glades, and grouped brotherhoods of old trees--they are peopled with the
things that have been; they bear upon them, as upon so many several
pages, the story of my life.

And so I dwell among them, and at my pleasure am again a solitary child,
a dreaming youth, a stricken man--I feel myself of kin to myself in all
these changes. Swiftly these years have carried me over the world’s
broad highway, but with this white hair upon my head I am still the
child to whose first dreams this water murmured its plaintive symphony.
I know myself little wiser, and in nothing more thoughtful. It is the
things around us that change--it is not we.

For I confess myself as credulous still of ideal generosity and truth,
as I was when I had counted only twenty summers. I have not been able
yet to tutor myself to suspicion--the vision splendid has not quite
departed--I cannot put the lustre of that celestial light, which once
apparelled all things, away out of my eyes, even when those eyes are
old; and Nature in her grave nobleness is not less, but more dear now,
when I remember that I shall soon bid her good even, to enter into the
presence of her Lord and mine. New heavens and a new earth--I cannot
sever my human heart from mine own land; and who shall say that those
noble countries, casting off all impurity in the fiery trial that awaits
them, shall not be our final heaven?

I love to think that it may be so; I love to think that the Lord, in His
humanity, looks tenderly upon the mortal soil on which He sojourned in
His wondrous life, and that here, perchance, in these very lands, made
holy by His grace and power, our final rest shall be. It may be but a
fancy; but it comes upon me with gentle might, like the whispered
comfort of an angel. A new earth wherein dwelleth righteousness--a
glorified humanity which, remaining human, is mortal no longer! with the
judgment, and the condemnation, and the wars of the Lord over-past, and
the earth and the heaven one fair broad country, and Himself over all,
blessed for ever. These are the old man’s dreams; and they shed new
glory over the pleasant places in which my lines have fallen--

    “Oh, ye fountains, meadows, hills, and groves!
     Forbode not any severing of our loves!
     Yet in my heart of hearts I feel your might.
     I only have relinquished one delight,
     To live beneath your more habitual sway.
     I love the brooks that down their channels fret,
     Even more than when I tripped, lightly as they;
     The innocent brightness of a new-born day
                            Is lovely yet--
     The clouds that gather round the setting sun
     Do take a sober colouring from an eye
     That hath kept watch o’er man’s mortality.”


END OF BOOK I.




BOOK II.

RESOLUTIONS.




CHAPTER I.

    There was a hardness in his cheek,
      There was a hardness in his eye.--PETER BELL.


“I beg you will not misunderstand me, Mrs Oswald; I vow to you that this
girl shall never cross my threshold, and if William persists in his
folly he must choose between her and me; for assuredly he shall not keep
his place with both. I tell you her father was a fool and a weakling,
and you know the injury he did me. My mind is made up; before I receive
this girl (I care nothing for her own good qualities--they do not
concern me in the slightest) as my daughter, I will disown my son. If he
wants to prolong her poverty, and to make himself a servant all his
life, let him persist in his madness; and if you encourage him further
in it, the consequences lie with yourselves. I have toiled and laboured
to enrich him, and if he thwarts me thus, he shall rue it!”

The speaker was a wiry, dark man, about the middle height, with a face
in which you could read habitual obstinacy. It had redeeming qualities;
you could see how a great enough matter might elevate the constitutional
pertinacity into brave determination, and the eyes were intelligent and
clear; but the rigid muscles of his mouth wore their sternest expression
to-day, and a cloud lowered darkly upon his face. He was standing with
his back to the fire in a good-sized, comfortable dining-room, the front
windows of which looked out upon the Main Street of Fendie. The house
was withdrawn a little from the line of the neighbouring buildings, in
modest dignity, and bore over its portico and stone pillars the
important title “Bank;” and the obstinate gentleman in the dining-room
within was Mr George Oswald, at that time the sole representative of
banking interests in the borough of Fendie.

The very emphatic speech which we have already recorded, was addressed
to his wife, who sat opposite to him. She was very calmly engaged with
her sewing, though her face was sufficiently grave to show that her
husband’s words were not mere empty breath. When he had concluded, she
raised her head.

“I cannot see what necessity there is for making any vows to me, George.
If you are determined not to hear what I say, and what William says
about this very sweet and innocent girl, of course you must have your
own way, as you always have; but as for your vows--you know that is
quite unnecessary.”

“I know no such thing!” said Mr Oswald, imperiously. “You fancy I will
forget by and by, and that you may renew this subject again; but I
protest to you, Jane, that neither your son nor you shall ever move me
on this point--that--”

“George,” interrupted his wife, “I hear Hope coming down-stairs; pray do
not let her be a party to this discussion. I am reluctant that she
should even know how you regard the Buchanans, for Hope is inclined to
have an opinion of her own, and to express it more freely perhaps than
she should at her years. Let us drop this subject, I beg; I promise you
_I_ will not renew it.”

The cloud passed from the banker’s face--his stern mouth relaxed. It was
the young voice without, singing so gaily as its owner came bounding
down-stairs, “Hame, hame, hame! oh, it’s hame fain wad I be--” that
chased the mist from his face and from his mind. He was kind enough in
all his relationships, if somewhat exacting and rigid; but he was
indulgent to an extent, which only the stern and vehement nature can
reach, of all the whims and caprices of his favourite child.

Hope Oswald was fourteen, and had been for two or three years at a
famous educational establishment in Edinburgh. Her father looked with
natural satisfaction on the houses and lands which his industry had
acquired, read with satisfaction his own name high in the list of bank
shareholders in his own private office; was pleased when he saw “George
Oswald, Esq., of Fendie,” figuring in his local newspaper as connected
with some county or borough reform, or public good-work; but the
banker’s eye looked never so proud as when a metropolitan broad-sheet
informed him how, at the examination of the famed establishment in
Edinburgh, “Miss Hope Oswald, Fendie,” had carried off prize on prize.
The stern man read the half-yearly list of school-girl honours with
secret exultation. It was a matter of genuine happy pride to him; and
Mrs Oswald smiled within herself, as year after year her husband
expressed in joyous terms his wonder, that the name of Miss Adelaide
Fendie of Mount Fendie, the daughter of their aristocratic neighbour
“up the water” did never by any chance make its appearance among this
honoured number, while “our Hope” had won almost as many distinctions as
there were distinctions to win.

But Hope was weary of gaining prizes, and longed exceedingly to return
home; so she was granted an interregnum. Six blithe holiday months were
to pass before she returned to Edinburgh, and on this same day she had
arrived in Fendie.

The age of awkwardness had scarcely commenced with Hope. She had not
begun to be self-conscious, and in consequence escaped the inevitable
physical attendant of that unpleasant mental state. She did not yet
think of people seeing her when she danced about through the rooms and
passages, and ran races in the garden, and waded secretly in the water;
nor of people hearing her, as she went about everywhere, singing aloud
in the exuberance of her joy. She was only a girl yet: she scarcely felt
the budding woman begin to stir within her healthful breast.

So the dining-room door swung open, wider than it needed to do, and Hope
came in with a bound. She had hazel eyes and auburn hair, and an
animated blithe face, whose claims to beauty, if it had any, no one ever
thought of deciding. She was tolerably tall and tolerably stout, and
exceedingly firm, and active, and vigorous. The “Misses” in Edinburgh
whispered among themselves, that Hope had a predilection for masculine
games, and was as strong as a boy; but Hope denied the slander stoutly,
affirming that its solitary foundation was one unlucky slide, and two or
three snowballs, in both of which the stupid and docile Adelaide Fendie,
whom no one thought of blaming, was as much implicated as she.

Hope was rather talkative; she had a great deal to say about her
Edinburgh experiences, and both the father and the mother were good
listeners; the sterner parent however being by far the most indulgent
now.

“And what did your friends say when you came away, Hope?” asked Mr
Oswald; “was there much lamentation?”

“They were all very sorry,” said Hope, “and they all wished they were
coming too; only big Miss Mansfield that’s going to India, she did not
care, for she thinks we are only girls and she’s a woman, and she’s
always speaking about Calcutta--as if anybody was caring for
Calcutta!--and little Mary Wood would hardly let me go, mamma--she
wanted to come too. Will you let her come at the vacation, mother?--for
when all the rest go away, Mary has to stay with Miss Swinton, because
she has no friends.”

“But Miss Swinton is very kind, is she not?” said Mrs Oswald.

“Miss Swinton is always good to everybody,” said Hope promptly, “but
when little Mary sees us all going away, and nobody coming for her, she
greets--”

“She _greets_, Hope!” said Mr Oswald, holding up his hand in reproof.

“Well, father,” said the brave Hope, “it is a far better word than
cries:--cries! as if folk had only cut their finger! and Miss Swinton
says our tongue is as good a tongue as the English, and we need not
think shame of it.”

Mr Oswald submitted to be defeated, well-pleased and smiling--

“And what does Miss Swinton do at the vacations, Hope?” asked her
mother.

“I don’t know, mother; sometimes she stays at home, sometimes she goes
away to some of those places that the Glasgow girls are always talking
about--Rothesay, or somewhere about the Clyde. She was there with Miss
Buchanan last year; and oh, mamma, I had almost forgotten--how is _our_
Helen Buchanan? I must go to see her to-day.”

The banker’s brow contracted suddenly. His wife was wary, and a good
politician; she took no notice of Hope’s unsuitable inquiry.

“Miss Swinton went to stay with one of the young ladies, did she? does
she do that often, Hope?”

“Sometimes, mother; they are all so fond of her--and I don’t think she
has ever been in the south country. Perhaps she would come to Fendie, if
you were to ask her, mother, and bring little Mary Wood.”

“Well we shall see,” said Mrs Oswald; “and what about Adelaide Fendie,
Hope?”

“Oh, Adelaide Fendie is coming home; the school is not good enough for
her; and they’re going to have a governess at Mount Fendie, for her, and
Victoria, and little Fred--Poor governess! I am very sorry for her, I am
sure, whoever she is. I would far rather keep a school like--”

Mrs Oswald interposed hastily, “Is it some one from Edinburgh, Hope?”

“No, indeed, mamma. Only somebody from England that Mrs Heavieliegh
knows; and I almost hope she will be as stupid as they are, for if she
is not, they will kill her. I would not live at Mount Fendie for all the
world; and no one can teach Adelaide anything, except to do Berlin work,
and thump, thump upon the piano.”

“Come, Hope, this is too bad,” said her smiling father. “I hope you can
thump upon the piano to some purpose yourself. We must hear you
to-night, you know.”

“I don’t care about it, father,” said Hope; “it is very dreary, except
folk will just let me play my own tunes; but then there’s these awful
waltzes and things, that were never made for anything but people’s
fingers. Adelaide could play them for days, father; but they make me
dizzy; for there’s nothing but noise in them.”

“I am afraid you are quite giddy enough already, Hope,” said Mr Oswald.

“Miss Swinton says I am sensible,” said Hope, with offended dignity.
“Miss Swinton says she can trust me with the little ones better than
Miss Mansfield,--and Miss Mansfield’s seventeen!”

The father and mother laughed; but Miss Swinton’s testimony to Hope’s
good sense pleased them nevertheless.

“Adelaide is coming home in a week,” said Hope, “and she said the new
governess would be at the Mount before her. I am to go up every day,
Adelaide says, if you will let me, mother; and I would like to go
sometimes, but not so often; and I want to go to Mossgray, to see old
Mrs Mense, and the Laird; and up to Friarsford to Maggie Irving, and
down to the Waterfoot to see the Flower of Fendie; but first of all--”

“That will do, Hope,” said her mother, fearful that the interdicted name
might fall from Hope’s gay lips again; “but I think you might show us
those drawings of yours that you used to write so much about:--you can
arrange your visits to-morrow.”

“But I want to go into Fendie to-night, mother,” urged Hope, “to see--”

“We cannot part with you to-night, Hope,” said Mrs Oswald; “and now go
and bring your drawings and let your father see them.”

Hope obeyed. Mr Oswald began to walk about the room, almost inclined to
be angry with his daughter; this pertinacious attachment to the one
person in Fendie whom he tabooed, and the constant recurrence of her
name, annoyed him greatly; and the banker had a consciousness that his
wife and his son William were much more likely to submit, so far as
external action went, to his stern will, than was the much privileged
girl-daughter, who appeared fully as much inclined to sway him as he was
to sway her, and did it as effectually. The grave and painful constraint
with which William curbed a will as strong as his father’s, raised in
the banker’s mind an angry feeling of antagonism; but the frank
resistance of Hope was much less easily managed. Mr Oswald began to feel
an involuntary “_drither_” as to his success in this part of the
contest--a dubious consciousness that Hope might be too many for him.

The exhibition of drawings did not succeed. Hope perceived that there
was something wrong, and with eager girlish curiosity could not rest
till she had fathomed it. William was strangely grave and taciturn, she
thought; she seized the earliest opportunity of questioning him.

By the dining-room fireside, the brother and sister sat in the twilight
alone. Hope took advantage of the propitious moment.

“William, is there anything the matter?”

William stirred the fire thoughtfully and sighed. The light threw a
gleam upon his face, and made it look very grey and grim, as his sister
thought. Hope was not inclined to wait for his tardy answer; she plunged
into the middle of the _questio vexata_.

“William, I want to know about Helen Buchanan.”

William started.

“Hush, Hope--do not speak of her, I beg.”

“Why?” said Hope. “I like her better than anybody else in Fendie: why
should I not speak of her?”

There was no point on which Hope and her taciturn brother agreed so
perfectly. He smiled a momentary smile, and then answered gravely,--

“Because you do like her better than any one else in Fendie, you must
not speak of her, Hope--and especially recollect that her name must not
be mentioned before my father, unless you wish to hear her spoken of
with anger and disrespect, which I am sure you do not.”




CHAPTER II.

    If I may not speak, I pray,
    All the words I have to say,
      Where shall I go hide them?
    Nought say I ’gainst words of thine,
    Do not listen, father mine--
      So you need not chide them.--SONG.


Hope Oswald was very much puzzled. She could by no means understand why
this perfectly unreasonable interdict should be put upon her free and
unfettered speech, and was not in any degree inclined to submit to it.
She resolved to be at the bottom of the mystery.

Mr Oswald and William were no sooner fairly lodged in the office the
next morning than Hope began her investigation. Mrs Oswald sat sewing
again; she had an old-fashioned horror of idleness.

“Mother,” said Hope, “I want you to tell me what ails Helen Buchanan?”

“Hush, my dear!” said her mother.

“But why should I hush, mamma? and why am I never to speak about Helen?
William told me the very same; and it’s too bad--as if you could not
trust me!”

“What makes you think there is anything to trust you with, Hope?” said
Mrs Oswald.

“Oh, I know--because you will not let me speak, and say always, hush!
hush! Mother, do tell me: what is the matter with Helen?--what ails
her?”

“Nothing ails her, Hope--she is perfectly well.”

Hope became very impatient.

“But you know you don’t mean that, mamma; there _is_ something wrong;
and would it not be better to tell me than to be always saying ‘hush!’”

Mrs Oswald smiled.

“It is not always so easy to tell, Hope:--for instance, why do you call
me ‘mamma’ one moment, and ‘mother’ the next?”

“Oh, that is easy,” said Hope; “because the girls at school say mamma,
and it sounds best there; and when I come home, William says mother,
and it is home-like and--and the right word; but I forget sometimes, and
mix them at first. So now, mother, if you please, tell me about Helen
Buchanan.”

“You are a very pertinacious girl,” said Mrs Oswald; “but remember,
Hope, if I tell you this, that you must be very prudent and sensible,
and never mention it again.”

“I will be very prudent and sensible, mother,” promised Hope, with a
reservation.

Mrs Oswald hesitated still: the impatient Hope volunteered to thread her
mother’s refractory needle, and urged her petition still more warmly. A
slight fugitive smile crossed the good mother’s face--then she became
very grave.

“Helen’s father died long ago; he used to be very fond of you when you
were a baby, Hope; but you cannot remember him.”

“Oh, yes! was he not very thin and pale, mother, with a white high
forehead, like Mossgray?--I do mind him.”

“Hush, Hope! you are interrupting me now. He was a very delicate, gentle
man, this poor Mr Buchanan; but he was not at all like Mossgray, and
when he died, your father and he were not good friends.”

“Yes, mother, I know that,” said the disappointed Hope; “but is that
all?”

“Wait a little; do not be so impatient!” said Mrs Oswald. “And foolish
people said that your father’s sternness killed this delicate man. I
believe Mrs Buchanan thinks so still.”

Hope started.

“Then Helen will not be friends with us because my father was poor Mr
Buchanan’s enemy:--is that it, mother?”

“No, Hope, that is not it. Helen knows that her father was a weak man,
and Helen is a wise, good girl, and would not do anything so foolish;
but Helen is only a poor schoolmistress, Hope, and your brother William,
you know, will be rich.”

“Oh, mamma!” exclaimed Hope, clapping her hands as the conjunction of
these two names threw sudden light upon the mystery, “are they going to
be married?”

“I very much fear you are not the sensible person you call yourself,”
said her mother; “your father will not let them be married, Hope.”

Hope’s bright face became suddenly blank.

“Mother, there is nobody like Helen Buchanan in all Fendie! why will my
father not let them be married?”

“Because her father did him wrong, Hope; and because she is poor.”

“Because she is poor!--Helen is a gentlewoman, mother!--and because her
father did wrong! But that is not Helen’s fault. If my father did wrong,
no one would blame William or me.”

“Take care, Hope; you are treading on dangerous ground,” said Mrs
Oswald; “and though it is not Helen’s fault, your father has made up his
mind, and William must submit.”

“But, mother,” said Hope doubtfully, “William is old--William is a man.”

“And what then?”

“I don’t know,” said Hope, hesitating; “perhaps it would be quite wrong,
but--mother, is William always to do what my father bids him?”

“And why should he not, Hope?” said Mrs Oswald; “does it alter his duty
that he is old?”

“I don’t know, mother,” said Hope again; “but if my grandfather were
living now, my father would not always ask him before he did anything,
as I ask you; and perhaps William is right, and perhaps--mother, what
would my father do if William disobeyed him?”

“I believe he would never speak to him again,” said Mrs Oswald.

Hope shrank back and looked afraid.

“And all that he has, Hope, he would take from William and give to you.”

“To me, mother? that would not do William any harm,” said Hope, looking
up brightly; “though if my father would not _speak_ to him--but he
would, mother--he could not help it.”

“My dear, I have known your father longer than you have,” said Mrs
Oswald; “and besides, Hope, Helen Buchanan would not consent if your
father did not consent; she is as firm as he is.”

“Then it is all because everybody is proud, mother,” said Hope, turning
away disconsolately, “and would rather make other folk unhappy than give
up their own will.”

“There are some things in the world, Hope,” said Mrs Oswald, “that are
of more importance than even making people happy.”

“I know, mother,” said Hope: “it is best to be _right_ always, whether
we are happy or not; but this is not right, I am sure--my father does
not know--there is nobody in Fendie like Helen Buchanan!”

Mrs Oswald sighed.

“You must not speak so of your father, Hope, he knows what is right
better than you do.”

Hope looked sceptical; those frank instinctive impulses of the young
heart, which had no complicated mesh of secret motives to hinder its
prompt out-going, were perhaps better guides after all than the groping,
worldly wisdom of elder minds; wisdom whose wary steps are supposed to
be guided by the caution of clear-sightedness, when it is only the timid
caution of the blind.

“But I may go to see Helen Buchanan, may I not, mother?” asked Hope,
after a pause.

“Surely, Hope; I have no wish to restrain you, and your father will not,
I dare say, unless you speak of her again before him, as you did
yesterday; and you must be cautious of that, for it only aggravates your
father’s prejudice and vexes William, without doing any good.”

“And am I not to speak about Helen at all?” said Hope.

“No, my dear, not now. I do not forbid you praising Helen as frankly as
you blame Adelaide Fendie--and you must restrain that last propensity of
yours a little, Hope--but do it cautiously and warily, and let me see
something of this wisdom and good sense which Miss Swinton has
discovered. You see I trust you, Hope.”

Hope drew herself up.

“I will be very careful, mother, no fear, but may I go to see Helen
now?”

“Helen will be busy now, Hope.”

“Well, then, come to the Waterside, mother; I want to see Mossgray, and
I want to see Maggie Irving. Come!”

The indulgent mother laid aside her work and went.

Friarsford was a farm-house standing on a little eminence at some
distance from the Water, and Maggie Irving was the farmer’s daughter.
She was a year older than Hope Oswald, and one of her Fendie intimates.
The house was only a little out of the direct road to Mossgray, and Mrs
Oswald and her daughter turned up the winding by-way to make their first
visit there.

Matthew Irving of Friarsford was wealthy and had some ambition. He was
exceedingly desirous to give his children good education, and with the
masculine part of them he had succeeded tolerably well, thanks to the
academy of Fendie; but the hapless Maggie was less fortunate. She was
the only daughter; especial pains, and care, and labour had been
expended upon her training, and the father and mother, exulting over
their accomplished girl, thought the process a perfectly satisfactory
and successful one.

Maggie had been sent to the house of a relative in one of the busy towns
of Lancashire to learn English, and she had learnt it to perfection.
Maggie had a piano, and could play you against time, all manner of
inarticulate music. Maggie could draw, as three or four copies made from
French lithographs--_patterns_, as Maggie and her mother called
them--hung there, elaborately framed, upon the walls, to testify.

Moreover, Hope Oswald’s quick movements had swept upon the ground a
couple of handsome specimens of knitting, displayed upon the arm and
cushions of the sofa, before Hope had been ten minutes in the lightsome
cheerful apartment, which was the comfortable parlour once, but had now
obtained brevet rank as drawing-room. As Maggie hastened to arrange
them, she pointed out the stitch to her visitor, and offered to show her
the various stock she had. Hope was dismayed; never girl of fourteen was
more innocent of stitches than she, and this branch of her friend’s
acquirements had very little interest for her. It was not so with Mrs
Irving, a comfortable, kindly, vulgar woman, who was very proud of her
daughter’s accomplishments, and eager to exhibit them.

“Miss Hope will give you a tune, Maggie,” she said; “and you can let her
hear how you come on yoursel. She’s very good at it, Mrs Oswald, though
she hasna had the same advantages as Miss Hope.”

Hope started in alarm.

“On, don’t let us have any music, Mrs Irving!--I mean, I shall be very
glad to hear Maggie, but I don’t like playing.”

Mrs Irving thought the young lady only coy.

“Hout, Miss Hope! a’body that’s very good at it makes that excuse, ye
ken; and I’m sure ye must aye be getting new tunes in Edinburgh.”

“But I don’t like new tunes,” pleaded Hope.

“Oh, Miss Oswald!” said the astonished Maggie, in gentle reproof.

Hope was offended; Maggie Irving called her Miss Oswald; Maggie Irving
had nothing to talk about, after so long a separation, but stitches and
new tunes! Their friendship was at an end. Hope walked indignantly to
the piano, and played her favourite air of “Hame, hame, hame!”

“It’s a bonnie bit simple thing that,” said Mrs Irving, looking proudly
at her own accomplished performer, as she took her place at the
instrument, by the side of which Hope and her mother were reluctantly
compelled to sit for a dull half hour, listening to jingling pieces of
music, whose brief moment of fashion was long ago over, and which had
never had anything but fashion to recommend them.

But Mrs Irving was delighted, and Maggie was exceedingly complacent.
Alas, poor Maggie! her fingers were highly educated; her mind was
fallow. The thorough training of Hope’s Edinburgh school these good folk
in Fendie could not reach; but they could reach the superficials, and
they were contented.

“Well, Hope,” said Mrs Oswald, in answer to a burst of wonder and
disappointment, when they had left Friarsford and its accomplishments
behind them; “you remember how you used to resist and be disobedient
when your father said that Matthew Irving’s daughter was no companion
for you.”

“But, mother,” said Hope solemnly, “Adelaide Fendie is just the
same--and Adelaide ought to be a lady, if being anybody’s daughter would
make her one; but she is not, for all that.”

“Adelaide is only a girl like yourself, Hope.”

“But she is not a gentlewoman, mamma; and she talks about stitches and
tunes like Maggie Irving--and I’m sure I don’t know what’s the use of
them.”

Hope could not forget her disappointment; there was only one consolation
in it. In the midst of all these twinkling artificial lights, the star
of Helen Buchanan rose clearer and clearer. Helen was a gentlewoman; and
what did it matter that she was poor?

“Yonder is Mossgray!” exclaimed Hope, as they approached the house;
“yonder he is, up among the trees, and he has got something like a
letter in his hand. Do you see him, mother?”

The bank of the wan Water sloped upward into gentle braes, a little
beyond the house of Mossgray, and the laird was certainly there, walking
among the trees, with a step altogether unlike his usual meditative,
slow pace. Hope Oswald was an especial favourite with Mr Graeme of
Mossgray, and he liked her mother; but Mrs Oswald had too much regard
and sympathy for the old man to intrude on his retirement.

“We will go in and see Mrs Mense, Hope,” she said; “Mossgray seems
occupied just now. You will see him another day.”

The large old-fashioned kitchen had a separate entrance to itself. The
mass of buildings altogether bore evident testimony to the different
periods of their erection, and looked, as their owner said, a natural
growth of the homesoil in which the grey walls and rude, dark, massy
tower seemed so firmly rooted. A large garden descended from the most
modern front of the house to the water, where it was deeply fringed with
willows. The clipt, fantastic trees of a generation which admired such
clumsy gambols of art were scattered through it, and there was a
sun-dial, and many prim flower-beds; but the cherished lilies of
Mossgray were not in these stiffly-angled enclosures; their fresh green
leaves were beginning to shoot up in the freer borders--those borders on
which they gleamed in the dim summer evenings, like errant rays of the
moon.

Mrs Mense was a very old woman now, and invalided. She sat in a great
elbow-chair by the fireside, spinning feebly sometimes, and sometimes
giving counsel, by no means feebly, to her self-willed niece, the
housekeeper _de facto_. The establishment was a very limited one;
besides Janet, and the miscellaneous personage known as “Mossgray’s
man,” there was only one other servant in the house.

“Eh, Miss Hope, is this you?” said Mrs Mense, “and your mamma nae less,
minding the auld wife as she aye does. Effie, ye tawpie, get chairs to
the ladies--or are ye gaun ben, Mrs Oswald, to wait for Mossgray?”

“Mossgray is out, I see,” said Mrs Oswald. “No, Hope came to see you,
Mrs Mense; we will sit down beside you awhile. That will do, Effie.”

“And look till her how she’s grown!” exclaimed the old woman, “and stout
wi’t. Ye’re no gaun to let down our credit, Miss Hope. Ye’ll let the
Edinburgh folk see what guid bluid is in thir southland parts. Effie,
gar Janet gie ye the wee cheeny luggie fu’ o’ cream. Ye mind it, Miss
Hope? it belangs mair to you than to onybody about Mossgray.”

“But, Mrs Mense,” said Hope, “you did not call Crummie’s calf after me,
as you said you would.”

“My dear lamb! ye wadna have had me to ca’ the muckle langleggit haverel
of a beast after you, and you a winsome young lady? Na, I ken better
manners--and forbye Mossgray said it was nae compliment. But I’ll tell
ye what, Miss Hope, there’s a new powny--the bonniest creature!--and
ye’se get the naming o’t, gin ye like.”

“Where is it?--wait till I see it, mamma!” cried Hope, starting up. Hope
had, like most country girls, an especial liking for youthful animals.

“Ye maun hae your cream first,” said the housekeeper, as Effie
approached with the china luggie, in which, from time immemorial, Hope
had received a draught of rich cream on her every visit to Mossgray.
Hope hardly took time to taste it; she was too eager to see the “new
powny.”

“Did you see the laird, Mem?” said Mrs Mense, with some appearance of
anxiety, as Mrs Oswald waited for her daughter’s return.

“We saw him on the knowe,” said Mrs Oswald; “but did not disturb him, as
he seemed occupied. I fancy that is one of his favourite spots, Mrs
Mense.”

“Na--I’m meaning I dinna ken,” said the old woman; “but he’s gotten some
letter the day that’s troubled him--I canna bide to see him fashed, and
he’s just unco easy putten about. Janet, div ye hear the clock? it’s twa
chappit, and the dinner no to the fire!”

“I ken what I’m doing, auntie,” returned the impatient Janet.

“Ye dinna ken onything very wise then,” said the dethroned monarch of
the kitchen; “it’s a bonnie-like thing that the laird, honest man, maun
wait for his dinner, aboon a’ the rest o’ his troubles! I heard him
travelling up and down in his ain study-room in the tower, after thae
weary letters came in. What gars folk write when they’ve naething but
ill-tidings to tell about, I wad like to ken? and syne out to the
Waterside as he aye does when he’s troubled--I canna bide, as I was
saying, to see him fashed, for--”

“Oh, Mrs Mense!” exclaimed Hope, bounding in, “be sure and tell Mossgray
that he is not to call the pony anything till I come back again. Mamma,
come and see it; it’s like as if its coat was all sprinkled with snow--I
think I will call it Spunkie; but that’s not a bonnie name. Mind, Mrs
Mense, that nobody is to give it its name but me.”

Mrs Mense promised, and after some further lamentation about her
master’s supposed trouble, resumed so keenly the dinner controversy with
Janet, that her visitors withdrew. It was yet too early to visit Helen
Buchanan, so Hope, expatiating on the beauty of the pony, returned with
her mother, home.




CHAPTER III.

    Oh, youth! for years so many and sweet
      ’Tis known that thou and I were one;
    I’ll think it but a fond deceit--
      It cannot be that thou art gone;
    Thy vesper-bell hath not yet tolled,
    And thou wert aye a masquer bold;
    What strange disguise hast now put on
    To make believe that thou art gone?
    I see these locks in silvery slips,
      This drooping gait, this altered size;
    But spring-tide blossoms on thy lips,
      And tears take sunshine from thine eyes!
    Life is but thought; so think I will
    That youth and I are housemates still.--COLERIDGE.


The Laird of Mossgray stood alone beneath a high beech, whose silvery
trunk and delicate buds made it the most noticeable of all the
neighbouring trees. His figure was tall, thin, and stooping; his hair
the most delicate silvery gray; his face full of thoughtful fortitude
and wisdom in its gentlest guise; but his usual serenity was ruffled
to-day, the calm of his meditative age was broken.

Those dim lands of memory in whose gentle twilight he did so much love
to wander, among the fairy shadows, tender and pensive, of things which
once were stern and hard enough, had been suddenly illuminated by a
flash of the intense and present reality which once they had. The old
man’s quietness had suddenly been rent asunder, and floated away from
him like a mist, while the stormy blood of his more vehement days was
swelling in his veins again.

He held a letter in his hand; the fingers which traced its trembling
lines were now lying in a nameless grave. A worn-out, wearied woman,
prematurely old, and glad to lay down her head in that one place where
the weary are at rest, was the writer of those earnest, living words.
The Laird of Mossgray did not remember that she was old--the past years
were in this moment a fable and a dream to him. He thought of Lilias
only as he saw her last, enshrined in all the pure and gentle dignity of
his young fancies; for Lilias was dead.

And dying, she had revealed to the old man what she was. Not indeed the
lofty lady of his dreaming days, but a gentle, chastened, meek woman,
who knew now, and had long known, the worth of the generous heart she
threw away. In the bitterness of his soul he had believed her an
unsubstantial vision; but the faithful hand of death had brought back to
him the true Lilias, worthy of the place he had given her in his best
days.

“I do not ask you to forgive me,” wrote the dying Lilias, “because I
know that long ago you must have forgiven the witless girl’s heart that
did itself so much more wrong than you. I did not know myself, my own
slight, shallow, girlish self, and pardon me then, Adam Graeme, that I
did not know you. Since then I have learned--what have I not learned
that is bitter and sorrowful? Care, poverty, death, and miserable shames
and humiliations, such as never crossed your path, have been the
constant companions of mine: they are all ending now. I am going hence
to my Lord, and to the children whom He took from me one by one, till my
heart was well-nigh broken; but I cannot go till I make one prayer to
you, one last entreaty for the sake of our youth.

“I would not speak of the time when we last met; in pity to my bitter
lot, and to the dead whose faults we lay with them in the grave to be
forgotten, as I have laid Edward, and as stranger hands shall soon lay
me, do not think of that time. I have one last treasure remaining to me,
one last request to make, and there is no one in the world but you, whom
I have wronged, to whom I can address my prayer.

“Mossgray, I have a child; a friendless, unprotected, solitary girl,
who will soon be left utterly alone. If I shrink from subjecting her to
the cold charity of Walter’s wife, forgive me, because I am her mother.
I know that Lilias is not what I was. I know that our subdued and
clouded life has given to her youth a greater maturity than I had when I
was her mother. I have fancied often that Lilias is what you thought me
to be, and there has been a sad pleasure in the hope, that for her weak
mother’s sake, your heart would melt to my child.

“I cannot ask you. I feel that I cannot venture to beg of you this last
service; my heart fails me, when I remember how little I deserve any
grace at your hands. But you who have always been so kind and pitiful,
think of the misery of leaving her thus, alone in an evil world. If you
think I presume upon you, if you refuse to hear my prayer, I still must
plead it for her sake. Adam Graeme, will you protect my Lilias? Will you
forgive the sins we have done against you, and protect our child?”

There was more than this; there were the solemn farewells of the dying,
the pathetic earnestness of sorrowful repentance which bade God bless
him for ever. Except in his gray hairs, and in the strength which began
gently to fail and glide away, Adam Graeme was not old. The tide of his
strong and ardent feelings rushed back in that mighty revulsion, with
which the generous soul repents when it has blamed unjustly. He
remembered no injury Lilias had done him--he forgot the blight of his
youth, the solitude of his old age; he only felt that she was again, the
Lilias of his early dreams; and that the commands she laid upon him were
sacred and holy, a trust dearer than any other thing on earth.

And yet, a few brief days before, the old man had solemnly recorded his
resolution to shun their presence; to avoid all contact with Lilias and
her child, that the peace of his age might not be broken. Their very
name was pain to him; therefore he prayed that he might not cross their
path. He resolved to keep himself from any, the most distant intercourse
with them. In solemn earnest he formed this purpose, or rather he formed
it not: it was the instinctive necessity of his heart.

He remembered it now no more. It was not that he combatted his former
resolution; it was swept away before the resistless force of that
impulsive, generous heart, which in its solitary pain had built this
barrier about itself; and there was no inconsistency here. Had his ear
been dull to the voice of Lilias, had he hesitated to respond to her
appeal, then had Adam Graeme in his old age ceased to be consistent to
himself; for the same power which made him resolve to keep himself
separate and distant always from those whose very names had might enough
to move him still, asserted itself in the instant return of all the
ancient tenderness and honour, which painfully taken away from the
living Lilias, could flow forth unrestrained and unblamed upon the dead.

In the enclosure of the letter, a trembling hand had written the date of
the first Lilias’s death. It struck with a dull pang the heart to which
she was restored, yet only thus, he knew, could he have regained her.

That evening the Laird of Mossgray set out on a lonely journey. Before
his going, he warned his anxious housekeeper of the young guest he might
probably bring home with him. The intimation occasioned considerable
excitement in the little household.

The early twilight of the April night had fallen, when Adam Graeme left
the dim lights of Fendie behind him, and travelled away into the
darkness, shaping his course to the south. The faint indefinite sounds,
and musical “tingling silentness” of the night, came close about him,
like the touch of angels’ wings. The stars were shining here and there
through the soft clouds of spring, and the dim shadowy sky blended its
line yonder, in the distance, so gently with the darkened earth, that
you could not mark the place of their meeting. The moon herself had been
an intruder there; the subdued and pensive dimness which told of that
nightly weeping of the heavens from which the young spring draws its
freshness and its life, and the faint shining of yon solitary stars high
in the veiled firmament, harmonized most meetly with the lonely spirit
of the traveller, going forth to look upon the grave of his dead. The
sad, wistful, yearning melancholy which belongs to this hour “between
the night and the day,” who does not know--those faint hushed hopes,
those inarticulate aspirations, turning then, when there is dimness on
the earth, to the better something beyond--there are few who have not
felt the influence of “the holy time.”

A charmed sway it had borne at all times over the mind of Adam Graeme.
And now it travelled with him like a human friend: in the stillness of
his night journey there were gentle ministrations about him, influences
of the earth and of the sky.




CHAPTER IV.

                Touch the chords gently--
    Those strings are heart-strings, and the sounds they utter--
    Be silent when you hear them--are the groanings
    Of uttermost pain, the sighings of great sorrow,
    Voices from out the depths.--ANON.


About twelve or thirteen years before the date of our last chapters, a
young man from Glasgow, with his wife and one child, came as lodgers to
a humble road-side cottage not far from the town of Fendie, and very
near the Waterside. Walter Buchanan was an invalid. A delicate,
sensitive man by nature, whose fine nervous organization was of that
kind which is akin to weakness and not to strength--for there are both
varieties--his health had been broken by the confinement and harassing
labour of his vocation as a clerk in a mercantile office. His wife had a
little portion, a very little one, which nevertheless to their
inexperienced eyes seemed able to last long and accomplish much; so on
the strength of it, and in obedience to the doctor’s peremptory order,
that he should have rest and country air, Walter gave up his situation,
and the young couple began to make the dangerous experiment of living
upon their little capital. The gentle poetic man had been charmed in his
early days, in some chance visit to the neighbourhood, by the stately
water and pretty town of Fendie, and the pleasant remembrance decided
their new habitation.

These rash, youthful folk were more fortunate than prudent people might
think they deserved. They excited the interest and kindly sympathy of
Mrs Oswald, the banker’s wife, and through her, of her sterner husband;
so that when the pleasant summer air had done its gentle spiriting on
the wan cheek of Walter Buchanan, and he felt himself able for work
again--which was happily before his wife’s little portion was altogether
exhausted--he was received into the bank as Mr Oswald’s clerk.

To be called “of the bank,” in a country town in Scotland, is a matter
of considerable dignity, and the salary, if small, was enough for their
limited expenses. The Oswalds were kind and neighbourly; other friends
gathered about the gentle couple; and as they stood in their own garden
beneath the heavy branches of their own fruit-trees, in those serene
autumnal evenings, watching the sun go down gloriously behind the dark
crest of yonder hill, they were wont to render quiet thanksgiving out of
full hearts.

This pleasant life continued through ten happy years, and in its placid
course the delicate man seemed strengthened in mind no less than in
body. His nervous melancholy glided away into graceful mists of pensive
thought. The nervous impatience and irritability, which it had once cost
him so much pains to subdue, were soothed and softened. He became,
mentally no less than physically, as it seemed, a more healthful and a
stronger man.

At the end of the ten years his position was changed. They had saved
enough to raise their little capital to a larger amount than the
original sum on which their inexperience had braved the evils of the
world. This was invested in the purchase of bank shares, and Walter
Buchanan, a clerk no longer, became Mr Oswald’s partner in the agency of
the bank.

An unhappy change. The one peculiar, distinguishing feature of the
Scottish banking system, over which our economists boast themselves,
became a source of constant torment to Walter Buchanan. The quick and
prompt decisions of Oswald, in which he could not join, made him feel
his own weaker will overborne and set aside. A hundred “peculiar cases,”
and “very peculiar cases,” in which the clear, acute mind of the banker
could see no peculiarity at all, troubled the midnight rest of his
nervous and tenderhearted partner. That this struggling man whose
security was dubious, or that hapless farmer wading knee-deep in
difficulties, whose cash account was already overdrawn, and who wanted
more, should be dealt with summarily, was clear to Oswald’s steady eye;
but was enveloped in painful mists of distress and perplexity to Walter
Buchanan, himself acquainted with all the restless shifts and expedients
of the struggling poor.

His feelings became morbid again under that exercise. He imagined
himself ill-used, despised, trampled upon, when the finer points of his
compassionate and impulsive benevolence came into collision with the
strong sense and energy of his partner, who in his turn grew impatient
of the sentiment which he thought sickly, and the tenderness which he
called weak. There was a rupture at last. A struggling man with dubious
security came to Buchanan when Oswald was absent from Fendie. The
sensitive man of feeling forgot prudence in compassion, and by his
ill-judged acceptance of the uncertain “cautioner,” brought serious loss
to the bank. Oswald returned; there were sharp and high words spoken by
both, which neither, in less excited mood, would have given utterance
to; and in a storm of bitter anger and wounded to the very heart, Walter
Buchanan threw up his situation, dissolved his partnership with Oswald,
and left the bank.

Very soon to leave the world; for, before the winter was over, his
course had ended. He could not bear such tempests of excitement, for
pain to him was agony, and anger madness. So in his weakness he died,
and left his gentle widow and his young daughter to fight with the world
alone.

Helen Buchanan was only sixteen. She had a fair proportion of what
people call accomplishments, and might almost have been a governess in a
boarding-school or a “gentleman’s family;” and beneath the
accomplishments there was a sound substratum of education, and a mind
matured too early for her own happiness. Fendie was abundantly supplied
with _ladies’_ schools; so Helen, in her flush of youthful pride and
independence, determined to offer her services to the humbler mothers,
and to receive as her pupils not the young ladies, but the little girls
of Fendie.

Mrs Buchanan reluctantly acquiesced. She was a gentle, hopeful woman,
accustomed to yield always to the quick impulses and keen feelings of
her husband, and now rendering a kindred submission to her daughter.
Helen was a very dutiful, very loving child, but her mother’s cheerful,
patient nature was made to be thus influenced, and unconsciously and
involuntarily the stronger spirit bore the mastery.

So when the first pangs of their grief were over, Mrs Buchanan
regretfully removed her substantial furniture from the dining-room of
which she had been once so proud, and with many sighs saw her little
maid-servant arrange in it the bare benches and large work-table which
befitted its new character of school-room; and the youthful teacher
began her labours.

These had gone on successfully for four or five years before the
pleasant April-tide on which Hope Oswald returned home; eventful years
to Helen. It is not well to leave the unconscious happiness of girlhood
too soon, even to enter upon the enchanted ground of youth. Toil,
poverty, and William Oswald; the three together were well nigh too many
for the youthful champion who had to struggle, single-handed, against
them all.

In the twilight of that April evening she sat in their little parlour
alone. The faint firelight gave a wavering flush to the shadowy air of
the holy time; and Helen sat in the recess of the window, wandering
through the mazes of such a reverie, as belongs especially to her
peculiar temperament and mind. For those delicate lines in her face,
those continually moving features, those slight starts now and then, and
altogether the elastic impulsive energy and life which you could
perceive in her figure even in its repose, testified her inheritance of
the constitution of her father. With one difference. _His_ nervous,
sensitive temperament was akin to weakness; hers, with all its
expressive grace, its swift instinctive feelings, its constant life and
motion, was strong--strong to endure, although its pain was sorer a
thousand times than that of more passive natures--strong to
struggle--mighty to enjoy.

She had been out, watching the sun as he shed a golden mist over the
dark mass of yonder hill, where it stands out boldly into the Firth, a
strong sentinel, keeping watch upon the sea; gleaming in the mid-waters
of the estuary, gleaming in the wet sand and shining pools of the deep
bay, and throwing out the sunless hillock at the river’s mouth, with its
little tower and quiet houses, in bold relief against the far away
mountain, and its mantle of streaming gold. The wonderful sky in the
west, the broad bed of the Firth, the sunset and its noble scene--there
was an enjoyment in these to the delicate soul of Helen, which duller
natures have not in the greatest personal blessings of the world.

And now, with her pale cheek resting on her hand, and leaning forward on
the window-sill, Helen was lost in a reverie. What was it? only a mist
of fair thoughts indefinitely woven together; scenes starting up here
and there of the future and of the past, with fairy links of association
drawing their strangely-varied band together; old stories, old songs,
and breath of music floating through all in gentle caprice--the sweet
and pleasant gloaming of the mind.

Mrs Buchanan was out, doing some household business in Fendie, and Helen
did not hear the footstep of Hope Oswald as she entered by the garden
gate. These quiet houses are innocently insecure; when Hope’s summons
remained unanswered, she opened the door herself, and went in.

“Oh, Helen!” exclaimed Hope, as she precipitated herself upon her
friend, dispersing in that nervous start all the fair visions of the
evening dream. “How glad I am to be home again--how glad I am to see
you!--but I scarcely can see you either, because it’s quite dark; and,
Helen--you don’t know how I used to weary in Edinburgh just to hear you
speak again!”

“Thank you, Hope,” said Helen. “I am very glad to see you; or rather to
hear you speak, according to your own sensible distinction. Come, we
will get a light and look at each other.”

Mingling with the quick movement of surprise at first, there had been a
deep blush and a temporary shrinking from William Oswald’s sister; but
another moment restored Hope to her old privileged place of favourite,
and Helen rose, her young companion’s eager arms clinging about her
waist, to light the one candle on the little table.

The room was small and plainly furnished, though its substantial
mahogany chairs and sofa looked respectable in their declining years. On
the carpet here and there were various spots of darning artistically
done, which rather improved its appearance than otherwise. A large
work-basket stood upon the table containing many miscellaneous pieces of
sewing; shirts in every stage of progress, narrow strips of muslin,
bearing marks of the painful initiation of very little pupils into the
mysteries of the thoughtful craft, mingled here and there with scraps of
humble “fancy” work, samplers, and the like--all of which the young
school-mistress had to arrange and set to rights before the work of
to-morrow commenced. A book lay beside the basket--a well-thumbed book
from the library. Helen had been idling; for she sometimes did snatch
the brief relaxation of a novel, though Maxwell Dickson, the librarian,
had no great choice of literature.

“Oh, Helen,” exclaimed Hope again, when the feeble light of the candle
revealed to her the pale face of her friend, “I am so very glad to see
you again!”

“Thank you, Hope,” repeated Helen; “how you are growing--you will be
above us all by and by. When did you come home?”

“Only yesterday,” said Hope; “but are you sure you are quite well,
Helen?”

“Quite sure--why?”

“Only because you look pale--paler than you used to do; and, Helen, what
makes you sigh?”

“Did I sigh?” said Helen, her delicate wavering colour gradually
heightening beneath the girl’s steady affectionate look. “I did not know
of it, Hope--it must have been for nothing, you know, when I was not
aware of it.”

“Ah, but it was when you were sitting in the dark before you saw me,”
said Hope gravely, “and you must have been thinking of something.”

Helen’s colour heightened more and more, yet she smiled.

“Are you going to be an inquisitor, Hope? Do you know people sometimes
think very deeply, as you saw me to-night, about nothing? Ah, you shake
your head and are very grave and wise, and experienced, I see. Come, I
will show you what Cowper says about it.”

“Oh, I know,” said Hope. “I learned all that for Miss Swinton because
she likes Cowper; but, Helen, you are not so clever as one of our young
ladies; it’s Miss Mansfield, you know, that’s going to Calcutta, and
she’s old--she is near eighteen, I am sure--and she sighs; but when Miss
Swinton spoke to her about it, she said she was only drawing a long
breath. I think,” said Hope disconsolately, “that the people in Fendie
are very dull and sad now; for everybody draws long breaths.”

“Have you seen so many, Hope?” said Helen, with an uneasy flush upon her
face, and with some evident interest in the question; those constantly
moving features were sad telltales.

“I mean just the people I care about,” said Hope; “there is poor
William. I do not know what ails William--for he sat in the dark like
you, last night, and will always lean his head upon his hands, and
sigh--sigh--and my mother--I wish you would not all be so sad.”

Helen Buchanan turned round to examine the contents of her work-basket.
Her slender figure was very slightly drawn up; something almost
imperceptible like the faint touch of wind upon leaves passed over her;
you could not tell what it was, though you could read its swift
expression as clearly as written words. Pride--sympathy--a conciousness
that moved her heart and yet made it firmer; but Hope’s piece of
incidental information did not sadden the face of Helen.

Hope had a comprehension of--though she could by no means have explained
how she comprehended--the silent language of Helen Buchanan’s looks and
motions; and she arrived at a pretty accurate conclusion in her own
simple and shrewd reasonings on the subject. Mrs Buchanan came in so
soon that she could try no further experiments with Helen; but as she
past through the dim road, half-street, half-lane, in which their house
stood, and came into the quiet Main Street of Fendie, with its half-shut
shops and groups of wayside talkers, great schemes began to germinate
within the small head of Hope Oswald. If only that very unreasonable
opposition of her father’s could be overcome, Hope decided that William
would be condemned to draw long breaths in the dark no longer. “Miss
Swinton says I am sensible,” mused Hope within herself, “and my father
says I am clever. I don’t know--I think it will turn out the right way
some time, and we shall all be very happy, but just now--I will try!”

And immediately there flitted before the eyes of Hope, in the gentle
darkness of the April night, a fairy appearance, we do not venture to
say it was anything very ethereal. It was only a vision of a lilac satin
frock like that famous one which Miss Adelaide Fendie, of Mount Fendie,
wore at her sister’s marriage, and very fascinating was the gleam which
it shed about the young schemer as she lingered at her father’s door.
Hope Oswald was only fourteen.




CHAPTER V.

          We must at first endure
    The simple woe of knowing they are dead--
    A soul-sick woe in which no comfort is--
    And wish we were beside them in the dust!
    That anguish dire cannot sustain itself,
    But settles down into a grief that loves,
    And finds relief in unreproved tears.
    Then cometh sorrow, like a Sabbath! Heaven
    Sends resignation down and faith; and last
    Of all there falls a kind oblivion
    Over the going out of that sweet light
    In which we had our being.--PROFESSOR WILSON.


In the waning afternoon of another dim spring day the Laird of Mossgray
entered the Cumberland valley, to which the letter of Lilias had
directed him.

He had traversed the fair country beyond Carlisle, with its sloping
glades, and belts of rich woodland, and now had reached a chiller and
more hilly region, whose bleak inhospitable fells, still scarcely
touched by the breath of spring, did yet reveal home-like glimpses, here
and there, of sheltered glens and quiet houses, dwelling alone among the
hills. He had to pass several of the pleasant towns of Cumberland before
he reached the sequestered hamlet in which the last days of Lilias had
been spent. It lay in a nook by itself, a scanty congregation of gray
roofs, with the church “a gracious lady,” as was the poet’s church among
the hills, serenely overlooking all, reigning over the living and the
dead. From the end of the little glen you commanded the long range of a
wider and more important valley, at the further end of which lay one of
the most picturesque of those northern towns, its gray limestone
buildings making a sheen in the distance, and a delicate cloud of smoke
hovering about the points of its white spires, like something spiritual,
marking where household hearths were gathered together in social amity.
Not far away lay the consecrated country of the lakes: and everywhere
around, bare, brown, scathed hill-tops stood out against the sky.

Mossgray proceeded to the churchyard first of all; all things beside
were strange to him in the unknown village, but here he had a friend.
After long search among the gray memorials of the forefathers of the
hamlet, he came upon a green mound marked by no name, where the soft,
green turf was faintly specked with the fragile blue of the
forget-me-not; in the village churchyard this alone and the daisy found
a place--occupants more fit than the garish flowers with which modern
taste has peopled the cities of the dead. The Laird of Mossgray turned
aside to ask the name of the occupant of this grave. It was a Scottish
widow--said the sexton--lately dead, whose name was Maxwell. The
inquirer returned again, and seating himself on a hillock, covered his
face with his hands. The old man never knew how long he lingered there.
He was not an old man then; the fervid affection of his youth--the
burning grief of his early trial, were in his heart passionate and
strong as when they thrilled it first; and it was not until the night
fell and the dew dropped gently on him, that the sacred sorrow which
belongs to the dead, came down to still the stronger throbs of his
solitary heart. When he looked up, the stars were shining again in the
dim and dewy sky--the hills stood up, like watching Titans, clothed in
the shadowy unformed garments of the early earth, and ghost-like in the
darkness rose ancient tombstones, gray with years, and the green mounds
of yesterday. The great, silent, conscious world, tingling with the
spiritual presence which over-brimmed its mighty precincts--and the
dead--the solemn sleepers who have lived, and do but wait to live again.

But there were the faint village lights close at hand, and the orphan to
be sought for there, who was committed to his care. So the old man
withdrew from the grave of Lilias, to seek her child.

The bearing of the Laird of Mossgray had in it so much of the graceful
olden courtesy of the gentleman born, that it never failed to bring
deference and attention. The very little inn which stood in the centre
of the hamlet was not much frequented by strangers. Wandering pedestrian
tourists of the student or artist class, to whom its humbleness was a
recommendation, did sometimes refresh themselves in its well-sanded
kitchen; but the ruddy landlady had scarcely ever welcomed such a guest
as Mossgray under her homely roof. So she ushered him into a little
boarded room, of dignity superior to the kitchen, though communicating
with it, and dusted a huge old-fashioned chair with her apron, and
stood curtseying before him, waiting for his orders, and secretly
cogitating whether there would be time to dress a fowl for supper, or if
the universal ham and eggs would do.

But Mossgray was by no means concerned about supper. He was silent for a
few moments, during which the comfortable hostess stood before him
marvelling, and when he did address her, it was to ask whether she knew
a young Scottish lady, a Miss Maxwell, who, he believed, lived in the
village.

The good landlady was a little shocked. What had the like of him to do
with young ladies? but his grave face reassured her.

“And that will be the poor young creature that lost her mother, a
fortnight come Friday, it’s like?”

“Yes,” said Mossgray, slowly, to steady his voice, “yes, she is an
orphan--her mother is dead.”

“Ay, sure; and I wouldn’t wonder a bit,” said the stout hostess,
smoothing down her ample skirts, “if she didn’t bide long behind her;
for a thin long slip of a thing she is, and no more red on her cheek
than the very snow, and I’ve heard say that such like troubles run in
the blood. There’s the Squire’s family down in the dale--you’ll know
them sure, better than the likes of me--they’ve all followed one
another, for all the world like a march of folk at a funeral going to
the grave.”

“And is Lilias--is the young lady affected with this disease?” exclaimed
Mossgray.

“The young lady did you say, Sir? Why, the poor girl had her bread to
work for, like the rest on us--and a weakly white thing she was if there
were ne’er another; but she thought herself a young lady sure enow, and
what mun she do but go and be a governess, as they ca’ it. Her mother
was a prideful body, to have nothing, and so was Miss; but I say, I’d
sooner have my girl a dairy-maid any day, if Susan needed to go out of
her father’s house for a living, which she doesn’t, thank Providence.”

“But, my good woman,” said Mossgray mildly, “Miss Maxwell has no
intention of being a governess, I trust, as she has no need. You will
oblige me if you can tell me where I shall find her.”

“Well, and that’s just more than I can tell you, Sir; for the Rector’s
gone from home, and they say Miss went with them;--but if it’s your
pleasure to stay--”

“I will stay this night, if you can accommodate me,” was the answer.

The landlady curtsied.

“I’ll send up Susan to the Rectory for Mary, and mayhap she can tell.”

In half an hour Susan was despatched, her mother in the mean time taking
upon herself to prepare the unbidden supper; and in about an hour and a
half after, Susan returned alone. The Rectory Mary had deserted her
post, and was now half a dozen miles away over the fell, visiting her
mother, and the girl left in charge had been fain to keep Susan for an
hour’s gossip to cheer her loneliness. She knew only that the Rector and
her mistress had gone to Scotland; but as Scotland, in the reckoning of
Susan of the inn and Sally at the Rectory was a word of quite indefinite
signification, meaning sometimes a village like their own, and sometimes
enlarging into the dimensions of a dale, or of a great town like the
picturesque one near them, which filled up to overbrimming their idea of
“the world,” the information thus obtained was anything but
satisfactory. So Mossgray endeavoured to ascertain something further
from the landlady.

“They came here eighteen months past, come Whitsuntide. I mind it
particular, because my Susan and more o’ the young folks were up at the
confirmation the Bishop had up yonder, in the town, the end of that
summer; and it would have done any one’s heart good to have seen my girl
in her white muslin, and her cap, and all of them trooping down the dale
in the fine morning. But the Scotch lady wouldn’t have her daughter go,
though the Rector took the trouble to talk to her himself. I donna
understand such things, but mayhap, Sir, the like of you do that are
learned, why the young Miss shouldn’t have gone with the rest, like any
other Christian. But they were quiet, peaceable folks, no one can say
again that; and except it were wandering about the dale, the old lady
leaning heavy on Miss, and looking as faint when she came back as if she
had done a day’s work, I know no pleasure they ever took, young or old
of them; and they cared about nought but books and the post. I have seen
them sit on the brow yonder in the summer time reading for hours; and in
the winter time I’ve looked in at the window passing by--not that I’m a
prying body, or care about my neighbour’s business, but only, there was
nought like their ways in the whole dale--and there they would be, with
a turf fire you could ’most have held in your two hands, one of them
doing fine work, and the other reading; and beautiful Miss can work,
Mary at the Rectory says, and it was all for some rich friends that sent
them money now and again--though sure it wasn’t much--but it’s like
you’ll know, Sir?”

A painful colour was on the face of Adam Graeme: “Poor, and in trouble,
and ye visited me not.” He felt every word an accusation, and could
scarcely answer “No.”

“And every month or two--I donna know but what it was every month--Miss
went by herself into the town to get letters: and I’ve heard say she’d
pay more for them than would have put a bit of something comfortable on
their table many a day. They were from some far away part, and they came
as regular as Sunday comes: but no one could tell who sent them, for she
had ne’er a brother, and her father was dead. The Rector’s lady took a
deal of notice of Miss and her mother; not that she is one of that kind
herself, for she’s just a good easy creature, that doesn’t trouble her
head about learning; but she came from Scotland herself you know. I’ve
heard Mary at the Rectory say that the old lady had been in such a many
places--never biding long in one, I reckon; and you know the old word,
Sir, about the rolling stone. Well, they had been in this way more than
a year--a good fourteen months it would be, for it was past
Midsummer--when the old lady fell ill; and she kept on getting better
and worse, better and worse, till a fortnight come next Friday when she
died--and a week past on Monday they buried her. At the burial, I know
for certain, Miss was like nought but a shadow, and just yesterday the
Rector and his lady went off to Scotland and took her with them. I’ve
heard Mary at the Rectory say she was gone to be governess to the
Rector’s lady’s sisters; but I donna know what’s their name, nor where
they live; and please, Sir, that’s all I can tell you.”

The talkative landlady recollected other scraps of gossip however,
before she suffered so good a listener to escape her. The subdued and
quiet life of the mother and daughter--the proud poverty that made no
sign--the privations which were guessed at--which perhaps were
magnified--the mysterious letters--the little incidental and unconscious
touches which revealed through a mist of verbiage something of the
second Lilias, in the fresh youth which knew no cares but those of
poverty, and in the first paralysis and stupor of her heavy grief. But
the other figure--the sad Naomi leaning on the girl’s arm, and sinking,
amid hardship and the chill pains of penury, into a stranger’s
grave--every new touch did but deepen the sad cold colours of the
picture, and this was the lofty Lily of the old man’s dream--the sunny
and joyous daughter of Greenshaw.

The next morning Mossgray left the Cumberland glen, resolving, if his
search did not prosper in Scotland, to return when the reverend ruler of
the little dale should have returned to his flock and his dominions. He
remembered however with annoyance, when he had reached Carlisle on his
way home, that he had not ascertained the Rector’s name. It had not been
mentioned by his primitive parishioners, to whom “the Rector” was the
title of titles; but Mossgray resolved to make immediate inquiry of Mrs
Fendie, whose eldest daughter had married an English clergyman somewhere
in this same district. He would write also to Walter Johnstone; he would
advertise if other means failed, calling on the second Lilias to honour
the bequest her mother had made to him. The trust was more sacred now
than ever; it was enough that one had gone down uncomforted to the
grave.




CHAPTER VI.

    She was a sonsie mayden
      Of substance eke, and weight,
    Nae cares did vex her, nae thoughts perplex her,
      And her name it was callit Kate.--OLD SONG.


On the following morning, a low pony carriage, very little above the
rank of a gig, and packed in its lower departments with sundry empty
baskets, drew up at the door of the Bank. It was the market-day in
Fendie, and the strong rustic driver of the little vehicle seemed
considerably more interested in the acquaintances whom he noticed in the
crowded Main Street than in the young ladies whom he assisted to alight.
The elder of them was about fifteen, a little older than Hope Oswald.
She was a large, clumsy, heavy girl, with soft fair features, and sleepy
blue eyes. The face was well enough, so far as mere form went, and had a
certain slumbrous, passive good-humour in it, not unprepossessing; but
speculation there was none under the heavy lids of those large eyes.
The soft face had its tolerable proportions of white and red, but was
informed by no inspiring light; for this was Hope Oswald’s stupid
schoolfellow--Miss Adelaide Fendie.

With her was a younger sister, a girl of ten, whose face only was less
stupid, because it had a spitefulness and shrewish expression perfectly
alien to the soft good-humour of Adelaide. They were both dressed after
that peculiar fashion which belongs to the caterpillar state (if we may
venture on such an expression) of young ladies--in unhandsome dresses of
faded colours, short enough to display quite too much of Adelaide’s
white trousers and considerable feet, and hanging wide and clumsily on
shoulders which needed no addition to their natural proportions.

The Fendies of Mount Fendie were an old family; but Mr George Oswald the
banker had also some pretensions to blood, and Mrs Oswald was a laird’s
daughter; so there was no great derogation in the intimacy with which
the youthful Misses of the more aristocratic house honoured the
sprightly Hope. Miss Victoria was the more condescending of the two. She
felt to the full the superiority of Mount Fendie, with its wide grounds
and sweeping avenues and lodges ornamented by the delicate taste of
“mamma,” and considerably despised the great stone building in the main
street of Fendie, with the mechanical inscription of “Bank” over its
stately portico.

Adelaide knew better; even in the dignified educational establishment in
Edinburgh there was some certain degree of republicanism, and Adelaide
had attained to a dull consciousness of Hope’s superiority, and a habit
of being guided by her will, much to the comfort of her slumbrous self,
whom Hope managed to carry through scrapes and difficulties in a manner
which even excited a faint degree of passive wonder in the slugglish
inert nature, which could not comprehend her quick intelligence. And
Adelaide liked Hope, and by good fortune did not envy her; and Hope had
a sort of affection of habit for Adelaide, whose dulness she laid siege
to with girlish impetuosity, understanding it as little as her companion
understood her; for Hope could not persuade herself that it was natural
to be stupid, and so assailed the impenetrable blank of Adelaide’s mind
with all manner of weapons, but always unsuccessfully.

John Brown, the trusty major-domo of Mount Fendie, was bound for the
market, and, not without some coaxing, had consented to bring the young
ladies with him. John touched his hat in gruff good-humour as Hope
Oswald’s bright face looked out from the open door, and after depositing
Miss Victoria safely on the pavement, drove off with a sigh of relief,
muttering,--

“That lassie’ll be twenty stane afore she’s dune growing. I wad as sune
lift the brockit quey. Gude day to ye, Tam,--hoo’s the wife? Gar the
laddie gie the beast a feed--I haena muckle time.”

With which prudent beginning John descended, and evinced his haste
practically, by entering into a lengthened controversy with Tam Dribble,
the master of a little inn which it pleased John to patronize. Tam was a
man very great in the “affairs of the state,” and the Provost of Fendie
was his especial scapegoat for the sins of those in authority; so there
was so much to be said for and against some recent act of this
dignitary--for John Brown was a constitutional man, and defended the
powers that be--that it was not until they had moistened their argument
with a dram or two, and suffered the pony to make a very leisurely and
substantial meal, that the factotum of Mount Fendie summed up with a
clap of his hands, which made the room ring.

“Man, Tam, ye’re a born gowk--and it’s a’ havers--and here am I wasting
guid daylicht listening to you. An it had been night, I might hae bidden
to gie ye your answer--but me, that’s a responsible man, and under
authority--hout awa’ wi’ ye!”

With which triumphant conclusion John Brown strode forth to the market.

“Oh, Hope! isn’t he a great bear, that John?” exclaimed Victoria Fendie.
“Adelaide asked mamma to let us come, and mamma never will do anything
at first that we want; but we coaxed her, and then when she said we
might go, we had to ask John Brown to take us--to ask John Brown,
indeed!--only think of ladies asking a servant! and mamma would not
order him to do it. I know what I will do--I’ll get some of Alick’s
powder and put it in the snuffers, and then I’ll ask John to come and
snuff the candles for me.”

“Very well, Victoria,” said Hope, “I’ll tell John to-day.”

“Oh, goodness, Adelaide, only listen--how ill-natured she is! I don’t
care--I’ll do something; it’s a great shame of mamma to make us ask John
Brown.”

“Hope,” said Adelaide, “the new governess is coming to-morrow, and mamma
says you’re to come up and see her.”

“Mamma only said she might come if she liked,” interposed Victoria.

Adelaide paused to deliberate upon an answer.

“If I did not like to come sometimes to see Adelaide, Adelaide would not
ask me,” said Hope.

“But, Hope,” said Adelaide, lifting her large dull blue eyes, “it’s the
new governess you’re to come to see.”

“Well, I know that; but I shall see you too, shall I not?”

“Yes,” repeated the obtuse Adelaide; “but you’re to come to see the new
governess, mamma says.”

Hope was seized with one of her fits of impatience. Why would Adelaide
be so stupid?

“Shan’t we tease her!” exclaimed Victoria, triumphantly. “Fred says he
won’t learn his lessons to a woman, and I won’t learn any lessons at
all, if I can help it, and mamma won’t let me if I have a head-ache. Do
you ever have any head-aches, Hope?”

“No,” said Hope, stoutly, “head-aches! Miss Mansfield used to have them
at school--you mind, Adelaide? but it’s a great shame, and Miss Swinton
says girls have no right to have head-aches.”

“Oh, Hope! ‘you _mind_.’ Mamma would whip me if I said ‘you mind.’”

“_My_ mother would not,” said the resolute Hope, “and mind is a far
better word than remember or recollect. It’s only one syllable,
and--it’s our own tongue, and it’s a very good word.”

“I think so too,” said Adelaide, with an unwonted exertion, “because
when a word’s short it’s easier said.”

Adelaide’s sentence terminated abruptly in a peal of malicious laughter
from Victoria.

“Well,” said the elder sister, with some faint flush of anger, “I am
sure Miss Swinton used to say so--and you’ve no right to laugh,
Victoria--I’ll tell mamma.”

“I don’t care,” was the response; “mamma is not so well pleased when you
always talk about that stupid governess--you know that.”

“Stupid governess!” Hope’s eyes sparkled. “If you were not a child,
Victoria,” she said, with the dignity of a senior, “you would not speak
so. Miss Swinton is a lady--Miss Swinton is a gentlewoman! I don’t know
any one like Miss Swinton, except mamma, and--”

“Oh, come, tell us--tell us!” cried Victoria.

Hope drew herself up.

“Except mamma and Helen--Miss Buchanan--but you don’t know her.”

“Yes I do--she keeps a school; yes I do--a governess and a
schoolmistress--and Hope does not know any other ladies! I hope I shall
never be one of Hope’s ladies.”

“What are you doing now, Hope?” said Adelaide. “Mamma has made me begin
to work a cover for something; I don’t know what the shape of it will
be, but it’s all in bits like this, and mamma says it will be very
pretty--and Charlotte’s bringing such a load of music, and that
governess!--you might come up, Hope, and help me, for I’m sure you’re
not doing anything yourself.”

Hope acknowledged her idleness.

“No indeed, Adelaide; but I have only been two days at home; and--what’s
the use of working covers? I don’t know why people labour at such
things.”

“Because their mammas make them,” said Adelaide, gravely, and with a
sigh; “but I think I like it too, Hope, for it’s very pretty, you know.”

Hope shook her head. She had been visited several times of late by some
grave ruminations on this subject, and began to feel that working
covers, however pretty, was in reality a quite unsatisfactory mode of
life. But the cogitations were inarticulate; they had attained no shape,
except at present a decided disinclination to work at all.

“And, Hope,” added Adelaide, “how long do you practise every day?”

“I don’t practise at all,” answered Hope.

The sleepy lids of Adelaide’s eyes were elevated in wonder.

“Then what in all the world do you do?” exclaimed Victoria. “I should
like to be you, Hope--I should like to play all day; but Adelaide thinks
she is too old to play.”

“I don’t play all day,” said Hope, with some indignation. “Yesterday I
was at Friarsford with my mother, and at Mossgray--”

“Oh, Hope!” said Adelaide, “what makes you go to see that girl? she is
only a farmer’s daughter.”

“I don’t care for her now,” said Hope, with some sadness; “but it’s not
because she’s a farmer’s daughter--it’s because she is--I mean it’s
because _she_ practises, and knits and works covers, and doesn’t care
for anybody--but never mind that. And then we went to Mossgray. We did
not see Mr Graeme; but there’s a beautiful pony--the prettiest one ever
you saw--and Mrs Mense says I am to give it its name. What should I call
it, Adelaide? come and help me.”

Adelaide slowly shook her head--this was a stretch of invention quite
beyond her.

“Call it Mischief,” suggested Victoria.

“Mischief,” deliberated Hope. “No, I don’t like that--I want a pretty
name--give me a pretty name, Adelaide.”

An idea gradually illuminated Adelaide’s stolid countenance.

“Call it Pretty, Hope--that would do very well.”

“Oh, no, no!” exclaimed Hope; “you might call a lap-dog that, but a fine
pony! so merry, and brisk, and lively--oh, no, no!”

“Call it after me,” said Victoria.

“Mischief?” said Hope.

“No, indeed, not Mischief, but Victoria, or Adelaide, or--I have got
it--I have got it!--call it Lillie, after our new governess.”

“Is her name Lillie?” asked Hope.

“It’s her first name--her Christian name,” said Adelaide, “and Charlotte
says she looks pretty, Hope; but she is so quiet and sad--you know she
lost her mamma just a fortnight ago.”

“And has she no home?” said Hope.

“No home? I am sure I don’t know; Charlotte does not say anything about
her home; only her mamma is dead, and she is very quiet, and looks
pretty.”

There was no more to be got out of Adelaide--she could only repeat her
text, and wonder at the questions that sprang out of it.

“And is she coming with Mrs Heavieliegh?” asked Hope.

“Yes--you know Mr Heavieliegh is the Rector of the place her mother died
in--but she came from Scotland at first, and Charlotte was very good to
her, and because mamma wanted a governess, Charlotte engaged her to come
to the Mount.”

“Will Mrs Heavieliegh stay long?” inquired Hope.

The conversation was getting low, Victoria being busily employed at the
other end of the room, endeavouring with all her might to destroy some
favourite plants of Mrs Oswald’s.

“Not just now--but do you know, Hope, Alick is coming next summer, from
India, where he was sent with his regiment, and mamma will give parties,
and perhaps a ball--a real ball, Hope!--and you must be there. Oh, we
shall be so happy!”

“Is he coming to stay?” asked Hope.

“I don’t know, mamma didn’t say; but she said there was to be a ball,
and that Alick would perhaps bring some officers with him. I only wish
the time were come--shall you not be glad, Hope?”

“If my mother will let me go, I shall like it very well,” said Hope;
“but about the new governess, Adelaide--is she to teach you?”

“Mamma says so,” said Adelaide; “but I think I don’t need any more
teaching--do you, Hope? after having had to learn such quantities of
things. I am sure I wish mamma would just try it herself.”

Hope was not quite inclined to acquiesce in this conclusion; but there
was no possibility of keeping up an argument with Adelaide, who had
nothing to add to her first sentence on any subject, but merely the
trouble of repeating it. So Hope wisely went to seek her mother, and to
suggest the preparation of some juvenile lunch for her friends, which
speedily made its appearance in the substantial form of bread and
butter, jam and fruit--healthful dainties which were plentifully
discussed by the visitors. John Brown arrived very shortly after, with
the pony carriage, the baskets in which were no longer empty, and having
with some difficulty hoisted the young ladies in, drove them away,
leaving Hope pledged for “the day after to-morrow to come and see the
new governess.”




CHAPTER VII.

    Curls are on her brow, not clouds,
      Smiles are in her eye,
    Simple, brave, ’mong worldly crowds
      Looks she to the sky.
    Joy dwells with her every day,
      Sorrows touch her as they pass,
    Fearless goes she on her way
      O’er the springing grass,
    Daunting evil passengers
    With those clear brave eyes of hers.--BALLAD.


Mr George Oswald of Fendie was very proud of his daughter Hope; and
Hope, as we have already seen, was very fond of ponies. Young, large
animals of all kinds, indeed, were favourites with the favourite of the
banker. A great tawny fellow of a dog, with large, disjointed, youthful
limbs, whose uncouth gambols had as much fun and as little grace in them
as could be desired, was Hope’s especial playmate, counsellor, and
friend. She called him Merry--(gentle playfellow of mine, over whom I
could yet weep tears, so named I thee!) it was not a very musical name;
but there was nothing in the least æsthetic about the happy, clumsy,
kindly animal who bore it. This poor fellow fell under Mrs Oswald’s
displeasure sometimes, when it was discovered that Hope’s new gloves had
been in the great innocent mouth, or that the big paw had left its print
upon Hope’s garments too legibly; but the banker amply tolerated Merry.

On the morning of Hope’s intended visit to Mount Fendie, her father led
her proudly away to the vicinity of the stable where his own horses were
kept, and where, at its door, stood the red-headed Oswald Thomson, son
of a retainer of the family, holding by the bridle a handsome pony,
apparelled as became the steed of a lady, and arching its fine brown
neck in conscious pride, under the eye of its future mistress.

“Oh, father, is it for me?” exclaimed the delighted Hope; “is it to be
mine; is it to be all mine?”

And it was; and at that moment in Hope’s little chamber at home, her
mother, with some secret smiles over her husband’s unmeasured
indulgence, and some misgivings as to the youthful limbs which this new
mode of conveyance might expose to danger, was carefully spreading out a
new riding-habit, companion gift to the beautiful pony. Mr Oswald had
intended to bring his daughter quietly home with him, to assume the
appropriate garb before she began to be an equestrian; but that did by
no means suit Hope. So at dire risk to the bright muslin frock donned in
unspotted purity this morning, she sprang upon the new saddle and
arrived at the door radiant with laughter and exultation while her
father still panted in the rear, half running in spite of his years and
dignity.

Hope could not take her dog with her to Mount Fendie--it was her sole
regret as she cantered away happily alone, on the quiet familiar road.
One of Merry’s mighty paws would have extinguished Mrs Fendie’s lap-dog
for ever; the gambols of a young elephant could not have been more
detrimental to the trim gardens at the Mount. She was compelled to leave
her favourite behind.

But never did Hope salute passing acquaintances so joyously; and Hope’s
list of friends was as large as it was miscellaneous, extending from Mrs
Maxwell of Firthside, in her carriage, down to Robbie Carlyle, the
fisherman, with the creel on his shoulders full of flounders which he
had captured this morning, knee-deep in the waters of the Firth. Just
before the gate of Mount Fendie was a toll--a toll which Hope paid
triumphantly in presence of an admiring congregation of John Tasker’s
children. It was the crowning glory of her ride.

“Oh, Hope, when did you get your pony?” cried Victoria Fendie. “What a
pretty one!--but it’s not so pretty as Fred’s either--is it, Adelaide?”

“I don’t know what you call Fred’s,” said Adelaide, “for Fred is too
little to have a pony, but I am sure yours is very pretty, Hope. Were
you not afraid?”

Fred, a little spoiled, pale, ill-conditioned boy of eight stood on a
bench in the garden, plucking the blossoms off an apple-tree. He paused
to pull Adelaide’s hair--it was invitingly near him--and then resumed
his profitable occupation.

“I thought you would be afraid; but yours is a very pretty one, Hope,”
repeated the steady Adelaide, “and Fred is too little yet to have a
pony.”

Hope was so engrossed with the pony, its beauties and good qualities,
that she had almost forgotten the object of her visit. She recollected
herself at last.

“Adelaide, you have not told me, has the young lady come?”

“The young lady!--she means the governess,” said Victoria.

“Oh, yes--we’re all to go in now, to begin school, and you may come with
us, Hope. She came yesterday.”

“And do you like her?” said Hope, out of breath.

“I don’t know; we’re all to begin school to-day, and you’re to come with
us. But you’re always so quick, Hope Oswald!--how can people know in a
day?”

“I know,” said Victoria loudly, “I don’t like her at all. She is so
pale, and she speaks so low, and--I don’t like her.”

“Young ladies,” said a clear voice behind them, “your mother desires
that you will come in.”

Hope turned quickly round. A tall, pale girl stood behind, evidently
endeavouring to assume a firmness and authority which she did not
possess. Her deep mourning dress, and shadowy stooping figure, and
singular paleness touched the girlish romance which lay dormant in the
blythe spirit of Hope. Adelaide Fendie looked at the new governess
hazily out of her dull blue eyes, and did not speak. The dyspeptic
little tyrant Fred said “I won’t,” and the shrewish Victoria laughed.

Hope had learned the stranger’s name, and knew her own power over
Adelaide when she chose to exert it.

“If you please, Miss Maxwell,” said the prompt young lady, “I’m Hope
Oswald; and Adelaide was just coming in; and we’ll all go together.”

Whereupon Hope seized the arm of Adelaide, and brought her, docile and
obedient, into the rear of the new governess.

A very little matter was enough to overset the composure of the orphan
who held that unenviable place. Her eyes filled and her lip quivered;
she had fancied it impossible that children could be anything but
loveable, and in the early power and bitterness of her grief to have
these petty indignities put upon her, overwhelmed her inexperienced
spirit. So she went in with the elder girls, painfully repressing bitter
tears, and with the gasp of young woe convulsively swelling in her
breast, “to flee away, and be at rest.”

Mrs Fendie sat in her morning room, before a table covered with
embroideries and patterns for the same. She was a tall, thin, chill
woman of the _genus_ clever, who had persevered so long in calling
herself an excellent manager, and a person of very intellectual tastes,
that public opinion had at length succumbed under the constant
iteration, and with only the emphatic protest of John Brown, who in his
own circle declared her “an evendown gowk wi’ a tongue like the happer
of a mill,” Mrs Fendie was pronounced a very clever woman. The
natural-born Fendies were all dull. The last head of the house had been
fretted and chafed out of his easy life by the fatal cleverness of his
yoke-fellow; and even she, their mother, had been quite unable to strike
any sort of fire from the leaden natures of his children.

Beside Mrs Fendie, stretched in an easy chair, with a worked footstool
supporting the worked slipper, with which her mother’s industry had
endowed her, reclined the Reverend Mrs Heavieliegh, Mrs Fendie’s eldest
daughter. She was like Adelaide in her soft, large, not uncomely
features, and in the passive good humour of their expression; but Mrs
Heavieliegh’s development of the family character was indolence,
comfortable, lazy, luxurious repose; and in her gay-coloured ample
draperies, and lounging attitude, and slumbrous face, she formed a good
foil to the keen, sharp, steel-like mother, who worked indefatigably by
her side. Mrs Heavieliegh had no admiration of work; she played with the
long ears of the lap-dog on her knee, and was perfectly comfortable.

“How do you do, Hope Oswald?” said Mrs Fendie; “how’s your mamma? Sit
down, children, I have something to say to you. Fred, don’t pull my
frame; Victoria, be quiet. Sit down, Miss Maxwell, I wish particularly
to address myself to you.”

Mrs Fendie arranged her work; she was copying a French lithograph like
Maggie Irving, but she was copying it with the needle and not with the
pencil, and cleared her voice oratorically. Lilias Maxwell with some
apparent timidity took the chair pointed to her, and sat down to listen,
the great tears gathering under her eyelids. Hope placed herself very
near the new governess, in instinctive sympathy. She was not so
“pretty-looking” as Adelaide had predicted. She was singularly pale, and
had very dark hair, and large deep-blue eyes--blue eyes so dark that
Hope, to whom blue eyes always suggested the slumbrous orbs of Adelaide
Fendie, gave Miss Maxwell’s credit for being black. The dark mass of
hair and the mourning dress made the young orphan look still more
ethereal and shadowy. She was not like Hope’s model, Helen Buchanan;
she was not nearly so life-like, and seemed to want altogether the
nervous impulsive strength of Helen. Sudden flushes indeed did sometimes
pass over her colourless cheek for a moment--flushes painfully deep and
vivid; but there was nothing on this face like the constantly varying
colour, which wavered on Helen’s cheek like the coming and going of
breath. Nevertheless, there was a similarity in the age, and perhaps in
the circumstances, which made Hope associate the stranger with her
friend.

“You will understand, Miss Maxwell,” said Mrs Fendie, “that I consider
it a very important charge which I, as a mother, give into your hands,
when I delegate to you the care of these children. Such wonderful
interests at stake! such extraordinary effects your humble teachings may
help to produce! When I look at that boy,” and Mrs Fendie cast a
sentimental glance at the dyspeptic Fred, “it quite overwhelms me. Oh,
Fred! you wicked child, what have you been doing!”

Mrs Fendie had chosen an unfavourable moment for her sentimental glance,
the young gentleman being busily employed opening the eyes of a
scriptural personage in one of the aforesaid patterns for embroidery, by
thrusting a pencil through them. On being thus pathetically appealed to
Master Fred threw down the paper, and exclaimed,--“It’s not me, it’s
Vic.”

Mrs Fendie restrained Victoria’s self-defence, by a majestic wave of her
hand, and resumed,--“In the first place, concerning Miss Fendie--hold up
your head, Adelaide.” Adelaide fixed her eyes upon the wall, awkwardly
conscious of being looked at, and blushed, a dull, gradual blush,--“you
will need rather to direct the young lady’s studies than to enter on the
drudgery of teaching--and I am sure to a well-regulated mind nothing
could be more delightful. I shall expect you to read with Miss Fendie,
to direct her to those subjects which most call for a lady’s attention;
to attend to her deportment and carriage, to superintend her work, to
see that her wardrobe is kept in proper order, and that she does not get
slovenly in her dress; besides--”

“Oh, mamma!” exclaimed Victoria, “yonder’s old Mr Graeme of Mossgray
riding along the avenue;--what will he want, I wonder? oh goodness,
mamma, isn’t it strange? let me go to see.”

“Old Mr Graeme of Mossgray!” exclaimed Mrs Fendie, rising;
“be quiet, Victoria, how dare you interrupt me? A very strange
visitor certainly:--you have not seen him since your marriage,
Charlotte:--perhaps he has heard you are here, and intends to be like
other people for once in his life.”

Mrs Heavieliegh lifted her eyelids with some apparent difficulty and
looked a little ashamed; to tell the truth, she had been dozing during
her mother’s _preche_, and did not at all know what this commotion was
about. Mrs Fendie’s address was broken short, but Hope perceived Lilias
Maxwell still trembling in her chair.

There was a deep bow-window in the end of the room; the new governess,
unnoticed in the little bustle of interest with which the Fendie family
awaited their unusual visitor, stole by degrees into its recess. Hope
Oswald followed her; it was scarcely quite delicate perhaps; but Hope
was anxious to express something of her sympathy.

Lilias leaned upon the window--she shook so much that she needed it--and
the sympathetic girl beside her saw how thin and transparent the long
white fingers were, which tremblingly supported her brow. “If you
please, Miss Maxwell,” said Hope compassionately, “I am afraid you are
not well; and I wish my mother were only here, for she would know--and,
Miss Maxwell, if you please, do not look so sad.”

The stranger could not bear this; she turned her head away, and shrank
further into the shadow of the curtains, and pressed her thin fingers
upon her eyes, but the tears would be restrained no longer, and Hope
hastily placed herself in front of the window, that no eyes but her own
might perceive the agony of silent weeping, which the unfriended,
solitary girl could not control. She had borne as she best could the
foolish levity and inconsiderate rudeness of the children, and half
bewildered with the long stretch of endurance, had silently suffered the
chill unpitying lectures of Mrs Fendie, but the first touch of kindness
made the full cup overflow. All the simple philosophies with which
Lilias had tried to subdue the natural strength of her feelings, could
not make her grief less green and recent; and Hope stood reverently by,
in silence, while the tears poured down like rain, and the shadowy
figure before her shook with suppressed sobs. The child Hope had become
the benefactor of the orphan, for there was healing in those tears.




CHAPTER VIII.

    Amang the fremd I had wandered lang,
    Heavy was my heart, and sad my sang;
    Ae green sod covered a’ my kin,
    There were storms without, and nae hope within,
    When through the mist a sun-glint came,
    And I heard a voice, and it aye said hame--
    Hame, oh hame! is there rest for me
    But an’ aneath the green willow tree?--BALLAD.


The Laird of Mossgray greeted Mrs Fendie and her daughter with his usual
old-fashioned, graceful politeness--there was something courtly in the
gentle bearing of the recluse old man--and said some kindly words of
recognition to all the younger personages present, except Hope, who, to
the great amazement of the little Fendies, continued steadily before the
bow-window, and did not turn round to receive the salutations of
Mossgray. Only a very few ordinary observations had been exchanged, when
the old man explained his errand.

“I have been seeking a young friend of mine in Cumberland,” said
Mossgray, in a voice whose tone of serene kindness thrilled on the ear
of Lilias Maxwell, like some familiar music, stilling her tears; “and I
have some idea, Mrs Fendie, that your kindness could assist me in my
search. I have just returned--”

Hope Oswald left her place by the window, and as Mossgray’s eye wandered
there, he suddenly stopped and started from his seat. Drawing back,
shivering and half afraid, Lilias looked at him, with tears trembling on
her long eyelash, and her white, transparent hand shading her eyes. She
was conscious of the presence of no other but himself for the moment,
and the strange contradiction of her look, which seemed half to appeal
to him for protection, and half to shrink from his scrutiny, confirmed
the old man in the sudden idea that this was his ward. Any resemblance
that she had to her mother was merely the indefinite and shadowy one,
which throws its strange link of kindred over faces which in form and
expression are not alike; but he could recognise the daughter of Lilias
Johnstone better in the pale, solitary orphan girl before him, than if
she had borne her mother’s blooming face, or seemed as full of elastic
youth and life as she did, when he saw her last. They stood looking at
each other for a moment, and then Mossgray advanced extending his hands.

“Lilias--Lilias Maxwell--that is your name?--and was it the dead, or was
it me, whom you distrusted, when you fled from the guardian your mother
committed you to?--This was ill-done, Lilias; but you have had weeping
and sorrow enough, my poor child, and now you must come home.”

Come home!--was there still such a word for the orphan?

She could not realize it; she sat down passively on the chair Hope
Oswald brought her, and spite of the large tears which fell silently now
and then, continued to fix her sorrowful eyes upon her mother’s friend.
The strange stupor she was in alarmed them all at last.

“Lilias--Lilias,”--repeated Mossgray, as he gently held her hand; but
Lilias did not speak. She had been denied the natural due and right of
grief; she had been hurried away from her mother’s grave, almost before
her desolate heart had been able to shed tears; and now the outraged
nature asserted itself:--the strained strength gave way.

At last the weeping came again in a flood, and Lilias awoke; awoke to
hear gentle tongues of women who had only cold words to say to her
before; and, gentlest of all, the old man’s voice, like some kind sound
which she had heard in dreams, and waking, yearned to hear again. And
the burden of its speech was ever home; it came upon her ear again and
again indistinct in every accent but that--what preceded and what
followed was lost to her bewildered sense, but the one word rang clearly
through the mist that enveloped her--she was to come home.

And so she did: Hope Oswald wrapped her humble shawl about her, and Mrs
Fendie, with her strangely changed voice, accompanied her to the door,
and there supported by Mossgray, she entered the carriage which had been
sent for, and was driven from the door, the old man sitting by her side.
Lilias could scarcely convince herself, until she had entered the room
at Mossgray called her own, that it was not all a dream.

The room had been prepared and ready for many days waiting for its
stranger guest. A little fire burned in the grate, and gave the look of
welcome, which the familiar living, kindly light does give at all
times; and through the small, clear panes of the window, the April sun
shone in, in the gentle joy of spring. The panelled walls were painted a
sombre quiet colour, but here and there were hung small pictures in
deep, rich, old-fashioned frames--pictures of such pure faces, saints
and angels, as seem now and then to have looked in upon the dreaming
sense of olden artists--not all gentle or serene, or at rest, but
speaking the common language of humanity; the constantly varying tongue,
in whose very weakness, of change and tremulous expression, lies its
might and charm.

Some books were arranged upon an old cabinet; books which are everywhere
familiar, the friends of all who are able for such fellowship; and some,
too, less universally appreciated, which were yet worthy of their place.
But Lilias did not then perceive these particulars of her guardian’s
delicate care for her. She sat down beside the window, and looked about
in a dream.

Before her lay the water, and its peaceful banks, with the charm of
youth upon them; beyond were scattered houses with the homelike wealth
of cultivated land around, the dwellings of those who, working with
honest hands, brought seed and bread out of the soil, as God did prosper
them. At her right hand the gray mass of the old warlike tower rose up
against the quiet sky, with the moss of peace upon its embattled walls.
Lilias had known all her life the fortunes of the poor--had wandered
hither and thither with her mother, following the devious track of the
weak father, who pursued without ceasing the fortune he had not firmness
to wait, or strength to work for; so that in many fair places where they
had been, the solitary woman and grave girl had longed to find a home
and abiding place, but had been able never. The hunted fortune fled
always further away, and the querulous, feeble nature, complaining with
fretful selfishness of his own ill-fate, seemed always constrained to
follow. Strangers and vagabonds they had been continually, and after the
brief repose of the widow and her child in the lonely Cumberland glen,
Lilias had felt, when she was hurried away in her earliest agony, that
thus it was to be for ever.

But now the atmosphere of home descended about her. Only the natural
successions of time, one generation going and another coming, had
changed the inmates of these walls. Steadily here upon its native
ground, the old house stood like a stately oak, which had shed its
acorns there, autumn after autumn, before human eye was near to see, and
should remain until the end. We do not think distinct thoughts at times
which form the crises of our life, and Lilias did not deliberately
reflect on this; but it struck strongly upon her through the mist of
sorrow and wonder she was in. This house, whose wealth was of the soil
below and the firmament above, whose inheritance was not of silver or of
gold, unproductive and barren, but of the fertile land, and the sunshine
and the rain of God; this was her home.

But sorrow had broken in her case the elastic nature of youth. Had she
remained among strangers, her stay must soon have had a not unusual end;
she would have endured for a while, and then have somewhere withdrawn
herself to die as her mother died, but bitterer to die alone. As it was,
Mossgray gained his ward only in time to save her; and all the summer
through Lilias had to be tended like a delicate flower. Vainly she
exerted herself and tried to be strong; vainly endeavoured to lessen the
anxious cares of her guardian; but it would not do. The springs of
youthful strength were stemmed in her worn-out heart. For a few days she
had been able convulsively to bind and keep her natural sorrow down; but
the reäction was vehement and long.

The lilies daily placed upon her table, the books of all pleasant kinds
which he constantly brought to her, the visitors whom, after a month or
two had elapsed, he tolerated, and indeed encouraged, for her sake--all
the gentle things the old man did, day by day, and hour by hour,
conspired to invigorate the broken mind of Lilias, and restore its tone
and power. She knew that he too grieved for the dead, and she felt that
it became her to render him some other return for his tenderness to
herself than those pale looks and tears; so conscientiously and
painfully she struggled to regain the cheerfulness becoming her years.
It was a hard task, for Lilias had not the elastic vitality which
springs up in renewed vigour from the prostration of grief--her nature
had much of pensive calm in it; but she struggled against her
overwhelming sorrow, and the very effort helped her to overcome.

Mrs Oswald visited her in kindly friendship, and Mrs Fendie came to
patronize, and suggest, and arrange. Mrs Fendie did not see how Miss
Maxwell could remain, unless Mr Graeme got some “experienced person,”
some presiding matron to make his house a proper residence for his
ward. Adam Graeme of Mossgray was sixty; he thought the countryside had
known him long enough and well enough to trust the daughter of Lilias
Johnstone in his hands, as confidently as though he had been her father;
and Mrs Oswald agreed with him.

And Lilias had at once secured the very warm friendship of Hope, who
already meditated making use of her in her grand scheme for the
elevation of Helen Buchanan, and the conversion of her father. To make
Miss Maxwell intimate with Helen, Hope decided in her very grave and
elaborate deliberations over the whole difficult question of her
father’s resolution and the means to overcome it, would be a great step
in advance, but it was decidedly impracticable at present; so Hope, like
a wise general, prepared the way with each by praising the other, and
suspended more practical operations.

Slowly the faint colour which was natural to her began to dawn upon the
white cheeks of Mossgray’s Lilias. The old man’s study in the tower was
almost deserted; the small projecting turret with its windowed roof
and wondrous telescope began to look forlorn and melancholy; the large
low room within lay whole days in gloomy silence; the famous chemic
tools of which the children of Fendie had heard thrilling whispers,
were gathering a gentle coat of dust. Their owner had experiments to
make of a kind more curious than those in which he used them. He was
discovering one by one the qualities of the human heart so strangely
given in charge to him--was discerning star after star rise upon her
firmament--patience, faith, hope--kindly human hope, which has somewhat
in this very world beside its riches in the world to come.

One autumn evening (for the summer was over before Lilias recovered her
strength) they went out together to the river-side. He was telling her
how it had been his fellow and companion all his days.

“There is something human in this running water,” said the old man. “So
we go on, Lilias, through our different stages, blind to what is to come
next, often unconscious of the pleasant places we travel through; but
though we chafe sometimes, and seem to pause and delay, how constantly
the stream runs on! I like it for its humanity--for all the light, and
all the darkness, and the winds that touch, and the rains that flood
it--for its beginning and for its end. It pleases me to give it life
and utterance, and think it human like myself.”

“You knew it when you were young, Mossgray,” said Lilias, “and it is
beside you still.”

She still felt this as something strangely gladdening; to dwell in one
place a lifetime; to appropriate it all; to have friendships with its
hills and its rivers; to feel that it was home.

“Yes,” said Mossgray, looking back at his old house as it lay in the
shade, from which the slanting light of the western sun had nearly
passed away, “yes, it is a happiness--it is a pleasant thread, this
river, on which to hang the memories of one’s life; there was no water,
Lilias, in your Cumberland glen?”

“Only a brook,” was the answer, “and we used to sit and watch it, for
its way was too steep to follow--and sometimes--”

Ah, that climbing sorrow! how it returned and returned again!

“But you have travelled,” said Mossgray, gently leading her from this
painful recollection; “you have scarcely gone so far as I have, but you
have seen many places:--let me hear of your wanderings, Lilias.”

“Have you been far away, Mossgray?”

“Very far,” said Mossgray, with a mournful smile, “and my furthest
journey was a very sad one; I went to seek a dear friend, and I found
him not--that was in India.”

“In India!” A flush of sudden light came over the face which turned to
him so earnestly.

“Yes. Are you interested in that great world, Lilias?”

“It must be a very great country indeed,” said Lilias, slowly, “where
the principal places are so far apart. Will you tell me where you were,
Mossgray?”

The old man smiled.

“I could have told you long since, had I known you cared for such a
subject. I was in Bombay, Lilias, and far into the interior beyond
Bombay.”

“In Bombay!” There was another flush of interest--the tall slight figure
had never looked so life-like, nor the form so animated.

“Yes, in Bombay--do you know anything of Bombay, Lilias?”

“No, no,” said Lilias, with a sudden blush, “I do not know--but I have
heard--we had a friend once who went there.”

She cast a sidelong, tremulous look upward to his face. He did not smile
as she feared he would. It pleased him to hear of the friend, and the
tone in which the friend was mentioned pleased him. He was glad there
was some one in the world, the name of whose habitation had power to
move the slumbering fountain of young life within her; he was glad that
in this present world she had some other tie than the new relationship
which bound her to himself, and in his delicate kindness he looked and
spoke gravely, to encourage her to confide in him.

“And you would like me to tell you about it. Would not reading do as
well?”

“No, no,” repeated Lilias; “the book does not live--you do not see the
eyes which saw those things you want to hear of, as I see yours,
Mossgray, and--the place is fine, is it not?”

“I think so,” was the answer; “yes, I remember that; but, Lilias, when I
was there, I was sick at heart--sick with anxiety at first--and sick
when I came away, with hope deferred--I should say with hope
extinguished. The calamity that maketh the heart sick, clouds a fair
landscape sadly, Lilias, and when I think of that beautiful eastern
country, I think of it as the grave of my friend.”

“Did he die?” asked Lilias, in the tremulous low voice, which for the
few preceding moments had been changed.

Mossgray paused. Thirty years had elapsed since colder men decided Hew
Murray’s fate, thirty years without a sign or token, the faintest that
hope could build on; and yet the old man hesitated to say he died.

“Lilias, I cannot tell. He was my dear friend; we were close brethren in
our youth; do you think he can have lived these thirty years, and given
no sign?”

“No, Mossgray,” said Lilias, “oh, no, no! I do not think it can be hard
to die; but to live while your dearest friends think you are dead--no,
no--it could not be!”

The old man sighed.

“Then he is dead,” he said.

There was a pause.

“And this friend of yours,” resumed Mossgray, at last, “he likes Bombay,
Lilias?”

The light came again more timidly.

“I think so--I mean, he does not _like_ it--it is not home--but--”

“But he thinks he will prosper there, and he is young, and has good
cause for his toil?”

Lilias looked at her guardian shyly again; but there was no ghost of
raillery on the kind face of Mossgray; he would have her think cheerily
of the young hopes of the labourer over the sea.

And Lilias looked away far into the distant air, and answered with a
voice so full and rich in its low music, that Mossgray scarcely knew it
for hers,--

“And for his mother’s sake.”




CHAPTER IX.

     “She is like that harp the winds do play upon; mark her well. She
     shall tell you what she dreams unwittingly, for her face is no
     mask--nothing but a veil, and under it you shall see her heart
     beat.”--OLD PLAY.


Helen Buchanan stood alone at the gate of her mother’s garden; there was
a nervous tremor about her as she leaned upon the hawthorn-hedge, with
her face towards the setting sun. These October nights were becoming
chill, and the shawl she drew round her was not a warm one; but her
trembling sprung from quite another cause. She was young and proud and
poor; and William Oswald, walking as if for a wager, and looking almost
as nervously firm as she did, had newly left the gate.

He had been telling her something which to him seemed perfectly
reasonable, something which certainly in the abstract did not look
unreasonable in any view: that he, a man, able to exercise judgment for
himself, and able honourably to earn his own bread, did not feel himself
bound by the decision of his father, did not feel by any means that his
father’s iron will should or could restrain him in those early, strong,
energetic years of his manhood; that honouring his father as a father
should be honoured, he yet felt some individual rights, which no man
could exercise for him. So far was well enough; the daughter of Walter
Buchanan drew up her elastic figure, and strengthening herself in
nervous stillness waited for what she knew would follow.

It came in a flood--bold, and grave, and decided as William Oswald
always was, when his reserve was broken through. The world was all
before them where to choose, and Helen felt that when he spoke of
independent labour for which he was strong and able, and of success to
be won by that, he spoke the truth, and for a moment the hereditary
pride ebbed, and her heart rose to the congenial struggle; but it could
not be. Before half the words of her answer were spoken, he had learned
it all from the unmistakeable language of her face. “Never, unless
received in honour and goodwill, with the respect and tenderness which
became a daughter. Never!”

They had parted--not in anger, but with some degree of excitement and
pain--each with a stronger resolution to overcome the other, each only
the more determined to persevere and win. The matter had become a
single-handed combat, the combatants were well matched, the issue
doubtful; time and the hour could alone decide.

And still, that nervous thrill passing over her like wind, Helen stood
at the gate looking towards the west. With one of those sudden changes
to which her temperament is liable, a flood of bitter thoughts had
suddenly stolen into her mind. It was not envious repining, it was
scarcely discontent; but she began to remember that there in her youth
she stood alone--that the very strength which she had to earn bread for
herself and her mother, by her own honourable labour, had cast her down
in the small society about them, to a lower and to a solitary
place--that those bright youthful days, to others so instinct with
joyous life, were to her days of gloomy labour, evenings of solitude.
And thronging in the rear of these, were hosts of indefinite, rapid,
inexpressible feelings; remembrances of petty slights and proud
swellings of the wounded heart, which in spite of its years of
independent working, was still but a girl’s. The deep melancholy and
depression peculiar to her nature--peculiar only in transient fits, soon
swept away by the inherent strength of life and hope within--lowered
over her like a cloud. There came to her eyes involuntary causeless
tears: her heart grew blank and dark within her, and wistfully she
looked upward to the sky--the wonderful western sky with its flushed
clouds of sunset--thinking in her sad, proud loneliness that only this
was left to her of the natural gladnesses of youth.

Just then an eager hand was thrust into hers, and the joyous voice of
Hope Oswald broke in upon her reverie.

“Helen, Helen, what makes you always stand here and look at the sun?”

The momentary distemper tinged even her speech.

“Because I like to see him sink, Hope. I like to watch him gliding away
yonder behind the hill, and see how blank and cold it all looks after he
is gone.”

“Ay! but, Helen, look how beautiful the clouds are,” said Hope, “you
would think the sun was hiding yonder. See, see! how grand it is!--and
him away all the time beyond the hill. You will not look, Helen: but _I_
think the clouds are as beautiful as the sun.”

“And in half an hour they will all have melted away,” said the young
moralizer, “and so does everything in the world that is beautiful, Hope.
The fair colours fade into that pale, blank grey, and the air grows
chill and mournful, and then comes the night.”

“But do you not like the night, Helen?” asked the wondering Hope.

“I was not thinking of the night, I was thinking of what comes upon us
in the world,” said Helen dreamily in her self-communion, “and how the
dull colourless sky droops over us, and the light passes away, and the
inexorable darkness comes.”

She paused--she was fairly afloat on this dark stream of thought,
becoming sadder and more downcast with every word she spoke. The
causeless tears hung upon her eyelashes, her lips quivered and faltered;
the deep cloud of characteristic melancholy had fallen like a veil upon
her heart.

“But Helen,” said Hope, in a low alarmed voice, as she pressed close to
her friend’s side. “Helen, is that true? People say it in books, and
ministers say it. It is in the Bible I heard one say, but _I_ never saw
it in the Bible, Helen.”

“Saw what?”

“What the minister said--what you were saying, Helen--that the world is
very miserable, that everybody must be unhappy. Helen, you are old, you
know better than me; but I think it is not true.”

The electric touch was given; there needed no more; bravely upon the
rising tide the distempered thoughts went out, not to return again until
their time. The tears went back to their fountain--the face brightened
with its varying, fluttering colour--the dark mood was gone.

“Did I say so, Hope? did you think I said so? No, no, it is not true!”
said Helen, the words coming quick and low, in her rapid revulsion of
feeling; “there is sorrow and there is joy, as there are darkness and
light; but the night is good as well as the day, and it is blessed to
live--blessed to have all the changes God sends to us--good and
evil--the sweet and the bitter--blessed and not miserable, Hope.”

The clouds were hovering over the blank hill far away in golden masses,
rounded with the soft advancing gloom of night, and overhead was the
peaceful sky, pure and pale in the stillness of its rest.

“Sometimes we have storms, Hope,” said the repentant Helen, “and
sometimes it is dark--dark--you do not know how dark it grows sometimes;
but the sun rises every morning, and every night--look up yonder, how
quiet the sky is--do you think the world could be miserable, Hope, so
long as there is the sky and the sun?”

Hope looked up wistfully but did not speak, for she could not quite
understand yet, either the melancholy itself or the sudden change; but
she hung upon Helen’s arm in her affectionate girlish way, and they
stood together in silence watching how the colours faded one by one,
till the hill in the west grew only a great dark shadow, and parting
into long pale misty streaks, the clouds lay motionless upon the calm,
cold heaven. There is a long stretch of wet sand yonder where the broad
Firth ought to be, and something chill and disconsolate, speaking of
early winter, is in that gusty inconsistent breeze, which already
carries past them a yellow leaf or two, dead so soon; but Helen
Buchanan, wayward and inconsistent too, has bright life in her eyes, and
sees nothing sad in all she looks upon. Within herself has risen this
wilful, strong, capricious light proper to her nature--a nature
strangely formed, as God builds not as man does--with every delicate
line and shadowy curve, belonging separately to the gentle weak,
conspiring to perfect it as strong.

Mrs Buchanan was a cheerful, sanguine woman; she liked to have her
little parlour look bright after its homely fashion, though not with
tawdry embellishments, or those poor ornamental shifts of poverty with
which women dwelling at home are apt to solace their vacant hours, and
imitate the costly follies of their richer sisters. A little bright fire
burned in the grate, not without a certain aroma which whispered of the
fragrant _peat_, that helped to compose it; and the parlour with only
its one candle was full of cheerful light. The gentle, kindly mother was
jealous of the varying moods of her sole child, and was fain to use all
simple arts to throw the spell of quiet cheerfulness over the room in
which they spent these long evenings almost constantly alone.

“Mrs Buchanan,” said Hope, “Helen is sad--I want you to tell me why
everybody in Fendie is sad; they never used to be before--it is only
this year.”

Mrs Buchanan had already read her daughter’s face; but she saw that the
cloud, if there had been a cloud, was gone, and that it was not
expedient to speak of it.

“If you will tell me, Hope, my dear,” said Helen’s good mother, “who
everybody is, I shall answer your question; but I am very sure I saw a
great number of people in Fendie to-day, who had no sadness about them.”

“Oh, but who were they, Mrs Buchanan?” asked Hope.

Mrs Buchanan smiled.

“There was Robert Johnston, the grocer--he got another daughter last
night; and there was Maxwell Dickson at the library--his son Robbie got
a prize yesterday at the academy; and there was--”

Hope was disdainful; and even the face of her friend Helen glowed into
genial laughter, as she threw back her unruly hair and interrupted Mrs
Buchanan in great impatience.

“But I did not mean them! I was not thinking of _them_. Maxwell Dickson!
as if he knew what it was to be sad--and that great lout Robbie; but I
don’t care about them--it’s our own folk--it’s--”

“When do you go back to Edinburgh?” interrupted Helen.

“Oh, next month,” was the answer, “my mother says I may stay till
Hallowe’en; but, Helen, my mother is going to ask Miss Swinton to come
with me to Fendie next summer, at the vacation.”

“You seem to be very fond of Miss Swinton, Hope?” said Mrs Buchanan.

“Oh, yes, everybody is--you would like her too, Mrs Buchanan.”

“Should I? and why do you think that, Hope?”

“Oh, I know,” said Hope, in wise certainty, “because she likes Helen.”

The argument was irresistible, and Mrs Buchanan confessed it, by pulling
Hope’s exuberant hair.

“Likes me!” the varying colour heightened on Helen’s face. “She does not
know me, Hope.”

“Yes, but she does, Helen,” answered the sagacious Hope, “for I used to
tell her; and she knows you quite well, and she says you are brave.
Helen, if you only saw Miss Swinton! but you will when she comes.”

“She says I am brave;” Helen repeated the consolatory words under her
breath, and asked herself “why?”

“But I do not know, my dear,” said Mrs Buchanan, “how Helen is to see
this friend of yours, unless she calls on us--and we are strangers to
her, you know.”

Mrs Buchanan was a little proud--she had no idea of being condescended
to.

“Only wait till she comes,” said Hope, triumphantly, “I know she will
want to see Helen sooner than anybody else, because she says Helen is--”

Helen interposed. She fancied that Hope intended to repeat the same word
of commendation, and the quick spirit did not choose to hear it again.
She was mistaken--Hope intended to bestow upon her friend the highest
title in her vocabulary--that of gentlewoman--in name of Miss Swinton.

“When Miss Swinton speaks of me so kindly,” said Helen in haste, “let me
hear what she calls you, Hope.”

Hope hesitated--she liked very well to repeat the commendation to
herself, but had a little tremor in saying it aloud--if Helen laughed at
her!

“I don’t know--perhaps she did not mean it,” said Hope, slowly, “but
Miss Swinton says I am sensible, Helen.”

Mrs Buchanan shed the rebellious hair off Hope’s open candid forehead,
and Helen laughed in such kindly wise as could by no possibility mean
ridicule, as her mother said,--

“And so you are, Hope--and a good bairn besides. Miss Swinton is quite
right.”

Whereupon Hope launched forth into another panegyric upon Miss Swinton.
Helen did not very distinctly hear her. There was a good deal of the
suggestive in Hope’s conversation, and her friend had snatched from it
in her hasty fashion the germ of an important idea.

“Mother,” said Helen, breaking in abruptly upon Hope, “should you like
to live in Edinburgh?”

Mrs Buchanan’s mind was not so rapid as her daughter’s. She looked up
with a quiet unmoved smile.

“I do not doubt I should, Helen; most people like Edinburgh; but why do
you ask me?”

Mrs Buchanan laid down her work as she spoke, and waited for the
proposal which she knew was to follow. She had yet no glimmering of what
it was, but she had studied those kindling eyes too long not to know
that the sudden flush of some new purpose possessed them.

“Suppose we could go,” said Helen, rapidly; “suppose I could get a
situation, mother, with some one like Miss Swinton, with Miss Swinton
herself perhaps; should you like it? would you go to Edinburgh?”

Mrs Buchanan paused to think; the glowing moving face before her was not
of the kind which takes time to deliberate. Helen clasped her small
nervous fingers and looked into the vacant air, with her fixed
unconscious eyes, and saw no obstacle in the way; no lingering
tenderness to subdue; no sickness of heart to overcome; when they came
hereafter she would do battle against them bravely--now, she saw them
not.

“Oh, Helen!” exclaimed Hope, breathless with her first surprise and
delight; but Hope recollected herself; this would be a death-blow to all
her schemes, so she added,--“Helen, the teachers all live with Miss
Swinton. Mrs Buchanan, you would not like to be alone?”

Mrs Buchanan still said nothing. It was very true she would not like to
be alone, and very true it was also that she shrank from the unknown
evils of change, and was better pleased to remain with the quiet cares
she knew, than encounter those she did not know; but, unlike Hope, she
said nothing. She did not choose to throw down, by any sudden decision,
the dreams with which her daughter was already filling the air.

“Do you think I would not do for Miss Swinton, Hope?” asked Helen.

“Helen!” exclaimed Hope, indignantly.

“Well then, why do you say that?”

“Because,” and Hope tried to put wise meanings into her own girlish open
face, and to make it as eloquent as Helen’s; “because, Helen, I should
not like you to go away from Fendie. Oh! no, no, you must stay always
at home.”

And as Helen lifted her flushed face, the elaborate look of Hope and her
mother’s anxious glance fell upon her together. They only made the blood
rush more warmly about her heart. She started with a rapid nervous
impulse: “Mother, if you do not disapprove, let me write to Miss Swinton
to-morrow.”

Poor Hope Oswald! she had been _too_ sensible--she had defeated her own
well-digested, painfully-constructed plan. Miss Swinton instead of a
powerful auxiliary threatened to become the most hopeless barrier in her
way, and Hope was almost in despair. She began immediately to belie
Edinburgh; to manufacture grievances; and to represent how very hard,
especially for the teachers, was the laborious life at school; but
Helen’s fixed dreamy, unconscious face warned her it was all lost, and
very disconsolately she said good-night.

“My father would be pleased enough if it was Miss Maxwell,” thought Hope
with some disdain, as she went home, “all because Mr Graeme will leave
her Mossgray. I wish somebody would give Helen a place like
Mossgray--but I don’t either--because Helen is better than we are,
though she is poor. Who’s that?”

Hope’s reverie concluded very abruptly--who was it?

Alas, it was the interesting, sentimental, young minister newly placed
in the church of Fendie, whom all the town delighted to honour. He did
not see her as he went steadily down the dim road, and the dismayed Hope
stood still to watch him, with prophetic terror. Yes, indeed, it is Mrs
Buchanan’s gate he stops at; and now the door is opened, and a flash of
warm light shines for a moment into the garden, and the Reverend Robert
Insches is admitted. Burning with suppressed anger, the jealous Hope
hurried home, eager to defy and defeat her father, and utterly to
destroy any presumptuous hopes which the Reverend Robert Insches might
entertain in regard to Helen Buchanan.




CHAPTER X.

    The morning rises dimly,
    There are clouds and there is rain,
    But always the sun is there--
    So softly breaking, parting like the mists
    About the hills, the dismayed sorrow looses
    Her heavy veil and cloak of mourning from her,
    And sometimes smiling, sometimes weeping, like
    The skies in April, lifts her head again,
    And looks upon the light.


“Miss Maxwell,” said Hope Oswald, as she sat on a low chair by the side
of Lilias on the morning of Hallowe’en, the last day she was to spend at
home: “you have never seen Helen Buchanan yet;--I should like so much to
let you see her before I go away.”

“And you are going away to-morrow, Hope?” said Lilias.

“Yes,” said Hope, disconsolately; “my father is to take me to-morrow. I
should be so glad, Miss Maxwell, if you only knew Helen.”

“Well, Hope,” said Lilias, “you must contrive to introduce us to each
other to-night. I see no other way of accomplishing it.”

“But, Miss Maxwell,” said Hope, with some confusion, “Helen will not be
at our house to-night,--she never comes to our house--she always stays
at home.”

“And why does she always stay at home?”

Hope’s face flushed indignantly.

“Because she has to keep a school--not a school for young ladies--and
because she is proud, and other people are foolish and do not know what
it is to be a gentlewoman;--and because my father--”

Hope paused, perceiving that it might not be necessary to publish the
faults of her father. At the same time Hope was very anxious to make
Lilias useful in her absence as a means of proclaiming the excellencies
of Helen; and there was yet another thing which Hope desired to make
Lilias understand,--that William was by no means an eligible _parti_,
whatever his father or Mossgray might say to the contrary. Hope had
never heard yet of the mysterious Indian letters, and did not know that
Lilias was as completely fortified against the attractions of William as
he was from hers.

“Because she keeps a school, and because she is proud,” repeated Lilias;
“but she has been here in Fendie all her life--and she must have
friends.”

“Oh, yes,” answered Hope, promptly, “she has plenty of friends; only you
know, Miss Maxwell, nobody she cares about--I don’t mean that either--I
mean there is nobody like herself--I never saw any one like Helen but
you.”

“And am I like Helen?”

Hope looked up at the calm, pensive face before her with its fair still
features, and faint colour, and thoughtful melancholy eyes--and
confessed to herself that it was not so.

“No--I don’t mean you are like in the face--only--” Hope paused and was
puzzled, “only you are Helen’s age--and you are alone--and--you are a
gentlewoman.”

Lilias smiled.

“Thank you, Hope, for your good opinion; but perhaps if Miss Buchanan is
so proud she would not like me to call on her.”

“Oh, would you go?” exclaimed Hope--“Oh, Miss Maxwell, if you would only
go! I did not mean that Helen was proud--only she does not care for
people who do not care for her.”

“Mossgray bids me go out,” said Lilias;--she had very soon adopted the
kindly territorial name which was at once respectful and familiar, and
by which her guardian liked to be called; “and the day is bright--will
you take me with you, Hope, and we shall go to see Miss Buchanan?”

Hope was full of delight and thanks.

“But if you come to Fendie now, mind you are not to go back till
night;--for you promised to be with us at Hallowe’en--mind, Miss
Maxwell.”

Miss Maxwell did mind, and gently promised she would remain, though the
mirth of the youthful party was scarcely very congenial to her subdued
spirits; and when she had equipped herself for her walk, and had
received the smiling permission which she asked from Mossgray, and with
Hope’s hand in hers, was walking down the water-side to Fendie, she
resumed the subject,--

“And so you think, Hope, that Miss Buchanan could not be induced to meet
us to-night?”

Hope looked up with some alarm.

“My mother has not asked her to come. Oh, Miss Maxwell, do you think my
father would not be angry if I did?”

Lilias shook her head;--she did not know.

“But to be sure Helen would not come,” said Hope, ruefully. “Do you
know, Miss Maxwell--”

“Do I know what, Hope?”

But Hope still hesitated.

“I mean, Miss Maxwell--if you like Helen--you are sure to like her--at
least I think you will--perhaps; if you do like Helen, will you tell my
father sometime how good she is--for my father does not know Helen.”

Lilias looked at Hope with a smile, and Hope returned the look with a
very sagacious, perplexed, deliberative expression upon her fresh,
candid face.

“You seem to be very fond of Miss Buchanan, Hope?”

“And so I am,” said Hope, blythely, “and so is everybody--only--my
father does not know Helen.”

This anxious affection of Hope’s, childish at once, and chivalrous, had
a great deal of interest for Lilias, and she was silent now, her
thoughts almost as much occupied about Helen as were those of Helen’s
youthful champion.

“Helen will like you, Miss Maxwell,” said Hope, suddenly. “I know she
will; for the people have been saying so much about you since you came.”

The colour rose gently on the cheek of Lilias.

“What have they said about me, Hope?”

“Oh, not very much--only that they were sorry you were ill, and thought
you would be so solitary at Mossgray. Helen saw you at church, Miss
Maxwell, and when the people speak about the strange young lady, she
calls you the lily of Mossgray; but I called you--”

“What did you call me, Hope?”

“You will not be angry?--It was only because your name is like the names
in the old ballads--I called you the Laird’s Lilias.”

“So my name reminded you of the Laird’s Jock, and the Laird’s Wat, did
it, Hope?” said Lilias, smiling; “but it is an excellent title you give
me, for I should have been a very solitary sad Lilias, but for the
Laird;--and was Miss Buchanan sorry for me because I was alone?”

“She never said that,” said Hope, honestly, “because Helen is always
alone herself--only she is with her mother.”

Lilias walked on silently and put her hand over her eyes: how great a
difference did that brief sentence make!

Helen Buchanan’s scholars were flocking out when Hope and Lilias reached
the house. There was a considerable number of them, from awkward hoydens
of Hope’s own years, whose shyness their graceful teacher had mellowed
into something not unhandsome, down to little sunburnt fairies of four
or five, who, spite of clogs and coarse dresses, had still the
unconscious charm of childhood upon them, and needed no mellowing. They
all knew Hope, and with her were much more friendly than deferential,
for Hope with her buoyant spirits and frank young life could not always
be kept within the bounds of the circle of Misses who were proper
acquaintances for the Banker’s daughter; and most of them had heard of
the young lady of Mossgray. Some, touched with reverence for the
paleness of Lilias’ face, saluted her with a shame-faced curtsey; the
rest hung back, crowding upon each other in little groups, and looked at
her with curiosity only softened by their shyness--for all were shy. The
young teacher, like the poet, had a sympathy for “sweet
shame-facednesse,” and thought it sat well upon children; so that she
rather cherished than found fault with the native bashfulness of her
pupils. People think otherwise in these precocious days; but the little
ones in Fendie are happily still shy.

Helen sat in her presiding chair in the school-room with thumbed
books and copies, and slates covered with armies of sprawling figures
heaped upon the table before her. She was leaning her head upon her
hand and looking somewhat wearied; the lessons were over for the
day, for the placid work of sewing--a most weary one to the young
practitioners--occupied the afternoon. There was a certain mist upon
her face, and she sighed. Her sky was rather wayward at this present
time, and had various passing shadows; and though her mother had
already two or three times called her to the parlour, Helen still
lingered alone--not that she was thinking deeply or painfully; her
changeful nature had times which did not think at all, and in the mist
of an unconscious reverie, slightly sad, but which a single touch could
raise into buoyant exhilaration or depress into melancholy, she sat by
the large work-table in the empty school-room leaning her head upon her
hand.

“Helen,” said Hope Oswald, “this is Miss Maxwell.” Hope intended to add
something pretty--to say that they were like each other, and should be
friends; but it would not do, for Hope too, after her own peculiar
fashion, was shy; so she withdrew abruptly and left her friends to
improve their acquaintance by themselves.

“I am very glad to see you, Miss Maxwell,” said Helen, earnestly; and
then she too stopped and became embarrassed, and looked at the door for
her mother--but her mother did not come: and Helen glanced up with
admiration and quick liking into the quiet pensive face whose steadiness
she could not but envy, and felt her own variable countenance burn as
she repeated,--“indeed I am very glad to see you.”

“You are very kind,” said the composed and gentle Lilias, who was less
swiftly moved than Helen. “Hope told me you had compassion on my
solitude, Miss Buchanan, and encouraged me to ask you to cheer it;--and
I had confidence in Hope.”

“But you must have no confidence in Hope as regards us,” said Helen,
recovering herself, “for Hope is my sworn knight, and has been my
mother’s favourite all her life:--will you come and see my mother?”

Mrs Buchanan was prepared for them by Hope’s kind warning, and had
little more than time to remove some small matters of preparation for
their simple mid-day meal from the fire, when the famed young lady of
Mossgray entered the parlour with Helen.

And then as Lilias, the motherless, received the cheerful kindly
greeting which people call _motherly_, Helen saw that the face of the
Lily of Mossgray was not an unexpressive one; that the large dark blue
eyes were cast down to hide unshed tears, and that even in the pleasure
which Mrs Buchanan’s welcome gave her, the anguish of the solitary and
desolate came over the orphan’s heart.

They were soon friends--friends so warmly and speedily that Hope Oswald
started in glad surprise when Mrs Buchanan invited Lilias to remain with
them, until it should be time for Mrs Oswald’s juvenile Hallowe’en
party, and Lilias consented with goodwill. Here was a master-stroke! To
have the Lily of Mossgray, at present the admired of all admirers, come
direct from the humble house of Helen Buchanan! Hope repeated to herself
as she went home the commendation of Miss Swinton, and ventured to
believe it true.

“What will my father think?” mused Hope; and she hurried to the office
to beg him, as an especial favour, himself to come with her to the
grocer’s to lay in a stock of nuts for the important transactions of the
evening.

“Wait till after dinner, Hope,” said the banker, graciously; and Hope
waited till after dinner; then, when the lights began to shine out one
after another in the main street of Fendie--the more dignified shops of
Fendie are resplendent in the glories of gas--and Hope was quite sure
that her friend Adelaide would be getting ready to start, and that she
herself would scarcely have time to assume the new silk frock which Mrs
Oswald feared could not fail to receive extensive damage this evening,
her father at last was ready to accompany her, and they proceeded to
make their important purchase.

There was a good deal of the mist of frost in the bracing, pleasant air;
but high above the haze was a cold, distinct, full moon. It did not cast
down a very clear light however through the veil which hung between the
earth and the sky, and the youngsters in the Main Street of Fendie
decidedly preferred the shop-windows.

Opposite the important shop of Mr Elliot Bell, the principal grocer of
Fendie, a group of little girls were enjoying themselves in the bright
spot illuminated by the lights within. They were performing one of those
childish dramas which look like relics of some early stage not without a
certain art in their construction. Who that has had the good fortune to
be born a girl in Scotland does not remember the monotonous expectancy
of the first act, and the quite startling nature of the last in that
famous play of “Janet Jo?” It made rather a pretty scene in the quiet
street of Fendie. A pile of packing-cases and empty boxes standing
securely in a street innocent of thieves because the premises of the
great drapers, Messrs Scott and Armstrong, had no room for them, formed
the back-ground; demurely arranged in the shelter of these stood a row
of little girls; while advancing and retiring before them was another
line of little figures, keeping time to their chant. The light shone
pleasantly upon the small, sparkling faces--every Jean and Mary, and
Maggie among them, had been already summoned by their respective
mothers, but the play was not played out, and the young performers
remained at their post. The banker stood at Mr Elliot Bell’s door with
his daughter, very graciously pleased and admiring. The other part of
the street lay in shadow; the soft, brown haze faintly lighted by the
moonbeams hung between them and the serene unclouded sky, and through
the mist, the spire of the church at the other end of the street shot
strangely up, making its sharp point visible against the clear, blue
arch above; and the sweet voices of the children, in their monotonous
chant, were in harmony with the time.

The banker was not easily moved by the æsthetics of common life; but the
society of his favourite melted his heart.

“Where have these children learned to move so gracefully, Hope?” asked
Mr Oswald, in the incautiousness of his gracious mood; “they might have
been with the French dancing-master, whom your friend Adelaide speaks so
much about.”

“The French dancing-master, papa!” exclaimed Hope; “he could not make
people graceful. Adelaide Fendie is not graceful; she only knows how to
put her feet--”

Mr Oswald laughed.

“Well then, Hope, what about these little girls?--it must be natural to
them.”

Hope began to tremble as she adventured her first direct experiment.

“I think I know what it is, father.”

“Well, Hope?”

“It’s because--because they have a gentlewoman to teach them,” said the
brave Hope, with a considerable tremor.

Mr Oswald looked grave and frowned; he had lost his interest in the
children; but his frown only provoked the bold spirit of his favourite
daughter, who knew her own power.

“They are only common people’s children,” continued Hope, with a good
deal of warmth; “but they have a gentlewoman to teach them, papa; and
Miss Swinton says that is the way to make people graceful. I am sure it
is too--for if you only saw the girls who are not with Helen
Buchanan!--because it’s not being rich that does any good;--people might
have all the money in the world, and only be common people; but Helen
Buchanan is a gentlewoman born!”

The banker wisely withdrew into the shop, and, busying himself about the
nuts, pretended not to have noticed the energetic speech which made
Hope’s cheek burn and her eyes glow in the delivery. Mr Oswald was
considerably afraid, for he saw that Hope was by no means an antagonist
to be despised, and did not well know how to meet her fiery charges.
Hope was indifferent about the nuts: she had begun her campaign, and
felt all the glow and excitement of her first declaration of war.

In the mean time, Lilias Maxwell had settled down quietly into her
corner of Mrs Buchanan’s parlour. The rapid sympathy of Helen had
already gathered up the loneliness, the wants and yearnings of the
orphan, and all that were in sorrow had an unfailing claim upon the pity
and tenderness of her mother. The calm face, so pensive and pale, and
thoughtful, and the unquiet face with its constant life and motion,
contrasted strangely, so near to each other; but their diverse currents
of life had yet many points of harmony. Each was the only child of her
mother: each had the self-knowledge which comes in solitude, and as they
talked together, each came to recognise thoughts like her own, in a
guise and form so different, that strange smiles almost mirthful
brightened even the face of Lilias as they grew familiar. The stranger
very soon ceased to be a stranger then, for even Mossgray was not so
like home.




CHAPTER XI.

    The auld guidwife’s weelhoordet nits
      Are round and round divided,
    And monie lads and lasses’ fates
      Are there that night decided.
    Some kindle, couthy, side by side,
      An’ burn thegither trimly,
    Some start awa’ wi’ saucy pride
      An’ jump out owre the chimlie,
                  Fu’ high that night.--HALLOWE’EN.


The juvenile party had assembled in Mrs Oswald’s drawing-room. The
Fendies of Mount Fendie, the Maxwells of Firthside, the son and daughter
of Dr Elliot, who rented Greenshaw, and several other scions of rural
magnates. Hope had a secret feeling that she would have liked an
auxiliary party of Helen Buchanan’s scholars in the kitchen, and should
have had much better fun with them than among the young ladies and the
young gentlemen, with their incipient flirtations and full dress.

The eldest Miss Maxwell of Firthside was eighteen; she sat apart and
dignified beside Mrs Oswald and Lilias on a sofa, thinking William
Oswald a great lout, and herself much too important a person to
countenance the follies of “the children.” Lilias did not think so; but
their gay laughter and active sport made her shrink now and then, and by
its very contrast recalled her grief.

The banker was very gracious to Lilias. He had some indefinite hope that
she might possibly withdraw William from his foolish fancy. He hoped her
walk from Mossgray had not wearied her.

“Oh no,” said Lilias, “I have had a long rest. Hope has done me the
favour to make a very important addition to my list of Fendie friends
to-day.”

Hope paused in the midst of the tumult of burning nuts to listen. Her
father glanced at her quickly with an eye which presaged a storm. Hope
drew herself up and defied it.

“I have been in Mrs Buchanan’s since the morning--do you know her, Mrs
Oswald?”

“Yes, I know her,” said Mrs Oswald, quietly, with secret satisfaction,
only less warm than Hope’s. “Mrs Buchanan is an old friend of mine. You
liked her, no doubt?”

“Perhaps one must be alone as I have been,” said Lilias, faltering
slightly, “before one can know what a pleasure it is--I mean, to be in
the atmosphere of a mother; but Hope’s Helen, Mrs Oswald--I wonder I
have been here so long, and have not heard of her before.”

“That will be the Miss Buchanan that keeps the school,” interrupted Miss
Maxwell of Firthside.

Lilias smiled.

“If you knew her you would not need that distinction, though it is a
very good one; but one runs no risk of losing her, Miss Maxwell, though
all the other Miss Buchanans in Scotland were congregated in Fendie.”

“Oh, is she so pretty?” asked the young lady, with some curiosity.

William Oswald stood at some distance, leaning upon the mantelpiece. At
his feet little Agnes Elliot looked up, vainly pleading that he would
put those two nuts, representing herself and Harry Stewart of Fairholm,
into some safe corner of the ruddy fire; but William had no ear for
little Agnes.

The banker sat in a great chair near his wife’s sofa, looking, as he
wished it to appear, towards the young merrymakers round the fire-place,
and pretending to be extremely indifferent to the conversation, but
listening with all his might.

“It is not that she is pretty,” said Lilias; “I cannot tell what the
charm is--but the charm is great, I know. Hope, you know Miss Buchanan
best--tell Miss Maxwell what it is.”

“But, Miss Maxwell, I am sure you know better than me,” said Hope,
dubiously, her triumph checked by fear, lest her own powers of
description should fail. “I don’t know what it is except it is just
because Helen is a gentlewoman.”

Miss Maxwell of Firthside elevated her good-looking small head, with its
_nez retroussé_, and looked contemptuous. Mr Oswald pushed back his
chair hastily.

“Hope is very right,” said Lilias; “but there are gentlewomen, many of
them, to whom nothing could give that singular refinement. It is not
conventional grace of manner at all, either; one cannot tell what it
is.”

“Is that Miss Buchanan? Oh, I know her--I know her!” cried one of the
Firthside boys. “She hit me once; but I think I like her for all that.”

“Miss Buchanan struck you?” said his sister. “What did she do that for?”

“Oh, I’ll tell you, Georgina!” said a smaller youth. “He was hitting
Robbie Carlyle’s cuddie with his switch--he’s a cuddie himself--he was
hitting me just before; and the young lady came up and took the switch
from him and loundered him. Oh, didn’t he deserve it!”

“She didna lounder me!” cried the first speaker, indignantly, forgetting
in his haste that his vernacular should not be spoken before ears
polite. “She only hit me once, and laughed, and asked me how I likit it.
She never hurt me; and we’re good friends now.”

“Is that a way to speak, Hector?” cried the young lady-sister, in
dismay. “What a vulgar boy you are!”

Hope with difficulty restrained a retort as to the superior elegance of
our kindly Scottish tongue, when little Agnes Elliot came running
forward with the nuts which William Oswald could not be induced to put
into the fire for her.

“This is Harry Stewart, and this is me,” said the innocent little Agnes,
too young yet to have any sort of bashfulness about her juvenile
sweetheart, “and if you please, Hope, will you put them in?”

Hope put them in as she was requested, and Hope also placed another
couple of nuts in the glowing heat of the fire, and stood watching them
with much anxiety. There were a great many eager gazers about the
hearth--a great many youthful fates were being determined; but Hope’s
nuts were still burning merrily when the destiny of all the others had
been sealed. “Who is it, Hope? who is it?” cried blythe voices on every
side; but Hope closed her lips firmly and shook her head, and would not
tell.

“Oh, I know!” said Hector Maxwell; “it’s Hope and me--Hope’s burning
herself and me!”

Hope’s indignant denial was lost in the general chorus--“Hope’s burning
herself and Hector Maxwell!” Hope was very much offended; she pushed the
joyous Hector away, and scolded little Agnes Elliot; it was too bad; but
she still stood perseveringly by the fire, watching the nuts: they were
at the most dangerous stage, and there was still the risk of one
starting from the side of the other.

The crisis past; lovingly they subsided together into white ashes.

“It’s William and Helen, Miss Maxwell,” whispered Hope, secretly
clapping her hands, and Lilias was prepared for the revelation, and
received it with becoming gravity.

All the young faces in the room were red and glowing; they were tired of
burning nuts, and Mrs Oswald’s old nurse, Tibbie, was brought in state
from the kitchen to superintend and interpret the mysterious process of
“dropping the egg.”

“Oh, goodness!” cried Victoria Fendie, “look--look! it’s a sword and a
grand cocked hat--isn’t it, Tibbie? and that’s for our Adelaide. I
wonder what it means.”

“A cocked hat!” said Hector Maxwell, indignantly, “it’s more like a
triangle--the thing the showfolk play tunes on; and a sword!--it’s the
bow of a fiddle.”

“Whiskt!” said Tibbie, “it’s just a sword; and what should it mean,
bairns; just that Miss Adie’s to get a grand sodger officer--see if I
dinna say true.”

Adelaide Fendie blushed her dull blush, and whispered,--

“Oh, Hope, do you think she knows?”

“She knows what it looks like,” said Hope.

But Adelaide was not satisfied.

“Do you not think she knows more than that? Oh, Hope, what if it was to
come true?”

Hope laughed; but it was her own turn now, to watch the mysterious
evolutions of the egg.

“It’s a ship! it’s a ship!” cried Hector Maxwell, in an ecstacy.
“Tibbie, I am sure you meant this for me.”

“Never you heed, Maister Hector,” said the oracular Tibbie; “it’s Miss
Hope’s; but you’re to get her, ye ken, so it’s a’ ane.”

Hope swept away in high disdain from Hector’s vicinity.

“Tibbie,” she whispered, “try one for a young lady; she is not here, but
I like her, and I’ll tell you after who she is.”

Tibbie obeyed.

“It’s like a book,” cried Victoria.

“It’s a letter,” said Hector.

“Oh, Tibbie, what does it mean?” inquired the perplexed Hope.

Tibbie was slightly puzzled too; the rules of her simple art gave her no
assistance.

“Well, bairns, I canna just tell--wait a minute. Ay, Miss Hope, that’s
it--the young lady will get her fortune out of a book.”

“Out of a book, Tibbie?”

“Deed, ay, Miss Hope; we’re no to ken hoo till the time comes--but see
if she disna get her fortune out of a book.”

Hope drew back to cogitate; she could make nothing of this mysterious
deliverance of Tibbie’s.

By and by, Adam Graeme’s old-fashioned, brown-hooded conveyance (all
classes of vehicles are called by the generic name, conveyance, in
Fendie), driven by “Mossgray’s man,” Saunders Delvie, arrived to take
Lilias home. Hope accompanied her to the door.

“If you please, Miss Maxwell,” said Hope, “will you see Helen sometimes
when I am away?”

“Yes, Hope,” answered Lilias.

“And, Miss Maxwell, will you just speak of her sometimes before my
father--I don’t mean _to_ my father--but you know what I mean.”

“Yes, Hope,” repeated Lilias, “I shall do what I can; don’t be afraid,
and now good-bye.”

The carriage drove off, but Hope still lingered at the door, looking
down the dim, hazy, quiet street. There were very few passengers, but
as she stood looking out, she perceived a certain tall, plaided figure
rapidly advancing upon the opposite side, in shadow of the houses. Hope
turned and shut the door in sudden wrath. What could the Reverend Robert
Insches have to do at the “townend” on this Hallowe’en night? It looked
suspicious; he had been seeing Helen Buchanan!

The next morning early, Hope herself traversed the same road to bid
Helen good-bye. The coach started at eleven, and it was only a little
after eight when Hope looked in upon Mrs Buchanan’s breakfast-table.
Helen looked in excellent spirits; the ring of her pleasant laugh had
reached Hope’s ear before she opened the parlour-door.

“Do you like Miss Maxwell, Helen?” inquired Hope.

“Very much, Hope,” was the quick answer; “we shall be excellent
friends.”

“Because she likes you, Helen,” continued Hope. “If you had only heard
her last night, Mrs Buchanan.”

The blood flushed at once over Helen’s face. It was not disagreeable to
be praised--not even before the Oswalds; but it excited pride as well as
curiosity.

“Helen,” resumed Hope, “Mr Insches comes here very often, does he not?”
Hope looked immensely jealous.

Helen did not answer; there was some annoyance, and a good deal of mirth
upon her face.

“Yes, Hope,” said Mrs Buchanan, sedately, “Mr Insches is a good lad. He
visits far better than any minister that has been in Fendie since I
came.”

“Ah, but he does not visit everybody else as often as he visits you!”
exclaimed the jealous Hope. “Helen, do you like him?”

The merry ring of Helen’s laugh did not by any means please Hope this
morning.

“Surely,” she said; “why should I not like him, Hope?”

“Ah, I don’t mean that,” said Hope; “but--I am sure you don’t _care_ for
him, Helen?”

Helen blushed again; but her answer was more satisfactory this time.

“No, indeed, Hope; not the very least in the world.”

“Mr Insches is a fine lad,” repeated Mrs Buchanan, significantly.

“Oh yes, so is everybody,” said Hope; “but do you know, Mrs Buchanan, I
think he thinks he is good-looking.”

“And so he is, Hope.”

“But he is a man, and a minister! what right has he to think about such
a thing?”

Mrs Buchanan shook her head, and did not refuse to smile; for men and
ministers too have their vanities.

“Helen,” said Hope, “I made our Tibbie try your fortune last night, and
what do you think it was? We could not make it out at first, but Tibbie
said it was a book; and you’re to get your fortune out of a book. Now,
mind, and we’ll just see what happens--and, Helen, I burnt you.”

The unquiet face grew suddenly grave, and flushed over cheek and brow
with the hot blush of pride; the tone changed in a moment.

“Did you, Hope? you were very cruel.”

“Oh, but you know that’s not what I mean!” said Hope; “and, Helen, you
need not be angry at me.”

“Who did you burn with Helen, Hope?” said Mrs Buchanan.

Hope dared not answer; and yet there was some curiosity in the kindled
indignation of that strangely moving face.

“It is time for me to go away,” said Hope, disconsolately. “Good-bye,
Mrs Buchanan; and, Helen, you need not be angry when I am just going
away.”

Helen rose and accompanied her favourite to the door.

“I am not angry, Hope; but you must never speak of me again at home;
mind--or I shall be very much offended.”

“Why?” said Hope, boldly.

But it was not quite so easy to answer why.

“Because I shall promise if you will tell me the reason,” said the
sensible Hope.

But Helen could give no reason; so she bit her lip and looked half
angry, and laughed.

“Do you know, Hope, I begin to think you are to be very clever,” she
said at last.

“Miss Swinton says I am sensible,” said Hope, steadily; “and when you
have no reason, why should you be angry?--but mind, you are to get your
fortune out of a book; and now I must go away.”

The farewell was said, and Hope gone; but Helen still stood leaning over
the garden-gate, looking after her with an embarrassed smile upon her
face. It was a sunny morning, though the haze of the beginning frost was
still in the air; the morning always brought new hopes and a buoyant
upspringing to the elastic nature of Helen Buchanan, and she felt more
than usually light-hearted to-day. As was her habit, she revealed this
in every unconscious movement. Mrs Buchanan knew by the very measure of
her step as she reëntered the house, that there was no mist in her sunny
atmosphere--no cloud upon her sky. A certain shy pleasure hovered upon
her face, prompting her to laugh at sundry times with embarrassed
uncertain gladness, and swaying about the colour in her cheek, as a mist
is swayed by the wind. It did not seem certainly that Hope Oswald had
much offended her.

But it was not that; neither was it the evident pleasure which the young
minister, who thought himself good-looking, found in Mrs Buchanan’s
humble parlour, nor yet the friendship of Lilias Maxwell. The bright
nature did indeed in its own warm alembic combine all these together,
and draw from them a certain exhilaration; but itself in the involuntary
elasticity which was its best inheritance was the source of its own
happiness. A rare and precious gift, chequered as it was with the
infinite variety of shadows, and all the depths of sudden depression
which calmer spirits could not know.

But it was very true that the Reverend Robert Insches had called very
many times of late on Mrs Buchanan, and that Helen talked to him as she
would have talked to any indifferent acquaintance, in her own varied
wayward fashion, and that the young minister seemed exceedingly glad to
respond; whereupon Mrs Buchanan, in spite of her great favour for
William Oswald, began to perceive more clearly the obstacles which stood
between Helen and him, and to grow more indignant at his father. His
father, the harsh, stern man whose rigid strength had done so much
injury to her gentle husband, and who now cast his severe shadow over
the lot of her daughter. And William had been long in possession of the
field; it pleased the good mother to see it entered by another
competitor, and if ordinary signs held good, a competitor the Reverend
Robert Insches was beginning to be.

All this was very true; but very true it was also that Helen was
supremely indifferent to the good looks of the youthful minister, and
that the Reverend Robert himself had by no means decided whether he had
or had not any “intentions” respecting the young schoolmistress of
Fendie. She _was_ the schoolmistress; to call her by the more ornamental
name of teacher or governess would not do; and the Reverend Robert was
himself of somewhat plebeian origin, and knew how apt congregations are
to scrutinize the pedigree and breeding of a new minister’s wife. So he
was wise though he was fascinated, and Mrs Buchanan was a little
premature.

But Hope Oswald, on the journey to Edinburgh, contrived to let the
banker know how assiduously the minister visited her friend, and had the
consolation to perceive that her arrow did not miss its mark. It by no
means weakened the resolution which the obstinate man had formed in
respect to the daughter of his former friend; but acting upon the
suggestive praise of Lilias Maxwell, it gave him a little misgiving
about the wisdom of his unalterable decision. It was humiliating to make
a mistake, but the very possibility made him cling more closely to his
obstinate resolve. He would never receive Walter Buchanan’s
daughter--never! He had fulminated his sentence on the matter once, and
it was decided as the Medes and Persians decide--beyond the power of
change.




CHAPTER XII.

    I would not have a speck rest on his fame
    Not if it gave me kingdoms--
    ’Tis very true that I am poor and friendless,
    But think you for that reason I would steal
    Kinsman and lands from yet another orphan?
    No, no--ah, no!


Lilias Maxwell sat in the old-fashioned window-seat of the Mossgray
drawing-room busy with some household sewing. It was an appropriate work
then, with its licence of unlimited thought, though it had often been
unwholesome enough for the solitary orphan. She was looking forward now,
in that freshness of feeling with which those look who, after a long
interregnum of pain, may again dare to turn their eyes to the future.
Her heart was convalescent, and the haze of subdued sadness which
remained about her present self made the prospect only the fairer. She
was thinking of her guardian’s delicate care of her, and of the one
living voice which should yet thank him for his tenderness.

The old man upstairs in his study was reading one of his philosophical
favourites with some restlessness, as a duty. He was slightly ashamed of
himself for so much preferring the society of his young charge to that
of his old, learned, constant friends. The dust that lay upon his
scientific tools, and the unusual order and solemn regularity with which
these folio and quarto inhabitants of his shelves were arranged, came
upon him like a reproof. His hand rested upon the fanciful records of
Bishop Berkeley’s mystic system. Open before him lay the steadier
disquisitions of a grave philosopher of Scotland. Upon the same table
were some of those strange, wild charts which reveal to us the dreamy
sea of German thought. The volumes round bore all on kindred
subjects--writings of men who had given consistence to the reveries of
the unformed world before their time, and of men who had but skill
enough to spin their spider’s thread about the obscure college or
unknown scholar’s cell in which they lived and died. Divine philosophy
in its strength and its weakness encircled the Laird of Mossgray.

But from the high window of the projecting turret the ruddy winter
sunshine stole in a line of dazzling light through the large low room.
It was a mild day, so mild that the turret window was open, and the low
hum of rural sounds ascended from beneath. Adam Graeme leant back in his
chair, and looked at the steady line of sunlight, and forgot the
philosophies of science. There rose in the gentle soul of the old man
philosophies of older date than these, born before ever the restless
mind of humanity had investigated its own formation or classified its
feelings.

    “The same sound is in mine ears
     Which in those days I heard.”

Wonderful sights and sounds of nature unchangeable in all their
varying--wonderful human heart which twines its memories about them, and
growing old, dwells in the past, by aid of the great earth and greater
sun!

By the fireside stood an old carved chair; the room was so much the
hermitage of its owner, that its furniture was very scanty; there was no
accommodation for any companionship; but when every other article in the
room was piled with books, this solitary chair remained always
unencumbered. For years it had stood in the same position, turned
towards the fire, its high carved back standing up, a kind of gloomy
screen against the light. This day its position had been slightly
altered, and the sunshine streaming in, threw its fantastic gilding over
the antique carving and faded old embroidery of the unused seat. The old
man started slightly as his eye fell upon it, and it was some time
before he recollected himself. Lilias had been in the study early this
morning, and she it was who had, unconsciously, made this alteration.

It was the chair of Charlie Graeme. This room, now the study of the
thoughtful, aged man, had been the favourite haunt of the schoolboy
cousins long ago. Rusty armour, and heavy swords and axes, borne by the
chiefs of Mossgray, when peace was unknown upon the Border, hung still
upon the low bare walls, and in one corner a pile of youthful
implements, fishing-rods and the like, still bore witness to the
different occupations once pursued under its roof; through all these
long intervening years, since the household traitor left for the last
time the house of the trustful friend, to whom his lost honour brought
so severe a pang, “Charlie’s chair” remained as he had left it,
unoccupied by the solitary fireside. Now for the first time the sunlight
slanted on this relic of the false man, and Mossgray sat with his eyes
fixed upon it, thinking of the dead.

That morning he had received a letter from the Reverend Matthew Monikie,
the pragmatical licentiate of the church, who kept the Aberdeenshire
school, where Charlie’s son had spent his youth. The letter was formally
written, as became the man’s profession, age, and character, with
deductions somewhat authoritative. Halbert Graeme was nearly one and
twenty; it was absolutely necessary, Mr Monikie represented, that some
provision should be made for his future life; that he should be placed
in some situation where he could maintain himself.

Mossgray had made a resolution, and was determined to keep it. The son
of Charlie Graeme should never be heir to the house in which his father
had meditated so much treachery; it was better than the line of the old
race should be utterly extinguished, than that it should spring anew
from a stock which displayed so much guile, and falsehood, and
dishonour. Mossgray resolved to continue the yearly allowance he had
given this youth, and to refuse him no specific aid or influence which
he asked; but, “Let him not enter my presence,” repeated the old man;
“let me not be brought into contact with one whose motives I cannot
trust, whose conduct may steel my heart both against himself and others.
I wish him well, but let him not come near me.”

It was unjust: it was almost the single conscious injustice with which
even his own conscience could tax Adam Graeme of Mossgray, and in
consequence he tried to banish it from his mind. As he sat thus musing,
a melting of the heart came upon him. He could almost fancy, as he saw
the sunbeams stealing over Charlie’s chair, that Charlie himself had
risen from it even now.

Very shortly afterwards he joined Lilias. She was still sitting in the
deep window-seat of the cheerful, old-fashioned drawing-room. The ruddy
sunbeams just touched her pale head with a shadowy glory; her fingers
were busily employed, her mind no less active. Not as Helen Buchanan
would have done in the vivid dreams which took possession of her less
serene spirit, but in the flush of a tranquil, gentle hope, weaving the
mystic thread of her imagined destiny over the unknown future which lay
before her.

“Lilias,” said her guardian, when they had been for some time engaged in
conversation less personal, “I am the last of my race, but I have a
fancy that I should like ill to be the last of my name. When I was as
young as you are, there seemed to me a peculiar charm and grace in the
name I would have you bear--you must be Lilias Graeme.”

“Gladly, if it pleases you, Mossgray,” answered Lilias.

“It pleases me,” said the old man, with his gentle smile; “it is strange
how sometimes, Lilias, we have our early fancies realized in a way
which, could we foresee it when we form them, we should think bitter
mockery. This name! well, but the years fall tranquilly, and do a good
work in the content they bring. I think they bring content--acquiescence
at least in what Providence sends us.”

“Is it always so?” said Lilias. She was thinking of her fretful,
repining father, whose discontent was not allayed by years.

“I think so,” said Mossgray: “we resist when we are strong, but when
this gentle hand of decay droops over us, we learn to think that what
has befallen us was, after all, the best; but I did not intend to
discuss melancholy matters with you, and youthful people, as I remember,
think all sad that relates to the end. When that comes, Lilias--when you
yourself are the lady of this old stronghold of the Graemes, remember
that you have promised to bear their name.”

Lilias laid down her work and looked steadily into her guardian’s face.

“You shall call me by what name you please, but you must not give me
Mossgray.”

The old man shook his head and smiled.

“No, no!” exclaimed Lilias, hastily; “you have given me a home in my
extremity--more than that, you have given me such kindness as perhaps no
other in the world could give. You have been my protector, my true
father, and I thank you with all my heart; but there is no gift you can
give me now half so precious as those I have received already. You have
made me your child; after this I will take no inferior gift, not though
it is all your land. I will be Lilias Graeme your daughter; but only
while Mossgray is _your_ home must it be mine.”

Mossgray laid his hand gently on the young head which was inspired with
energy so unusual.

“I thank you, my good Lilias; but even on your own showing you must take
my inheritance; for I can have no heir so fitting as my own child.”

“Mossgray,” said Lilias, “you are not the last of your race.”

A slight colour passed over the old man’s face.

“You are right, Lilias,” he said, gravely, “there is yet one Graeme
remaining of the blood; but even you must not speak to me of him.”

Her face had been lifted to him full of eagerness: when he said that her
countenance fell--she was silent.

“Nay,” said her guardian, kindly, “I do not mean that there is anything,
Lilias, of which you may not speak to me with the utmost freedom; but
this youth, this Halbert--you do not and cannot know how strong my
reasons are for resolving never to see him, nor to suffer his presence
at Mossgray.”

“Is it for himself; has he displeased you himself, Mossgray?” asked
Lilias, with some timidity.

Adam Graeme sat down near her, and met her shy glance with his own
benign, unclouded smile.

“We will speak of him no more, Lilias, if you are afraid.”

“No, no, I am not afraid,” said Lilias, hurriedly; “but you must let me
be proud--for myself and for you.”

The old man smiled again.

“Surely, Lilias, if you will tell me how and why.”

“For myself,” said Lilias, with some tremor in her voice, “because I
would fain have you believe, Mossgray, that it is your own tenderness I
prize, and not any gift--not any inheritance.”

“I believe it already, Lilias--I need no proof.”

“And besides,” continued Lilias, “for everybody--all our
neighbours--‘the haill water,’ Mossgray. I must vindicate myself. I
cannot have these good people think ill of me. They know you have given
me everything I have; but they must not fancy that I grasp at all.”

“Hush, Lilias,” said the old man, “I cannot hear this. Well, I permit
your own pride: it becomes you well enough; and now for me.”

“And for you, Mossgray,” said Lilias. “I am jealous that any one should
have cause to say that once in your life you dealt unjustly--that you
alienated his inheritance from one of your own blood because your kind
heart had compassion on a stranger. I could not hear this said. For the
very name’s sake which you say I am to bear, I would shrink from such a
reproach as this.”

“It is unjust,” said the old man. “I almost believe you, Lilias; but
suppose that I knew, and were sure, that far greater dishonour would
come to the name, if Halbert Graeme inherited Mossgray, than could fall
upon me for disowning him--what then? Would you still advise me to
bestow all I have upon the son of a treacherous, false man?”

“I do not know him,” said Lilias; “if he does otherwise than well, I am
grieved for himself; but it has no effect upon me--it does not alter the
right and the wrong; and you, Mossgray, who have never done injustice!”

“How have you heard, Lilias, of Halbert Graeme?” said the old man. “Did
you ever meet him in your wanderings that you plead his cause so
warmly?”

“No--oh, no. I have only heard of him, principally here at home, where
they cannot forget that he is a son of the house,” said Lilias; “and
some one has brought them word that he is good and generous, and worthy
to be your successor. Will you not see with your own eyes whether it is
so?”

“You are a Quixote, Lilias,” said Mossgray, “you have the epidemic
generosity of youth upon you just now. When you are old, you will be
wiser, perhaps--who can tell?--than to throw away your own prospects for
the sake of a stranger whom you never saw.”

“I do not know that it is well to be so wise,” said Lilias; “and I shall
not learn from you, Mossgray.”

“In this point I cannot answer for myself,” said the old man. “I have
had an experience bitterer than usual; but let us not speak of that: we
have had enough of Halbert Graeme. Who are to be your guests, Lilias, in
our first essay at hospitality? have you determined?”

“I specially beg an invitation for only one,” said Lilias; “and perhaps
I do ill to ask that; but--I remember what it is to be poor and alone.”

“And who is your one guest?” said Mossgray.

“It is Helen Buchanan;--you have seen her, Mossgray; she is only a
humble teacher in Fendie: but she is--”

“I know her,” said the courteous Adam Graeme, to whom the word
gentlewoman was, as to Hope Oswald, the highest of feminine titles. “Why
should you hesitate to invite her, Lilias?”

“Because,” said Lilias, with a smile, “the young ladies, the young
landed ladies, Mossgray, may think her not good enough to meet them; but
I made a promise to Hope Oswald to do what I could to honour Helen in
the presence of Hope’s father.”

“So Hope begins to scheme,” said Mossgray, smiling; “and the cause,
Lilias?”

“I think it has some connection with Mr William Oswald; indeed, Mrs
Oswald almost told me that his father’s very stern resolution alone
prevents--”

“I understand,” said the old man, as Lilias hesitated and blushed with a
not unnatural sympathy. “His father’s resolution--pooh! his father will
break it.”

“Do you think so, Mossgray?”

“I begin to think, Lilias,” said Mossgray, turning to leave the room,
“that resolutions are made only to be broken. May it fare with Mr Oswald
as it has done with me; but remember,” and the old man looked back from
the door with some humour in his face, “I do not mean in the matter of
Halbert Graeme.”

He did not mean it--he was still _resolved_; and yet when he returned to
his study, it was to look long at the declining sunlight as it gilded
the ancient carvings of Charlie’s chair, and to think gently of the
dead. A certain poetic, half-superstitious feeling, which became him
well, hindered him from restoring to its original position the old seat
of Charlie Graeme. He suffered the sunshine to dwell upon it like a
reconciling smile.




CHAPTER XIII.

     Marry, he hath a proper person, a brain indifferent well garnished;
     comes of a good lineage; hath a bold spirit; poor, I deny not; but
     what doth your young gallant propose to himself, I pray you, but to
     try a wrestle and a fall with Fortune?--OLD PLAY.


On the same evening the Edinburgh coach, when it arrived at the door of
the George Inn, at Fendie, deposited there a young adventurer fresh from
the far North. He had been travelling on the outside of the coach, and
was benumbed with cold, though his face glowed from contact with the
wind. A small portmanteau was the extent of his luggage, and beyond that
his worldly possessions were of the smallest; good looks, good blood, an
honest heart, a happy temper, and five one-pound notes in the end of a
blue silken purse--he had nothing more.

It was no great amount of capital with which to begin the arduous
struggle of life; and upon his glowing healthful face there sat a little
anxiety, which was not by any means care. He had one special and
particular aim in this journey, but if it failed, how many means of
success yet offered themselves to the young, hopeful, ingenuous spirit,
with the world lying all before him, where to choose.

The stranger hastily entered the inn and ordered some very simple
refreshments. It was his first considerable journey, and the youth was
not without the natural shyness which attends those who have passed all
their lives in the quietness of one domestic circle. When he had
discussed the inexpensive meal placed before him, and thoroughly thawed
himself before the fire, and resolved one of his pound notes into
shillings by the payment of his bill, the young man, much to the
surprise of the waiter at the George, began to button his great-coat
once more.

“Do you know,” he inquired, “how far it is to Mossgray?--there is a
place called Mossgray in the neighbourhood, is there not?”

The waiter answered readily in the affirmative, with the addition that
it was “maybes, a mile,” and an inquiry if the gentleman would want a
conveyance.

The gentleman thought he should not--a mile was no great distance--and
requested his attendant to direct him how to go.

The waiter, encouraged by seeing the portmanteau left behind, graciously
complied. The youth’s appearance was frank and prepossessing, and the
waiter at the George was a good-humoured fellow, so he extended his
courtesy so far as to look out upon the idlers round the door--it was
the evening of the market-day--and ask,--

“Is there ony of you gaun the road to Mossgray?”

John Brown, Mrs Fendie’s factotum, was within hearing. He had been down
making purchases at the market, and now, with his light cart moderately
well filled, was about starting home. On hearing the question, he
responded briskly,--

“Ay, I’m gaun to the Mount--wha’s speiring?”

“Is’t you, John Brown?” said the waiter; “there’s a gentleman here, a
stranger, that disna ken the road. He’s gaun to Mossgray.”

“If he’s a decent lad,” said the authoritative John, “I’ll gie him a
hurl if he likes; and if he’s no a decent lad, or if he’s ower proud to
ride in a cart, if he can keep up wi’ the powny, I’ll let him see the
road.”

The stranger laughed, and having, as it seemed, no particular scruples
of pride, sprang lightly up on the front of John’s cart, and thanked him
for the promised “hurl.” It was a very frosty, chill night; John
somewhat gruffly threw one of the rough home-made plaids, of which he
had been making a cushion for himself, over the knees of the newcomer.

“Ye’ll ken the Laird?” said John, as they emerged out of the Main
Street.

“No--at least I have never seen him,” said the young man.

John uttered a discontented “humph,” and changed his tactics.

“It’s a mair inviting place noo than it used to be, for young folk.”

“Is it?” said the impracticable stranger. “I have never been at
Mossgray.”

“Ay,” said John, dryly, fancying he was now sure of a more satisfactory
answer; “but ye’ll ken the young lady it’s like?”

“The young lady!” exclaimed his companion in evident astonishment. “Is
there a young lady at Mossgray?”

John Brown was brought to a stand-still--he was half angry at his
failure.

“Ay, nae doubt there’s a young lady; ye maunna hae been living nearhand
here or ye would have heard of the young lady of Mossgray.”

“You don’t mean,” said the young man, hurriedly, “that Mr Graeme is
married?”

A long gruff laugh answered the question, to the considerable relief of
the inquirer, before John was able to say,--

“Man, ye may ken mony things, but ye dinna ken the Laird!”

“No, indeed I do not,” said the stranger, echoing John’s laugh; “but
pray tell me who the young lady is.”

“Ye see,” said John, “the Laird was to have been married langsyne--the
time’s past minding--it was lang or ever ye were born or heard tell o’;
but ye’ll no prevent the lass frae seeing somebody she likit
better,--and a shilpit chield he was, no fit to haud the candle to
Mossgray;--sae the short and the lang o’t is, that the twaesome ran
away, and the Laird was left without his bride, and took it sair to
heart, as I have heard. Aweel, there was nae mair word o’t till a young
lady came to the Mount--that’s where I am--to learn the young lasses the
kind of havers that’s guid enough for the like o’ them; and wha should
this be but the daughter of the Laird’s auld joe, and nae suner was’t
found out, than she behoved to gang hame to Mossgray, and as muckle wark
made about her as if she had been a crowned head, let alane a bit
peenging lassie: and there she’s been, ever since, mistress and mair.
The word gangs that she’ll get a’ the land; but I canna think that
Mossgray would pass ower his ain bluid for a stranger, and they say
there are some of the name to the fore yet.”

The young man made no answer, and just at this crisis John Brown pulled
up his horse opposite a lane which sloped down to the waterside.

“Ye see yon light? it’s in the Laird’s study, for he’s an awfu’
feelosophical man. Yon’s Mossgray; if ye hand straight down ye canna
miss’t.”

There was only the partial light of the moon to guide the stranger, as
he turned the sudden angle of one of the accumulated buildings, which
formed the house of Mossgray. Dimly seen, and in glimpses, as these
clouds flitted across the moon, the old house looked grand and imposing
to the inexperienced eyes eagerly gazing upon it. A thrill of family
pride, the first he had ever felt, made the young man draw himself up,
and hold his head higher, as he looked at the heavy bulk of the old
tower rising between him and the sky. In the projecting turret high up
yonder, and from the small deep windows in its rugged wall, gleams the
light which John Brown pointed out. The Laird’s study--the heart of the
adventurer beat high, as he tried to prepare himself to meet this stern
Laird, half dreaded, half defied.

Lower down in a more modern part of the house, from larger windows of
some household sitting room, warm light was shining, and close beside
the visitor as he stood surveying the dark mass of building, was the
cheerful kitchen fire and lamp. The young man did not perceive that at
the uncurtained kitchen window there were curious faces watching him. He
lingered with natural hesitation before presenting himself to the
unknown Mossgray, whose welcome was so dubious; but while he lingered,
another face appeared at the low window near him. The old housekeeper,
with excited curiosity, had come to see for herself who the intruder
was. A loud exclamation aroused him.

“God preserve us!--we never did ye ill. Have ye come to warn us of our
end, Charlie Graeme?”

He saw an aged face, strangely convulsed with terror, fall back upon the
shoulder of a strong middle-aged woman who stood behind, as the shrill
cry ceased; and hastily advancing, he discovered the kitchen door, and
knocked. For some time his summons was not attended to; at last a decent
gray-haired elderly man opened it, and looked out, not without
timidity. The young man asked for Mr Graeme, and was silently admitted.

In an old elbow-chair by the fire sat the housekeeper of Mossgray,
hysterically wringing her withered hands.

“I never did him ill! Oh guid send he be come for me, and no for the
innocent callant that he did enow mischief too, when he was in the
flesh; but ye saw it, Saunders Delvie--ye saw the Appearance as weel as
me.”

“I tell ye, Auntie,” said Janet, “it was nae Appearance; it was a mortal
lad, as life-like as either you or me.”

“Will you be so good as tell me,” said the stranger, “if Mr Graeme is at
home?”

The old woman sat stiffly erect, gazing at him with rigid terror.

“And where should the Laird be, I would like to ken,” said Janet,
testily, “but just in Mossgray?”

The young man smiled. The light of the fire fell full upon his ruddy,
animated face. Mrs Mense’s fears began to abate; he was no Appearance
after all.

“Wha are ye?” asked the old woman, with some solemnity. “Tell me that
you’re no Charlie Graeme?”

“My name is Halbert,” said the stranger. “It is my father you mean, and
I am like him, I hear.”

Mrs Mense rose, and advancing to the young representative of the
Graemes, looked earnestly into his face. The youth’s colour rose under
the scrutiny, but the blush was accompanied by a good-humoured smile:
the result was satisfactory.

“Guid grant that it prove what it looks--a true face,” said the old
woman as she turned away. “Take him up to the young lady--I’ll tell
Mossgray mysel; but no--bide a wee, Janet, I’ll show the gentleman the
road.”

The penalty which he paid for entering the house by the kitchen door was
the threading of various dark passages linked together by short flights
of stairs. The old woman panted and lost her breath as she toiled on
before him.

“These stairs must weary you,” said Halbert, kindly; “had you not better
direct me, and I will go on myself.”

“Your father would have cared little for trouble to the like of me,”
said Mrs Mense, emphatically; “and you’re a guid lad to mind; but I maun
tell Mossgray mysel.”

Lilias Maxwell sat alone, leaning upon a small table in the cheerful
drawing-room. A desk stood near her, covered with notes of invitation
which she had been writing for the great party which her guardian
insisted on giving in her honour. She had finished these, and was
sitting, thoughtfully looking at a book before her, which she did not
read. She was thinking of what she could do to help forward the cause of
Halbert Graeme.

Just then the door opened, and Lilias started in surprise as Mrs Mense
entered, followed by the young man, who, in his flutter of spirits,
looked as he was--a remarkably handsome and prepossessing youth.

“I’m gaun to tell Mossgray,” said the housekeeper; “and, Miss Lilias,
this is Mr Halbert Graeme.”

There was a little awkwardness at first, which the serene bearing and
temper of Lilias got through perhaps scarcely so well as Helen
Buchanan’s embarrassed frankness would have done; but they surmounted
it, and talked about Halbert’s journey, while Mrs Mense laboriously
panted up the old staircase of the tower, to the study of the Laird.

The Laird sat among his books not very attentive to them--his mind had
wandered to other things; and by the fire-place stood Charlie’s chair,
still turned towards the light--towards the faint pale moonbeams which,
dimmed, but not quenched, by the artificial light, stole in like
something spiritual across the dusky wall.

“Mr Adam,” said the old woman, advancing to the table in the strength of
her unwonted agitation, “I have seen this night a face I never thought
to see, under the rooftree of Mossgray, or with my old e’en again. I
have looked upon the face of your cousin, Charlie Graeme.”

Mossgray started nervously, and raised his head; that gray, pale, old
man’s head, which to his faithful servant looked still young.

“I thought it was an Appearance sent to warn us of our end,” said Mrs
Mense, solemnly, “and my heart failed me, Mossgray, because I kent, that
whate’er your better spirit may have done, I had ne’er forgiven him, no
when he was dead. But it was nae Appearance; the face is the face of a
living man, and if it’s like him, it has that in it, that in his bravest
days he never had. The lad’s face is a true face, Mr Adam. I have lived
near fourscore years, and I have learned to ken.”

“Who is it, Nancy?” said Mossgray.

“He says they ca’ him Halbert Graeme. I pat him in the big room beside
Miss Lilias; they’re a bonnie couple as e’e could look upon, and he’s Mr
Charlie’s son.”

There was a brief struggle; the old feeling of suspicion and distrust
came up for a moment over the warm heart of Adam Graeme; but, like all
unnatural things, it was shortlived, and he recovered himself.

“I will judge him by his own merits,” said the just Laird of Mossgray,
“for long ago, Charlie Graeme, long ago, when your treachery was
scarcely done, I forgave you.”

A footstep on the stair interrupted the conversation in the
drawing-room; it brought the colour almost painfully to Halbert’s cheek
as he sat in anxious expectation, and when Mossgray entered the room,
the youth rose and stood before him, hesitating and embarrassed. He
scarcely observed the stateliness of the old man’s demeanour; he did not
see how the face, which at first was only gravely courteous, softened
and melted as it looked upon his own. Lilias interposed, as they stood
silently looking at each other.

“Mossgray,” she said, her calm face and tone restoring them both to
self-possession, “this is Halbert Graeme.”

And then the old man bade him welcome to Mossgray.

It was not in his generous, gentle nature to suffer any guest to remain
uneasy under his roof; whatever his purpose might be towards the
stranger he could not have been otherwise than kindly courteous as
became an host; and Halbert was so ingenuous in his young, frank
manhood, so fresh and confident in his untried hopes--so bold of
venturing on the world which yet he did not know, that the heart of his
kinsman warmed towards him. It _was_ a true face, honest, manful, and
guileless, with the boyish bloom upon it still, half bashful, half bold.
The old man could ill be stern at any time, but now the artificial
restraint gradually gave way; he resigned himself to the natural
guidance of his heart, and Halbert Graeme was installed that night a
member of Mossgray’s family--another child.




CHAPTER XIV.

    Simple, grave, sincere.--COWPER.


William Oswald, the banker’s son, inherited in some degree the
disposition of his father; but the bitterness of the original stock was
modified in the branch. A grave, decided, firm man, his character had
already developed itself; but he was not obstinate. His mind was open at
all points to truth, and strong and tenacious as was the grasp of his
opinion, he was still convinceable, and did not wilfully shut his eyes
against the light from what quarter soever it came. And William Oswald,
though a thoroughly natural and warm-hearted man, and with indeed a
singular degree of ardour under his gravity, was of the stuff which made
stoics in the old Roman times. He had a power of self-denial and
self-restraint, which is at all times a very considerable weapon, and
could hold steadily on, past all the temptations of pleasure--past even
the natural resting-place which wooed him to needed repose, on direct to
his end. He did not speak about it; he made no demonstration of his
ceaseless pursuit; but he fixed his dark glowing eyes clearly and
steadily upon his aim, and went on, swerving neither to the right hand
nor the left--able to give up pleasure, ease--able to endure toil and
solitude, and with a definite, clear end before him, to pursue his way
unfalteringly till it was gained.

He had been “bred a writer,” as the sons of respectable, wealthy,
middle-class men in Scotland frequently are, whether they be intended to
practise the law as a profession or no; and there had been some talk of
William succeeding Mr Shaw _the_ writer in Fendie in his great business.
But William, it appeared, did not choose to enter into partnership with
young Mr Nichol Shaw, and in the mean time he was resting ingloriously
in the obscure labours of his father’s office.

And it greatly chafed the impatient spirit of Helen Buchanan that it
should be so. Like most imaginative, youthful women, Helen fancied the
freedom and licence of mankind one of the greatest possible gifts. There
was no glorious “might be” which did not seem to her ideal vision open
to the ambition of _a man_. The exceeding might of virtuous
influence--the empire of the generous, brave spirit over its
fellows--once on this free eminence of manhood, and the ardent mind knew
that these would be hers--they were possible to men--above all to the
one man upon whom the fair garments of the ideal began to fall.

And Helen chafed unconsciously that William Oswald should be content
with this inglorious life. The humble teacher of the little girls of
Fendie aspired to a higher intellectual firmament; there were ambitious
hopes and dreams and wishes stirring in the bare school-room, enough to
have startled the little town out of its propriety; wishes, and dreams,
and hopes of a more daring kind than ever young lady in Fendie had
entertained before; and Helen Buchanan scarcely ranked as a young lady.
She was noticed by none of the magnates, and courted in no society--she
was simply the school-mistress; the people of Fendie, young and old,
would have been overwhelmed with astonishment to hear of her ambition.

But William Oswald knew it, and his temper agreed as little as her own
with the ease of inactivity. He was not the man to prefer the temporary
pleasure of even her society, greatly as he prized it, to the necessary
work of life; and he too had the upward tendency. He could not be
content with the easy indolent satisfaction of competence, and already
believing that the strong and vigorous youth within him was destined for
something nobler than the businesses or amusements of the little
country-town, his energy was stimulated by hers. They stood at this time
almost upon terms of mutual defiance, yet each unconsciously
supplemented the strength and had a share in all the secret purposes of
the other. Their own individual combat was close and exciting, yet in
the very act of resisting they invigorated each other for their several
wrestles with the world without. They were neither of a very peaceable
nature; it suited them to manage their wooing so.

But William’s plans were laid. He had determined to return to Edinburgh
to practise his profession. When he had won an independent position and
name for himself--and to do that was of itself an end worth striving
for--he felt that he should be much more likely to overcome the
obstinate opposition of his father. The banker was proud of his family,
and William, a known man, occupying a standing ground honourably
acquired by his own exertions, might expect to be differently treated
from William the unknown who had no other position than that which
belonged to Mr Oswald’s son.

His mother assented with a sigh; she foresaw a different end to the
romance of her son’s youth. He also, the cold voice of experience
prophesied, would learn to approve those views of worldly wisdom, would
forget the generous impulses of young life--would acquiesce in the
prudent decisions of his father. Mrs Oswald too was prudent; but her
heart shrank from beholding the film of calculating foresight fall upon
the frank vision of her only son. She could almost have chosen the
imprudent marriage sooner than the chill wisdom which would make it
impossible.

The banker consented readily to William’s project; it was likely, _he_
thought, to accomplish a twofold good:--to establish the young man’s
fortunes steadily, on a basis of good work entered into with the
freshness of youth, and to detach him from his foolish liking to the
poor schoolmistress, who, gentlewoman as Hope asserted her to be, he was
resolved to receive into his family--never!

So, although on grounds so different, the father and mother consented,
and the grave, firm, undemonstrative son, the depths of whose nature
were too profound to be frozen over as his mother feared by the icy
prudence of the world, mapped out his own course, knowing better than
they did the tenacious constancy of his own mind. It was no boyish fancy
which moved him; the light emotions of youthful liking were very
different from this, and there was nothing from which the ardent, grave
spirit stood in so little peril as change.

On a dull evening, late in December, he sat by Mrs Buchanan’s fireside
waiting till Mrs Buchanan’s daughter should leave her school-room and
her pupils. William Oswald had been a favourite long ago with his
father’s sensitive partner, and was a favourite with Mrs Buchanan of so
long standing, that before the unfortunate hour in which he astonished
with unwonted eloquence the wondering ears of Helen, and raised the
_questio vexata_, which at present did so strangely unite and disunite
them, his prospects and purposes had been as confidentially discussed in
Mrs Buchanan’s parlour as at home; and still, though Helen’s mother
began to feel strongly interested in the prosperity of the Reverend
Robert Insches, it was impossible to break through the old familiar use
and wont which bound her to William Oswald almost like a mother to a
son. In his absence she could fancy the Reverend Robert very eligible,
but in his presence she felt almost unwillingly that it could be none
but he, the daily long-accustomed visitor--the son trained into all
their simple habitudes--the friend whom they knew so thoroughly, and who
so thoroughly knew them.

To this friendly, confidential footing he was very anxious to return
to-night. He wanted to discuss his plans with them, to make Helen aware
of the course which he projected for himself. Since he made the plunge,
and relinquished his place as friend to claim a nearer one, the attempt
had cost him much; not only the constraint which it had placed upon his
intercourse with his father, but the loss of Helen’s society which it
involved; so he resolved for this night to ignore their past struggle,
and to be only the old familiar friend, the son of the house.

Mrs Buchanan and her visitor sat together silently, both of them
somewhat sad. The sound of the children’s footsteps and subdued voices
broke the stillness, and almost immediately Helen entered the room. The
candle was not lighted, for Mrs Buchanan liked the twilight, and was
thrifty, besides economizing the daylight as she did other things. She
was seated before the fire, which only shed a ruddy glow upon her face,
and did not in any degree light the dusky room. Withdrawn in a corner of
the sofa, William Oswald sat unseen.

“Mother,” exclaimed Helen, as she entered, “I have been thinking all day
of my old plan of going to Edinburgh. You remember what Hope Oswald said
about Miss Swinton; and the letter I wrote to her has been lying in my
desk for a month. I wish you would consent, mother; I wish you would let
me send it.”

“But, Helen, my dear,” said the less hasty mother, “you must take no
such step without consideration.”

“What can we do here, mother?” said Helen, eager for the moment, in the
strength of impulse. “What can we do here?--always the same--no
possibility of changing this dull routine of labour--no chance of rising
higher. I shall not always be young,” and the sudden change from warm
hope to depression fell upon the variable face in an instant, “and so
long as I am, should we not provide?”

“Helen, my dear,” repeated the gentle Mrs Buchanan, “you distress me
when you say such things; besides, it is nonsense, you know.”

Helen did not answer; she sat down on the other side of the fire, and
leaned her head upon her hand. The dim cloud of melancholy hovered over
her--for the moment the young sunshine was gone. It _was_ a dull
routine--a laborious life--cheered only by the special inheritance of
fair and gracious things which had been given her in her own spirit, and
sometimes the cloud overshadowed even these.

“Helen,” said the grave, firm voice whose power over her changeful moods
she strenuously resisted, and even to herself would not acknowledge.
“_I_ am going to Edinburgh.”

She started--the quick thrill of her varying nature went over her,
carrying the cloud on its sudden breath. A flush of evanescent offence
sprang over her face, as she looked past her mother to the dark figure
which began to be dimly visible on the sofa. Her purpose had changed on
the moment, but she was half angry that she had been anticipated.

“Yes,” said Mrs Buchanan, rising hastily to light the solitary candle,
“William is not content to live quietly at home, Helen. The air of
Fendie is too still for him.”

There was a slight drawing up of the stooping figure--an almost
imperceptible expanding of the breast--a hurried, momentary glance at
William, in which only one who had long studied it could discriminate
the proud, shy pleasure, tinged as it was by a certain sadness, with
which Helen heard this news.

“He is quite right,” she said quickly.

“Do you think so?” asked William; “but what if I only lose myself yonder
in the crowd, and remain as unknown as I am now?”

“I know you will not,” said Helen. Then she recollected herself. “I
mean--yes, William Oswald, I mean you will not--you will do better than
that.”

He was still in the shadow, and while he could observe every change of
her features, she could scarcely see the dark glow of pleasure which
covered his face.

“But, Helen, you think of fame--and I will never win fame; hundreds fail
every year of acquiring the mere standing ground. Is it worth hazarding
quietness and peace, and giving up home as I shall do, think you, for
the chance of such distinction--only small distinction, Helen--as I can
ever reach?”

Her pulse began to beat more quickly--strong in those young warm veins
of hers ran the tide of her ambition.

“I do not mean distinction--that is,” said the truthful Helen, who felt
that in some degree she did mean it; “I mean things graver and nobler
before distinction. I think the old chivalry will never die out of the
world, William; to be a knight--to carry arms against all the powers of
evil--to win new lands to acknowledge our king--whatever we have to work
at for our bread, that remains the real work to live for, as it seems to
me, and I know nothing so precious but one might peril it--nothing so
dear but one would give it up for such a cause as that.”

Her voice shook a little with the excitement that made it strong--the
stooping head was quite erect--the eyes shining like stars.

Mrs Buchanan sat a little apart looking at them--observing with quiet,
smiling wonder how the grave face of the silent, uncommunicative William
began to speak and grow eloquent too, as it bent towards the other
countenance, whose thoughts were “legible i’ the eie.”

But he seemed more inclined to listen than to speak.

“I grant you that,” said William; “but suppose, Helen, a man should
distrust his own powers, and think it most expedient to keep himself
apart from all struggles--to withdraw far away from the evils he has not
strength to contend with--what then?”

“Then he does not fulfil his end,” said the rapid, eager voice--“which
is not to flee from natural temptations and difficulties, but bravely to
resist and do battle with the same. I know one feels one’s heart sink
often. It may not be so with you who are strong--but _I_ feel that to
cease such work and warfare as one is called to do, does bring a
perilous sinking of the heart. It is not well--surely it is not well to
withdraw from the evils which are in us and about us; we are bound to do
battle with them, William--not to stand on our defence alone, but to
carry the war into the camp of the enemies. I think sometimes that the
state of war must be the only good state for those who have sin natural
to them as we have--and that if these words, resist and struggle, were
withdrawn from our language we should be no longer human; for when we
let our arms fall, our hearts fall, and weariness comes upon us, and
distrust and gloom; and out of the living, moving world we come into the
narrow chamber of ourselves--and the sun sets upon us, William.”

The sun had set in the changeful face upon which William Oswald looked,
and for the moment its waning colour and downcast eyes proclaimed the
unmistakeable sinking of the heart. She did not perceive the look that
dwelt upon her, nor its language--language unconsciously powerful. “And
this, Helen, is your philosophy.” The words fell dreamily upon her ear,
echoing through a long silence. The philosophy was not hers alone.
Kindred thoughts had risen in the young minds, as they grew together
into the early flush of maturity, and now she sent him forth--a knight.




CHAPTER XV.

    Saucy fortune, did’st thou smile,
      I perchance would little heed thee;
    Think’st thou when thou frown’st, the while
      For myself I dread thee?
    Nay, not I--I only vow,
    If one falls, it shall be thou.--ANON.


“I am a man now,” said Halbert Graeme, with something of the pride of
his years; “and, thanks to your goodness, Sir, I have education enough
for any ordinary profession. If only I could make a beginning--”

“You would certainly succeed,” said the Laird of Mossgray, with his
pleasant, kindly smile.

“I do not know,” said Halbert, modestly; “but I think that men who are
content to work hard and persevere, must surely have some measure of
success. I am not very ambitious--that is--”

“I shall not quarrel with you, Halbert, my man, for your ambition,” said
the gentle kinsman, whom Halbert had feared as stern.

“Well, Sir,” said the youth, with renewed confidence, “I should like to
rise, no doubt; but I am willing to work hard for it, and quite content
to begin as humbly as you think it proper I should. I have no right, I
know, to such help, where I have already received so much; but I have
the claim of blood on no one I have ever known, and I thought I might
ask advice from you.”

It was his second day at Mossgray, and Halbert remembered his last walk
up the Aberdeenshire glen, a week ago, with Menie Monikie, and his
declaration to her--

“I will tell him, I don’t come to ask anything from him, Menie--I know
he has been kind to me already--but he must know the world better than
we do. Your father says he has been in India--and if I could but begin
to maintain myself--_then_, Menie!”

And Halbert remembered what followed this _then_--the breaking of that
slender golden coin, one half of which hung by Menie’s blue ribbon, was
warm against his own strong youthful breast, and the following farewell,
with its tears and smiles, and visions of reünion; and Halbert’s honest
heart beat something loudly, and he grew bold and eager--if he only
could begin.

“Halbert,” said Mossgray, gently, “your father and I did not part
friends. I thought he had not dealt truly by one whom I cherished as a
sister, and it was in consequence of that, perhaps unwisely, that I
denied myself the satisfaction of seeing another Graeme grow a man in
this old house of Mossgray; but you say truly that it is time to decide
on your future profession. Are you very impatient for this beginning?”

The kindly eye of Mossgray could not see through the warm
double-breasted waistcoat, with which the care of Mrs Monikie had
provided Halbert for his journey. The Laird had no knowledge of the
mystic half of the broken coin, nor had ever heard the musical name of
Menie. He thought therefore that this beginning was not so very
momentous, and that it might be put off for a time without any
particular disadvantage; and Halbert stammered as he answered. His
kinsman thought it was but the natural shyness of youth.

“You must let us know you better,” he continued, “and I shall qualify
myself to advise; in the mean time, Halbert, remember that you are at
_home_. You have all the beauties of your ancestral district to see, and
I promise you they are not few. While you learn to know them and us, we
shall consult on this important matter. Are you content?”

Halbert could not be otherwise than content; the grace of the old man’s
kindness charmed the young fresh spirit, and it was no penance to remain
a member of that household of Mossgray, even though the fortune was not
yet begun to make, and Menie Monikie disconsolately wandered in the
Aberdeenshire glen alone. So Halbert took possession of his father’s
former room, and wrote pleasant letters to the North--letters, on
receipt of which the pragmatical licentiate took pinches of mighty snuff
in sign of satisfaction, and declared that “the lad, Halbert, was a lad
born to a good estate, and would do credit to them all.”

But Mossgray began to behold festivities within its quiet walls; and
great was the interest and expectation among the invited guests, from
Mrs Maxwell, of Firthside, painfully selecting from her Georgina’s
abundant wardrobe, the dress which would best become her, to Mrs
Buchanan, in her little palour, deliberating long and carefully over
that one black silk gown of Helen’s. It was so very unusual, that all
were curious about the long-suspended hospitalities of Mossgray.

In the little household itself there was some degree of excitement as
they assembled in the drawing-room to await their guests. Lilias, with
her mourning dress more studied than usual, looked almost as pale as
when she first came to Mossgray, and sat in her ordinary seat, so serene
and calm in appearance, even though her pulse did own a little
acceleration, that the young joyous Halbert compared her in his fancy to
one of those fair spirits of the air, nearer humanity than angels are,
whose eyes are yet so much clearer than ours, as to unseen woes and
perils, that men always paint them sad. Yet Lilias was not sad: the
stillness of grief grown tranquil did indeed still temper all her
feelings, but there were warm and pleasant hopes no less swelling in the
even current of her mind. Only with these hopes the strangers about to
be gathered round her had little sympathy and no concern, and
involuntarily, with that quick instinct which makes us feel most
solitary in a crowd, the thoughts of Lilias had travelled far away, and
were dwelling with one who laboured alone in a strange country over the
sea.

Very different were the feelings of the young betrothed of Menie
Monikie; but if Halbert was by no means intense, he was very honest. He
had written to Menie, proclaiming his anticipated enjoyment of this same
festivity, and promising a faithful record of it, and having thus done
all that was needful for the absent, he stood before the cheerful fire
in great spirits, listening for the first sound of wheels, and
exceedingly satisfied with his position.

The Laird of Mossgray sat at some little distance from the younger
members of his family, and seemed to be busied with a book. He was not
reading however; he was observing their different looks and feelings,
and thinking of the strange conclusion which their presence in his house
put to his solitary and recluse life. Both he had determined to keep at
a distance from him; both had been shut out, by his grave and deliberate
resolution, from his presence and his affection; and yet both were here.
Secretly the old man smiled at himself, and at the trustful nature which
now was too old to learn suspicion; secretly smiled at the vanity of
those brittle barriers called resolutions, with which men stem, or try
to stem, the tide of nature--resolutions made to be broken; and in his
kindly philosophy he shook his head at his yielding self, and smiled.

The expected company began to arrive. A faint colour rose on the calm
cheek of the youthful hostess as she received them, and the young
representative of the Mossgray Graemes felt the ingenuous blood glow in
his face as eye after eye fell upon him, and acquaintance after
acquaintance was made. He felt that there was great consideration paid
him, and that, however matters might eventually be decided, it was very
clear that these dignified landed people looked upon him, Halbert
Graeme, as the heir of Mossgray.

Helen Buchanan, feeling very shy and proud, and _de trop_, sat by
herself in a corner. Near enough for her to hear every word of their
conversation, were a group of ladies, old and young, whose glances fell
upon her often, but who took no further notice of the humble guest.
Girls were among them, gay and confident--mothers, kindly and
solicitous, but all looked at her with cold, criticising eyes, and no
one said a word of courtesy, or made the slightest attempt to admit her
within their circle. They knew her very well; some had been specially
introduced to her by her friend Lilias, who was at present occupied with
other guests, yet they all suffered her to sit alone and in silence like
a Pariah, while their cheerful, animated conversation went on so near.
The proud heart swelled bitterly as she listened; for Helen had
unconsciously attached importance to this invitation, and accepted it
with a flutter of the heart. The disappointment was very painful; it
brought the melancholy of her temperament upon her: had it not been for
the bulwark of her pride, Helen, out of those downcast, indignant,
gleaming eyes, could have shed bitter tears.

Her own shy frankness, which could not rest till it had established
terms of kindly intercourse with all who came near her, and the pain it
gave herself to see any one uneasy, made her feel the slight the more.
So well it would have become one of those comely mothers to spread the
shield of their protection over the stranger--so seemly it would have
been for the well-endowed and many-friended girls beside her to have
helped her with the frank friendship of youth. Helen drew back into her
corner, and felt the pain of being alone in all its bitterness. She did
not know that the gracious courtesy of which she thought, was a thing,
like genius, born and not made--a gift in which the ignoble have no
part.

The Reverend Robert Insches was there. He hovered about the group at
Helen’s side, but he did not come near herself. She felt his desertion
also a little. The Reverend Robert would have cheered her loneliness
with all his heart, but he saw no other person who condescended to seek
the society of the plebeian schoolmistress of Fendie; and the Reverend
Robert was also by origin plebeian, and trembled for his acquired
position. So he dared not draw all eyes upon himself, by volunteering
the attention which no one else seemed inclined to give.

Lilias was fully occupied with other strangers at the opposite end of
the room. Mrs Oswald, after she had saluted Helen with a kindness
peculiarly delicate and cordial, thought it most expedient to remain at
a distance from her; and William stood watching the changes of the sad,
indignant, solitary face until he could bear the pain of the averted
look no longer. There was a slight stir in the group of ladies, and
among the attendant masculine hangers-on, as William Oswald came quietly
to Helen’s side. The Reverend Robert became envious and jealous--the
ladies looked towards the corner with suppressed whispers and
tittering--the banker watched them with the dark hue of anger on his
brow; and with no kind face anywhere, except the one by her side, whose
look she would not meet, the bitterness swelled up almost to bursting
within the heart of Helen.

Just then the Laird of Mossgray began to see how it fared with the one
guest whose presence Lilias had desired, and in his graceful old-world
courtesy he drew near to relieve her. As he passed on to Helen’s corner,
his attention was claimed at every step; but Mossgray passed through the
happier groups, smilingly parrying the attacks made upon him.

“I have something to say to Miss Buchanan.”

William Oswald silently made room for him, and the face of Helen
lightened as she met the benign smile of the gracious old man. The group
of ladies turned their eyes towards her, now with no tittering--the
Reverend Robert insinuated his tall figure into the vacant space behind
her chair, and in the distance the banker vainly resisted, as she could
perceive, the strong curiosity which turned his eyes towards her. She
was a little interested, in spite of herself, in the looks and attitudes
of William’s father, and the new animation which lighted up her face had
some pique in it. The mercurial temperament sprang up elastic and
buoyant from the depths; and the bystanders who had so long ignored her
presence, began to listen now, and to draw closer. One only moved to a
greater distance than before, and the smile of proud pleasure on his
face told well enough what feeling it was which prompted him to stand
apart and only look on.

The banker was almost tempted to draw near himself, and ascertain
whether the conversation, in which there were now various interlocutors,
but the leaders of which were certainly the old man and the humble
plebeian Helen, corresponded at all with the singularly variable face,
to which his eyes were attracted against his will; but for very shame he
could not make any advance. Mrs Oswald and Lilias were quietly
conversing beside him. He could not quite hear what they said, but he
could distinguish the frequent name of Helen; the obstinate man grew
angrily inquisitive; they were all in a conspiracy against him.

He saw Mossgray change his position; he saw Helen rise, and with some
evident shyness take the old man’s offered arm. They came towards him;
the stern banker was conscious of some excitement. He changed his
position, cleared his throat, and twisted up in his hands a roll of
engravings which lay on a small table beside him, to their entire
destruction, and the secret delight of his watching wife.

“I have brought Miss Buchanan to see our picture,” said the old man.
“Mrs Oswald, has Lilias suffered you to see the portrait, for which I
must borrow my young friend’s pleasant name--have you seen the Lily of
Mossgray?”

The banker’s eyes were fascinated to the life-like nervous figure which
stood so near him. The swift, instantaneous movements--the look which
read the remainder of Mossgray’s words before his sentence was half
spoken--the moving of the lip, which seemed to repeat them as if in
unconscious impatience of their tardiness. She was not like her father;
he could see, even in this glance--and with something of “the stern joy
which foemen feel,” he perceived it--that the irritation which killed
poor Walter Buchanan would have been but a spur to this elastic nature;
and even Mr Oswald, strongly as he held by all the proprieties, could
not but smile to think of the common-place people round him, “looking
down” upon Helen.

“I have seen no Lily at Mossgray but one,” said Mrs Oswald, “and was
just venturing to reprove _her_ for retaining her paleness so long.
Helen, I wish we could borrow some of your elasticity for Miss Maxwell.”

“That so Helen might withdraw from me the name she has given,” said
Lilias, smiling; “and Mossgray forget that I am like his favourite
flower; no, no, that will not do; but the picture--I did not think any
one would be interested in the picture: and Helen has seen it,
Mossgray?”

“Helen only saw it in its earliest sketch,” said the old man. “Come, I
must exhibit it.”

It was in a little room, which opened from the drawing-room, a very
small place, looking like a recess of the larger apartment. Mossgray led
his young companion in, followed by Mrs Oswald and Lilias. The banker
made a few steps after them, but suddenly discovering that William
watched him, he made a spasmodic halt at the door.

The little room was not brilliantly lighted, and the picture stood
leaning against the wall. Lilias had begged that it should not be hung
in its future place of honour, until after this evening. It was a very
good and truthful portrait, with a pale pure light in its colouring in
keeping with the subject. The scene was an antique turret-room in the
oldest quarter of the house of Mossgray, which had been a chamber of
dais when the old stock of the moss-trooping Graemes began to gather
riches and to desire peace. There were carvings of venerable oak about
it, and furniture of a very old date; the Laird had especially chosen
this room as the background for the portrait of Lilias.

And Lilias herself looked out from the brown tints of this still life,
with her serene looks and every-day apparel. The painter and his subject
had, both of them, too much taste to choose the vulgar, full dress,
sitting-for-a-portrait attitude. A certain visionary poetic grace and
fitness were in all the adjuncts. The contemplative, pensive look, the
serene pale face, the pure, calm, melancholy brow, were rendered with a
graceful hand; and the old man named the picture well when he called it
the Lily of Mossgray.

“But Hope would not have arranged it so,” said Helen, when she had
sufficiently admired the portrait. “Hope would have made a group instead
of that single spiritual face.”

“And drawn me with breast-plate and rusty spear,” said Lilias, “about to
set out on a foray; because my name, Mossgray, reminds Hope of the
Laird’s Jock, and his brethren of the ballad-days.”

“Nay,” said Helen, “Hope has caught the graceful spirit of the ballads
better than that; but she would have changed the scene to the old hall
of the tower, and put breast-plate and steel-jack on a brotherhood of
Graemes, and placed you, with your pensive look, in the midst, sending
them forth, sadly and bravely, not on a foray, but on a truer errand, if
it were to the Flodden that needed them. And I think almost that this
same face, with that breath of sadness about it, might have suited the
old hall well, and the armed men who were going forth, with a
peradventure that they would never return; and the Lily of Mossgray
would do honour to Hope’s fancy, if the painter had thought of her as
the Laird’s Lilias.”

As she ceased, she slightly turned her head. The banker was looking in
eagerly--looking at her. As their eyes met, both withdrew hastily; Helen
with a tingling thrill of shy pride, and Mr Oswald with a complication
of feelings difficult to describe. Strong determination not to yield,
strangely mingled with an absolute _liking_ for the girl who praised his
Hope so kindly, and to whom Hope clung with such affection. It was a
very sudden feeling, but his eyes followed her unawares, almost with
pride. William too was looking proudly after the rapid figure in the
distance. Hope, at home, was thinking proudly, that no one in Fendie or
in Edinburgh was like Helen Buchanan; and the banker, in his secret
heart, acknowledged that they were right, while again he repeated his
resolution--never!




CHAPTER XVI.

     “He’s gentle--of all sorts beloved--and indeed much in the heart of
     the world.”--AS YOU LIKE IT.


Halbert Graeme was fully bent upon obeying the injunctions of his
kinsman, and had already, thanks to his youthful strength, high spirits,
and grey pony, made considerable acquaintance with his ancestral
country. There were various good neighbours too who showed all
willingness to aid him, and the race of young gentlemen who wrote
themselves “younger of” all the castles and towers, shaws, braes, and
holms of the district, opened their ranks with all imaginable pleasure
to admit Halbert, “younger of Mossgray.” Halbert was happy in a frank
temper, and no great share of ideality. His list of acquaintance grew
like Jonah’s gourd. The fame of him went up the water and down the
water; from the county-town some fifteen miles away, to the furthest
bounds of the Scottish border, the landed community of the fair Southern
shire had heard of the new heir of the Graemes. Nor was it alone the
landed community; Halbert, like Hope Oswald, extended his friendship
beyond his own exclusive class. Robbie Carlyle, the fisherman, grasped
his bonnet when he met “the young laird” with a fervent salutation only
accorded to his favourites, and John Brown, in the excitement of a busy
market-day in the thronged Main Street of Fendie, proclaimed him: “Nane
o’ your whilliewhaws--just a real, decent lad that kens a man o’ sense
when he sees him!”

There were one or two dissentients. On a January day, Halbert, escorting
Lilias on a walk longer than was usual to her, had the evil fortune to
pass a potato field--a field which _had_ borne potatoes--where Robert
Paterson, the farmer of Whinnyside, was indolently superintending his
two ploughs. It was a small farm, and its tenant was no great
agriculturist. He “hadna just made up his mind what the crap was to be.
Some said there wasna muckle dependence to be putten on the taties,
where they had ance turned out bad--though his had been no that ill the
year--and some said the taties, noo, in thir times, paid better than the
corn--and some said naithing paid ava; for his pairt he didna ken; he
hadna made up his mind.”

Halbert was very active, and had a considerable share of the respectable
qualities called sense and prudence. So he suggested to the good man of
Whinnyside, that he was employing the most effectual means for securing
that “naething should pay ava,” a reproof which did exceedingly offend
and amaze the indignant Robert.

“He’s a bonnie ane, indeed!” said the angry farmer when Halbert had
passed on, “to gie advice to a man that might be his faither--forbye
being born on the land. I hae nae broo o’ thae keen Norlands. Ane would
think they were learnt to put this and that thegither afore they were
breekit--and the greed o’ them! considering and planning how to make the
maist o’ everything; as if there was nocht to be done in this world but
gather gear!”

But Robert Paterson was alone in his dissent--in all the district the
feeling was strong in favour of the Norland Halbert.

Halbert and Lilias were going by Mossgray’s favourite walk, up the
waterside. The two adopted children of Mossgray were very good friends;
so good friends, Mrs Mense thought, that they would quite naturally
settle down into the characters of laird and lady, and give Mossgray no
further trouble; but altogether irrespective of the broken golden coin
which hung from Halbert’s neck, and the solitary labourer in the East
who toiled for Lilias, there were other preventives of which Mrs Mense
was quite unaware. Lilias was a great deal older, graver, and more
experienced than her young squire; though there was not much difference
in positive age, but in that development and maturity of the mind which
will not be confined to years. Halbert unconsciously looked up to the
young Lilias as to his senior, and Lilias used terms of kindly
familiarity to Halbert as to an ingenuous, pleasant younger brother. It
was the best thing possible for their frank and friendly intercourse,
but entirely destructive to the hopes of Mrs Mense.

The road along the waterside was a pleasant one, though the trees were
bare, and though it ascended and descended steep braes now and then, and
there were places here and there, where the path was very nearly a
rustic stair, with interwoven roots for steps. The neighbourhood of
Fendie is the very stronghold of burns--you meet them running cheerily
through the country like hardy cottage children at every turn, and
multitudes of those fairy tributaries swell the noble dark-brown water
as it sweeps downward to the Firth. Yonder does one pour down foaming,
over the rugged bank of broken rock and gathered stones, high over which
that daring stripling birch waves its thin branches, half timorous, half
exultant; and here another, softly stealing under cover of the long
melancholy willows glides noiselessly, a gentle child, into the bosom of
the river. Another--and see how this kind alder kneels upon the mimic
headland, shadowing the little bay where its coy wavelets linger--and
yet another--with its wild headlong rush, defying those great stones,
and jostling the roots of the shrinking beech which somehow has fallen
here, and grows patiently and resigned, to its full height, a little
timid of its impetuous neighbour. But the name of these children of the
hills is legion; listen--you would fancy a school had newly “skailed,”
so full is the air of their ceaseless singing; and if you dwell among
them but a little time you will learn to know their individual voices,
and to name them by separate names as you name human children.

The water itself is broad and full, “from bank to brae,” and flows down
with a strong life in it, pleasant and hopeful to see; that ample, wide
stream, instinct with the easy unostentatious force of nature--you can
fancy, as it hastens on, that the bold current throbs, like the beating
of a strong man’s breast.

Winding yonder through the trees--here, sweeping round that soft
swelling grassy bank, and again a little further on over-arched by those
long bare, far-spreading boughs. Beyond itself there is little prospect,
for the trees on every side shut in the view, delicately revealing their
naked tracing against the sky, with heavy firs and pines keeping some
show of verdure in the skeleton wood.

But Halbert and Lilias were not thinking of views, except of those
eager, hopeful human ones, which rose so vividly before the youth’s
eyes; for Halbert was explaining his own wishes and intentions, and
craving the good counsel of the Lily of Mossgray.

“I should have very much preferred my father’s profession,” said the
young man, “and Mr Monikie told me Mossgray was willing that I should
study for the bar if I chose; but Mossgray has supported me all my life,
Lilias. I could not think of remaining a burden on him.”

“And was that your sole reason?” asked his grave and sagacious
counsellor.

The honest Halbert blushed, and smiled, and hesitated.

“Well, perhaps it would not be quite true if I said it was the sole
reason; but it certainly was an important one.”

“And the others?” inquired Lilias with a smile.

“The others? they were various; for instance, I am not by any means sure
that I have the necessary gifts--so few men can speak well in public;
and--it must always be a slow success, I fancy, the success of an
advocate; when one has a rank to maintain, and very little to maintain
it--”

Halbert looked very prudent and careful as he paused.

“And you want to succeed quickly, Halbert,” said Lilias, “and so will
choose some gainful business rather than the learned profession--is that
it?”

“To tell the truth,” said Halbert, hastily, “I am anxious to be settled
as soon as possible; to establish myself; to have a home; you understand
me, Lilias?”

Lilias looked at the youth’s glowing face and smiled.

“Did you never think you were too young, Halbert, to be the head of a
house?”

“Too young!” Halbert was half inclined to be angry. “Come, Lilias, that
is not fair; and then you know, I have no friends, no relations; I am
alone.”

Lilias became suddenly grave; but as she looked again at the young,
frank face beside her, in its flush of early manhood, another smile,
kindly and gentle, stole over her lip. To be alone--to have no
friends--the joyous Halbert with his light spirit, and honest
straightforward character, and lack of the ideal and sensitive, did by
no means understand what these words meant. He could find a Menie
Monikie everywhere, he could never be alone.

“You were not alone in Aberdeenshire,” said Lilias; “and I fancy you
will be bringing this pretty Menie to Mossgray by and by, Halbert. Is
that what being settled means?”

Halbert stammered a happy half denial, which was a confession, and
proceeded in very high spirits to ask Lilias what she thought he should
do.

“I think you should wait,” said his adviser, “till Mossgray gives you
the counsel you asked from him. You may remind him of it, Halbert, but I
think you should not press our good friend; we may have all confidence
in the kindness of Mossgray.”

Halbert fully assented. The old man had charmed all doubts from the mind
of the young one, and with a light heart and perfect content, he left
his anxieties in his kinsman’s hand.

Lilias had never ventured so far before, and now their course was
suddenly stayed by a deep cavernous burn, rumbling far down, under a
long avenue of very large saugh or willow trees. The foliage of these
was so exuberant in summer that the hoarse water below scarcely ever saw
the sun; and over it was an old dilapidated bridge--rude planks of wood,
fenced on each side by stiles, and so decayed as to seem unsafe. Halbert
parted the thick willow branches with his hand to look through; and
beyond they saw, half buried in a wilderness of trees, the roof and
gables of a house. Lilias had heard of this place so often that she knew
at once what it was.

“I am afraid this is scarcely safe for you,” said Halbert. “Shall we
have to return, Lilias? though I confess I should like to explore this
place. Does anybody live in that wilderness, I wonder.”

“I fancy it must be Murrayshaugh,” said Lilias. She spoke low; there was
something which excited her reverence in the melancholy decay and
loneliness of the old house, and the unknown fate of its owners. “Let us
go nearer, Halbert; the bridge must be safe enough.”

It was not very safe, yet it bore the light weight of Lilias, and
quivered beneath the springing bound of Halbert; they were within the
enclosure of Murrayshaugh.

The house was less irregular and less extensive than Mossgray. Its
former proprietors, in their prosperous time, had not chosen to
establish themselves on the bleak far-seeing mount, where the remains of
the ancient peel were now mouldering stone by stone: and this house,
decayed as it was, had some architectural pretensions. Its taper
spear-like turrets shot up through the bewildering maze of wood in which
it was enclosed, and the mossy terrace stretching along its front gave
some distinctness to its form below. A very narrow grass-grown path
wound past a rounded gable to some back entrance; and the former
flower-beds bordering the way bore now a scanty crop of
vegetables--except this all was perfectly neglected; but the few
cabbages and leeks, and a thin ascending breath of smoke, and a gentle
aroma of peats, told that somewhere about the solitary house there was
humanity, and its attendant spirit, the fire.

“Did you ever hear of this place, Halbert?” said Lilias, as they stood
beside the great window in the gable, looking into a large, faded,
melancholy room, which bore evident marks of care and order, solitary
and desolate though it was.

Halbert looked a little astonished.

“I have never before been at Mossgray,” he answered, “and at home--I
mean in the North--these border counties were very Antipodes to us.”

Lilias did not answer; she looked thoughtfully along the green,
melancholy terrace, thinking of Lucy Murray in her solitude, and of
Charlie Graeme the household traitor, whose honest, fresh, ingenuous son
had never heard of Murrayshaugh.

The faint sound of a lifted latch aroused her attention and she looked
round. A little old woman, with impatient, vivacious features and quick
pattering steps, came along the grass-grown path. She had heard voices
without, and had issued forth in evident wrath to avenge the intrusion
on her territory.

“Oh, mem, I beg your pardon!” she exclaimed, as she made a dead stop in
front of Lilias. “If I didna think it was Robbie Carlyle’s cuddie and
that tinkler of a callant, Peter, chasing him! but ye’ll be the young
lady of Mossgray?”

Lilias took the designation with a smile.

“This is Murrayshaugh, is it not?” she asked.

But the little woman’s eyes were so busy that she lost the question. She
was examining with singular curiosity the face of Halbert Graeme.

“This is Murrayshaugh?” repeated Lilias.

“Ay, it’s Murrayshaugh,” was the answer emphatically given, while the
speaker looked wrathfully at Halbert Graeme.

Halbert was considerably astonished; but the unconscious natural
prepossessing smile remained upon his truthful face. It was a very
honest straightforward countenance; what we call “aefauld,” in
Scotland--and the old woman gradually melted under the frank,
good-humoured smile.

“They ca’ me Eesabell Broun,” she said abruptly, “and I keep the house.
I’ve lived here a’ my days, and if ye would like to see it, I’ve nae
objections.”

“If we will not trouble you too much,” said Lilias, smiling at the
limited permission, “I shall be glad to see Murrayshaugh.”

Eesabell turned away at once, and went pattering round to a not very
elegant back door. Her visitors followed her.

“Na--na,” said the old woman, fretfully waving them back with her quick,
withered hand; “we may be puir, and puir eneugh, but there shall nae
gentle come this gate into Murrayshaugh; gae round to the ither side;
ye’ll get in by the richt door.”

It was a respectable irritation, and the two young explorers turned with
some amusement to obey. The great door of Murrayshaugh was somewhat
heavy on its rusted hinges; the opening of it taxed all the impatient
strength of Isabell Brown.

There was not much to see within; everything saleable had been removed
from those cold, dreary, uninhabited walls before the armed man, Want,
drove its last tenant from his father’s house. So much furniture as
remained was old and faded; the haughty, proud old man had studiously
displayed its poverty; he professed to disdain the mean art of making
shifts to hide it--it was the bitter art of unbending pride which left
its forlorn nakedness so visible to every eye.

But the little, quick, irascible custodier of the lonely house had been
so long used to the poverty of its scanty furniture that she was now
unconscious of it; and when she carefully dusted the high-backed chairs
of “Miss Lucy’s parlour,” and closed the shutters lest the sun should
spoil the colours of the decayed worn carpet, whose colours had been
jumbled in incoherent old age when she herself was but a child, Eesabell
Brown was perfectly sincere. She had a veneration for those solitary and
quiet inhabitants of the house in which she had lived all her days; they
were older dwellers than she; and when she thought of the “Miss Lucy”
who had been the pattern and glory of her younger days returning to
Murrayshaugh--and she did think of it constantly--it was still as Miss
Lucy--the fair, _young_ lady whom in her own girlhood she thought chief
of women. This was the romance of the little old housekeeper of
Murrayshaugh. She had known few fluctuations of fortune since the great
era of their departure; somehow or other Isabell herself had grown old;
but unchangeable as the high-backed chairs and the faded carpets seemed
Murrayshaugh and Miss Lucy--and they would return.

“My mother was housekeeper when the Laird and Miss Lucy gaed to foreign
pairts,” she said to Lilias. “Ye’ll have heard o’ Miss Lucy?--ay, but I
question if ye ever saw the like o’ her. Wasna auld Greenshaw your
grandfather? I thocht that. Weel, Miss Lucy gaed herself, ance errant,
to see your mother, to please Mossgray.”

Isabell said this with great importance; but Lilias was not overawed,
though her face was very grave.

“There’s no a young lady atween this and her, wherever she be,”
continued the old woman with vehemence, “that it wadna be an honour to
even to Miss Lucy, though them that should have kent, didna ken.”

A quick indignant glance at the young man accompanied this speech; but
the glance of Isabell’s wrath was harmless lightning to the unconscious
Halbert.

“Me and my sister Jean were brought up here,” said Isabell, more calmly,
“and she was married upon a cousin o’ our ain:--maybe ye ken John Broun
that’s at the Mount--that’s Jean’s son.”

“He is my earliest acquaintance in Fendie,” said Halbert,
good-humouredly, “and an honest fellow he is; but why do they leave you
alone here?”

“My lane!” said Isabell; “am I no housekeeper? and us disna ken the day
that Murrayshaugh may come hame!”

Lilias checked Halbert with her lifted hand; the old woman’s delusion
was sacred.

They had entered “Miss Lucy’s parlour,” and were looking at some
pictures on the wall. Before the first of these, that of a young man in
an antique dress, evidently an old family portrait, Lilias paused with a
sudden start. There was a vivid colour and surprised animation on her
face, such as Halbert had never seen her have before, and the tone of
her voice struck him as she turned to ask about the picture--low, full,
and musical, as if the heart throbbed through it more warmly than was
its wont.

“It’s ane o’ the auld Murrays--I dinna mind his name,” said Isabell;
“but Miss Lucy had a conceit that it was like Mr Hew. They were a’ like
ither; the same face came down, like the name, frae faither to son. That
ane was a Hew too, I dinna doubt; it’s a guid name; they maun a’ have
been fond o’t.”

“Hew,” repeated Lilias, slowly, as if she too loved to linger on the
sound; “Hew--yes, it is a pleasant name.”

And she turned again with lingering looks and smiles of strange pleasure
to the picture as she left the room. Halbert smiled too in wonder. He
hardly could fancy an appropriate cause for such emotion in the wise,
grave Lilias; and there was no such magic in any picture there for him.




CHAPTER XVII.

     “He thinks well of himself, Sir--we all do it; and he thinks well
     of his fortune--happy he who can! and if myself am well, and my
     fortune is well, who shall resist me?”--OLD PLAY.


The Manse of Fendie was a good-sized, substantial house, situated at the
rural end of the Main Street, with very tolerable grounds about it, and
a well-stocked, extensive garden behind. Within, there were three good
sitting-rooms--dining-room, drawing-room, and library, as the Reverend
Robert Insches was pleased to call them. His predecessor had been a man
of good family and small pretensions. In his time the library was only a
study, and the drawing-room a family parlour; but the Reverend Robert
had changed all that.

The furniture was all new, as it was natural that the furniture of a
young man’s house should be, but it had a brassy look not very agreeable
to the eye. The chairs stood so stiffly in their grim gentility, the
carpets were so spotless, the tables so bright, that you felt afraid to
disturb their solemn repose by presuming to make them serve the purposes
of ordinary life; but if a stranger feared them, tenfold was the dread
with which their dignified stillness impressed Miss Insches, the little,
fat, roundabout sister of the Reverend Robert. With awe and reverence,
she herself with her own plump hands dusted the sacred drawing-room;
with fear for her own presumption, gingerly sat on the extreme edge of
one of those wonderful rosewood chairs, when the drawing-room on solemn
occasions was used. The Reverend Robert angrily lectured her for this
foible; it was in vain. Miss Insches could not be otherwise than
reverential of “the grand furniture.”

The library was the smaller room of the three. You could not have
guessed it was a library, had not the minister’s sister been at pains to
inform you. There was a small bookcase in it, veiled with curtains
within the glass doors, and a study table; in the reign of the last
minister it had been overflowing in all its corners with books--at
present it was much too trimly arranged for that. The room had to do
double duty; it was parlour as well as study. There Miss Insches sat,
holding in her breath on the Fridays and Saturdays lest she should
disturb Robert at his preparations; and there in the earlier days of the
week, when Robert had no sermons to write, the elderly, worshipping
sister, and the young idol brother, were very comfortable together. The
young man was a genius in his way, and preached as no one had preached
in Fendie for long years before. Save for the one weakness of making a
hobby of his “position,” indeed he had good sense and good feeling as
well as talent, and promised to be noticeable in his generation. Only
the sudden change from the hard student life and cares of poverty, to
the good stipend and much-prized “station” of Fendie, had a little
dazzled the eyes of the Reverend Robert, and, like other young men, he
rode his hobby hard and furiously.

At the fireside in the “library” his sister and he sat together; there
was some consternation in the plump, good-humoured face of Miss Insches.
She was evidently bewildered--“a party!”

“You know, Janet, I don’t by any means intend a formal, large party,”
said the Reverend Robert, who had been for the last ten minutes vainly
endeavouring to convey a less magnificent idea of his intention to his
sister’s perplexed mind. “A few friends merely--a few of your own
friends--it is necessary, you know, that we should not show ourselves
unsocial.”

“My own friends?” Miss Insches was rather obtuse. “There’s the provost’s
wife, and there’s Miss Rechie Sinclair, and Mrs Irving of
Friarsford--is’t them you’re meaning, Robert?”

Robert was impatient.

“I am sure, Janet, you can have no pleasure in the company of a vulgar
person like Mrs Irving--and the provost’s wife--I don’t like her, you
know;--and Miss Rechie--well, she’s a good little woman--but she would
be quite out of place in my drawing-room, surely.”

Miss Insches looked awed and reverential. It was very true that these
plebeian personages would not at all suit the Reverend Robert’s
dignified drawing-room, of which she herself was only a tenant at will,
liable to be ejected whenever it should please its lord and master to
bring home a wife.

“And our Robert’s a fine-looking lad, as well as a clever,” said Miss
Insches under her breath; “he might marry onybody he likit.”

“Maybe it would be best to tell me, Robert,” she said aloud, humbly,
“what folk you were thinking to ask--and then I would ken.”

“Well, Janet,” said the minister graciously, “there’s Mr Halbert Graeme
and Miss Maxwell of Mossgray.”

Miss Insches lifted up her hands in the extremity of her astonishment.

“The young lady of Mossgray!”

“Why not?” exclaimed the Reverend Robert, indignantly impatient. “I am
astonished, Janet;--you forget my position--you forget--”

“No me, Robert--no me,” ejaculated his penitent sister.

“And I suppose we must have some of the brethren,” continued Robert,
after a pause. “There’s Mr Wright of the _quoad sacra_ at Fairholm; but
then we could not ask him without his wife, and she--you know he made a
very foolish marriage.”

“Ay,” responded Miss Insches promptly; “he married Willie Tasker the
joiner’s daughter, at Todholes, a bonnie-like wife for a minister. Weel,
Robert, maybe I am not proud enough, but I would have you marry naebody
but a lady.”

The Reverend Robert blushed a little.

“Do you know, Janet, little Hope Oswald has a theory that ladies are not
made but born--not what you call well-born however; suppose we call on
Mrs Wright and see what sort of a person she is. Wright has been very
foolish, no doubt, but if we can consistently notice him, we should--”
Mr Insches drew himself up, and thought of Mossgray’s graceful courtesy
to the solitary Helen.

Miss Insches was decidedly repugnant--she had no toleration for the
_mésalliances_ of ministers.

“And there is Paulus Whyte,” continued the Reverend Robert. “He is to
preach for me on the fast day, so we can have it the night before; and,
by the by, Janet, there is a young lady in Fendie, a great friend of
Miss Maxwell’s. What is her name again? Buchanan, yes, Buchanan--you
must ask her.”

“You’re no meaning the schoolmistress?” said Miss Insches.

The Reverend Robert faltered a little--only a little--he was reässured
by remembering the kindly attentions of Mossgray.

“Yes, I believe she does keep a school; but she is very intimate with
Miss Maxwell--you must ask her.”

“Weel,” said Miss Insches, with some astonishment, “I am sure I dinna
object; but to you to ask the schoolmistress among thae big folk,
Robert! and maybe she’ll no like to come--she’s but young, puir
thing--when the maister of the house is a young man.”

“Oh,” said the minister, with a hasty blush, “she will never think of
me. You must ask her to meet Miss Maxwell.”

Miss Insches looked somewhat suspicious; she did not understand this;
besides, she had heard her brother speak of Helen before, and now he
hesitated at her name as if he did not recollect it. “I dinna ken what
Robert means,” she muttered to herself as he left the room. “I am sure
he kens the lassie well enough; what for could he no mind her name?
Weel, to be sure, he’s the minister--but if he were ony ither man, I
would hae my ain thoughts about it.”

And her ain thoughts Miss Insches had, minister though her brother was;
but the will of Robert was not to be contested, so his suspicious sister
prepared herself for obedience.

A still further test of obedience he required from her that very
afternoon: but then, too, Robert conquered, and they set out together to
call on the new Mrs Wright of the Fairholm chapel of ease.

The Reverend Simon Wright was, like the Reverend Robert Insches, of
plebeian origin, but, unlike his younger, more graceful, and more
talented neighbour, he was by no means adapted for the profession of
gentleman. He too had a sort of sluggish, heavy ambition, though it had
not reached the altitude of Robert’s; but his marriage had sentenced him
hopelessly to his original standing. It was barely possible that he
might have struggled upward alone, but there was no elevating the dead
weight of his wife. For himself he had a ponderous unserviceable mind,
not without a certain power, and after his own fashion could preach good
sermons sometimes; but generally the man was an incapable man, slow to
perceive, and helpless to take advantage of his opportunities. Willie
Tasker, the joiner, had given him lodgings for a month or two, while his
staring, red, box-like manse was being built, and the result was that
Willie Tasker’s daughter became the minister’s wife.

To the immense indignation of his neighbours and people all and sundry,
who felt in the degradation of their minister a personal injury, and who
having expressed their disapprobation of the courtship by various very
decided demonstrations, were now keeping aloof, and refusing to notice
the new wife. Still more indignant were the wives of “the brethren” in
the vicinity, at this intruder into their ranks. They, all of them,
discovered suddenly that without a conveyance it was impossible to pay
visits; and “we do not keep a conveyance.” The inference was
unmistakeable; it was not in their power to call on Mrs Wright.

Miss Insches fully shared in the general indignation, but she was not
without curiosity; so with proper condescension, and as a duty, she
agreed to accompany her brother.

The best room of the Fairholm Manse had two windows; it stood rather
high, and was approached by a road which one of these windows commanded,
so as very conveniently to warn the inhabitants of the rare advent of
visitors. As they opened the gate, a sturdy maid servant stared at them
for a moment--answered Mr Insches in the affirmative, when he inquired
if her mistress was at home, and precipitately fled to the back door,
leaving the visitors to find the more dignified entrance at their
leisure. They had to pass the windows of the “best room;” within,
sitting as gingerly as ever Miss Insches sat, in a parlour by no means
so fine as the sacred drawing-room, they had a first glimpse of the
bride. She saw them looking for the door in some confusion, but she sat
bolt upright in her new dignity, with her hands crossed in her lap, and
her eyes fixed upon the opposite wall, and made no sign.

“The woman’s daft,” muttered Miss Insches, “could she no let folk in?
Mrs Whyte, that’s a lady born, is no ower grand to open the door.”

The Reverend Robert laughed, not without some secret shame; it was a
good lesson, and did him service. He began to see the vulgarity of this
assumption; his own natural taste had kept himself within bounds,
anxious as he was to maintain the decorums which he fancied necessary to
his “position;” but this was sufficiently ludicrous to make him ashamed
of the stiff gentility to which he had been endeavouring to train his
good-humoured sister. His heavy brother of Fairholm was labouring to
_make_ his wife a lady--a very impossible process, as her appearance
showed.

She had a soft large face, a drooping head, a tall, gawky person--and
when the handsome Mr Insches and his cheerful sister seated themselves
beside her, she giggled. Miss Insches talked, and so did the Reverend
Robert: the bride answered by a hysteric titter. It was her sole
accomplishment. She had by no means a gift for conversation, but she
could giggle to perfection.

Mr Wright came to the rescue, in his own person, and by means of
ecclesiastical subjects a long half hour was spent; but Robert made no
mention of the intended party. He was by no means proud of having made
acquaintance with the bride.

“Robert,” said Miss Insches solemnly, as they left the house, “whatever
ye do, dinna gang and break our hearts with a gawky like yon. I’m no
caring for siller; but man, Robert, if ye canna get a lady, dinna take
up with a fule!”

The Reverend Robert smiled--pleasantly before his eyes glided the
graceful nervous figure, with its swift motions, and springing step, and
eloquent face. Secretly in his own mind he did at that moment elect the
poor schoolmistress to the honourable vacant seat at the head of his
dignified table. It was true she was poor, and had for years laboured to
earn her own bread; but Helen Buchanan was a gentlewoman born!

In the meantime Helen Buchanan remained perfectly unconscious of her
election. Mr Insches, his good qualities, and his indifferent ones, had
passed from her mind altogether. She was not even angry at his desertion
of her, during the earlier part of that Mossgray party, and met him the
next time she saw him after it with a quite unclouded face. If William
Oswald had been the offender, the offence would have ruffled in a very
different way the memory of Helen. It was a bad omen for the Reverend
Robert.

And William Oswald was gone. He had established himself now, a permanent
inhabitant of Edinburgh, practising his profession as it pleased the
public to give him opportunity; and the public was not unpropitious. His
father had many connections in other little towns like Fendie, and
Fendie itself was respectably litigious. William Oswald was pronounced
“a rising young man,” “a sagacious lad,” by voices of authority in the
sacred precincts of the Parliament House. His prospects were fair and
prosperous--the banker began to be proud of his thriving son.

And William began to be heard of in other spheres than the Parliament
House. In the Scottish capital as in the English, stout hearts were
banding themselves for a holy war, a new Crusade. Against the physical
evils which debase the poor, against giant sins which have their
absolute dominions mapped out in every city; for wise men began to see
how poverty and wretchedness, iniquity and pollution, press forward upon
the mere barrier of defence set up to oppose their progress, and
steadily make a way. So one here and there, stung to the heart with one
particular evil, and yearning over the masses of unregarded poor, had
snatched a flaming brand out of the slow consuming fire, and holding it
up above his head, in earnestness almost wild, had begged and prayed his
fellows to look upon the ghastly sight below. Little perishing outcast
children, trained, as one could fancy, by malignant spirits only, to
breathe in crime like daily air. Strong men sinking--sinking--into woe
and misery ineffable, binding themselves with those green withes of
customary sin, which by and by should harden into chains of iron. Women,
woe of woes, lost without hope. And good men had united themselves in an
aggressive war, to go forth against all the powers of darkness--not
simply to defend, but to invade and rout and conquer, holding no terms
or parley with the might of sin.

The fluttering flush came and went over Helen’s cheek, as she read
eagerly the doings of this new chivalry of Scotland. Her breast
swelled--her heart beat. William was among them, bearing arms like a
true man.

The Reverend Robert had no chance against this: the young man had
strayed further from the East than he need have done, and though
performing his ministerial work well and conscientiously, did by no
means project his very heart into it, or live for it as his chief end.
He also was a good man and a Christian; but from his life you would have
fancied that the ardent rejoicing might of labour, which insures success
in any other profession, was misplaced in his--that the work of all
others in which every moment is solemn and weighty, was the one work
which should be done in deliberate calmness--for he was not aggressive.
He lamented over existing evils, but he did not bravely and at once
attack them. He was content to be a matter-of-course minister--as good
as his neighbours, moving along in a sort of mechanical respectable way.
He was not yet roused to feel himself standing alone, with God his
master over him, and the whole world lying in wickedness--to be saved.




CHAPTER XVIII.

     “I am bid forth to supper.”--MERCHANT OF VENICE.


It was the evening of Miss Insches’ party, and two of her guests were
already comfortably established in the sacred drawing-room. Next day was
the fast day in Fendie, and the Reverend Paulus Whyte was to preach. Mr
Insches was rather a favourite with Mrs Whyte. She had been persuaded to
accompany her husband, and was to remain all night at the Manse.

Mr Whyte was seated in an easy chair, talking in a low, gentle, pleasant
voice to the very attentive Miss Insches. He was a little man, with
courteous, graceful manners, and a very mild, engaging face. No tongue,
however slanderous, could find matter of accusation against Paulus
Whyte; friend and foe alike did unconscious homage to the pure,
unselfish spirit which dwelt among them in its peaceful mildness--a
visible citizen of heaven. He was one of those few men whose especial
gift seems holiness; you heard all classes, the religious and the
profane, do reverence to the distinguishing quality of the gentle
minister. He was a holy man.

He had one weakness--a failing incident to his guileless, benevolent
nature. He was a little too apt to write biographies of very good little
boys, who died at eight or nine in the odour of sanctity, and little
girls who, at a like age, were experienced in all the difficulties and
temptations of the spiritual life. On the counters of religious
booksellers you were continually picking up little books in coloured
covers, memorials of the last small pious Jane or William who had died
within the good minister’s ken. In the simplicity of his own gentle
nature, he received all the traits of childish goodness, which weeping
mothers and aunts told him when their first grief began to soften; and
rejoicing in “the holiness of youth,” recorded the little incidents of
those young lives for the edification of all. They were not always to
edification; but the good man fervently believed them so, and in his own
devout heart gave thanks joyfully for the youthful angels of whom he had
registered so many. There were some who smiled at the weakness, and some
who sneered at its fruits; but few men sneered at Paulus Whyte. His
garments were too spotless--his serene life too pure for any reproaches
of the adversary.

His wife was a vivacious, lively, cheerful person, pleasantly
patronizing to all youthful people. She liked young society, and she
liked to take such as suited her under her wing, and bring them forward,
and encourage them by all kindly means. She was chatting in her own
cheerful, sprightly way, with Robert Insches, who held a high place in
her favour. She was bent at present on providing him with that
indispensable equipment for all young ministers--a wife--and had plans
of her own on the subject, of which Robert had a considerable guess; but
Robert conquered himself, had full confidence in the fascination of
Helen, and felt sure of the ultimate approval of Mrs Whyte.

The first arrival was a sister of Mrs Whyte’s, a widow lady resident at
Fendie. She was a querulous person, constitutionally inclined to look at
the dark side of everything, a perfect contrast to the happier temper of
her sister, but withal not destitute of a kindred kindliness. Only the
youthful people patronized by Mrs Gray, were sedulously tutored into a
melancholy certainty of the inevitable miseries of the world. She tried,
good gloomy woman, to charge the natural atmosphere of hope with the
vapoury fears in which she herself found a certain sombre satisfaction,
and now and then she was temporarily successful.

The drawing-room was not very much crowded. Besides these, there were
only Lilias, Halbert, Helen, and the banker Oswald and his wife.

The last two were invited by Mr Insches for some unexplained reason.
They were certainly his very good friends, but that was not the cause;
he had many good friends in Fendie quite as eligible; but the Reverend
Robert had once or twice encountered William in the immediate vicinity
of Mrs Buchanan’s house, and had an idea that his rival, like himself,
was kept back by scruples of pride, or by consideration of what “the
world” would say. Consequently, William’s parents were invited to-night
to show them that the step was taken, that the dignified youthful
minister had made up his mind, and that Helen was about to be elevated
to the lofty position of Mistress of the Manse.

Helen herself, who had come with some reluctance, felt already
uncomfortably hampered by her host’s attentions; there was a slight
ostentation in them--a certain consciousness of derogation on his own
part, and fear for her, lest the exaltation should dazzle her. Helen
kept closely by the side of Lilias, amused, afraid, and suspecting some
design upon her.

Mrs Oswald seated herself beside the young friends. The banker kept
apart, struggling very vainly against the curiosity which turned his
eyes towards this group; he began to feel an interest in watching the
colour fluctuate and change on Helen’s cheek, and to understand the
half-suppressed, impatient motion and altered attitude, which testified
some annoyance under those elaborate courtesies of Robert Insches. Mr
Oswald was sadly inconsistent; he had a certain satisfaction in
perceiving that these courtesies did not seem particularly acceptable to
Helen.

“My dear,” said the plaintive Mrs Gray, addressing Lilias, “I am glad to
see you looking so much stronger: but perhaps you are flushed--just a
little flushed to-night; you must be very careful as you go home that
you don’t take cold.”

“I heard Mrs Mense making a great provision of cloaks for my
home-going,” said Lilias, smiling; “they are too careful of me, Mrs
Gray. I shall not take cold if my good friends can guard me from it.”

“Well,” said Mrs Gray, “this is a strange world; you will see trouble
coming often to those who are most carefully guarded, while others who
can use no precautions escape it altogether. Ay, Miss Insches, you may
well shake your head; I have seen such things myself.”

Miss Insches had indeed shaken her head sympathetically, because the
good-humoured little woman thought some assent was necessary; but on
being thus involved as an interlocutor, she looked very guilty and
confused, and was by no means sure whether she should have done it or
no.

“But why speak of it so drearily, Agnes?” said Mr Whyte, who, mild man
as he was, gave his sister-in-law’s doleful moods no quarter. “I can see
cause for nothing but thankfulness in that. That Providence specially
cares for those who cannot care for themselves; it is positive sunshine
to think of it.”

“Ay,” said Mrs Gray, mournfully, “the minister and I always take
different views; but you’ll allow, Paulus, what the Bible says its very
self of this weary world. A vale of tears--a shadow that fleeth
away--the valley of the shadow of death.”

“My dear Agnes,” said the vivacious Mrs Whyte, with some impatience, “I
wish you would quote the chapter and verse, for I really have no
recollection of the vale of tears in Scripture.”

“Elizabeth,” answered Mrs Gray, with solemnity, “the dark day has not
fallen upon you yet, and I hope it may be long deferred; but it is a
heavy life. The very best of it is just a succession of work and
fatigue, waking and sleeping, weariness and rest. I see you agree with
me, Mr Oswald. We are in a miserable world, and the sooner we are done
with it the better for ourselves.”

The banker, thus appealed to, looked as much amazed as Miss Insches; he
did by no means agree with Mrs Gray, but he was somewhat slow of speech,
and could not manage to express his sentiments. There was a certain
orthodoxy too in this view of the matter; so the honest man hesitated
and looked confused, and not knowing what to say, finally said nothing.

“And Miss Buchanan, my dear,” said Mrs Gray, with an affectionate
sadness, “I see I have you on my side.”

“Oh no, no, no,” said Helen eagerly, in the tremulous low voice which
she always spoke in, when she was greatly moved; a voice, more than half
reverie, broken now and then abruptly by a consciousness of being
listened to.

“No?”

“There is nothing miserable in it,” said Helen, forgetting herself, and
speaking rapidly, and so low that the banker needed to bend forward
before he could hear; “nothing but what we _make_; I think the words
should be noble and grand rather, in all its light and all its gloom. It
is very dark sometimes. I know there are eclipses and thunderclouds; but
not miserable--no, no. It does not become us--surely it does not become
us to make its changes matters of sadness; for the labour’s sake it is
good to rest, and the labour itself--I think sometimes that if we had no
other blessing, _that_ would be great enough to rejoice in all our
days--to have work to do under the sunshine of heaven--work for the
Master--the King! I do not know; I think there is no grief that can
match the joy of this.”

The nervous small fingers were clasped together, the unquiet face
looking into the vacant air with shining, abstracted eyes, the head
erected in eager enthusiasm; and bending forward as if to a magnet, the
banker Oswald looked on.

Lilias Maxwell laid her hand gently on Helen’s clasped fingers. There
was an instantaneous change: the erect head fell into its ordinary
stoop, the eyes were cast down, the figure shrank back shy and
trembling, and Mr Oswald drew a long breath, and threw himself back in
his chair, as the Reverend Robert brought down the tone of the
conversation to the common-place and prosaic, by saying, with some
emphasis,--

“I perfectly agree with Miss Buchanan.”

Mrs Gray had been somewhat startled. Mr Insches set her right again. She
shook her head.

“Ah, young people, young people; it is quite natural, no doubt; but you
don’t know--you will find it out only too soon.”

Mr Whyte rose from his chair with some displeasure, and lifted his fine
hand in admonition.

“Rejoice in the Lord alway, and again I say unto you rejoice.”

The animation of his words lighted up his gentle face; not alone in the
sunshine and in the fair earth, but in the Lord with whom was the
wonderful “fellowship” of the holy man. It was meet that there should be
gladness in all his peaceful life, for this was its charm and spell.

Mrs Whyte changed her seat. She took the chair which Mrs Gray left
vacant beside Lilias and Helen, to the great contentment of the Reverend
Robert.

“I warn you, young ladies, against my sister,” said Mrs Whyte,
cheerfully. “Agnes has had a great deal of grief herself, and she thinks
it is the common lot, and is anxious to prepare others for all that
befell her. She means it very kindly, though I think she is mistaken;
but, Miss Maxwell, you must not adopt these melancholy views of hers--it
is quite soon enough to be sorrowful when sorrow comes.”

“You warn _me_, Mrs Whyte,” said Lilias, smiling. “Have you no fear for
Helen?”

“No, Miss Buchanan has quite reässured me,” said Mrs Whyte; “and I am
not sure that I should at any time have feared for her so much as for
you. Is not Mossgray very quiet--shall I say dull? We have an idea that
your guardian is a melancholy man, Miss Maxwell.”

“No, indeed, no,” said Lilias. “He likes to be alone, and is a
thoughtful man, but Mossgray is not melancholy--if melancholy means
anything like unhappiness. He may be pensive as the stars are--but not
sad--never gloomy. You think so, Helen?”

Helen assented in a single word, for she had been led into saying far
more than she intended before, and was considerably ashamed and
embarrassed now; especially as the Reverend Robert was drawing up his
stately figure close beside her, and Mrs Whyte looked interested and
curious.

“You must come to the Manse and see me, Miss Buchanan,” said Mrs Whyte,
“when the days are longer. I shall expect you often, mind, and we are
really rather attractive people; besides myself, you know, there is
Paulus, whom everybody has a kindness for, and two treasures of bairns.
You will like Paulus,” continued the minister’s wife, glancing at him
with a kindly smile, as he sat talking to Mrs Oswald: “and Paulus would
say, I think, that you were not likely to cast out with me, and of
course there can be but one opinion about the bairns. I shall expect
you, Miss Buchanan, and I shall expect Miss Maxwell. It is not a very
long walk, and you will do me a kindness if you come.”

The words were easily said, and it was very true that two such guests as
Lilias and Helen would most pleasantly relieve the quietness of the
Manse of Kirkmay; but they made the heart of the young schoolmistress
glad. The delicate perception which gave this special invitation to
_her_ rather than to the well-friended Lilias--the true friendliness and
appreciation which could venture to praise to her its own especial
household. It is surely true that _words_ will rise up hereafter in
judgment against us: so well and gracefully as we might heal and cheer
and encourage with these magic utterances; so often as we make them
poisoned arrows, to pierce, and kill, and wound.

“And I am sure,” said Miss Insches, who had been listening with great
edification, “it would be a real charity if you would call whiles on me.
I might maybe no presume on asking Miss Maxwell, because she’s a gey bit
from the town, besides being delicate; but as you’re so near hand, Miss
Buchanan, it wouldna be much trouble, and I would take it real kind. I’m
sure Robert never wearies speaking about you, and he would be as glad as
me: for ye see--Eh, is that you Robert? Was you wanting me?”

Robert had secretly, in vehement shame and anger, pulled his indiscreet
sister’s sleeve, and the result was, that the innocent Miss Insches
turned suddenly round upon him, and revealed the artifice he had used to
stay her disclosures. The Reverend Robert blushed to the very hair.
Helen shrank back, shyly conscious. Mrs Whyte cast wicked, intelligent
glances at the minister, and Miss Insches, seeing that something was
wrong, and that she had blundered, looked about her in bewildered
penitence.

“Eh, Robert,” she repeated under her breath, “is’t me?”

The Reverend Robert was too much annoyed to laugh, but Mrs Whyte did, as
she came to the rescue.

“I think when Paulus has his duty over to-morrow, that you and I must
make some calls, Mr Insches. Miss Buchanan, will you introduce me to
your mother; and may I venture, Miss Maxwell, to come as far as
Mossgray?”

Lilias answered for both. Miss Insches’ last master-stroke had entirely
silenced Helen.

Halbert all this time had been alone, or nearly so, and now Lilias
perceived him at the other end of the room, patiently listening to Mrs
Gray; so there was a general movement to rescue him. Halbert had felt
rather _de trop_ this evening; he was almost inclined to chime in at
first with the lamentations of the mournful lady; and it was a relief to
all parties when Mr Insches changed places with the young heir of
Mossgray.




CHAPTER XIX.

    Through the earth there runs a sound
      Music of green nooks and hills,
    For Spring, soft-handed, frees the bound
      Rivers and sweet rills;
    Trickling, singing, from the fountains,
    All day long they cheer the mountains.

    So the warm streams of the heart
      Sometimes ’neath the ice grow chill,
    Till the Spring with kindly art
      Wakes the sleeping rill,
    And like the brooks, old loves, new flowing,
    Stir all fair things to happier growing.


The spring sunshine began to dawn on the waiting world again. The gentle
days prolonged themselves, lingering out in long, soft, poetic
twilights. Lilias Maxwell had been nearly a year at Mossgray.

And Halbert Graeme began to feel himself in great want of some outlet
for his young activity. He said little now about the momentous matter
which had brought him to Mossgray, and though he did sometimes complain
in his letters to the North that the fortune which it was so very
necessary to make was as far in the distance as ever, and that there
seemed no prospect of being able to reach even the beginning, Halbert
was by no means discontented; this genial country life was natural to
him: he only wanted something to do; and after a considerable agitation
he attained to that. Mossgray graciously permitted himself to be made an
experimental farmer, and with great glee Halbert plunged into the
desired labour.

“Nae fears,” said the sagacious Saunders Delvie, Mossgray’s man, as Mrs
Mense expressed her fears to him, that the strength of “the young Laird”
might be taxed too greatly; “it’s naething but a maggot. I’ll just gie
him till he wearies; when he’s dune out, he can aye rest when he likes,
and that’s mair than ye can say for mony a hard-working man. Gie him the
length o’ his tether; _he’ll_ tire sooner than anybody else.”

“Ay, but Mr Halbert’s an active lad,” said the housekeeper; “and so was
his father before him; if the tane had but been as innocent as the
tither; but ane canna mend what’s past.”

A frown came darkly over the face of Mossgray’s man.

“Ye say weel, neighbour; but an folk canna mend their ill deeds they
maun tak the penalty. If it’s but in this world it’s weel for themsels,
and if it’s in another pairt than this, it’s a’ the mair just and
righteous.”

“Oh, Saunders Delvie,” exclaimed Janet Mense, “ye’re a hard man!”

“Maister Charlie Graeme did sair ill to this house,” said Mrs Mense
emphatically, “and meant mair than he could do--but for a’ that, look at
the Laird, Saunders, and learn by him. Is he no making this lad like a
son o’ Mossgray? is he no doing a’ that the kindest father could do for
him? but no to speak o’ the Laird, Saunders, there’s mysel. I likit Miss
Lucy Murray weel, and there was never ane but likit Mr Adam; and baith
o’ them did that lad’s faither do his warst to bring to misery. I am a
lone woman, and have nae bairns o’ my ain; but the time my heart was
warmest and fullest, thae young folk--though they were gentles, and no
like me, were gaun and coming about the house, and I thought mair o’
them than ever I did o’ mysel. But for a’ the ill he did to
them--Saunders, I mind that we need mercy oursels every day, and I can
say, Charlie Graeme, I forgive ye.”

“Ay,” said Saunders Delvie sternly, “but he didna dishonour the honest
name that your forbears and you had laboured in puirtith and hard toil
to keep free of offence in the sight of God and man. He wasna that near
to you, that his shame should be yours to bear, the very time that your
ain misery for his sin was rugging at your heart; ye dinna ken--and I
seek nocht but to bear my ain burden out of the sicht of man.”

His bushy gray eyebrows twitched--his face was moved; this man too had a
history.

“Eh, but Saunders, man!” continued the good old housekeeper with some
timidity, “it’s no like you--I’m meaning it’s no like what we should do
to be so hard on the puir lad; mind how young he was; and for a’ that he
did ance ill, mind that he’s your ain.”

“I mind,” said Saunders emphatically, while a sudden yearning seemed to
contend on his harsh face with the stern condemnation of justice;
“woman, ye dinna ken! If he had been less to me--ay, if he _was_ less to
me now, think ye I wad have done what I have done. It’s nae use
speaking; do I no see the tears in the wife’s auld e’en morning and
nicht? do I no ken wha she’s aye thinking o’ and yearning ower like a
weak woman as she is? but I say he shall never cross again the door of
the honest house he has brought shame upon--never!”

There was a stern fire in the old man’s eye, and he went hastily out to
his work as if he felt ashamed of having been drawn into this revelation
of his household grief. He was, naturally, a man with very strong and
passionate feelings, and one of those harsh and powerful minds, which at
any cost of misery to themselves will cling to their severe and abstract
conceptions of justice. His only child, a youth of some promise in their
humble sphere, had fallen a few years before into the brutalizing
practices of rural vice. He had formed discreditable connections,
involved himself in the worst company that Fendie could afford, and to
crown all his offences, had finally, in a moment of temptation, stolen
some trifling sum from his master. Saunders and his wife were in the
sober meridian of life when they married, and this lad Peter was the son
of their old age, the secret idol of the old man’s vehement heart. But
no one knew the might of love which the somewhat stern father lavished
upon the son; and when his criminal folly came to its climax, the
mother, the neighbours, the injured master himself, stood aside with awe
while Saunders repudiated and disowned the unhappy culprit. _They_
called him harsh and cruel; but the guilty youth himself, even while he
trembled under his father’s sentence, discovered for the first time the
strong love which in its agony banished him from its home and presence.
A kindred strength awoke in the son’s undisciplined spirit. Seeing how
bitterly the hopes set on his head had been disappointed, in bitter
repentance he turned from the closed door, eager to leave the place of
his early sins, and in some strange unknown country to conquer, by the
help of God, himself and his fate. For two long years now he had been
absent--where his father did not know, nor would inquire; and still in
the bitterness of the strong love which burned within him, the old man
repudiated the prodigal.

Mossgray and his ward were together in the garden: Saunders hastily
avoided them, and went to work alone, where no one could see the stern
swelling of his heart. It was the great fault of Saunders’ own class,
that they were obtuse to notice and slow to punish those sins of youth,
so fatal to all goodness, which the world is content to call follies.
Saunders himself was harshly pure and just; he thought it was something
of this moral blindness, so common among his humble neighbours, which
made Mossgray receive so kindly the son of Charlie Graeme.

Lilias was leaning on her guardian’s arm; they were going to the
water-side.

“Halbert will make us rich, Lilias,” said Mossgray; “I am glad the lad
likes work; but I fancy we must come to some decision about him; let me
hear what you advise.”

“You suffered me to speak of Halbert once before, Mossgray,” said
Lilias, “while he was as much a stranger to you as to me.”

“Yes, I remember I did,” said the old man, smiling, “and you were very
foolishly generous as youthful people are. Must I fall back on my memory
for the arguments you used then, Lilias? have you nothing new to
advance: are your opinions still the same?”

“I have nothing new to advance save the good qualities which now you
know, Mossgray,” said Lilias, returning the smile. “Halbert himself--so
frank and simple and manly; there could be no better representative of
the old Graemes.”

The old man shook his head.

“You are a special pleader, Lilias; you want to rouse what family pride
may be in me. Well, granting that Halbert is all you say--manly and
frank and simple--and he is so: I acknowledge that my old friend
Monikie, and the good healthful atmosphere of the North, have done
credit to themselves in their pupil--what then? does it follow that
Halbert must get my land; must be my heir--my heir--is he like my heir,
Lilias?”

“You could not have an heir like yourself, Mossgray,” said Lilias. “I
think you must be alone, and have no successor to rival you; for nature
does not seem to do it. Nature only makes one in a race here and there
who would take up orphans like Halbert and me, and set us in families,
under the shelter of his kindness--therefore you will have no heir,
Mossgray--none but humanity; and on some other spirit, in some other
country, your mantle will fall when you yourself use it no longer; for
you will have no heir.”

“Hush, Lilias,” said Mossgray; “shall I have to train you to more
philosophical modes of thinking? I did not think you were so heterodox.
We must bring Reid and Brown and Dugald Stewart down upon you. Halbert
himself has some metaphysics, dogmatical as their parent, Monikie. We
shall have a regular breaking of spears, Lilias; though I think your
friend Helen and you, on behalf of the poets, might rout the
philosophers if you looked well to your weapons. By the by, I like that
friend of yours--you suit each other well; and how does it fare with Mr
Oswald’s resolution? Has he learned to break it yet with a good grace?”

“I do not hear now, since Hope is not at home to keep me informed,” said
Lilias; “but I think he must be melting; only his son is absent, and
there is no visible progress. Mr Oswald is an obstinate man, and Helen
is proud; I see that there is an evident consciousness both on her side
and his; but, Mossgray, you have done William Oswald harm; you have
given him a rival.”

“I, Lilias?” said the old man; “is it Halbert? I should regret that.”

“No, it is not Halbert,” said Lilias; “I think Halbert is not eligible
at present to be any one’s rival at Fendie: it is Mr Insches, Mossgray.
I think your kindness to Helen when they were all with us has encouraged
Mr Insches to look over her low degree. It is your fault: if you had not
noticed her, he would have given up what incipient admiration he had of
poor Helen; but you gave him the countenance he needed.”

“You are severe, Lilias,” said Mossgray; “but I like the lad. He has a
young man’s natural weakness on some points, but there is good stuff in
him; and who is to be successful--our grave friend William, or his
handsome rival? I should think there was some danger. I fancy I must
come to the rescue myself, and explain to Mr Oswald, by my own
experience, that resolutions were made to be broken. Does that suit
Hope’s tactics and yours, Lilias, or are you working more artfully?”

“Hope is my captain; I must wait for further orders,” said Lilias,
smiling; “but, Mossgray, this has nothing to do with Halbert.”

“Very true,” said the old man. “I see you can hold to your original
premises, Lilias; well, then, what of Halbert?--let us return to our
disputation.”

“I think, Mossgray,” said Lilias, gravely, “since you suffer me to think
on the subject, that it would be far better for Halbert if you made your
decision soon.”

“It is very sensible,” said Mossgray, looking at her with his gracious
smile. “I acknowledge that if I did not suffer you to think on the
subject--which I fear would be difficult to do--I should lose a good
counsellor; but do you know, Lilias, Mrs Mense tells me that matters
might be so arranged as to make your inheritance and Halbert’s
one;--could that be accomplished, think you?”

It was very evident that Mossgray did not think it could, and the
supposition was too harmless to call more than a passing shadow of
colour over the pale cheek of his ward.

“No, indeed, Mossgray,” she said, simply; “did I not say that Halbert
was not free to be any one’s rival? I mean,” continued Lilias, with a
deeper blush as she observed the inference to be drawn from her words,
“that Halbert is very faithful to the northern Menie, and that I am
Halbert’s very grave and elderly adviser and friend, and must always
remain so, did we live under the same roof all our lives.”

Mossgray desired to have his ward’s confidence; he did not smile at her
inference nor at her blush; neither did he ask what they meant; the
delicate old man felt it was meet that Lilias should be shy of such
confidences, even to him.

“Well,” he said, “I will give up that; it would be very desirable no
doubt, Lilias, and would solve our problem beautifully. If Halbert and
you were good bairns I have no doubt you would adopt this solution for
my particular convenience; but if, as you say, Halbert is already in
bondage, and you are so wise and old as you tell me you are, there is no
more to be said on the subject, and we must think of some other plan.
Let me hear your proposal, Lilias.”

Lilias looked up in some surprise.

“Did you think I was Helen Buchanan, Mossgray? No, indeed, I do not make
plans. I only do what I am bidden when they please me, and dissent when
they do not; but I am no originator, Mossgray--you know I am not.”

Mossgray smiled again.

“Well, Lilias, we shall suppose that I myself form the plan, according
to your counsel, and that we make Halbert heir of Mossgray; and now
there comes a grave consideration: what am I to do with you, my good
Lilias? Will you be content with the little provision I can make for
you, independent of these lands? Nay, if you are not like your friend
Helen in making plans, I cannot have you resemble her in pride. I speak
to you, you know, as if you had been Lilias Graeme; and your
future--must I not provide for that?”

“No, Mossgray.” Her head was bent down, but the animated unusual light
played about her face like sunshine--her voice was very low, and
trembled as with some hidden music. She did not meet the kindly
inquiring look which her guardian turned upon her; she only
answered--“No, Mossgray.”

“The future is cared for then?” said the gentle old man, in his delicate
tenderness. “I must not ask how, Lilias, but I may believe and infer,
may I not?--and guess that there is some one labouring under warmer
skies for my good child, and hope that he is wise and generous, and
worthy of her. Tell him that I too will grow jealous for his honour and
good report, though I am not told his name, and that together, you and
I, who alone know him here, will bid God speed to his labour:--shall it
not be so?”

Lilias could not lift her eyes just then, for the tears’ sake that were
under their lids; but when she could, she looked up in simple confidence
into the face of her guardian. She did not speak, and they went slowly
on, for some time, in silence. Her mind was in a pleasant, grateful
tumult; she thought of the time when he to whose labour Mossgray bade
God speed should thank the old man for his generous care of the orphan;
and over the fair future she looked forth through the sunny haze of
hope--the indefinite golden mist which has in it a charm wanting to the
clearer landscape--the magic of the unknown.

But as they continued their walk, shy half-sentences fell on the ear of
Mossgray--conveying a confidence which he received gladly, though he did
not ask it. How the unsettled family, in one of their short sojournings
in a great, bustling, commercial town of England, had met this
unknown--how he came from an Orcadian island far off in the vexed
Northern seas, and in his youthful energy was bound for the golden
East--how he did so tenderly regard and honour the mother over whom
Lilias still wept tears, because he also had a mother in his solitary
home by the sea, and, except this one nearest friend, was alone in the
world; but Lilias did not tell Mossgray how her heart throbbed in glad
wonder at sight of the ancient portrait, and in sound of the pleasant
name in the old house at Murrayshaugh. It was but a fanciful
resemblance, and the name was not an unusual one. The pleasure she had
in this, she kept as one little secret gladness to herself. It was but a
girlish, affectionate fancy; for the son of the far Orcades could have
no connection with the old southern family, whose last representatives
were wandering on foreign soil, or laid in strange graves. She smiled at
herself for setting so great store by the shadowy resemblance of the
portrait; it was too small a thing to tell Mossgray.


END OF BOOK II.




BOOK III.

CHANGES.




CHAPTER I.

    The merry ploughboy cheers his team,
      Wi’ joy the tentie seedsman stalks.--BURNS.


“Mossgray,” said Halbert Graeme, as they sat next morning at their
cheerful breakfast-table, “I wish you would come out with me to-day, and
see these fields at Shortrigg--they are in a very bad state: small,
oddly-shaped fields, ‘three neukit,’ as Saunders calls them, with quite
a superabundance of hedges. I should like to sweep those encumbrances
away, and bring them into better working order. Will you come and see
them, Mossgray?”

“Halbert, my man,” said Mossgray, smiling, “I am too old to learn--even
your training will scarcely make a good farmer of me, I am afraid; and I
give you full discretion, you know.”

“But, Mossgray,” persisted Halbert, “I am sure you have no concern for
those thriftless hedges; and good agriculture--”

“Is a very necessary, noble, and honourable art,” said the Laird,
“perfectly so, Halbert; and I am by no means a sentimental admirer of
thriftless hedges; but I am old, you know, and not a good judge: you
must take it into your own hands.”

Halbert was not quite satisfied.

“Still, Mossgray, if you are not engaged--”

The good Mossgray could not deny the youth his request.

“Well, Halbert, if it must be. Come then, let us set about this business
of yours.”

Halbert was very full of his undertaking. He began to tell Mossgray what
his crops were to be, and the measures he would take with obstinate
land, which was not naturally obedient to the discipline of the plough.
The country looked very cheerful as they passed on. Round about,
skirting the horizon on every side were ranges of low hills, some rich
with fir trees and softer young spring foliage to the very top; some
dark with moss and heather unbloomed. Winding roads, white far-seen
lines, lost themselves among the hills, and through the trees, which
divided their path from the river, glimpses of the wan water, flowing on
full and broad to the sea, glimmered through the soft, gay, fluttering
leaves of spring. Turning back on the elevation which they had reached,
the full Firth, quivering like molten silver, stretched between them and
the clear creeks and villages of the English shore, over whose stillness
muffled mountains watched in the background; and looming out against the
pale sky in the West, his broad sides darkened here and there, as if
with stationary shadows, rose the bluff Scottish hill, whose strong brow
every night was crowned with the glory of the sunset. There was a hum of
voices in the pleasant air, and ploughs were turning up the rich, dark,
fragrant earth, and the “tentie seedsman” stalked about the fields. The
sky and the leaves were soft and fresh, so fresh and soft as they only
are in the early year, and the refreshed land seemed to open its moist
breast with gladness to the kindly processes of spring.

“I think there is something grand, Halbert,” said the old man, pausing
to look back, “in the art, which out of that bare earth can bring seed
and bread. I should rather have myself endowed with this wealth of the
soil, were I young like you, than choose the barren, metallic fortune
you were aspiring after a short time since. This, you know, pleases me;
to inherit the soil and the sky, the seed-time and harvest, the sunshine
and the rain of heaven; it seems to place us in more immediate
dependance on the Maker of all, the great Suzerain above, of whom we
hold this feoff, for the honour of His kingly name and the service of
His people. I like it, Halbert--it is a greater gift than barren wealth.
It pleases me to feel myself, with Paul, a vassal--a _Knecht_, as your
German has it--holding my lands under the fealty vow and oath of true
service. I would we did but better remember that we stood here
feudatories of high Heaven.”

The youth assented modestly; he thought it did not become him to do
more.

Mossgray stood for a moment longer, looking with loving eyes over his
fair country, as it lay below the sunbeams, stirred with the spring; and
then he turned to take Halbert’s arm, and they went on again, resuming
their former conversation about crops and ploughs and draining. The old
man was not so ignorant of these matters as he called himself, and could
give valuable counsel to the young experimentalist.

“But, Halbert,” said Mossgray, “Lilias tells me I am injuring you in
keeping you here so long, where you cannot pursue your own course as you
desire to do; we should rather talk of it than of those rural matters.
What say you, Halbert?”

Halbert was rather startled; he did not know what to say, for, to tell
the truth, he had quite forgotten the “course” which his kinsman assumed
he was so eager to begin, and at present was perfectly content, and had
no wish for change.

“I will be glad to do what you think best, Sir,” he said, with a little
hesitation.

“But the question is not what I think best, but what you wish,” said the
old man. “Is it the case that you are impatient of losing time at
Mossgray, Halbert?”

Halbert was very honest.

“Well, Sir, to speak truly, no--I have not been thinking of losing time;
but no doubt it is very necessary that I should begin.”

“Begin what, Halbert?”

“To maintain myself, Sir; to cease to be a burden--”

“My good Halbert,” said Mossgray, interrupting him, “I should never have
spoken of it, if that were all; but Lilias does not hesitate to tell me
that I do wrong to keep you undecided so long; so you must let me know
what your own views are, and how I can help you most agreeably to
yourself. Be honest and tell me frankly; and when I have heard your own
ideas, you must give me the privilege of my age, and let me decide.”

There was a pause.

“I suppose,” said Halbert, hesitating a little, “that it must be
business?”

“Does your gift lie in that way?” said Mossgray, smiling.

Halbert was a little annoyed, and jealous of ridicule.

“I think I might be able to do as much as I undertook,” he answered,
with a little warmth. “All sorts of men succeed in business. I do not
think, with submission to your better judgment, Mossgray, that, except
perseverance and industry, and a stout heart, there is any very special
gift required.”

“Bravely answered, Halbert,” said Mossgray; “but these are invaluable
qualities all, and as necessary for a conscientious country Laird, as
for your great merchant of Glasgow or Liverpool. But let us speak more
gravely; before you were so wise and sensible as to come here to me, it
was my custom to consider myself the last Graeme of Mossgray. Now,
Halbert, supposing that our ancestors had entailed these lands, in what
position would you have been?”

Halbert blushed and was embarrassed; it was impossible that such a
thought should not have sometimes entered the young man’s mind; but he
really had not self-interested views; and now he remained silent with
too much good taste to disclaim, while he yet felt awkwardly
uncomfortable under the fear of such an imputation.

“The race would have been resuscitated in you,” said the old man; “you
would have brought new life to the withering stock; for, Halbert, you
are the only remaining heir of the Graemes of Mossgray.”

“I have the name, Sir,” said Halbert quickly, his embarrassment growing
on him as he met his kinsman’s eye; “it is the share of the family
inheritance which comes to me; and the provision which you made for the
helpless portion of my life, Mossgray, is more than a cadet’s share. Now
that I am able to make use of the faculties which your kindness and my
good master’s have trained and made available, I hope to do no dishonour
to the name.”

The Laird of Mossgray looked steadily into his young kinsman’s glowing,
animated face; the natural diffidence which subdued its expression, and
the charm of its simple, frank manliness were very pleasant in the old
man’s eyes. He held out his hand and grasped that somewhat astonished,
irresolute one of Halbert’s.

“I have no fear,” he said, kindly; “I believe you will be a good steward
of your name; but remember, Halbert, that there devolves upon you an
inheritance of old duties, old kindnesses, old generosities, along with
the old lands; and that I will as surely leave you heir to all the good
purposed and planned by your predecessors, bravely and faithfully to
fulfil and increase it, as I leave you heir of Mossgray.”

Halbert looked up with a sudden start; the words did not carry their
proper significance to him, for he had expected nothing like this.

“If I had thought you would weary of the lifetime which remains to me,”
said Mossgray, “I might have kept this secret from you, lest you should
be tempted to wish my few remaining days shortened; but I have all
confidence in you, Halbert, and what I give you is your right.”

Halbert said something now; but it was said in so strange a tumult that
the words would not bear recording. Nevertheless they answered their
purpose, and Mossgray did not think the less either of them or of the
speaker, because they were by no means elegantly put together, or rather
were not put together at all.

And then the old man, more openly than he had done with Lilias, sought,
and after some happy hesitation, received, the confidence of Halbert;
and then some arrangements were made, very much to the satisfaction of
the heir of Mossgray. The old man decided that Halbert’s “being settled”
should be for some time delayed, but did by no means say anything to the
detriment of Menie Monikie. To wait a little was all the condition he
asked.

The fields at Shortrigg were unfortunate on this particular day. The
young farmer had things in his head of more immediate interest than
draining, and while he tried to keep his mind awake to the question of
the superabundant hedges, incipient sentences of the triumphant letter,
which should convey those wonderful tidings to the North, floated
through his joyous head, to the entire bewilderment of himself and his
companion. It would not do; the young Utopia routed the sober science of
agriculture, and Mossgray, with secret smiles, invented some kind
pretext for sending Halbert home. It pleased the old man that the youth
should be so pleasantly disturbed, and his eagerness to communicate his
joy to the only home he had ever known gave additional satisfaction to
the gentle heart of Adam Graeme.

“I did not think,” said Mossgray to himself half-aloud, as he lingered
at the corner of one of the condemned ‘three-neukit’ fields, watching
the rapid progress of Halbert, as, bounding over all manner of
obstacles, he carried his exulting heart home to Mossgray, “I did not
think that my old pragmatical friend, Monikie, could have succeeded in
producing such a lad as Halbert; and I fancy I must see this Menie of
his, and renew my acquaintance with her father. And I too have children.
Resolutions, resolutions! what mockery they are; that I might have
debarred myself such companions as these for the sake of words rashly
spoken!”

He turned round, shaking his head with a smile. Saunders Delvie was
standing near, evidently listening. He had heard the conclusion of the
soliloquy.

“Well, Saunders,” said Mossgray, “I believe you do not agree with me?”

“Na, Mossgray,” answered Saunders, harshly, “I haud by the auld law.
Thou shalt not forswear thyself, but shalt perform unto the Lord thine
oath.”

“But I am speaking of resolutions, Saunders,” said the Laird, “uncertain
mortal resolves, ignorantly made, which better knowledge shows us were
foolish and wrong. You would not have me hold by anything so weak as
that?”

“Ay, Mossgray,” said the stern old man, holding his ground decidedly;
“but an ane was wise, ane would make nae vows in ignorance; and when a
vow was made, would keep it, if it was to the very death.”

“But, Saunders, my man,” said the good master, kindly, “you know me well
enough to know that I am not so wise as that; and I am too old to
learn.”

“Mossgray,” said Saunders Delvie, “I’m just your serving-man, but I’m in
years mysel’--and I can take nae rule but Scripture, though I would do
as muckle to pleasure my maister as most folk; but the Word’s positive
and clear. Vow unto the Lord and pay.”

“You are more skilled in argument than I am, Saunders,” said Mossgray,
“but I think we can settle that point between us. The vow was a vow of
offering--of special service, or special gifts, or of the sacrifices of
that grand old symbolic Hebrew law. It did not by any means refer to
such frail, inconsiderate resolutions, Saunders, as are common to this
humanity of ours.”

“Ay, but if it was a vow before the Lord,” said Saunders, in his strong,
harsh, emphatic voice; “if before the Lord, Mossgray, ye had spread out
the ill that troubled ye, as the guid King Hezekiah did the proud words
of the Assyrian langsyne, and put forth ane--I’m saying nae man in
particular; it’s a case just like what micht happen wi’ onybody--put
forth ane, I say, solemnly out of your heart and out of your house, as
an ill-doer and a reprobate; would the man that daured to break that no
be man-sworn, Mossgray, having vowed before the Lord?”

There was a certain huskiness and tremor in the harsh voice of the old
man. They stood together strangely contrasted; the master in his benign
and gentle humbleness, the servant in the stern and rugged strength of
his pride.

“Saunders,” said Mossgray, “the utmost vision of our wisdom, you know,
is very poor and dim; and will the Lord hold you, do you think, to an
oath made in ignorance, and dimly, as are all things mortal, even though
you place it in His keeping? If what you vowed in His presence was an
ill vow, Saunders, be thankful that this privilege of humanity is left
to you, and that God gives you power to change--to change; it is a great
gift this. That when the purer light comes upon us we may follow its
course wherever it travels, and that all our vain purposes and foolish
vows are not bound on us, but that gratefully in sight of heaven we may
throw our old encumbrances away, and change. We are growing old,
Saunders, we are travelling towards the setting sun; and by and by we
will lose this power. Think of it before it leaves your hands--mind what
a gracious thing it is, given of God--and make merciful use of it while
you may.”

Mossgray turned round as he concluded, and bent his steps to his
favourite Waterside. He had not unfrequently had such controversies with
his stern old serving-man; and pitying the forlorn heart which, out of
its very excess of harsh, strong love, could debar itself so
relentlessly from the mild humanities of nature, he had taken pains to
leaven the mind of Saunders with his own gracious philosophy. But it
would not do; the rugged, intense spirit buckled its harsh vow upon
itself like armour, while the wiser poet-man opened the heart which
could not be old to all the gentle influences of the earth and of the
heaven.




CHAPTER II.

    Close by the sunshine is the cloud;
    And yonder o’er the hills, the shadows pass
    Like breath; across this field they flit, they hover--
    And now ’tis bright, and now ’tis dim, and now
    There’s not a cloud in heaven. Look up again;
    Lo! all the sky is veiled, the sun shut out--
    There’s nothing here but sadness.--ANONYMOUS.


Mrs Buchanan was in high spirits. The friendship of Lilias, and the
honour intended for her by the Reverend Robert Insches, had opened a new
life to Helen. She was no more the neglected and solitary
schoolmistress. The young lady of Mossgray was a frequent visitor at
their humble house. Mrs Whyte of Kirkmay had called to make a definite
beginning of their friendship--the plaintive Mrs Gray became a regular
visitor. Mr Insches took every possible opportunity of stealing into
William Oswald’s vacant corner in the quiet parlour. It pleased the good
mother “to see her bairn respected like the lave.”

And the change was also very pleasant to Helen. She had been at Kirkmay,
and much enjoyed the hospitalities of the Manse--she saw Lilias
frequently; and even the handsome head of the Reverend Robert was an
agreeable variety, breaking the blank of the dim wall, which for whole
years of past evenings had been the only thing she had to look across
to. She was still much alone; but the much was not always, and the
monotony thus occasionally broken became monotony no longer. The
firmament of their quiet life was brightened; it was a pleasant change.

But other changes were progressing; as the spring grew into summer some
shadow fell upon Lilias Maxwell. No one knew what it was, nor how
produced, but the old paleness returned to her cheek, and the old
sinking to her heart. There was no external sign of sorrow or suffering.
The change fell upon her like a cloud--such a cloud as does sometimes
glide across the sun in the early glory of his shining. She was very
calm, very quiet, very thoughtful, but in moments when she fancied no
one saw her, her fingers sought each other painfully, and were clasped
together, as hands are clasped only in grief or in prayer. But the cause
of this she told to no one; and even to her guardian’s affectionate
inquiries, she only answered, “It is nothing, Mossgray; indeed it is
nothing.”

Very early on a bright May day, Lilias went hastily up along the banks
of the wan water, to the house of Murrayshaugh. She had been up that
morning earlier than even the wakeful Janet Mense, as if she could not
rest; and now she had stolen forth, avoiding any company. She walked
more quickly than was usual to her, and over the face, which still wore
its look of constitutional calmness, shades of unwonted colour were
wavering to and fro; for the Lily of Mossgray was sick at heart--sick
with the fever of anxiety--the hope and the fear.

She had become a frequent visitor of Isabell Brown; the old woman was
fretfully kind to Lilias; and when the days were warm enough to permit
her to receive those calls in Miss Lucy’s parlour, Isabell was very
communicative, and told tales of the Murrays, their old grandeur and
their present exile with much satisfaction to herself. Lilias meanwhile
sat on one of the faded high-backed chairs, opposite the wall on which
hung the portrait, and listened pleasantly. Isabell took the young lady
of Mossgray’s admiration of the picture as a personal compliment to
herself, and there began to spring up a genuine liking for her in the
breast of the little sharp old woman; she almost thought Lilias worthy
to take rank next to Miss Lucy.

On this particular day Isabell’s dissertation began as usual.

“Ye see, I canna tell what gars Murrayshaugh stay away in thae foreign
pairts, and him has a guid house o’ his ain to bide in; but there’s nae
accounting for folk’s tastes. For my ain pairt, I wadna gie Murrayshaugh
just where ye’re sitting this minute, for a king’s palace; but he’s an
awfu’ proud man, Murrayshaugh, and nae doubt he has a guid richt.”

Lilias made some indistinct response; it did not much matter what it
was, for Isabell desired a good listener more than anything else.

“It’s maist folk’s pride to be thought rich,” continued the little old
housekeeper, with some ostentation; “but Murrayshaugh’s a man far frae
the common; it’s his notion to hae the house bare, like as he was puir.
It’s naething but folk’s fancy--ane likes ae thing, and ane anither. I
wadna wonder noo but ye’ve heard that the Murrays were gaun doun the
brae? there’s aye some havers rattling at the heels o’ a gentleman’s ain
fancy; as if it was needcessity, when it’s naething but his pleasure.”

Lilias involuntarily glanced round the faded bare room; its look of
decayed gentility made a dreary comment on the assumption of the old
adherent of the ruined family; but her eye rested again, where it rested
so often, on the portrait, and she sighed and did not answer.

“You’re no weel the day,” said Isabell, sympathetically; “and yet it’s
bonnie cheerie weather that should be guid for young folk. Eh Miss
Maxwell! ane wad think ye kent that picture, ye tak sic weary looks at
it; but ye wad never see onybody like that?”

“I think I have,” said Lilias, with a faint smile.

“Like the auld picture that was like Mr Hew? tell us where. It bid to be
himsel; there’s only the twa o’ them in the world, and wha should hae
the kindly face but their ainsels? I’m saying tell me where ye saw
him--for charity tell me where!”

“It was not Mr Murray, Isabell,” said Lilias; “it was a friend--a person
I knew in England.”

“And he was like that!” said Isabell. “Do ye think I dinna ken that nae
fremd man could be like that? will you tell me what they ca’ed him?
Ye’ll read in books whiles, o’ gentles for their ain pleasure taking
anither name--it bid to be Mr Hew.”

“His name was Grant,” said Lilias, “he was not Mr Hew; he was a young
man--quite young.”

“And what should he be else but young?” said the little old woman,
pattering up and down with her short, unequal, agitated steps. “Div ye
think he’s withered and auld like me? I tell ye he’s the gallantest lad
ye ever set your e’e upon; ye may ca’ that like him, but it’s naething
till him--the spark that was in his bonnie e’en, and his brent broo--as
if I didna mind! If he was far blythe and lightsomer like than that, and
yet had a face that could be wae when need was, for ither folk afore
himsel; and if he had a presence o’ his ain that gar’t ye bow, and a
smile that made ye fain; then I say it was Mr Hew ye saw, and nae ither
living man!”

There was some wonderful power in the old woman’s words. The sad pale
head of Lilias slowly followed her motions, as if by some magnetic
attraction. She did not speak; but as Isabell ceased, she closed her
eyelids painfully, perhaps the better to see again the person thus
truthfully described--perhaps to shut in the tears.

The housekeeper pattered up and down for a while in silence; at length
she stopped short immediately before Lilias, and repeated with
emphasis,--

“I’m telling ye it was Mr Hew.”

“It was not Mr Hew, Isabell,” said Lilias gently, as she rose to go
away. “It was one whose home is very far from this; who came from the
northern islands far away; and it is a mere fancy of mine that he is
like the portrait. He was not Mr Hew.”

Isabell was not satisfied--she accompanied her visitor to the door with
many mutterings; the “kindly face” could belong only to a Murray, “it
bid to be Mr Hew.”

Lilias turned away across the unsafe bridge, and went hastily up a steep
lane which led to the Fendie high-road; she was not going home, and
excited and anxious as she was she could not bear the meditative calm of
the Waterside.

It was a somewhat long walk, and Lilias was not like herself; her
feverish hasty pace, and the painful flushes of colour which now and
then crossed her brow, were unnatural. It was the first time she had
been tried by this trial--the deadly anxiety with which we shiver and
burn, when our sole hope is in peril, and there comes to us no tidings.
She thought she could endure to hear of any certain calamity, but that
blank of suspense was terrible to her--she could not bear it.

There had been mail after mail from the far East, but no letter for
Lilias; and this was the day again. She had gone to Murrayshaugh to fill
up the feverish blank of those slow moments; to look once more upon the
face which never perhaps she should look upon with faith and trust
again; and now she was hurrying to the decision of all those tremulous
doubts and fears; if there was a letter to-day--and if there was none--

Her lips were parched--they would hardly meet to ask that
question--“No.” Lilias looked into the postmaster’s face wistfully
again; she would not hear the denial. “No, there were no letters for
Miss Maxwell.”

And immediately there fell upon her a dead calm; a dull slow pain of
quietness. She went out in her noiseless way, and glided down the street
like a shadow; her heart was sick--she could have seated herself by the
road-side, and wept out the slow tears that were gathering under her
eyelids, unconscious of any passers-by; but those who did pass by saw
only the grave, pale, pensive Lily of Mossgray. The fever was
over--there remained no present hope to distract her now, and she was
calm again.

And then she began to think, and laboured bravely to put away from her
those doubts and fears--but Lilias had not the impulsive energy of hope;
the elastic life, which can fight and wrestle with sorrow at its
strongest, was not in her; but she could do what the more buoyant could
not have done--she could wait--and knowing the time that she must wait,
she became calm.

She had intended going home, but as the shock softened, she changed her
purpose. She went to borrow hope from Helen Buchanan, in one of those
sudden yearnings for gentle company, with which sad hearts are sometimes
seized. In her hush and faintness she wanted to have some living thing
come in between her and her secret pain--she wanted to forget herself.

It was a holiday with Helen, and she was in a holiday mood,
withstanding, with her natural enthusiasm, the gloomy dogmas of Mrs
Gray, who was making a gracious call upon Mrs Buchanan. Mrs Buchanan did
not much like the melancholy lady; her sanguine gentle temper recoiled
from the sombre atmosphere which suited Mrs Gray; but she was Mrs
Whyte’s sister, and a “very respectable” acquaintance for Helen; so the
good mother submitted pleasantly.

“Are you ill, Lilias?” said Helen.

“No, Helen, it is nothing,” answered Lilias, gently. It was her
universal answer; the melancholy cloud was indeed very visible, but she
would not speak of the cause.

“My dear,” said Mrs Gray--she was very affectionate, this good doleful
woman--her very gloom increased her tenderness; “I am very much afraid
you are not taking sufficient care of yourself. I am sure you got damp
feet that day you were at the Manse, and Elizabeth would never think of
asking you to change them. Elizabeth is really very careless about damp
feet; she never heeds them herself--and I have known many a one get a
consumption with them. You are looking very white, my dear; you must
really take care.”

“I am quite well, Mrs Gray,” said Lilias; “perfectly well, I assure
you.”

Mrs Gray shook her head.

“Really, my dear, people never know. We are well to-day, and ill
to-morrow: it is a strange world.”

The proposition in this case being very abstract no one controverted it.

“When I see,” continued Mrs Gray, oratorically, “young people going out
on the world with such false notions as most of them have, poor things,
it grieves me, Mrs Buchanan. So little as there is to enjoy after all,
even if they get all they expect.”

Mrs Buchanan, like Mr Oswald, had an old-fashioned prejudice that there
was something orthodox in all this; a prejudice which made her diffident
of answering.

“Poor things!” she echoed, with a slight falter; “but after all, Mrs
Gray, we had light hearts in our own youth, and why should we discourage
them? Sorrow aye comes soon enough.”

A sigh from Lilias sounded like an assent: and the Lily of Mossgray
indeed bent her weary head and assented. She began to believe that
sorrow--nothing but sorrow--was the common lot.

But Helen’s face was flushing--her small head growing erect. Mrs Gray
turned round--she was no coward--to face her vowed antagonist.

“Miss Buchanan, my dear, I am speaking the truth. People say that the
happiest part of life is youth; now just look at yourself. Toiling and
labouring with these children; wearied with them every night, but just
having to begin again every morning! with little time to yourself--to
visit your friends, or read, or whatever you might choose. My dear, just
look at it yourself. What have you to enjoy?”

Helen started.

“I have all the world--not this little humble house--not that
school-room only; but the earth, and the sky, and the sea! Look at
them--look at what God gives us--the sunshine and the clouds--the hills
and the rivers--and you ask me what I have to enjoy? I have all the
world! the weariness and the rest, the labour and the sleep, the night
and the day, they are all given us, waiting our pleasures like the
spirits of the old dreams. There is no one born into the earth who is
not born rich, richer than kings, for we have all the world.”

Mrs Gray was not prepared to answer this; she turned away to look from
the window at the flowers, and prudently shook her head, half at the
wild doctrine, and half at the eager manner; but she tilted no more at
that time with Helen.

“Will you walk up with me to Mossgray, Helen?” said Lilias, in the
subdued melancholy voice which made the petition more urgent than a
command; and Helen consented at once. As they descended the steps at the
bridge, and waded through the long, thick grass, which spread between
the backs of the Fendie houses and the river, the pensive calm of Lilias
touched the variable spirit of her friend. They began to talk in that
tone of half-playful sadness which often veils over griefs which the
speakers would not tell. It is the mood of speculation; and they were
neither of them too old for the girlish dreamy fancies,
half-superstitious, which belong to our imaginative years.

“I wonder,” said Lilias, “whether our minds are formed, Helen, to suit
our fate? I mean that our griefs are made for us, like our dwellings,
with an individual fitness in them all. It seems so strange sometimes,
as if on one person had fallen the fate which properly belonged to
another; yet it must be that we are suited always--our minds with our
trials.”

“It must be,” said the bolder Helen, “for what would be joy to one is
nothing to another, Lilias. I think I could fancy what my troubles would
be, and yours?”

“Tell me, Helen.”

“Calm, grave, quiet sorrows, which will not have the fever of doubt and
hope in them, which you will know certainly, and be able to weep silent
tears for. Lilias, I think these will be yours; and for me--I do not
know--I think strong troubles that I can fight and battle with; unquiet,
living griefs that will keep me strained and labouring. Lilias, is it
not my foolish fancies that make you sad?”

“No. I do not see the sun just now, that is all,” said the pale calm
Lilias, shutting the eyes which were again full. “Helen, Helen, let us
not say any more.”




CHAPTER III.

    “Concealment, like a worm i’ the bud,
    Preyed on her damask cheek.”--TWELFTH NIGHT.


The good Mossgray was pained for the dimness which hung about his
adopted child. It was not positive sorrow--it was only a shadowy
quietness as of a cloud, and very still and patient was Lilias. She was
trying to live in the present only, because the future, when she tried
to look upon it, made her heart sick; but it is not in the nature of
humanity to do this, and her effort to confine herself to those
individual hours, as one by one in their quietness they glided past her,
made her only languidly indifferent to them all. For Lilias was alone:
the hope in peril was her sole hope; kindly ties of kindred there were
none for her, and except the old man, her guardian, to whom she looked
with tenderness and reverence as to a father, but who yet was not her
father, nor had part in all the associations of the past as members of
one family have, she had none in the world but this one--and he!--

Where was he? was it peril or illness, or, painfullest of all, was it
change, which produced this agony of silence? She tried to interdict
herself from the constant speculation to which she could give no answer,
but the yearning wonder and anxiety were too strong for the sorrowful
heart; yet she said nothing. She could not blame him; she could not have
another fancy that on his truth there lay the faintest suspicion; and
with that haze of mild, subdued patience about her, she waited, and when
she did think of the future time at all, thought of what lay beyond that
fated, solemn day, on which tidings might and surely _must_ come, as of
some dreamy, unknown chaos, strange and chill, another life.

“I dinna ken what’s come to Miss Lillie,” said Mrs Mense, with a sigh.

“She’s ower muckle made o’, that’s it,” responded the sourer Janet.

“Woman, woman!” said the housekeeper, bitterly, “have ye nae memory o’
being ance young yoursel’, and maybe having troubles in your ain heart
that wadna bear telling? but I needna speak to you.”

“Na, I reckon no,” said Janet. “Me! I wad just like to hear onybody say
that I ever had a trouble a’ my born days that mightna hae been visible
to the haill world if it likit.”

“And that just shows how little ye ken about it,” said Mrs Mense; “if ye
ever had a heart ava, it maun hae grown to bane twenty year ago. Are ye
gaun to iron thae bits o’ laces for the young lady or are ye no’?--for
if ye’re no’, I’ll do’t mysel’--”

“The young lady--set her up!” said the housekeeper _de facto_. “Muckle
right she has to the auld Lady Mossgray’s guid lace. He’ll be gieing her
the land next; there’s nae fuils like auld fuils.”

“Janet Mense,” said the old woman, “ye hae eaten the Laird’s bread mony
a year, and I hae suffered ye in the house, for a’ your ill tongue, and
for a’ sae little worth as ye are; but if ye daur to say anither word
against Mr Adam, I’ll take ye by the shouthers and put ye forth from
this door. I’ll do it with my ain hands; sae ye ken.”

Janet judged it prudent to sound a retreat. She began to spread the lace
upon the table, preparatory to the process of ironing.

“The wife’s in a creel,” said Robbie Carlyle the fisherman, entering
with his basket of flounders, thinly covered with a few grilse. “Wha’s
she gaun to pit to the door? If it’s Effie, I’ll hae nae mair dealings
wi’ ye, Mrs Mense; for Effie’s Jamie Caryl’s daughter, and Jamie’s my
second cousin; sae we’ll be to ’gree again.”

“And wha’ll tire sunest o’ that, Robbie, my man?” said the housekeeper.

“Faith, I dinna ken,” said the bold fisherman, “there’s waur folk nor
me, guid wife; and if I missed your custom, ye wad miss my ca’, ye ken;
for I’m guid company--especially when I bring the cuddie.”

“I would like to ken, Robbie Caryl,” said Janet, “what the like o’ you
has to do wi’ a cuddie.”

“The like o’ me! Ye’re a sensible woman, Jen, but ye dinna ken a’thing;
it’s no to be expected. I ken few that does, by mysel’, and Mossgray,
and the minister; the like o’ me! as if I wasna as ’sponsible a man as
there is in the parish, and as weel entitled to hae ease to my
shouthers! There’s thristles and dockens enow aboon tidemark to
mainteen a dizzen cuddies, and he taks nae cleeding, puir beast; he’s
cheaper than a wean.”

“Eh, Robbie!” said Mrs Mense, reproachfully, “to even the bits of
innocent bairns to a brute beast!”

“He’s a very decent beast,” said Robbie. “I hae kent mony a waur
Christian. The bairns! I hae half a dizzen curly pows o’ them, ilk ane a
greater sorrow than the tither, and I can tell ye it’s Blackie out there
that has the maist cause to compleen o’ being evened to them. He’s a
decent, sober, ’sponsible beast, like my ain sel’, and the little anes
are evendown spirits, never out o’ mischief, if it binna when they’re
tumbled in a dub; and then ane has the fash o’ fishing them out again.”

“It maun be awfu’ dangerous for bairns, that weary marsh,” said Mrs
Mense, sympathetically.

“Hout, we never fash our heads about it,” said the fisherman; “they’re
a’ born to plouter amang saut water: it comes natural; when they do get
a fa’, the oldest anes can scramble out again, and there’s nane o’ them
ower young to skirl. The wife whiles makes a fyke about it, but nane o’
them ’ll drown. You might maist say they were born in the sea; onyway,
the tide was up on the very doorstane the nicht Sandy was born. It was
an uncommon high tide; and the weans hae a story that he came in on the
tap o’ a muckle wave. Little Mary wad maist swear she saw the bit wee
beld pow o’ him in amang the foam; and the foam’s nane o’ the clearest,
I can tell ye, when the Firth’s in a roar.”

“Wasna Monday nicht uncommon coarse doun-bye?” said Janet. “Did ye hear
if there was ony skaith dune, Robbie?”

“Hout, woman, do ye ca’ _yon_ coarse?” answered the salt-water man.
“Skaith! no, if it werena that auld careless body Willie Tamson that
brought in his heavy brute o’ a boat ower the nets, and had nigh coupit
her, forbye driving I kenna how mony stakes out of the shore, and
garring us lose a day’s kep. The fish are aye maist plentiful when the
water’s troubled; puir beasts! they haena muckle variety in their
life--I’m thinking they’ll like a storm for the sake o’ change; onyway,
they’re aye strong when the Firth’s champing like an ill-willy horse.”

“And are ye doing ought weel, Robbie?” said Mrs Mense.

“No to compleen o’,” answered Robbie, “it aye hauds us gaun. I’m
thinking we’ll be no that ill this year; the red fish looks weel. See to
that grilse; ye’ll be needing it for the Laird’s dinner the day. Did ye
ever see a bonnier beast in the water or out o’t?”

After considerable bargaining, the grilse was laid aside together with
store of flounders.

“For there’s nae saying,” said Robbie, “when I may be round again, and
it’s better to hae a wheen ower mony than ower few--that’s
philosophy--ye can ask the Laird. I’m thinking to send Peter mair; he’s
a muckle callant grown, and I see nae occasion I have, to keep a doug,
and bark mysel; if it wasna that it wad be an awfu’ loss to the haill
countryside--I dinna ken what ye wad a’ do, wanting me.”

“Ye’ve aye a guid word o’ yoursel, Robbie Caryl,” said Janet.

“There’s ne’er a ane kens me as weel, Jen, my woman,” retorted the
undaunted Robbie; “if it binna the wife; and the wife’s gift is mair for
finding out folk’s faults than their guid qualities; but when I gie ower
coming ye’ll find it out; see if ye dinna be gieing weary looks ilka
market-day for Robbie Caryl and the cuddie.”

“We’ll wait till that time comes, Robbie,” said Mrs Mense; “but, man,
hae ye nae mair news than that?”

“Hearken till her noo,” said Robbie, reflectively; “hearken till the
gate o’ thae women--ne’er a thing but news in the heads o’ them. Jen,
I’m awa’--hae ye ony message to your joe? I’m the canniest man gaun--I
ne’er was blackfit at a courtin’ yet but it throve; and speaking about
marryin’--that’s what ye ca’ _news_, I’m thinking?--the wives in the
toun are thrang on the top o’ ane e’en now.”

“Wha is’t Robbie?” asked Janet and her aunt together.

“Oh, I hae gotten till the right thing noo, have I? It’s ane that’ll
ne’er be in this world--it’s the minister.”

“The minister!” said Mrs Mense, “and what ill will hae ye at the winsome
lad, Robbie Caryl, that ye should say he wad never be married?”

“I said nae sic thing; ye tak folk up, neebor, afore they fa’. He may
hae half a hunder wives for onything I care, but I’ll just tell him ae
guid word o’ counsel--he needna fash his thoom about this ane.”

“And wha is she that’s sae grand?” said the old housekeeper, “set her
up! does she think the minister’s no guid enough for onybody?”

The Reverend Robert was an immense favourite with Mrs Mense. She felt it
as an injury to the Church that he should not be able to choose where it
pleased him.

“I’m no speaking about grandness--she’s nae muckle lady; she’s just the
mistress o’ the schule our wee Mary’s at, learning to sew and to behave
hersel; but, Mrs Mense, you’re auld--ye dinna mind o’ the fancies o’
young folk. It’s you and me, Jen, that can understand how ane whiles
likes ae body better than anither--and ye’ll gie me the message to your
joe?”

Jen made a furious lunge at the bold Robbie with the poker she had in
her hand. Her irons were not heating so well as they should have done.
Janet was in a bad humour.

“Dear me, Robbie, did ye say it was the schulemistress?” said Mrs Mense
with some concern; “nae doubt she’s a great friend o’ our Miss
Lillie’s--but the misguided lad! He might have seen how Mr Wright, at
Fairholm, made a wreck o’ himsel, wi’ marryin’ Willie Tasker’s daughter;
but it’s nae use speaking--for nothing will learn thae young folk.”

“Never you heed, gudewife,” said Robbie, “there’s nae ill dune. I’ll wad
ye a’ the red fish that comes into the net atween this and Sabbath that
she’ll no tak’ him.”

“She’ll no tak’ him--the minister?--she’s no blate!”

“Whisht, whisht,” said the fisherman, “we needna be misca’ing folk that
never did us ony ill. She’s as blate as she has ony occasion to be; but
there’s anither lad in the gate, ye ken--that’s it, Jen; ye’ll mind by
yoursel.”

“I wish ye wad haud the clavering tongue o’ ye,” said the indignant
Janet; “_I_ ken?--I ken nane o’ your ill ways--ye needna be putting the
name o’ them on me; and wha’s the ither lad?”

“Do ye think I dinna ken that ye wad never trust me wi’ that bit
message, if I was telling about anither young lady’s sweetheart? Hout,
woman, ye’re no gaun to get round me wi’ the like o’ that. I’m a man to
be trusted here where I stand; if I wasna, Jen, I wad ne’er hae had the
face to ask a woman o’ your experience to send your bit message wi’ me;
but ye may ken it’s safe in my hands--never mortal shall hear tell o’t
but the ane.”

The exasperated Janet threatened Robbie with her hot iron; with a broad
laugh the fisherman evaded it, but he did not retreat.

“And Miss Buchanan telled ye, Robbie?” said Mrs Mense, “weel she’s no
ower nice o’ her counsellors.”

“She’s nane sae wise as to tell me,” said the incorrigible Robbie, “but
I have an e’e in my ain head--no to say twa, and them black anes. Ye see
ae black e’e’s as guid as three blue anes ony day; for no to speak o’
the licht that ilka body can see through, I hae a gift, like the cats,
to see in the dark. Na, na, Miss Buchanan has nae thocht I’m in her
counsels--but for a’ that, I ken; and ye may think when I heard the
wives in the toun a’ keckling about the minister--I leuch. Some o’ them
had new found it out, that he was aye wandering about the townend; but
he needna fash his thoom--and I’ve a guid mind to tell him mysel.”

“He’ll no be muckle heeding,” said Mrs Mense with dignity; “the like o’
him, a fine-looking lad that micht get as guid a leddy as ony in the
country-side; and she’s no even that you could ca’ particular bonnie.
Oh! thae young callants, how they will aye rin after their ain fancies!”

The prudential demurrings of the Reverend Robert Insches as to the
eligibility of the humble schoolmistress of Fendie were perfectly
justified. The parish decided that she was not eligible--that the
minister would clearly throw himself away--that the dignity of the
Church would be compromised; but the Reverend Robert was now out of his
depths, and had lost the footing of prudence. He was not aware that his
wanderings about “the townend” began to be discussed by Robbie Carlyle
and his customers. The minister was very much more interested at present
in consideration of what was said and done in the little, quiet, dusky
parlour, than in any other apartment in Fendie, or in broad Scotland. He
had lost his balance; he could no longer manage himself according to his
old rules, even though the dearly beloved “position” should be put in
jeopardy. The chances of his pursuit made him a little anxious
sometimes, but there was no withdrawal; he must either win or fail.




CHAPTER IV.

    I am sick and capable of fears;
    Oppressed with wrongs and therefore full of fears;
    A widow, husbandless, subject to fears;
    A woman, naturally born to fears.--KING JOHN.


Mrs Buchanan had a good deal of anxiety about the position and prospects
of her daughter. People began to speak of those constant visits of the
minister, and now, when it seemed likely that some decision must
speedily be come to, Mrs Buchanan began to think remorsefully of the
long-tried familiar friend, whose place in their little household Mr
Insches seemed so resolute to take. Yet she liked Mr Insches; she liked
him for the simple, natural character which the influence of Helen
seemed to draw forth more naturally and simply every day; she liked him,
even for the faults which he could not hide; and most of all she liked
him because he had fallen from his hobby--had lost his depth--and
because it was no longer in his power to pretend that he could elevate
that lofty head of his, and take his assiduities away. Besides it would
be so very suitable; the modest dignity of his place, equal to the
richest yet within the reach of the very poor--its necessary literature
and necessary benevolence, which the good mother fancied would suit so
well the delicate, impulsive, variable spirit of her only child: all
these things increased her desire to see the suit of Mr Insches
successful,--and yet--we are inconsistent always, we human folk--the
gentle Mrs Buchanan looked wistfully at the address of the Edinburgh
newspaper which he sent her constantly, and wondered how William would
feel if he saw the new occupant of his long-accustomed corner. She did
not like, in her kind inconsistency, to come to any distinct explanation
with her daughter; often she spoke of Mr Insches, and Helen sometimes
blushed as she listened; but the blush now was painful and uneasy. Mrs
Buchanan became very anxious--desiring, and yet not desiring that this
should come to some definite end.

Helen too felt her position very painful; night after night the Reverend
Robert was there, with his good looks, his good mind, and the little
sparks of temper which diversified and animated them. Week after week
passed away, and she saw or heard nowhere but in the newspaper the name
of William Oswald. She began to have a disagreeable consciousness that
it was possible she might come to like this Reverend Robert, and she
began to be a little piqued and angry at his rival for suffering her to
remain so long ignorant of all his proceedings and feelings. Helen did
not remember then the very decided negative she had put upon his
proposal to write; she did not remember anything at that moment, in
exculpation of the resolute labourer toiling to the utmost of his stout
faculties in the distant city. She only felt impatient, inconsistent,
irritable; very much disposed to quarrel with the two candidates for her
favour, and still more offended with herself.

In this mood she set out one dull May afternoon immediately after her
little crowd had dispersed, to see a small invalid whose place had been
vacant among them for more than a week. It was Robbie Carlyle’s little
daughter, Mary, who had been ill with some childish epidemic, and was
now recovering. Helen had been struggling with the most painful mood of
her nervous temperament this day--its irritability; she found herself a
hundred times on the very point of unnecessary fault-finding--in spite
of all her precautions, impatient hasty words had escaped from her lips;
and now she was turning her sword against herself, and was in a bitter,
painful, unhappy humour, which it was best to carry away out of the
society of any whom it might wound, into the still country road, along
which she went with the unequal pace, now slow, now hasty, which was
usual to her.

The gentle summer air, the dreamy silence just touched and made human
with its floating far-away sounds of life, the dim sky above with its
soft dark clouds and veiled sun--in these was a charm to which the
unquiet spirit never failed to answer. A touch of the kindly humanity
which makes the whole world kin, might have lifted her up in a moment
into the midst of the sunny clouds of her own bright especial heaven;
but when Nature was the physician, the effect was different; the unhappy
mood stole away into the deep sadness peculiar to her, and she lingered
now and then to look over the fair, dim country with those slanting
lines of pale sunshine stealing over it, from the head of yon shrouded
mountain in the west, her heart sinking into the depths the while. The
cap of which Skiddaw wots when it is put on, was shading the dark brow
of the Scottish hill, and the air was subdued and soft, and the wind
sighed about the hedges as though its wings were drenched with rain. Few
articulate thoughts were in the downcast mind of Helen; only the thread
of linked and varied fancies, which sometimes quivered below the
sunbeams like a golden chord, was now sad and drooping like the wind.
The unconscious tears gathered in her eyes--the shadow fell heavily over
her heart. Slowly along the quiet road she wandered enveloped in the
mist of her changed mood. The annoyances and the little angers had
vanished away, but she was very sad.

Just then she came in sight of the Firth; between her and its pale
glittering waves lay the green breadth of the Marsh, with its fine
sea-side grass, and pools of deep still water. Nowhere, far or near, was
there grass so smooth and velvet-like, as the close thin-bladed grass of
this dangerous play-ground, interdicted to the obedient children of
Fendie. But the children of Fendie, like all others, had a craving for
interdicted pleasures, and when they got together in bands and could
have the countenance of other rebels, the Marsh was a favourite
trysting-place; and the bold example of Robbie Caryl’s amphibious boys
overcame scruples of timidity. It was excellent sport to leap over the
gleaming pools of salt water; the strong really enjoyed it, and the
weak, precociously compelled by fear of ridicule to do as others did,
made pretence of enjoying it too.

Pale, slanting, watery sunbeams were gleaming in the salt pools and on
the shrunken Firth, as it began to gather volume, and retrace its rapid
steps to the shore. It has strange moods this southern Firth; you see
bare, dreary sand-banks at night, dotted with the stake-nets of the
fishers, in the very midst of its broad course, where ships will sail
bravely when to-morrow’s tide is in. The far-away English hills were
blotted out with the mist of coming rain, and over the dark hill in the
west the sun threw his flickering, sickly beams, longer and longer drawn
out, as he faintly glided downward to his bed in the sea.

The Marsh was somewhere about a mile in extent, stretching along the
bank of the Firth eastward from the mouth of the Fendie water. For the
most part it looked verdant and tempting at a little distance, and was
indeed scarcely so much a Marsh as a great extent of fine sea-side
grass--what is called links in other places in Scotland--save that this
was a complete net-work of clear salt-water pools, only to be traversed
by dint of leaping. As Helen approached its borders a few children were
painfully disentangling themselves from its labyrinth. Some of the pools
were tolerably deep, and the Fendie children, to increase their dread of
the Marsh, had been taught to believe them deeper. The little wanderers
on this occasion had been struck with fear as they began to see the
tawny waves of the returning Firth roll in on the dark pebbly sand far
below. The clouds were gathering close over the sky as though the night
was about to fall--some of the small hearts were beating
timorously--they were all struggling as they could towards the road.

In the very heart of the Marsh where lay the deepest, broadest pools of
all, shutting in the unwary wanderer on every side, Helen saw a little
girl lifting in her arms a small, heavy brother, much younger, but not
much less than herself. On even ground she could scarcely carry him, but
now the young heroine had a desperate attempt to make. The rain had
begun, the last lingering sunbeam was gone: all their companions were
already out of peril; the poor little sister was essaying to leap over
the pool which intercepted her, with the great lumbering boy in her
arms.

“Dinna, Jeanie--dinna try’t,” cried another little girl, looking back;
“just bide a wee while. I’ll rin and get Robbie Caryl--there’s nae
fears.”

But Jeanie had many fears, and the rain began to come heavily down, and
Robbie Caryl’s cottage was a full quarter of a mile away; so she made
the leap, her frightened heart beating loud. It was successful so far;
the little blubbering brother was safely landed, but she herself plunged
to the knee into the pool, and her frock was torn, and one of her clogs
lost in the tenacious wet sand. Poor Jeanie could not wait to get it
out, and every step of her progress must be made at the same peril. She
sat down on the sharp grass beside her little brother, and looked at her
torn wet frock, and cried bitterly, with visions of high tide, and the
dreary darkness, and being drowned, alternating in her mind with terror
for what her mother would say about the torn frock and the lost shoe.

But Jeanie must rise and lift little Tammie, and try again; and as she
looked wistfully over the dark Marsh, she saw some one taller and more
agile than herself, springing step by step over the dangerous pools.

“It’s only a woman,” said Jeanie to herself, sadly; but immediately the
little heart rose and grew courageous: “It’s the mistress!”

She had cured Helen. The cheek of the young schoolmistress of Fendie was
glowing through the rain as if it never could be pale. Peter himself,
the embryo fisherman, had never leaped those gleaming pools more bravely
than Helen did. It was somewhat hard for an amusement to other than
boyhood, but it made her eyes sparkle and her heart beat; she had never
been blyther than she was now.

He was a serious weight, that little blubbering Tammie, and was somewhat
afraid of the honour of being lifted in the arms of the mistress. It
awed him into silence; and Jeanie ventured to pause, to rescue her shoe.
The mistress assured her that the pool was not so deep after all, and
Jeanie forgot her fears.

It was rather a dreary scene; the rain sweeping down heavier every
moment, till against the lowering sky it began to look white, carried on
the wind, like long, trailing skirts of some stiff silken garment; a
little below, the tawny roaring Firth, making way sullen and strong over
his shores, and lashing up on the shingle in long curls of foam, like a
lion’s mane; and here the raindrops pattering in the ghostly pools, and
the little girl at Helen’s feet forcing on the recovered shoe, and
restraining her weeping in hysteric sobs, while Helen herself grasped
the waist of the heavy Tammie with both her hands, and gathered up her
dress for the laborious progress to the road.

A passer-by who came in sight on an ascending road at some distance
hurried forward in fear for them when he looked down. There was no need:
as he reached the edge of the Marsh, Helen cleared the last pool. Her
dress was thoroughly wet; she had made one or two stumbles, but her
rapid movements seemed more graceful, and her face was brighter, the
banker Oswald thought, than when he saw her last in the drawing-room of
the Manse; for Mr Oswald was the passer-by--and in the heavy rain and
gathering darkness, with only the children to prevent their being alone,
he was standing face to face with Helen Buchanan.

The little Tammie was rather a pretty child, and considering how his
careful sister and he had spent the afternoon, was a very tolerably
clean one; for the pools were very clear, and neither dust nor mud were
on the Marsh; so as Helen set him on the ground, and bent down to help
and console Jeanie, who had painfully followed her, they made by no
means an ungraceful group--if we except the stout, perplexed elderly
gentleman with the umbrella, who, not much less shy than Helen, stood
with confused hesitation looking at them, and not knowing what to say.

A nervous tremor had come upon the young schoolmistress; half of it was
physical, and proceeded from the unusual exertion she had made, and half
of it owned her consciousness of the presence of William Oswald’s
father. It was natural to her; the fingers which rested on little
Jeanie’s shoulder trembled a good deal, and Helen’s attitude and glowing
face were shy--a shyness which was at the same time frank, and an
awkwardness by no means ungraceful. The banker meanwhile stood before
her and her little _protégés_, and held his umbrella over his own head,
and grew slightly red in the face. But there was no remnant of
gracefulness in the embarrassment of the respectable Mr Oswald. The good
man felt a little afraid of the shy, unquiet girl, wondered rather what
she would say to him, and felt very much at a loss for something to say
to her.

There were sounds of loud, boyish footsteps on the road, as Helen,
stooping down, wrapped up the children as she best could to defend them
from the rain.

“Eh!” exclaimed a voice corresponding to the feet, as Hector Maxwell of
Firthside and his brother came up out of breath; “it’s Miss Buchanan--I
knew it was Miss Buchanan--and she’s droukit. Here’s my plaid--take my
plaid, Miss Buchanan! We’ve run a’ the road from the brae, because we
saw you on the Marsh, and if you had just waited--”

Hector looked indignantly at the little heavy Tammie, and in great haste
threw off his plaid.

“Miss Buchanan will not be much better with your plaid, Hector,” said Mr
Oswald; “she must take my umbrella; it will be more serviceable, and not
so heavy.”

Helen answered the somewhat constrained politeness with a little bow.

“Thank you, Hector; but you would be very wet before you got home, if I
took your plaid from you.”

“But I’m no heeding,” said the generous Maxwell. Hector did not need to
brush up his English for Helen; she was not so easily shocked as his
sister.

“And I shall soon be home,” said Helen. “I must go with these children,
you know, and see that they are not scolded; and I am wet already. Come,
Tammie. Hector, good-night.”

Helen looked up into the banker’s face, and her natural frankness
struggled for a moment with her shy pride. She was almost inclined to
say that she would share his umbrella if he pleased, and the next moment
she thought she would say nothing; but finally there was a compromise.

“Good-night, Mr Oswald,” said Helen, as she took little Tammie’s hand.

“We are going the same way,” said the embarrassed banker; and so they
did; and amicably under shelter of one umbrella, with little Jeanie and
her brother getting very muddy and wet at their feet, the banker Oswald
and Helen Buchanan walked side by side towards the cheerful lights of
Fendie.

Mr Oswald cleared his throat; he rather wanted to begin a conversation,
but he did not very well know how. If this young lady was to be Mrs
Insches, the good man said to himself plausibly, it was very necessary
that he should at least be acquainted with her; but certain it is that
with no other prospective Mrs Insches would Mr Oswald have felt himself
so uncomfortably conscious. He made a beginning at last on the easiest
subject.

“How foolish people are to permit their children to stray out on that
Marsh!”

“It is the fault of the bairns themselves,” said Helen.

The banker remembered that Miss Swinton, Hope’s oracle, applauded our
natural Scottish tongue, and it was rather a pretty word, “bairns.” In
another person he would have thought it vulgar, perhaps, but no one
could call that low voice, with its changeful modulations, vulgar, and
he began to like listening to it.

“Jeanie is afraid her mother will be angry; but when she sees them so
wet, she will forget their misdemeanour, I hope.”

Little Tammie had been tied up as well as it was possible to keep him
comfortable, but the poor little fellow was very wet notwithstanding,
and was getting weary and sleepy as he trudged along the road. Helen had
insinuated him between the banker and herself, and so he was protected
by the wonderful umbrella, and moreover had his thumb to suck
consolation from, which melancholy pleasure the hapless Jeanie, walking
on Helen’s other side, and laboriously gathering up her torn, wet frock,
and thinking of what her mother would say, was quite deprived of.

“You seem fond of children, Miss Buchanan,” said the formal banker,
after a considerable pause.

Helen began to forget the speciality of the case, in that this perplexed
man was William Oswald’s father. She did not like, so sensitive and
easily moved as she was herself, to see any one ill at ease beside her.

“I like them,” she said, frankly, “perhaps it is because I spend so much
of my time among them; but I like their company.”

“And does it never weary you?” said the curious Mr Oswald.

Helen paused a moment--a sort of half-remembrance of the mood in which
she left the school-room that day just floating like a cloud over the
spirit which had shaken out its wings and was up again, singing in
mid-heaven.

“We all weary sometimes,” she said; “but I not more, I think, than
others. It is pleasant to work, and my own work, I fancy, is pleasanter
to me than any other would be.”

Mr Oswald was a good deal astonished; he did not quite know how to
answer so honest a statement, for the good man had taken it for granted
that the young schoolmistress must be very sick of her labour, and eager
to escape from it, which indeed she was not, except sometimes, when her
wayward moods were upon her.

“I did not know that you knew Hector Maxwell,” said Mr Oswald,
awkwardly; “do you admit those rude boys to your liking as well as the
little girls, Miss Buchanan?”

“Hector Maxwell is not rude,” said Helen. “He is a genuine boy, and a
great friend of mine. Yes, indeed; I like them all very well, until they
become young gentlemen and young ladies.”

“And what then?” said the banker.

“And then I become a little afraid of them, and they do not suit me any
longer,” said Helen, smiling, as she paused at an open door, where the
mother of Jeanie was looking out anxiously for her little truants. “I
thank you, Mr Oswald; good-night.”




CHAPTER V.

    Is she not proud? doth she not count her blessed,
    Unworthy as she is, that we have wrought
    So worthy a gentleman to be her bridegroom?
              ROMEO AND JULIET.


The little roundabout Miss Insches began to grow disturbed about the
length of her own continuance in office. She saw that very soon her
dominion over the dining-room and the drawing-room, and her share of the
comforts of the library, must come to a close; and while the
good-humoured sister anticipated, with considerable relief, her return
to the plebeian, unpretending home where there was no necessity for
being always genteel, she felt also a good many qualms about resigning
Robert, and Robert’s beautiful chairs and tables, into the keeping of a
stranger.

“For ye see, Miss Buchanan, she’s young,” said Miss Insches to herself,
not daring to have any other confidante, “and for a’ she’s nae
better--I’m meaning for a’ she’s a hantle puirer than oursels, no to
speak of Robert--she has gey high notions like himsel’; and I’m very
doubtful that she’ll just let Nelly dust the big room, and no think of
putting to her ain hand. Robert says I should do that too, but he’s a
young lad for a’ he’s the minister, and doesna ken a’thing. I wish she
may just be mindful o’ himsel’. He’s aye been used wi’ his ain way, puir
man, and has been muckle made o’, and muckle thought o’; and I’m sure a
better lad--”

Miss Insches paused with an incipient tear in her eye. The worshipped
minister son, of whom the mother at home was so proud--the omnipotent
brother whose slightest word was law--alas! was he to cease to be an
idol--to come down from his absolute throne, and be limited to a
constitutional monarchy like any other man, with perhaps a young, proud
wife exacting service from him, instead of rendering the devoted homage
which was Robert’s due? Miss Insches’s eye again wandered over the
shining tables of the sacred drawing-room, and her heart was troubled.

“He’s aye had his ain way, puir man!” she repeated, mournfully, as she
carefully closed the door and sighed. Poor Robert! he was to be
married, as all Fendie said--he was to have his own way no longer.

The Reverend Robert was seated at his writing table in the library; it
was a study day. Miss Insches stole noiselessly in, closed the door, and
took her seat at the window, with her seam in her hand. Robert was
writing his sermon; the good sister sewed those new shirts of his in
devout silence; when her thread fell she picked it up with a look of
guilt--she might have disturbed Robert. Foolish Robert! the young wife
would not reverence his stillness so.

“Janet,” said Robert, graciously, “we are to dine at Kirkmay on Monday.
I have just had a note from Mrs Whyte.”

“Ye dinna mean me, too, Robert?” said Miss Insches.

“Certainly I mean you too, Janet,” said the young man, with some
impatience. “Why, you have been at Kirkmay before.”

“Yes, Robert, I’m meaning that,” responded the dutiful sister humbly,
“but it’s the Monday of the preachings, is’t no? and will there be more
folk than ministers?”

“Mrs Whyte is to have a few friends,” said the Reverend Robert, with a
conscious smile, “and there is no reason why they should only be
ministers.”

“I didna say there was,” said Miss Insches; “is onybody we ken to be
there, Robert?”

Robert smiled again. His sister had come to understand the particular
meaning of this smile.

“I fancy Miss Maxwell of Mossgray will be there,” he said with a blush
as he returned to his sermon.

Miss Insches applied herself to her shirt with another little suppressed
sigh. She understood very well what was meant by Miss Maxwell of
Mossgray; and Miss Insches by no means disliked Helen; but the great
question whether she would be sufficiently careful of Robert when
advanced to the dignity of Robert’s wife was hard and difficult to
solve. Miss Insches shook her head as she went on with her work. On
Monday--the crisis might come on Monday.

Monday when it came was bright with the sunshine, and fragrant with all
the sweet sounds and odours of May. On the preceding day had been the
half-yearly Occasion, the Communion Sabbath of Kirkmay, and the Monday’s
services were of thanksgiving, according to the reverent usage of
Scotland. Mr Wright of Fairholm was the officiating minister, and
preached a chaotic ponderous sermon, which, according to the judgment of
the Kirkmay elders, had “guid bits in it; very guid bits; but was
naething like the minister’s.” The minister was very much beloved in his
parish; they rather prided themselves, these simple people, on their
possession of a man who wrote books, even though the books were but
sixpenny ones; and read his small biographies with proud regard. The one
gentle weakness of his fine character came out as an excellence in their
eyes, and there were few in Kirkmay who did not boast of “the minister.”

After dinner, while the gentlemen were still down-stairs, Mrs Whyte,
with her lady guests, pleasantly occupied the comfortable plain
drawing-room, which, though it was by no means so fine, did yet, Miss
Insches could not fail to perceive, look a very much more habitable
place than the corresponding room in the Manse of Fendie. Mr Whyte
dabbled a little in all the gentler sciences--the flowers which his wife
cultivated, because she cultivated everything beautiful which was within
her reach, the good minister classified, and talked of with gentle
erudition; and specimens of fine seaweed, and delicate mosses, and
fossils not very rare, and shells picked up on the margin of the Firth,
evinced his universal liking, and his only rudimentary knowledge of the
kindred philosophies of nature. He was not very learned in these various
departments; he only marvelled over the wondrous mechanism of everything
which came from his Master’s hand, and cherished them all tenderly for
their Maker’s sake.

The ladies--Mrs Gray, Lilias, and Helen were the only _lay_ persons
present--were very comfortably gathered into groups in the drawing-room
discussing the notable things of their own district: the church, their
several families. The small company was by no means dull, especially as
Mrs Whyte’s children, the little boy and girl about whom their frank
mother had said there could not be two opinions, were, with all their
might, entertaining the guests.

The room was rather an oddly shaped room; it had a curiously angled
corner, with a window in it, which Mrs Whyte chose as her summer seat,
and playfully called her boudoir. The work-table which stood in it was
scarcely clear of its ordinary lumber even now; there were traces that
the minister’s wife had been sitting there this morning, singing over
her household work the low-voiced songs of a pure mind, happily at ease.
Lilias Maxwell had strayed alone into Mrs Whyte’s chair by the window.
She was very pale, and as she looked out upon the verdant country, and
the Firth and the hills far away, her fingers came slowly towards each
other, and were painfully clasped as was their wont. It was drawing near
again--that day which might change the current of her life.

As she sat there, Helen Buchanan approached quietly; the pale, sad,
absorbed face touched her to the heart.

“You are very sad, Lilias,” said Helen, as she stood screening her
friend from the other occupants of the room, “but you will not tell me
why; will you let me say anything--do anything for you?”

“Yes, Helen.” Lilias rested her head silently upon her companion’s
shoulder, and closed her eyes. It was a relief to her; her heart was
sick--she could not speak of it, but here in silent confidence she could
lean for a moment the weight of her trouble. “I have heard nothing; I
have had no word this long, long, weary time--and the day is coming near
again. To-morrow--after to-morrow will be the day.”

There was nothing more said, for the sickness rose up blank over the
heart of Lilias, and the tears were in Helen’s eyes; but the drooping
head of the Lily of Mossgray, overcharged with heavy rain, leaned on the
friend’s breast, and was comforted. She remembered the moment long
after, and so did Helen. More than many words--more than much bewailing
together of a sorrow more openly confessed, did that silent confidence
bind them together.

The conversation going on in the room was not in the least abstract;
local and individual were all the subjects under discussion, and the
talk about them might have been called gossip. It certainly was of the
genus if not of the species to which that unpopular name is given. In a
“countryside,” and above all in a little town, metropolis of a
country-side, where each family has a certain connection with all,
conversation, unless galvanically kept up in the region of books, must
glide into this channel; and the clerical character which this little
company of ladies possessed, as strongly marked as their husbands below,
increased the necessity. Having satisfactorily dismissed the children of
the respective Manses, and ascertained who had had hooping cough, and
which it was who had come so easily through the measles, the respective
parish over which she presided was the next grand object before the mind
of the clerical lady. Its successes, its adversities, its sins, its
great people and its small; and each parish lady was interested in her
neighbour’s dominions.

Now it happened that this chapter of backslidings was a peculiarly sad
and melancholy one; revealing under the healthful rural air and sweet
fresh sunshine, a moral atmosphere, dense, unwholesome, and heavy. While
one listened to what those lamenting people said, one’s arcadian visions
of rural purity sorrowfully vanished. Follies of youth, the world said;
alas! not follies, but sins, dark, far-spreading, unregarded; and public
opinion had even ceased in the peasant class to brand them with the
unutterable disgrace which is their fate in others. Young, fresh girls
heard of those vices--heard them lightly spoken of by older lips grown
callous--and saw the sinner scarcely disgraced at all; it was a great
evil, shadowing the souls of many as with a low, spreading, deadly tree,
between them and the sun.

“Could nothing be done,” whispered Helen in Mrs Whyte’s ear, as,
trembling with bitter shame and pain, she had listened to some story of
the fallen, “you who have influence; who may dare interfere in such
matters; could the air not be purified in some way--could nothing be
done?”

“My dear,” said Mrs Gray, “it is nothing but our evil nature; we cannot
mend it; what can we do?”

“We cannot mend it,” said Helen in her low, vehement voice; “but we can
strive, endeavour, fight--do anything, anything to change such a state
of things. It is our work in the world; the other things are only by the
way; this is our work--what we were born for. To pull away all
obstructions, to let in, everywhere, the light of heaven. If we once did
that, this evil could not be--surely it could not be.”

“I think so, Helen,” said the kind Mrs Whyte; “we, in our position,
might do much more than we are doing; but at least, we all lament these
evils bitterly--you believe that?”

Helen did not answer; she wanted that experience of the maturer mind
which could discriminate between an exceptional and an ordinary case,
and refrain from sweeping judgments. The shock of pain with which she
heard of evil was always with her, a spur to endeavour something against
it; but while others lacked will, she lacked power. She could not cast
herself into the crusading ranks and assail the powers of darkness as
she thirsted to do; but the impulse of warfare was strong upon her--she
could not rest.

“Ah, my dear,” said Mrs Gray, “you do not know yet as you will know the
misery of this wicked world, and how vain it is striving with it; every
day I live I see it more and more.”

“Yet it is to be pure,” said Helen, with her head erect and her eye
kindling, “it is to be filled with the knowledge of Him--it is to be
made fit for His reign. I do not know--no one living may see that
day--but I think sometimes that if we believed that, we could have no
doubt, no fear. We should look to the great hope which lies upon the
world like sunshine, and not to the misery which it earns every day. It
is to be pure--God is pledged to us that it shall be so; but our arms
rust, and we use them not--our days pass and we do nothing; yet we are
to labour for it--it is so ordained--and it is to be pure!”

Helen’s eyes suddenly fell, her head drooped. The gentlemen, some of
them, had already strayed upstairs, and close beside her stood the
Reverend Robert listening with ostentatious attention.

“Yes,” said the somewhat rough voice of Mr Wright of Fairholm; “a
minister’s life is a very hard life, Miss Buchanan; we have to labour as
you say; the very Sabbath, which is a resting day to everybody else, is
a hard-working day to a minister.”

Helen turned rapidly away; it was a strange anticlimax.

“Miss Buchanan did not mean that,” said Mrs Whyte. “Miss Buchanan likes
the good, wholesome work. She thinks we do too little, instead of too
much, Mr Wright.”

“No doubt, no doubt,” said the cumbrous, heavy man, “there is a great
deal of truth in that. The people ought to know their own duty, and not
leave the work entirely to us as they do; and the elders really need
stirring up; but a minister--few people know how much is laid on the
shoulders of a minister.”

“And you, Mr Insches?” asked Mrs Whyte, smiling, as her quick eye
glanced over the great, stooping, uncouth figure of the strong man
beside her in whom was no impulse to work, and who actually felt fatigue
more easily than would the nervous delicate girl.

Mr Insches hesitated; it was not his policy to differ with Helen; but he
had not received the inspiration much more than his sluggish brother. He
was still, to a considerable extent, a matter-of-course man, doing what
he must do, and not very much more.

“The ministerial life,” said the Reverend Robert, with some dignity, “is
a life of great exertion. We are never perfect of course, but it is a
most laborious life, the life of a conscientious minister.”

It was a compromise--it pleased nobody. Helen turned away, unconsciously
disappointed. She had expected something better.

“’Deed, Robert,” said Miss Insches, “I’m aye feared the ither way about
you. It’s my terror, Mrs Whyte, that he’ll just wear himsel out, and I’m
sure if he was to get a wife and I kent beforehand wha she was to be, I
would warn her no to put such nonsense notions into his head; for ye
see, Miss Buchanan--Eh! Robert, is there onything ails ye?--are ye no
weel?”

But Robert was not “no weel”--he was only frowning upon his too-honest
sister, and making an elaborate face. It was too late; all the eyes in
the room were turned to the blushing, angry countenance of the Reverend
Robert, and he heard tittering in the corners. He turned away full of
wrath--it would not do; there was no putting the restraints of delicacy
or prudence over the simplicity of Janet.




CHAPTER VI.

     “You are altogether governed by humours.”--KING HENRY IV.


The crisis did come, though not as Miss Insches anticipated. Helen
carefully guarded herself, as they returned home, from the society of
the Reverend Robert, and managed that the opportunity he sought should
not be afforded to him. She was thoughtful and grave that night, Mrs
Buchanan perceived; for the shadow of a selfish pride had darkened for
the time the firmament of Helen. The banker showed no sign of courtesy
or kindness; the banker’s wife, on the rare occasions when she met her,
never mentioned William’s name. William himself, busy in the distant
city, seemed to have given up the contest; to have forgotten the romance
of his youth; to have left Helen as he had left Fendie, because she was
too humble and too quiet. She did not care--she would not care! she
protested to herself, with a proud flush on her cheek, and proud tears
in her eyes, that it was nothing to her; but involuntarily an evil,
angry feeling had sprung up in her mind--she could avenge herself!

A week ago she had felt painfully that it was just possible that even
she might be inconstant--that the Reverend Robert might some time glide
into William’s place. She felt now that this was impossible; that her
own rapid pace could never harmonize with that slightly ostentatious
dignity of the Reverend Robert’s; that her impetuous mind must be chafed
and irritated beyond measure, if it ever were yoke-fellow with his; yet
the very discovery goaded her to go blindly on. In the bitterness of her
pride she thought she could not reject the only man who thought her good
enough to be his equal; and when she remembered how long a time it took
before even he ceased to be ashamed of his incipient tenderness for the
poor schoolmistress, the bitterness increased until it flooded her very
heart. There was a gloom upon the world; the evil and misery over which
she had spread the golden tissue of young hope began to appear darkly
exaggerated to the opposite extreme. Those whom she would have
remembered for ever, forgot her, and those who made her their choice,
were ashamed of the power which compelled them so to do. Her deep
melancholy fell upon Helen, as it had never fallen before; the coming of
a new day did not dispel it. It was such a sorrow as she could not tell,
and so she bore it proudly, bitterly, and in silence.

At the mid-day interval the watchful Mrs Buchanan prevailed on her
daughter to go out, to do some simple errands in the town. She generally
managed all these matters herself; but the good mother was a skilled
physician, and knew how something, trivial enough in itself, might clear
the atmosphere in a moment and bring out the sunshine. Mrs Buchanan too
was anxious and uneasy: when it seemed now sure that the Reverend Robert
must succeed, she thought remorsefully of William, the son of her own
training, to whom her house had been so long a second home. She
remembered the confidence that there had been between them, and how old
ties would have been made stronger and tenderer, had it been he who was
the new son; and then she began to feel that Mr Insches, with all his
good qualities, was a stranger; that he would introduce a new intruding
element--that her sole child would be no more her own.

So the mother sent Helen forth with quiet sighs, and Helen went about
her errand sadly, the gloom in her heart obscuring the gentle skies of
May.

She walked slowly as her manner was in her times of depression, taking
in the common sights and sounds around her into the mist in her own
heart, where they remained to bring back in other moods remembrances of
that dark hour. She had executed all her mother’s commissions, and
concluded her business by a visit to Maxwell Dickson’s low dark shop, on
her way home. She got such literature as he had from the librarian of
Fendie, and it served now and then to enliven the long solitary
evenings--the evenings which were not sufficiently solitary now.

On Maxwell Dickson’s counter lay an unbound book, very clean and very
new. Helen took it up as she put the volumes which she brought with her
into the librarian’s dingy hands. It was still damp from the press; no
one had opened it before. The subject attracted her; it was one of the
publications of the New Crusade.

The social science--how to make men better, nobler, purer: how to attack
in their own camp the declared evils of our land and time--was the
subject of this book; the science of that great discontent which has
seized upon so many able minds, happily, now--the science of aggression
against all vileness, all pollution. This was the subject of the book,
and the name of it kindled a little the dim light in the eyes of Helen.
She turned it over rapidly to glean what she could of its contents.

Maxwell Dickson in vain tries to make his young customer hear what he is
saying to her. A sudden flush has covered her face--a sudden thrill
springs up through the bounding pulses which were so languid a moment
before; the slight nervous start--the head lifted so swiftly--the motion
of the eager fingers which hold these pages open. From some unseen hand
the electric touch is given: what is the cause? Helen is reading in the
new book.

“The writer remembers well the arguments urged upon him once with the
enthusiastic faith of youth, by one who desired a new order of chivalry
vowed and dedicated to the service of God and the poor. ‘It is not
well--surely it is not well to withdraw from the evils which are in us
and around us. I say we are bound to do battle with them--not to stand
on our defence alone, but to carry the war into the camp of the enemies.
I think sometimes that the state of war must be the only good state for
those who have sin natural to them as we have, and that if these words,
resist and struggle, were withdrawn from our language we would be no
longer human; for when we let our arms fall, our hearts fall, and
weariness comes upon us, and distrust and gloom; and out of the living
world we come into the narrow chamber of ourselves, and the sun sets
upon us--’ It is the philosophy of a young heart; of one who has not yet
travelled far from the East, and whom the vision splendid still attends
upon the way; but because it is youthful and has the breath of
enthusiasm in it, it is no less true.”

Maxwell Dixon is impatient; he pulls Miss Buchanan’s sleeve, and with
that thrill of nervous strength upon her she is compelled to withdraw
those new damp pages from their office of shading her flushed cheek and
moving features; but Helen is not angry; she lifts her eyes, which
dazzle him with their unusual brightness, to the honest man’s stolid
face. He does not know what to make of this variable visitor of his; he
thinks she looked very different when she entered the shop, but he
fancies it must just be one of the whims of “thae women.”

“I’m saying,” said Maxwell Dixon, “that the new books have come noo, for
this month, Miss Buchanan. This is the twalt--I got Blackwood and the
rest o’ them the day--and the minister’s got Blackwood; but ye may hae
your pick o’ the rest.”

The rest were not very tempting; edifying serials, cheap travesties of
the Copperfields and Pendennises of the time; the adventures of London
“gents,” who had not any compensating good quality to make amends for
the miserable life which they recorded; vile books with which, because
they are cheap, the libraries of country towns infest the minds of the
young, and impress the “gent” character upon the young men who patronise
them. Helen did not look at the books. It was a clumsy feint of the
pawkie Maxwell; he thought she would forgive him the breach of his
promise to keep the one especial Blackwood for her, when she heard it
was given to the minister.

But Helen had no thought of Blackwood, nor even of the minister; he had
left her mind as the cloud left it. In her happy tremor she forgot the
Reverend Robert. She thought only of this in her hand, this messenger of
the true heart which she had so vainly doubted.

“Ay,” said the librarian, “that’s a new thing; a gentleman brocht it in
here, that’s come frae Edinburgh this morning. I dinna ken what it’s
aboot mysel’, but he said it was grand, and something aboot a Fendie man
that wrote it. I didna tak particular notice, but--Maggie, didna yon
gentleman say that it was a Fendie man that made the new book on the
counter?”

“Ay, faither,” said the more polite Maggie, Maxwell’s buxom daughter.
“He said it was a Fendie young gentleman; but he wadna tell us wha.”

“And you do not know?” said Helen, with her wavering blush and smile.

“Na,” said the stolid Maxwell, “except it be, maybe, Dr Elliot’s son,
that’s at the college learning to be a doctor, or Maister Nicol Shaw,
the writer, or the minister, or--I’m sure I dinna ken. It’s no in the
library, Miss Buchanan, and it’s no my ain either, or ye micht get a
reading o’t, if ye wad promise no’ to cut up the leaves, and to keep it
out o’ the gate o’ the bairns; but it’s no’ my ain. I durstna even
sell’t if I had a customer.”

And Helen durst not buy it, even if it had been Maxwell’s own; but she
stood and looked at it with longing eyes. She remembered her own words
so well; she remembered the winter night when William in his corner by
the fireside announced to her his going to Edinburgh, his entrance on
the man’s work, of which so often in her eager, ambitious mind she had
dreamed; and he too remembered it. The romance of the old times will
never die. She had belted on his spurs and his sword in yonder quiet
evening, and now the lady’s colour was on the lance of the true knight!

And Helen returned along the main street, her heart within her singing
like a bird, and the heavens and the earth bright with a sunshine more
radiant than the smiles of May. He was a wise man, that grave resolute
William; if his blow were long of coming, it was a mighty blow when it
came, and cast down all defences. The hopes of the Reverend Robert
perished as incautious buds perish in a night’s frost. He was forgotten.

Mrs Buchanan in the little parlour heard the light, quick step without,
and knew by its pace that the gloom was gone; but she also was occupied
within, and somewhat puzzled, was turning over the damp, uncut pages of
a new book too.

“I do not know what this is, Helen,” said Mrs Buchanan, as her daughter
entered the room, “but I suppose William thought it would please you. It
came by the coach, my dear, and it is directed in William’s hand.”

Helen sat down by the table to look at that especial passage again. Her
heart was full; she wanted to say something, but could not say it, her
shyness veiling the new joy, as well as the emotions of so frank a face
could be veiled; but that was not saying much. At last she rose and laid
the book before her mother, and stood half behind her leaning upon her
shoulder.

“Mother, William would be right if he thought this would please me
almost better than anything else in the world--it is William’s own.”

Mrs Buchanan took her daughter’s hands and looked into her face. The
head drooped, the eyes were cast down. Helen could not meet the
scrutinizing glance; but they understood each other, and in the misty,
tremulous period which followed, the heart of the good mother lightened
too. She dismissed the Reverend Robert with a gentle sigh, and she
received again the old friend, the son William, feeling sure now that
there could be no competitor for the place he had held so long.

When her scholars were finally dismissed that day--and Mrs Buchanan
heard Helen’s voice singing snatches of old songs before the last little
one had made her farewell curtsey at the school-room door--Helen took
her book in her hand and went away over the bridge and through the long,
waving grass to the Waterside. She chose one little dell, her favourite
spot, where the trees, closely circling it round, left one green,
swelling bank, upon the brink of the water, on which the sunshine fell
through a network of boughs and leaves. On the opposite side of the
river, within sight of her resting-place, burns were running down like
so many choristers into the broad stream, and in the middle of the
strong brown current eddies played fantastically, and by the bank
branches of long willows swept the tide, and the dark alder and the
delicate ash leaned over, glassing their foliage in its waves. And there
the young dreamer sat absorbed, lingering over the kindred thoughts
which kept pace so truly to the music of her own, and starting now and
then as the rapid fancies poured upon her like a flood, and she shaped
the future in that fairy loom--a future not such as common dreamers
choose. Noble labour, keeping time to the great universal harmonies
which God has planted in his world--work such as befits His followers,
who for men became a man.

She seemed to hear the grand and noble chimes with which all nature
accompanies the work of those who seek to speed the coming of His
kingdom. The light of common day was radiant to her with the sunshine of
promise; it should yet shine upon a purer world, a country ransomed by
its King; and she forgot the pain, and difficulty, and miseries that
intervened for joy of the certain end.

But amid the dreamings of Helen, there came the interrupting sound of a
hurried, bounding footstep, and almost before she could look up to see
who the intruder was, Hope Oswald plunged down upon her, out of breath.
Hope had arrived in Fendie only that morning, and had been seeking Helen
at home. She was overjoyed to find her here.

“I saw you reading a book,” exclaimed Hope, when the first greeting was
over. “I am quite sure you were reading a book--Helen, may I not see it?
Why did you put it away?”

“It is a grave book, Hope, not such as you would like,” said Helen,
looking as she felt, embarrassed and conscious.

“But I like grave books--sometimes,” said Hope. “I am fifteen--I am not
a girl now, Helen; but do you mind what Tibbie said, last Hallowe’en?
You were to get your fortune out of a book. Oh, Helen, will you tell me?
Have you ever got your fortune yet?”

Helen fairly turned her burning cheek away, with a nervous start. So it
was fulfilled, the simple prophecy of Tibbie; the hour and the book had
come, and this was “the fortune” of Helen. She did not make any answer.
She held her precious volume under her shawl and looked over the wan
water, away into the vacant air, with her changeful smile.

“I think I know,” said the sagacious Hope.

“What do you know, Hope?” said Helen.

But Hope was perverse.

“Helen, Miss Swinton is coming, but only for a day, and little Mary Wood
is to stay all the vacation. Miss Swinton wants to see you, Helen, and
she said she would take you to Edinburgh; but I think you should not go,
Helen.”

“Why?”

Hope paused, and as she could think of no satisfactory answer, went on,
on another course.

“Helen, William is perhaps coming home--only for awhile; you don’t know
how much William has to do now; and, Helen, people say he is clever. Do
you think he is?”

There was some pleasant moisture subduing the unusual brightness of
Helen’s eyes. Her voice was lower than usual too, and the sensible Hope
observed keenly.

“No, Hope,” said Helen, with some tremor. “I think he is not clever. I
think--”

“I don’t care for that,” said Hope, bravely. “Are you going home, Helen?
Will you let me go too? It is only other people who call him clever, you
know, Helen; but he is _our_ William.”




CHAPTER VII.

     “Werena my heart licht, I wad die.”--GRIZZEL BAILLIE.


At the same bright hour of noon as that on which Helen set out so sadly,
commissioned with her mother’s domestic errands, Lilias Maxwell sat in
the sunshine upon the mossy steps of the old sun-dial in the garden of
Mossgray. She had her work in her hand as usual, and was sewing
listlessly, with long intervals of idleness. It was an occupation very
ill-suited for her at that time, for there was nothing in it to deliver
her from the sway of her own thoughts; and so she pursued the quiet work
and the long trains of musing together, looking, as she always did, very
pale and very sad. To-morrow--to-morrow was the day.

The “soul of happy sound” surrounded her on every side, and she was
faintly conscious of it; the drowsy stir of summer life, the hum of
passing bees, the ripple of the water as it went on its way,
plaintively, beyond the willows, softened by the warm medium of that
sunny air through which they came, fell gently on her ear--perhaps they
soothed her unawares; but we feel the solemn weight of our humanity more
heavily when the heart of Nature throbs beside us in its spring joy,
conscious of an inner world, whose revolutions and vicissitudes are of
greater import to ourselves than all the happy changes of the earth.

But as the old man looked out from the projecting turret-window, it
pleased him to see where she was, and how she was employed--for Lilias
was singing, and the sunshine stealing through the trees rested on her
head. He could not catch the words, and scarcely the music of her song,
but the gentle human voice mingled with the familiar cadence of the
river, and the young head drooped in graceful meditation beneath the
joyous skies of noon. He thought the cloud was beginning to break and
disappear; he fancied that the youthful life was asserting its native
elasticity, and he turned in to his books with his benign smile.

But it was not so. She was singing indeed, but her voice was so low that
it scarcely ever rose above the murmuring tone of the accompanying
water; and she had chosen fit words to express the caprice of a sick
heart. It was the brave Grizzel Baillie’s pathetic ballad, “Werena my
heart licht, I wad dee”--most sad of all the utterances of endurance.
Lilias had never known before that sick and flickering lightness of the
strained heart.

Her hands fell listlessly upon her lap; her head drooped forward--so
pale it was and troubled--into the golden air; her mind was away,
wandering painfully through all the bitter hypotheses of care and
anxious sorrow, and the slow notes stole murmuring over her lip, the
unconscious plaint of her weariness. Who has not felt that
contradiction? who does not know the strength and life of pain, and how
it buoys up the feeble almost as hope does?--“Werena my heart licht, I
wad dee.”

As she sat thus, Halbert entered the grounds of Mossgray, and perceiving
Lilias, advanced to her with some hesitation. He seemed to be doubtful
whether he should speak to her or no, and gave a wavering glance up to
the turret-window of Mossgray’s study as he passed. But Mossgray was
seated in the dusk of the large apartment, with content upon his
face--content for both the children of his old age, and good hope that
the cloud of Lilias’ firmament was floating away. The young man went on
with a slow, reluctant step to the sun-dial: she had not noticed him,
and unseen he listened to the pathetic burden of her song.

“Werena my heart licht, I wad dee.” Halbert had never heard the words
before, and they struck him strangely.

Lilias started as she heard his step; she had fallen into strange habits
of late--customs not common to the calm and thoughtful composure of her
nature. Such fancies as the poet’s Margaret had, as she sat by her
solitary door, while her eyes

    “Were busy in the distance, shaping things
    That made her heart beat quick.”

It startled her very much, this sudden footstep. She turned her head
with a sharp, quick flush of pain, and then it drooped again so
languidly.

“Is it you, Halbert?”

“Lilias,” said Halbert, with a difficult attempt at cheerfulness, “it is
very rare to hear you sing, and that strange song. Where does it come
from?”

“Do you think it strange?” said Lilias. “I think it is not strange, but
only very sad and true. Grizzel Baillie must have had a sick heart
sometimes, and it sang to her so.”

But the stalwart, healthful Halbert had never been sick at heart.

“I do not understand it very well,” he said, frankly; “but where did you
get it, Lilias?”

“My mother had a maid called Barbara,” said Lilias, with her faint
smile, “and, like Desdemona’s, she carried this old, plaintive music
about with her. She did not die singing it; but I think, in her homely
fashion, she knew its meaning well. I had it from her. But, Halbert, you
are not well--something has troubled you!”

“No, Lilias.” He was looking very pitifully at the pale, calm face now
raised to his.

“What is it then? There is no evil news from the North?”

“No, Lilias,” repeated Halbert, “nothing has happened to distress me;
but--I wish you would tell me why you are so pale. Have you any friend
ill? are you afraid of--”

Lilias had risen from her low seat in eager haste; her fingers were
clasped together; the feverish hectic of anxiety was burning on her
cheek.

“What is it?--tell me.”

“I do not know,” faltered Halbert, looking at her humbly, as if he had
done wrong; “perhaps it is nothing--but I got a letter for you in
Fendie, Lilias.”

She could not speak; her lips were dry and would not come together; but
she held out her hand with a gesture of angry, commanding impatience,
such as never mortal saw before in Lilias Maxwell.

And he placed the letter in the trembling outstretched hand--the
ominous, mournful letter, with its border and seal of mourning. He saw
her eye fall on the strange handwriting of the address; he heard the low
groan with which the heart breaks; and then she turned away.

She turned away, groping in the noon sunshine like one blind; and
Halbert stood in reverent pity, watching the tottering, rapid steps
which went sheer forward to the door of the house, leaving footprints
among the flowers, and breaking down the snowy, drooping head of one of
the cherished lilies of Mossgray. Like it, Lilias was crushed to the
ground. The honest heart of Halbert melted as he sat down on the steps
of the sun-dial. Man as he was, he could have wept for her; the shadow
of sympathetic grief came over him, and Halbert sat still and mused
while the shadows lengthened on the dial at his head, thinking as he had
never thought before.

“What has become of Lilias, Halbert?” said Mossgray.

The young man started; his own face was very grave and melancholy, but
the smile of good pleasure with which he had looked upon Lilias from his
turret-window was still upon the lip of Adam Graeme.

“Lilias has gone in,” said Halbert, hurriedly--“Lilias is ill--I mean
something has happened, Mossgray.”

“What has happened, Halbert?” Mossgray was still smiling.

“I cannot tell--she has lost some friend. I brought a letter, an Indian
letter to her, from the town:--the seal was black--it seemed to carry
news of a death.”

The face of Mossgray changed.

“My poor child!--my poor Lilias! Halbert, I trust, I hope you are wrong;
but if you are not--”

The old man covered his face with his hand as he turned away. He
remembered what it was to be made desolate.

The long, bright hours stole on, but no one in Mossgray saw the broken
lily. An unexpressed understanding of some calamity fell upon the
household; the blinds were drawn down in the family rooms--the voices
were hushed even in the kitchen, and when any went up or down stairs,
they went in silence, as if death, and the reverence that belongs to
death, were in the house. But the door of Lilias’ room was not opened,
and though the old man himself lingered near it ready to catch any
sound, he would permit no intrusion on her; for now there could be no
hope that Halbert was wrong, and the grief of his youthful days came
back to the heart of Adam Graeme, as he thought of those young hopes
setting, like the sun, in the dark sea of death.

It was twilight, and he had returned to his study--soft, downy masses of
clouds just touched with the lingering colours of the sunset were piled
up like mountains of some dreamy fairyland on that wonderful placid sea
of heaven, and long strips of coast and floating tinted islands
stretched along the whole breadth of the sky. He sat, sadly, looking at
them, and thinking of the holy, calm land beyond, where the sun of hope
and promise sets never more, when his watchful ear caught the sound of a
slow step ascending the stair. He looked towards the door with painful
interest. It was Lilias. She had laid aside the light summer dress which
she had worn in the morning, and the old man started as he looked upon
the shadowy, drooping figure in its heavy, black garments, and the
perfectly pale face on which no shade of colour remained. He rose to
meet her; but Lilias seemed comparatively calm.

“I have brought it to you, Mossgray.”

She spoke very slowly as if deliberate pain were necessary to produce
each single word. She had brought _it_--the messenger of death.

And laying it on the table before him, Lilias sat down on Charlie’s
chair, and leaning her heavy head upon her hand, lifted her eyes to the
old man’s face as he read the letter.

Such a letter he had once received--but this was written by a friend of
the dead, and written with tears as it had been read, though the tears
were very different. The writer said his dear friend Grant, travelling
for his health to some place among the mountains where health was to be
found, had joined a British Company, a few officers and a small band of
men, on the way; that one of the revolted Affghan tribes had encountered
them, and after a desperate and unavailing struggle, the small, brave
force had been utterly cut to pieces, and it was impossible even to
recover the bodies of the slain. Mossgray shuddered as he came to this
conclusion of the kind, well-meaning letter, and felt what torture it
must have inflicted; yet it was gently done, and in few words, as is
the kindest, when such tidings are to be told.

She was looking at him; with the deep, blue, wakeful eyes which cast wan
light like the moon over her colourless face, she was reading his
countenance.

“My poor Lilias!” said the kind Mossgray--he could say nothing more.

And then, in her slow, painful way, she began to speak. It was so great
a grief to hear every distinct convulsive word as she uttered it, that
the old man could hardly gather their import while he listened. She did
not look at him now; her eyes were wandering through the vacant room,
opened widely, as though she dared not cast down their lids, and the
slow tide of her speech--those single words which came from her lips,
like so many life-drops from a heart, pained to the utmost the gentle
soul of Adam Graeme. She wanted to tell him that now she was alone--that
she had only one wish now, separate from Mossgray, and that was to see
his mother.

“My poor child,” said the old man, as Lilias came to this point, and
laboured with her convulsed utterance to articulate the words: “We will
speak of this another time when we _can_ speak of it; but now you must
rest.”

And when he spoke of rest she laid down her head upon her hands, and her
agony returned upon her.

“Lilias,” said the old man, “what if he had changed?--what if you had
learned that he was not what you believed him to be? Rather thank God
that bravely in honour and faith, he has been taken home; in the odour
and grace of youth, before evil days or stains came upon him. Lilias,
there are sorrows harder than yours--you shall find again him whom you
have lost. There are those who have lost, and shall find never more,
because they are parted not by this faithful and pure death, but by the
dark barriers of sin and change. Lilias, my good child!”

She did not hear him; the words fell on her ear indefinite as the sound
of the stream without, for words do not bring comfort to the desolate
heart of grief when the blow has fallen newly.

And then she went away again slowly and painfully to her own darkened
room. Halbert met her on the stair but she did not speak to him, and her
wan face, and deep mourning dress, awed the light-hearted Halbert into
reverential silence. He was not light-hearted then--he almost felt that
his own happiness was selfish in the presence of such grief.

And the old man paced heavily his large, low, study-room, thinking with
tender compassion of his ward, the orphan, and the widowed. It brought
back the days of his own pained and struggling youth, and he remembered
how gentle to him would have been this hand of death instead of the more
cruel stroke which laid his early dreams in the dust. He thought of Lucy
Murray and of her tears--tears which fell singly in their force and
bitterness like the words of Lilias; and he thanked God that rather thus
the stroke had fallen upon his child. She was now doubly his child--left
to him alone for care and succour--set apart from all the world.

But Lilias grew calm; there was no fever in the great stillness of this
grief--no antagonist powers of hope and uncertainty to sicken her with
its fretting painful life. She was fitted for her lot; and when she
entered again the little world in which they lived, there was a saintly
repose about her mourning, a hush of deep melancholy in her atmosphere,
which subdued and mellowed all who approached her. But there was no
elasticity left; the human hopes, the warm links which unite the living
to the world they dwell in, had all been snapt for Lilias. Except the
reverend duty of a child for the old man who mourned with her for the
dead, she had no other bond to the world.

And so it happened that she came to stand, as we sometimes see the
afflicted, alone upon the solitary isthmus between the earth and heaven.
The changing tide of human life seemed to have left her there--above the
reach of the benign and gentle hand of change--above the happy
impatiences--the impulse and varying motive of the common lot; standing
alone among the stars, waiting till her summons came.

She was very gentle, very mild, very calm--but it was less sympathy than
reverence that attended her. The human life had ebbed away from her
lonely feet, and she grew feeble as she moved in her melancholy, shadowy
grace about that old house of Mossgray. They tended her in silent pity
as they might have tended a hermit spirit, and she repaid them as she
could with her resigned and patient mildness; but they thought of her as
one about to pass away, fated to another life than this of earth.




CHAPTER VIII.

    I’m young and stout, my Marion,
      Nane dances like me on the green,
    And gin ye forsake me, Marion,
      I’ll e’en gae draw up wi’ Jean.--SONG.


It was past midsummer. Halbert Graeme, younger of Mossgray, was already
a famous man in the country-side, and had not his gentle kinsman been
more gravely occupied through that long, slow summer, we are not sure
that the Laird would have been quite satisfied with the considerable
number of incipient flirtations which Halbert had on his hands. At
Firthside, at Mount Fendie, and all neighbouring places where youthful
people were, Halbert was immensely popular; and it was very true that
Miss Georgina Maxwell and he had been experimenting a little upon each
other; very true that Adelaide Fendie blushed her dull blush when her
mischievous sister plied her with railleries touching the gallant
Halbert. Adelaide was seventeen, and her large, soft, good-humoured face
was not uncomely; besides she had begun to read greedily Maxwell
Dickson’s select and edifying collection of novels, and seventeen is
quite the heroic age for young ladies of the Minerva Press. Adelaide
thought it was full time that she should begin a private romance of her
own.

And Halbert’s letters to the North were by no means so frequent as they
used to be. He was often very busy now, and really believed that he had
not time to write; besides that, there had been a very pretty quarrel
between him and the gentle Menie, provoked on her side by some saucy
allusions to the Lilias whom he praised so much, and on his by some
pique at a certain young Laird, who began to bulk very largely in the
Aberdeenshire glen.

It was the market day in Fendie, and Halbert now attended the markets,
where both buyers and sellers had learned to know the young Laird of
Mossgray. These groups of rustical people--strong, tall, red-whiskered
men, with their immense stooping shoulders, and primitive blue coats and
universal gray plaids, worn in this brilliant June weather to keep out
the heat, as in January they kept out the cold, whom you see stalking
about the Main Street, with long deliberate steps, lifting their feet
high, so that you fancy they must believe themselves still wading among
the heather, acknowledged his acquaintance by grasping the rusty brim of
the unbrushed hat as he passed them. More dignified, the lounging
farmers in their short coats of gray plaiden, gathered in knots about
the door of the inn where their stout ponies and comfortable gigs had
been put up, held erudite conversation with young Mossgray on the
markets, the weather, and the “craps.” He was perfectly at home among
them; had they been Ojibbeway Indians, the result would have been quite
the same. He was born to make friends anywhere, this brisk cosmopolitan
Halbert.

He had just been at the post-office, and was carrying home with him the
letters of the household. There was one for himself, directed in the
large, stiff handwriting of his old teacher: but Halbert was not so
anxious about Mr Monikie’s letter as he would once have been; he put it
coolly into his pocket till his market business should be over.

At last, having discussed all the momentous subjects of the day,
ascertained all the prices, and recognized all his acquaintances,
Halbert felt that his duty was done, and that he might return home. But
he had only opened the seal of Mr Monikie’s despatch, with its agreeable
odour of black rappee, and ascertained that it contained no enclosure
from Menie, when he heard the clatter of John Brown’s light cart on the
road behind him. Halbert closed the letter again; it was by no means of
pressing interest; at the moment he preferred a chat with John.

“Fine weather this,” said the young Laird.

“Ay, its weel eneuch,” said John Brown, examining the sky with the
curious eye of a connoisseur, “but ower drouthy, Sir--ower drouthy; and
ower muckle drouth is guid for neither beast or body, let alane the
craps. Yon muckle park at Shortrigg will be burnt brown afore the July
rain, and syne it’ll be as wat as a peat moss; ye’ll never be dune, Sir,
noo ye hae ta’en up the farming trade--ye’ll never be dune battling wi’
the weather.”

Halbert laughed.

“I am not so warlike, John. I shall be content with the rain when it
comes. Are they all well at the Mount--Mrs Fendie and the young ladies?”

“Middling, middling,” said John Brown; “we have our bits of touts noo
and then, but we’re no to compleen o’; and the noo, we’ve nae time to
think o’ being no weel, for Mr Alick’s coming hame.”

“Indeed!” said Halbert; the news interested him. “When does Mrs Fendie
expect him, John?”

“I hear about the harvest--August or September,” said the factotum of
Mount Fendie; “but we’re gaun to gar the haill countryside stand about,
so we’ve begoud in time. But ye’ll mind he’s no a free-spoken, pleasant
lad like yourself, Mr Graeme, begging your pardon for the freedom; he’s
ane o’ your fleeaway sodger officers, and there’s mair o’ the same kind
coming wi’ him.”

Halbert enjoyed his popularity; but at the same time he became still
more interested in Alick Fendie, who being less popular, promised to be
more aristocratic than himself.

“Has he been long in India, John?” asked Halbert.

“Na, no that lang. I mind him mysel frae he was a kittlin o’ a laddie
like that wee evil spirit o’ a brither o’ his. He’s been twa--three
years out bye yonder,” and John jerked his ponderous thumb in the
direction of the sea. “I wad just like to see him fechting--or the like
o’ him--fusionless, shilpit laddies. I’m no Wallace Wight myself, but if
I couldna tak twa o’ them in ilka hand!--and that minds me, Mr Graeme,
that my auntie Eesabell up at Murrayshaugh bothers folk even on about
your young lady. I’m no meaning the lady that is to be ye ken, but just
Miss Maxwell. Our auld auntie’s ta’en a notion that she kens some o’ the
auld family--the Murrays. Its a’ havers, ye ken, for Miss Lucy’s aulder,
if she’s leeving, than Eesabell hersel; but the young lady hasna been at
Murrayshaugh for lang, and the auld wife deaves a’body asking about her.
I tell’t her it was said in the town that Miss Maxwell was no weel.
She’s aye bee awfu’ delicate like; isna she no weel, Mr Graeme?”

“She has been very ill,” said Halbert; “but she is recovering now, I
hope. She lost a friend lately.”

John Brown paused respectfully, rendering the instinctive homage which
men pay to grief.

“I saw Robbie Caryl the day,” said John, after an interval; “Robbie was
in last week wi’ some grand salmon at Dumbraes market, and he saw a man
there that has a son a sodger, somegate near where Mr Alick is; and
there’s word--sure word, Robbie says--that Peter Delvie--ye wadna ken
Peter? was killed yonder wi’ a wheen mair, fechting wi’ thae wild
Indians--Affghans--what is’t they ca’ them? Onyway Peter’s dead; and
what the auld man, Saunders, will say till’t, noo, is mair than I ken.”

“He was harsh to him, I believe,” said Halbert.

“Ay, ye may say that; but I’m no sae sure he aye meant it; ye see he was
proud o’ the lad, and when he gaed an ill gate, Saunders nigh broke his
heart. Ye wad maist say he had na heart, yon hard auld man--but it’s ill
telling. Robbie was gaun to the minister to get him to break it to
Saunders. _I_ wadna do’t for a’ Fendie.”

The roads to Mossgray and the Mount separated at this point. Whistling
gaily, John Brown set off at considerable speed, to make up for the
gossiping slow pace with which he had begun; and Halbert leaped over the
stile, and again opened the letter of Mr Monikie.

It was a startling letter; the young man’s face flushed with the angry
colour of mortification and wounded pride, as he read it:

       *       *       *       *       *

“I hear from Menie,” wrote the pragmatical man of Aberdeen, “that you
are not so good friends as you might be; and you know how often I have
warned you, Halbert, about the danger of an unstable temper; a weakness
to which I have always seen you were liable. It is a bad sign of a lad
like you--a great evil--to have an unsteady mind, and to meditate
breaking lightly the ties you have yourself made. Even as it regarded
only yourself, I would have thought it my duty to impress your infirmity
upon you, but far more when it endangers the comfort of a girl like my
Menie. It disappoints me, Halbert; I confess that, though I might know
better, after my long experience as a teacher of youth, I had expected
other things from you; but human nature, even with all advantages, and
when its judgment is matured like mine, is prone to vain expectations,
and you have disappointed me.

“I do not think I would be justified in trusting the happiness of a good
girl like Menie in hands that want the firmness which is needful in my
eyes to a manly character. I hoped you had more of it, Halbert; and
Menie herself, like a dutiful child as she has always been, agrees with
her father, and says she thinks you will be very glad to be free, and at
liberty to form new engagements. Also Menie sends a message that she
forgives you, and has given to me the half of the coin you broke with
her; a very foolish, superstitious, and heathenish ceremony, which I
should have certainly condemned had I known of it, or could I have
fancied that my daughter and my pupil would ever think of so foolish a
thing.

“Young John Keith of Blackdean is giving us much of his company, and
helps to keep up our spirits, otherwise we might have felt your
backsliding even more than we do. I have never seen the marks of
instability in him that I used to lament in you, though he has not had
the same advantages of education; indeed in every way I have reason to
be pleased with him, and so has Mrs Monikie and Menie. If Menie settles
near us it will be a great satisfaction, and I think it is not unlikely.

“I hope you will learn to correct these faults which I have pointed out
to you, and we will always be glad to see you here, in spite of what has
passed. I trust I can forgive an injury, especially when it has been
made an instrument of good; and if you hear of any changes in my family,
I hope you will be able to think of them without any great
disappointment, seeing that I always remain, with compassion upon the
errors of your youth,

“Your sincere friend,

“MATTHEW MONIKIE.”

       *       *       *       *       *

Halbert was very red, very angry; he folded up the letter bitterly, and
felt indignant at treatment so unjust. His first flash of jealous
resolution was to start for Aberdeenshire immediately, and carry off the
faithless Menie from his supplanter the Laird of Blackdean. The merry,
pretty Menie! He had been getting rather indifferent, there was no
denying that; but now when he had lost her, tender recollections of his
first love returned to the honest heart of Halbert. Something swelled in
his breast of that sad disappointment with which youthful people see the
first tie of their own forming rudely snapt asunder. One or two tears
rose into his eyes; the petulant, fickle Menie was victor over him.

But Halbert was not long melancholy. He began to think of the
injustice--the insult.

“It is very well for herself; she has only taken the first word of
flyting; she was wise,” muttered the angry Halbert, as he turned on his
heel, and with a quick, impatient step went on to Mossgray; and so he
salved his wounded pride and consoled himself, not without a
pleasurable consciousness, increasing as he grew familiar with the idea,
that he was free.

Lucy Murray and Adam Graeme had borne the first epidemic grief of youth
on that Waterside before him. This last example perfected the story of
the others. The woman’s sad endurance--the man’s passionate pain--these
were not types broad enough for universal humanity. Only a few here and
there can feel as they did, but Halbert’s lighter emotions were of the
common stock; the momentary melancholy--the sting of mortification--the
buoyance of new life and freedom. Lightly the cloud passed over the head
of Halbert, a thing to be laughed at by and by; for he had no ideal to
be sacrificed. And so he completed the tale of youthful disappointments;
he brought them into the ordinary level, the common stream of life.

In the kitchen of Mossgray Robbie Caryl the fisherman stood in grave and
earnest conversation with the old housekeeper and her niece. Neither
cuddie nor creels were visible to-day, and Robbie himself wore his
Sabbath-day’s well-preserved suit, and his Sabbath-day’s look of
gravity.

“Eh, Robbie!” exclaimed Mrs Mense, “it’s a judgment--it’s just a visible
judgment and retribution on that hard auld man! As if we werena sinfu’
enough oursels to learn us mercy to our neighbours, let alane our ain
bairns, bane of our bane, and flesh of our flesh.”

“The minister says we maun hae sure word afore we tell Saunders,” said
Robbie; “as if the word we hae gotten wasna ower sure; but I say we’ve
nae richt to keep the news frae the faither and the mother. Thea hae
mair richt to ken than fremd folk. To be sure, I gied my word to the
minister that I wad tell naebody. I’m saying, Jen, mind; till ance the
minister maks his inquiries, ye’re no’ to say a word about it; though I
kenna but what it wad be richt to tell the auld man, whether it turned
out true or no, just to bring him to himsel’.”

“Eh, preserve me!” said Janet Mense, “they say he put his curse upon the
lad.”

“I wadna say onything was ower hard for Saunders Delvie,” said the
fisherman.

“Whisht! nane o’ ye ken,” said the old woman. “If he had been mair
moderate in his liking, he wad hae been mair moderate in his wrath. I
tell ye, nane o’ ye ken. Wha’s yon, Jen? is’t no’ Saunders, his ain
sel’?”

The fisherman glanced eagerly out, and then drew back.

“I pat on my Sabbath-day’s claes just for the purpose, but I canna face
him now. I’ll slip awa into the milk-house, Mrs Mense; and say naething
to him. It’s in the minister’s hands; we maun just leave it to the
minister.”

So saying, Robbie with some trepidation hastened away to conceal himself
in the dairy until the old man had passed.

The stern, harsh face of Saunders Delvie was lighted with a fire of
strange and wild excitement. Defiance and yearning, tears and frowns,
were strangely mingled in it. His voice shook, his gray eyelashes were
wet, and under his heavy, bushy eyebrows his eyes shot out glances of
fiery grief. His stern composure of manner was entirely broken. A burst
of weeping, or a paroxysm of fierce rage, might, either of them, have
brought to a climax the old man’s unusual agitation. With his heavy,
quick, unsteady step, he came into the kitchen of Mossgray. No one spoke
to him, for both of the women were afraid.

Mrs Mense was sitting in her chair by the fireside; he went up to her
hurriedly.

“Auld friend,” he said abruptly, with that harsh tremor in his voice,
more moving than many lamentations, “ken ye onything that concerns me or
mine? tell me plain out what it is, for this I wunna bear.”

“Oh, Saunders,” exclaimed the old woman, wiping the tears from her
withered cheek, “have pity upon the lad--the puir lad!”

“Is that a’? have ye nae mair to say but that?” said Saunders. Janet had
followed the example of the fisherman, and the two old servants of
Mossgray were alone. “Is that a’?” repeated Saunders, speaking rapidly,
as if, in the contradictory impulse of his anxiety, he wished to prevent
her from answering. “Ye’re sure that’s a’? Then I maun gang my ways--I
maun tak counsel; if it’s righteous it maunna be ower late; but I’ll no’
speak to the Laird. He’s no’ a man like me; he taks the reprobate and
the race o’ the reprobate into his bosom. Na, I winna speak to the
Laird.”

And lifting his head again with something of his usual rigid pride, the
old man went away, as hastily as he had entered.

The market was over in Fendie, and as the summer afternoon drowsily
waned, and the weekly stir subsided, Mr Oswald sat in his little private
office alone. The banker was an elder of the Church, and a man, as
Saunders thought, of kindred mind and temperament to his own. It was
from him that he came to seek counsel.

Mr Oswald looked up in some astonishment as the old man was ushered into
his _sanctum_.

“It’s a case of conscience, Sir,” said Saunders, in his harsh, tremulous
voice. “I was wanting to ask your counsel.”

Mr Oswald was a little startled. Cases of conscience were not quite in
his way, although he had the ordination of the eldership upon him.

“Had you not better speak to the minister, Saunders?” he said; “but sit
down, and tell me what troubles you.”

The banker’s heart was touched with the trembling vehemence of the old
man’s manner and appearance as he stood before him.

“Na, Sir, I canna speak to the minister,” said Saunders. “The minister’s
a young man, and doesna ken the afflictions of the like o’ me. He may
hae comfort for his ain kind, but the griefs o’ the gray head are aboon
the ken o’ lads like him. I canna speak to the minister.”

Mr Oswald had heard the rumour of Peter Delvie’s death, and pitied the
stern old father; again he asked him to sit down.

Saunders took the offered seat, and pressed his bonnet convulsively
between his hands.

“It’s touching the lawfulness of a vow--a vow before the Lord.”

Mr Oswald’s voice faltered a little; an indefinite thrill of conscience
moved him.

“What is it, Saunders?”

“I made a resolve,” said the old man, his features twitching, and his
strong, harsh voice shaking with the very force of his determination to
steady it, “to put forth ane--ane that had sinned--out from my house as
an alien and a reprobate. He had shamed the name that righteous puir men
had laboured to keep honest for him--he had sinned in the sight of God
and man; and before the Lord I pat him forth, and took a vow on me that
he should cross my doorstane never mair. Maister Oswald, ye’re an elder
of the Kirk, and a man of years, and ane that has had bairns born to
ye, and ken--am I no’ bound before the Lord to haud to my vow?”

Mr Oswald moved upon his chair uneasily. He could not answer.

“I have had converse with Mossgray,” continued Saunders, shrill tones of
excitement mingling with the usual slow, grave accents of his broken
voice, “but Mossgray is anither manner of man, and kensna--kensna the
like o’ me. He tells me that change is a guid gift of God, given for our
using like ither providences, and that what I have said wi’ my lips may
be broken, and me no mansworn--but I say, no--I ken nae law ither than
the auld law of Scripture, and I maun perform to the Lord my vow. Sir,
Mr Oswald, think ye not so?”

The old man’s shaggy eyelash was wet, but the fire shot forth behind.
Strongly the two contending powers within him struggled for the mastery.
He wanted his authority to second the dictates of the yearning nature,
which, moved by whispers of some unknown calamity to his son, contended
bitterly with the stern obstinacy of his temper and his sense of right;
yet he had entered upon the oft-repeated arguments, with which he had
been used to defend himself against the gentle attacks of Mossgray, and
was becoming heated in his own defence. If the banker had pronounced his
judgment against the breaking of this vow, it would have carried a
bitter pang to the old man’s heart, and yet would have been a triumph.
He sat, pressing his bonnet in his hard hands, and shaking like a
palsied man. He had put his fate on this chance. He had resolved to make
the judgment of the other pertinacious man to whom he appealed, his
final rule, and anxiously he waited for the decision.

But George Oswald moving there uneasily in his elbow chair was too much
perplexed and conscience-stricken to give a ready answer. The vehement
father-love of Saunders Delvie, which in its agony of disappointed hope
produced this vow, sublimed the old man’s sternness and lifted it out of
the class of ordinary emotions. It was not anger, or wounded pride, or
shame alone, but it was all these, intensified and burning with the
strong, bitter love which still worshipped in its secret heart the son
whom it had expelled from his home. The worldly man who had put the
barrier of his disapproval in the way of _his_ son’s happiness, for such
paltry motives as Saunders Delvie never knew, felt himself abashed in
presence of the old, stern peasant, whose appealing eye was upon him.

“Saunders,” said Mr Oswald, with a faltering voice, “we are bound at all
times to forgive.”

“It’s no that I dinna forgive him,” cried the old man in his passion.
“It’s no that I dinna think upon him night and day--it’s no that--oh
man! do ye no ken?”

And Saunders, forgetting all artificial respectfulness, put down his
gray head into his hard toil-worn hands and sobbed aloud--such strong
convulsive sobs as the awed banker had never heard before.

Hope Oswald had opened the door very quietly to look in, and the
instincts of childhood were scarcely yet subdued in the young heart of
the banker’s daughter. She came softly across the room to stand by
Saunders’ side, and touch his hand with awe and pity.

“Saunders,” whispered Hope, “maybe it is not true--the minister says it
is not true.”

The old man lifted his face; no face less stern could have been moved so
greatly.

“What is’t that’s no true?”

“Poor Peter!” said Hope, with tears upon her cheek, “do you mind how
good he aye was, Saunders? and his heart broke, people say, because you
were angry at him; but you are not angry now; and when he comes back you
will go out to meet him like the man in the Bible, and be friends? for,
Saunders, you are friends with Peter now?”

He could not wait for any judgment; he could not think of any vow. A
burst of weeping, such as might have hailed the prodigal’s return,
followed the simple speech of Hope. The living love within him burst
through its perverse and unseemly garments; and those peaceful walls,
unused to great emotion, had never heard such a cry as broke through
them now, from lips that trembled as the great king’s did of old, when
he too wept for his Absalom. “My son! my son!”




CHAPTER IX.

    “I am a son of Mars, who have been in many wars.”--BURNS.


“Oh, Hope, Alick’s come,” exclaimed Adelaide Fendie one bright August
day, as she alighted from the nondescript gig driven by John Brown, and
went with her arm linked in her friend’s into the banker’s sober
dining-room. “Mamma is so glad--we’re all so glad--Alick’s come.”

“And, Hope,” added Victoria, “somebody else is come too. It’s the sword
and cocked hat that Tibbie saw at Hallowe’en. Oh, Hope, if you only saw
him!”

“Who is it, Adelaide?” asked Hope.

“It’s--Alick’s come,” said the slow Adelaide with her dull blush, “mamma
is so glad, Hope; and we’re to have a ball and parties--I don’t know how
many--and Mossgray and young Mr Graeme are coming to dine to-morrow, and
next week we are going to Mossgray--because Miss Maxwell will never go
out anywhere now you know, and Mr Graeme wants to have Alick and me,”
added Adelaide, with a dignified consciousness of having reached the
full years of young ladyhood. “I’m to go too.”

“Will Mossgray ask you, Hope?” inquired Victoria.

“Hope is too young,” said Adelaide, in her new dignity. “Doesn’t mamma
tell you, Victoria, not to talk about things you don’t understand? but
though you’re too young to go out to parties yet, Hope, you’re to come
up and see Alick: and there’s Alick’s friends too, you know.”

Hope was offended. She was full fifteen, and thought herself a very
mature womanly person, so she condescended to ask no further questions
about Alick’s friends, though Victoria’s malicious laugh, and the dull
consciousness of Adelaide, made Hope a little curious; but Hope’s mind
was occupied with things of very much more importance than cocked hats
or swords.

“Adelaide, does Alick know about Peter Delvie? oh, Mr Insches says
perhaps it is not true--and poor Saunders!--does Alick know anything,
Adelaide; does Alick think it is true?”

“Hope! do you think our Alick knows anything about Peter Delvie?”

“If he does not it is very bad of him,” said Hope boldly; “for Peter is
a Fendie man--they were both Fendie men away in yon great India; but did
you not ask him, Adelaide? did you not think of poor Saunders when Alick
came home?”

“I forgot, Hope,” said Adelaide, more humbly.

“Will you not forget to-day then? will _you_ mind, Victoria? and I will
come up to the Mount to-morrow to hear; for Saunders thinks he is dead;
oh, Adelaide, if he only were living to come back again!”

Hope had never been able to forget the agony of the old man; but her
visitors were by no means interested.

“Do you mind Alick, Hope?” said Adelaide, “mamma says he is so improved;
and he’s as brown as he can be with the sun; and then there is Captain
Hyde, Alick’s friend; he is an Englishman, and belongs to such an old
family. They came in with the Conqueror.”

“And they called them Van Dunder at first,” said the malicious Victoria,
“and then they were married to a Miss Hyde, a rich lady: and now their
full name is Dunder Hyde; but Alick says it should be Dunderhead,
because he’s so stupid.”

“Victoria, I’ll tell mamma,” said the offended Adelaide.

“But Van Dunder is not like a Norman name,” said Hope, who was more
erudite; “it’s like Dutch: are you sure they were Normans, Adelaide?”

“I don’t know anything about Normans,” said Adelaide, with dignity; “but
I know that Captain Hyde’s family came to England with King William; for
he told me that--”

“But that would be Dutch William,” said the historical Hope; “and does
he wear a sword and a cocked hat; and do you like him, Adelaide?”

Adelaide drew herself up.

“Hope! what are you thinking of!”

“What is the matter,” said the straight-forward Hope; “would it be wrong
if you liked him? I am sure I like Halbert Graeme very well, and perhaps
I will like Alick; but I like old Mossgray far better; and I wouldn’t be
afraid to say it.”

“Young ladies should not speak so,” said Adelaide, in her dull
solemnity.

Hope was very innocent:--she still thought of a young lady only as an
ordinary mortal, and not as a professional person--for Hope, schemer and
matchmaker as she was, had never been initiated into the system of
mutual silliness with which boys and girls, just before they become men
and women, surround each other; and although perfectly undefended from
the romantic, and prone to be overpowered by it, whenever her hour
should come, she had triple armour in her honest, artless temper,
against all the affectations of the young lady and young gentleman
period.

“Has Alick ever been in a battle?” inquired Hope with some awe.

“Oh, Hope, so many! Alick does not care about battles now,” said
Adelaide; “if you only heard Captain Hyde and him!”

“I wonder if he ever killed anybody,” said Hope, with a shudder. “I
wonder if he ever took away a man’s life--maybe somebody’s son,
Adelaide, like poor Peter Delvie--or like the gentleman--”

“What gentleman, Hope?”

“I mean somebody I heard of,” said Hope, prudently checking herself, as
she remembered that what she knew of the bereavement of Lilias was not
fit news for her gossiping companions; “but to take away a life,
Adelaide,--I think it must be very terrible.”

“I don’t know, Hope,” said the stolid Adelaide; “but Alick has been in
so many battles that he does not care for them now--and so has Captain
Hyde.”

“And will you mind, Adelaide,” said Hope, as she saw them again safely
deposited in the gig, under the care of John Brown, “will you be sure to
ask about Peter Delvie?--and I’ll come up to-morrow to hear.”

Adelaide promised, and they returned home; but the promise faded from
Adelaide’s memory before they were halfway to Mount Fendie; and when the
faithful Hope went up to the Mount next day to ascertain the result of
her friend’s inquiries, there was much to be said about Captain Hyde,
but nothing of the hapless Peter. The strangers were out. Hope did not
see them--and she had to go away, contenting herself with another
promise, which was in like manner broken.

Peter Delvie was an early friend of Hope’s. He had helped her over
burns, and comforted her when stung by the nettles and pricked by the
thorns of juvenile mischance--had pulled brambles for her from
inaccessible hedge-rows, and fished unattainable water-lilies to her
feet. Hope remembered all his gentle deeds, and liked the unfortunate
Peter. And Saunders, in rigid, hopeless misery, was condemning himself
as the murderer of his son; the old man’s stern grief moved the young
heart strangely. Hope would have endeavoured any exertion to bring
comfort to the harsh, agonized, despairing heart.

A second disconsolate journey Hope had made to Mount Fendie; but
Adelaide still forgot; and wearily, with something of the discontent and
melancholy which elder people feel, in sight of the indifference and
lack of sympathy displayed by the common herd, Hope was returning home.

She had entered the garden of Mossgray before she became aware that
there were visitors in it. Under shadow of a fine beech tree, Lilias, in
her mourning dress, sat on a garden seat. It was Saturday, and those
holidays were now very frequently spent by Helen Buchanan with her
pensive and delicate friend whose health needed all gentle care and
tendance. Helen was standing behind Lilias, looking shy and something
out of place, as she bent over the downcast Lily of Mossgray, and tried
to shield her from the remarks sometimes addressed to her by the young
men who stood with the Laird and Halbert at a little distance. The
strangers were Alick Fendie and the redoubtable Captain Hyde; Hope did
not know them--she came up, stealing under cover of the trees, to Lilias
and Helen.

Lilias had turned her head away, where no one could see the drooping,
melancholy face. They had been talking in her presence of those fatal
Indian wars--had been running over, with careless levity, those names,
made so bitterly memorable to her, of places where the dead had been.
She had turned aside, with her trembling arm resting against the silvery
beech; and Helen’s eyes were cast down too, and no one saw what clouds
were passing over the wan face of the Lily of Mossgray.

Hope did not think of that, as she advanced innocently to the mourner’s
side, and looked into her face; the tears were standing upon those
colourless cheeks in large drops--the pale lips were quivering.

“Hope!” said Helen, in reproof.

Lilias put her hand upon Hope’s, gently detaining her.

“Hope has been my shield before,” she said in her low, broken voice;
and Hope’s heart swelled with graver emotion than was wont to move it,
as the drooping Lily leaned for a moment upon her shoulder. She
remembered very well the other time--the bow window of Mrs Fendie’s
morning-room and the first meeting of Mossgray with his ward; but Lilias
was still paler, still more fragile now, and people said she would not
dwell long in this life.

The young heir of Mount Fendie, lieutenant in his regiment, but captain
at home, was the model of his sister Victoria--malicious with a kind of
pert cleverness, which passed muster for wit very well among the stupid
Fendies; but Captain Hyde, his butt and companion, was much too
complacent to be at all conscious of being quizzed. In himself a tall
fellow of his hands--in estate a considerable proprietor in one of the
rich English counties on the other side of the island--the arrows of
ridicule glanced innoxiously from off the glittering armour of
good-humoured self-importance which bucklered Captain Arthur Hyde.

“Poor Robertson,” said Alick Fendie, in his loud voice, as Hope began to
listen. “He was killed in that skirmish at ----; but, by the by, don’t
you remember hearing a rumour before we left India, Hyde, that all these
poor fellows were not killed after all?”

Captain Hyde gaped a “never heard it.”

“I am sure you did,” responded his brisk companion. “Why, man, don’t you
recollect? Somebody’s servant had turned up, and reported that himself
and his master were not dead--very near it--very badly wounded, but not
killed outright, and that the Affghan fellows were nursing a lot of
them--I think there was a lot; and the fellows who had taken them were
just about to turn their coat; they are always doing that, these
wretches of natives, and were taking care of them to curry favour with
us; yes, to be sure we heard it. It was a mere rumour, you know, but it
might be true. Anything may happen in India. Men get killed and then
turn up again in the most miraculous way--eh, Hyde?”

Lilias had risen and turned round blindly to Helen, as if seeking
support.

“Save me, Helen,” said the Lily of Mossgray, “save me from this hope.”

“And is that all? do you know nothing further about these unfortunate
young men?” said the anxious voice of Mossgray.

“Nothing at all,” answered Alick Fendie briskly. “It may not be worthy
of the least credit what we did hear. I only give it you as a rumour.”

“Lilias is ill; we will go in,” said Helen, supporting her friend on the
nervous, firm arm, which began to tremble in sympathetic sorrow. “Will
you come to us when you can, Mossgray? Lilias is ill.”

And Lilias was ill. After this long sinking in the deep waters of grief,
the fever of hope was too much for her. Large, cold drops stood upon her
white, shadowy forehead, her thin, wasted frame was shaken with sudden
pains, the mist of blindness was upon her eyes, and the slender arm
twined in Helen’s leaned so heavily--you could not have fancied there
was so much weight in the slight, drooping figure altogether as there
was in that one thin arm.

“And, Captain Alick,” said Hope, stepping forward bravely, “did you see
Peter Delvie in India? They have sent home word that he is dead; do you
think Peter is dead?”

“Why, I believe this is little Hope Oswald,” exclaimed Captain Alick,
shaking Hope’s hand energetically, and offering a salutation from which
Hope, immensely red and angry, withdrew in high disdain. “Why, Hope, you
are taller than Adelaide; and what a little thing you were when I went
away.”

“Will you tell me about Peter Delvie, Captain Fendie?” said Hope, with
some dignity.

“Who is Peter Delvie, Hope? I never saw him in India, I assure you. But
why do you never come to the Mount? I must come and see you myself one
of these days.”

Hope went away dissatisfied and sad. Nobody would care except for
themselves, nobody would attend to her inquiries, nobody would think of
the old man who had lost his only child.

Lilias was sitting on a low chair, bending her head down upon her knees,
as Mossgray looked in at the door of their usual sitting-room. Her face
was hidden in her hands; she did not see him.

Helen stood close beside her, holding one of those feverish, hot hands.

“Helen, it is very hard to bear,” said the broken Lily, “very terrible.
I thought I was patient, I thought I had learned to endure; but this
hope, this false, vain hope--I cannot bear it, Helen.”

Helen answered nothing; she only pressed gently the thin, trembling
fingers which lay in her own.

“And if it was true,” said Lilias, “they were many, very many; would you
have me hope that it was _him_--that _he_ was saved alone?”

And then the wan face was lifted, supplicating, begging to be
contradicted--instinct with its woeful entreaty that this hope which it
called false might be pronounced true.

“Will you not speak to me!” said poor Lilias. “Have you nothing to say
to me, Helen?”

“I cannot tell,” said the faltering voice of Helen. “I have heard of
very wonderful things; this may be one of them. What can I say, Lilias?
There have been such deliverances before--I cannot tell.”

Lilias rose up suddenly, and laid her arms upon Helen’s shoulders,
supporting herself there.

“He is the only son of his mother. She would pray for him night and day.
Helen, Helen, there are few so blessed. Would they not be heard in
heaven, those prayers?”

Poor Helen trembled as much in her strength as the other did in her
weakness; she dared not recommend this hope to the sick heart, which had
already grasped it so strongly.

“We must wait, Lilias,” she said. “It is very hard, very hard to do it,
I know, but it is in God’s hands, and we must wait.”

Lilias put up her hands to her head; she staggered as she withdrew from
her support. A sickly smile came upon her face.

“I ought to go to his mother, Helen. Will you come with me to seek his
mother? Mossgray is very good, very kind, but she has more need of me.
She has not written, because she would think, like me, that he was dead;
but it may be true. You have heard of very wonderful deliverances. You
said so, Helen; you thought it might be true.”

But Helen’s head drooped. She feared to encourage the expectation.

Lilias sat down upon her low chair again, and again bent her head upon
her knees; her feeble frame was distracted with bodily pains no less
than her mind was with mental.

“I think my head is dizzy, Helen,” she said, in her melancholy, broken
voice. “I think I am forgetting myself--for this is only vain and false,
a mockery of hope. I see it is. If the grief were yours, Helen, you
would see that this could not be true.”

Those strange artifices of misery! they brought tears to the eyes of the
looker-on, to whom this did indeed seem a mockery of hope.

“You must stay with her, Helen,” said Mossgray, when they had left
Lilias alone. “You must stay with her till I return. I cannot leave
Fendie to-night, but to-morrow evening I will. I will go to London, and
ascertain at once if there is any truth in this. Do not let Lilias know
where I am nor what is my errand. I leave her with you in all
confidence, Helen. You will be tender of my poor Lily.”




CHAPTER X.

    I do not hope--ah, no!--mine eyes are clear,
    I see it would be vain; perchance, perchance,
    Some other heart doth hope and will be blessed;
    But mine--why should this gladness come to mine?
    I have been used with grief;
    A sombre way has mine been, all my days,
    And yet perchance--oh, Heaven, such things might be!
    As that one giant joy should come to me,
    Eclipsing common joys.--OLD PLAY.


“Helen,” said Lilias, “do you think I am very weak?”

They were sitting alone together on the morning of the third day after
Mossgray’s departure. It was early, and Helen was just preparing to
return to the daily labours which she could not intermit.

“I think you have had great trouble, Lilias, and you are not strong; but
why do you ask me?”

“Helen,” said the pale Lilias, “do you never think it is selfish to sink
under this blow as I have done? I think it has sometimes come into your
mind; _you_ would not have done it, Helen?”

“We are not alike,” said Helen, hurriedly. “I think I should have
rebelled, I should have repined. I should have been like the Leonore of
that ghastly ballad; but I have my daily work to battle with, and
little cares and little humiliations to teach me patience--yet I will
never be so patient as you are, Lilias.”

“It is because I am alone, Helen,” said Lilias, in her faint, pleading
tone of self-defence, “because there is no one in the world, not one, to
whom I am the best beloved. If I had been like you--if my mother had
lived--I think I should have been brave, Helen; but now I have only my
grief, nothing more, in all this cold world.”

“And Mossgray, Lilias,” said Helen.

“I am very ungrateful,” said Lilias, bending her head. “I wanted you to
think that I was not selfish, Helen; and yet to lose them all--to lose
them both in one year, it is very bitter, very hard; you cannot tell how
hard it is.”

She was very pale, though perfectly composed; but now as she paused, a
red light seemed to flash across her face for a moment, the flicker of
that unnatural, feverish hope which she fancied she had tried to quench,
but which, instead, was gathering strength every hour, and lighting up
her heart with an unnatural radiance.

“I wish you could work as I have to do, Lilias,” said Helen, as she drew
her homely shawl about her. “I think it would be good medicine if you
were strong enough. If we could only change, if you could fight a little
as it is natural for me, and I could be patient as you are; but we must
be content. I am going out now to my little battle-ground; there are
some struggles and bitternesses in it, you know; will you try to-day to
think how important you are to all of us--to us all here, Lilias, and to
let the sun come in upon you?”

“These long days!” said Lilias. “I am not patient, Helen. I think they
will never come to an end. Will you bring some of the children with you?
Hope Oswald--any of them. I like to see the children; and we will try
to-night to forget--to forget,” said Lilias, with the flickering red
light upon her face again, “not the sorrow, but the hope.”

The feverish hope which had so frail a foundation to build its airy
fabric on--what was it that wakened out of the gentle passive depths of
Lilias’s mind the feeling that her sinking calm of grief was wrong, and
that there was need to exert herself to cast it off? It was not reason,
it was not thought; it was a new hysteric strength, other than comes
from the deliberated wisdoms of man; a fluttering meteoric light,
springing up about her, dangerously exciting, desperate, wild. She said
she would forget it; she did not know that it was the fairy strength of
this hope inspiring her, which made it possible that she should forget.

And while Lilias began to move about the house in the new strength,
which, she fancied, arose from a resolve to exert herself and show her
gratitude to her friends, Helen went quickly down the Waterside to her
daily labour. Her quick, nervous, tell-tale motions seemed to have been
subdued in presence of the mourner, and her face looked paler and
quieter than was its wont. That varying temperament of hers had a
strange facility of catching the tone of the atmosphere in which she
was, and wearing it unconsciously as the sky wears the clouds. The happy
good-morrow twitterings--not songs--of the birds among the dewy
glistening leaves confused the stronger voice of the wan water, and
filled all the fresh morning air with inarticulate music--cheerful
sounds came through the intervening trees from Fendie. Children, yonder,
on the high-road began to flock out of the cottage doors to school.
Scarcely any heart could refuse to rise with the buoyant upspringing new
day; but along the green, soft path, and through this plain of long
waving grass by the side of the bridge, Helen Buchanan went quietly with
a dimness on her face.

She had cares and bitternesses enough, as she said. William Oswald was
still in Edinburgh; he had not been home even for a day; but the
Reverend Robert had learned with inexpressible surprise and considerable
pain that the young schoolmistress of Fendie did not choose to accept
the dignified position to which he had elected her. It was almost the
first rebuff he had met with since the triumphant beginning of his
career, and he was a mortal young man, though he was a minister, and
felt the mortification of being rejected to its fullest extent. So the
Reverend Robert concealed the disappointment of the true honest feelings
which did him honour under a veil of pique and pride. He could not
manage to be indifferent, yet in his manner, when he accidentally met
her, and in his attempt at indifference, was almost rude to Helen. Her
sensitive pride began to rise again in full tide; people had begun to
notice her for the sake of the minister, who now believing, as
thoughtless malice said, that the minister had changed his mind and
withdrawn in time, withdrew too, and marked the change: and Mrs
Buchanan’s little quiet house fell into its old loneliness once more.

And the old weariness came sometimes back, and forlorn bitter thoughts
swelled sometimes again about the changing heart. It was the penalty she
paid for her power to endure and to enjoy.

So she went to her usual labour, and worked at it as she had worked for
years; but other schools were rising in Fendie, where the little
daughters of the masons and joiners and seamen of the good town could
acquire a greater stock of accomplishments than Helen professed--where
the fancy-work flourished in a perfect luxuriance of patterns, and the
sober “whiteseam,” which was poor Helen’s staple, was thrust aside in
disgrace. Helen was so foolish as to have an opinion on this subject;
she had a good deal of wilfulness about her, it must be confessed; she
thought it an honourable craft for those small maidens of hers, the
manufacture of garments for their various homes; but was somewhat
impatient of the tawdry prettinesses after which their ambition yearned.

It did her a little harm this weakness of aesthetical feeling; she
thought of the natural fitness and propriety, and they gave her no
thanks; and so it chanced that Helen got few new scholars. She felt the
evils of competition; as her elder girls dropped off with their quota of
education completed, younger ones did not come in to fill up the
declining numbers, even when the young schoolmistress having discovered
her error began not very willingly to amend it. Mrs Buchanan was
beginning to look very sad and careworn; the steps of the coming wolf
were already at the door.

The half year’s rent would soon be due, and the mother and daughter, in
their anxious consultations, could by no means see where it was to come
from. And the banker Oswald was their landlord; the gentle widow and the
proud, sensitive Helen were at one in that point; there was nothing that
they would not rather do than delay their payment by a single day.

Mrs Buchanan’s little portion was very attenuated now; the expenses of
her husband’s illness and death had nearly swallowed it up, and the
remnant was in the form of bank shares; but the very meagre dividend
which this little capital yielded yearly was not above half what was
necessary for this dreaded rent. The good mother painfully hoarded the
little stock of school-fees; painfully expended what was absolutely
needed--and lay awake far into the night and started again before the
sun was up, calculating that sad arithmetic which could not issue in
anything but a failure--laboriously trying to bring together the two
ends which would not meet.

So Helen needed the natural spring and buoyant life of her temperament
as much as Lilias did the gentle human touch of hope: their sorrows were
apportioned to them by the same Hand which did so diversely create their
spirits. Lilias had been very patient, until this wild light of hope
broke in upon her still dead sorrow; and now Helen was bravely fighting
against the cold incoming tide of neglect and poverty; holding up a high
heart above the waves, and keeping as she could, unwetted by the chill
spray about her, the wings of her strong life.

The banker Oswald was looking on; he had managed to ascertain so much of
their need, and means, and mode of life as would have added bitterness
to their struggle had Mrs Buchanan or her daughter known of it; and with
singular interest and even some excitement, as he might have looked at a
strong swimmer contending with the stronger current, the obstinate man
looked on. To see these women battling so stoutly with a tide more
powerful than that under which Walter Buchanan had sunk in his mid-day;
to observe how Helen bore her fall from the temporary elevation which
the minister’s attentions had procured for her, and went upon her way
alone in her own unconscious dignity, so open to all kindnesses, still,
and with the frank, clear skies of youth constantly breaking through the
clouds of injured pride--no thought of coming to the rescue entered the
mind of the banker, but there were no two persons in Fendie, out of his
own household, whom he observed with half the interest which fascinated
him to these. He fancied William had altogether forgotten the poor
schoolmistress, and while he was entirely satisfied that such should be
the case, a certain shade of contempt for this, obtruded itself into the
pride with which he regarded the rising name of his son: but had William
suddenly presented himself to ask the banker’s consent, as he had done
before, the answer would still have been the same; he was still
determined, unchangeable, bound by the resolution which nothing should
break--never!

“I do not know what to say to Lilias, mother,” said Helen, as in the
afternoon she prepared to return to Mossgray, where Mrs Buchanan was to
accompany her. “_You_ will know--I cannot speak to her of this, for it
would be terrible to lead her to hope, and then have that dreary blank
of disappointment return again--and such disappointment! It is not like
our troubles--troubles which could be almost altogether removed by what
would be a very little matter to Mossgray; but Lilias has a heavier
burden than we have.”

“The present trouble looks aye the hardest, Helen,” said Mrs Buchanan.
“She is young, and has many friends--she will forget; but you must fight
on, my poor bairn. I feel your trouble more than hers.”

Helen could lament herself into despondency without much difficulty, but
the perverse temperament would not droop for any will but its own.

“Hush, mother!” said Helen; “it is only a fight after all, and there is
nothing so very bad in having to labour; I could not do without it, I
think, and we will get through yet, no fear.”

Mrs Buchanan shook her head.

“I hope so, my dear--I hope we shall, Helen; but how we are to do at
Martinmas I cannot tell.”

“The fear of ill exceeds the ill we fear,” said Helen, with a bright
face. “We will do all we can, mother, and we will manage someway--do not
let us think of it to-night.”

Mrs Buchanan’s heart did not rise as her daughter’s did; but the good
mother was ready to brighten too, lest those occasional gleams of
sunshine, the sole solace of Helen’s toiling life, should be overcast.

“When is Hope to come?” she asked, “and what made Lilias think of asking
Hope, Helen?”

“She wanted to escape from her own thoughts--at least she said so,
mother--she wanted to be prevented from dwelling upon her hopes and
fears for this night; and the grown-up people, the young ladies and the
young gentlemen, would have tormented rather than eased her. Poor
Lilias! I think she has some idea of Mossgray’s errand; she has not
asked much about him, but a step without makes her shiver, and at night
she grows so anxious. You are used to nervous people, mother, but when
Lilias is nervous--so calm as she naturally is--it is far more painful
to see, I think, than any natural tremor. Are you ready? for there is
Hope.”

Hope led by the hand a little white-frocked, blue-eyed girl, the little
Mary Wood of whom she had spoken so much. Miss Swinton had remained
only a day in Fendie, and to Hope’s great disappointment, had not seen
Helen; but the little Mary was left with Mrs Oswald for a long visit.
Hope was exceedingly fond and proud of the child, and eager to display
its juvenile wisdom and attainments. They all set out together for
Mossgray.

“My papa is in India,” said little Mary Wood, sliding her small hand
into the trembling fingers of Lilias, as they sat under cover of the
great beech, watching the autumn sun sink gorgeously over the western
hill; “and when I am a big lady I’m to go to India too, and then I’m to
be married to somebody--Miss Mansfield says so, Hope.”

And Lilias laughed tremulously with the others, communicating a sick
melancholy tone to the very sound of mirth.

“But Miss Mansfield says so, Miss Maxwell; and Miss Mansfield is a
grown-up lady; she’s bigger than Miss Buchanan--isn’t she, Hope?”

“Never mind Miss Mansfield; nobody cares about her,” said Hope; “but
look, little Mary, look at yon star!--oh, Helen, look! in among the gold
clouds, and it so white and cold like--I know what it’s like.”

“Oh! what is it like, Hope?” cried little Mary Wood, who had the
greatest possible admiration of Hope’s stories.

“It’s like somebody--somebody like what folk are in books,” said Hope,
“standing in among the rich common people; it’s far better than the
clouds--it’s as good as the sun, only it’s not so great; but for all
that, look at it, how it’s shaking, and how pale it is; but it knows it
is better than the clouds.”

Little Mary looked up wonderingly in awe of Hope’s occult acquaintance
with the star; but this did not strike her as Hope’s stories generally
did; for she said, after a little pause,--

“I wish it were to-morrow--I wish it were the day after to-morrow.”

“Why, Mary?” said Lilias.

“Because Miss Swinton said papa was going to write me a letter, and that
I would get it to-morrow, or the day after to-morrow. A whole big letter
to myself--a letter from papa, all the way from India--oh, Miss
Maxwell!”

Lilias trembled a little; a slight painful shiver, as if of cold. She
remembered well the time so long marked and looked for.

“The night is getting chill,” said Mrs Buchanan; “I think we must go in
now; and come tell me, little Mary, about these great designs of yours.”

“Mary is very little,” said Hope, apologetically, taking the vacant
place by the side of Lilias; “she says just what comes into her head,
you know, Miss Maxwell.”

“And do _you_ not say what comes into your head, Hope?”

“But then I am not like Mary, Helen,” said Hope promptly; “I am
fifteen--I know--at least I should know better than little Mary. Do you
know when Mossgray is coming back, Miss Maxwell?”

Lilias shivered again. “No, Hope.”

Poor Hope! she was not so very much wiser than little Mary, after all.

The harvest moon had risen; the night was considerably advanced; Mrs
Buchanan had set out with Hope and the child some time since; Helen and
Lilias were alone.

They were sitting together in the deep recess of one of those
old-fashioned windows, and the room was perfectly dark, save for the
broad, full moonlight which made bars of silver light across the gloom.
They were speaking in the hushed tone which people instinctively adopt
at such times, and Helen was endeavouring to keep the attention of
Lilias occupied, although her broken answers and unconnected words
showed how ill she accomplished it, and frequent starts and intervals of
listening evinced the anxiety of both.

“Let us have lights, Lilias,” said Helen; “it is not good this--it will
do you harm.”

“Yes,” said Lilias, vacantly--“I mean, wait a little--only wait a
little, Helen.”

She had repeated the excuse again and again, and now grasping her
friend’s arm with those tightened fingers, she bent her pale head in the
full mellow moonlight, and listened, shivering with the chills and
starts of expectation.

There was a slight noise below.

“There is some one coming, Helen,” and the trembling fingers tightened
in their eager grasp. “It is not Halbert--it must be Mossgray--hush!”

“It is only Janet moving below,” said Helen.

“Hush--listen! it is Mossgray! but I dare not go to meet him. Stay with
me, Helen--stay till he comes! Now--now--it will be over now!”

And speaking incoherent words of prayer, Lilias held her eager friend
tight, so that she could not escape, and turned her own bowed head
towards the door.

Lightly up the stair came the elastic footstep, and Mossgray opened the
door gently, and stood before them in the grace of his old age, the
moonbeams mingling with his white hair.

“Where are you?” said the old man, looking into the dark shadows of the
room. “Helen, is she strong? can she bear joy?”

“Mossgray!”

“My good child, there are others in the world to guard your strength
for. He is not strong himself, poor fellow! He has had wounds and
sickness; but he lives to thank God, Lilias, as we do.”

The room was reeling round her, with its heavy shadows, and bars of
broad white light. She held firmly by the firm form of Helen, and laying
down her dizzy head upon her friend’s shoulder, closed her eyes. She
resigned her strained faculties willingly--at present she did not crave
more; the quietness--the peace--fell over her like the moonlight--it was
enough.

“Has she fainted, Helen?” asked Mossgray, anxiously, after a
considerable pause.

Lilias lifted her head, still sick and dizzy, but with a sickness so
different from that of grief.

“No, Mossgray, I am strong.”

And so she was, though she wavered and staggered in the moonlight, and
scarcely could stand without support as yet. The winds had spent
themselves and past away; the unusual fever had fled in a moment, and in
her quietness she was herself again. Already the quick, wild pulse had
fallen into its usual gentle beating; the turbulent strength of joy was
not hers, any more than the passionate might of grief; but in the great
peace of her gladness Lilias was strong.

And then the old man told them his tidings fully; how this very mail had
brought home the certain news; how _he_ did not survive alone, but
various others, officers and men, shared his fancied loss, and sure
restoration; how the wounded men on the field where the little band had
been cut to pieces, were left to the tender mercies of an Affghan tribe,
whose fierce chief had perished in the encounter; how the son of this
rebel Rajah had been trained by a captive Englishman, long ago seized
by the wandering banditti of the tribe, and knew of justices and
generosities higher than are taught by the creed of Mahomet; how the
young sovereign saw how vain the struggle was between his shifting,
unstable countrymen and the steady British arms, and moved by policy
alike, and friendliness, had caused gentle succour to be given to the
helpless wounded British men who were within his power; how they had
travelled to his capital, and found his English tutor there, now, after
long oppression and confinement, a free and honoured man, and how, with
gifts and compliments, the strongest of the prisoners had been
dismissed, and the brave young merchant, Grant, was to follow when he
could.

Dim, dubious, inarticulate thoughts were rising in the old man’s mind as
he told this story, touching a long-past sorrow--a visionary hope of his
own; but he gave them no utterance--and Lilias’ face had not lost the
flush with which she heard the name of its title--brave--when Mossgray
placed a letter in her hand. Lilias was strong now; she hurried away to
her own apartment with this crowning joy of all.

“I waited in Fendie till they should arrange their letters,” said
Mossgray, “that I might see if there was anything for Lilias, and I got
what I desired, Helen. There are other things in this story which
interest me greatly. I wonder--but we shall hear, no doubt, when this
young man comes home.”

The letter was a very brief one, written while he was still scarcely
able to hold the pen, as the unsteady characters bore witness, and only
assuring her that he was safe and out of danger, and whenever his wounds
permitted, would hasten home.

“Does he say nothing of--of the Englishman?” said Mossgray, anxiously,
when Lilias came down to tell him.

But the letter said nothing of any Englishman; the writer had been too
feeble to write anything but the few words which told his safety, and
that he was carefully tended--“in good hands.”




CHAPTER XI.

    Open the lattice; let the fresh, soft air
      Bear in sweet Nature’s psalm;
    Draw the dim curtain quick--the sun is there,
      Holy and bright and calm--
    And here a heart trembles for very gladness,
    Which yesternight fainted twixt hope and sadness.


When Lilias awoke next morning, her heavy black dress was nowhere to be
found. It had been put away out of sight, and a light muslin one was
laid in its place. The Lily of Mossgray put on the happier garment with
reverence, murmuring to herself psalms of thanksgiving. She had wakened
so often to the blank of hopeless grief, that she felt now a solemn
gravity in this new beginning of life; it seemed to her like the visible
interposition of the Divine Hand--a miracle of joy.

The blinds had been drawn up, and the morning sun looked brightly into
the room. These little imaginative attentions could be rendered only by
Helen, but Helen had left the room before Lilias awoke from the long,
happy sleep of her new peace.

In a room below Helen stood beside the old housekeeper. A great pile of
white linen lay on the table before them, and Mrs Mense was exhausting
herself in its praise.

“Na, if ye had Mossgray’s ain muckle spyglass that sits up the stair at
the study window, ye could scarce count the threads,” said the old
woman, triumphantly; “it’s that fine; and ye see, Miss Buchanan, Mr
Halbert’s no’ what ye could ca’ weel supplied, coming out from amang
fremd folk, ye ken. I’ve been wanting to see about getting them made
this lang time, only I didna like to fash the young lady; but Mossgray
says I may speak to her noo. Do ye think I may speak to Miss Lilias noo,
and no fash her, Miss Buchanan?”

“What is it, Mrs Mense?” said Lilias, coming forward with a peaceful
light upon her face which could not be misapprehended. The old woman
glanced at her changed dress and brightened.

“Ye see, Miss Lillie, it’s just the new linen. I dinna think ye ever
lookit at it before; is’t no’ beautiful? And I was just thinking we
should hae it made. Ye see, Mr Halbert he hasna ower mony, and to be
ploutering and washing ance in a fortnight like common folk disna do for
the like o’ us; and ye micht get some yoursel’, Miss Lillie; some o’ the
new-fashioned kind wi’ the frills, for it’s a muckle web, and it wad be
a guid turn to somebody, the making o’ them.”

Helen was twisting a corner of the linen nervously in her fingers.

“I think I could get some one to do it for you, Lilias, if you could
trust me,” she said.

“And you’re just the best to ken, Miss Buchanan,” said Mrs Mense, “for
ye see Miss Lillie has nae friend to speak o’ but yoursel’, and it’s no
like she could ken wha sewed weel, and wha didna; but I’m just as blythe
as I can be, Miss Lillie, to see you wi’ your light gown and your smile
again, and so is Mossgray; and now I’ll gang my ways, and see that Jen’s
minding the breakfast.”

“Lilias,” said Helen, when the old woman was out of hearing, “I don’t
need to have any foolish pride with you. _I_ will make these things for
you if you will take me for your sempstress.”

“_You_, Helen,” said Lilias, “you don’t need--you don’t wish--I mean--”

“I mean that we have never been rich, Lilias,” said Helen, with her
shifting blush, “and that now there is occasion for a little more work
than usual--that is all; and you need not look so grave, unless you
think I shall not make these new-fashioned things well enough to please
Mrs Mense; but I am not afraid, Lilias--I think you may trust me.”

“But, Helen, you have too much to do already; you cannot work always,”
said Lilias. “Let me speak to Mossgray--let me--”

“Hush, hush,” said Helen, “you forget that we have some pride still. I
have not too much to do, Lilias; people seldom have, I think, and it is
no great matter when one can get through one’s troubles by a little
additional labour. It is no hardship; this is my kind of fighting, you
know, and I can do it very well. I think you will give me your work,
Lilias, and a great deal of praise when it is done. I shall please Mrs
Mense. I will invent frills. I think you must trust me.”

It was a slight trial to the sensitive, proud Helen; her cheek was
flushed a little, and the smile trembled on her lip, but she talked the
uncomfortable feeling away, and got it over, with less pain than she
could have thought. The great web of linen was committed to her hands,
and while Lilias entered into her revival of happy life, calm, peaceful,
and at rest, Helen went away home to the little, quiet, dull house, and
to her labour, the long, hard toil to which her heart rose, as to the
strenuous oar which might keep the little ship afloat.

The autumn days flushed to their brightest and began to wane. It was a
gay autumn to the Fendies, and to the other youthful people of the
neighbourhood through them; Halbert Graeme had quite forgiven Menie
Monikie. The saucy Menie sent him cards and gloves when she became Mrs
Keith, and a barbarous lump of bride-cake; but the gift, cruel as it
was, did by no means disturb the equanimity of Halbert. The broken gold
coin lay snug in a corner of his dressing-case; he laughed merrily to
himself sometimes when his eye fell upon it, and thought with a great
deal of good-humour, and scarcely any pique, how simple and foolish the
boy and girl were who broke that coin in the pleasant twilight of the
Aberdeenshire glen. Halbert had got over his first romance very
comfortably; the youthful epidemic fell lightly on the heir of Mossgray.

He was much “out.” Alick Fendie and the redoubtable Captain Hyde
engrossed a great deal of Halbert’s time, and his hands were full of
flirtations now when he had no restraint upon him. But Halbert was not
like his father; the flirtations were honest, unsophisticated
amusements, and did little harm. He was born to be popular with all, but
he killed nobody.

And left thus to themselves in the quiet house of Mossgray, it was a
pleasant time to Lilias and her guardian. She had learned to prize the
sunshine more from its temporary withdrawal, and the old man spoke to
her of the wanderer far away as of an absent son. “When he comes home.”
Lilias remembered how that word rung in her own ear when she first saw
Mossgray; she remembered how, after the lifetime of wandering, the
blessedness of those who dwell among their own people fell upon her; and
_he_ too was to come “home.”

Another letter came from him in those clear September days; it was
brief, like the other. He had much to tell her, he said, but was still
feeble, and must defer it until he spoke to her, face to face; and in
another month he would reach Mossgray.

The news brought a strange thrill over the calm Lily. It was years now
since he went to India. Their engagement had been formed when they were
both very young, and she was now matured into grave womanhood. She began
to fancy that she was changed; she began to wonder whether he too had
grown old as she had done; and while she smiled at herself for these
fancies, they sometimes agitated her a little--a very little--only just
enough to keep the balance even, and prevent an overpoise of joy.

And Helen Buchanan now could only snatch a momentary glance, from the
little wicket gate, of the evening sun, as he went down beyond the hill,
and could not linger to watch the golden mist fade into graver purple
before the breath of night. She had no leisure now for sunset walks, no
time to glean and gather in to her heart the glories of the grand sky
and the dimmer tints of earth, and, eating angel’s bread, grow strong.
Long labour through the whole bright day, labour at the sunsetting,
labour in the fair, dim hours beyond; it was a hard life.

“I have seen the boatmen cross the Firth, when the tawny waves were
coming in like lions,” said Helen, as she bent over those weary breadths
of linen, “and the wind was so high that the boat could bear no sail,
and the current so strong that they could scarcely row; but there was
something in their work--- I fancy I must call it excitement--which made
it quite a different thing from safe, monotonous labour. I mind how it
moved me--the dipping of the oars, which scarcely could enter the great,
buoyant swell of water, the forcing forward of the boat, which did not
seem to be _in_ the stream at all, but _on_ it; it makes one’s heart
beat. I thought I should rather have been with Willie Thomson then, than
when the Firth was as smooth as the wan water.”

“You are not so brave as you think, Helen,” said her mother, smiling.
“Willie Thomson would have found you a very timid passenger.”

“Perhaps--if he was prosaic and understood me literally,” said Helen,
“but I mean one’s heart rises: and in our poor little concerns, mother,
I think we are in the boat, and the Firth is wild with his lion’s mane,
and we are at the oars. Never mind the wind--I like it now, when I am
used to the rocking--and those great, surly, bellowing waves--let us
tame them, mother, it is what they were made for; and yonder is the
shore!”

Mrs Buchanan shook her head. This hand-to-hand struggle with the meagre
strength of poverty was new to Helen. At their best time they had very
little--so little that it was almost a marvel how the good, careful
mother kept the boat afloat; but then their wants bore proportion to
their means, and they were as much content with their spare living as if
it had been the richest;--solitary women always have inexpensive
households--and never before had there been such urgent need as now. It
was well and happy that the young heart rose to meet it; the elder one
had old experiences--memories of being worsted in the battle--of failing
heart and sinking courage, and the armed man, Want, victorious over all.
She sighed and was silent when her daughter spoke; but the storm roused
the strength of Helen. It was the trumpet of her natural warfare, and
she bent to her oar with a stout heart; the end was attainable--they saw
the shore.

“Father,” said Hope Oswald on one of those mellow September days,
“Saunders Delvie is not well--will you come and see him?”

Mr Oswald hesitated a good deal; he had not much power of expression,
and though he might show his sympathy practically if it was much
excited, he could not manage to speak about it. In his capacity as
elder, he could administer reproof with very becoming solemnity, and
overawe the scorner with the grave dignity of his office; but to
encourage, to soothe, to console--these were out of Mr Oswald’s way--he
was shy of adventuring upon them.

“Father,” said Hope, “when Saunders heard that Peter was dead he came to
you--he wanted _you_ to advise him and not Mossgray; and now when there
is no good word about poor Peter, will you not come and see Saunders,
father? for they say he will break his heart and die.”

“People do not die of broken hearts,” said Mr Oswald, hastily.

“But I think Saunders has broken his heart even if he does not die,”
said Hope, with reverence, “and I think that is harder than if God had
taken him away like Peter; but, father, Robbie Caryl says that he heard
Saunders at his worship on Saturday night, and he _minded_ Peter.
Father, Saunders minded Peter in his prayer as if he were not dead.”

Mr Oswald shook his head.

“I am afraid there is very little chance of that, Hope.”

But Hope reiterated her prayer.

“Will you come with me to see Saunders, father?”

“Wait till the evening, Hope,” said the banker: “I will go then.”

And Hope, when the evening came, would suffer no evasion of the promise.
Mr Oswald permitted himself to be led away somewhat reluctantly, for he
felt the duty a very difficult and painful one.

The door of Saunders Delvie’s cottage was closed when they came up, and
from it issued the voice of psalms. It was earlier than the usual
carefully-observed hour of worship, but Saunders and his wife were both
weary and sick at heart, and they were glad to shut out the world and
its gay daylight, and to seek the merciful oblivion of rest as soon as
they could.

The cottage was dimly lighted by the fire, and through the window the
quick eyes of Hope discerned the two well-known figures seated on either
side, and mingling their old cracked, trembling voices in the psalm. It
was strange music--the wife’s low, murmuring, crooning tones, and the
deeper voice of the old man with that shrill break in it--more pathetic
than any sweeter woe of music. Old, poor, bereaved, and solitary, they
omitted no night their usual “exercise”--they never forgot, with these
sinking, wearied hearts and broken tones of theirs, to praise the God
who chastised them.

The banker and his daughter stood without, waiting till their worship
ended; the low, grave murmur of Saunders’ voice as he read the chosen
chapter came to them indistinctly through the gloom, and then Hope saw
the two old solitary people kneel down to prayer.

They could hear what he said then--all the familiar petitions--the daily
prayers in which the godly peasant, ever since he first knelt down at
his own fire-side, had remembered before God his church, his country,
and the authorities ordained in each--had their place first in the old
man’s evening supplications; and last of all, with his voice then
shriller and more broken than ever, and his hard, withered, toil-worn
hands convulsively strained together, there came the soul and essence of
the old man’s prayer,--“If he is yet within the land of the living, and
the place of hope; if he is still on praying ground;” terrible anguish
of entreaty over which that “if” threw its doubt and gloom.

Mr Oswald turned away his face from the quick scrutiny of Hope; the one
vehement strong man understood the other, but the banker felt himself
abashed and humiliated before the intenser, sublimer, and less selfish
spirit: “People do not die of broken hearts.” The young ladies and the
young gentlemen rarely do; but George Oswald discovered, in the
stillness of his own awed soul that night, how solemn a thing a broken
heart is, and how the strongest might die of that rending, or more
terrible, might live.

By and by they entered. The old man was sitting in a homely elbow chair
covered with blue and white checked linen. The bed which occupied one
end of the room was decently curtained with the same material. The house
was only a but and a ben; an outer and an inner apartment, but
everything in it was very neatly arranged and clean. Poor Mrs Delvie’s
“redding up” was done very mechanically now; her hands went about it,
while her mind was far otherwise occupied, but still the kitchen was
“redd up.”

She sat in another elbow chair opposite her husband. She was a sensible,
kindly, good house-mother, and would have been noticeable in any other
connection, but the fervent, strong, passionate old man threw his
gentler wife into the shade; and even her sufferings for the lost son,
whose name through all these weary months she could mention under her
own roof only in her prayers, were dimmed in presence of the intense and
terrible love of the father. She looked very old and tremulous as she
sat there shaking in her chair, and wiping her withered cheek with her
apron. Saunders also had some heavy moisture veiling the almost fierce
light that burned in his eye, and the old man trembled too with the wild
earnestness of his passionate appeal to God.

Mr Oswald entered with a shy inquiry after Saunders’ health.

“Weel eneuch, weel eneuch--better than I deserve,” said Saunders, rising
with a haste which showed still more visibly how his gaunt sinewy frame
shook with his emotion. The visit was greatly esteemed and felt an
honour, though Saunders scarcely thought it right after concluding the
day in his Master’s presence, as he had just done, to enter again into
intercourse with men; they shut out the outer world when they closed
their cottage door reverently upon the waning daylight, and laid the
Book upon the table; but the old man rose to offer the banker his chair.

Mr Oswald sat down upon a high stool near the table, and Hope got a low
one, and drew it in to the hearth, where she could look up with those
young fearless eyes, whose boldness was not intrusion, to the old man’s
face. The banker was embarrassed; he desired to sympathize, but felt
himself an intruder.

“I hear you have been ill, Saunders,” he said.

“Na, no to ca’ ill,” said Saunders, clearing his voice with an effort,
“I’m an auld man, and I get frail; but I hae muckle mair than I deserve;
a hantle mair than I deserve--mair than I wad hae gien to ony ane that
did evil in _my_ sight.”

“Oh, Saunders, man!” It was the only remonstrance his wife ever made.

“And I’m no ill,” continued Saunders, with the spasmodic shrillness in
his voice. “I’m strong in my bodily health, Mr Oswald, it’s no that: I
gaed to ye ance when my heart was turning--ye ken it’s no that.”

To no other man would Saunders have said so much, but he thought better
of the rigid banker than he deserved. He thought him possessed of his
own stern unselfish nature, without his miseries to bring out its
harsher points.

“Oh, Maister Oswald,” said the wife, “say something till him! speak to
the auld man; bid him no be sae hard on himsel.”

“Whisht, Marget,” said the old man, labouring to steady himself, “haud
your peace--it’s you that disna ken. What would it become me to be but
hard on mysel? wasna I hard on ane--ane--” the spasm returned, the voice
became hoarse and thick, and then broke out peremptorily shrill and
high, “ane that canna ken now how I hae warstled for him, yearned for
him--oh, woman, ye dinna ken!”

And the mother drew back into the darkness and hid her face; she too had
yearned and travailed--but before this agony she was still.

“And gin we win up yonder where we hae nae right to win,” continued the
unsteady, broken, excited voice, “and seek for him amang the blessed,
and find him never--will ye say I hae nae wyte o’t? Me that avenged his
sin upon him, and shut him out o’ my heart wi’ a vow? The Lord mightna
have saved him; it might have pleased the Lord no to have saved him; wha
can faddom the Almighty? but _I_ banished him away, I pat him out of
sound and sight o’ the word that saves, and isna the burden mine?
Marget, I bid ye haud your peace--ye hae nae guilt o’ his bluid--but for
me--”

The old man’s head shook with a palsied vehement motion, the wild fire
shot out in gleams from under his heavy eyebrows; the hard hand with its
knotted sinews distinct upon it was clenched in bitter pain.

The banker sat beside him, awed, embarrassed, incapable; the small
motives--the little endeavours of his own worldly existence, shrank away
ashamed and convicted of meanness in this presence. He could not act as
comforter--he felt a moral inability to speak at all--to presume to
intrude his own indifferent feelings, before this stern avenging wrath
of Love.

And Hope sat looking up with her fearless, reverent, youthful eyes into
the old man’s harshly-agitated face. She laid her soft girlish hand upon
those swollen veins of his.

“Saunders, I think he is not dead.”

The young face was quite clear, brave, undoubting--the girl’s heart, in
which the first breath of the rising woman and the sympathies of
childhood still met and blended, could tread in awe, but without fear,
where the worldly man dared not enter. Peter Delvie’s mother threw her
apron over her head and wept aloud; and after a convulsive struggle to
restrain them, one or two heavy tears ran down the cheek of Saunders.

“Na, na, ye dinna ken--ye’re but a bairn--he’s mine, and I canna hope.”

Oh, secret, hoarded, precious hope, to which the wrung heart clung with
such passionate tenacity! He could not bear that a stranger’s eye should
glance upon it. He whispered it never in any ear but God’s. His wife,
the mother of the lost, knew it not except as she heard it in his daily
prayer; and he denied it. Jealous of this spark of light which still was
in his heart, he denied it rather than make its presence known; and
yet--the light leaped up in its socket--the precious germ quickened and
moved within him. He could not resist the quivering thrill, almost of
expectation, with which he heard those words--the softening tears that
followed them.

“Saunders, God let the prodigal come back that his father might forgive
him. I think He will let Peter come back to hear that you will be
friends with him now. There was a gentleman--Miss Maxwell knows him at
Mossgray--and they sent home word that he was dead; but he was not
dead--he is coming home--and I think, Saunders, that Peter did not die.”

“Is’t true--bairn, bairn, are ye sure it’s true?” cried Peter Delvie’s
mother, “is he coming hame--is he living that was ca’ed dead? Wha telled
ye it was true? If it happened wi’ ane it micht happen wi’ twa--and my
laddie! my ain bairn!”

“It is quite true, for Helen Buchanan told me,” said Hope.

The old man trembled strangely. He held his head supported in his hands,
and was silent. It was the mother who spoke now; the secret treasure of
hope in the old man’s vehement breast would not bear the light.

“And she’s true and aefauld, but she’s wiser than the like o’ you,” said
the mother through her tears, “I see what she meant now; but she wadna
tell me this, for fear I did hope, and my hope was vain. Oh, wha
kens--wha kens but the Lord? but if it happened to ane, it might happen
to twa, and His mercy has nae measure. It wadna be merciful to send him
to his grave wi’ his faither’s wrath upon him.”

The old man’s harsh, stern voice was broken at every word, by the
convulsive sob which he could not restrain.

“Haud your peace, Marget; say ony ill o’ me; but if He slew your dearest
ten times ower, dinna daur to malign the Lord.”

When they left these old, agitated, sorrowful people alone with their
grief and their hope, the banker did not venture to reprove his child
for her want of wisdom. His own mind was full. This youthful faith and
boldness--this clear uplooking to the heavens--rash as it might be, and
inconsistent with worldly prudence, was a higher wisdom than his. He
felt that the girl at his side had met in her simplicity, difficulties
with which he dared not measure his strength--that the grand, sublime,
original emotions were fitter for the handling of the child than for the
man. It made him humble and it made him proud; for the fearless girl’s
voice of Hope speaking to the desolate had touched him to the heart.

“Should I not have said it, father?” said Hope, after a considerable
silence. “Do you think it was wrong?”

“I cannot tell, Hope,” said the subdued strong man, “it may turn out the
best and wisest thing. It may--I cannot tell, Hope--you have got beyond
the regions of expediency.”

He was not able to cope with these things--he confessed it
involuntarily.

“Because Helen did not tell them, father,” said Hope. “If Helen had
thought it was right, she would have told them.”

“Does Helen visit them, Hope?”

Hope had forgotten for the moment the antagonism of Helen and her
father.

“She goes sometimes--sometimes since poor Peter went away.”

“And what does Helen say about Saunders, Hope?”

“I don’t know, father, except that she is sorry; but I mind once what
Mossgray said. Mossgray said it was a good thing that folk were able to
change, and that it was very miserable that Saunders did not change till
it was too late--very miserable--that was what Mossgray said; but
Mossgray should have told Saunders, father, about the gentleman.”

“Mossgray is wise; we are all wiser than you are, Hope,” said the
banker; “even your Helen. And that was what Mossgray said? too late--he
did not change till it was too late?”

Too late--too late to keep the due honour of a wise father, too late
gracefully to approve and sanction the righteous purposes of a good son.
Too late! The words rang into his ear as the musical air of night swept
by in its waving circles, and the moon rose in a haze mild and silvery.
The gentle warmth of change was loosing the chains about his heart.




CHAPTER XII.

    My heart leaps up when I behold
      A rainbow in the sky;
    So was it when my life began,
    So is it now when I am old--
    The child is father to the man,
    And I would have my days to be
    Bound each to each by natural piety.--WORDSWORTH.


The trees stooped grandly over the wan water in all their autumn wealth
of colouring, dropping now and then a fluttering, feeble leaf through
the sunshine and the chill air, which already felt the breath of winter.
The long, yellow tresses of the ash were already gone, the glories of
the sycamore lay so thick upon the ground that you could scarcely see
the damp verdure of the grass underneath for the hundredfold of russet
leaves which covered it; the heavy fir obtruded its spectral branches
through the thin ranks of its neighbours; the red, dry leaves were
stiffening on the oak and the beech; and with the flush of the red
October light not quite departed, there had risen the first pallid
November day.

“No, Lilias, it is not a melancholy time to me,” said Adam Graeme. “I
like these changes--I like to see this calm nature harmonized to our
humanity; not always bare and stern, not always in the pride of strength
and sunshine, but touched with the mortal breath, putting off and
putting on the mortal garments. I like the cadence these old leaves make
as they pass away. There is the kindred tone in it; an analogy more
minute and perfect than those we talk of in our philosophies.”

But Lilias did not answer. She had other thoughts of this perpetual
change. The slight, feverish red was flickering again on the cheek of
the Lily of Mossgray. Softened down into her grave, calm womanhood, was
she the same Lily to whom the wanderer, in yon fair far-away days,
plighted his early faith? and he--how had the universal breath swayed
him in its varyings? That morning she had received a hurried note from
London announcing his arrival; this night they were to meet.

“It is a strange subject this,” said Mossgray, with the smile of his
gentle musings, “for with all my years, and with all my changes, Lilias,
I smile sometimes to see how the old pertinacious self has carried its
own features through all. Up there in my study, where I left Bishop
Berkeley this morning, was it yesterday I manufactured bows and arrows
and dreamed as I made them? So strange it is to mark how this identity
runs through all, how we learn and alter, are experienced, calmed,
changed, and yet are perpetually the same.”

Gentle philosophies! how soothingly they fell upon the timid, anxious
heart beside him.

“But sometimes the change is violent, Mossgray,” said Lilias, “tearing
up old habits so rudely; and sometimes the whole discipline is
altered--the whole life.”

She paused. The old tales of that strange eastern life crossed her
memory, and she could not continue.

“I think these things only develope this obstinate identity more fully,
Lilias,” said Mossgray, smiling. “We come through the process after our
own individual fashion, and carry the distinct self triumphantly through
every change. I think we must turn back, though, and leave our
philosophies if you begin to tremble. Come, we will go home.”

They turned towards the house, but Lilias only trembled the more; and
the old man, as he looked down upon her pale face, beheld it suddenly
flush into brilliant change. She stood still, leaning on him heavily.

“Are you ill? does anything ail you, Lilias?”

“No, no; it is Hew!” said the low, joyous voice; “look, Mossgray, it is
Hew!”

And the old man started violently, as he looked up at the young, strong,
manlike figure leaping down that hillock, with its rude steps of knotted
trees--the happy flushed cheek, the frank simplicity of joy and haste.

“It is Hew!” said Lilias, looking up at the one object which she saw.

Was it Hew Murray, in the flush of his youth and strength again?

Mossgray stepped forward hastily, and grasped the hand of the new comer
in silent welcome; and then the old man turned away and left them alone.

Adam Graeme was not changed; his heart beat as strongly against his
breast as it had done thirty years ago, when he laboured and yearned
for some clue to the fate of Hew Murray. Hew Murray! with what a
quickening thrill of tenderness his old friend turned away from the
young rejoicing face, which brought back the image of his youth.

The old man’s mind was confused; he did not know what to make of this
singular resemblance. “It is Hew!” Was it Hew? Was the romance of the
old faithful servant in their desolate house to have a wonderful
fulfilment after all? The good, pure, gentle Hew, loving God and loving
man, had his Master indeed given him youth for his inheritance?
Singularly struck and bewildered, and with an unconscious expectation in
his mind, Adam Graeme hurried forward towards the house of Murrayshaugh.

The great saugh trees beside it had shed their slender leaves, and were
waving their long arms mournfully, with here and there a feeble, yellow
cluster at the end of a bough, ready to drop after their fellows into
the deep, sombre burn, whose course was almost choked by the multitudes
of the fallen. As Mossgray crossed the old, frail, broken, wooden
bridge, he heard voices beyond the willow-trees, and saw as he drew
nearer two strangers standing together. The old man’s heart beat high
and loud with excited and wondering anticipation as they turned towards
him.

The lady was very thin and pale, and had silvery white hair smoothed
over the patient, thoughtful forehead, in which time and grief had
carved emphatic lines. The face was a face to be noted; serene now, it
had not always been serene--but the storm had altogether passed from the
evening firmament, and light was upon it pale and calm, like the
luminous sky of summer nights when the sun with its warmth of colour and
influence has long since gone down into the sea.

Her companion seemed about her own age; he had the strong framework of
an athletic man, but it was not filled up as a strong man’s form should
have been. You saw, as you looked at him, that he was not strong; that
sickness, or privation of the healthful, free air which now he seemed to
breathe in with so much pleasure, had unstrung and weakened the hardy
frame of this old man; but his hair was scarcely gray, and his eye
glanced from under his broad, brown, sunburnt forehead with the hopeful,
cheery light of youth. The sun had not gone down with him. Over the fair
world which he looked forth upon, the rich tints of an autumn sunset
were throwing their joy abroad; the warm light and brilliant colouring
were in his heart.

They looked at each other, the two strangers and the Laird of Mossgray.
They were all wondering, all uncertain, all embarrassed, for Adam Graeme
had paused before them, and regardless of all formal courtesies they
were gazing at each other.

“Can you tell me if this is Murrayshaugh?” said the lady, with a
faltering unsteady voice.

But that would not do.

“Man, Adam, have you forgotten me?” cried Hew Murray with tears in his
eyes; and the two boys who had grown up together beside that pleasant
water of Fendie were grasping each other’s hands again.

There needed no other salutation. “Man, Adam!” Through their varied,
troubled, far-separated course, the two sworn brothers had carried the
generous boyish hearts unchanged--and simple as the lads parted, the old
men met. “Man, Adam!” there never were superlative endearing words,
which carried a stronger warmth of long and old affection than Hew
Murray’s boyish greeting, bursting from the honest, joyous, trembling
lip that had not spoken it before for thirty years.

“Where have you come from--where have you been? Hew! Hew, what has
become of you all this life-time?” exclaimed Adam Graeme. They were
holding each other’s hands--looking into each other’s faces--recognizing
joyfully the well-remembered youthful features in those subdued ones,
over which the mist of age had fallen; but in Hew Murray’s eager grasp,
and in the happy, gleaming eyes, whose lashes were so wet, the spirit of
the youth was living still.

“He will tell you by and by, Adam,” said the lady. “It is a long
story--but have you nothing to say to me?”

And Lucy Murray held out her hands--the soft, white, gentle hands, whose
kind touch Adam Graeme remembered so long ago.

“Is it you, Lucy?” said Mossgray. “Are we all real and in the flesh?--is
it no dream?”

Hew Murray put his arm through his friend’s--far through, as he had been
used to do, when they dreamed together over the old grand poetic city on
the breezy Calton.

“Give Lucy your other arm, Adam,” said the familiar genial voice, “and
we will tell you all our story.”

Lucy with the white hair took Adam’s arm.

“Have you never been away?--is it all a dream those thirty years?” cried
Adam Graeme.

“Look at me again,” said Lucy Murray with a smile. “No--there are things
in those thirty years too precious to part with. I think you have not
seen my son.”

“Your son, Lucy?--is it my Lily’s Hew?” asked Mossgray.

“Lucy’s Hew--our representative,” said Hew Murray, “was it not a strange
chance, Adam--if we may speak of chances--which brought our boy and I
together?”

“I am bewildered, overpowered,” said Mossgray. “Do you forget, Hew, that
I know nothing?--that this morning I only clung to the hope that you
were living at all as to a fantastic dream--that it is thirty years
since I gave up the sober expectation of finding you again?--where have
you been?--why have you kept us in this suspense? How is it that we have
never heard of you, Hew Murray?”

Hew Murray grasped his friend’s arm tightly in his own.

“Did you ever think the fault was mine, Adam?--but who is this?”

The little old woman, the housekeeper of Murrayshaugh, came quickly
round the gable of the house. They were standing in front of it--and
their voices had startled her.

“Who is it?” Lucy Murray looked at her, with some anxiety. “I think it
must be Isabell Brown.”

Very suspiciously Eesabell returned the scrutiny. The dignified, gentle,
aged lady with her serene face and silver hair brought some singular
thrill of recognition to the old woman. She thought she had seen the
face before.

“I thought it was only gangrel folk. If I had kent it was you, Mossgray,
I wadna have disturbed you; but maybe the lady and the gentleman wad
like to see the hoose.”

She looked at them again with a jealous eye; the feeling was
instinctive. Isabell did not know why she was suspicious of those
friends of Mossgray.

“Do you not know me, Isabell?” said the graceful old lady, holding out
her hand.

Isabell drew back with a slight curtsey.

“Na--there’s few ladies ever came about Murrayshaugh in my time; Miss
Lucy had mair maids than me--ye’re maybe taking me for my sister.”

“There was no one else but Jean, I think, Isabell,” said Lucy, smiling;
“and Jean was not like you. She was as tall as I am, and she had red
hair. We gave her blue ribbons on Hew’s birthday because they suited her
ruddy face--do you mind, Isabell?--and do you not know me now!”

Isabell drew further back--the old woman looked scared, suspicious,
afraid.

“Na, I dinna ken ye, Madam,” she repeated firmly. “I ken few fremd
ladies--I haena been in the way o’ them--how should I?”

Lucy smiled: it brightened her face in the calm of its peacefulness into
warmer and sunnier life.

“If you do not know me, Isabell, do you know Hew?”

The old woman cast a jealous, angry look upon the sunburnt face of Hew
Murray--her tone became abrupt and peevish.

“I’m no to ken wha ye’re meaning, Madam--I never saw ye before nor the
gentleman neither. I’ve lived in Murrayshaugh a’ my days, but the like
o’ me wasna to see a’ the company; and how should I ken the gentleman?”

The sharp black eyes twinkled through a tear affectionate and angry. The
old woman was afraid of these stranger people, afraid of the singularly
familiar faces which she thought she had seen in a dream.

“Adam,” said Hew Murray, “I think _you_ must tell her who we are; or
shall I, Lucy? Do you forget how you packed the Murrayshaugh apples for
me, Isabell, when I went to India? and the moss you put round them in
the basket? I think I have some of it still. But have you really
forgotten--did you think, Adam, that any one could ever forget our
sister Lucy Murray?”

Trembling and considerably excited Isabell stood on the defensive still.

“I never kent ane of the name but Miss Lucy, and this lady micht be Miss
Lucy’s mother. Do ye think I dinna ken? Oh, Mossgray! it’s no’ like you
to let folk make a fuil o’ an auld lone woman!”

Lucy disengaged herself from Mossgray’s arm.

“Come, Isabell, we will let them in. And so you remembered poor Lucy
Murray and thought that time had spared her? But I am older than you. I
used to have my white roses here. What has become of my roses? But I
have something better to show you; my son, Isabell, my young Hew; and
now come, we’ll let them in.”

And Lucy turned along the narrow path to Isabell’s back-door; jealously,
and in sullen silence, the old woman followed her.

“But, Hew, Hew, where have you been?” repeated the astonished Mossgray,
as they waited for the opening of the great door.

“In India, Adam; all this time buried in the depths of India, without
having any power or means of letting you know that I lived; but wait,
wait till we are all together. You shall hear the whole of my story
to-night.”

The heavy door swung open. Lucy had opened it, and Isabell, jealous and
silent, stood behind.

“Come in; come home, Hew,” said Lucy Murray. “Let us enter our father’s
house in peace and thankfulness as we left it with sorrow.”

They entered in silence, and silently the brother and sister went
through the faded, dreary rooms; while the old woman followed them like
a shadow.

Last of all they went into “Miss Lucy’s parlour.” It had no very sad
associations for Hew. He remembered only the pleasant boyish evenings
spent in it, the sadness of the parting, which now, so far away, was
softened into a tender memory, making its scene not mournful, only dear;
and Hew lifted the window and stepped happily out upon the terrace,
while Lucy seated herself on the old high-backed chair at the old
work-table, to ponder on the old times. To her the room was full of dim
days well remembered--girlish griefs and solitudes, struggles which no
one witted of--they seemed to have been dwelling here like so many pale
ghosts, waiting for her coming, to remind her of their former selves.

A touch on her sleeve roused Lucy from her reverie. Isabell was looking
down earnestly into her silvery, gentle face.

“Leddy--Madam,” said the old woman, with a husky voice, “you didna mean
you? You wasna saying that you’re Miss Lucy?”

“I am Lucy Murray grown old,” was the answer, “and that is my brother
Hew, Isabell, whom we lost in India. Could you forget Hew? Do you not
know Hew, Isabell?”

“And Murrayshaugh?” gasped the old woman.

“My father is dead; he lived until ten years ago, and when he died was a
very old man, Isabell, and a gentler one than he used to be. Will you
welcome me now?”

Timidly, and still a little jealous, the housekeeper consented to meet
with a hasty touch the white hand of the old lady whom she feared; and
then Isabell abruptly left the room.

They remained for some time in the same position; Lucy in her old place,
thinking of the past, and Hew joyously passing from room to room,
pointing out the scene of youthful games and merry-makings. Lilias and
the young Hew had speedily followed Mossgray, and now a double
introduction, very proudly and joyfully performed, had to take place,
for Lucy presented her son to Adam Graeme, and Hew Grant bade his mother
welcome her new child. The mother had been afraid somewhat of her son’s
early choice, and thought, as mothers will, that Lilias had but an
indifferent chance of being worthy of her Hew; and Lilias too had
slightly trembled for the meeting; but now all the formidable part of it
was over, and they were already friends.

All her fears were forgotten; it was almost too much for Mossgray’s
Lily. Hew did not think her changed; he was not changed himself; and his
mother received her as her own child. Lilias felt her happiness
overpower her. She went away to seek for Isabell, who had disappeared,
and to realize it all for a moment alone.

Isabell was in the great dining-parlour of Murrayshaugh. She was on her
knees in a corner, with her apron flung over her head, and petulant,
painful sobs coming from under its cover, like the sobs of a child.

“What ails you, Isabell?” said Lilias, stooping kindly over her.

“Oh, Miss Maxwell, what ails me?” sobbed the old woman, whose innocent
romance had perished. “She says she’s Miss Lucy--and I canna deny’t--I
_div_ ken the face; but she’s an aged woman! She has hair whiter than
the like o’ me--and she says she’s Miss Lucy. Oh, Miss Maxwell, that I
should have lived to see this day!”




CHAPTER XIII.

    I ran it through, even from my boyish days
    To the very moment that he bade me tell it,
    Wherein I spoke of most disastrous chances,

           *       *       *       *       *

    Of being taken by the insolent foe
    And sold to slavery; of my redemption thence.--OTHELLO.


Adam Graeme and Hew Murray were sitting together in the large, low room
in the Tower of Mossgray, which they both knew so well. Bishop Berkeley
was still upon the table, but the visitor had no interest in the bishop;
neither was he looking at the chymic tools or the instruments of
science. He was casting long, loving glances into the dim corners of the
room; the old fishing-rods, the superannuated bows and arrows, the
ancient skates, they were all there, those worn-out tokens of the fair
youth which was past.

“And now, Hew,” said Mossgray, drawing one of those large, heavy,
lumbering chairs to the unoccupied side of the hearth, “now, Hew, for
this wonderful history. What have you been doing? where have you been?”

Mossgray placed himself in front of the cheerful, glowing fire; on the
other side stood the low carved chair, turned mournfully aside as if
some one had risen from it newly. Its position had never been changed;
it still stood where the pale sunbeams could touch it, but it was turned
away from the living fireside circle; for the old occupant could never
return to Charlie’s chair. Strangely pathetic sometimes are these dumb
things about us--mournfully estranged and standing apart it touched the
gentle heart of Adam Graeme.

Hew paused to spread his hands over the fire. It was a peat fire, and
the glowing intense red and homelike fragrance warmed the very heart of
the exile.

“Well, you heard I was robbed and killed, Adam,” said Hew; “and so I
was--as near it, at least, as one could be, who is now so blessed as to
be at home. Such things, you know, are not unusual in India. I was
carrying rich presents. I had not a very sufficient escort, and the
chances were all rather that I should have filled a hidden grave in the
desert long ago, than that, even now, I should be beside you again.

“I was very severely wounded. These Affghan fellows do not play at
fighting; but I was not quite dead, as you see, Adam, and I was young.
The old, martial Border spirit had excited me, I suppose, for I stood on
my defence desperately, until there was nothing left but the feeblest
spark of life.

“Why they did not at once extinguish it I cannot tell. Perhaps they had
pity on me for my youth’s sake; at all events, they spared the life, and
after a journey which I shudder still to recollect, we reached their
head-quarters, and my long captivity began.

“Their chief was a hater of the English, stern and desperate--not by any
means the usual type of man to be met with among his countrymen: less
treacherous, less supple, and if not less a tyrant, at least more
tyrannically wise. Liberty for his subjects he did not at all conceive
of, of course, but the wild liberty of despotism was an instinct and
necessity with our Rajah; he hated foreign domination with an energetic
hatred, such as one could not fail to respect, even though one suffered
by it.

“The Rajah fancied my services might be of use to him. You will smile
when I tell you how, Adam. He thought of the De Boignys, and Skinners,
and the native troops they drilled, and despotized, and inspired with
the mechanical heroism of mercenary soldiers; and he believed that I
could drill his wild followers for him, could teach them the unfaltering
British discipline, could form them into mechanical pipe-clayed
battalions like their European enemies.

“And I tried to do it, Adam, for at six-and-twenty one would not choose
to die; if I had known perhaps the long probation which awaited me, I
might have shrunk and desired the end at once; but this end is not
naturally desired ever, I think--I should still choose to live, I
believe, were I placed in the same circumstances again; and I hoped more
warmly then.

“I began to be artful like themselves. I intrigued and schemed to have a
share in the education of the young chief, and at last I attained my
object. Ahmed, the future Rajah--the presumptive heir--I was to have the
honour of teaching him my language.

“And I taught him my language, Adam; and Ahmed at the head of his tribe
speaks English, which has the fragrance of the Scottish border upon it.
I used to smile when I heard him.

“We grew very good friends, my pupil and I. Heathen and stranger as
Ahmed is, he was my boy, Adam, and we came to like each other--so much
so--” said Hew Murray, averting his head a little, “that if I had not
heard of you all at home, and only my place vacant, I scarcely think I
should have cared for my new freedom.”

There was a pause.

“We had but one book,” said Hew, resuming, “my Bible, which I had
managed to preserve with great difficulty. If I had been teaching the
father instead of the son, in that glowing Eastern country, and with
that Bible, I could have made a poet of him, Adam!

“But Ahmed was not the stuff to make poets of. He was cowed and humbled
in his father’s presence--overpowered by a force which he could not
understand, and though he grew up a gentle lad--weak folk learn wiles,
you know--there was the national policy, the tendency to intrigue and
deceit; the defective sense of truth and honour constantly displaying
themselves. I could not hedge my Affghan boy about with the higher
principles, so much more noble and pure than the natural instincts which
yet suit our humanity so well--and I could not give him the savage
virtues of his father; but I only clung to him the more, because he
perplexed and grieved me.”

“A difficult matter,” said Mossgray, “and how about religion, Hew?”

“Ahmed is not brave,” was the answer. “He is a Mussulman still; the
intellectual conviction is not strong enough, ever, I fancy, to break
the old hereditary chains of the creed in which we are born. But Ahmed
is like multitudes of those quick Indian youths in the great cities of
our Eastern empire. He knows it all; the wonderful histories of the old
time with their grand types and emblems, and the wonderful fulfilment
they had. Did any one ever open that little volume, think you, Adam, and
rise from it without a secret conviction that this was true? not my
boy--not my Ahmed. The enchantment of the human life in which its
Divinity is clothed charmed the mind of my pupil; for when one knows how
men describe God, it quickens one’s apprehension of the wonderful
difference when God reveals himself.

“And my boy knows it all, Adam, yet in outward form is an unbeliever
still; and other youths by the hundred in Bombay, and Madras, and
Calcutta, as they tell me, are like him: knowing the extraordinary
intellectual truth, and ready, if but the divine spark came, to burst
the green withes that hold them, and worship the Saviour of the Gospel
under His own free heaven. May it come soon! they are prepared for it,
these lads--may the divine impulse come soon! I would fain know that my
work has prospered, though I never see Ahmed more.”

There was another interval of silence. The subject impressed them both;
but Mossgray had not seen the singular state of society of which his
friend spoke, and did not know how those young, quick, intelligent
spirits, like the old sacrifices on the altars of the patriarchs, were
unconsciously waiting for the fire from heaven, ready to be offered to
the Lord.

In a short time Hew resumed:

“This imprisonment and work of mine continued all the father’s lifetime.
I did what I could to drill his soldiers, and I communicated the Fendie
accent to his son; but my captivity was not lightened--and so we went on
until that fatal affray which made Ahmed chief of the tribe. The lad
liked me, I told you; he felt too, in the consciousness of his new
power, the advantage of securing an alliance with those powerful English
whom his father hated; and so, in compassion, he brought his wounded
captives back to me.

“I knew none of them, but Hew’s face struck me. He was the weakest of
all, poor fellow, and some natural instinct drew me to him--and then,
Adam--then, after my thirty years’ entire separation from all that I
held dear, fancy what my feelings were, when the stranger told me that
_his_ name too was Hew, and that he was Lucy Murray’s son!

“It was a strange meeting;” Hew Murray wiped away the pleasant moisture
which dimmed those happy eyes of his; “and Ahmed had given me my
freedom. That wily, politic boy! I wonder if he was getting wearied of
his old Dominie after all, or if his reluctance to part with me was
real. I wish affection was as blind as they call it, Adam, for I think
my eyes, being so solicitous about him, were only quickened to see his
weakness; but I could not have remained. I could not have done him any
service even if I had remained.

“So I gave him my Bible, Adam, and he gave me jewels and shawls more
than I knew what to do with. I was bringing them all home innocently to
Lucy,” said Hew, with his old frank laugh. “Lucy would have been as
magnificent as a Begum had no one interfered, but we got into a
mercantile atmosphere before we left India, and so some of Ahmed’s
pretty things were converted into coined monies. There is enough to make
the old house habitable, I think; but I have come home as I went away,
Adam. I always thought I should; there has no bilious fortune fallen to
my share; only they have given me a pension--and better than the
pension--give me your hand, Adam--I am at home.”

And the two gray-haired men grasped each other’s hands.

Lucy Murray had entered the room unheard. She came forward with her
gentle, gliding step, and leaned over the carved back of Charlie’s
chair, looking at them as they sat together by the fireside.

“What are you doing, boys?” said Lucy, with the voice and the smile of
her youth. Boys--the young composed grave girl, long ago, had called
them by that name. They were both older than she was; but the assumed
dignity of the earlier maturing woman sat gracefully on her then, as
that smile did now.

“We were talking of that merchant boy of yours, and how he would not let
me bring home Ahmed’s jewels to his mother, Lucy,” said Hew.

“I wonder Hew did not remember the bride that will soon be,” said Lucy.
“Adam, I like your Lily; I was a little afraid--may I tell you? a little
afraid when I began to guess what the conjunction of her two names
pointed to. You look grave, Adam--I should not have said so much?”

“No, Lucy,” said Mossgray, “they are dead; how far we might err in our
early dreams, let us not question. I forget all that is evil when I look
back. Let us lay the errors of their youth beside them in the grave.”

Lucy Murray bowed her head silently in acquiescence, and folding her
hands over Charlie’s chair, pitifully thought of the dead.

The dead who wounded hearts and had no power to heal them--who broke
faith, and went away with their treachery in their hearts to the grave;
who disenchanted youthful eyes and darkened lives which were not bright
before--evils that the doer never can atone--alas for them, unhappy!
Alas for the false--the cruel--the heart-breakers! The hearts broken
will heal; the suffering will pass away like clouds; but woe for those
who inflict--woe for the seedmen of sin, whose harvest shall not fail.

“And you, Lucy,” said Mossgray. “I must question you, and blame you as I
cannot blame Hew. Why have I never heard from you? where have you been?”

“We came from France to Orkney,” said Lucy; “was not that a change,
Adam? and there I have been very glad and very sorrowful. They both lie
yonder--my husband and my father, and there my Hew was born. I should
have written to you, Adam, but I have told you before how long my father
lived, and how he retained his old pride; and when he was dead, and
James was dead, and Hew away from me, forgive me that I was very
listless, very sad, Adam. I could write to no one but my son.”

“Not even to Lilias; when you knew who she was, Lucy?” said Mossgray.

“Not even to Lilias, Adam. I did not know _herself_, and I had some
fears, I confess, of Hew’s early decision on a matter so important; and
when they sent me word that my son was dead, and when I got her simple,
touching letter, I was jealous, Adam, that any one should mourn for him
but myself. I became selfish as grief does sometimes; I would not
believe that any other heart could break as mine did. He was mine--my
son. I was jealous of her, Adam, when I thought she claimed a right to
share with me my boy’s grave.”

“And afterwards?” said Mossgray, smiling. He too seemed in a jealous
mood--jealous for his ward and her new position.

“Afterwards I fell into my old indolent, listless mood again,” said
Lucy; “Hew was coming home--the two Hews--it filled all my mind. I went
to meet them at London, promising myself that I should atone to Lilias
for my neglect, and she accepts my apology. Will not you accept it,
Adam? You do not know how listless and powerless one becomes whose life
has been so overcast as mine. I think it will be otherwise now--I think
it is all past, Adam, and we will travel to the sunsetting together.”




CHAPTER XIV.

     But when he was yet a great way off, his father saw him, and had
     compassion, and ran and fell on his neck and kissed him.--PARABLE
     OF THE PRODIGAL.


“Gang in bauld, man--put on a guid face, and tak the first word o’
flyting. What are ye looking sae wae about?--they’ll e’en be ower blythe
to welcome ye hame.”

“Na, na, Robbie, I ken better,” said the person whom Robbie Caryl was
exhorting; a tall, thin, sunburnt young man, who limped a good deal, and
looked sickly and weak. “Man, I wad rather face a file o’ bagnets than
face my faither and him angry; and I wad gie a’ the Indies gin I had
them, if he would just be friends wi’ me again.”

“Friends wi’ ye?--ne’er a fears o’ him,” said the fisherman. “I’ll just
tell ye, Peter--if he disna be friends wi’ you after a’ you’ve gaen
through, and a’ he’s gaen through himsel, I could maist find it in my
heart to pit him in Tam Macqueen’s boat the first ill day, and let him
set to wi’ the Firth, and try which ane’ll master the tither--for he’s
past dealing wi’ men.”

“Whisht, Robbie, ye dinna ken,” said the young man. “I’ll hear nae
mortal speak ill o’ my faither; if I could but get a word o’ my mother,
hidelins--just to see--maybe he’s mair merciful noo. He’s an auld
man--he’s winning near heaven. Wha kens--he may be turned to mair
mercy.”

Their path lay along the side of the Marsh, and they had just rounded
the projecting corner, on which the comfortable farmsteading of
Seabraes, with its barns and byres, and hay-stacks, stood, looking on
the Firth, with only a swelling bank of close seaside grass between it
and the beach. On this green bank, the stakes of the salmon-nets used
during the summer were piled in a rude pyramid, and past it wound a
byway to Fendie. They were advancing towards the gate of a field through
which the road lay.

A gaunt, high figure stood leaning there, hidden by the hedge. Saunders
Delvie had heard that his son lived and was returned from young Hew
Grant, who last evening had visited the cottage along with Mossgray to
prepare the way for the prodigal; and now, trembling under the cold,
bright November sunshine, the father stood waiting for his son.

The proud old man was glad that he had been warned--glad that he had
time to compose the rigid muscles of his face, and that no man could
guess how his joy boiled in his veins, and how the passionate heart beat
in his breast. He was solemnly dressed in his decent Sabbath suit, and
looked almost hysterically calm, though all his endeavours could not put
away the look of high, suppressed excitement from his twitching eyebrows
and stern-featured face.

“Faither! faither!” cried Peter Delvie, as they came suddenly upon
him--the old man’s efforts at calmness, and his unusual dress, carried
fear to the heart of his son: poor Peter lifted his hand imploringly. “I
was only a laddie--have pity on me--have pity upon me, faither!”

The grim muscles twitched, and worked about the old man’s mouth; the dew
hung heavy on his eyelashes.

“Come hame, lad,” he said, in a voice husky with the effort which
confined his welcome to those seeming indifferent words. “Come hame,
lad, to your mother. What garred ye sleep under a fremd roof this last
night, and your ain bed waiting on ye at hame?”

“I thought I had some skill in men,” said Robbie Caryl, as he turned
back to his cottage, vehemently pulling down his eyelid on pretence that
some particle of the innocent wet sand had entered his eye. “I thocht I
could see through maist folk, but this ane’s beat me. The auld dour whig
o’ a man! wasna I feared to face him when the word came that the lad was
dead? and was I no fleyed for him fenting like the women folk for sake
o’ the joy? Ne’er a bit o’ him--he taks his son hame as canny as I would
tak little Sandy out o’ a dub. Are ye there again in the saut water, ye
wee black dielie? I’ll pin ye in the net amang the grilse, and sell ye
up in the toun for a fat flounder, as sure as the next tide--wife! is
this bairn to drown itsel, ance for a’, the day?”

“I’m sure it’s mair your business, Robbie, to keep the laddies out o’
mischief than mine,” answered Robbie’s wife, who was spreading out the
large stake nets on long ropes to dry, the season of fishing being now
over; “but what hae ye dune wi’ Peter? has he gane hame?”

“I gied him in a present to his faither,” said the fisherman, lifting
the little wet obstreperous Sandy upon his shoulders, “and Saunders
took him as quiet as that cuddie taks the thrissles--so a’ the splore’s
dune, Jean, and I maun awa into the toun wi’ the flounders; whaur’s the
creels?”

“Mr Oswald,” said Saunders Delvie solemnly, looking in at the door of
the banker’s private room, as he passed the bank on his way home. “I hae
gotten back my son; he was dead and is alive again--he was lost and is
found--and I’ve come to offer ye my thanks, Sir, for your guid counsel.
The Lord sent grief sae lang as I called His name to witness my wrath
against the lad, but now, when I hae learned better, behold the mercy!
I’m thankfu’ to you, Maister Oswald--I’m an auld man, but I needed to
learn--and I’m thankfu’ aboon a’ to Him that pat words o’ guid counsel
into your mouth, and garred my heart change--for now I’m taking Peter
hame.”

The banker fell back in his chair as Saunders withdrew, looking and
feeling very much disconcerted; for _he_ had offered no good
counsel--had given no advice. The thanks which he did not deserve fell
on him with the strength of just reproof. The pen fell from his
fingers--the solemn joy and thanksgiving of the stern old peasant moved
him almost as much as his grief had done. It touched the conscience of
the obdurate father of William Oswald.

“And was you killed at the same place as the gentleman, Peter, my man?”
said Peter’s mother, wiping her eyes, as the first excitement of their
meeting subsided. The cottage too was in very solemn order, and the
house-mother had put on her Sabbath gown. There was a grave significance
in these changes.

“Na--I got my wound at anither place, mother,” said Peter, “and they pat
me in the hospital. It was just when I came out that I heard o’ the
gentlemen--that they were gaun hame; sae I gaed to Mr Murray--I minded
hearing aboot him being lost lang ago--and tellt him my story, and he
engaged me to be his servant. His servant, mother; but I think he paid
mair attention to me on the road hame than I could do to him, and said
he would speak to my faither. I wish--I just wish there was onything in
the world the like o’ me could do--no like to make it up to him, but
just to let him see that ane was thankful; but I’m come hame a puir
useless object, mother; they say I’ll be lame a’ my days.”

Poor Peter began to look disconsolate again. The idea of being a burden
on those for whom he would so gladly have laboured, was very bitter to
him.

“Dinna, laddie, dinna,” said Saunders Delvie. “I’m strong and hale, the
Lord be thanked, though I’m auld; do ye think I winna work for ye baith
as blythe, ay, as blythe as the day ye were born--as blythe as I gaed
out to my wark, Marget, the first time I heard the bairn greet in this
house, and kent the blessing was come? Maistly blyther, woman, for I
didna ken the depths then as I do now. What for do ye greet? I tell ye
it behoves us to gie the Lord thanks, and no’ tears, for His mercy.”

But the tears were the thanks; they hung upon Saunders’s own withered
cheek as he reproved his wife.

“Nae doubt but we’ll fend,” said the mother, “nae doubt but we’ll be
provided for. Wha ever wanted yet that put trust where it should be put?
But gang away, Saunders, like a man, and put on your ilka day’s claes; I
canna help it--it comes into my head ye’ve been at a funeral when I look
at ye, and the like o’ thae thochts are no’ for this day.”

And in this cottage and in Mossgray the joy of reünion was the same,
only perhaps so much the greater here, as the passionate spirit of this
old man was more intense and vehement than any other near him, greater
alike in its joys and sorrows.

In Mrs Buchanan’s little parlour those long November evenings were less
busy now; the dreaded Martinmas came and went; the work was finished and
the rent paid.

Six pounds--how small a sum it was--and yet it had swallowed up the
whole half-yearly dividend, and the whole produce of their hard labours.
Helen began to look discontentedly at her best gown, that long-preserved
black silk one, which now that her brown merino was so far gone, must be
worn every day, and for which no substitute could be obtained; and Mrs
Buchanan sighed over the thin shawl as she daintily darned the places
where it began to give way, and smoothed her daughter’s hair tenderly,
in an unconscious endeavour to console her. Mrs Buchanan comforted
herself by thinking that, in spite of the old shawl and the one
much-worn gown, her poor Helen looked a gentlewoman still; but the days
grew chill, and other people were wearing cloaks and plaids and furs.
Mrs Buchanan sighed--she could not venture to make any addition to
Helen’s stock, for the next half-year’s rent began to lour upon her
gloomily already. How was it to be met?

Helen was a good deal overcast with those cares too, but the clouds
never settled down upon her firmament; they came and went, as the
ceaseless breezes drove them hither and thither, a hundred times in a
day; and between every pang of heart-sickness, between those weary
sighings for something happier, which could not choose but fall upon her
sometimes, there always intervened bright glimpses of wayward sunshine,
stirrings of the young uncontrollable life, the nervous strength and
daring of her nature, which rose to meet the struggle when it came, and
when it was not present, happily forgot it all.

It was Saturday, the first Saturday for a long time which she had not
spent with Lilias. But Lilias was joyfully engrossed with the strangers,
and Helen shyly kept herself apart, and felt a shadow of contrast upon
her own sombre, unchanging lot; but just as she began to sink under her
natural dimness, an appearance crossed her eyes, which brought out the
merry, ringing laugh, and flushed her sky with the sunshine of gay
impulse. The appearance was the Reverend Robert Insches escorting a
lady--a very young, very bashful, very pretty little lady, who seemed to
see a good deal of fascination in the handsome head which bent down to
her so graciously. If he was beginning to be cured of the more serious
wound, the Reverend Robert was not cured of the mortification. The
pretty little girl was a Laird’s daughter, by no means disinclined to
smile upon the handsome minister. He was escorting her home--the
traitor, on a Saturday! and chose this road out of the remaining anger
and malice aforethought, which still testified the power of Helen, to
try if he could not mortify her as she had mortified him.

There never was a more lamentable failure. Mrs Buchanan upstairs heard
the ringing laugh break the silence, and then the new impulse of mirth
made itself a voice. The good mother listened with a smile. Helen was
moving about below. Helen was singing, and in another moment the gay
voice and the light foot came upstairs, keeping time with each other in
the pleasant caprice of a cheerful heart.

Mrs Buchanan was working at a particular “fancy work” of her own. She
was darning the carpet. The carpet had been new once, but that was so
very many years ago, that it was growing aged now, and feeble like other
things. There is a pleasure in doing what one knows one can do well. Mrs
Buchanan had a modest pride in her skill for repairing these
dilapidations of time; and the natural delicacy of mind which could not
be at ease while there was anything ungraceful or imperfect around it,
expressed itself after this homely fashion. She did not patronize finery
at all, but the aesthetical feelings were delicately developed in the
good mother’s mind nevertheless, and there was art in her darned carpet.

“Will you come with me, mother, to the Waterside?” said Helen.

“I must have this done: I don’t want to begin to it again, my dear,”
said Mrs Buchanan, looking up from her work; “and besides, it is very
frosty and cold, Helen; wrap yourself up as well as you can, and I will
have a cup of tea for you when you come in again.”

So Helen drew the shawl, which fortunately had been of very sober
colours in its far-distant youth, over her merino gown, and tieing on
her little straw bonnet with its plain brown ribbon, went down-stairs
again, and out into the clear, chill November air. It was rather cold,
but bright and exhilarating, and singing snatches of old songs under her
breath, Helen went happily down the steps of the bridge till she reached
the river-side, far down, towards the waterfoot.

Yonder, quivering under the red, bold, frosty sun, the great Firth
thrills through its full veins with the joyous impulse of life. Far away
among some quiet clouds is Skiddaw and his humbler brother, vigilant,
far-seeing, watching over “the English side,” as it slopes down, in the
serene evening atmosphere, to the brink of the great waves; and there
the winding Fendie water glides into the estuary, and cold at that point
looks the round hillock from which the sun has quite withdrawn, while in
the west that great bluff hill which defies Skiddaw has a glory on him
almost too grand to look at, and the range of far-withdrawing hills, of
which he is the last and greatest, open away in the distance, with
cloudy peaks ascending behind, and clear intervals of sky, like lakes,
between.

The air was very quiet, the river drowsy with the frost, the last old
patriarchal leaves fluttering down one by one. In shady nooks which the
sun had not reached, the morning hoar frost was still white upon the
grass. Calmly over the world stole the slow change, clothing the earth
like a garment with all its blessed uses in it. Calm over all, the great
sun went down unchanging--the wonderful heavens stood constant for ever.
Strange harmony--strange contrast; the eternal yonder, stedfast in the
skies--the immortal here, born to be swayed, and taught, and changed in
right of its humanity--the child of the great heavens.

The clouds were still red in the west, and from the haze of light which
the sun left for a moment behind him, the dark stern hill stood boldly
out. Helen was about to turn back, carrying more sadly the heart that
came hither singing like a bird; for great thoughts were rising in it
now, thoughts which breathe only in the graver air, and hush the voice
of singing.

“Helen!”

How she started! but slowly, only very slowly, her pride permitted her
to turn, to ascertain whence the voice came.

“I have been looking for you up the water,” said William Oswald, coming
up with a warm eager glow upon his face; “and should have gone back
again to your mother disconsolately, had I not caught a glimpse of your
shawl.”

She looked at it very pleasantly; the venerable, aged friend; it was
good for something in this world after all.

“And now, Helen, I have a great deal to say to you.”

Helen did not doubt it. There came upon her a slight tremour; this then
was to be the final combat, hand to hand. He was resolved to conquer;
she saw it in his eye, and for the first time she was afraid.

But at present William Oswald said nothing very warlike; he began to
speak of his work in Edinburgh--his book; and Helen in spite of herself
was interested. He told her of his prosperity; the rising good name; the
modest beginning of fortune; frankly and in full confidence, as people
speak to those who have a right to know, and an interest in all which
concerns the speaker; and Helen turned her head away now and then half
afraid of this quiet appropriation--this strange _right_ by which he
claimed her sympathy.

Other people had been walking that Saturday afternoon beside the wan
water. Far upon the opposite side, Hope Oswald and her father were
returning from Fairholm, where they had been to make a call--a business
call of Mr Oswald’s, in which he had persuaded his favourite to
accompany him.

“Do you know where William went, when we came out, Hope?” said the
banker.

Hope looked up doubtfully in her father’s face; but she hesitated only a
moment. “He went to Mrs Buchanan’s, father.”

Mr Oswald said nothing. William had only been a few hours at home, but
during these had undergone a scrutiny of which he little dreamed. The
banker had been prepared to find his son changed, and had prepared
himself to be contemptuous; but William was not changed: and the old
pertinacity began to tighten its grasp upon his father’s heart.

In a quiet link of the water, not very far from Fendie, yet as still and
solitary as though it were in the midst of a wilderness, lay a little
mossy burying-ground. They are frequent in that Border district;
melancholy, green, dewy places, sometimes clustering their tall, grey
spectral gravestones about the ruined walls of an ancient chapel,
sometimes altogether deserted by the reliques of the old faith--lying
alone, by roadsides and in quiet places, disturbed only when grave
processions come, to add to the number of the names of those who are
dwelling there.

A few fine old trees grew within the enclosure and round it; through a
fringe of long bare willow branches you could see the water. Mimic
forests of moss covered the trunks of the trees, and minute white fungi
specked the green with delicate flower-bells. Hope Oswald had a great
admiration of those lichens--she entered the graveyard to seek some
specimens of them--and her father good-humouredly followed her.

The strong man’s heart was softened; he was more open to kindly
impressions than usual; and as he stood waiting for his favourite child,
his eye fell upon a grave. Nothing had happened in his prosperous life
to bring him near such solemn dwelling-places as this. He had lost no
children; and the memory of father, mother, and brethren, had faded out
of his heart long ago. He had never seen this humble stone before:
“Sacred to the memory of Walter Buchanan;” it moved him like the dead
man’s voice.

With a hushed and whispering tone the river passed by upon its way, and
the willows rustled on the water with a low lamenting cadence. Amid such
sights and sounds as living he would have loved to hear, the gentle man
lay dead; where none could ask or give forgiveness--where none could
alter the unjust anger, the evil sternness, the cruel pride which was
past. The heart of the rigid man began to beat and tremble, as he
remembered the absolute conclusion put to all human doings by that
grave. A little time the glad vicissitudes of change should remain for
himself--and then--

What life soever he had darkened--what truth dishonoured--what mercy
neglected--absolute and stern, the coming death should fix them all
unchangeable for ever.

He was a Christian man, despite of all the weakness which lay in his
boasted strength. He felt that the secrets of his own heart lay bare
before the Eye which judged the dead. Wonderingly Hope Oswald looked
into her father’s awed and changing face. She dared not venture to say,
“This is poor Mr Buchanan’s grave,” as, with simple art, she had
intended, when she first observed it; and in silence he took her hand
and led her away.

His stronghold was broken down--his worldly wisdom failed him. He had
deliberated on all his actions all his life--should he obey the impulse
now?

“Hope,” said the subdued banker, “why did you speak of Mr Grant that
evening we went to see Saunders Delvie? Do you remember? Why did you say
to them that you thought Peter was alive?”

The sensible Hope was perplexed.

“I--I don’t know, father,” she said, with some hesitation. “I just said
it because it came into my head.”

And the prudent, deliberate, elderly banker felt himself constrained to
copy his child.

“Go home now, Hope,” said Mr Oswald, as they reached the bridge. “I have
something to do; tell your mother I shall not be long.” And Mr Oswald
hurried away to say what had come into his head. The obstinate man felt
that it was right, and that he dared not trust himself to consider. Very
grand and successful had been Hope’s experiment--her father determined
to try one of his own.

William Oswald had indeed a great deal to say. They lingered on their
walk, Helen and he, till the dusk stole over the sky, blotting out the
sunny clouds in the west. He was a good general, this grave resolute
William; he skirmished with his restless suspicious adversary, till he
got her into the most favourable position for his decisive movement, and
then he struck the blow.

But her usual bravery had forsaken Helen; against the strong will which
took possession of her now, she could not bring up the buoyant might of
resistance which was so available in her usual struggles. She tried it
faintly, but the proud heart would only flutter, it would not rise to
the warfare; and so poor Helen perforce had to listen, and at the
critical point of the listening, instead of keeping up the combat as
she had hitherto done, could only, by some strange imbecility which she
by no means comprehended, say something which ended in “your father.”

The moment the words were said, the heart did rise in indignation at its
own treachery; but they _were_ said, and she was compelled to listen
again.

“I have not spoken to my father yet,” said William, “but he thinks I
have given up this matter, Helen, and he thinks he is very much
satisfied.”

He had done it now--the enchantment began to relax--the eager heart
sprang up in awakened strength, again resolute not to be conquered.

“He thinks I have forgotten,” pursued the imperturbable William, “and he
thinks he is satisfied; but at the same time, Helen, he thinks I am a
very pitiful fellow, and that there is no one like you in all Scotland.”

They were close to the gate of Mrs Buchanan’s little house. The weaker
belligerent visibly started--not at the singular speech alone, but at a
sight more singular; for there with his hand upon the wicket gate,
awkwardly fumbling about the latch, and looking as shy as ever girl
looked, stood the banker Oswald.

He was just parting with Mrs Buchanan; but Mrs Buchanan’s impetuous
daughter had reached the gate before he could open it. The stern banker
was very much confused; he looked up awkwardly at the unquiet face with
its strange, perplexed wonder--its singular mixture of emotions--pride,
anger, pleasure, even--alas, for Helen’s dignity--a little fun; for the
confusion of the respectable Mr Oswald had something ludicrous in it.

No one would help him; he appealed to William with a glance, but the
uncompassionating William looked on with secret glee, and offered no
assistance. Mr Oswald was very much confused. He wanted to say something
to the purpose, but could not accomplish it; so he said something which
was not to the purpose.

“A cold evening, Miss Buchanan.”

Miss Buchanan’s expectant face was turned full upon him. Her rapid lip
moved unconsciously as he said the unmeaning words. She bowed her shy
graceful bow, and passed him with the swift nervous motion which
belonged exclusively to herself. The banker looked a little blank; he
_did_ want to say something, and he was annoyed that he had failed.

“Helen, my dear--Helen,” said the good mother, with a slight tone of
reproof. Helen paused and turned round within the gate; the slight
impatient motion--the embarrassed frank look--Mr Oswald was pleased that
like himself Helen did not know what to say.

“I came to say,” said the banker slowly, “that my wife intended--I mean
wished, to call to-morrow if your mother would permit her, and that
we--that is, I hope we shall see more of each other in future, Miss
Buchanan--good night.”

He held out his hand--shyly the small nervous fingers met it. The banker
looked dubiously in her face; was it to be peace? but she only said good
night--and Mr Oswald turned away with a doubtful, pleased smile, too
much occupied to notice his son till he stumbled against him, and then
suffered the glad silent grasp of William’s hand, in token of full and
happy reconciliation.

In the little parlour, the tea-tray was on the table, the fire shining
brightly, the light--though there was still but one candle--cheerfully
filling the homelike room; but Helen ran upstairs and laughed a little,
and shed a few bright tears, and came down exceedingly dignified and
proper, endeavouring to persuade herself that she was angry, but
certainly shedding no angry radiance round her, out of her shining eyes.

The old kind face in the old corner; the pleasant, familiar, son’s voice
discoursing of old household things which no one else knew as he did.
Mrs Buchanan wondered at herself how she could ever tolerate
another--could ever dream that any but he might be the future son.




CHAPTER XV.

    Joy, gentle friends! joy, and fresh days of love
    Accompany your hearts!--MIDSUMMER NIGHT’S DREAM.


“Is it to be, Helen?” asked Lilias.

A sudden gravity floated over the lurking laughter in Helen’s eye.

“Is what to be, Lilias?”

The Lily of Mossgray was almost gay now. She put her hands on her
friend’s shoulders, and looked with a smile into her face.

“Because Mossgray particularly desires to know. He will ask you the
question himself if you do not tell me, Helen.”

Helen drew away the gentle hands.

“You have told me very little about your new mother, Lilias. Is she
indeed the Miss Lucy of Murrayshaugh--Isabell Brown’s young lady?”

“My new mother wants to see you, Helen; you must come with me to
Mossgray to-day; and Isabell at Murrayshaugh begins to be reconciled to
Miss Lucy. She was cured of her unbelief,” said Lilias, with a happy
blush and smile, “when she saw Hew.”

“Is he so like what his uncle was?” said Helen.

“He is very like the picture, and the picture was like his uncle--there
is a resemblance still.”

“And, Lilias--for yourself,” said Helen; “do you stay at home--do you
remain here?”

The calm Lilias answered less shyly than her friend asked, though both
of them blushed. “We are going out to the wars again--not to India; I do
not mean to India--but Hew must go and work, Helen; for all these
changes do not make us rich, and Mossgray tells him it is best to climb
the brae and conquer the difficulties with his own hand.”

The flush deepened on Helen’s cheek--the brave stout heart rose; for her
too this work remained; and the notes of the reveilée were already in
her ear.

“You guessed well once, Helen,” said Lilias, “when you prophesied calm
griefs for me; but now that the terror and the pain are overpast--now,
Helen--what do you promise me now?”

“Good times,” said the young prophet, raising her stooping head, “fair
calm sunshine, pleasant skies--and so many to help and comfort you,
Lilias; sometimes sorrows--quiet ones--righteous people going away
hopefully to the other country--but not war; for you will dwell among
your own people.”

“Not always,” said Lilias, with her quiet smile; “not at first
certainly; and for you, Helen?”

“For me!”

She looked away into the vacant air, her eyes absorbed with fairy
visions; not of ease or wealth, or rank--those things so far away and
unknown in which she saw no charm; but the loud heart beat high in her
breast, and the colour went and came on her cheek, like the rapid breath
which seemed to sway it; the hill to climb, the dangers to conquer!

With a sudden start she broke the spell of her musing:

    “He’ll hae misfortunes great and sma’,
    But aye a heart aboon them a’,”

she said half aloud, and tears bright and pleasant were in her eyes.

This was the lot which she saw rising in its unknown glory before her,
the undiscovered country full of grand perils and deliverances--the
storms to be borne, the griefs, the joys--the labours. The bright calm
which suited her friend was not made for her; it was she who was going
to the wars.

“And am I to have a lilac satin frock, Mamma?” demanded Hope Oswald.

Mrs Oswald had just returned from the promised visit which completed the
reconciliation. There was something painful in it, and in the renewal of
the old friendship which had been so long and forcibly restrained. Few
people, even though they are happy people, can look back upon the past
without sadness, and grave thoughts were in the mind of the banker’s
gentle wife.

“You will get whatever is proper, Hope, my dear,” said Mrs Oswald.

But Hope was very far from satisfied. “Whatever was proper” might not
include the lilac satin frock, on which Hope had set her heart; so she
left her mother, who was singularly silent and preöccupied, to discourse
to the banker upon the marriage of Mrs Fendie’s eldest daughter, the
Reverend Mrs Heavileigh, and the dress in which Adelaide made her public
appearance as bridesmaid on that solemn occasion. Mr Oswald was more
propitious than his wife.

“You shall have your lilac satin frock, Hope,” said the banker, joyously
rubbing his hands, “and anything else you like, for there’s not a Fendie
of them all like either of you. You shall have your frock; and do you
want anything else, Hope?”

It was a considerable trial to Hope’s self-control. There were, indeed,
various other things which she should have liked; for instance, Adelaide
Fendie had just got a pair of resplendent bracelets; but Hope restrained
herself.

“Thank you, father, no--unless _you_ wanted me to get something else.”

The banker laughed, and made a private memorandum. Hope’s modest
subjection to the paternal wishes did her no harm.

But the times were by no means ripe for the appearance of Hope’s
magnificent official dress. She had to console herself with expectations
and wait.

The new year came and passed with its festivities. The strangers settled
down in Murrayshaugh; already the old rooms there had grown less dreary,
more home-like--but the jealous Isabell, who suspiciously watched every
new article of furniture introduced into them, had not much reason to
complain. Nothing out of place disturbed the aspect of those familiar
rooms. The old state parlour, which had never been used within the
memory of man, was to be refurnished, to do honour to “the young folk;”
but the son and daughter of Murrayshaugh were content with their old
apartments. A little less meagre than they were, the antique, grave
sombre rooms were little changed.

And when again the spring began to be spoken of by the softening breeze,
preparations were made at Murrayshaugh and Mossgray, and under the roof
of the banker Oswald. The young Hew Grant had been in Liverpool, where
his business was. He was now coming home, and home too came William
Oswald, who had taken a house in Edinburgh, and had been furnishing it,
after the modest fashion which suited his means, with great enjoyment of
the unusual business.

There had been a farewell party in Helen Buchanan’s school-room--a very
large party, comprising the various ranks of girls, who had finished, or
had not finished, their education under her. Some of them were sturdy
young women, only a few months younger than Helen’s own strangely
differing self--some of them very little merry fairies, not reaching her
knee, but all undoubtedly owned her sway, and recognised in this
enchanted circle no authority so high as “the Mistress.” Hope Oswald was
Helen’s aide-de-camp, and assisted on this as on other occasions, and
enjoyed the party greatly; and when the host of ruddy visitors were
gone, Helen Buchanan left the school-room, with grave thoughts and a dim
face, not to enter it again.

“I have got my lilac satin frock, Helen,” said Hope sedately, the next
morning, as she hung over Helen’s work-table.

Helen did not answer. She smiled--a momentary smile fading immediately
into gravity. She herself was making a dress of white muslin, which was
nearly finished; a very simple dress--the last proud assertion of
Helen’s independence.

The banker was greatly inclined to make a favourite of her now; he was
proud of the new daughter who, having conquered and fascinated himself,
was certain, as he felt, to subjugate all the world. There were strange
contradictions in this obstinate rigid man. His son and his son’s fame
did not affect him at all in the same way as these two girls did. Helen
and Hope--Mr Oswald fancied there were not two like them in Scotland.

And about Helen’s bridal dress; a very fine one lay in Mrs Oswald’s
room, waiting until after the momentous ceremony, because the proud
Helen would not accept it now. The banker cast a wondering
half-disconsolate glance sometimes at its glossy uncut breadths, and
thought it would have been a very appropriate bridal dress, and as much
richer than Charlotte Fendie’s as the bride was more graceful; but here,
in the little parlour, sat Helen, making the plain, white muslin one
which her own means could reach.

“Will you let me help you, Helen?” said Hope.

“No,” answered Helen quickly, “it is nearly finished now--I do not need
help--but who is that coming in?”

“Oh, Helen, it’s Miss Insches!” exclaimed Hope, struck with momentary
alarm. She almost feared the minister was about to rush in, and carry
off the prize after all.

Helen laid her work away, and took some other less likely to excite
attention. The minister’s little good-humoured sister came bustling in.

“I hardly expect to be long in Fendie now, Mrs Buchanan,” said Miss
Insches, significantly.

But Helen’s mother was resolved not to be curious--she only said
“Indeed.”

“Ye see,” said Miss Insches, “it’s no to be expected but what a young
man like Robert should think of settling; though I aye tell him it’s
his best way to take his time and look weel about him, for a minister’s
wife, ye ken, Mrs Buchanan, is no like a common body’s; and when a lad
like Robert is well likit in a place, he has great reason to be
canny--for a wife that wasna just richt, would spoil a’.”

Mrs Buchanan looked a little piqued--but Helen’s face was lighted up,
and she was inclined to be very merry.

“You are quite right, Miss Insches,” said Helen.

The good little woman looked at her in some surprise, but Helen’s eyes
were cast down, and she could not see the laughter which danced under
their lids.

“Ay, Miss Buchanan, it’s a serious thing,” resumed Miss Insches, “for ye
see, a minister maunna think about his ain comfort it’s lane, but about
what a’body’ll say; for it’s a wonderful thing to me, how a’body _does_
aye find something to say, whatever folk do; and then forbye being a
_lady_--and I aye make a point o’ that--there’s so much needed in a
minister’s wife. There’s Robert now--he’s as guid a lad as ever was; but
when he’s at his studies, or when he’s dune out wi’ preaching, I’m aye
as quiet as poussie--but it’s no every wife that would have that
discrimination.”

“No indeed,” echoed the mischievous Helen.

“And then Robert, puir man, he’s aye been used to have his ain way,”
said Miss Insches, becoming disconsolate as the thought again entered
her mind that Robert must consent to come down from his shrine, and very
probably should have his own way no longer: “and I’m sure I dinna ken
onybody that deserves’t as weel; for a better lad--”

“Is Mr Insches going to be married?” interrupted Hope.

Miss Insches brightened.

“Weel, I’ll no say--there _is_ a young lady, I ken--she’s very bonnie,
though she’s but a young thing, and they have an unco wark with one
another. Ye ken he maun make up his mind for himsel--I wouldna take it
upon me to advise him to the like o’ that; but I judge he would get na
discouragement yonder, and she’s a lady baith by the faither’s side and
the mother’s. There’s nae saying what may come to pass in a while; but
the noo, Robert’s gaun away to take a jaunt to himsel--he’s just worn
out aye at his duty, puir man, and he’s gaun to London.”

“Weel,” added Miss Insches to herself, as she left Mrs Buchanan’s door,
“if she ever got the offer of our Robert--maybe she didna--but if she
ever did, I kenna what glamour was in the lassie’s e’en, to make her
take that muckle dour man when she might have gotten the minister!”

A little mirth, somewhat strange to look upon, was in Mrs Buchanan’s
parlour when the minister’s sister left; for Helen laughed, and her
laugh had a quivering sound, and tears were in her eyes; and Hope
laughed because Helen did, and in triumph, with some perception that
there were deeper feelings than mirth in those tears, and Mrs Buchanan
smoothed her slightly ruffled brow, and smiled with them, thinking of
the time when “Robert” was great and important in her eyes, as well as
in those of his sister, as of a troublous, uneasy time, already far away
and hidden in the past.

The white dress was completed: they laid its spotless folds on the old
sofa where the spring sunshine fell on it gently, and Hope Oswald laid
two or three of those small fragrant, deep-blue violets which grew at
the door, upon the bridal dress. Pure, simple, hopeful, marking the
conclusion of the chequered youth, which, spent in toil and poverty, had
yet been bright with the sunshine of heaven. Tenderly Hope Oswald decked
it with her violets--gravely the mother looked on; this gentle grasp of
joy brought a strange note of sadness out of the young heart and the
old, sadness which made them more joyful, and showed that the happiness
had reached the depths, and stirred the stillest waters there.

And in her little room alone, Helen Buchanan paused at this new
starting-point of life, to look upon its mercies which were past, its
difficulties which were before her: and with tears upon her cheek,
rendered the thanks and sought the strength which she owed and needed. A
new beginning: to be loftier, purer, braver than it had ever been; and
upon the great Ideal which she sought to reach, the light streamed full
down from the skies. For it was not an ideal, but a resemblance; the
human features of that wondrous Man, who has carried our nature to the
throne of Heaven, and wears his universal crown upon a human brow.




CHAPTER XVI.

    “Now draws he to the west, and noble clouds
    Near to his royal person all the day
    Attend him to his chamber. In his eye,
    His broad, full, fearless eye, no faint or chill
    Is visible; grandly and solemnly,
    As who hath well done work which shall remain,
    He marches to his rest.
    Lift up thy gorgeous curtains, thou great sky!
    That he may enter in. Fall back, O clouds!
    Where now he goeth, he must go alone.”


“I did not think,” wrote Adam Graeme, as he took up the narrative he had
concluded long ago, “that I should ever add more to this record; but
strange things have happened with me, since in this quiet study of mine
I recorded my resolutions here. My resolutions! I find no trace of them
anywhere, except on this page which already begins to grow yellow, and
fade into the guise of old age like its human neighbours. They are gone,
like the winter ice into the bosom of our wan water, pleasantly melted
under the sunshine, into the stream which gave them birth.

“For yonder, with the light mercifully shining on it, stands Charlie’s
chair; and beside me on this table are the first lilies of May, with dew
upon their snowy leaves. They remind me of my child; not of the dead
only, who long ago trod down the early blossoms of my life into the
dust, but of the living Lilias, who is mine, not to be lost to me by any
change. She has gone away from my old house now, with her bridegroom,
but she is still my child. They blend together in my mind, the mother
and the daughter, and in memory and in presence they cling to me, where
neither jealousy nor fear can interpose, always my own.

“And through the open turret window yonder, I hear the sound of a frank,
bold voice; my heir, the manful and stout representative of the old
Graemes. He is not like me, and it is well; his honest, joyous, youthful
strength will raise up the decaying race. I cannot give my thoughts to
Halbert--I cannot bequeath to him my old faculty of dreams--nor would I
if I could. Some one, whom I know not, will inherit from me this
contemplative life. I would not give it, if I had the power with all its
sadnesses and glooms, to Halbert: he has the lands, the old honour, the
good name. I am glad that I leave them to him pure, and that he is true
and honest, and has not the spirit of his father. His father--who can
tell? the greater mysteries of truth might open to him dying, who,
living, heeded them not; but we do not speak of Charlie Graeme. Humbly
in awe and silence we leave him in the great Hand which has taken him
away; ourselves having pity on the dead.

“For Hew and Lucy are with me again, gray-haired people in their
father’s house; and Lucy’s son and my Lilias are our common hope. The
three of us have had diverse lots, parted in far distant places, exposed
to strange fortunes; but we end as we began, with kindred aims and
kindred fancies, and travel together towards the one conclusion of
mortal life, which is the same to all.

“Hew’s troubles have been those of captivity and exile. To his warm
heart, which always has answered so tenderly to voices of kindred and
friendship, a very hard and bitter form of the inevitable discipline;
but he has borne it bravely, and the frank, simple, guileless spirit has
come unaltered through all. When we wander together by our Waterside,
when I feel Hew’s arm diving through mine as it used to do thirty years
ago, when I hear his unchanged voice addressing me, ‘Man, Adam!’ I close
my eyes and thank God. We are young again; the intervening time floats
on the air about us, a dream which we have dreamed together, and the
enthusiast lads who leaned over yonder wall upon the dim hill-side,
looking out dreamily over the royal city, are here, on the banks of the
home river, as hopeful, as undoubting, and scarcely wiser than when they
parted.

“Heavy wisdoms that come with years, dark experiences that close men’s
hearts, let us be thankful that they have not fallen on us--that we are
as we were; carrying young hearts with us, into the purer country.

“Lucy has had sorrows other than these. Long patience, the silent burden
of slow years and quietness such as only women bear; tending the
weakness of the stern old man who lived so long in his solitary pride,
and after some year or two of tranquil gladness--no longer, I
think--weeping the tears of a widow. We reverence her calmer peace, as
we reverenced her youthful gravity long ago, when we were boys, and when
the budding woman called us so, and was gentle to us in her young
wisdom. It is true her hair is white as the leaves of my lilies, and
that her cheek is colourless, and has something of the ashy hue of age;
but Lucy, like Hew, is unchanged. Graver, wiser, more serious still than
we are, smiling the old gentle composed smile at our boyish fancies,
speaking the old words of quiet counsel, directing us in the old calm
playful fashion. Isabell at Murrayshaugh, simple, kind heart, wept for
the broken romance, the fair, lost Miss Lucy: but I, who knew her better
than Isabell, cannot think thus, for she is still Lucy Murray, the same
as she ever was.

“It is some time since we married our children. He is a good youth this
Hew of ours, worthy of his mother and of my Lily. My good Lily! I miss
her, now that she has left me, perhaps more than if all her time of
dwelling here had been happy. I remember the long sad days in which my
poor child parted with all her hopes, almost with regret. It seems to me
sometimes that there was a blessing in this grief.

“I had fainted unless I had believed to see the ‘goodness of the Lord in
the land of the living.’ Great hope and glorious, which speaks of
another country--grand as it is, it does not fill up all the
requirements of this humanity. To live, we must have some hope for the
mortal life, some expectation warm with the human blood. It is only men
who divorce and separate the two--the wonderful grace of Heaven gives us
both.

“They are to come to us when the autumn comes, and it is coming apace. I
agree with them that it is right--that Hew while he is young is doing
well to work what work he can, and provide for days of home-dwelling;
but I feel that the absence of Lilias makes a great void, and I may
innocently wish that this needful work was done, and that we might keep
them here beside us.

“The other youthful people have begun their course pleasantly; fair fall
this sunny power of change: I felt that Mr Oswald’s resolution must come
to an untimely end, like mine, and it is very well that he has yielded
gracefully, before it was too late.

“The changed and the unchanged, how they blend and mingle. We are here
again, we three, in these old houses, by this wan water; scarcely a tree
has fallen, scarcely an acre of those far-spreading banks has been
altered, since we were here in our youth, and in our youth our most
cherished fancy was to return and meet thus again. Thus, nay, not thus;
other dreams were in each heart of us. We thought of others joining us
here, in the time of which we smiled to speak, when we should be old. We
thought of prosperous lives, of names grown famous, of households and of
heirs; but one by one, the old hopes have gone down to the grave of
such, and only the oldest of all survives. We are here, we are together,
but not as we dreamed.

“Solitary, aged people, alone but not sad; for now we speak of One, of
whom then we spoke not ever, of Him who has been with us through all
this length of way, the One known when all were strangers, the One
present when all forsook us. We speak of Him in His tenderness so near
to us, a man touched with the feeling of our infirmities, and we speak
of Him in awe and love, as God over all, blessed for ever. A little time
and we shall enter His presence, hopeful to be like Him, seeing Him as
He is; and while we remain in this fair earthly country, we speak of the
heavenly which is to come. Another country--perhaps indeed this familiar
world with its change and fiery ordeal past; and again I say I love to
think it will be so. I love to anticipate the time when I may watch and
wait _yonder_ for that sublime morning which shall restore to me my
human frame, my human dwelling-place; and when I look upon this water,
my faithful, long companion, I think I see it flowing on under the
sunshine of a grand and holy prime, for which these ages of tumult and
anguish and misery have but ripened and prepared this world.

“And while we remain here, human gladnesses abound about us, and hold us
fast in their silken chains. We are much together; we live abroad under
the free heaven, my brother Hew and I, and in the evening we call out
Lucy to see the sun go down.

“Bravely going down in light and hope to the other world which waits for
him; and thus we travel in peace and happily, on towards the west which
comes nearer every day--on to the setting sun!”


THE END.


JOHN CHILDS AND SON, PRINTERS.

Typographical errors corrected by the etext transcriber:

simplicity, philosphers=> simplicity, philosophers {pg 9}

many distinctions as as=> many distinctions as {pg 71}

mighty precints=> mighty precincts {pg 95}

Helen--Miss Buchanau=> Helen--Miss Buchanan {pg 103}

more graceml=> more graceful {pg 181}

as Saunders call them=> as Saunders calls them {pg 203}

after an inval=> after an interval {pg 253}

in was a new hysteric=> it was a new hysteric {pg 269}

an outer and in inner=> an outer and an inner {pg 284}

Lucy Murray bowed ber head=> Lucy Murray bowed her head {pg 301}

in some suprise=> in some surprise {pg 318}

Isabel at Murrayshaugh=> Isabell at Murrayshaugh {pg 322 x 2}






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